MICHELLE DEMI LEE
SARAH JANE GRIEVE
#18 CONTENTS P O W E R N O T E 1
- Edna Els P R O M I S E 5
- Sinoyolo Mkile C LO U DY V I S I O N
- Meg Carrie F E AT U R E S T O R Y:
- Robyn Darcy M Y T E S T I M O N Y 2 7
- Claire Steencamp C R E AT E D T O C R E AT E 3 9
- Michelle Demi-Lee H O P E I N T H E D A R K
- Sarah-Jane Grieve
FA C E & E AT
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Hi my friend, Don’t you just love it when God speaks to you and then confirms it through others? We never get the full story by ourselves, but somehow God includes others to pick up on His whisper to express His heart. Like little insignificant trickles of water that start flowing together to become rivulets, streams and ultimately a mighty river bringing life wherever it goes. This is what I’ve absolutely loved about the journey of ‘fleshing out’ and giving expression to THE RISING over the last three years. God was so kind when He gave us the word; “That it’s time for the mothers and the daughters to Arise, in Fullness and Freedom, to take our place and find our voice”. He knew that we needed the clarity of His voice to navigate the uncertainty of the way ahead AND that we needed each other (mothers, daughters, sisters and friends) more than ever before. As we flow with Him, the living stream carves through rocks and eradicates obstacles until His ‘bigger picture’ perspective becomes visible. God has a constantly flowing river whose sparkling streams bring joy and delight to His people. His river flows right through the city of God Most High, into His holy dwelling places. God is in the midst of His city, secure and never shaken. At daybreak His help will be seen with the appearing of the dawn. Psalm 46:4-5 TPT In these dry times, God invites us to draw from His Word, His Living Water so that we can become carriers of His living Water to be refreshed and refresh others. As the living streams come together we become a force against the enemy’s works. Flowing together in Him, the Micro will become Macro, and the small will become significant. So my friend, let’s be flooded by His Living Water to the extent that we become life giving wells in our families and community! Your friend,
GOD HAS A CONSTANTLY FLOWING RIVER WHOSE SPARKLING STREAMS BRING JOY AND DELIGHT TO HIS PEOPLE. HIS RIVER FLOWS RIGHT THROUGH THE CIT Y OF GOD MOST HIGH, INTO HIS HOLY DWELLING PLACES. GOD IS IN THE MIDST OF HIS CIT Y, SECURE AND NEVER SHAKEN. AT DAYBREAK HIS HELP WILL BE SEEN WITH THE APPEARING OF THE DAWN. PSALM 46:4-5 TPT.
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AT THE BEGINNING OF 2021, A CERTAIN UNFAMILIAR SCRIPTURE CAUGHT MY EYE, BUT AS I READ IT REPEATEDLY, IT SPOKE VOLUMES TO ME. Isaiah 40:8 reads: “The grass withers and the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever.” At first, I guess the logical side of me thought it referred to nature literally. But as I read commentary regarding this piece of scripture, I learnt that creation in this context means us, the human beings He made. A sudden thought popped into my spirit, “Sino, you, and others, tend to being fickle at times.” Be it shown in my doubt or the words that I speak that are contrary to what I have read in His Word and what I have heard Him tell me in my private moments with Him. Upon realising this, a typical reaction based on human nature would be to say, “Oh well, if that is the case, then this ‘waiting on God and seeing His word come to fruition in my life’ thing won’t work because I am inconsistent - right?” Actually, that would be wrong because of who God is. Not a boxed-in version of Him, but God in His entirety: His nature and His character. We as His children can rely on our constantly consistent Father, as He has been known to be through the ages and will be known for eternity.
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T hrough this lens and the help of the Holy Spirit, we can stand on the solid rock, calling those things that aren’t as though they are.
