mind + spirit interview
self and had really shown myself to, so the loss was enormous. Not long after that, my 11-year relationship ended. It was just one thing after the other - almost as if the universe just turned of all the lights and I had no choice but to ind and tend to my own light.
this area, it seemed that there was a prerequisite that you had to have experienced complete tragedy before you could do this work. It was like you had to hit rock-bottom to be able to show up and share this message - well, at least that’s what I felt at the time. So I actually started praying to God that my life dramas would happen so I could do the work which seems crazy now that I look back at it! - but that’s how passionate I was to do the work. Anyway, when that didn’t happen, I decided that I would step into my spiritual closet, hide that part of me, and go undercover as a lightworker. I went into advertising and I saw how many messages we are bombarded with every day, which in hindsight was my training in how to spread the message to the masses. But over the years, that little voice, that niggle, just got louder and louder and said it was time to start writing and teaching - but to be honest I was really afraid to let go of the life that I had consciously created. I was training with the most amazing teachers and really starting to embrace this part of my life, but I was afraid to step into it fully. Then, as so often happens when we don’t listen to that niggle inside of us, the universe ended up doing it for me. Within a period of about three to six months I experienced the loss of several really close friends, one after the other. These were people who I had completely trusted with my true
What was the turning point, when you decided to step out of your ‘spiritual closet’ and own this journey? It was after all the loss I had experienced, and I’d just moved to Nottinghill in London literally just down the road from the blue door in the movie! - and I was trying to restart my life again. But within 24 hours in that studio apartment, I discovered that it was falling apart, too. Everything needed replacing. It was like the apartment was a mirror of my life. I remember I burst into tears on the irst day there and at the same time the water pipes burst, almost in unison! The lat illed with water, and I just fell to my knees on the soggy carpet and really swore at God, and demanded an answer. I said “Okay: What am I meant to do??” What I heard loud and clear was that it was time for my ego and mind to surrender and start to do the lightwork. In that moment it was like my mind surrendered and allowed my soul to step forward and lead me. All of a sudden, I clearly heard the words, “Go to Chicago”, followed by a feeling of ultimate calm and relief. I racked my brains and the only person I knew in Chicago was my teacher Sonia Choquette, who I’d been training with in London for the past four years. Without giving my head a moment to butt in, I immediately looked up her website and emailed her assistant. He replied instantly, saying there was a private teacher training in Chicago in a week’s time. It was not available to the public, but there was one spot left and Sonia was happy for me to take it. It didn’t make sense: I had a huge campaign launching in 14 days at my work, I had no holiday leave left, and a house that was falling apart. But my soul kept whispering, “Go to Chicago”. The next morning, I woke up to a message from my landlord telling me that he’d found someone to ix the apartment, but I would have to move out for a week - starting the date of the training in Chicago. At the same time, the big campaign I had been working on was put on hold, and my boss actually suggested I take some time of in preparation for when it was all systems go again. So, I booked my light and, for the irst time in a long time, stepped onto the magic carpet and trusted the ride. It was in Chicago, at that training, that I irst experienced a coming home to my authentic self, diferent from ever before, and felt my soul cheer. The lightworker was starting to emerge.
natureandhealth.com.au | 72 | June-July 2016