The Reason Why

The Reason Why

By Niko Herrera

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

You’re so insecure; you need to put that to the side

That is not the way baby, that you’re gonna fly

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

You wanted Mom’s attention; she was with some other guy

When I had a bad dream, she was not in sight

Looking for my mama, but she kept into the night

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

Daddy wasn’t there; he was somewhere getting high

Banging with the homies. He was always down to ride

But I wish he would have come home, took me for a drive

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

Your hood wasn’t good where you grew up; it was trifling, and by the age of nine, seen a couple people die

Thinking it was normal to carry around a knife

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

Used to get bullied, he was always undersized

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

Never good enough, contemplating suicide

You always felt alone and nobody really tried.

Fighting at school just to feel all right

All you wanted was some love—can’t somebody hold me tight?

You’re so hard to love, I know the reason why

I’ve done some bad things, I ain’t trying to glorify

The system got me down and I’m tired of doing time

When you put them cuffs on,why they got to be so tight?

I been in a dark world with only red and blue lights

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

Got yourself played by a pretty, evil, dime

She took my heart and broke it; Something inside me died

Now I’m hardheaded and everybody’s lying

Always paranoid, but it’s all up in my mind

Not looking at myself, or these demons that I hide.

You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why

Abuse is always wrong, on every single side

I thought you was my friend;

I was barely over five

Hurting those around you, but we know who’s hurt inside

Why do we do these things?

Why do we victimize?

You can hold tears for years, but sometimes you gotta cry

Forgiveness is the best thing— now that is not a lie

You’re so hard to love, I think I know the reason why

I was only hurt; I didn’t mean to do those crimes.