Is the text improvised? Yes, it is mainly improvised text, sometimes I use quotes from texts (actually only once from a film). I address the audience with the text and it develops out of the the rehearsal process. What does it mean to produce work? Let me think for two hours‌‌ I develop an allergic reaction to this word, its frightening, while at the same time with whatever you do inevitably something is produced. I get stressed from the idea of working in order to produce something. This way of thinking doesn't help me.While when acknowledging all of our little diamonds during rehearsal, using everything in some sort of way makes the stress go away. In any case, most of my works have a loose structure, I don't really fix things- it just doesn't come easily to me. In my solo works, I have little islands of fixed points/material/events, all the rest I decide at the performance. I challenge my self with allowing all the possibilities open. When I work with other performers, there is a fixed structure, although I still keep open the microchapters of the structure. How did you start this research? I worked on a solo which I performed three-four times under different titles, but with the same materials, same costume, same song which came again and again but in different parts of the piece. This is what I mean by non- structure. The best title for this solo was the last: 'one is almost never'. At first when I made work, I felt like I was responding to other people's desires of what a work is supposed to be. Eventually I said to myself ' ok I will stand by my freedom of what it is that I do- this is what I do'. This freedom of doing things as I want, started in 2008, using 'what makes me enjoy the work' as my criterion. When I am on stage, I'd dare to say: 'I just want to perform this'. I like this indirect/direct way of connecting to the audience. It took me many years to achieve this state but now it works and I really enjoy it. When I work with other performers though I aim for a fixed structure. In rehearsal we try different things, we watch each other, we watch other forms of art and then in the end the structure appears like magic, like 'oh wow! this is it'. As it happened during a long process of 1.5 years of sporadic meetings, I would estimate 5 months of work condensed, after lots of rehearsal time and decision making crises, the structure just appeared one day, it just happened. Are you an artist? I ' m afraid of this word , also of the word dancer, I experience my own little imaginary earthquake when I need to relate to these words. It used to be an
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