WISDOM: A LIFE WELL LIVED OR MY JOURNEY AS A SCHIZOPHRENIC
Wisdom: A Life Well Lived Or My Journey As A Schizophrenic Copyright © Per-Erik Larsson 2017, 2019 Ansvarig utgivare: Per-Erik Larsson Andra utgåvan, första tryckningen Förlag: BoD - Books on Demand, Stockholm, Sverige Tryck: BoD - Books on Demand, Norderstedt, Tyskland ISBN 978-91-7785-667-2
WISDOM A LIFE WELL LIVED OR MY JOURNEY AS A SCHIZOPHRENIC
Per-Erik Larsson
CONTENTS
Preface 8
Part 1: An Excursion in Modern Psychology 11 Introduction 13 Human Nature 14 Consciousness from a Developmental Perspective 21 Dependent Origination: A Buddhist Concept 29 Oneness 30 The Creation and Path of the Universe 32 A Complex World 36 Ideas that Make Up Our Reality 40 Society is a Machine 41 The Unconscious 45 How to Program Your Unconscious 47 Emotions 48 Personality 50 Stress 52 Habits and Compensatory Behaviors 52 Anxiety 54 Neuroses 55 Psychosis 56 Theory for Hearing Voices 57 Depression 57 Suicide 58
We All Sit in a Prison 59 Power and Decision-Making 60 Women: The First Sex 62 Structural and Cultural Violence 64 Theory for Evolution within an Animal Species 69 A Buddhist View 72 Happiness 73 Happiness Step by Step 87 Personality Disorders 92 Autism Spectrum Disorders 109
Part 2: Psychology, History, and Society 111 Introduction 113 Society, Politics, and Reality 113 The Authoritarian Archetype 115 A Historical Perspective 117 Society as a Reflection of Our Instincts 120 Society as an Organism 122 Society 123 Egypt 124 Western Societies of Today 125 A Society Based on an Unsustainable System 126 How to Manipulate and Control the World 128 The Past and Future of Western Societies 133 Components that Make Up Western Society 134 In Closing 136
Part 3: Schizophrenia 139 Introduction 141 My Childhood 142 How I was Set Up 143 How Schizophrenia Works 147 A Short Account of What Schizophrenia is Today 149 What Psychiatry is All About 156 Famous People with Schizophrenic Personality 158 The Effect of My Life on Society 160 My Experience of God 162
Afterword 172
PREFACE This book is divided into three parts. Part 1 is the manuscript that Part 2 is based on. Part 1 is based on my model of the personality, which to a large extent is based on introspection and to a lesser degree on observation. I begin with presenting my view of the personality, which I a bit presumptuous call human nature. After that I continue with an investigation into the creation of the Universe. After that I start to explain everything that is psychological to its nature that I have learned as a schizophrenic over the past 20 years. That includes a new theory for evolution. I round off by looking at how well personality disorders can be explained using my personality model. Part 2 is all about applying the theories presented in Part 1 to the institutions of society and history. It is all about holistic thinking. Part 3 covers schizophrenia a little bit more in detail from my perspective. Most of Part 1, especially the structure and outline were done between 2000 and 2005. In the second half of 2005 I was heavily medicated, and this medication lasted until 2010. From 2010 to 2019 I used my time to improve and expand the manuscript. The reason I had to use so much time improving on the manuscript was that the original was written in a manic state and as such I was not able to reflect over the content at the time. Part 2 was written during the first half of 2005. Part 3 was written in 2011 after my last hospital stay and material has been added from time to time. So now you know I am schizophrenic. You wonder perhaps if that does not mean that the personality has broken down. That is correct. Normally the label schizophrenic is given to someone who has suffered a breakdown of his or her personality. However, as we will see later the label schizophrenic is also attached to normal functioning individuals in order to give God a go ahead to persecute the individual in question. From this we understand that psychiatrists are nothing more than modern day witchdoctors.
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Psychiatrists’ uses different labels as curses and the most powerful curse at their discretion is schizophrenia. Considering the meaning of schizophrenia, you may wonder what I can know about personality. Actually a lot, the truth about schizophrenia is that it is a test designed by God and psychiatry. The purpose of the test is to see if the schizophrenic has a strong enough personality to withstand the worst that God and psychiatry can come up with. Psychiatrists know with 99% certainty who is a schizophrenic when you are admitted to a psychiatric clinic. If they have some reason to believe you are going to be a hard nut to crack, they label you a schizophrenic. That was the case with me back in 1997. The reason for this is that most people try to adapt to new circumstances they are put in by adopting the behavior expected from them. This is called labeling theory. So, this is the first test to see if your personality is going to hold up. After that follows test upon test of the personality, all meant to break it down. As you might understand from the above, I am extremely well-suited to write about psychology and especially about personality psychology. The only thing that historically bears any resemblance to psychiatric practice is New Orleans Voodoo. You will be the judge whether I have suffered a breakdown or am the victim of structural violence. Now you can read my book and hopefully appreciate it.
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