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Annotations What is God like? Many people ask themselves, whether there really is a God. And if so, what he‘s like. Is he maybe far away, absent, not interested in our lives? Or possibly mean and waiting to punish us for our mistakes? Everyone has their own ideas which have shaped them. While searching for God and his character it makes sense to look into the Bible. God is described there in all his facets. The Bible is nothing other than God‘s (love-)story to the people. Whoever wants to know what God is like, can‘t find an answer without looking into the Bible.

God the creator At the beginning of the Bible we read how it was God who created the universe, the earth and all life. The whole creation carries God‘s fingerprint. Everything came from his idea and creativity. And we humans are the crown of his creation. We aren‘t random products but originate out of God‘s thoughts. He wanted us. Every person is wanted by God. We are created in the image of God. This gives us value and dignity. Genesis 1:26-27 Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.” So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. Psalms 139:13-18 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.

A God of Love An unmistakable trait of God is that he is a God of love. In God we find the purest love imaginable. He is the origin of love. He is the inventor of love. God‘s love always searches for someone to share it with and finds that in us humans. God loves people! Every single one. It doesn‘t matter whether we believe in him or not. It doesn‘t matter how “good” we are or how much guilt we carry around with us. It doesn‘t matter whether we are healthy, sick or disabled. God‘s love is for us and nothing can cause him to take it back or revoke it. His love for us is rock solid even if we may feel unloved. The proof of God‘s love culminated in him sending his son Jesus Christ onto this earth to sacrifice his life for us on the cross. God‘s love for us is more than empty words. He let his love cost him a high price! 1 John 4:7-10 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.

A God who empathizes Because God made us and loves us from the bottom of his heart, he cares about us. He can empathize with us and cares how we live and how we feel. Even though he is God, he can feel our human pain and needs. In Jesus Christ God experienced being human himself. Who, if not he, knows hopelessness, loneliness and helplessness. Even if other people can‘t always feel what we are going through, God can! Hebrews 4:15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin.

The human and his problem God didn‘t create the human as a remote-controlled robot who only does what God wants. The human is fitted with a free will. This is part of the dignity that God gave

him. This means that he is free to choose between good and evil. Sadly, he often chooses evil. Beginning with Adam and Eve and continuing through all of humanity up until our present lives: Often we don‘t ask about God who made us or intentionally rebel against him and his commandments by breaking them. The Bible calls this sin. Sin separates us from God. It makes a relationship with him impossible. The relationship between God, the creator, and the crown of his creation, the human, was ruined by the sins of the human beings. Sin expresses itself differently with everyone. There is no point in comparing oneself thinking that the other peoples‘ sins are much worse. In the end there is not a single person who lives without sin and can come anywhere close to God‘s holy standard. Whoever is honest with himself will recognize his own sin against God and other people. Every one of us is guilty! One day God will judge the sins of all people. The punishment will be eternal death, eternal separation from God. Romans 5:12 Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all people, because all sinned. Mark 7:20-22 (Jesus) went on: “What comes out of a person is what defiles them. For it is from within, out of a person’s heart, that evil thoughts come—sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly.

The solution of the problem We humans aren‘t able to solve our sin-problem ourselves. All attempts of self-redemption are sure to fail. The sin which we have loaded upon ourselves not only stands between us and God, but also has a destructive impact on ourselves and our relationships to other people. We need redemption from someone else. There is no other way! God suffers from the fact that his human children go their own way. He longs for a healed relationship with them. He would love to see that people are free and able to live from a loving relationship with him. This great love caused God to do everything necessary himself to completely solve the

sin-problem of humans once and for all. That was the reason that about 2,000 years ago he sent his son Jesus Christ onto this earth. He wanted to show all people, how much God loves them and how kind he is to them. In his death upon the cross God‘s sinless son voluntarily carried the just punishment for the sins of all people: death. He died in the place of all other people - he sacrificed his own life out of love for us. Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 2 Corinthians 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Trusting God‘s solution God himself came to people and built a bridge for them. Now the way to God is free again! A new life has become possible! A life of freedom, forgiveness and joy. A life full of hope and a new perspective. But it is up to every person individually whether he wants to go across this bridge. Everyone can and must decide for himself whether he trusts that this bridge really exists in the person of Jesus Christ and that this bridge will really carry him. The Bible calls this step of trust “faith” and invites us to it in many places. God gave us Jesus Christ as a present. This present is for every person. But it is up to us to unwrap it! John 14:6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Ephesians 2:8-9 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.

