ISSUE 01
EPISODE INFINITE
THE ENNUI OF CONVENIENCE SAVANNAH SELIMI
The concept of the ‘High-School Sweethearts’ makes me feel queasy. Not because of the title’s oversaturated stance in rom-coms, but because it sends me into a pit of overthinking. Thinking; About how these two people met in high school. In the same town. In the same city. In the same state. In the same country. Even in the same Universe. They must have grown up together, staring at blemished faces, through a million different lenses. A boyband-obsessed fourteen year old lens; an obnoxious eighteen-year-old bloodshoteyed lens, and the ages continue and continue until they die together, staring at the same faces, now wrinkly, and now through greyed eyes. I’m off track. And depending on your ideations on love, that could sound quite beautiful, actually. This facetious fear of people owing their love to proximity, is just a disguise. That’s not the real thing that causes me useless worry. If I had to give a name to it, what I am most afraid of is the ennui of convenience. What I mean by this is subduing to a life that is so comfortable, easy and predictable - or convenient - that I miss the life behind it. So I suppose I don’t really care about high school sweethearts, as much as I am dumbfounded by the idea that people don’t overthink the convenience of everything as much as I do. What I know for sure, though, is that I’m not alone in this thought-process. It just doesn’t have a name in the social conscience yet. Gen Z are quite terrified of The Convenient, too. For instance, remember those ‘dream life’ TikToks that once flooded your For You
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