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Now, bearing that in mind, I want to expand on that which has to do with promises. We’ve probably made a few of those in our lives, to people or even ourselves for that matter. But I think we all know that nothing compares to a promise made to us by our Father in heaven. It carries weight, hope and a great expectation for what is to come. Yet, somewhere in between knowing God is faithful and being surrounded by uncertain circumstances, and the issue of timing - we tend to wonder, “When will it come to fruition?” I do not wish to negate reality, I do want to encourage both you and me to remember that when the ‘in between’ times come, we are to stand on two things: 1) The moment He said it, He also deemed it finished and 2) His Word that stands forever is there to bring faith in our lives. Through this lens and the help of the Holy Spirit, we can stand on the solid rock, calling those things that aren’t as though they are. This is not done in arrogance but with confidence in Him who made the promise. So, what do we know? We know that our flesh and circumstances guarantee temporariness, but the Word God has proclaimed over our lives does what it is purposed to do and never returns to Him fruitless or void (Isaiah 55 v 11). Therefore, we should always be encouraged in and out of the seasons in our lives, knowing that He is steadfast and His Word is too. We can live from that place of knowing His promises are not empty but are ready to be lived out by us as a testimony!
AS THE RAIN AND THE SNOW COME DOWN FROM HEAVEN, AND DO NOT RETUR N TO IT WITHOUT WATERING THE EARTH AND MAKING IT BUD AND FLOURISH, SO THAT IT YIELDS SEED FOR THE SOWER AND BREAD FOR THE EATER, SO IS MY WORD THAT GOES OUT FROM MY MOUTH: IT WILL NOT RETUR N TO ME EMPT Y, BUT WILL ACCOMPLISH WHAT I DESIRE AND ACHIEVE THE PURPOSE FOR WHICH I SENT IT. ISAIAH 55:10-11
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I WAS DRIVING THE OTHER MORNING JUST BEFORE DAYBREAK, A HALF AN HOUR TRIP TO A SEASIDE SPOT I’VE GROWN TO LOVE, ANTICIPATING THE ARRIVAL OF THE SUN IN ALL ITS GLORY. I’d had a blurry couple of days and a serious case of what I’d like to call “cloudy vision” - unclear, uncertain, undefined vision. As if my head and my heart were waiting to put on their contact lenses, scrounging around trying to find them in the dark, only to come out empty-handed. You see, having moved to a new city purely based on a sense of peace, I have known nothing beyond the day that I’m in. For an A-type calendar-loving gal, it’s been a daily battle to surrender the version of the plan that I’ve had in my head, to slow down, to pace back and to drop my control at the foot of the cross. When I’m in these zones, I head to the sea, sometimes at sunrise, sometimes at sunset. It’s where I’m most aware of God. Where the veil between Heaven and Earth thins. Where His voice is near, and where I get to marvel in the magnificence of His creation. As I was driving, I looked out at the sky and was a little disappointed to see that there were no clouds, no puffs of white for the sun to latch onto on its inevitable climb up the sky. Some of the most spectacular sunrises I’ve witnessed have been a combination of sun and clouds both leaning on each other to create their magic. And then I heard God whisper, “Can’t you see it? When there are no clouds, I don’t have anywhere to display my glory”.
“OEF.” My cloudy vision, my lack of control, my surrender is the very place that He gets to show up and show off. My unclear, is His “Just you wait and see”. My uncertainty is His “You don’t even know how good it’s going to get”; and my undefined is His “I know exactly where we’re going”. My cloudy human vision leaning on the certainty of the Son, with a renewed assurance that at daybreak, we will collide together in magnificent glory. Love you Xx
YOU WILL GO OUT IN JOY AND BE LED FORTH IN PEACE; THE MOUNTAINS AND HILLS WILL BURST INTO SONG BEFORE YOU, AND ALL THE TREES OF THE FIELD WILL CLAP THEIR HANDS. INSTEAD OF THE THOR NBUSH WILL GROW THE JUNIPER, AND INSTEAD OF BRIERS THE MYRTLE WILL GROW. THIS WILL BE FOR THE LORD’S RENOWN, FOR AN EVERLASTING SIGN, THAT WILL ENDURE FOREVER.” ISAIAH 55:12-13
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I always knew that
GOD had given me a gif t to pass on
valuable knowle dge and skills to other students, and I
always knew that I
would teach DANCE one day.
