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Foreword - Spring / Summer
Welcome to the new issue of On The Level!
I’m writing this letter as I sit cross-legged in my slightly dilapidated summerhouse, surrounded by unpacked boxes (I moved house over two years ago), a few curious ants, and far too many cobwebs for my liking. Creepy crawlies and clutter aside, it sure beats working indoors, and with both the doors flung open wide, I can feel the heat of the sun, hear the chatter of the magpies in next door’s garden, and enjoy the occasional cooling touch of a gentle breeze. For someone who often experiences the agonies of writer’s block, being outdoors – or as close as I can be – really helps to unlock something inside and aids creative flow.
Being outdoors, being mindful, and being able to connect with nature has so many mental health benefits, particularly for people living with bipolar. We’re being blessed with phenomenally sunny weather at the moment, so there’s even more opportunity to make the most of the great outdoors! You can read all about how nature can support our mental health in Research Corner on P10
For one of our members, his fishing line has become a lifeline. On P17, Grant Mackay shares how fly fishing is a powerful tool in the management of his bipolar – and why the riverbank provides him with calm amongst the chaos. If you’ve ever fancied giving
fishing a go or often thought about dusting off your rods and pulling on your trusty waders again, Grant’s story is sure to inspire you!
Speaking of inspiration, we have some exciting updates on our ‘Time For Transformation’ conference (Oct 9) on P23… we’ll be hoping to inspire passionate discussion and solutions on the day, and we’d love for you to join us to add your voice!
From a personal essay about steady progress to successful fundraising news, there’s plenty more to enjoy in this feel-good issue and we hope it inspires you to reap the natural benefits of bonny Scotland during this sunny spell. Long may it continue, please!
Don’t forget – if you have something you’d like to share with On The Level, please email editor@bipolarscotland.org.uk with the subject line ‘On The Level’. Our next edition will be out on Wednesday 30th July; we need all contributions in by Monday 14th July.
Sian Dolan
Mood & Muse
Research Corner
Mood in Bloom: How Nature Nurtures the Mind.
Kerry Adam explores the bipolar genius of Robert Burns. 7 10 17
ON THE LEVEL CONTENTS
Edited by Jamie Stewart and Sian Dolan
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TRIGGERED!
David Carr reflects on the importance of trigger warnings – and why they matter.
Casting For Calm
Bipolar Scotland member, Grant Mackay, shares how fly fishing keeps him grounded.
Disclaimer: On The Level works in good faith with a range of subject-matter experts and official bodies to produce accurate and well-researched content. While every effort is made to ensure the reliability and accuracy of the information presented, errors may occasionally occur. Where necessary, we will issue corrections or clarifications.
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You’ll learn practical skills, connect with others, and take steps toward more confident self-management. Places are limited – email training@bipolarscotland.org.uk to sign up today!
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Correction: Article on Detention and the Mental Health Act
issue of On The Level, may have caused confusion or misinterpretation. The information was taken from the Mental Welfare Commission for Scotland website, who have clarified that in some cases, legal terminology may not have been as clearly presented as intended, due to the need to balance accuracy with accessible language.
They also note the point regarding the use of the term “Mental Health Act.” This was an editorial decision to keep the text concise.
The full title — Mental Health (Care and Treatment) (Scotland) Act 2003 — is used on first mention, followed by a shortened version.
The Mental Welfare Commission for Scotland has confirmed: “We will review the content to ensure it is as clear as possible while remaining accurate and legally sound. We will also doublecheck the information for accuracy and make any updates that might be needed.”
Bipolar Scotland is committed to providing accurate and clear information to our readers. We apologise that we fell short on this occasion.
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Your space to share your creative writing. If you’d like to submit a poem, story or piece of writing, please email us on info@bipolarscotland.org.uk with the subject line ‘On The Level Submission’.
John James, author of ‘Clarity to Chaos – and Back’ (featured in our March issue) shares an update on his progress…
Three Months On, by John James
I find myself three months on from being released from a 28-day detention under the Mental Health Act. I never thought I would ever be sectioned. That was a turn up for the books.
I suppose I have to laugh it off and come to terms with the shame. That’s not always easy, but it feels like the obvious solution. Key learnings from the whole experience include recognising that not everyone needs to know your business. Most people are far more concerned with themselves than with you, so there’s no need to worry about what they might be thinking. Bouncing back from such an event isn’t quick or straightforward. At first, it’s like walking through treacle – but it does get easier with time.
You just have to take small steps forward and make sure you have lots of things to look forward to. Filling your days with ordinary life – work (being useful to others), exercise (for your mental as well as physical health), family time, and moments of recreation – helps to keep your mind occupied and prevents you from dwelling on the past (and whatever just happened).
