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Table of Contents Major, undecided: finding new intellectual paths at college Faith at Dartmouth



Pillow Talk: What’s unspoken about sex at Dartmouth


Dartmouth coaches: on drawing the best out of players


Students define their perceptions of socioeconomic class


Philip J. Hanlon: Student, teacher, College president


20 things ’20’s learned


Think Dartmouth: work hard, play hard

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The arrival of spring and the many students returning from (purposefully timed) winter offterms jolts the College on the Hill awake. Spring is the much awaited time when the sun comes out of hiding, when flowers start to sprout from the trees — instead of falling from them — and when dense New Hampshire snow melts away to reveal our eponymous Green. The campus is awakened — ­ Dartmouth is awakened. For some people, waking up can be the most difficult part of their day. But there is a certain joy to it, in the way we are able to face a new morning, and there is a joy in the many ways we are given the opportunity to awaken ourselves to different topics, different people and even a different season. The word awakening holds different meanings for every person. For us, it meant the start of something vibrant and exciting, the discovery of things we may not have considered previously. We wanted to produce an issue that provides writers room to explore their creativity. We wanted to explore how students become aware of different aspects of their identities, lives and ambitions during their time at Dartmouth. What is awakened within us during our time here? This issue’s aim is to open our eyes to different aspects of life on campus and also to explore the types of awakenings that happen within ourselves. During the animated time of Green Key weekend, we invite you to also awaken yourselves and become aware about a different side to Dartmouth than the one you’ve known.

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OPINION: Chin: Waking Up to Normalcy


OPINION: Sandlund: Troublous Dreams


VERBUM ULTIMUM: Conspicuous Awareness


Through the Looking Glass: A Cure for Phantom Pain


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Major, undecided: finding new intellectual paths in college By BETTY KIM

The Dartmouth Staff

For many Dartmouth students, a drive to learn seems to come naturally; students are constantly engaged in a rigorous 10 week-term of three — or four — highly focused courses and several extracurricular activities. However, once we try to trace back the intellectual motivation that fuels this constant “grind,” we might not always be sure why we do what we do. The phrase “I have no idea what I’m doing with my life” is surprisingly common among Dartmouth students — freshmen and seniors, students who have a top GPA and have a less-thanaverage one, students who have or don’t have any idea what they’re majoring in. Both professors and students cited a liberal arts style education and an interdisciplinary approach as important factors in their learning, especially for students who were unsure which subject they wanted to pursue. Dean of the Tuck School of Business Matthew Slaughter said he engaged in interdisciplinary learning during his undergraduate experience at the University of Notre Dame, specificially participating in a program called “Philosophy, Politics and Economics” as an economics major. According to Slaughter, interdisciplinary learning is important as it develops valuable life skills, benefits personal relationships and career skills. “Especially for undergrads, some

version of the liberal arts is so vital for their development as human beings,” Slaughter said. “[They learn] how to understand how they view the world from a philosophical or theological perspective, and what role each student envisions playing in the world to make it a better place.” Even for students who are set on a particular academic track, Dartmouth’s promotion of interdisciplinary work and collaboration is an essential part of an undergraduate learning experience. Kevin Kang ’18, a Goldwater scholarship recipient who will be attending Thayer School of Engineering for graduate school, said he knew he wanted to do biomedical engineering on the premed track but was also interested in other STEM disciplines. Kang said Dartmouth’s academic plan provided the freedom to cultivate his diverse academic interests. Similar to Kang, Brian Chung ’18 said he realized his sophomore year how grateful he was for Dartmouth’s flexible curriculum. Now an economics major on the pre-med track, Chung said he came to Dartmouth thinking he would major in biochemistry and go straight to medical school after receiving his undergraduate degree. However, his experience in the Great Issues Scholar Living Learning Community exposed him to different fields. Chung said the flexibility to engage deeply in his peripheral academic interests has shaped his undergraduate experience; he


attributed his decision to major in economics to Public Policy 26, “Health Policy & Clinical Practice,” which exposed him to healthcare policy. His interest expands outside of his major as well. Chung said he has never regretted taking any non-major classes,and, even as a junior, is considering modifying his current major with computer science. He has also taken a senior level art history seminar and has a self-professed obsession with hourslong Wikipedia browsing sessions. “Once you get out into the world your job will be your life; there are so few opportunities to learn or do anything outside your career, so I want to learn as much as I can before I dive into one career,” Kang said. “The best part [about life] is constantly enriching yourself as a person.” Kang’s exploration of different interests is not uncommon. In a campus wide survey fielded by The Dartmouth from April 16 to 20, 428 students answered questions about changes in their intellectual and academic pursuits while at Dartmouth. forty-eight percent of students have kept the major they started off with while 53 percent of students said they either changed their major or did not have an intended major when they first came to Dartmouth. Apoorva Dixit ’17, a Fulbright scholarship recipient who is majoring in anthropology and minoring in public policy, wants

to apply anthropology to issues of public and global health to bridge the gap between western science and world cultures. Even as a senior, she said she is keeping herself open to many different tracks. She is ultimately interested in working in global health policy, and she said she is looking forward to doing many different things in the future, such as a research project, healthcare consulting and law school. For her research next year, she will be going back to her hometown, Hodal, India. Through her college experience, she said she found a major and an opportunity to dig deeper about family and community that she comes from. In fact, she said she surprised herself upon rereading her Common Application college essay recently and seeing she wrote about wanting to go back to Hodal at such an early stage in her academic development. Similarly, many students at Dartmouth do not stop learning after they exit the classroom. According to The Dartmouth survey, students devote an average of 6.28 hours per week to intellectual interests outside of the classroom. For Slaughter, students at the best schools do at least as much learning outside as they do inside the classroom. “Classroom learning builds a foundation of knowledge and frameworks,” Slaughter said. “But college is only for a finite amount of time, so an ideal liberal arts education sets up people to be

able to speak and learn for the rest of their life — interacting with people, empathizing, looking at other perspectives and processing that information.” For others, outside sources of inspiration completely unaffiliated with one’s general field can help refresh and renew intellectual passion. Music professor Ashley Fure, who was named a finalist for the Pulitzer Prize and awarded a Guggenheim fellowship, reported some stagnancy after entering graduate school directly after her undergraduate experience. “I felt like everybody was myopic; writing music to get that next commission, it felt insular and not inspirational to me,” she said. “I was sickened by the culture and even reconsidered composing [as a] career.” However, she said she realized soon that this was not the ultimate choice she wanted to make, and found a personal “intellectual renaissance” in other forms of art. Taking a brief break from being constantly immersed in music, she read Virginia Woolf and Susan Sontag and browsed the art of Robert Rauschenberg. Doing this fed her sense of direction and eventually allowed her to rekindle her desire to make music, she said. Fure elaborated, acknowledging that burnout is real and should be respected. However, she also said part of ensuring constant intellectual development is learning to recuperate quickly, crediting her SEE ACADEMIC PAGE 15



By ALEX FREDMAN The Dartmouth Staff

At the beginning of her sophomore summer, Angelina Lionetta ’18 was worried about one of her upcoming classes. The course, a philosophy class called “Reproductive Ethics,” would cover subjects such as genetic enhancement, selective diminishment and abortion. Lionetta is Catholic, and those issues, especially abortion, are sensitive among members of her religion. Born into what she calls “an old Italian family” in Andover, Massachusetts, Lionetta grew up as an active member of her church: her parents took her to mass as a baby, she was an altar server and she taught Sunday School for third- through fifth-grade girls. At Dartmouth, Lionetta has continued to be passionate in her religious life, actively participating and organizing social events at Aquinas House, the Catholic student organization on campus. Lionetta considers herself to be socially liberal, though she leans more conservative on certain issues. She said that as a woman and a pre-med student, she believes that abortion is a public health issue — one that has implications for both the mother and society. As a Catholic, however, she still maintains that life is sacred. For Lionetta, her beliefs on the subject can be challenging, as they differ from those held by some other devout Catholics. Coming into her “Reproductive Ethics” class, Lionetta said she wondered how students in the class would react to her opinions — would they look down on her for her views?

But after having conversations with the professor and engaging in small group discussions with fellow classmates, Lionetta said she realized her concerns were unfounded. In fact, she discovered that the views of her classmates were more diverse than she originally assumed. Lionetta’s experience is not uncommon among religious students at Dartmouth. While students may face apprehension and misunderstanding of their beliefs, overt acts of prejudice are rare. Dartmouth students’ religious and spiritual experiences are understood best by the nuance used in describing individuals’ beliefs, rather than by attempting to generalize students into like-minded groups. For some students, religion and spirituality does not play a prominent role in their Dartmouth experience. A recent poll of students conducted by The Dartmouth found that 43 percent of students identify as either atheist, agnostic or having no religion in particular, and 62 percent of students consider religion as either “not too important” or “not important at all.” But truly identifying an individual’s sense of spirituality involves more than asking those kinds of questions, Tucker Center dean and chaplain Rabbi Daveen Litwin said. “I think what’s true about Dartmouth … is that while the language of religion is perhaps not, unfortunately, politically correct language these days, the questions that people ask [regarding identification of faith] are using a different kind of a framework,” said Litwin, giving the example that the word “religion” may mean an unquestionable belief in God for one person, but could

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simply mean a gathering place of family and community for another,. Although religion as a practice may not be the central focus of academic institutions, Litwin believes that Dartmouth is rooted in religious and spiritual traditions. Dartmouth may not like to use the word “ritual,” she said, but it certainly has many rituals. And these rituals, while not ostensibly religious, often align closely with religious traditions, she said. As an example, Litwin said, Green Key weekend may not on the surface seem like a religious event. Yet many religions have significant holidays during the spring to celebrate the awakenings of the season. Likewise, Litwin added, Green Key represents an opportunity for Dartmouth students to go outdoors and experience that renewal after enduring a cold, harsh winter. At the Tucker Center, Litwin oversees 24 recognized religious groups on campus, which encompass all five of the world’s major religions. Tucker Center multi-faith advisor Leah Torrey estimates that usually half of the students who participate in such programs identify as atheist or agnostic. “Often times people think of Tucker as a place for people who are religious, who meet some kind of litmus test around religious life,” Torrey said. “But it’s really students who are trying to better understand their own sense of ethics, their own sense of values, [and] their own sense of goodness in the world.” One of those students is Emily

Carter ’19. Raised in a nondenominational, evangelical Christian household in Washington state, Carter attended private Christian schools through middle school. When she reached high school, however, she said she realized that she did not feel the assurance of salvation that she had expected from her faith, nor did she find her emerging political views to be in line with her religious views. “I ended up leaving religion because I realized ... it was something I was taught to [believe], not really because I had looked at it objectively and determined that that was what I thought I should [believe],” Carter said. For Carter, coming to Dartmouth was an opportunity to explore her developing value system as an atheist and secular humanist, especially by taking philosophy classes and engaging in programs at the Tucker Center. “At Dartmouth, it seems like people are more open to talking with and being friends with people who have beliefs that are different from theirs,” Carter said. “And that’s been sort of a good thing for me, to learn to be humble and accept other’s beliefs.” Torrey said that college is an important time for students to develop their own value systems, especially since they no longer are influenced by their families and home communities on an everyday basis. “Operating in an independent context takes strength, practice, thought, reflection and prayer,”