I HAVE BEEN TEACHING DANCE FOR OVER 20 YEARS.
performance. Nothing at all wrong with that you’re
My career started at the tender age of 3 when all I
thinking. Me too. Only there was always a price
wanted to do was Dance. My passion for Ballet grew
tag. My family would be subjected to crazy hours
as I studied, completed my Diploma at UCT School
of having “No mom” around, I would regress into
of Dance, and ventured out into the world.
another world, forgetting all else. My students would be drilled as often as possible to achieve results that
I always knew that God had given me a gift to pass
I deemed good enough.
on valuable knowledge and skills to other students, and I always knew that I would teach Dance one
One year I collapsed from sheer exhaustion. I
day. There was great comfort in that, knowing what
couldn’t lift my head off the pillow. I was literally
you want to become from a young age is rare. God
had a plan with me. I spent 5 days flat on my back unable to move. I
Year after year, I would train up young budding
thought physio would help, so I called on a gracious
dancers to perform with what I deemed, near
friend to see me. Chad (my husband) literally
perfection. We would do Royal Academy Ballet
carried me into the physio practice. That was
Examinations and excel, compete in Festivals and
how exhausted I had allowed myself to become.
excel, do bi-annual Shows, and wow audiences.
During that time, I wrestled with God. “Why was this
Each year I would make it my business to
happening to me? How can I be so useless? What
improve upon, fine-tune and increase the level of
am I supposed to be learning here Lord?”
I recovered and went on holiday as it was the
internet and sound issues to missing students, to
end of the year. The following year began and I
space issues; we faced every single one of them
continued in the same vein. Clearly, no lesson was
head-on, and I persisted.
learnt. When people speak of “doing it in my own strength,” I now know exactly what they mean. All
Once again, the biggest price tag being my poor
me, none of Jesus.
family having to endure my “insanity” for a time, but they all did, so graciously and I love them all so
Each year I’d promise myself to let God step in and
much for dealing with me so gently. Some days I’d
help manage me and my work. Each year I would
want to smash the TV, rip out the WIFI connections,
face the same battles from the year before.
or burst into tears and my family calmly helped me see past it all. The frustrations I felt surpassed
Then lockdown hit. I would not allow anything to
anything I have ever experienced before.
step in my way. We went into our hard lockdown Thursday 26 March, by Monday 30 March I had
By this stage, I was working solely in my flesh. I was
signed into a Zoom Account, set my online classes
angry that God had allowed all this to happen to
for the new week and I had it all under control.
us and hurting inside because I couldn’t do the one
Nothing and no one was going to stop me.
thing I was good at properly.
The challenges were only about to begin: From
We came out of lockdown and I was determined to
If I was to hear
HIM, I nee de d HIM next to me, and so
my Father star te d
teaching W I T H me. I physically pray GOD into my space, HE
gives me teaching
plans I’ would never have dreamt of,
amazing ideas that
were not mine from the star t, and a
refine d approach to teaching.
enter Royal Academy Exams even though I knew
God steered me and my Studio into the greatest
we weren’t polished enough. Needless to say, in
Ballet Season we have ever experienced. There was
my mind, my students’ results were terrible. I had
a sense of calm in the Studio, an air of excitement,
failed. I had disappointed all my students and I was
a deep joy we all began to experience. Our Studio
now ready to retire from teaching. In my mind, I
did remarkably well on that stage. So well in fact
was really preparing to stop teaching and I started
that people were stunned. My own daughter, Sophs
to assess other options. As it says in Proverbs 19:21,
took to that stage and performed like I’ve never
Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the
seen before. That was when I realized that God
Lord’s purpose that prevails.
had stepped in and given me His authority to teach with Godly wisdom, not my own wisdom. That I was
This little voice inside of me started to deal with me
holding, and still do hold a mantle to be honoured.
so gently. I started to hear God confirm that I am meant to be a teacher. That I am exactly where He
I suppose the biggest blessing was when one of
wants me to be. That I am a teacher of worth and
the teachers at the Festival asked me what I had
that He will show me in time.
changed or done to achieve such excellent results. I told her I hadn’t changed anything, it was just how
I thought I would start 2021 with a new approach.
I was teaching.
My first thought was, I will never again give another Zoom Ballet Class. But that I will purposefully
Our journey isn’t over yet, it’s really only just begun,
welcome God into my Studio as my co-partner.
and even though it has taken me so long to truly
If I was to hear Him, I needed Him next to me, and
see what God sees, I wouldn’t have had it any
so my Father started teaching WITH me. I physically
other way. I’m maturing daily as a mother, wife,
pray God into my space, He gives me teaching
daughter, teacher, and friend and I am so thankful,
plans I’d never dreamt of, amazing ideas that
deeply grateful that my Heavenly Father loves me
weren’t mine from the start, and a refined approach
to teaching. We prepared for the Dance Festival in Port Elizabeth in June. Our approach was now different. It wasn’t about what I was teaching, but how I was teaching and with whose authority. Pastor Louis once said to, “Take up your place”, and I never knew what he meant back then. Now I do.
