39 Dahlia Al-Shelleby
This new identity It had been a sunny August day. I had popped into the town centre for some ingredients to make macaroons with a friend later that evening. Walking back to my flat, I became aware of a man catching up with me, in a buzzing Millennium Square, eager to strike up a conversation. With sparse grey hair and dark, minimally weathered skin, he looked to be in his fifties and spoke broken English. I realized this was the same man who’d asked me where he could find an item back at one of the shops I’d been to earlier that day, so I made polite conversation for a short while as we walked. Being a medical student, I had my own little shortcut home, walking through a partly disused hospital. To my surprise, this man continued walking with, and sometimes, behind me. All conversation had fizzled out as we marched through the main corridor of the old part of the hospital. Panic rising, I felt my heart begin to pound as I walked further along the deserted corridor. Questions clouded my thoughts. What were his intentions? Was it really a good idea to continue walking in a place so deserted with him by my side? My senses heightened, I tried to replay in my head the basic self-defense moves I had learnt in karate. Despite its teachings emphasizing technique over strength, I was unable to ignore the simple fact that I could easily be overpowered. I had sparred with men; it was different from sparring with pre-teen boys. Biology was against me. As I walked on, getting closer to home with each step, I decided to confront him. ‘Where are you going? Are you lost?’ An unwelcome nervous edge crept into my voice. I couldn’t have him find out where I lived. He was noticeably taken aback at my directness but allowed me to redirect him. He claimed he was visiting a relative who was unwell with pneumonia when, in fact, it was a labour ward and maternity unit that were nearby. I pointed him to the nearest ward with advice to ask at the reception desk. As he turned and began to walk away, I proceeded to run down the stairs, out of the entrance, and the rest of my way home, looking back hesitantly before I turned to enter my building. Relieved no harm had come to me, but fearful he’d find me walking out of my front door one day, I found my mind swirling with anxious thoughts for the next few weeks. I became aware