During a hypomanic episode, you will inevitably do things that make you cringe later. I tend to go on a rampage, speaking to new people at great length, full of exuberant enthusiasm and relentless energy. My decision-making becomes questionable –now even I stop trusting it. I often pursue new business ideas, experience a stream of fleeting thoughts, and find myself caught in delusions of grandeur. At the time, it all feels fun and exciting. Looking back, though, it can be painful and anxiety-inducing to recall what
happened – or to be reminded of it. The reality after a breakdown is that life isn’t always thrilling. As mundane as routine can feel, it’s a strong safeguard against selfdestructive behaviour and things spiralling out of control.
Medication has been one of the hardest parts. I know I’ll need to take a high dose of Lithium every day for the rest of my life. Coming to terms with that – and with taking Quetiapine, an antipsychotic, alongside it –takes time. It often leaves me groggy and, in some ways, lacking motivation. Weight gain is another inevitable side effect.
Still, I take some comfort in knowing the antipsychotic is mainly used for sedation and to prevent a severe low, which can follow a hypomanic state. In my case, it is not forever, and hopefully I can come off it again soon. I’m grateful to have access to a Community Psychiatric Nurse (CPN), a good doctor, and regular check-ups including quarterly blood tests and an annual ECG. But these also serve as constant reminders that I am living with a mental health disorder – and I’m not sure I want to think about that more than I have to.
All I want is to get on with life and prosper. To live in a way that’s fun, healthy and happy –and to do honourable things. In the meantime, I focus on staying level
Burns & Bipolar: Burns & Bipolar: The Sensibility of Genius
by Kerry Adam
Robert Burns once called his depression an “incurable taint.”
Today, we might call it bipolar — and see our Bard’s brilliance in a new light.
In 2009, the people of Scotland were asked to vote for ‘The Greatest Scot of All Time’ – an august title, given the incredible talent that has come from these shores. This prestigious title was subsequently bestowed on Robert Burns, the ‘heaventaught ploughman’ of Ayrshire, whose words and music are still celebrated the world over. His ode to friendship, ‘Auld Lang Syne,’ is, in fact, the most sung song in the world – after ‘Happy Birthday’, that is.
Touched With Fire
But what’s the link between Burns, The Ploughman Poet, and bipolar? We know of the connection between bipolar and creativity, and this was explored in Kay Touched With Fire.’ Jamison, a psychiatrist who lives with bipolar herself, undertook the task of retrospectively diagnosing historic individuals of note, many of whom were great thinkers and poets, and one of them was Robert Burns.
In 2019, intrigued by Jamison’s research, Dr Moira Hansen completed a PhD under the guidance of The Centre for Robert Burns Studies at The University of Glasgow, looking into Burns and examining whether he too lived with the condition. She did extensive research into his life and works – particularly his prolific correspondence – and concluded that today Robert Burns would fall under the diagnostic umbrella of bipolar, specifically bipolar 2.
Burns & his ‘Blue Devils’
In terms of depressive episodes, there are times in the poet’s life where he was unable to lift a pen, referring to his mood at these times as an ‘incurable taint’, ‘diseased spirit’ and ‘blue devils.’ Sir James Purves Stewart, a physician who examined Burns’ mental health, lays out a summary of various episodes of melancholy in the poet’s life, as well as episodes of what seem to be unusually elevated mood. He concluded that: ‘Burns suffered from a characteristic form of recurrent nervous and emotional instability [...] belonging to the so-called cyclothymic type’.
Although periods of depression dulled his creative spark, Burns did correspond with several friends during these times. In a letter to Dr John Muir, he refers to his ‘constitutional hypochondriac taint’, an indicator of him having struggled with some form of mental illness. This ‘taint’ is often mis-attributed to alcohol in Burns’ obituaries however many academics argue that he was, rather temperate for the time.
The Bard’s Highs & Lows
Moira Hansen states in her thesis words from
the biographer, Currie – ‘Burns was subject very early to those depressions of mind, which are perhaps not wholly separable from the sensibility of genius’, and that he ‘displays the philosophic melancholy which so generally forms the poetical temperament… alternating moods of exaltation associated with intense energy, followed by depression and inactivity.’ Something that anyone with lived experience of bipolar can relate to.
Burns also frequently displayed symptoms of hypomania, and had recorded episodes of impulsive decision making, excessive alcohol consumption and numerous improper sexual relationships and encounters. But, on the ‘flip side’ of hypomania, he was hugely charismatic and creative during these times. Maria Riddle, a friend of Burns, said after his death:
‘None certainly ever outshone Burns in the charms […] of fascinating conversation, the spontaneous eloquence of social argument, or the unstudied poignancy of brilliant repartee’ and ‘such was the irresistible power of attraction that encircled him […] he never failed to delight, and to excel.’