JESUS ANSWERED, “EVERYONE WHO DRINKS THIS WATER WILL BE THIRST Y AGAIN, BUT WHOEVER DRINKS THE WATER I GIVE THEM WILL NEVER THIRST. INDEED, THE WATER I GIVE THEM WILL BECOME IN THEM A SPRING OF WATER WELLING UP TO ETER NAL LIFE.” THE WOMAN SAID TO HIM, “SIR, GIVE ME THIS WATER SO THAT I WON’T GET THIRST Y AND HAVE TO KEEP COMING HERE TO DRAW WATER.” JOHN 4:13-15
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claire steen kamp
Every older sister’s dream (or it was at least mine) is to have a younger sister that they can help take care of. Around 6 months into this fairy-tale, everything changed. Rachel was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia (ALL). ALL is a type of cancer of the blood and bone marrow that affects the white blood cells. The day after my sister was diagnosed, my parents took Rachel up to the Red Cross Children’s Hospital in Cape Town. My sister Sarah and I went to go and stay at our granny’s house. We stayed with her for the first 3 4 months while my mom and Rachel were in CT.
My name is Claire Steenkamp, and this is my
These circumstances forced me to grow up very
testimony. When Jana asked me to write an article
quickly. I tried to fill “the motherly figure gap” in
for the 31 magazine, I was really hesitant because
my mom’s absence, for Sarah, as best as I could.
I am naturally a private person. I thought about it
My mom and Rachel were in CT for about 7 months
long and hard, wrestled mentally, trying to figure
in total (which felt more like 7 years). During this
out what I should write about or how my testimony
period, my dad used to take us up to CT to visit
would impact anyone’s life. So, I prayed about it
them. Rachel was 13 months old when they moved
for about 3 weeks, I asked the Lord for guidance
back home (Port Elizabeth). For the next year and
and a clear answer, and then just like that, in mid-
half, Rachel was in and out of hospital for treatment
conversation with someone else, the Holy Spirit
and check-ups. Then at 2 and half years old, Rachel
whispered to me gently and said, “Just start from
the beginning”. It is so settling to know the Lord hears all our prayers and will always answer them
I remember my mom telling me that one of her
in His time. So, I am sharing my testimony, even if it
friends had a vision of Rachel going up to heaven.
only touches one person’s life, then it’s all worth it.
He said that he saw Rachel running up to heaven, her clothing changed to white and St Peter said,
I guess you can say I grew up in a normal Christian
“Make way” and she ran into the arms of Jesus.
home. I remember giving my life to Jesus for the first time when I was 7 or 8 years old. My early
Now that I am saved again and have an intimate
childhood had no significant highs or lows. I was
relationship with God, I have SO much peace in
10 years old, when my youngest sister, Rachel
my heart knowing that Rachel is safe in the warm
was born. I was only 3 when my other sister was
loving embrace of Jesus, free from all pain and
born so this time around being ten years old, I can
suffering. But at the age of 12 all I can remember
remember the excitement of being an older sister.
was the heartache and anger. I was angry with God
because I couldn’t understand why He would let this
handmaiden: she is as beautiful on the
happen to our family. I literally felt like my family
outside as she is on the inside: as tall and
and life had fallen apart and shattered into a million
straight as she stands in the natural, she
will stand tall and straight for Me in the spiritual – a strong beacon that will not
Although I know there was a big void left in our
bend. She has a gentle heart and a very
family. A lot of heartache, turmoil, and anger,
strong spirit. I am going to use her in My
through my own anger and pain I locked those
Kingdom, I am going to use her life to touch
years away in my mind so while writing this, it’s
others. As she draws near to Me and learns
difficult for me to recall those memories.
to trust Me, I will use her in a mighty way.
Little did I know that my heartache was not over,
Tell her I love her very much and am with
and the storms kept on rolling in.
her every moment.”
Three years later, my dad lost his job, so at the age
Reflecting on it, I believe with all my heart that
of 15 I took it upon myself to get a job. I started
there is a message in this for every parent today.
waitressing after school so I could help with things
Regardless of where your child might find him or
at home. Although it was tough having to finish my
herself and how you feel as a parent - if you hold
homework quickly after school, do chores and then
onto God’s word and you proclaim His promise over
work until 10pm at night, this became my escape
your child’s life - He will always come through for
from having to deal with the trauma at home. Little
you and never fail you.
did I know, “my safe place” gave me access to a world that I was not ready for as a 15-year-old.
