A friend brought me coffee, out of the blue, right to my door.
If God hasn’t given up on me yet, I probably shouldn’t either.
I received a note from a friend on a day that had gone rather horribly and it brightened my day.
If God tells me not to be timid, then I guess I shouldn’t say “Oh, woe as me, I’ve gotten too old to make a difference in the world”.
One of my boys had a particular tough situation at school and I took him out for a wake to talk about it and let him know he was loved.
God also says “Get going.”
We had a family night in which we all just cuddled together and watched TV and ate ice cream. “This is the greatest night in a long time,” they said. Someone emailed me, someone I don’t know at all, to let me know that my blog posts encouraged them and made them laugh regularly.
It’s about all little things. The things we do every day and shrug and say “Ah, that’s nothing.” All that nothing adds up to something pretty great. I may not ever be a world renowned author, but I am learning more and more to look to God and be more open to what He would like me to do. Those are the little things that make me a woman who makes a difference. I have written Joshua 1:1-9 and taped it up on my wall by my computer. “Get going. I’ll be with you. I won’t give up on you; I won’t leave you. Strength! Courage! Give it everything you have, heart and soul. Don’t get off track, either left or right, so as to make sure you get where you’re going. Ponder and meditate on (the Bible) day and night. Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take.”
If you don’t like what your life is looking like, then get going. A great place to start is right in God’s word. It keeps you on track. And it’s midlife people. Let’s not waste time off track. I don’t want to be so mournful of not making a difference that I miss making a difference in my boy’s lives. I don’t want to say, “Sheesh husband, we’ve been married this long and what have we got to show for it other than a lot of exhaustion?” No, I want to look forward to the future and not miss the present. Little things. Little things like actually having that silly picnic in the middle of the yard with my boys when they ask because they will stop asking. Putting my book down and actually cuddling next to my husband at night. Saying yes when I can, to my boys, but knowing when to look at them and say “enough is enough” so they don’t miss their childhood. I don’t know what God’s plan is for me. I did not see this life coming at me. And, honestly, it’s better than anything I could have planned, so I think I’ll just let Him keep it up. Keep on showing me how to make a big difference in the little world around me.
Praise and Coffee | Spring 2013