The LSWA Arts & Literary Journal
Pause Š 2020 Lloyd Scholars for Writing and the Arts, University of Michigan
Cover: Lit Me Up by Lauren Smith Editors-in-Chief: Alexis Aulepp and Emily Buckley Managing Editor: Suzi F. Garcia Editors-at-Large: Jerry Ahn, Caleb PJ Bauman, Trey Droste, Ena Humphries, Azaria Knight, Eileen Kelly, Brooke Lange, Michelle Liu, Alexa Martinez, Becca Morgan, Lauren Peng, Lauren Smith Director: Carol Tell Art Director: Mark Tucker Administrative Services: Tina Kokoris Student Services: Stacey Parker Our mission is to create a student-run publication that showcases vibrant and engaging work produced in Lloyd Scholars for Writing and the Arts during the academic year. The LSWA Arts & Literary Journal is funded in part by a gift from Jeanne and Will M. Caldwell to the College of Literature, Science, and the Arts.
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Table of Contents Poetry A Whole Lot of Love by Maddie Agne For Bakker (Whose Name Is Protected) by Maddie Agne* Mary by Maddie Agne* Men with Intentions by Maddie Agne Oh, Sweet Ares by Maddie Agne Rumpelstiltskin by Maddie Agne* an elegy to the girl i killed by Ray Ajemian an open letter to the mirror in the back of my head by Ray Ajemian Last night I turned to water by Abby Anderson A Darkness by Alexis Aulepp Rebirth by Alexis Aulepp Underwatered by Alexis Aulepp A Women’s Sonnet For Our Past and Present Assassins by Kailyn Bondoni** Rant by Caitlin Crittenden Manscaping by Alejandro Derieux Cerezo*
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Descriptions of “Pin Rug” by Mona Hatoum by Alejandro Derieux Cerezo* I love you, Malus pumila by Krysten Dorfman** Apocalypse Poem by Marjorie Gaber** According to Legend by Dylan Gilbert* I am surprisingly alive by Dylan Gilbert* I like eating air with chopsticks on top of mountains by Cynthia Huang** Roses by Sabriya Imami grocery shopping for independence by Rachna Iyer streetlight eyes by Rachna Iyer Cool Sexy Hairstyles for Men w/ Curly Hair by Ahmad Kady* What I’m doing, and why by Ahmad Kady* jacket by Eileen Kelly Closing time in the city by Priscilla Kim The wonderful rules of love by Brooke Lange* Dust Mite by Brooke Lange* The Female Pelvis by Brooke Lange* To Cure Period Cramps by Brooke Lange* Red by Dawn H. Lau Bedrock Winter by Steve Liu* Hands by Steve Liu
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Table of Contents Kesi by Steve Liu Promotion Day by Steve Liu* Our World is a Dog Pound by Alexa Martinez The Time You Forgot Me by Alexa Martinez Diva by Giselle Mills** Self-Portrait of Who I Wish I Wasn’t by Giselle Mills** Origins by Harper Purvin The Depths by Nikki Ratanapanichkich The Roots by Nikki Ratanapanichkich Home by M.A. Steel a poem of B’s by Kayla Tate** disappointing my ancestors & shit. by Kayla Tate Please Tell Me by Janelle Woods
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Prose Scarves by Charlotte Brown Your Cane Makes Dots in the Snow Just Like How My Tears Do by Cynthia Huang
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Flow by Eileen Kelly Pauline by Eileen Kelly My Father’s Hands by Hannah Niswander Legible Intimacy by Sydney Reed
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Koala by Sinan Abdulhak Night in Heaven by Sinan Abdulhak Gathered by Alexis Aulepp Love Hurts by Alexis Aulepp Consider Me by Paul Balko Tarot Projection by Zachary Behrman Delicate by Emily Buckley Mother Nature by Emily Buckley Our Community by Emily Buckley The Physical is Political by Emily Buckley Beach Babes by Lauren Champlin Fireworks by Lauren Champlin Georgina (by request of V) by Amelia Espinosa
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Table of Contents Winter by Nadine Heilman Chicago by Sara Huang A Walk in the Woods by Eileen Kelly Purple Mountain Majesties by Eileen Kelly Falling by Dawn H. Lau Isabella Tiger Moth by Claire Lawler Wishes from a Hospital Room by Natalie Lyijynen Succulent Embroidery by Natalie Lyijynen Fleeting Dreams by Alena Manzor Tell Me Something I Don’t Know by Alena Manzor Womb Fruit by Maggie McKinney Sunset by Mara Metler A Bee’s Life by Hannah Niswander by Hannah Niswander Period Poverty by Nana Otaka Penpal Letter — Front by Lauren Peng Rotten by Lauren Peng Sony’s Almost Huge Mistake by Jordan Raschi Ring Ring by Lisa Ryou Breathing Lines by Dalia Schwarzbaum The Nature of Things by Dalia Schwarzbaum
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Orchid Ode by Nellie Shih Classic by Lauren Smith Lit Me Up by Lauren Smith Delicate by Seulbin (Christine) Sung Cow by Sui Lin Tam Textures of the Human Body by Sui Lin Tam Doodle Elegance is Refusal Wind and Waves by Nikki Weisman
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Contributors
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* Caldwell Winner ** Caldwell Honorable Mention
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A Whole Lot of Love by Maddie Agne
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For Bakker (Whose Name Is Protected) by Maddie Agne
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Mary by Maddie Agne
on our seed
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Men with Intentions by Maddie Agne
Men
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Oh, Sweet Ares by Maddie Agne