Back to my story, fast-forward 2 years. During my
During this time, there is a day that stands out. I
final year at school, I moved out of the house and
was with my mom at Spar, when one of her friends
rented my own place. After that I took a gap year
walked up and greeted us. Later that afternoon, she
(not the VGY type) and saved up to buy a car.
called my mom and told her that God had given
The following year, I enrolled at university for a
her a prophecy about me. My mom shared this with
degree in teaching. Being completely self-sufficient,
me at the time, but I could not really comprehend
having my own transport, my own money, my own
the message because I was so angry and didn’t
place to stay, it was my rules, my life and it was a
want to hear about Jesus. My mom wrote it down,
wild ride. For the next couple years, I lived a very
stuck it on her door and proclaimed this prophecy
reckless life. Looking back, I can recall numerous
over my life every day in prayer.
incidents, where, although unaware at the time, I was protected by a higher power. Little did I know,
This is the prophecy:
it was my mother’s prayers and intervention for me
“I was walking around the shop and thinking
that kept God in my life.
about Claire. Thinking how beautiful she is,
how lovely and tall she is and how straight
After receiving my degree in education, I did a
she stands. I sensed a tranquillity /serenity
post grad in Special Needs Education. During my
in her. I then heard God saying: Claire is My
postgraduate studies my parents got divorced. I
was devastated and heartbroken yet again.
amongst all the chaos of people everywhere, speaking a foreign language and then my very first
I opened my own remedial practice the year after
encounter with this new world, was the sound of the
that and threw myself into my career. Helping
prayer call from a nearby Mosque - ushering in the
young children with learning disabilities was
break of a new day.
more than just a job for me, it was a deep-rooted void I subconsciously tried to fill. The opportunity
At that moment I knew, I was all alone - in a Muslim
presented itself for me to teach at an International
country - for the next 2 and half years … and I had
School in the UAE. Nothing was holding me back, so
left my God back home when I was 12 years old.
I decided to go. The UAE was one of the best and most challenging Four months before I was set to leave for the UAE,
experiences I had ever been through. The culture
I met the man of my dreams. We had known one
was just so different and very much in your face all
another for a long time and truth be told, his life was
the time. For the next two and half years, my alarm
just as wild as mine at the time. We had both been
clock at 5am every morning was prayer calls from
through a lot of heartache, pain, and destruction in
multiple mosques all around me. This repeated 5
our lives and little did we know at the time that this
times a day, every day.
was the start of God’s plan to not only unite us, but to bring us both “back home”.
The children I taught had to take Arabic and Islamic studies at school. During Islamic classes, I used to sit
As you can imagine, finding true love for the first
outside my classroom and mark books. The Islamic
time, having butterflies in your tummy, and being
teacher used to chant verses from the Quran to the
faced with having to choose between a relationship
students and then the students had to repeat the
or pursuing your career, was one of the hardest
lines back to her. In a matter of months, I realized
things that I had to do.
that I was able to recite the lines back to myself too. Reciting these lines, made me feel uneasy in my
Through tears, my then boyfriend told me to pursue
spirit and I was longing for something that I felt I had
this opportunity and that he would wait for me.
lost a long time before.
He said that if we were meant to be, we would overcome this. He didn’t want me to look back
Throughout the entire time that I was teaching in
at this opportunity and regret not taking it. With a
the UAE, I could feel a constant spiritual battle. The
heavy heart four months later, I moved to the UAE.
children were wild; they had no respect or manners
This was my first flight ever. It was one of the scariest
and I often just wanted to quit. My boyfriend (now
things that I had ever had to do, and I cried the
husband) was one of the people cheering me on
and supporting me all the way. But I knew I wanted and needed more.
At 5am, I landed in a foreign land. In the dark, not knowing where to go, who was fetching me and
Even though emotional support was one Skype call
where I was going to stay, with bloodshot eyes
away, I had no idea or reference on how to rekindle
from crying all night, I felt like a bewildered animal
my relationship with God. In a moment of despair, I
felt the Holy Spirit reach out to me and comfort me.
