and for once, they were right.
and you did it for others rather than yourself. your empathy is what will save you, not your apathy. your heart is what will save you, not your head. you are so much more than the box of sadness and hatred, for you are you. a girl. a woman. you have no need to be interesting, for you are
i knelt to the ground, collapsed in a heap of myself, the most unfamiliar substance, and wished everyone else had realized what i had realized. i had been tricked, lured in by a fake wish to gain what could never have been given by sadness or hatred. and suddenly, amongst the quiet of my regret, i feel their fingertips on my cheek and another voice whispers:
human. i look up to them and ask, who are you? and they smile and i know that they are love !
you are not a fool for wanting what you could never have. it is only natural to think beyond oneself and yearn for greatness, but it is in realizing that it is impossible to be anyone other than yourself that you achieve what you have wanted. you are not alone when you are lonely. the passion and joy others feel for you does not leave on bad days, it carries them to your door but only matters if you answer. you are not a blemish people have to pick away. you are not a weight those you care about must carry. you may have walked this path alone but you have made it out alive,
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