Breast vs Bottle

by Sandy Hleis

As mothers, we’ve all heard the term “breast is best!” We may have learned it from family, friends, possibly even our partners but just how true is that saying? I’m personally on the fence about it. Although I believe breast milk is most beneficial for our babies, I think a mother’s physical and mental health is relevant too. I had a horrible breastfeeding experience with my firstborn because she was a ‘puller’. I’ll never forget the midwife’s reaction when she saw my daughter unlatch at the hospital. She cringed and said, “you poor thing, you’ve got a puller! I truly hope this gets easier for you.” But it never did. Maybe it was her words that stuck with me or the actual pain I felt when breastfeeding my baby. I couldn’t do it for more than four months and had to stop. It all seems like such a blur now, but I remember crying every time she was due for a feed. I remember holding my breath during the ‘letdown’ period when she would latch on, and everyone around would tell me that things will get better. I recall the guilt and shame I felt for not being able to bond with her while breastfeeding. I thought something was wrong with me– that she could sense the negativity and would grow up to hate me. I knew it would be best for us both if I just stopped. She would no longer have to feel my hesitation, exhaustion, and anxiety during feeds, and I could start enjoying her. In my culture, I was expected to breastfeed, but I did what was necessary for both of us, no matter what everyone else thought. I stood my ground, and today I’m so proud of myself and cannot believe what a special bond I have with my daughter. Fast-forward to my breastfeeding experience with my son. Wow! What a difference. Before I even gave birth to him, I was determined to do what felt right for him, whether it meant to breastfeed or bottle-feed. Yet the second he was born, he naturally latched on, but it was so soft, gentle. My heart was at ease, and I finally understood the breastfeeding bond I heard so much of. He’s now eight months old, still breastfeeding, and we’re both enjoying every single moment of it. It’s his safe space and my special time with him, which allows us to create a unique bond that I will cherish for the rest of my life. So, if you were to ask me which is best–breast or bottle? I’d honestly tell you, whatever makes you happy, keeps you healthy, and allows you to nourish your relationship with your baby.