I started following Elevation Church and watching
One day while randomly scrolling through some
sermons online… I then started sharing the Sunday
Instagram stories, a teacher that I follow had posted
evening services with my fiancé, Jaco.
a screenshot on her story of, “O Come to the Altar”
Side note: I forgot to mention that we got engaged 4
by Elevation Worship.
months into me being in the UAE.
I was curious and enticed by that Instagram story.
At first, Jaco was a bit hesitant, but I could see God
(At that time, I had never even heard of Elevation
softening his heart week after week. It became
Worship – so had no idea what to expect. I don’t
a thing where we started watching online church
even think I realized that it read “Worship”) - So I
scrolled back and took a screenshot of her story and reminded myself to google it once I got into
Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months,
but they were easier to get through because I knew that I had the Holy Spirit with me. After the
Later that evening, I put my earphones in, googled,
encounter with Jesus, I would pray every day over
“O Come to the Altar”, and listened to the words of
every corner of my classroom. While marking books,
I started listening to praise and worship music instead of the Islamic teacher chanting the Quran.
Are you hurting and broken within? Overwhelmed by the weight of your sin?
I still had spiritual attacks and was even confronted
Jesus is calling
by students as to why I was a Christian in a Muslim
Have you come to the end of yourself?
school. But unlike before, my spirit was calm, and I
Do you thirst for a drink from the well?
knew where my strength came from.
Jesus is calling O come to the altar
I’m not going to bore you with all the details... But
The Father’s arms are open wide
for the next year and a half, myself and Jaco, made
Forgiveness was bought with
turns visiting one another every 4 months. Time
The precious blood of Jesus Christ
seemed manageable, well, until we got married.
Leave behind your regrets and mistakes
Yes, we got married, while I was living in the UAE
Come today there’s no reason to wait
and my husband was back in JBAY. We had a lavish
Jesus is calling
wedding planned with all our rockstar friends, and
Bring your sorrows and trade them for joy
all the glitz and glam that goes with it. But we both
From the ashes a new life is born
knew that we were walking a different path and at
Jesus is calling (Oh, oh)
that point most of the friends we had were friends from our wild past.
… my heart was arrested, and I felt the peace that
surpasses all understanding, and, I knew I had
So, while visiting JBAY on my second last holiday,
found my first love once again. It was like I never
Jaco popped the question, we got married, had a
small, perfect, intimate wedding on the Friday and I
left for Dubai for another year, on the Monday.
Mona and her husband, Benji would have on our
Yes, you guessed it, I cried all the way back to
lives. Not only as friends but as spiritual mentors too.
Dubai. One Sunday we decided to go to Victory, low One of the most challenging dynamics was building
and behold on stage, leading worship were our
a relationship with Jaco’s children over Skype
newfound friends, Benji and Mona. Coming into
and short holidays. But we made it work. I feel so
Victory, we felt welcomed, and we immediately
honoured and privileged that the Lord entrusted me
knew that we had found the church and spiritual
to be a role model and mom to Kellen and Emma.
family we were looking for.
During the last couple of months of my teaching
Looking back at my journey this far, there have
contract, we were toying with the idea of
been deep valleys, dry deserts, and stormy seas. I
immigrating to the UAE, but then Jaco came up
often used to think to myself…. “I don’t know how I
with a crazy idea of opening a coffee shop back in
am still alive after all that”, but with the knowledge I
JBAY. At first, the idea sounded ludicrous, as neither
have now, I know that the times, when there was a
one of us had any idea on how to run a coffee
single track in the sand, God was the one carrying
shop, but what I did know was that I needed a
me, and he never left my side.
break from teaching and to decompress after the UAE. So, we jumped at it, and Machine was born.
Regardless of how far off track I went in my past, there is no place too far or something too
We had grown accustomed to watching Sunday
disappointing that I could have done that the Lord
services online, and although JBAY was our home,
wouldn’t come and find me and lead me back
our close friends were either abroad or in other parts
of the country. We didn’t really know how to plug into the community or find a church that gave us
Now, as I grow closer to the Lord, I try to live in the
the same experience as Elevation.
prophecy that was spoken over my life 15 years ago. Today, as I write this, my life almost seems
One day Kellen (our son) asked if he could go to
perfect. I have a loving husband, 2 amazing kids,
Frontline at Victory Church with some of his friends
a beautiful house and God blesses us beyond our
and came back home, full of excitement, just
wildest dreams. I give Him all the honour, glory, and
wanting more and begged us to go to a Sunday
praise. I am humbled and so grateful that He never
service. We kept putting it off.
gave up on me.