It seems that Burns’ creative output also become a vehicle for exploration of disordered mood, allowing him to come to terms with the nature and impact of the extremes. There is an apocryphal story of Burns’ time at Ellisland Farm in Dumfries, a particularly productive spell in terms of his writing of poetry and song. The story goes that, pacing back and forth beside the River Nith, Burns wrote the entirety of his greatest narrative work ‘Tam O’Shanter’ in a single afternoon, which is roughly the amount of time it takes to recite the entire poem. True or not, it certainly indicates enhanced creativity and productivity in this period, indicative of hypomania.
Breaking the Bard’s Silence
Moira Hansen did receive some criticism from Burnsians who struggled to equate their beloved bard with mental ill-health, but, overall, her research was well-received and opened a very important conversation about bipolar, especially with those who had no existing knowledge or experience of the condition.
Burns’ friend Maria Riddle said: ‘Genius never was free from irregularities,’ and Hansen’s PhD allows us a glimpse into the mood and mind of one of Scotland’s favourite sons. She concludes that a retrospective diagnosis ‘… adds to the appreciation of how his moods are as important in understanding the man behind the poetry as other, better studied aspects’ of his life. It provides
a lens for novel readings of his creative work which adds further insight into his lived experience of disordered moods, allowing these to sit alongside existing interpretations… thus opening up his works in way which has a resonance for modern readers.”
Written by Kerry Adam
A Patron of the People:
Robert Burns Joins Bipolar Scotland
Bipolar Scotland proudly announces our new partnership with the Robert Burns World Federation, officially naming Robert Burns as our charity patron. As Scotland’s national poet, Burns’ legacy continues to inspire generations with his creative genius, compassion, and unflinching honesty. Increasing scholarly research, including the work of Dr Moira Hansen, suggests that Burns may have experienced symptoms consistent with what we now recognise as bipolar. His letters and poetry reflect profound emotional depth, soaring highs, and despairing lows — echoes of an experience familiar to many within our community.
By embracing Burns as our official patron, this partnership honours the humanity behind the icon. It affirms the importance of mental health awareness and reinforces our commitment
to reducing stigma, fostering empathy, and empowering those living with bipolar. Together with the Robert Burns World Federation, we aim to celebrate Burns’ enduring relevance while sparking national and international conversations around mental health, creativity, and resilience.
Look out for upcoming joint initiatives, event collaborations, and shared campaigns that will highlight this exciting new chapter. We are thrilled to bring Burns’ voice into today’s mental health dialogue—and to do so in the spirit of solidarity, strength, and transformation.
We’re delighted to be welcomed into partnership with the Robert Burns World Federation, who have officially gifted us the Burns Coat of Arms as a symbol of our shared commitment – and in honour of Robert Burns as our official patron.
Research Corner
Mood in Bloom: How Nature Nurtures the Mind
As summer arrives to Scotland, many of us will naturally spend more time outside as the days get longer, and the weather (hopefully!) gets warmer and sunnier. Whether its spending time in the park, heading to the Highlands for some hillwalking or meeting friends for a walk, spending time outside surrounded by nature can, anecdotally, have a big impact on our mood and wellbeing. However, it can be difficult to quantify how nature affects our mental wellbeing. Engaging with nature looks different to different people, and researchers have to decide not only how they measure ‘nature engagement’, but also how they measure ‘mental wellbeing’. For example, nature engagement could be defined by the number of hours spent outdoors, or the type of activity being done in nature, or whether someone was at the beach or in the woods. Mental wellbeing could be defined as a score on an anxiety scale, or by asking people how happy they feel, or by measuring how well people are coping and functioning with day-to-day life. The huge range of nature engagement possibilities and measures of mental wellbeing mean that it can also be difficult to compare the impacts of different types of nature engagement to one another, and to make strong conclusions about the benefits, or disadvantages, of engaging with nature.
Despite these challenges, Professor Pete Coventry and colleagues have been advancing our understanding of the benefits of nature activities on mental health for people with and without mental health conditions. And who knows – after reading their findings, maybe you’ll be inspired to get involved in a nature-based activity this summer!
How Nature Can Support Mental Health – and What We’ve Learned Since
By Professor Pete Coventry
Spending time in nature can make people feel better. Our past research systematically reviewed 50 studies that checked if organised nature-based activities like gardening, walking in forests, or outdoor therapeutic activities like mindfulness and
But what about real-world settings, like the NHS?