Torrey said. An example of this concept in action is the Interfaith Floor, a living learning community sponsored by the Tucker Center, which brings students together from a diverse range of backgrounds. Anirudh Udutha ’18, who is the floor’s undergraduate advisor, said that residents write spiritual autobiographies describing their spiritual journeys at Dartmouth as well as participate in alternative worship services. He said that the benefits of these experiences include exposure to a diversity of thought and an open, communal atmosphere. “Rather than having something in common ... your commonality is your interest in these questions,” Udutha said. As an Indian-American who grew up in the Atlanta, Georgia area, Udutha knows what it is like to be a member of a religious and ethnic minority. At Dartmouth, Udutha has been an active member of the Hindu community, participating in the student group Shanti and helping plan major events such as the holidays Diwali and Holi. For Udutha, being Hindu primarily involves the spiritual aspect of the faith, though he does participate in the ritualistic and cultural aspects as well. As a neuroscience major on a pre-med track, Udutha finds that Hinduism represents a way to tie his own sense of spirituality to his beliefs on social justice, community organizing and global health. SEE FAITH PAGE 16



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Pillow Talk: What’s unspoken about sex at Dartmouth By DEBORA HYEMIN HAN The Dartmouth Staff

Many students have become blasé to the “hookup culture” on college campuses. For Dartmouth, the phrase falls into the same categories of “Greek life” and “drinking culture” — things students don’t seem to question after a couple weeks on campus. What fails to follow this normalization of the casual hookup is an open conversation regarding various aspects of sexual health and wellbeing. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention reported that 2015 saw yet another increase in reports for all three nationally reported sexually transmitted infections — chlamydia, gonorrhea and syphilis. Reports for chlamydia, which amounted to approximately 1.5 million cases nationally, were at the “highest number of annual cases of any condition ever reported to CDC.” While the 15-24 age group makes up about one quarter of the sexually active population, it also accounts for nearly half of the 20 million new sexually transmitted infections that occur in the United States each year. Given these statistics, it seems logical that high levels of sexual activity will increase the probability

for exposure to and spreading of STIs. According to a campuswide survey conducted by The Dartmouth from April 16 to April 20, 63 percent of students said that sexually transmitted diseases and STIs are things they worry about when they are sexually active. However, whether these worries will affect their willingness to have sexual encounters was less clear. Forty-eight percent of students either strongly or somewhat agree that concern about STDs and STIs affect their willingness to have sexual encounters, while 36 percent strongly or somewhat disagreed. Cindy Pierce, local author and self-described social sexuality educator, said that she was surprised at the lack of knowledge students overall have about these issues, especially in light of the internet and the access to information it provides. She said that young adults today are “even more off track” than her generation was when they were growing up in the 1980s, a time that she described as “repressed” and “conservative.” Karina Korsh ’19 also disputed whether the narrative of progress in gender equality is as powerful as people have been led to think. She said that while people may think

feminism has gained traction and “new notions” of female sexuality are more widely accepted, there are still aspects of society that have yet to fully embrace the progression. “When we have these sexual norms that are around for so long, discussion with society about feminism can help spark change but it’s not enough, and no change is going to appear this quickly unless we talk about sexuality,” she said. According to Pierce, the freedom to hook up seems to be a form of feminism, when in reality, it reinforces male-dominant relationship dynamics which often prioritize male satisfaction. “It’s a false sense of empowerment [for women],” Pierce said. “When your body is your currency, what people think about you sexually is your currency and that’s your power.” Samisha Khangaonkar ’19 agreed that female sexual pleasure is not a high priority in hookup culture, saying that people rarely talk about female sexual pleasure, nor consider it as much as male pleasure in sexual interactions. Korsch said that a way to change this trend of male pleasure-based sexual interaction is to encourage pleasure-positive sexual education,

which she called the “antithesis” of abstinence-based sexual education. It emphasizes safe sex materials, communicating with a partner and making sexual health a natural part of life — “not something to be shamed, especially for women,” according to Korsch. “[Pleasure-positive sexual education is] so powerful, and I think that can be transferred on college campuses by talking about what could be wrong with hookup culture, and how [it] tends to centralize male pleasure,” she said. Korsch also said that Movement Against Violence facilitations for new members of Greek life highlight the way people talk about hookups in a group setting. She said that, oftentimes, the ways hookups are talked about in the Greek system can be “dehumanizing” and does not align with the pleasure-positive model of sexuality. Advocating for a pleasure-positive view on sex is not yet normalized on campus for both heterosexual relationships and same-sex relationships, or for relationships with gender fluid people, she said. Conversations about STIs and STDs are also not yet normalized, as 84 percent of students responding to The Dartmouth survey said that

STIs and STDs were either not very commonly or not commonly at all spoken about. Khangaonkar said that an explanation this could be that students forget about the possibility of being infected. Pregnancies are “more [at] the forefront of people’s minds,” she said. In the spring of 2016, the College sent out a health survey with a 13 percent response rate from the undergraduate student body. Sixty-nine percent of students who responded to the survey said that they had not been tested for STIs within the past 12 months of the polling date. Korsch agreed that the awareness of the possibility of pregnancy is more common than the awareness of the possibility for STIs. It is less normal to talk about STIs than it is to talk about pregnancies, she said. Chris Meyer ’17, a MAV facilitator on campus, said that STIs fall into the general category of taboo subject matter, — and that illness, especially in its connection to sexuality, is something people avoid talking about openly. In his experience, he has only spoken about the topic in general with “one or two close friends.” Indeed, respondents from The Dartmouth’s recent survey were divided SEE HEALTH PAGE 16



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Dartmouth coaches: on drawing the best out of players By JONATHAN KATZMAN The Dartmouth Staff

Legendary college basketball coach Bob Knight once said, “To be as good as it can be, a team has to buy into what you as the coach are doing. They have to feel you’re a part of them and they’re a part of you.” W h i l e K n i g h t ’s m e s s a g e elaborates on the type of relationship required between players and coaches for teams to be successful, it does not imply that there is only one way to coach a team. Whether or not they have previously heard Knight’s statement, Dartmouth coaches across different sports have embraced the message’s sentiments. Women’s tennis head coach Bob Dallis just completed his 15th season at the helm of the program. Dallis is also one of the more seasoned coaches within Dartmouth’s athletic department, with 29 years of experience as a Division I head coach and over 400 victories to his name. Since arriving in Hanover for the 2003 season, Dallis has coached his team to a share of two Ivy League titles — in 2011 and 2017 — and overseen the development of numerous All-Ivy selections. So what has been the secret to the women’s tennis team’s success during Dallis’ tenure as head coach? Dallis, who has a doctoral degree in developmental studies and counseling with a specialization in sport and exercise psychology, insists that he is still learning. “Developing your coaching style is an ongoing thing,” Dallis said. “Certainly, I have always believed that working with a player’s strength is important. Because players work and understand concepts differently, you never master it. Every player you work with is different for a variety of reasons, and they all grasp concepts at different times.” The strategy he uses to unlock his players’ potential however, is remarkably simple. “Motivation is something that comes from within for each player,” Dallis noted. “Among the things I try to teach are love for your team, love for the game of tennis and love for Dartmouth.” One of Dallis’ most successful players in recent years is Jacqueline Crawford ’17. This season’s cocaptain and an All-Ivy selection, Crawford came to Dartmouth with a Women’s Tennis Association ranking of 800 and a plethora of experience playing at the highest levels of junior and adult competition. Dallis’ coaching is something that she credits not only toward her own development as a student-athlete but also to her maintenance of a strong team culture. “I was lucky to have coaches


Football coach Sam McCorkle interacts with his players. McCorkle played at the University of Florida and interacted with heach coach Steve Spurrier.

traveling with me for most of my junior career, and they were entirely focused on tennis,” Crawford said. “[Dallis] is not only a great tennis coach but also incredibly supportive in every aspect of our lives. He really emphasizes playing for each other and has allowed the players [to] shape the program’s culture.” On the court, Crawford also noted that Dallis’ most significant contributions to her game have not been technical adjustments but rather embracing her team’s culture and strategy. “When you play singles in college, it is very different from juniors,” Crawford said. “If you lose your individual match, the team can still win. Dallis has facilitated my development into a team player and also done a great job of individualizing what I need to work on. He encouraged me to focus on strategy and stressed that the differences in my performance would not come from strokes.” Crawford’s collegiate tennis career has not only been shaped by her individual performances but also being a part of a team. Dallis, as well as assistant coach Dave Jones, have played a foundational role in both. Dartmouth football associate head coach, special teams coordinator and secondary coach Sam McCorkle utilizes a different method than Dallis does. The son of a football coach, McCorkle caught the coaching bug following his undergraduate

days at the University of Florida, where he served as special teams captain during his senior season. Following his 12th season with the Big Green, McCorkle’s name has become synonymous with energy and discipline within the football program. “When we come in, [McCorkle] tells us that he is not going to be our favorite guy over the next four years,” former Big Green safety and recent Jacksonville Jaguars drafted free agent signee Charlie Miller’17 said. “He also tells us that he will make us great football players.” McCorkle said his coaching style has a single goal: to make his guys better through perfecting technique. Having played under legendary head coach Steve Spurrier at Florida and learning from now-University of Oklahoma head coach Bob Stoops after beginning his coaching career with the Gators, McCorkle has had the opportunity to develop under the brightest minds in college football. “I was raised and taught to make sure that everything you do is correct, and that football is a competitive game in which you never want to give opponents an advantage,” McCorkle said. McCorkle noted that he tried to learn as much as he could from all of his coaches and gradually realized the techniques that fit him best on the sidelines. “I have always been a high energy

coach and paid attention to the details,” McCorkle said. “There is just no room for hesitation when you are on the field.” At the same time, McCorkle recognizes that his players have different personalities. Making his players better also comes with wearing a doctor’s hat. “You need to be a psychiatrist because personalities are different,” McCorkle said. “I know that, while some guys respond immediately after I get on them, others just don’t and it’s easy to lose them. Adaptability is also everything because some guys need more explanation than others, and it’s key to getting the most out of my guys.” Miller was one such player who responded immediately. He switched to safety from cornerback during spring practice in his sophomore year and credited McCorkle’s coaching as key to his eventual success at the new position. “I was discouraged [about] being low on the depth chart at corner, but once I was moved to safety, I realized that I may have the chance to play right away,” Miller said. “Coach McCorkle had high expectations and critiqued everything that I did, but you come to respect that because it makes you better.” Despite Miller’s success, he admits he had to adjust to McCorkle’s fiery demeanor. “I am a pretty reserved player,” Miller said. “He would always try to

fire me up when he saw that I was more internally inclined.” McCorkle recalled that he believed Miller had all of the tools but was holding back athletically. He viewed holding Miller accountable for calling coverages and defenses at safety as instrumental to helping him build his confidence. But what stood out most was that Miller was always easy to work with. “[Miller] was an easy one to coach because he was self-motivated,” McCorkle said. “I would have to get in front of other guys who would not hustle but never for him. He had all of the natural talent, and when I did have to raise my voice at him, it was only briefly because he would correct himself immediately.” While McCorkle is loud and intense, he insists that he is no different than other on-campus figures his players interact with daily. “Just as professors set high standards for students, we challenge our players and set the bar high,” McCorkle said. “We aren’t in the business of holding your hand, but at times we will assist athletes who [have] to take ownership and are willing to put in the work to reach their potential.” Dallis and McCorkle may mentor their players differently, but they share the same goal. Their coaching styles prove there is more than one way to awaken athletes’ potential and help them become the best. After all, that’s what matters most.