While we were building Machine, neither Jaco nor myself can recall how this happened, but we crossed paths with a potential tenant by the name of Mona who owned a fashion label by the name of “We are Jona”. Little did we know, the impact that
“A FATHER TO THE FATHERLESS, A DEFENDER OF WIDOWS, IS GOD IN HIS HOLY DWELLING. GOD SETS THE LONELY IN FAMILIES, HE LEADS OUT THE PRISONERS WITH SINGING; BUT THE REBELLIOUS LIVE IN A SUN-SCORCHED LAND.” PSALM 68:5-6
mich elle demi lee create d to create
FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER I HAVE BEEN
captivated by creativity. As a little girl I treasured my craft collection and would find any excuse I
could to bring out my art supplies. Always painting, cutting and pasting, inevitably making a mess wherever I went. (My family nicknamed me
“hurricane Michelle”.) Since then, I have learnt two
very important things. One: to clean up after myself, and Two: my love for creativity has always been far
20th birthday, August 2018, in my second year of
VGY, my creative hobby became a small creative business, “Just Demi Designs”. It all started on the
greater than simply enjoying an artistic hobby.
floor of my friend’s lounge with a watercolour pallet
Creativity is my birth right. As a daughter of the
logo, a few business cards and a handful of orders.
ultimate Creator, made in His image. I was created
and a few sheets of paper. Within a week I had a I will never forget that feeling of excitement as I
to create, and so were you!
watched my business slowly grow.
Let me tell you a bit of my story and how God
At the end of that year, I moved back to my family
has used my creativity to show me not only who He is but how He sees me. A few days before my
in Johannesburg because I strongly felt God say that that was where I needed to be for the next
season of my life. For those two years I painted,
I have been in back Jeffrey’s Bay for 9 months, still
worked, and painted some more. Grateful to be
painting and working on my business, now with a
with my family but missing the community I had
different perspective. I am learning to seek Him
found in Jeffrey’s Bay. I spent late nights and most
first, to create from a place of worship instead of a
weekends in my little studio, after a full day of my
place of need. Allowing Jesus to be my source of
“grown up” job, taking on as many orders as I
inspiration and assurance. Letting go of the pressure
could. Not thinking of the impact it would have on
for perfection and earthly growth has brought so
my mental, physical and emotional well-being.
much freedom. So, I will carry on pursuing God’s voice and trust for more breakthrough as I continue
My business had become my top priority and
doing what I was born to do.
eventually my passion for creativity had turned into a “just get it done” mindset. Constantly comparing
I want to end off by saying this: ”YOU have been
myself to other local artists, questioning every move
created to create.” There is no point in denying it by
I made and whether it would make more money
saying that you are not creative. You are an image
bearer of God. You hold his likeness and carry His breath in your lungs. Creativity is your birth right
By the time we went into lockdown I had run out
and the fear of failure should never stop you from
of whatever it was that I thought I was meant to
cultivating it. Take the pressure off, allow creativity
give. My body and physical health took the brunt
to bring you joy without worrying about the
of it and my emotions were all over the show. It felt
outcome. Being a creative has absolutely nothing to
like a never-ending battle in my mind and spirit.
do with your ability or skill set but everything to do
I had received so many prophetic words about
with worshipping Jesus. I want to encourage you to
how God would use this business. So, I could not
see yourself as a creative today, regardless of your
understand why I felt heavy and broken, now I see
talents or job description.
that I had spent so much time and energy trying to create what I thought was right and hardly any time
Pick up a paintbrush, dance, write a song, work in
seeking my creator. I had forgotten that my identity
your garden, re-arrange your bedroom, play with
was set in Him, not my work.
your kids, cook a meal and share it. Allow creativity to seep into your life and let it be your worship. You
By the end of 2020, after months of praying I
are a creative, not because you are an artist, but
decided to take a huge leap of faith and move
because you are a child of God! You have been
back to Jeffrey’s Bay. Leaving my home and family
created to create.
for the promise that I’d heard from God. He was calling me to be present, not perfect. To put down the mindset that I had to “hustle” and pick up the peace and protection that He provides. For the first time in my life, I truly felt that shift in my spirit, where His voice was undeniable and clear.
