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I N T E R V I E W O F A M E M B E R - T H I S I S T H E I R S T O R Y

Please tell us a little about yourself. Whatever comes to mind.

So since I was very young around 5-7, I noticed that I was much different than other children.

I wasn ’t told anything but was drawn to horror, creepy, odd, strange, the unusual. I had deep emotion, compassion for most everything.

I noticed fruit of the lips also during these ages but brushed it off as coincidence for a few until I had wished for someone to be in a car accident and low and behold poof.

I didn ’t like that so I decided to caution my thoughts before words.

I took in how people treated people and sorted what I thought would be the right way to conduct oneself.

I didn ’t have the best upbringing and went through so much at a young age, at one point I would write pages of I hate ' members own name here ' and cry because I felt so alone.

In sixth grade I tried to kill myself. Needless to say it didn ’t work. I’ll halt here, there ’ s much behind the scenes through that What have you done work wise? What have you done to help you throughout these experiences?

I have studied through the past 12 years and I try to help myself mentally every day. I would go through it all again to feel at peace within and the earth.

I moved away 2010 and just started “ rewiring “ my mind and digging through so very much inside brought it to the light and the more I done that the more gifts came to me.

There ’ s so much between that happened. I struggled hard and at one point I became an alcoholic for a couple years and met someone and I no longer had the urge that I needed to drink.

I wrote poems, read, and watched horror movies.

I’ ve been institutionalized 3 times for trying to commit suicide and others in between I had tried and failed.

I’ ve been through an abusive marriage and was raped, my knee is really messed up, shoulder comes out easily, been through 16 surgeries and more to come.

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I N T E R V I E W O F A M E M B E R - T H I S I S T H E I R S T O R Y

Last year I was brutally raped, then horrifically abused/tortured.

My parents fought constantly verbally and physically, one Christmas Eve my mom sent me to the neighbors and my dad put a gun to his head but police got there.

Seen so much, horror movies comfort me.

Anyway, finally I become one and it’ s wonderful and I want to live to help others.

I am unable to work have been for quite a while.

I’ ve had so much going on between people passing away, people being ill, going to patch people up, my best friend having a demon in him, my youngest just having a hard time.

I waited on him to see if he started showing any gifts and he did, so then we had many many talks I’ ve never lied to him about anything I always ask what he feels about things.

I’ ve mostly been wise beyond my years, people come to me for advice and I always say “ you know I don ’t sugarcoat, still want my advice “ ???

I’ m mostly a blunt nicest asshole down to earth woman but through many years I noticed I have a hard time getting along with females.

I have something that tells me what to do at times, usually with strangers, it will want me to convey messages.

I do it no matter how dumb I feel lol I look in eyes and feel that person And some other neat stuff and this stuff, it’ s what mended me, but it took me going through everything I had stored in me and sorting and placing it where it needed to be.

I analyze everything!!!!! I have numbers that are my favorite and letters but anything else I don ’t really have favorites like colors, food, vehicles, I’ m different and I like it.

Ohh since I was a kid, this happened with songs, movies and people, it would be in my head and then it would happen.

My mom is with me right now, I hope she is proud she ’ s on my left back and shoulder.

Oh my dreams are like right now and I do get premonitions from them and messages.

I know certain ones by feeling, smell, taste, tug my hair, clothes it’ s just

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Sooooo much and I’ m grateful for it all. You guys helped me to feel better and to come out of my shell, I love you ’ s (member is referring to our group BeWitchy, our community) for what you ’ ve done because now I’ m ok that I’ m sensitive, spiritually gifted, at one with myself, in touch with the earth... being able to see, being ok with all different spirits and the forms they take for me to notice even animals.

1. How do you feel witchcraft has helped you overcome or get through these life issues and experiences you have had?

1. It has taught me that it is ok to love myself and to not push my gifts away yet to bare open arms, heart, and mind.

2. Do you feel u would have overcome them another way?

2. Absolutely not, because I didn ’t have self love and it reinforces self love and love of others may it be a person, animal, tree, plant, down to a droplet or water. It has enhanced me to appreciate so much more than just waking up. Although I’ll never fully overcome many things, I can have a sense of appreciation for for all good and bad that has happened. 3. Do you have many friends in the witchcraft community that are aware of what you have been through?

3. I have 3 actual people who I can relate with and who relate with me on matters. I don ’t really have a community, but we help each other and others in different ways.

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