That’s where our new work begins. We recently looked at a big green social prescribing programme run by the NHS in Humber and North Yorkshire. This programme gave people with mental health problems the chance to join nature-based activities through a recommendation from a link worker. We followed more than 170 people who joined the study. Most had feelings of anxiety, depression, or similar challenges. After 5 to 12 weeks of using green social prescribing, people reported
Why might this matter for people with bipolar?
While our studies did not specifically focus on people with bipolar the findings could be useful and important for these individuals. Bipolar includes changes in mood, energy, and motivation. To handle these highs and lows, it’s important to find balance, structure, and be aware of early warning signs. Activities in nature can help with this. Things like gardening or walking regularly can create a routine without being too much. Peaceful outdoor places can cut down on too much excitement and help people manage emotions when they start to shift. Activities that involve movement at a comfortable speed can also aid mood control without causing too much energy. There’s also the social part. Nature-based interventions are often delivered in relaxed spaces with opportunities to connect with others. This can help reduce feeling alone and build self-assurance. Being in natural light and spending time outside can also help improve sleep and energy patterns. These patterns are often affected in disorder. In short, nature-based interventions are not meant to take the place of good clinical care. They can go alongside and complement it. These interventions offer a hopeful and practical way to support people’s wellbeing and potentially support people to manage the challenges of disorder.
About the Author
Pete Coventry is Professor of Environment and Mental Health in the Department of Health Sciences, University of York, where he leads a portfolio of research focusing on the mental health benefits of engaging with nature-based interventions.
LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ peter-coventry-36a3b4319/
Read the systematic review research paper: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/ articles/PMC8498096/#sec4
Read the green social prescribing paper: https://onlinelibrary. wiley.com/doi/10.1155/ Image: Vecteezy.com
‘Why didn’t you follow through with your feelings of self-harm?’
My DWP interviewer tossed a grenade into my composure with a callous question that was hugely inappropriate on so many levels.
I turned pale. My head swam.
‘This is hard for me…’ I eventually stammered, to which his sharp comeback was ‘I don’t write the questions!’ – more concerned with selfjustification than with my wellbeing.
To answer the question – intrusive, irrelevant – I had no choice but to relive thoughts and feelings from some of the most distressing parts of my life. Suddenly, precipitously – I was there again.
Triggering of this intensity rarely happens to me. There have been painful episodes in my bipolar life that I – largely – suppress and move on. I am only overwhelmed when they come up on me suddenly and without warning.
Trigger warnings – and their sibling, content advice – have become strangely controversial. They have somehow been bundled in with woke.
The very concept of triggering has
David Carr
TRIGGER WARNING!
Content advice: this piece includes discussion of suicidal ideation which some readers may find difficult.
become part of the culture wars, as edgelords smirk ‘TRGGRD!’ at anyone who fails to acquiesce to their species of humour. A stereotype goes that Gen Z especially are mollycoddled snowflakes who would sooner see a book or film cancelled than to be mildly discomfited by something they might read or see.
There was a minor stooshie in 2023 when the University of Glasgow announced that it was including content advice with its reading lists. This was held by some to be infantilising students and would hold them back from studying challenging texts.
In fact, content advice is nothing new. For years it has been routine at the start of films and TV programmes, without anyone batting an eyelid. Was
“I largely know how to navigate safely around my traumas. But there are jagged rocks beneath the surface, and I like to know when they’re coming.”
literature a step too far?
Difficult subjects abound in literature. Art should challenge. But a survivor of childhood sexual abuse may perhaps find Lolita –literary masterpiece though it is – a more challenging read than their untraumatised peers.
This is not to say that such a student shouldn’t, can’t or won’t read Nabokov, a person of colour Conrad, a depressive Plath. It is simply to allow that we all come with backstories, some more painful than others. It is only fair that we allow all students to approach the reading list from a position of equity.
Difficult subjects are not necessarily triggering as such. I can read a sad story without an extreme reaction. Indeed – as in literature, as in life –working through one’s traumas can be healthy. But you do have to be in control.
Last year, I was unfortunate to watch a play, A Little Life. The theatre had put
up small, inadequate content warnings saying that the play dealt with ‘difficult subjects.’ They weren’t kidding. There were graphic depictions of – I feel another content warning is appropriate here – suicide, self-harm, rape including child rape, anorexia – and more –all depicted up close.
My reaction to these difficult subjects was wholly unexpected. At first, I remained in shock. I discussed the play with my companions, and we agreed that it was a pointless and exploitative miseryfest. To that extent, I engaged with it as art – if bad art.
But the following day the flashbacks started – intense, vivid, deeply troubling. While I have never attempted suicide, I have come close. The play had happened on all of my planned methods. Plural.
The intensity and unexpectedness of the flashbacks prompted me to speak to a Community Psychiatric Nurse, who broke the news that I might typically continue to experience aftershocks for two weeks. Which I duly did.
