Nicholas Grider health class filmstrip sodomy artsy/grainy and you reveal no forgiveness on use value, no giftshop miniature rainbow coda, your highlight history isn’t yours, your silence is a rental, waiting means wandering, you’re still waiting for balagan dreams brightly lit, what you lay down upon will heal you and where you are is stranger
there’s no filmstrip: “Today’s life lesson is from the country in the world a little south of here known as Apology, you were there once on a student visa eavesdropping on the locals talking about moonlight and horseshit and how to maneuver” & how to build an exit instead of sputtering wandering is there a candle somewhere in you despite orders against saying everything is going to be okay, sincerity––herein your sincerity is verboten, begin again and yes one person loved you, trade routes lead there, speech therapy was sport, apology was mute button instead of shlecht tell it like it is and you only know what’s between sport and speech and say nothing only you listen in, now you’re a bleeding tongue pressed to clenched teeth
your language isn’t yours, never was, grants amnesty, glows in the dark
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