what i have (and what i want) By Jasmine Dean
i have never been one to be honest with myself or others i hide behind masks and mirages and makeshift smiles and try to be a comet in a sky full of stars but my kindness is built on despair and without strength it comes crashing down. (when you try to help everyone who helps you?) i have difficulty imagining a world where i am the being beneath the mask a world where i am what i want to be. (what do i want to be?) i cannot imagine a world where i am not burdened by my thoughts by my shortcomings by my past by my failures by myself. the world is too bright too beautiful to be sullied by someone as dull as me.
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(why can’t i feel the mask i wear? where does my illusion end and i begin?) time and time again i wish i dream i hope that i will improve. (that i can be something more than this) i want to make a future where people (children) (adults) are not burdened by their greatest gift (their minds) (their thoughts) and don’t have to suffer by themselves (like me) (like so, so many) in the dark i dream of a future where people are kind to others and themselves in words and in actions soft yet strong because people deserve happiness safety love but they don’t deserve to be alone.