WART
But really doing it, in a sense is not working. Actually opening the doors to hatred doesn’t lead anywhere except to more hatred, transforming it into stupendous and destructive acts. We are not free to let ourselves go, we are emotionally impotent because there are too many regulations and enforced structures. But hatred, when it enters it has to find an outlet, otherwise it corrodes, and pouring it on a blank paper, on this void to be filled without any rules or obligations, and not on persons or institutions, helps me keep my mental set-up in balance, it calms and organizes my temptations and emotions to leave room to accept and concentrate on the positive part present inside and around me. Fortunately I have not learned the rules of the paper, or else drawing would have a completely different function. The spontaneity, intensity and sincerity I find in those moments when I’m drawing – it would be nice to experience these in other contexts, to feel free to let go, to break the routine might be one of those aspects we all ought to endeavor to achieve. Routine certainly gives security and makes us feel more adequate, especially when we reflect ourselves in them. But we are not perfect, and locking ourselves in a cage causes us to move away from ourselves until we get lost in what certainly has been imprinted on us as correct. I am convinced more and more firmly that we in our singularity and uniqueness who need to emerge in everything we decide to do, Asking ourselves with respect to everything we do, what did I put into it of myself, with feeling and honesty? Because this is the added value we can give to our work, professional or not, drawing or other.