I am not on eggshells. I can generally deal with difficult subjects – even suicide. At times of my choosing, I have discussed my suicidal ideation within the safe spaces of my mental health team and my support group. I am discussing it here.
I largely know how to navigate safely around my traumas. But there are jagged rocks beneath the surface, and I like to know when they’re coming.
Most of us, most of the time, can handle difficult emotions. They are part of the human condition. But be aware that some of us relive our traumas. Trigger warnings are a kindness.
Jamie’s Diary
Hello everyone,
What amazing weather we are having!
As I stated in my last diary, I have been recovering from a few minor health problems but that hasn’t stopped me being productive. I have had a kid’s book published (I may write about this in the next issue!) and I am very proud of that. Life is good.
Last month, my parents came over and made me a wee patio at the front of my house, so I have somewhere to sit when the sun is out, and I love it! I am trying to chill out more and be kinder to myself and this is helping me do that. I am not amazing at shutting this brain of mine off but trying is better than not trying, and I get some calm moments in the sun.
I have needed more support lately due to a few difficult things and a few
challenges. I am grateful for the help and support – I am a lucky man and I am on the up!
I hope as you read this you are being kind to yourself and getting some sun. I need that vitamin D – it enriches the soul.
Take it easy, friends – let’s have a great summer!
Much love, Jamie xx
“If Our Efforts Help One Person, Then It Makes It All Worthwhile!”
Claire, Joanna and Leigh laced up their trainers and took on the Glasgow Kiltwalk with a powerful purpose — to raise funds and awareness for Bipolar Scotland. Together, they raised an incredible £2,519!
What inspired you to take part in the Glasgow Kiltwalk on behalf of Bipolar Scotland?
C – “I was inspired to support the good work of Bipolar Scotland, having lived with a diagnosis since 2008 following the birth of my son.”
L – “My childhood friends asked if I would do it with them to raise money for Bipolar Scotland. I loved that they were up for the challenge and Bipolar Scotland is a charity close to our hearts, so I jumped at the opportunity!”
How did your friends, family, or community respond to your fundraising efforts?
L – “Everyone was so supportive and generous – even a kind stranger in the local shop gave me her change to donate! Those donations helped keep us motivated.”
J – “I am forever grateful for the support we have received for our fundraising efforts. We thought raising our initial £600 would be an achievement, but to raise over £2000 has been astonishing and greatly appreciated. It has not just been about the fundraising – it has given us the opportunity to engage in conversations and start positive dialogues about bipolar, too. “
What message would you share with others considering a similar fundraising journey for mental health causes?
J – “I would say go for it! There can never be too much mental health awareness, and the more people involved, the better. I’d also say if you are planning on doing the Kiltwalk make sure you have good walking shoes and Compeed!”
C – “Go for it as it’s very rewarding and you get a great sense of accomplishment when you cross that finishing line!”
L – “These charities need our help and if our efforts help one person, then it makes it all worthwhile!”
at the finish line!
Bipolar Scotland’s Jenine and Kimberley joined the fundraising efforts and had a fantastic day meeting our lovely supporters before crossing the finish line to the supportive cheers of family and friends!
Over £5k was raised on the day and we are so very grateful to each and every person who walked over 22 miles in the rain to raise these vital funds for Bipolar Scotland.
SIGN UP FOR KILTWALK!
Come walk with us to raise funds for everyone’s favourite small yet mighty charity!
ABERDEEN: June 1st
DUNDEE: Aug 17th
EDINBURGH: Sep 14th
Visit thekiltwalk.co.uk for info.
DON’T FORGET!
We can help cover the costs and provide Bipolar Scotland t-shirts for the big day – email Jenine on jeninep@bipolarscotland.org.uk to find out more.
Celebrating
CASTING FOR CALM GONE Fishing
For Grant Mackay, the river isn’t just a place of leisure—it’s salvation. Diagnosed with bipolar after years of struggling, Grant found unexpected peace in the rhythm of fly fishing. Here, he talks candidly about how nature helps him manage both depressive and manic episodes, and how sharing the water with others has opened new doors…
Image: Vecteezy.com
“I’ve always suffered from depressive episodes ever since I can remember…
In my early 20’s, I started to get severe lows to the point that I didn’t want to be here anymore. These would last for months at a time, and the doctors didn’t know what to do with me. It’s all very clear looking back that this was the start of my bipolar journey.
