OPEN WOUNDS A Life Unrequited Issue One
too afraid to have you near because i’d rather love you from a distance than watch you lose interest in me completely. (me + you = us) {1}
“i cried that night because i knew you would leave me tomorrow… and you did.” “i cried again but only because you don’t think of my feelings, you enter my life whenever you please oblivious to the fact that each time you leave you reopen wounds that i’ve already patched up.” {2}
the girl i loved disappeared; left nothing but a letter and questions. i search for the color of her eyes in everyone i meet but i can’t find solace in anyone else’s like i did hers. come back? {3}
you tell me you love me but you yearn for many others… will i ever be enough? could i satisfy? { 4}
“please just promise me whatever happens you won’t leave.” whatever happens. whatever heartbreak you thrust on me. whatever disappointment you make me feel. whatever tears you force out of my eyes and on to my chin. promise I won’t leave. promise I’ll stay for the pain. promise I’ll always be strong enough to deal. {5}
i won’t leave. i won’t leave because i always leave first. i won’t leave because i decided you’re worth the fight. i won’t leave because i don’t have anywhere else to go. {6}
can you crack under the weight of all your feelings? will your head explode if someone too big to comprehend begins to fill your thoughts? will you die unknown or unloved completely by one person because you were too scared to let them know? would he hold you if you cried or would he run? {7}
i have so many questions, so little answers, and the person who holds the key to my sanity is running from me and getting faster every day. i cannot fight the darkness inside me alone any longer. i met you a year ago and since then you have saved my life a thousand times. {8}
you should have been sleeping three hours ago. but you’re drunk and in love. your ears are ringing and it’s turning into morning so you call him as the sun comes up. your voice is broken from yelling so you whisper now. he’s been sleeping and you woke him up, but you can hear the smile resting on his mouth. {9}
if you could touch his face and tell him that you love him, you would. you’ve never told him that. you’ve never told him how you feel because there wasn’t ever any time, and when there was… it wasn’t necessary. {10}
how do you feel ? r u n a w a y w i t h m e {11}
i just want to be happy. i want it to be real. {12}
i am an open wound, wounded by my failure in not telling you what you mean to me. there’s not much time left and i can’t decide if i love you… {13}
a heart that is prepared for battle but understands when it’s time to move on. an angel from the throne room of god. a girl you will charge with the task of saving you… no, the girl you want to watch as you save yourself. {14}
some days i feel overwhelmed without you here. then i remember i’ve been doing it on my own all along. {15}
when you hear your (ex)lover mutter another person’s name with the same syrupy emotion as they say yours don’t cry. {16}
“miss the way you would kiss my neck. the hidden glances you would give me from the peripheral of your eyes. i thought you’d stay. i’m guessing you ran into her … because i can’t seem to find you, not that i’ve been searching. i once did, but somewhere in my heart it just aches. i try to not think of you. i panic at the sound of your name.” {17}
“i can’t find the words… i can only feel the rush of what you give me. this has to be love. if not love, then what is it i feel?” {18}
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