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Students define their perceptions of socioeconomic class By PETER CHARALAMBOUS The Dartmouth Staff

This is the new story of Dartmouth. It is written between night shifts at Novack and pong games on Webster Avenue, between the time spent stressing about academics and the countless hours worrying about relationships, between the final hole of the Hanover Country Club and a seat in the financial aid office. Its authors, the most socially and economically diverse class of students in Dartmouth’s matriculated history, come from different backgrounds and bring varying perspectives on issues from campus life to politics. The story of the Class of 2020 is a story about changed perceptions, the difference between what Dartmouth was expected to be and what it actually is. It’s a story shaped by both social interactions and socioeconomic class, and it’s a story that is constantly being rewritten. Decades ago, the story of Dartmouth students would be predominantly homogeneous. In 1972, the first year of co-curricular education at the College, nearly 90 percent of students at Dartmouth were white, and nearly the same percent of students were male. Today, the student body is comprised of a nearly-equal split of males and females. While a plurality of students are Caucasian at Dartmouth, AsianAmerican, African American, Latino, Native-American and multi-racial students comprise a large percentage of the student body. Social diversity shapes campus life at Dartmouth — yet another factor, economic class, also plays a major part in overall campus life. Nearly 70 percent of Dartmouth students come from families that make over $110,000 annually, landing the majority of the student body in the top-20 economic percentile in the United States. Twenty-one percent of students at Dartmouth come from families in the top 1 percent, while less than 3 percent of the student body come from the bottom 20 percent. These two factors have contributed to a growing socioeconomic divide on campus. In a campus-wide survey conducted by The Dartmouth from April 16 to April 20, nearly 81 percent of students said that they perceived a social economic divide on campus, and 71 percent said that their perception of socioeconomic

class has changed since coming to Dartmouth. Attesting to the effect of socioeconomic class, 79 percent said that economic factors shape relationships on campus. In the following interviews, names have been changed because of privacy concerns and the sensitive nature of topics. Anthony is a first-year student at the College who grew up in a low-income single-parent household in Maryland and attended a lowresourced school. For him, Dartmouth was expected to be somewhat of a culture shock. “I thought it was going to be white and preppy, and I was going to have a lot of white friends,” he said. Leaving his family and the diversity of his hometown, he was worried that he might lose his identity. This p e rc e p t i o n o f Dartmouth, while not entirely false, proved different when he arrived in Hanover. Anthony lived in Thriving through Transitions (T3), a Living Learning Community, which connected him to a community of students who also came from similar backgrounds. Many students from this floor come from predominantly low-income households and are often the first members of their family to attend college. He was also able to connect with his African-American identity through the College’s Afro-American Society. While Hanover was not as diverse as his hometown, his original perception of Dartmouth was not quite accurate. “I have come to love the Dartmouth community for its enriching aspects a well as its negatives,” he said. “You know you’ll have someone to stand next to.” A n t h o ny ’s p e rc e p t i o n o f Dartmouth is not unique, because many students come to Dartmouth and find that many of stereotypes associated with the College do not represent the student body. “There are so many people,” said Erica, an international student. “[The white and preppy] stereotype does not define the entire campus.” She noted that the overall diversity of the campus has made her experience more welcoming than she originally expected. While some are surprised by Dartmouth’s social offerings, other students, however, do not find the

College to be as diverse as they originally expected. “It was way worse than I expected,” said Josh, a first-year student from a low-income background. Growing up in an extremely diverse public school district in Los Angeles, Josh was exposed to different ethnic and socioeconomic groups. In regard to finding diversity on campus, Josh said coming to Dartmouth was a sharp turn in the wrong direction. Not only was Dartmouth’s social diversity an issue, Josh said, but the divisions caused by economic status also became apparent. When students mentioned the extravagant family trips during class discussion, Josh said he felt discouraged and isolated, as he could not offer similar input given his socioeconomic status. When he attempted to create a dialogue across socioeconomic lines about identity, he said he also realized that overall student apathy regarding socioeconomic issues prevented meaningful discussion. “To have a community, you need different voices,” he said. Despite these challenges, Josh has been able to find a meaningful community on campus through different organizations. For him, these organizations provide a connection to his heritage and community in Los Angeles. Each student on campus has a different story about how his or her identity has changed since arriving to Dartmouth. For some students, that story is harder to tell than others. Ultimately, true empathy rather than apathy is needed to keep that conversation alive, Josh said. One of the largest problems for low-income students on campus is what director of Dartmouth’s F i r s t Ye a r S t u d e n t Enrichment Program Jay Davis ’90 said he likes to call “small money.” Small money is the cost of the minor things that appear throughout a term at Dartmouth. While Dartmouth may cover the full costs of tuition and board for those who qualify, these small costs escape the hands of McNutt Hall. From the $50 late check-in fee at the beginning of the term to an end-ofthe-term off-campus meal to celebrate the conclusion of finals, these costs


can be major burdens for Dartmouth students who come from low-income backgrounds. Furthermore, many students do not expect these costs at first, Davis said. When Amanda, a first-year student from a low-income background, forgot to check-in during the first term, she encountered a $50 late fee. While this cost may be a minor issue for some, it was a major burden for Amanda, she said. “My family needs that money ... the costs begin to add up,” she said. This small cost was the first of many that Amanda said she encountered over her first year. From an invitation to have a meal at Lou’s Restaurant to the desire to spend a day at the Dartmouth Skiway, these costs prevent some students from spending time with friends and enjoying the full “Dartmouth experience.” Furthermore, James, a first-year student from Long Island, New York, noted that saying “no” to an invitation because of financial reasons does not always have an easy solution. Some students, unwilling to open up about their own financial situation to new

friends, use an excuse unrelated to finances when they decline an invitation. Instead of explaining financial limitations, they give the impression that they would not like to get a meal with the person who offered the invitation. Other times, they might be the only person in their friend group not able to go out on a trip. “I work jobs on campus to avoid those kinds of situations,” Josh said. When the College decided to no longer make financial aid need-blind for international students, Chris, a selfidentified low-income international student from England, was forced to wrestle with questions of belonging and inclusion. “Money has always been like a storm cloud over my family,” he said. With his family abroad still struggling with money problems, he said he worries both about his academics and his family life. At times, these worries become difficult to handle. “I was wrestling between two black holes of attention … the more [work] I throw myself [into], the more I distance myself from my family,” Chris said. While Chris has found comfort in his friend group on campus, the question of his place at Dartmouth still follows him throughout the term. The question is not unique to him. This year, more than 70 percent SEE STATUS PAGE 15

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Philip J. Hanlon: Student, teacher, College president at the College, who he said were always enthusiastic to share their research. When College President Phil “What could be more fun than Hanlon first arrived at the College doing this?” he said in recollection. in 1974, it was his first brush “Than teaching really bright with what would become a life in students [and involving] and doing academic learning and institutional research that you think is really improvement. cool?” Hanlon grew up in a mining As an undergraduate, Hanlon town in the Adirondacks in New had already completed three “solo York, a place so small it did not even publications” in combinatorics, have a movie theater. Although his enough work that he could have hometown instilled within him a finished his Ph.D. in three years strong sense of community and with a thesis. However, influenced valued hard work and the outdoors, by Dartmouth’s liberal arts it was not an academically-oriented philosophy of broad learning, environment, and arriving at the Hanlon chose to write his thesis College exposed Hanlon to new in number theory. perspectives. After completing his doctorate, For the first time, Hanlon Hanlon went to the Massachusetts met students from very different Institute of Technology, the school backgrounds, including students he had turned down four years who had traveled to Europe earlier, for his post-doctorate and could name horses from fellowship. There, he met his the Kentucky Derby. Without wife through one of his Alpha any hesitation, Hanlon admits Delta fraternity brothers before his transition to Dartmouth was obtaining a “really fancy [three“really, really rugged” and that year] fellowship” at CalTech. But he had struggled immensely with before he finished his first year, the English 5, the then-equivalent of University of Michigan contacted Writing 5. him and offered him the rare “I had a very weak preparation opportunity of a tenured position. academically,” he said. “I came Hanlon described his former here not knowing very much about professors and teachers with the world, I would say.” a d m i r at i o n , wh e t h e r i t w a s However, Hanlon views the CalTech’s Olga Taussky-Todd, College as a “transformative” place whom he credited as “one of the that taught him to “appreciate how greatest algebraists of the 20th much you can do with your intellect century” and an early female [and] with your mind.” pioneer in mathematics, or former When Hanlon was a student College President John Kemeny at the College, there was a less himself. developed “internal social scene” In Hanlon’s time, students compared to the present. Prior regarded Kemeny with nearly a to coeducation, road trips were myth-like admiration. Everyone especially common, as students knew his story as the Hungarian often went off campus to find teenage immigrant who came social life. The campus was far to the United States without less diverse, with a population any knowledge of English but that was only still ranked first 2 5 p e r c e n t “[Dartmouth] did so in his high school women — class. Along with much to change the the rest Kemeny’s talent, were mostly direction of my life.” students knew “white guys,” him as Albert he noted. Einstein’s assistant H i s c l a s s -PHILIP HANLON, at Princeton was only the COLLEGE PRESIDENT U n i v e r s i t y. B u t second class Kemeny also following the worked with introduction Richard Feynman o f on the Manhattan coeducation, Project before a change he said most students settling down as a tenured professor favored, although alumni might at Dartmouth by the age of 27. have felt differently. With Kemeny as his A f t e r g r a d u at i n g f ro m underg raduate probability Dartmouth summa cum laude, professor, Hanlon recalled being Hanlon found himself tired of simultaneously “blown away” and winter weather and decided to too shy to speak with him. go directly into a Ph.D. program After around 16 years of for mathematics at the California professorship at Michigan, Hanlon Institute of Technology. The was invited to become an associate decision to go straight to graduate dean at Michigan, a job that he school stemmed from Hanlon’s says allowed him to continue to be experience with the math faculty a student with constant learning.


