or script shows me how to direct it and form it into something I want it to be. I had a model for childhood friendship, and a fair amount for surface-level friendships, but I don’t have one for deep, intimate friendships or asexual relationships, whether platonic or romantic, because society doesn’t provide them for me and I haven’t built them up myself yet through experience. I remain completely inexperienced in these matters, so I feel lost and scared, and I tend to stick to what I know I can do, to continue the facade that is passing as “normal.” This leads to a lack of satisfaction with my relationships. I think that in order for me to have the satisfying, deep relationships I desire, it’s going to take me a lot more work than the average person. Another concept I think Pals could have
benefitted from discussing is the idea of the queerplatonic/quasiplatonic relationship. The
term “queerplatonic” was coined by S. E. Smith, in these words:
“Queerplatonic is a word for describing
relationships where an intense emotional
connection transcending what people usually
think of as ‘friendship’ is present, but the relationship is not romantic in nature;
people in a queerplatonic relationship may
think of themselves as partners, may plan on
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