I had a complete breakdown when I was around 35 years old – to the point my wife thought I’d had a stroke. This was a turning point in my life. The psychiatrist went through my mental health history and quickly diagnosed me with bipolar and prescribed a combination of medication which I’ll be on for the rest of my life but I’m happy with that as it’s a small price to pay for happiness. After digesting the news for a while, my life suddenly made sense through the prism of bipolar. There’s no one solution, unfortunately, but medication and talking therapy worked for me. I’d advise anyone who has been newly diagnosed with bipolar to ‘find your thing’. For me, it’s music – and fly fishing. I can get lost in both, but your ‘thing’ can be absolutely anything that makes you feel a wee bit happier.
Still Waters, Still Mind
When I’m on the river, nothing else matters for a while, I’m in control of everything while I fish. It actually starts with making the fishing flies before I go. They give me a connection to the river from my own house. I’ll be thinking about things like water level, where I’m fishing, how fast or slow the river is, what bugs are hatching for the fish to eat, or whether I might land a huge salmon! That’s before I’ve even gone.
On the river you succumb to nature in the most glorious way. It’s sometimes a struggle to switch off at the start of a fishing day, but gradually my thoughts melt away and my sole focus is on the river. It’s a perfect time to turn your phone off, too. I’ll be watching the river for signs of fish and taking note of all the wee beasties flying about and hatching from the water. My focus is then on choosing the correct fly to ‘match the hatch’, as they say. If I’m lucky enough to catch a fish, it’s a real thrill. Watching it swim away is even better! I release all my fish; I couldn’t kill something so beautiful.
While I’m lost in this little world my mind is consumed in the most lovely way possible. There’s no space for intrusive thoughts anymore. At the end of a fishing trip, I feel recalibrated to an extent – it’s almost like a relief from everyday life.
Casting Out The Chaos
Fishing is the absolutely perfect solution for me when I’m manic or depressive. I tend to get more depressive episodes – my highs aren’t as severe as they used to be. If I’m in
a depressive episode, I have to force myself to go, but I know that when I get there, I’ll feel calmer after a few hours. It brings everything into perspective when you’re surrounded by life in its purest form.
If I’m manic, it’s a great way of coming back down and expending some energy. I actually find it hard to stop when I’m like this. I never used to know what to do with that energy but walking for miles along a secluded river is a great solution for me.
Connections On The Riverbank
Only recently I introduced two folk to the wonders of fly fishing, and I got so much out of it. Both were absolutely buzzing at the end and wanted to go back as soon as possible. We never caught anything but chatted all day about anything and everything. I’m very open about my bipolar and spent time explaining why fishing was so important for my mental health. By the end of the day, both told me what a lovely time they’d had, and how nice it was to openly chat about mental health issues. I’ve actually arranged to start teaching them both fly tying off the back of it too. I think we all felt lighter at the end, as we talked openly and honestly about our various struggles. I’ve taken a lot of people fishing over the years, but I only realise now the benefit it was doing me. The seclusion really helps people relax and get things off their chests with the only interruptions being a fish taking the fly.”
A huge thank you to Grant Mackay for generously sharing his story with On The Level. His honesty, resilience, and passion for fly fishing offer a powerful reminder of the healing found in nature and connection. We wish him all the very best on and off the river.
Grant also sells his own fly-tying kits, donating 10% of all website sale proceeds to Bipolar Scotland, and shares both his craft and reflections on mental health through his YouTube channel: youtube.com/@ scandicandy_1 you can also find him on Instagram: https://www. instagram.com/grantybot/
Nature’s Bounty
We all know outdoor hobbies and activities have many mental health benefits. For Grant, these include:
- Mindfulness and stress reduction
- Sense of accomplishment
- A different focus for the mind
- Connection with nature
- Creativity and self-expression
- A sense of community
Nature-based mindfulness and outdoor hobbies can be incredibly grounding and restorative for people living with bipolar. Whether it’s fishing, hiking, birdwatching, gardening, or walking on the beach with your dog, outdoor mindfulness-based activities can serve as powerful tools for self-management.
Student placement
Meet Holly Levesque, who has just completed a placement with Bipolar Scotland!
Hi, everyone! My name is Holly, and my interests include makeup artistry, wildlife photography, and ice skating. I’m a fourth-year psychology student and hope to pursue a career in clinical psychology. My goals are to ensure that those I work with are heard, met with respect, and encouraged to be proactive in their care.
How did you secure your placement with Bipolar Scotland, and what attracted you to the role?
I secured my placement by getting in touch via email. I wanted to work with Bipolar Scotland because I admired the variety and accessibility of services and support they offered. I also wanted to learn more about bipolar and how psychoeducation or group and peer support could inspire hope and empower others to overcome stigma and thrive. I am passionate about this cause and felt my values aligned well with the organisation’s.
What sort of activities/tasks have you been involved with during your time with Bipolar Scotland?