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After serving on a committee to select a new dean of arts and sciences, Hanlon was asked by the new incoming dean to become a vice-dean. Although he had not been looking to go into administrative work, the decision didn’t surprise him and almost seemed inevitable — he had served on various sub-committees and “spoken [his] mind” frequently. Given the choice of working in any department, Hanlon as a longtime math professor with publications in advanced theory, elected to become the budget dean. At the time, he had never worked with budgets before, but he knew people paid attention to money. Once his job began, Hanlon was no longer only paying attention to mathematics, he was thinking critically and learning about the operations of various departments. He described helping departments as exciting and gratifying. Three and a half years later, Hanlon was prepared to return to his life as a faculty member, when the provost had another offer: the chance to manage the budget for the whole university.


The University of Michigan was a large and complex place, but Hanlon saw the opportunity as a fun challenge. T hrough the job, he was exposed to aspects of the university beyond the arts and sciences, and the job proved challenging when the university received a historic reduction in state appropriations. By the time Hanlon eventually became provost at Michigan, he said he was not originally seeking a college president position. But when he was contacted by Dartmouth, he could not resist the prospect of returning to work for his alma mater, a place that “did so much to change the direction of my life.” While Dartmouth lacks the politically appointed governing board of a state univer sity, Hanlon describes his position as especially challenging because of all the stakeholders. Faculty, staff, students, alumni, parents and the outside media all have different interests that need to be

Hanlon said that a letter from considered. When Hanlon first arrived at the chair of the Board of Trustees the College, Dartmouth’s image as Bill Helman ’80 sent on March 13 an institution was in chaos. Rolling clarified that corporations currently Stone had published an article owning the houses, such as Alpha detailing the hazing rituals of a Delta Corporation, may want Dartmouth fraternity a few years “homes for new recognized student o rg a n i z at i o n s ” p r i o r. T h e r e that are had been a 14 “The trustee letter “substantially p e rc e n t d ro p different in in applications, is intended to say admissions and w h i c h s u r vey that the exceptions membership.” data revealed that were made “The trustee stemmed from letter is intended a concern over in the past really to say that the the social scene. shouldn’t be made exceptions that To add more we re m a d e i n fuel to the fire, in the future.” the past really Dartmouth was shouldn’t be undergoing -PHILIP HANLON, made in the a federal future,” he said. i n v e s t i g a t i o n COLLEGE PRESIDENT H a n l o n by the Office described the of Civil Rights, MDF initiative and the AAU as not only about Survey on social changes but Sexual Assault also academic. and Sexual Misconduct had also implicated As examples, he mentioned the construction of an “arts district” the College. The negative attention brought that will eventually become a part about such intense concern from of the creative mind initiative to the faculty that during the College develop students creativity mind, president-led winter faculty as well as the recent creation of meeting of the arts and sciences, the Arthur L. Irving Institute for the entire meeting was taken up by Energy and Society. concerns over the College’s social As a former student, Hanlon said his experiences at Dartmouth scene. With the campus “stirred up,” have informed his view of what the concerned trustees decided that “heart and soul” of the College action was needed to reduce is, although he also brings his harmful behavior, a goal that still perspectives of scholar, teacher drives their decision making today, and parent to his role. Although most things are in Hanlon said. When the original Moving early stages, Hanlon expressed Dartmouth Forward initiative optimism about the future and announcement came out in 2015, ongoing conversations. it read, “If, in the next three to five “You may have noticed … that years, the Greek system does not not all our [housing] is in great engage in meaningful and lasting shape,” he said in half-sarcasm. reform, and we are unsuccessful in In addition to renovating the sharply curbing harmful behaviors, Choates, the River Cluster and we will need to revisit the system’s the Lodge in the next few years, he said the administration hopes continuation on our campus.” When asked about the current to develop a kind of “village” state of this promise, Hanlon in College Park near BEMA. said that before making any final Whether that development would decision about the Greek system, be to accommodate a 10 to 25 he will have to consult multiple percent increase in the student people. However, he added, he body, or simply add options, is still is proud of the Greek system in an ongoing conversation. its current state, as well as the For Hanlon, the College is reforms and student leaders within where he found his academic houses who have tried to make passions as a college student and the spaces more inclusive and the place where he began the safe. The external advisory group final stretch of his administrative turned a “very positive” report to career. Carrying a respect for broad learning, he left the Granite the trustees, he said. But on the recent topic that State on a whirlwind of academic Alpha Delta will not be re- programs and fellowships which recognized, Hanlon said that, would ultimately lead him to according to the student handbook, become a professor. His transition derecognition of Greek houses to administrator was natural, has always been permanent and another way to pursue learning that previous decisions to re- and improvement, and ultimately recognize houses were “unusual” lead him back to Dartmouth, ready to begin again. and “exceptions.”


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interesting and remember that there is never any shame in dedicating time to take care of yourself, especially while transitioning to college.


By CRISTIAN CANO The Dartmouth Staff

Freshman year is a time for many adventures, but above all, it is a time of learning. For some students, living at college is the first time they’ll be away from home. For others, attending college feels more like home than anything they have ever known before. But for everyone, college is where many lessons are learned. Hopefully, many of those lessons are academic — but the other lessons, of a more personal variety, are just as important. As spring term comes to an end, The Dartmouth spoke to members of the Class of 2020, asking them what have been some of the most important lessons they’ve learned since arriving at the College. These lessons touch upon different experiences, but they all reflect the many ways in which students grow during their first year.

1. “I brought way too much stuff. I brought a dozen pairs of shoes and way too many jackets that I only wear a few of, so now it’s a very cluttered room for no reason. I guess it just extends to being over prepared in general.” - Nick Windham ’20 2. “How to live with a roommate in the same room. This is my first time living with another guy in the same room. We each have different schedules and lifestyles. I could never imagine living with a guy like this in my high school years. After a year, I feel like even though we have different schedules, things are likely to work out most of the time.” - Timothy Qiu ’20 3. “Try to make friends with upperclassmen. They’re not as intimidating as they seem.” - Samuel Greenberg ’20 C h a n c e s a r e, yo u w e r e welcomed to campus by a mob of upperclassmen wearing outrageous clothing that you soon learned was called flair. Many freshmen embark on First-Year Trips before they truly settle into their dorm room — after five days with no showering and minimal access to toilets, even the

worst of Dartmouth’s dorms seem luxurious. Even if you didn’t go on a Trip, though, move-in day is a blur of carrying boxes up never ending flights of stairs, meeting people, immediately forgetting their names and asking yourself if you brought too much or not enough stuff. (If you have to ask, the answer is probably yes, you brought too much.) Thankfully, there’s nearly always a Crooling or O-Team member around once you finally swallow your pride and decide to ask for help.

4. “I’ve learned the importance of finessing the Collis stir fry line. Like college, the stir fry line can be very intimidating and stressful, but over time and with the help of some friendly people, I’ve really learned how to get what I want out of Collis.” - Emma Demers ’20 5. “Tenderbob with added hash brown. Prime.” - Dylan Giles ’20 6. “‘FOMO’ is a thing, but don’t give into it. For every one thing you choose to do on campus, there are a hundred things you want to do but don’t have time to do. I think it’s important that you have to make so many decisions about what’s the best use of your time and what’s most valuable to you, because forcing yourself to make those choices will give you a chance to hone in on your interests and passions.” - Jessica Kobsa ’20 Life at Dartmouth takes some time to get used to, and even something seemingly as simple as ordering food at Collis or the Hop isn’t always straightforward. Thankfully, Orientation week gives students the chance to gradually acclimate themselves to their new home. In addition to the many required meetings, panels and information sessions that freshmen attend, there are also a ton of social events that introduce students to one of the most important aspects of college life: free food. There are so many activities going on that not even the most eager of freshmen can attend them — but thankfully, you don’t need to make any commitments just yet. So take it easy, explore whatever sounds

7. “I learned how to enjoy myself. In high school, I didn’t do that, but here I find that I have a lot more free time to do things that I enjoy doing, like making memes.” - Jeffrey Qiao ’20 8. “It never pays off to fall behind in your classes and then try to catch up.” - Nia Gooding ’20 9. “I discovered a lot of people that share many of my passions here, so I feel that it encouraged me to do better in school, study more and participate in activities. I felt that before, I wasn’t in an environment that encouraged that, so it’s been great to find people whom I feel I can share my passions with.” - Pedro Salazar ’20 During Orientation week, it is far too easy to forget that the primary purpose of college is to receive an education. Once the first day of classes arrives, however, that becomes more and more difficult to forget as your workload steadily increases. Classes at Dartmouth jump right into the course material thanks to the quarter system, which means that there is no such thing as a syllabus week. After a few weeks, however, students get a sense of the pace of the academic schedule while figuring out how to dedicate time to other interests. You might be the person who signed up for way too many clubs at the club fair or the person who didn’t sign up for any; regardless, you can certainly check out both pre-existing and new interests. Again, no pressure: You can always drop out of a club or join another one later!

10. “The presence of someone else’s _______ is not the absence of your own. Fill in the blank however you want.” - Lola Adewuya ’20 11. “I’ve learned that it’s okay to struggle and to fail sometimes. I’ve also learned that, while grades define your academic success at Dartmouth, your friends define the person that you are.” - Sam Hernandez ’20 12. “I’ve learned that it’s tough [at] an Ivy League institution because when you come from a place where you’re considered the top, and then you’re suddenly not the top, it’s tough accepting that.” - Jean Fang ’20 13. “What I’ve learned over freshman year: even if you receive a midterm back and it doesn’t go as well as you’d hope, going to office hours can be very beneficial. Professors can be very helpful: they


don’t want you to fail, they want you to succeed. They’re all very supportive.” - Meghan Poth ’20 College is hard. The 10-week term moves quickly, and it seems like everyone else already knows the material even in the introductorylevel courses. Some groups are competitive to get into, and after a cappella auditions don’t go so well, you might feel like never singing again. Even if you excelled academically in high school, you might get a less-than-stellar grade on your first midterm. You’ve heard again and again that it’s normal to struggle, yet it’s still so hard to accept that it’s normal for you. But as you begin to doubt your abilities and wonder if you made the right choice in coming to Dartmouth, you can also discover the importance of support systems. Whether your own support system comes from friends, family, professors, advisors, deans or a combination thereof, never forget that there are so many people, on campus and beyond, that genuinely want to help you succeed however they can.

limiting how often they go out. That adjustment could also be much more drastic, like spending less time with certain groups of people or changing academic interests. Such decisions differ from person to person because each person’s priorities are different. With the power to plan their own schedules, first-years learn from experience exactly what they want out of college and out of life.

