COMMON PLACE
whatshouldicallmybirdwatching sideblog?
beothewatcher beowatches
beosbirds
beobirdius
here'satentativelist: bigfanofbeobirdius,mepersonally forartemis,fromambrose, pennedonacarriageride
20/4/23
i’dwalkthroughfireforyou,butthewholeworld’salreadyinflames we’rerelicsoftheoldworld,solet’sdustofftheframes thisplacewasn’tbuiltforyouanditosurvive don’tletgoofmyhand,wewon’tmakeitoutalive
somewhereontheotherside,daybreakawaits ifwemakeitsomehow,wewillrewriteourfates totriumph,i’lltransformintoarrowsandblades ifilose,i’lljustholdyoutilthedarknessfades
whateverhurtsyoumustfightme,tili’m nothingbutbones wheni’mnothingyou’llstillfindmein betweenthestones atwintoyoualways,athunderstorm andcyclone
i’llliveagaintoseeyousmile,you’llneverbealone
your name means bright sun
iamstitchingyouintomysoulwithmyfinestneedle worksothatevenifidosomethingselfdestructiveand pullonthethreadstilthey'refrayed,i'llstillfindmy waybacktoyou.wheniwasachildilovedthestoryof ariadne'sthread.andyou?haveyouhadcluesaboutme scatteredthroughoutyourlife?iwillneverforgetyou again.ipromise.
sunbeamhair,ourswanprincess
iamholdinganextensivestampcollection storiesbothunkindandtrue yeti’llstillrememberthebestofyou
homemadecrochetcushioncovers cigarettesforsadnessandplayingcards clickingyourfingerstodaytimeradio aflowerinyourhairjustbecause thankyouforshowingme mymostlovedmyths
regeneration,gentleness forgivenessisitsowngift
didyouknowbasilisperennial?
seeyouagainoneday withlove, oneofyourown
WHYdoihavesuchaKEENsense ofrejectionliterallyeverythingido makesmefeellikeafuckenLOSER
(icouldbewalkingdown thestreetmindingmy ownbusinessandi'llbe like,fuckthisis soembarrassing)
...me2
lilweedgrowingthrough thebrickwork
autumnispassingmebywithouttroubleorprotestbutwhy amiwakingupwithnailmarkspressedintomypalms?eight tinycrescentmoonsforamillionthingsihavenotsaid.i wanttendernessbuticurlmyfingersintofists.ineedyouto feelclosesoikeepyouatarm’slength.neverthoughtmyself contrary,ithinkishouldgettoknowmyselfbetter.my body’sthemaze,myhead’stheminotaur.afractured reflection’sbetterthannothing.letmesleepforcenturies. wakemewhenthecrown’sbeenhandeddown.
what’sthepointinstringingmybestwordstogether,pearlafter gemlikeapricelessnecklace,ifnoonewillbeholdit.whereare myfellowdebutantesgaspingatthescandalofsuchadisplay,my sternmotherspursingtheirlipsattheimproprietyofthewhole thing?whatofthedandylordwhosecretlyorchestratedthe wholething?idemandareaction,aresponseofsomesort.don’ti? iwonderifhavinganaudiencewouldevenmotivatemeatall,or isitjustthatibelievethatitcould?ireachmyhandouttotouch thenorthstar,butofcourseit’sanillusion.afracturedmirrorto mystriving.somedaysi’msosuremymagnumopusisyetto come,otherdaysifeellikeafraud-ihaven’twrittenanything decentinsolong.i’vebeenwelloutoftouchwiththecreative processthatidon’tevenknowwhatiwanttomakeanymoreand freedomofchoicefeelslikeashacklenow.so…ireadandreadand readandit’ssonicetodoinautumnandthepagesturnlikemusic andtheemptymugspilehighlikeanancienttowersettofall.(a cornerofhistoryiwillmakeformyself,ifhistorywillnothave me).ideludemyselfthatineedtokeepmyselfinspiredifi’mto returntomydesk.andwhenido,myfingershoverabovethekeys andallisstilllikethemomentbeforetheflintisstruckorthe spelliscast.andmybloodbeatsloudanddarkwithunbearable ambition.isaythemagicwords.i’minachokeholdbutiwill bringyoutoyourkneesifit’sthelastthingido.cyphersand codesthroughthetrees,itallmeansnothingtoanyonebutme. willyoureadmywordsafteri’mgone?alas,it’snotevenmybest k
ishouldprobablyjustusethisasadiarymoreoften,because that’sallicandowithmywordsthesedays.latelyi’vebeen comparingmyselftomypeersalotandfeelingprettybadabout it.i’mtryingnottolabelmyselfasuselessorhopeless,these wordsarenotkindandiwanttobe.irememberreading somewherethatlifeshouldfeelgood,notlookgoodandiguessif nothingelse,icanmanagethat.ihaveaviewofthemoon,risen early,frommywindow.isalutethelonemagpiesingingonour fence.itakethetimetosmellthepeppermintbeforeimaketea withit.ipatthecatwhensheindulgesit.ireadscumbagsystem andlaughatthefunnyparts.ipullcardsandrejoicewhenit’s somethingiconnectwith.itrytoreplytomessagesassoonasiget them,orineverwill.iremindmyselfofwhati’mthankfulfor, evenwhenidreamoffaroffplaceswherenooneknowsmeand nooneknowswhatidid.somedayi’llsetmyselfablazeandhope itmakesmesomethingnew.fornow,ihaveamillionlittlethings.
spells for autumn
saluteeverylonemagpieyouspytokeepbadluck away.offerthestarofthepersimmontothemoon, ifnoneathand,blowthemakiss.putatarotcard inyourboot,tucksomesageunderthefoldof yourturtleneck.hazelnuts,oats&blackberriesare favouredatthistime.singasongforthesun.bury somecoinsintheearthforthegnomes,who observeandmeasureyourloveofusefulthings.
makepickles&preserves.pressflowerstoremind yourselfbeautifulthingscanlast.bindthenames ofyourenemiestoastoneanddropitinthelocal pondtobesentfaraway.sharpenyourathames, cleanyourcauldrons.stockuponbooksforthe winterahead.suffernofools,includingtheonein themirror.holdfasttoyourfriends,you'llneed them.lastly,meetmeinthestacksatmidnight.
