Curation #2
Aleigha K. Spinks
. I’ve lost 14 pounds since December. I finally dropped all of the bullshit you dumped in my arms when you left. I can only fall asleep to crime documentaries. This death doesn’t seem so bad in comparison. I gave birth to happiness January is for postpartum. Only men pay attention to me I MUST look like I want it, right? I only care for coffee and water now Don’t worry, I don’t recognize me either. I often wonder if you enjoyed the top 40 hits of 2016. I did not. I braided the pink into my hair Do you still brag about having gay friends like me? It’s been incredibly sunny this winter Sunnier without you around. I’m a MUCH better actress and a MUCH shittier human. Goals. A fancy school is considering me and I crave that education. I want to learn more than being left I want to learn leaving. I’ve achieved all the short term goals I set All but one. . I don’t think I ever want to visit Europe anymore. That relapse has my name chiseled into it. . I talk so much shit, but honest to the highest power, if given the chance I’d probably let you walk all over me again. Spike heels look like fingers when you need your back scratched. . What nerve you have to suddenly make yourself known without reaching in to grab me. Can’t you see I’m fully submerged? Soon I’ll be ass-down, sitting at the bottom. Soon I will have forgotten how to float all together. Because I. am. interested. I am fully and completely interested. Fully and completely. . Never have I felt so watched, so worshipped, so at home swimming inside of someone. I’ll always be entirely attracted to your kind. And you for mine? Why even entertain a question I already know the answer to: Yes. Yes. Yes. . I’m desperately clinging to the idea that I am in the perfect place. I only realize where I’ve ended up once: in the morning, when I turn the lights on.
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