17. “I don’t owe anything to the me I was yesterday.” - Mary Versa Clemens-Sewall ’20 18. “One thing I’ve learned over this year is that people cannot be put into boxes of good and bad. People are much more nuanced than that. Meeting so many different people coming from different backgrounds and talking to people with different beliefs to me has made me realize that that is simply not the case.” - Naman Goyal ’20 19. “When people say that everyone’s experience is different than everyone else’s, it actually means something. It’s not just a cliché people say. Everyone comes 14. “I have learned the importance from their own place, everyone has of taking time to do things other than their own way of doing something, homework and to do things that and that’s fine.” Arunav Jain ’20 are fun sometimes.” - Alexandrea Often, the most profound Gosnell ’20 lessons are not taught explicitly but 15. “A day that’s no fun is a instead are slowly learned through day without a pun. a continual I’ve really connected process of w i t h p e o p l e by “No matter who experience and making sure I say you were when reflection. There something nice is no one way you arrived at about each person I to experience see every day. That’s Dartmouth, and no freshman year e i t h e r g i v i n g a matter who you are at Dartmouth, genuine compliment and to that end, or telling a funny now, you deserve there is no single joke.” - Sirey Zhang to be here. Don’t lesson that all ’20 firstyear must forget that.” 16. “I would say learn — nor that there are some should there be. experiences that -CRISTIAN CANO ’20 Over the past are worth pulling year, each ’20 has an all-nighter for. lear ned many Like, ‘Hey, let’s go les s o n s : s o me to the golf course at f u n n y, s o m e midnight. I have a lighthearted, all bunch of work to do, but yeah, let’s important. go do that.’ You know, just hanging To conclude, I offer one final out and thinking about life.” - Greg lesson, in my own words, that Szypko ’20 I have learned during my own The sheer number of things to freshman year. Being a freshman do on campus at any given moment isn’t always easy, but the lessons I’ve is pretty overwhelming. There are personally learned have improved performances to see, guest lectures to my life more than I could have ever attend, games to play, books to read, imagined. I hope this one improves research to do … The list goes on. yours as well. Once the frat ban is over, then an 20.“No matter who you were entirely new option for socializing when you arrived at Dartmouth, is available for ’20s to enjoy — or and no matter who you are now, ignore — as much as they want. you deserve to be here. Don’t forget With all of these options, many that.” - Cristian Cano ’20 first-years realize that they need to evaluate their priorities and adjust Demers is a member of T he their schedules appropriately. That Dartmouth staff. Jain is a former member might entail quitting a club or two or of The Dartmouth staff.



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Think Dartmouth: work hard, play hard By CHLOE JENNINGS The Dartmouth Staff

Think Dartmouth: a school in a picturesque college town, charming but remote. A quintessential college campus, with a clock tower, a college green and a set of neatly matched, colonial-style academic buildings. Don’t forget frat row— throw in a hodgepodge of sorority and fraternity houses, a few American flags and a host of Greek letters to which students to pledge their allegiance. You have your setting. Add a group of high-achieving individuals to the mix. Their academic experience is intense — a quarter system with 10 week terms, because who has time for syllabus week? The stakes are high, because they’ve worked hard to get into the school and they need to work even harder if they want that J.P. Morgan internship. But also remember that these students are social beings, so they’re not just occupied with studying. Think back to frat row. Students take a break from their economics finals, Spanish papers and history theses to blow off some steam on the weekends. There’s a deep reverence for the game of pong, an ongoing series of fraternity parties and a termly “big weekend.” With few off-campus social spaces, it is pretty much expected that one can step into a fraternity basement to check out what these students are up to — and to see whether the intensity of their partying matches the intensity of their study habits. When you look at Dartmouth this way, it’s not surprising that the College is subject to stereotypes. Given the all-encompassing nature of Dartmouth — rigorous academics, a social scene that revolves around on campus Greek houses and a location that amplifies our commitment to both — it makes sense that the school has a reputation of having a “work hard, play hard” mentality. The fact that Dartmouth is both generalizable and unique, like a smaller, more intense version of a standard depiction of college, makes it an easy target for stereotypes. Andrew Lohse ’12’s “Confessions of An Ivy League Frat Boy” paints a picture of the school as being little more than a playground for future Goldman Sachs executives — a place where preppy frat brothers ace economics midterms by day and morph into beer-guzzling animals by night and a place with Greek houses in which the future corporate leaders of America shake hands over games of pong and exchange stories of their sexual conquests.

Dartmouth has been touted as epitomizing the downfalls of the Greek system and a nationwide epidemic of binge drinking and excessive partying. Add its Ivy League status, and you get denunciations of privilege and a condemnation of the “Dartmouth mentality” that keeps students studying hard and partying harder with little regard for the consequences of their actions. To what extent are the stereotypes that surround life at Dartmouth true? I talked to a few students to gauge whether this “work hard, play hard” reputation is accurate and to see how individual students might find balance in a culture where social and academic pressures can be high. Isabel Taben ’19 is an affiliated student athlete at Dartmouth, which means that she has to find time to balance lacrosse, clubs, her sorority and her social life. “Sometimes, you have to sacrifice something, and lacrosse and school always come first,” Taben said. “But one of the things I like about being an athlete here is the flexibility that I have. Other schools pick classes for athletes, but I can major in whatever I want or even take a class when I have practice if I absolutely need to.” People from other schools are often surprised to find that Taben is an athlete in a sorority, she said. However, she said that her time with her sorority is flexible and that students at a school like Dartmouth understand that everyone has other commitments. Taben said that striking the right balance can be difficult, and it’s taken her most of her two years here to figure out how to effectively manage her time. For her, the fast-paced nature of the quarter system makes it particularly challenging to juggle athletics and academics. “I’ve missed five days of classes for lacrosse,” Taben said. “When you only have 10 weeks in a term, if you miss a day, it’s a big deal.” Despite her various commitments, Taben affirmed that she finds time to socialize on the weekends. According to Taben, this is typical of Dartmouth students. “I would say that Dartmouth has a ‘work hard, play hard’ attitude, to some extent,” Taben said. “But I think that’s a good thing, because people are really focused on getting their work done, but they get a break to go out on the weekends with their friends and just have fun ... it’s hard to do work all the time if you never get a break from it.” Sarah Kovan ’19 agreed that students do like to study and socialize but argued that the reputation is in

part inaccurate. “I don’t necessarily think that Dartmouth students actually party more than students at other schools,” Kovan said. “I think that Dartmouth has the reputation of being a party school because most of the partying that goes on is confined to the campus. At schools in less rural areas, students can go to bars and clubs in the city.” Alternatively, Alex Chao ’20 explained that he was attracted to Dartmouth’s reputation when applying to college because, for him, it meant that Dartmouth provided academic and social opportunities. “Students at Dartmouth deeply value their academic experience, but they equally embrace the opportunity to participate in a vibrant social life,” Chao said. For Chao, balancing work and play means maximizing his productivity during free time. “In my experience, balancing your social life and work means that you have to use the chunks of free time you do have efficiently,” Chao said. I also spoke with sociology professor Janice McCabe, who studies the interaction between college friendships and academic success, to get a sense of what Dartmouth’s academic and social culture might look like from a sociological perspective. McCabe recently published a book, “Connecting in College: How Friendship Networks Matter for Academic and Social Success,” in which she examined college students’ friendship networks. McCabe interviewed students at a large public Midwestern university, which she refers to as MU in her book. McCabe asked students to rate themselves on a scale from academic to social. Most of the students at MU rated themselves exactly in the middle (a score of 5), and three-quarters of the students rated themselves between 4 and 6. McCabe then compared these responses to the responses of Dartmouth students and found that the responses that she received from Dartmouth students were relatively similar to the responses she received from the MU students. “If you just look at the average, the interviews I’ve been doing with Dartmouth students are quite similar, but there’s also more of a range,” McCabe said. “So the idea of balance seems to resonate really well with students here, but it seems like there are more students who see themselves as being more academic than typical. They feel like that’s a good balance for them.” McCabe said that the academic

rigor of Dartmouth may play a role in students’ ratings. “I think when Dartmouth students are putting themselves in the middle, oftentimes academics is more objectively higher, but perhaps their social life is too,” McCabe said. “I hear a lot of that ‘work hard, play hard’ idea here.” McCabe explained that, though students strive to balance their academic and social lives here at Dartmouth, few reported that their social lives were detrimental to their academic performance. “There were times when students would tell me that their academics suffered because of social life, but it seems like those were more the exceptions,” McCabe said. “In general, people strategize to put academics first.” It seems unrealistic to assume that Dartmouth’s culture varies drastically from its Ivy League counterparts or from other schools across the country. It’s easy to criticize Dartmouth, not only because the school is so classically “college,” but also because the extremely campusfocused nature of Dartmouth makes any issues that exist at Dartmouth particularly visible. However, Dartmouth students — like any college students — seem more focused on finding balance between work and play than pursuing extremes on either end. Of course, Dartmouth’s “work hard, play hard” reputation is not unfounded in that the College is a top academic institution with one of the highest levels of Greek affiliation in the country. In this way, the negative press that Dartmouth has received in recent years has been effective in drawing attention to issues that can accompany privilege, Greek life and an epidemic of binge drinking. However, while criticisms are valid and may indeed be amplified by the specific conditions at Dartmouth, they represent issues that exist across universities and Greek systems nationwide. They certainly should not be isolated to Dartmouth alone. It is also important to remember that Lohse’s portrait of Dartmouth — and the negative media attention that it sparked — caricaturizes Dartmouth students and ignores the diversity that exists within the student body. The portrait of the Dartmouth student as corporateobsessed, diligent library goer by day and hard-partying frat brother by night may be as dramatic as it is overly simplistic. Kovan is a member of The Dartmouth business staff.

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experience in art school as what taught her to not “wait around for inspiration to strike.” “Sometimes you can’t muster that poetic insight, so you [take on] different aspects of the project, be it conceptual or expressive, pragmatic or tactile,” Fure said. “As I’ve grown as a musician, all of those muscles have gotten stronger, so there’s this [same] thread of the desire to make the work, but my ability to execute it in greater and greater complexity has expanded since I was in undergraduate school.” Fure also emphasized the dampening effect that anxieties about career choice may have on intellectual passion, saying that questions of what students are truly enthusiastic about can often get tangled up with questions of pragmatics. However, she also encouraged students to consider embracing that uncertainty and

“taking the leap.” These worries, however, do not appear to consume students’ intellectual interest but seem instead to coexist with them. Only 1 percent of students surveyed reported that they took classes with only marketable skills and future financial success in mind. 20 percent reported they focused on both but more on practical skills, while 18 percent reported an equal focus, 50 percent both but more on intellectual interest and 11 percent only intellectual interest. Interestingly, the percentages shifted towards intellectual interest when the classes had to do with a non-major class, with 59 percent of students reporting either only intellectual interest or more intellectual interest than easiness as their motivator for choosing nonmajor classes. Regarding the pressures of career choice, Chung said that friends have reported feeling guilty about not knowing what kind of career they want after leaving Dartmouth, but


encouraged students to continue exploring, as many people do not find their calling until they are in their middle years. “Either you can get left behind or keep up with the flow in any kind of burnout; you might lose that drive at Dartmouth, but sometimes I just have to remind myself that I have to exert myself in order to get where I want to be,” he said. He said that the most effective way students can awaken themselves academically is to take every opportunity to pursue their interests, citing a lecture series he attended about the moral limits of economics as a major influence in his academic life. Slaughter also encouraged this kind of humanistic engagement to foster intellectual engagement. He pointed to the importance placed on information technology’s analysis of political behavior, rather than a much-needed focus on bringing together disparate voices and perspectives. “There are subtle and not so subtle ways our culture and society values curiosity and asking questions and learning,” Slaughter said. “Advances in information technology are fabulous, but we’re not quite sure as a society what that does to foster empathy and constructive discourse.” Like Chung, Dixit credited taking time to investigate something that catches one’s ear to expand one’s perspective, saying that the “random” classes or lectures she attended on a whim were often the most rewarding experiences. Despite the various hurdles of academics and the fatiguing daily schedule of a college student, the continual search for academic awakening is a lifestyle for both professors and students of many different backgrounds. As Fure said, “Passion doesn’t look the same for everybody.” However, Dartmouth is a place that constantly fuels and energizes this endless search.

of regular-decision prospective students who attended Dimensions decided to come to Dartmouth. While they visited, they were able to see and interact with some of the best parts of Dartmouth: welcoming organizations on campus, a betterthan-usual set of meals at the Class of 1953 Commons, a beautiful campus and, most importantly, Dartmouth’s enthusiastic and welcoming student body, said Tim, a student from New York. For a majority of students, Dimensions provided one of their first interactions with the College, an experience that will likely shape their initial perception of the school. However, many students’ original perceptions of the College do not match the reality. Tim said that while the experience of Dimensions was a great introduction, many of its aspects are hyperbolic in that Dimensions highlights the positives of Dartmouth and ignores the negatives.

