Nuckols – 1 – 11 different churches. Some of them became agnostic. I myself became an atheist, but—it’s more the, I basically became aware of kind of how toxic being compassionate without being aware of the implications of the superiority of that can be.
So for example, this is more of a gender and sexuality thing than a race thing so I don’t know how relevant it is. But the reason that I kind of stopped is because I have a friend who was born intersex and she has three X chromosomes and a Y chromosome. And when she started going through puberty—she was born looking male and then when she started going through puberty she had, she started growing like breasts and, and I think she had like kind of underdeveloped ovaries that actually started acting up and she had to have them removed and stuff.
So I basically was really struggling with the idea of homosexuality because it was taught to me all the time that it was gross and icky and wrong and like you shouldn’t hate them, because you should love the sinner, hate the sin, is the common thing to say. But then I started actually thinking about it and was like, why is this wrong? Like what is wrong with this? And it doesn’t hurt anybody and I don’t see what the problem is.
And so I went to someone who was honestly a very, very nice lady. She had put a lot of things on the line to like help raise me after my mom died when I was like fourteen and she like, really tried to step up to help me and my sister and my brother make sure that we had like a second family to go to and come with questions for and hang out with and I asked, well, why is this, like why is this wrong? And she was like, well you know, like some things, it’s just not our place