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Welcoming New Board Members to PHF Page 3
Meditation for Finding Yourself Again After Abuse. Page 4
October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month Page 9
PHF Magazine October 2018
Precious Hearts Foundation is excited to introduce to you our new Board of Director members to our Dauphin County, PA Chapter. Coming This Fall!!
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Meditation for Finding Yourself Again After Abuse. When we are or have been in an emotionally abusive relationship, our selfesteem, self-worth and confidence are extremely low. Some of us who grew up in an abusive family, never really understand what it is like to have to have self-esteem or confidence because if we find a glimmer of it, it is usually immediately suppressed for fear of retaliation or further abuse. Years of gaslighting can have a profound effect on a victim, not only do we struggle with self-esteem, feeling worthy but when we find ourselves in stressful situations, for example, voices raised in heated discussions, arguments erupting we find ourselves, as I call it, “hiding in plain sight�. We disappear from the situations in our minds, we become blank, in our minds, we detract ourselves and try to hide into something, anything. We choose a flower on the wallpaper and imagine we are hiding behind it, or our mind will simply crash, rather like a computer. It's our way of escaping the situations. PHF Magazine October 2018
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It is a known fact, that when a victim has been emotionally abused for years, they will hide like this but it has even sadder repercussions if we are faced with an accident or something traumatic. Think about how you might witness a car accident while going to the store, who runs in first to help the victim in the car after the crash and who stands and watches. How many times do we read or hear people say “I don't understand, why didn't they rush in to help?” Or imagine you are standing by the road and a car loses control, careering towards you, you stand frozen. Why? Because we have recognized danger and escaped into our minds, just like we did through the abuse. It's normal to react this way when we have been abused, it's our emotional self-preservation. It can feel distressing after we have left the abuse behind, to move on and yet still find ourselves emotionally detaching and using distractions of something like the image of the flower on the wallpaper to escape. Our minds go blank, we are not present at the moment, we “zone out.” Although we do it out of self-preservation, we are missing out on so much, being fully involved. They say that when an accident occurs, people run for cover, however, those of us who have been abused will stand, frozen and will likely be in the way of the accident, instead of running to save ourselves. This in itself is tragic.
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So how can we repair the years of emotional damage which was steeped upon us? We know that by hiding is a brains natural way of coping, which was taught over time, so we need to re-train our mind to react differently. We need to take our mind back to school and re-wire it, so to speak. Over time our neural pathways in our minds have to come to understand fight or flight is to simply escape inward. We can adjust this pattern though over time, re-train our minds, fix our neural pathways. Think of it this way, normally, in a brain we have little guys walking down little, tiny paths carrying messages around helping us respond to daily life. In a fight or flight situation, they start running to carry the messages to aid survival, but in a person who has been emotionally abused, they can simply just stand still, they don't walk or run, they just freeze. We need to help train these little guys to keep on walking and not to freeze. How do we re-train our neural pathways? Brain surgery? No, of course of not. We start meditation! It has been proven scientifically that meditation and mindfulness, staying present in the moment actually re-trains and heals our neural pathways. How amazing is that?
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We hear in recovery how people can't afford treatment and it's true, sadly many treatments are expensive but meditation is free. Of course, there are apps out there that you can pay a subscription for but there are so many now that are free on websites for listening or downloading. There are masses of free guided meditations on YouTube alone! People often say to me that they don't have time to meditate, my answer is simple, do you have time to take a shower? The answer of course is yes, so then in that case you have time to take 2 minutes in the shower to just stand, close your eyes and take a note of your breathing, simply inhale deeply and exhale slowly for those two minutes, clear your mind, focus simply on your breath, count them if you need to and hey presto! You are meditating!
Many people think meditating has to be for hours, for gurus and yogis, for sitting cross-legged in a yoga pose, not the case at all! Actually, in Hindi, there is Yogini, which is a girls name, it means “One who controls the senses.” Within a month of meditating, you will find you can cope with stressful situations, without panicking or closing down. You will be able to stay present, focused, your neural pathways will be healing and your little guys in your brain carrying messages will now understand that they need to keep walking. You will start to notice the present moment, becoming not only wonderful at healing your mind, but you will also become what they term these days, “mindful”. You start to notice your surroundings more, of birds and butterflies, of people smiling and laughing.
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It's rather like someone has turned on a light in your mind, seeing things in everyday life, that we missed out on so much while we struggled mentally and emotionally. As you start to meditate more frequently, we can start to heal within, we find answers to the questions which dogged us. We start to feel and understand ourselves, grow compassion and inner love. I've found when times become stressful, I can simply find a moment to simply breathe, unwind, take a mini mindful vacation. It feels decadent, priceless and selfishly, all mine. Life becomes illuminated and it is a wonderful first step to recovery and healing from emotional abuse.
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October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month
Write to us and let us know what you have planned and are doing this month. Send in your photos and we'll include them into our next edition in January! Have a story to tell? Submit your story and we'll publish it! We believe that sharing is caring! Let others know they are not alone in their journey PHF Magazine October 2018
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ABUSE IS NEVER OKAY IF YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW IS A VICTIM OF DOMESTIC ABUSE, CALL 9-1-1 OR YOUR LOCAL DOMESTIC ABUSE SHELTER
1-877-731-2210 FLAGLER BEACH EMERGENCY SHELTER FOR MEN
PALM COAST EMERGENCY SHELTER FOR WOMEN AND CHILDREN
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