“I bought into the way they sold campus,” Tim said. He noted that Dimensions does not take enough time to talk about the negative aspects of Dartmouth. Instead, students have to learn about those aspects when they come to campus in the fall, which makes the transition into college even more challenging. “We should just be honest with people,” Erica said. Dartmouth has divisions. Few can deny that. These divisions are visible in everything from campus jobs to student organizations. Because of these divisions, however, we are reminded of this institution’s scars which have not yet healed. We derive strength to work together and resolve issues so that regardless of race, gender, economic status or any other factor, students feel loved and at home on its campus. We are united in that pursuit. Dartmouth may have its divisions, but Dartmouth is not divided.



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Students discuss their faith while at Dartmouth


At Dartmouth, Rollins Chapel hosts a variety of faith and non-faith related events. FROM FAITH PAGE 4

Udutha said that while Dartmouth has a significant amount of diversity — even within smaller groups like Shanti — people still tend to not be as aware of the customs and beliefs of others

as they should. Although Udutha said he doesn’t find his spiritual beliefs to conflict with what he learns in the classroom, there are occasions in which people with whom he shares his identity as a Hindu have misconceptions about his faith and culture.

ForJacobCasale’17,misconceptions about his faith have also been an issue he has faced at Dartmouth. As a former co-president of the Christian Union student group, Casale’s faith is a significant part of his life, both before and during his time at Dartmouth.

Casale said that often acquaintances Casale said that being at Dartmouth are at first not sure how to react when has forced him to reckon with difficult they find this out about him. questions regarding his faith such as “When [my faith] is put on the table the historical veracity and coherence as the reality … people don’t necessarily of the Bible, as well as the intersection really know what to do with that,” between faith and scientific reasoning. Casale said. “It’s “Christianity just kind of like, actually has a rich ‘Oh, well that’s “When [my faith] is intellectual history, nice.’ And you put on the table as and has always kind of feel a welcomed intellectual little bit like an the reality ... people engagement,” Casale anthropological don’t necessarily said. “I think the Bible oddity.” hold together really know what to does But Casale remarkably well.” added that he do with that.” As a psychology sees this issue major and geography as a healthy minor, Casale admits challenge, and -JACOB CASALE ’17 that there are times that meeting when his beliefs do new people with not perfectly align different backgrounds and beliefs gives with the academic standard — for him the opportunity to constantly example, he believes that scientific develop his own viewpoints. processes and reasoning cannot answer Growing up in Seattle, Washington, some of the deeper, fundamental Casale was raised by parents with questions of life — but that this process Methodist upbringings, but never of intellectual engagement with faith felt tied to one denomination of is beneficial. Christianity. He currently identifies “You can grow as a Christian in as non-denominational Protestant, the classroom when your beliefs are and believes that the specific sect kind of openly challenged — or even of Christianity matter less than the just in terms of thinking about what individual’s personal relationship to you’re studying in the lens of your God. faith,” Casale said.

Sexual health at Dartmouth includes conversations abouts STIs FROM HEALTH PAGE 5

on whether they would reveal and seek help from their friends if they had an STI. Thirty-eight percent of respondents said yes, 33 percent said no and 29 percent said they were unsure. Students said they were much more willing to reveal and seek help from third parties — 79 percent of students said they would seek help from health services from the College and 69 percent said they would seek help from health services outside the College. Director of Dick’s House clinical medical services Ann Bracken said that many students come to Dick’s House for STI screenings, and many students are open about their sexual health with providers. She also said that she believes most students are responsible when it comes to STIs, even if it is perceived to it be taboo. She said that students will likely come get tested if they don’t use protection. According to The Dartmouth’s survey, 97 percent of respondents said they have not gotten an STD or STI while at Dartmouth, but 25 percent say that they know of friends and other people at Dartmouth who have gotten STIs or STDs while at Dartmouth. Alcohol is also often linked to hookup culture across all college campuses, but at Dartmouth, the D-Plan and the small town setting

also play large roles in accentuating the attractiveness of “the hookup.” Pierce said that it is likely Greek houses dominate party culture because it is the “only party available.” Rather than focusing just on alcohol itself and how it leads to hookups, she noted that the domination of men in the space was another complicating factor in the hookup culture overall. Khangaonkar also said that she believes alcohol and sex can exist independently, but that alcohol does seem to have an effect on hookup culture for women. “As women at Dartmouth, we face a lot of pressure to participate in hookup culture, and one medium I see people using to kind of help ease that is through the form of alcohol,” she said. Meyer also said alcohol can act as a “social lubricant,” especially if they fall into the stereotypical and often awkward “super casual hookup” category. Meyer said he draws the line, however, when alcohol leads to sexual violence and situations where predators and frequent offenders use alcohol as “a tool to incapacitate people they want to assault.” The idea of the “accidental,” where violent acts masquerade as accidental hooking up, can also blur the line between hooking up and sexual violence, he said. Overall, Korsch said that she believes hookup culture originates

from both a self-development imperative, in which people don’t seek relationships because they view college as a time to “focus on themselves,” and the D-Plan, which makes prolonged relations difficult. “When you’re only here for ten weeks, there’s less of an incentive to create an intimate connection,” she said. “It’s not a Dartmouth-only problem though; it’s going on in the vast majority of college campuses too.” Korsch said that the conversations about sexual health vary depending on the communities that people are, but that there generally is no nor malized, “substantial” conversation about sexual health. She also said that people will speak about sexual health in “very limited ways,” especially if they come into the conversation without much background information. The Health and Wellness Center, Sexperts, MAV, the Safer Sex Bar and other organizations on campus aim to inform the student body about various aspects of sexual health. Fiftythree percent of students from The Dartmouth survey were “not sure” about how well the College’s health services have addressed student issues with STDs and STIs, while 22 percent believe they have not done enough and 23 percent say they have one the right amount. The Wellness Center’s healthy

relationships and sexual health specialist Tong Fei said that Sexperts also work with Dick’s House to train on health matters, such as the most common STIs, as well as on helping students navigate their sexual health. Fei’s role is to help facilitate conversations about sex on campus, as well as provide materials for safer sex habits, she said. Building a relationship of trust with a medical care provider or a sexpert or counselor is important for students to be able to talk about sexual issues, she said. “What we are trying to do is … put a face behind who you can actually go to to talk about this,” Fei said. Pierce said that the addition of Fei to the Wellness Center is “huge” for Dartmouth in terms of sexual health on campus, and that the shifts in residential life to create communities has helped to create conversations about all issues on campus, including race, gender, religion and sexuality. However, she said that those who “need it the most” are not exposed to conversations about healthy sexual habits. Athletic teams and fraternities and sororities should have more required programming regarding sexual health, despite the fact that some people believe that it is not helpful, she said. “I think of it as surround sound — constantly hearing it through a number of different ways, rather

than hearing it once and checking the box once, is really important,” she said. “Dartmouth has it, but it needs to require it more.” Meyer, who facilitates MAV sessions for Greek houses, said that these conversations about sexual health are not likely to occur because hookups lack the intimacy and comfort that is necessary for honest discussion and are usually founded on a “base physical attraction.” He also said that there still remains a strong sociocultural — and distinctly untrue — perspective that men are only interested in having sex, whereas women are likely to “put the brakes on” and have more conversations about the issue. Small scale change and modeling ideal behavior when it comes to healthy sexual habits is the best method to bring about change, he said. Having conversations with friends about what happens beyond the hookup can be especially beneficial, he said. “I found that those conversations might not happen a lot, but once one person goes and break the ice and admits that they aren’t just going out and hooking up with strangers and having a great time ... [and] once you admit that you’re imperfect and have had problems and strange thoughts, other people generally jump on that bandwagon,” he said.

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Pear Trees and Other Delights

Waking Up to Normalcy

“Verb Awakenings” reframe our mindsets to appreciate delight.