Which meaning can this present have for your life? Maybe if you have had an abortion, you are wondering whether everything said also applies to your situation. The answer is a definite: YES! This offer of God is not just for a few select people, but really for every person. It doesn‘t matter how your life has gone so far. It doesn‘t matter whether you‘ve been asking about God or not. It doesn‘t matter how the abortion came about. God wants to forgive you, free you from your sin and enable you a life full of hope. This is because he loves you with all his heart! Jeremiah 29:11-13 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.[…]” 2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come. The old has gone, the new is here!

And the babies? Perhaps you are asking yourself: what happened to the aborted babies? Where are they now? You can trust that they are with God now, since they didn‘t even have the possibility to cross over the bridge “Jesus Christ” through a decision by faith. Now they are close to God. There, there is no sorrow and there aren‘t any tears, only security and love.

Revelation 21: 4 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.

The decision You can‘t reverse what has already happened. No matter how much you may wish to do so. The only thing you can do, is to choose now how to deal with the past. God invites you to entrust him with your burdens, your story and your life. He longs so much for you to come to him in complete trust and begin to talk to him and get to know him better. He can turn brokenness and pain into healing and restoration. Trust him! If you want to take this step into a relationship with God, I suggest you speak the following prayer:

Jesus Christ, I accept your invitation and come to you with all my sins, with all my guilt. Please forgive me! I thank you for dying on the cross for me. I turn away from all evil and turn to you, Lord Jesus. I put my trust in you. You are the son of the living God. Thank you, that you were resurrected from the dead and are alive. You are my redeemer, my Lord and my God. I thank you for accepting me as your child. I open myself for your Holy Spirit and want to follow you all my life. In Jesus‘ name! Amen! Don‘t stay alone with your newly found faith in God. Seek contact to Christians and a church. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you the best and God‘s blessings for the rest of your life.

Epilogue There are situations, in which you don‘t have enough strength. In some situations, you just don‘t know where to get the strength to carry on. You feel inhibited and pressured. You have to make a decision, you alone. This decision has far-reaching consequences and also affects the lives of other people. I know this kind of situation. In 2005 I was pregnant and my unborn child was diagnosed with “exencephalus”. In my life situation at that time I couldn‘t imagine giving birth to the child and then watch it die. The doctors gave me little hope that a child could survive without a skullcap. So, I aborted my child in the 14th week of my pregnancy. His name was Luca. He was only as big as my thumb. Yet he still was a complete person even though he didn‘t have a skull and was not able to survive without me. Even though I didn‘t believe in God, I got together with a Lutheran pastor for a small funeral on my grandmother‘s grave. That I had taken my child out of the protective shell of my body, caused me to have deep sadness and depresssion the following four years. I felt that I had done something that in some way wasn‘t right. I had lived over 30 years of my life without God and hadn‘t really asked about him. I just always did, what I felt was right. Sometimes that went well, sometimes it didn‘t. In the end I always felt lonely, even when I was around other people. I pushed the thought, that God could exist, far away and considered it the imagination of simpleminded people. Often, I talked about God with my best friend. She had just come to faith and I was her discussion“victim”. Even though the repetitive hints annoyed me, I felt a longing become stronger within me. I had felt that longing in the past. But so far there hadn‘t been anyone who could fill that emptiness. Frequently, I thought about what it would be like if God existed. Would he be able to see everything? Would he then know everything? How would he feel about me? My selfimage at that time was such that I could not imagine anyone loving me to the end of this world and past it. If that was already impossible for people, how should it be possible for God? One evening, as I was lying in bed, fear of death overcame me. This same fear had

plagued me as a child and at other times throughout my life. That evening I was more desperate than ever before. My whole life seemed so pointless to me. Through my friend I had found out that every person can talk to God at any time through a prayer. I prayed: “Jesus, if you really exist, make this fear go away!” Within seconds the fear which had been tormenting me since my childhood was gone. Jesus had heard my prayer and freed me from my fear. The God, who created everything, had listened to me! That was a true miracle! The wish to get to know Jesus grew in me. I began to pray regularly. I read the Bible. I went to church. And so, I got to know Jesus better and better – and I still do so to this day. A few months after becoming a Christian I was absorbed in praying and had the courage to give God my sin and pain regarding the abortion. He forgave my sin and healed my wounds. I know that Luca is with God, in his protecting hand. I can look forward now. That is my wish for you: that you are able to look forward, I wish that you would accept God‘s friendly hand and dive into his love. I also pray for this book in your hands that God will use it to help you. In the appendix you will find a list of addresses. The people behind them will gladly listen to you. The organization “Sei Willkommen e.V.”, that distributes the book “Marinus”, will gladly help you further if you are looking for Christian organizations and confidential pastoral care close to you. God has good thoughts about you, even if you may not believe it (yet). May the Lord bless you and give you his peace!

