LIGHT UP MAG
JORNEY
Can you share the key methods or practices that helped you heal old childhood trauma and rediscover your true self? I went back and looked at what I had been avoiding for most of my life – what we all avoid – and that is the pain of our childhood. The unmet needs, the less-than-ideal circumstances, the broken hearts we pretend are ok, the trauma we minimize because “others have it so much worse…” I took a timeout from life to honour my path to that very point – how I got there and what it cost me along the way. In doing so I learned so much about myself – who I had become and WHY I became the way I was. This enabled me to see that much of my personality was formed as a result of something that happened – as a way to cope with whatever that was. I started to understand that this was not really me but a way the human part of me learned to deal with a world that often caused her pain – the protection mechanism.
WITHIN
And if it was developed this way – I could certainly change it, if it no longer fit who I wanted to become – someone who’s free from the wounds of her past. Understanding how a child develops and how a personality is formed was such a big key and a great starting point. The second was feeling all my unprocessed pain – it was stuck in my body, my energy, my nervous system and the way forward was to hold all of it with tenderness and compassion in order not to repress or resist it – but to allow it to simply dissolve. That’s what happens when we learn to sit in the discomfort of our pain – it simply loses its power over us. Somatic work – learning to experience what the young child had no tools to process was a process I relied on. It freed me from all the layers of pain and hurt I carried which prevented me from seeing the truth of who I was. Not the woman fighting for survival but a sacred, whole, tender soul having a human experience.