I have never been awakened, at least not as always, picked up by the second ring. I in the grand sense of the word. gushed endlessly about this tree — its flowers, I have never stumbled upon some grand its scent, its fullness. After I finished my realization that makes the scrambled pieces description, she diagnosed it as a pear tree. of life fit together. I have never had a religious My pear tree. epiphany nor a spiritual discovery. I have I learned nothing from The Tree. I left with never had a struggle that has changed the no takeaway notes nor bullet points by which trajectory of my 19 years. “I once was lost, to live. But in that moment, I was delighted. but now I’m found” is a song verse, not a Delight, as my classmates and I are learning relatable life experience. in our Impact Design class, is as ambiguous I learned to be a s i t i s wo n d e r f u l . assertive, I learned to “I learned nothing Researchers are still enjoy my own company, attempting to tease out but those peripheral from The Tree. I left the psychological and life lessons merit a with no takeaway definitional differences mu ch - d e s e r ve d eye delight and notes nor bullet points between roll. No one needs to happiness. read another teenage by which to live. But The definition is girl’s public reflection in that moment, I was easy for me: delight came on body positivity nor from appreciating that another white woman’s delighted.” random, insignificant graceful recognition of p e a r t r e e. I n t h a t her privilege. Lessons inherently seem cheesy, moment, I chose to be awake. I let myself implying a dichotomous shift from ignorance be in awe. I did not stroll by, mindlessly to wisdom or from darkness to light. As my scrolling through my phone. I did not nod mom still tells me, I am only half-baked: because it was the right time to nod or laugh I have seen some light, not the light; I am because it was the polite response. I did not stronger now but not perfectly strong yet. experience an awakening; I was awake. F loundering to reach beyond self- Awakening, when used as a noun, righteous life lessons defines a situation that and annoyed by my “Awakening, when has made you see the inability to do so, I did light. Awakening, when what anyone might do used as a noun, used as a verb, defines in a moment of doubt: defines a situation the continual process I called my grandmother. shifting between that has made you see of She suggested I write autopilot and alertness. the light. Awakening, about my pear tree. Noun Awakenings are There’s an indisputable when used as a verb, sporadic and externally les s o n : G ran d m a i s driven; Verb Awakenings defines the continual always right. are long-ter m and On April 28, I had process of shifting internally maintained. j u s t at t e n d e d D ave nlike life lessons between autopilot and U Evan’s lecture “Money that can be lear ned or Meaning: A Real alertness.” once, Verb Awakenings Dilemma and the Wrong require constant selfP ro bl e m , ” i n C o o k evaluation. Auditorium. As I trudged up the stairs from Most importantly, Verb Awakenings allow the subterranean lecture hall on a bright us to reframe the daily banality of our own Saturday morning, I saw The Tree. It was headspace. unlike other trees lining Tuck Drive which At 19, life seems relentless. Our were just beginning to bud in the late April mechanized college struggle leads to warmth. The Tree was already full, spanning internships which lead to jobs, but a job leads 15 feet in every direction. Its branches to … what? Happiness is strung in front of seemed weighed down with thousands of us as a carrot, ever an inch away, while we white blossoms — the kind you see in upscale stumble on our hedonic treadmills. How wedding magazines. I pressed my face into many points do I need on the final to get its branches; the velvety flowers tickled my above the median? Why isn’t the weekend cheeks. I stood underneath, breathed in the here yet? If only it were summer. If only beauty and took a mental photograph. I had more money or time or likes on my After a few minutes, I decided that The latest Instagram post. Why am I unhappy? Tree was so magnificent that I had to share Stop. Reframe. it with someone. I thought about standing At 19, life bursts with opportunity: pear on a table in Baker library and making trees and milkshakes and getting stuck in the an announcement, but I figured I would rain and first dates and socks right out of probably startle my classmates instead of dryer. These do not lead to anything in the enticing them to join me. I thought about practical sense. Delight and happiness are sharing a picture on Facebook and Snapchat, appreciated in the moment, not engineered but doing so seemed too impersonal, too to be a reward. So how do we prompt contrived. I decided a phone call would do. ourselves to switch off autopilot? How do I tried my best friend, then my mom; both we make room for multiple awakenings every calls went to voicemail. My grandmother, day? And how did we get so damn lucky?

We can escape the Dartmouth Bubble by recognizing its constraints. At one of my favorite restaurants in Los Angeles, the waiters wear denim aprons, the napkins have small embroidered black dots, the menus use a typewriter font and Kendrick Lamar plays on the radio while people eat classic brunch food with a Southwestern twist: breakfast sandwiches with foie gras, chilaquiles and steak and eggs. The highend restaurants in Hanover are merely nice, following the standard prototype — “elegant” music, European bistro and waiters dressed in black. They are exceptional but nondescript. The lack of identity in some of the restaurants in Hanover reminds me of a similar culture on campus. Democrats or Republicans, affiliated or unaffiliated, Dartmouth students seem to converge on one opinion — that we are different from the rest of the world. In our mythical “Bubble,” the students tend to be exceptionally wealthy, the fraternity parties are unlike any others and the sightings of people in “flair” uncommonly frequent. Whether you love or hate the Bubble, simply acknowledging its existence implies that you find the school unique and separate from the monolithic outside world. In reality, the Bubble creates an unfounded air of exceptionalism and masks our collective fear of normalcy. School pride is not unique to Dartmouth College. To express their pride, students often feel the need to distinguish their school from others, however unrealistic that attempt may be. Other Ivy League colleges and similarly elite or prestigious institutions maintain a culture of elitism and a strong belief in their uniqueness very akin to ours. It is hard to imagine how fraternity culture at Dartmouth could be so drastically different from that at any other college. Our parties may be marginally different, since they depend on the people who attend and the activities they engage in, but the basics are universal. One characteristic of the College that seems to vaguely legitimize the Bubble mentality is our low acceptance rate. Taking in around 10 percent of our applicants each year, Dartmouth suggests to its students that they are exceptional. With high test scores, stellar grades and perhaps even awards from athletic or artistic competitions, we look pretty good on paper. However, this type of excellence is, in some ways, exceedingly normal. Most of us tend to have safely followed the track laid out for us since kindergarten. We succeeded in institutions with clear-cut rules and conventional standards. But being exceptional goes beyond percentile rankings and cursory name recognition. Dartmouth students seem to be good at things that fall into the mainstream. We are good at being normal. Two weekends ago, I interned at the Harlem International Film Festival. The volunteers I met introduced themselves as actors, filmmakers and photographers and talked about their artistic vision. I announced myself as a student. When I was asked what school I attended, everyone praised Dartmouth as a good school. As I combed through topics to talk about, I realized that most of our campus culture sounded exceptionally banal.

Dartmouth has parties, drinking and hiking. Any stories related to those activities sound just like they would at any other school. They are interesting only to an audience already familiar with the characters, culture and geography. This view of Dartmouth from the outside was not the quirky identity perpetuated by the Bubble, but a trite, general and even boring outlook easily applied to any other college of similar caliber. We were accepted to Dartmouth by fitting standards in higher education and continue to gain social, academic and professional acceptance by fitting even more standards. Those at the top of the social ladder tend to be affiliated with “A-side” Greek organizations and “fun” societies that only perpetuate classic elitist and exclusive norms. Moreover, we are rewarded for getting good grades but not for taking risks. What I miss most about my life before Dartmouth was the spirit of taking on intellectual pursuits for pleasure instead of for career climbing. One of the film festival volunteers I met read “Sula” by Toni Morrison in his downtime — not for a class, but because he felt like it. At Dartmouth, I find that many students work to pad their resumes and spend most of their downtime in fraternity basements. While partying is not necessarily reprehensible and while I am sure my Sula-reading friend attends his fair share of parties, it seems that the College generally leaves little time for intellectual leisure. I am not claiming that Dartmouth students do not ever take risks. Some students major in unconventional subjects, while other students code apps or launch startups. Even these students can rest easy knowing our odds of graduating — just like at our Ivy League equivalents — are pretty high, giving us a cushion for risk and a sense of security for our future. But when I try to take risks, I often feel like they are unwelcome. For example, I have received As on simple, straightforward and well-written papers. But when I have taken the time to explore a more complex subject, my grade has usually suffered. Taking on an ambitious topic and seeking an innovative interpretation can leave less time for polishing and writing more drafts. The constant deadlines and fast-paced terms at Dartmouth often inhibit longer exercises in creativity. I recognize that the outside world can be just as ordinary as Dartmouth. It may sound exciting to be an actor, but many of the people I met have normal and often uneventful day jobs. On the other hand, many probably do underestimate how interesting Dartmouth students can be. While the College’s culture itself is not particularly unique, many of its students are pushing boundaries by exploring eclectic research topics or adopting new positions and endeavors. Instead of either criticizing or praising the supposed Dartmouth Bubble, we should accept that there are many schools like ours and many people like us. By not obsessively and falsely creating distinctions, reconciling with our normalcy may allow us to develop our own personal visions and individual experiences more productively.


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Troublous Dreams

Conspicuous Awareness

Our dreams are gateways into self-discovery. “Only after the great awakening will we realize that this is the great dream. And yet fools think they are awake.” — Chinese philosopher Zhuangzi Each day billions of dreams formulate and dissipate across the planet. They are phantoms of our skulls, mirages we can taste and touch. Once we wake they are gone, lacking any material trace except for the uncertain testimony of memory. If we do not write them down or tell someone, this evidence disappears with the morning dew. They are immensely interesting for their composer but are usually odious conversation topics. Dreams are the stories we tell ourselves, ones that in our self-absorption we become lost in. We do not just suspend our disbelief — the line separating reason and emotion dissolves. Occasionally, there arises an exceptional specimen of dream. These dreams are so powerful they take on the status of revelations. It becomes unclear if the dream imposes its vision onto the individual or the individual imposes his or her interpretation onto the dream. The consequence of such dreams persists in the waking world in religion, history and art. These nocturnal visions seep into reality, further blurring the line between subjective perception and our shared external environment. Dreams possess the unique potential to change how lives are lived from within. The deadliest dream of the 19th century flit before the eyes of a stressed-out student in Guangzhou, China. In 1837, Hong Xiuquan, a Hakka peasant from Southeast China, failed the imperial examination for a third time. Although he showed intellectual promise, the exams were notoriously difficult to pass, with a district level success rate of around 1 percent. China’s rapidly growing population had outpaced the number of government postings, leaving thousands of promising young scholars disaffected in a time of economic stagnation, government corruption and racial tension. Hong felt an immense pressure to succeed. He came from a poor rural family that had invested significant amounts of time and money into his classical education. Following his failure, he suffered a nervous breakdown and slipped into a days-long delirium. Later he described the experience as his spirit visiting heaven. He had a recurring dream involving an old man telling him the Chinese people were demon worshippers. The man eventually entrusted Hong with a sacred mission to slay these evil spirits. Around a year before this strange episode, Hong received a religious tract from the protestant missionary Liang Fa called “Good Words to Admonish the Age.” Christian ideas almost certainly influenced the content of Hong’s visions, but more importantly they helped Hong interpret the significance of his dream. He believed that the old man was God and that He had assigned Hong with the divine mission to overthrow the Qing dynasty. Upon recovery Hong apparently underwent a cathartic change. He purportedly grew taller and exuded a charisma people found irresistible. He began preaching and quickly gained a strong following among peasants and miners. Stories began to circulate about Hong working miracles

— mutes could speak and the insane became articulate. An angelic young boy reportedly descended from the heavens and repeatedly proclaimed Hong’s name. In the early stages of the movement, Hong continued to reference his wondrous dream, which became steadily more embellished. He drew confidence, purpose and followers not just from the dream itself but from its repeated retelling. In an essay written by Hong’s cousin Hong Renkan, Renkan describes his reaction to Hong’s preaching about his dream-vision as follows: “I felt as if I were waking from a dream and as if I were regaining soberness after intoxication.” The dream took on a life of its own and somehow awakened people to their reality or convinced them that they had found something meaningful around which to order their lives. Hong eventually founded a millenarian sect called the God Worshipping Society. The movement quickly gained momentum by exploiting local dissatisfaction with the Qing dynasty. In 1850, a year after the start of the rebellion, Hong and his followers took over Yongan and later established the “Heavenly Kingdom of Great Peace.” Two years later, the Taipings had taken Nanjing as their capital. Their kingdom in southern China lasted until 1864. Hong died during the death throes of his revolt, probably poisoning himself within the confines of his luxurious palace. He was one of the final casualties in a conflict that left at least 20 million people dead and permanently crippled Qing authority. Histories have already been written about the socioeconomic conditions that allowed for such a deadly rebellion to take place. It is hard to acknowledge and understand how a single dream started a chain of events leading to such a massive loss of life. However tempting, analyzing Hong’s dream can only ever yield speculations. We must be content to observe the power of a dream over an individual and a movement in the hope that it can shed light on our subjective experience. Dreams exploit our self-centered nature. They have an intoxicating power that prevents us from recognizing their illusive qualities. When Hong woke from his vision he was convinced that he had awoken to a new reality. His world had been shattered by his failure to pass an exam but then his life was restored and imbued with new meaning and purpose. It is an awful lot like someone discovering religion or Marxism and feeling like he has found a framework to understand the world. Suddenly you have answers to uncertainty, and you want to tell everyone about your momentous transformation. Conversion begets conversion, just as power begets power. We embrace dreams, theories and religion partly in order to feel at ease in an unfathomable universe. Before you fall headlong into a new idea, consider asking yourself what it is you are attracted to. Then ask why you think this is what you are attracted to. Keep questioning and delve deeper into yourself. Truth is elusive and illusive, but it comes from within. And if you have a sacred dream vision, you will know you are onto something good.