During my time, I got involved with a variety of activities which enhanced my understanding of bipolar. For example, I attended group support meetings and family and friends’ self-management training. I also learned about and engaged with upcoming research for
bipolar and helped to come up with ideas for our World Bipolar Day social media campaign about obstacles to diagnosis.
Has your time with us opened your eyes to anything?
My time with Bipolar Scotland helped me to understand the differences in types of bipolar, and how people will experience and manage theirs differently. I learned about the barriers to managing bipolar and potential solutions. The most eye-opening thing was how comforting the group sessions were for members – you could really feel the positive difference in energy and sense of community. This experience helped me to combine prior knowledge from my course and apply it to a real-life setting, such as how maintaining healthy behaviours and routine can help manage conditions.
What have you most enjoyed about your time with Bipolar Scotland?
It’s difficult to choose what I’ve enjoyed most as I loved getting involved with many areas. I really enjoyed selfmanagement and group support sessions because I got to understand so many different perspectives surrounding bipolar, even after just one session. It was so inspirational and uplifting to see people coming together to offer their support and guidance, and it really made a positive impact on members.
What advice would you give to someone who is looking to volunteer with Bipolar Scotland? There are many benefits to working with this organisation – everyone I worked with was so knowledgeable, transparent, passionate and diverse in experience. The team really values spreading awareness and education of bipolar, so I felt welcomed and appreciated in every activity I got involved in. If I could offer some advice, I would recommend reading the Essential Guide to Bipolar on the Bipolar Scotland website as it’s an excellent starting point and I would also advise you to get involved with as many areas of the organisation as possible!
It’s been great to have you on the team, Holly! We’re so grateful to you for all your hard work and dedication, and we hope you’ve gained valuable experience from your time with us. From this experience, I have gained a better understanding and appreciation for those living with bipolar. I feel more confident in my abilities when working with those who have an enduring mental health condition – and their families. I feel more driven about my future career and hope to spread awareness about the positive benefits of services provided by organisations such as Bipolar Scotland.
If you’re interested in a student placement with Bipolar Scotland, please email Maja: majam@bipolarscotland.org.uk
Holly enjoyed her time with Bipolar Scotland so much she’s decided to stay on with us as a volunteer facilitator! Without the dedication of incredible volunteers like Holly, our existence would be simply impossible. At Bipolar Scotland, our volunteers form the heart of our organisation. They play diverse roles, from facilitating our self-help groups to providing peer support, fundraising, and leveraging their media and design talents.
We offer a variety of volunteering roles to suit different interests and abilities. These include, but are not limited to:
• Facilitators for self-help groups
• Peer support volunteers
• Fundraising volunteers
• Media and design volunteers
Get in touch with us at info@bipolarscotland.org.uk to
SAVE THE DATE!
Oct 9, 2025, COSLA CONFERENCE CENTRE, HAYMARKET, EDINBURGH
We Need to Have a Conversation…
For over 30 years, Bipolar Scotland has been led by and for people living with bipolar—providing information, peer support, and self-management training, and standing up for dignity, respect, and a good quality of life. But too many people in our community still face long waits for diagnosis, disjointed care, stigma, and feel forgotten by the services that are meant to support them.
It’s Time To Act
This is why we’ve chosen the theme – Time for Transformation – for our national conference. If you live with bipolar, support someone who does, or are interested in building a better future for everyone living with bipolar in Scotland – this day is for you. We want to hear from you. Your experiences, ideas, and voice will help shape the future direction of Bipolar Scotland.
Register now to be part of the transformation: https://www.eventbrite. co.uk/e/time-for-transformation-bipolarscotland-2025-conference-tickets1374138698839?aff=oddtdtcreator
TICKET PRICING:
Professionals/ Associate Members
Bipolar Scotland Members
Bipolar Scotland Members (unwaged)
£125 (+ booking fee)
£50 (+booking fee)
£25
YOUR TICKET INCLUDES:
• Full access to all sessions and two workshops
• Hot lunch, refreshments, and goody bag
• Networking and creative spaces
OUR PACKED CONFERENCE PROGRAMME INCLUDES:
Dynamic speakers: Maree Todd, Minister for Mental Wellbeing (TBC)
Dr Mark-Paul Buckingham, Chair of the Board of Trustees, Bipolar Scotland
Professor Daniel Smith, University of Edinburgh
Chiara Cattaneo, Associazione Italiana Bipolari
Louise Christie, Scottish Recovery Network
Engaging workshops:
• Delays in diagnosis and access to care
• Women’s experiences: hormones, pregnancy, and menopause
• Workplace stigma and sustaining employment
• Human rights and detention under mental health law
Plus, creative activities, networking opportunities, and more!