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Rumpelstiltskin by Maddie Agne
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an elegy to the girl i killed by Ray Ajemian
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an open letter to the mirror in the back of my head by Ray Ajemian
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Last night I turned to water by Abby Anderson
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A Darkness by Alexis Aulepp
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Rebirth by Alexis Aulepp
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Underwatered by Alexis Aulepp
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A Women’s Sonnet For Our Past and Present Assassins by Kailyn Bondoni
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Scarves by Charlotte Brown
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Rant by Caitlin Crittenden
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Manscaping by Alejandro Derieux Cerezo
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Other. You are Other.
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Descriptions of “Pin Rug� by Mona Hatoum by Alejandro Derieux Cerezo I. from moma.org Mona Hatoum. Pin Rug. 1999 Medium Stainless steel pins, canvas and glue Dimensions 3 x 124.5 x 188 cm II.
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whenever you want
if I have time III.
as an obstacle cont.
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digression
What if you never speak? Well, I guess you just die
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I love you, Malus pumila by Krysten Dorfman
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Apocalypse Poem by Marjorie Gaber
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According to Legend by Dylan Gilbert
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I am surprisingly alive by Dylan Gilbert
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Your Cane Makes Dots in the Snow Just Like How My Tears Do by Cynthia Huang
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I like eating air with chopsticks on top of mountains by Cynthia Huang
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Feminine
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Roses by Sabriya Imami
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grocery shopping for independence by Rachna Iyer
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streetlight eyes by Rachna Iyer
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Cool Sexy Hairstyles for Men w/ Curly Hair by Ahmad Kady Ethnic Hair Care please teks
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What I’m doing, and why by Ahmad Kady antiques & uniques
kalimni 3lal Viber ya walad
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jacket by Eileen Kelly
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Flow by Eileen Kelly
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Koala by Sinan Abdulhak
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Night in Heaven by Sinan Abdulhak
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Gathered by Alexis Aulepp
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Love Hurts by Alexis Aulepp
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Consider Me by Paul Balko
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Tarot Projection by Zachary Behrman
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Delicate by Emily Buckley
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Mother Nature by Emily Buckley
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Our Community by Emily Buckley
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The Physical is Political by Emily Buckley
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Beach Babes by Lauren Champlin
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Fireworks by Lauren Champlin
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Georgina (by request of V) by Amelia Espinosa
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Winter by Nadine Heilman
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Chicago by Sara Huang
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A Walk in the Woods by Eileen Kelly
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Purple Mountain Majesties by Eileen Kelly
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Falling by Dawn H. Lau
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Isabella Tiger Moth by Claire Lawler
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Wishes from a Hospital Room by Natalie Lyijynen
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Succulent Embroidery by Natalie Lyijynen
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Fleeting Dreams by Alena Manzor
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Tell Me Something I Don’t Know by Alena Manzor
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Womb Fruit by Maggie McKinney
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Sunset by Mara Metler
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A Bee’s Life by Hannah Niswander
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by Hannah Niswander
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Period Poverty by Nana Otaka