Helpful addresses and links (Last updated: September 2021, subject to alterations) You have aborted and would like to talk to someone about it? Here is a possible place of contacts where you can find someone to talk to.

Rahel e.V. Wormser Str. 3 76287 Rheinstetten Telefon: 07242 / 953780 Exchange of experience and help by e-mail: Information about the association: You have aborted and would like to come to terms with what has happened? We can recomment the following courses that offer help based on Christian-pastoral care:

Endlich wieder leben – Aufarbeitungskurs nach Abtreibung (Finally live again – course to come to terms after abortion) Contact person: Erika Wick Office: 09127-90 37 501 Mobile number: 0151 - 23 77 95 15 (possible to contact via WhatsApp)

SaveOne – 10-Schritte-Programm (SaveOne – a 10-step-program) Book order on:

Rachels Weinberg — Heilsame Hoffnung nach Abtreibung (Rachel‘s vineyard — healing hope after abortion) Contact person: Christiane Kurpik Domhof 8 31134 Hildesheim Phone number: 05121 / 133761

You are pregnant and don‘t feel able to have the child? The following contacts are a possible place to talk with people, who won‘t force anything upon you, but are gladly willing to simply listen to you.

VitaL-Beratung für Schwangere (VitaL-counseling for pregnant women) Free of charge, reachable at all times Phone number: 0800 / 36 999 63 Phone number from abroad: 00800 / 36 9999 63

Pro Femina e.V. Advice center Bavaria: Widenmayerstraße 16, 80538 Munich Advice center Heidelberg: Bergstraße 114, 69121 Heidelberg Free consultation hotline in Germany: 0 8000 606767 Free consultation hotline in Switzerland and Austria: 00 8000 6067670

Advice Center Weißes Kreuz Bielefeld Danziger Straße 42 33605 Bielefeld Phone number: 0521 / 71155

You have been informed that your child will die during childbirth or shortly afterwards, because it suffers from anencephaly? The following contact offers information about this neural tube defect as well as many experiences and photos of affected families. There is also the opportunity to contact affected parents. Did your unborn child get a life-shortening diagnosis? Have you lost your child early? Support of expectant parents of unborn children with life-shortening illnesses and/or severe handicaps. Also for early orphaned parents, help in grief in case of silent birth, support in case of early loss of the child.

Bärenherz – Begleitung werdender und früh verwaister Eltern (Bärenherz – Support of expectant and early orphaned parents) Wandersmannstraße 7 65205 Wiesbaden Phone number: 0611 - 360 1110 70 Fax: 0611 - 360 1110 50 If you are from Austria and are searching for an address close to you, where you can find comprehensive information, a consultation or other help, then gladly check out this contact:

Österreichische Lebensbewegung Rasumofskygasse 1/8 A-1030 Vienna free helpline: +43 (0) 664 2000 466 e-mail address:

Under this point you will find helpful addresses/courses/information about pregnancy, abortion and coming to terms with it:

Helpful Adresses in all states – TCLG Phone number: 030 / 52139939

Kaleb e.V Augustusburger Str. 121 09126 Chemnitz

Weißes Kreuz e.V. 34292 Ahnatal/ Kassel Phone number: 05609 / 83990

About Hannah The authors and contributors to this book come from the area of North Rhine-Westphalia. They call themselves “Hannah” as a team and together they all stand behind the form and contents of “Marinus”. “They” are the author/affected person (responsible for the story and epilogue), the pastor of the protestant free church (annotations), the illustator and staff members of Weißes Kreuz e.V. (who supported the creation of the book through their consultation). The association “Sei Willkommen e.V.” distributes the book “Marinus”. If you have any questions, remarks or suggestions, feel free to contact the association: Sei Willkommen e.V. If you liked the book or it helped you, you are welcome to support us through a donation. We would also be happy to receive your feedback on our homepage! Please also contact this address if you would like to order a free copy in German for yourself or to give away.

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