More exciting conference announcements and updates to follow in future issues of On The Level!
Over to you
My Favourite Mood
by Colette MacFadyen
Neutral is my favourite mood
Staying steady feels so good.
Keeping calm and in control Not high or dry, just neutral.
Neutral emotions, neutral thoughts
Keeping mindful and settled.
Ready to face what life has to give,
Feeling calm and ready to live.
So neutral is my favourite mood
Not reacting, just feeling good.
Mind in control, keeping calm,
Ready for life with a balanced mind.
Your space to share your creative writing. If you’d like to submit a poem, story or piece of writing, please email us on info@bipolarscotland.org.uk with the subject line ‘On The Level Submission’. Image: Vecteezy.com
BIPOLAR SUPPORT GROUPS ACROSS SCOTLAND
We run online and in-person peer support groups across Scotland – friendly, safe spaces for anyone living with or affected by bipolar. Here’s a full list of all our groups running during June and July. Why not talk to people who get it?
To access an online support group, please visit https://bipolarscotland.org.uk/gethelp/support-groups/ to sign up.
SCOTLAND-WIDE (ALL ONLINE)
BIPOLAR BLETHER: For anyone living with or affected by bipolar in Scotland. Sunday 1 June and Sunday 6 July, 3-4pm.
18-30: For anyone aged 18-30 affected by bipolar in Scotland. Wednesday 11 & 25 June and Wednesday 9 & 23 July, 7-8pm.
FRIENDS & FAMILY: For carers and loved ones. Monday 16 June & Monday 21 July, 7-8pm.
REGIONAL
AYRSHIRE & DUNDEE
• Ayrshire & Dundee online group: Tuesday 3 June & Tuesday 1 July, 7-8pm.
• Dundee in-person (Dundee Volunteer and Voluntary Action, 10 Constitution Rd, Dundee, SS1 1LL): Thursday 5 June and Thursday 3 July, 7-9pm.
BORDERS
• Borders online group: Wednesday 4 & 18 June and Wednesday 2 & 16 July, 7-8pm.
FIFE & FORTH VALLEY
• Fife & Forth Valley online group: Tuesday 10 & 24 June and Tuesday 8 & 22 July, 7-8pm.
GLASGOW
• Glasgow City online group: Sunday 22 June & Sunday 27 July, 7-8pm.
• Glasgow City in-person (Premier Inn, Glasgow City, 187 George St, Glasgow, G1 1YU): Wednesday 11 June & Wednesday 9 July, 7-9pm.
• Glasgow West online group: Sunday 8 June & Sunday 13 July, 7-8pm.
• Glasgow West in-person (Partick Trinity Church, 20 Lawrence St, Partick, Glasgow, G11 5HG): Wednesday 25 June and Wednesday 23 July, 7-9pm.
HIGHLANDS & ISLANDS
• Highlands & Islands online group: Thursday 19 June & Thursday 17 July, 7-8pm.
• Highlands & Islands in-person (Café 1668, 86 Church St, Inverness, IV1 1EP): Thursday 5 June and Thursday 3 July, 7-9pm.
NORTH LANARKSHIRE
North Lanarkshire in-person (Coatbridge Community Centre, 9 Old Monkland Rd, Coatbridge, ML5 5EA): Monday 9 June & Monday 14 July, 7-9pm.
PAISLEY
• Paisley online group: Monday 9 June & Monday 14 July, 6-7pm.
• Paisley in-person (Methodist Central Hall, 2 Gauze St, Paisley, PA1 1EP): Monday 23 June & Monday 28 July, 6-7.30pm.
WEST DUNBARTONSHIRE
• West Dunbartonshire online group: Wednesday 11 June & Wednesday 9 July, 7-8pm.
• West Dunbartonshire in-person (Concord Community Centre, Dumbarton, St Mary’s Way, G82 1LJ): Wednesday 25 June & Wednesday 23 July, 7-9pm.
WEST LOTHIAN
• West Lothian in-person (Bathgate Community Centre, Lindsay House, South Bridge St, Bathgate, West Lothian, EH48 1TS): Thursday 12 June & Thursday 10 July, 7-9pm.
Want to get in touch with us?
Bipolar Scotland is based at:
Studio 40, Sir James Clark Building
Abbey Mill Business Centre
Seedhill Road
Paisley, PA1 1TJ
You can contact us by phone between 9.30am – 3:30 pm, Monday to Thursday, on: 0141 560 2050, or by email on info@bipolarscotland.org.uk
We’re also on Instagram: (@bipolar_scotland), Facebook: (bipolarscotland1) and X/Twitter: (BipolarScotland).
Charity Number: SC021705 Company Number: 163306 bipolarscotland.org.uk