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LAST SECOND HOPE by Sarah Trapp
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s a pessimist, the concept of hope was a struggle for me to write about. I’m someone who worries about the worst happening, and convinced that the worst will happen to me. But hope, always seems to creep in at the last possible second. Hope whispers through the darkness, through the doubt, through my pessimism, and frankly crappy attitude. Hope suggests, that just maybe, some good will come from the bad. That the night will end. That there will be an answer to prayer. That there will be change. That my heart would heal. As a Christian, I feel as though I hold hope so easily, but the pessimist in me always finds ways to let it slip through my fingers. Maybe it’s because I don’t always think I’m good enough, or
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that the promise that hope brings doesn't apply to me because I messed up big time. In any case, hope is beautiful and terrifying. While hope always brings a bright new change, most of the time it is only after enduring the darkest night. The scariest thing about hope, quite possibly, is trusting and waiting that good will come. Sometimes it takes a short time, other times it drags on. Sometimes we can expect what will happen in the future, but most of the time we have to trust and hold onto the tiny ribbon of glimmering hope, keeping us from falling into the caverns of our own doubt. Hope is a driving force, more powerful than many things of this world. It keeps us from quitting and believing, even when the odds are stacked against us. In this crazy world, we need more hope. We need to see the good again, even when there is darkness everywhere. We need to have hope when we expect the
worst, but there is the slightest chance that the best will happen. We need hope to know that there will be a tomorrow. We need to start seeing the glass as half full, with the possibility of gaining more water.
“Hope means that we must trust and wait for what is still unseen.” Romans 8:24