Flashbacks: Echoes of Past Issues
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My mother does not know I grieve for then, for now, for her, she who has to have memories, questions, regrets maybe, but moreover a bed-made sense of having done what she had decided must be done. I do not ask her anything. I cannot now. I said little the time thirty years ago when she did talk of it. She was cleaning out the closet of her mind. A discarding. Here’s this sadness, her voice said, that I have not worn for years. What words could I summon then, with the knowing come suddenly upon me, a startling form separating from shadow? How unfairly I hate a little my grandmother, dead now, for frowning when I only wanted to bring sound into that stillness, for babysitting our unawareness, for taking us all there that day. And my father? I will never know what he said, what he thought. There are holes in my memory where he ought to be.
REFLECTion, 2019 (Polaroid sheet film, 26x26) by Brie Castell
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BRIE CASTELL received her MFA from East Carolina University in 2006, and was the owner and chief curator of Castell Photography Gallery in Asheville, NC. Her work has been exhibited throughout the US and is held in numerous private and public collections. She taught photography courses at ECU and Virginia Intermont College, among others, and she has been a reviewer at numerous Society for Photographic Education (SPE) national and regional conferences. She was a featured artist in Eyemazing Magazine, as well as in Eyemazing: The New Collectible Art Photography (Thames & Hudson, 2013). See more of her work on her website.