Awareness is a challenging but necessary exercise.

The average morning routine of a they engage with the challenges they face. Dartmouth student likely involves a wake-up The individual and structural hurdles to groan, eyes pried open by a depleting supply open-mindedness manifest themselves in of willpower, a cold shower and copious our activism. Our mindsets thus lead us to amounts of caffeine. Being physically awake no more than a surface-level understanding allows us to learn and experience; develop of the issues we discuss, and a surface-level and share. Being awake gives us a working understanding of anything can only create mind but not necessarily a receptive one, a surface-level solution. allowing us to listen but not necessarily As a result, even the best of intentions understand or empathize. can contribute to our collective blindness, The education we receive at Dartmouth is hypocrisy and ineptitude. When students a valuable one, powerful even. But nothing we speak with those of other groups, they cannot learn from classes, extracurricular activities necessarily comprehend their experiences. or research programs means anything if Going to a Black Lives Matter demonstration we do not also learn from each other. It is not a substitute for embodying the values of is often easy to assume that the two are that movement into our daily lives. Wearing intertwined, though that may not always apparel for a cause may raise some awareness, be the case. When students participate in but in most cases that visibility serves only seminar classes, where every word they say as a self-congratulatory proof of activism. factors into a percentage of their grade, are Using “awareness” in a performative they listening to the dialogue around them or context can raise issues of its own. Instead of rehearsing their own script? Before we raise spending their time advocating for something our hands, we should figure out whether each students may criticize their peers for not comment builds on the existing dialogue or is advocating enough. But the moment they find an attempt to compare, criticize and outdo. satisfaction in being more aware than those Individually, most students strive to keep an around them is the moment they become open mind, but we should ask ourselves if complacent, which leads to inaction. Inaction we are collectively succeeding in that effort. is not what we are here for, not what we owe Even when we do genuinely listen, there to everyone who helped us get here and not is still a difference between acknowledging what we owe to those we plan on serving, different opinions and being willing to change working with or leading. our own. We might hear what someone As this academic year draws to a close, has to say but never give that person the some students are graduating in three weeks, opportunity to break through the rigidity of others in three years. All of us can do better our own judgment and shape our perspective. by being awake in the truest sense of the Being flexible to change and acknowledging word. Certainly, the College has a role to our own lack of understanding is by no play in fostering opportunities that allow for means easy — it means exposing the rifts students’ personal moral development and in our own intellect and admitting that we that give them the space, time and conditions are vulnerable. But it is to realize their own values a necessary part of true “Being flexible and engage with each other awakening. more meaningfully. But in The stratification to change and the end, being willing to and separation arguably acknowledging do so is up to us. intrinsic to the college Waking up is about our own lack of experience only adds more than just getting to the challenge. Most understanding is by out of bed every morning students tend to surround no means easy — it to go to class. It is about themselves with people letting go of our apathy, who a re simil a r to means exposing our shallowness and our them, with whom they the rifts in our need to compare. It is also have common habits or about allowing ourselves to own intellect and values and with whom be vulnerable and using the they can have easy, self- admitting that we are strength we have to combat affirming conversations. vulnerable.” our fear of judgment, As a result, even when we disagreement or rejection. think we are engaging in Critically, waking up is real discourse, we end up within the confines about being there for one another. If we of echo chambers, congratulating ourselves decide to care more about each other, we on being “woke” but never actually learning will inevitably become better listeners, closer anything we did not already know. Some partners and stronger fighters. Ultimately, of those conversations may be mentally our choice of how we view and judge others stimulating, but rarely do they break any affects who we are as people. A Dartmouth real barriers. education and experience is an opportunity Most students tend to fall into two to change our view of the world, our view camps. Either we believe ourselves to be of others and our view of ourselves. Let us open-minded when we are not, or we use it well. recognize that we are not but believe true open-mindedness is out of reach. Whether The editorial board consists of the opinion staff, superficial or cynical, the way we engage the opinion editor, both executive editors and the with each other directly impacts the way editor-in-chief.



FRIDAY, MAY 19, 2017

Through the Looking Glass: A Cure for Phantom Pain carry, the things which inform our perspectives on the world or hurt The Dartmouth Senior Staff us and shape how we treat others It’s 5:30 p.m. on an especially and view ourselves. Every student, warm spring night. Sunlight’s every human being, carries with last rays cast across Mink Brook. them a kind of phantom pain. There’s a Bernese mountain dog Phantom limb syndrome means playing fetch with his owner, feeling something that is no longer periodically running head first into there and feeling something that the water and shaking his fur across you cannot see. When a limb is the sandy bank. Other students amputated, the pain doesn’t always have strung up their orange and stop; the feeling of that limb, purple hammocks on two nearby how it moves, its weight, doesn’t trees and have spent the past just disappear. After it’s gone, hour pondering both our sense of you can endure mortality and the unexpected best way to make “At Dartmouth, we pain with no a Collis breakfast rarely talk about known cause for sand wich. I’ve months, even just finished a the issues we years. Phantom long run through carry, the things pain, similar to the winding trails phantom limb that lead to this which inform our syndrome, is s u n - s o a k e d perspectives on feeling a gnawing cor ner of the sense of longing, the world or hurt U p p e r Va l l ey. d e e p i n yo u r Lungs pounding us and shape how bones. from the end of we treat others and For some of us, my run and sweat it’s the depression pouring over my view ourselves.” we hide from our face, I strip down roommates, the to my shorts and drug habit we sports bra and just can’t kick, dive into the brook. The shockingly the feeling of exclusion on this cold feeling is immediate and overwhelmingly white, wealthy visceral as my body adjusts to the campus, the parent at home who temperature of the river. I lean my depends on us a bit too much or the head back and float, feeling the crippling sense of self-doubt that warmth of the first few inches of we feel might swallow us whole. the water. I see tiny birds darting My phantom pain is panic. in and out of clouds ahead. I feel I spent much of my freshman some river weeds wind around my spring term dealing with panic SAMANTHA BURA CK AND TIFFANY ZH AI/THE DARTMOU legs. I am buoyant, free from my attacks which made my breathing TH STAFF commitments and suspended from go shallow and paralyzed my stress. body and mind. Growing up and wise friend shared a quote by the intently to friends, ignoring my I am living in a dream. It’s a throughout high school, I never poet May Sarton: “The quality of phone or my desire to think of my dream I come back to, time and felt like the world was closing in life is in proportion, always, to the seemingly endless to-do list. I try time again. I dreamt of it on my on me, until that freshman spring. capacity for delight. The capacity to lessen their phantom pain and foreign study program in Prague Like many other Dartmouth for delight is the gift of paying in doing so, alleviate my own. I and while sitting in my living students, I don’t often let others attention.” remind myself that I have a heart room in Atlanta on my off-term. see my phantom pain. I exude When the future is too daunting that pumps 83 gallons of blood It’s the dream I’ll carry with me positivity, even on days when it to imagine and the past too through my body every hour and long after I leave this college. isn’t authentic. Sharing what we painful to remember, engage in a brain with neurons that fire 200 I’ll carry other dreams of hiking carry or showing our weakness the present. times per second. I am alive. I through blazing red leaves in the would make us soft — and we are I would not have survived at shift my focus back to the present, fall, making homemade pizza at not soft. We are badasses. We are Dartmouth without this strategy. I exhale and my phantom pain the Dartmouth Organic Farm, environmental engineers and early- By actively practicing it, I’ve been slowly fades. dancing on elevated surfaces in admitted medical school students able to consistently quell this panic We’ve all had moments that basements or taking midnight and Fulbright and develop real change the course of our lives walks to the golf course. I’ll dream s c h o l a r s . We “When the future happiness. forever, moments which shake us of the days I pushed away my work b u r y this T h i s a c t o f out of normalcy. Maybe it was and responsibilities and instead phantom pain is too daunting to paying attention making a mistake and hurting a took a drive or walk with friends to over and over, imagine and the is what I grab person you loved or failing a final paint pottery, visit a farm or go to until it starts onto when the exam after a late night out. Or past too painful to a diner to eat oversized blueberry to feel like it water rises above maybe it will be saying goodbye muffins. I won’t dream of the might swallow remember, engage my head. Any to Dartmouth. Maybe it was the endless nights I spent pouring over us whole. time panic rises first time you experienced loss or in the present.” papers, the hours and hours I spent How do we within me like a grief or suffering or deep hurt. in the periodicals on sunny days a l l e v i a t e t h e rustling wildfire, Maybe it was when you watched or the time I skipped lunch with a phantom pain, I actively feel the classmates lose their chance to be friend to print photographs in the e x t e r n a l l y air in my lungs, in this world. darkroom. invisible yet look up to the sky These moments remind us that No, Dartmouth hasn’t always omnipresent in to explore the there are no guarantees. We are felt like a dream. At times, it’s our lives? curling wisp of not promised anything in life. We been incredibly difficult — even The only antidote I’ve found is a cloud or look down and notice are not promised the chance to nightmarish. At Dartmouth, we to pay attention to the moment. the slight bend of a blade of grass graduate or start our careers or get rarely talk about the issues we At dinner the other night, a very reaching toward the sun. I listen married or grow old. We are only


promised the moment at hand. Do not be afraid of what might be lost. It will be lost. Ultimately, the only relationship we will always have is with ourselves. Everyone we know will eventually die or move away or have six children and no time for weekend ski trips or weeknight drinks. But do not agonize over this reality that you stop living the only life you have. Don’t attempt to climb the slippery slope of prediction or prevention of these realities to the point that you lose sight of the beauty and the people in front of you. Instead, dive headfirst into the universe a moment can hold. Be astonished. This is how you cure your phantom pain, if only for a moment. I’m back at Mink Brook. I’m floating in the lazy current of the shallow water. I’m disconnected from the world around me, calm and content. I swim back toward the shore, begin to make my way up the bank, sand soft on my feet. I’m walking in that familiar dream. I’ll wake up soon, but for now, I’ll savor the last few ray of sunlight, warm on my skin.

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