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Penpal Letter — Front by Lauren Peng
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Rotten by Lauren Peng
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Sony’s Almost Huge Mistake by Jordan Raschi
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Ring Ring by Lisa Ryou
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Breathing Lines by Dalia Schwarzbaum
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The Nature of Things by Dalia Schwarzbaum
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Orchid Ode by Nellie Shih
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Classic by Lauren Smith
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Lit Me Up by Lauren Smith
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Delicate by Seulbin (Christine) Sung
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Cow by Sui Lin Tam
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Textures of the Human Body by Sui Lin Tam
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Doodle by Miffy Tani
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Elegance is Refusal by Miffy Tani
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Wind and Waves by Nikki Weisman
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Pauline by Eileen Kelly
interesting
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opossum
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Closing time in the city by Priscilla Kim
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The wonderful rules of love by Brooke Lange
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Dust Mite by Brooke Lange
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The Female Pelvis by Brooke Lange
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To Cure Period Cramps by Brooke Lange
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Red by Dawn H. Lau
choking me obsession
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What’s happening to my heart? I want you to look at me. Please.
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Red is my last memory of creativity. My wrists are aching. It’s a heart stain on the carpet. It’s the emotions I felt. Red is everything I see and the nothingness at the same time. It’s warmth pulsating belatedly. it taught me what I could never have.
eyes with emptiness. I’ve never seen red. I don’t know red.
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Bedrock Winter by Steve Liu
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Hands by Steve Liu
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Kesi by Steve Liu
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Promotion Day by Steve Liu
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Char Siu. Ring!
Ayah, ayah! Je me rends!
tellement mignon.
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Our World is a Dog Pound by Alexa Martinez
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The Time You Forgot Me by Alexa Martinez
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Gone
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Diva by Giselle Mills Diva :
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Self-Portrait of Who I Wish I Wasn’t by Giselle Mills
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My Father’s Hands by Hannah Niswander
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Origins by Harper Purvin
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The Roots by Nikki Ratanapanichkich
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Legible Intimacy by Sydney Reed
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This isn’t a formal letter, Yaya
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What is that? Why do you have so What are you gonna do They’re just
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“I don’t know… why would I?”
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Home by M.A. Steel
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a poem of B’s by Kayla Tate
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disappointing my ancestors & shit. by Kayla Tate inspired by Dylan Gilbert’s poem “I wonder who I’m here to make room for” I.
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Please Tell Me by Janelle Woods
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Contributors Sinan Abdulhak
Maddie Agne Pause.
Alexis Aulepp
Paul Balko
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Charlotte Brown
Lauren Champlin SHEI Magazine Caitlin Crittenden
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Contributors
Amelia Espinosa
Nadine Heilman
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Sara Huang
Priscilla Kim
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Contributors Brooke Lange
Claire Lawler
Steve Liu
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Mara Metler
Hannah Niswander
Nana Otaka
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Contributors Lauren Peng
Harper Purvin
Jordan Raschi
Nikki Ratanapanichkich
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Nellie Shih
Lauren Smith
M.A. Steel Seulbin (Christine) Sung
Sui Lin Tam
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Nikki Weisman
Janelle Woods
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