... now I see that I had spent so much time and energ y trying to create what I thought was right and hardly any time seeking my creator. I had forgotten that my identity was set in Him, not my work.
THE RIGHTEOUS WILL FLOURISH LIKE A PALM TREE, THEY WILL GROW LIKE A CEDAR OF LEBANON; PLANTED IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD, THEY WILL FLOURISH IN THE COURTS OF OUR GOD. THEY WILL STILL BEAR FRUIT IN OLD AGE, THEY WILL STAY FRESH AND GREEN, PROCLAIMING, “THE LORD IS UPRIGHT; HE IS MY ROCK, AND THERE IS NO WICKEDNESS IN HIM.” PSALM 92:12-15
HOPE IN T HE DARK
Sarah Jane Grieve
DREAMING OF TOMORROW HAS ALWAYS BEEN A
felt the call to start a church in Cape Town. So, in
part of who I am. I’m a dreamer, creative and
2005, we sold everything, cashed in all investments
everything happening in my thoughts feels like
and sowed all of our resources into pioneering a
a big, real-time musical; filled with romance,
church from scratch with our two daughters, Chloe
adventure, drama, comedy and tragedy played
and Paige, aged 1 and 3. (I always joke and say
out in full harmonies, with beautiful costumes, sets
that we had such a huge Kids church, as 50% of our
and a story that makes you laugh and cry all at the
members were kids - meaning our 2 daughters!)
same time! We had the great privilege of living in Cape Town In a nutshell, that pretty much sums up my life at 41,
for nearly ten years. In that time, our church - The
I’m married to an incredible man, Barrett and have
City Church, Century City continued to grow and
been for 21 years; I’ve been a mother for 19 years
impact people’s lives. I recorded an album, which I
with 3 exquisite daughters: Chloë, Paige and Eden.
wrote and produced and we had a third daughter, Eden in 2012. She is such a beautiful blessing, and
What a beautiful time in my life to sit back & reflect
miraculously survived whooping cough at the age
on what was, what is and what is still to come. Get
of one month (that’s a story for another day) and
ready for my ‘real life musical’ that has made me
she’s nearly nine years old now!
laugh and cry through the drama, adventure and tragedy.
God really used Pastors Louis and Edna Els (who we had met and started a great friendship with in
Worship has always been at the forefront of the
2000) to establish identity and the value of family
calling that God placed on my life, so after school
in our hearts. We made a huge shift from being
I studied music. Barrett and I met at my parent’s
performance driven to family orientated, which has
church (I’m a pastor’s kid), when he joined our full
helped Barrett and I navigate our lives in a healthy
time Bible school. Initially I was extremely attracted
and Godly way. From making big life choices, to
to this breathtaking, good-looking man, and then
raising our daughters and leading churches, finding
the spark became a fire when I watched him love
our identity and family in God just keeps aligning
Jesus more than anyone else and follow Him with
passion and purpose. This has been particularly valuable for me, as I grew He was called to full time ministry, and I knew 100%
up as a pastor’s daughter in a time where church
from the age of 14 that I was too. So, we “ticked
was filled with people who loved God, but I had
each other’s checklist” and it was a match made in
also seen a lot of “attention seekers” who would
seem spiritual to attract attention in churches, rather than genuinely seek God! This put a bad taste in
After we married, we went into full time ministry with
my mouth for church generally and at some point,
my parents in Gauteng. But, after a few years we
I didn’t see the point of being a pastor anymore.
I remember so clearly a conversation with God,
2. Investing in a loving and healthy marriage (this is
where I was wrestling with this concept. The Holy
the best gift you can give to your children)
Spirit said to me that day… “If you give up on the
3. Spending time with our children and choosing
church of Jesus, who will lead them? If you and the rest of your generation don’t step up and find
them ahead of any other people in our lives. 4. Loving people with an authentic Godly love (This
a way to seek God in a real way - what will My
can cause you the greatest joy, but also cause
church look like? I am coming back for my church;
some hurt, as not everyone in your life will love
I need you to help to get this generation ready”.
you back the same way you love them).
Wow! What a conversation I had with God that day, this was a huge turning point for me, and I realized
There are many other values that we live by, but
the need for us to be passionate, real and focused
these three are our first and most important.
pastors, who would lead people from a position of authenticity.
I must also just say that choosing family as a big priority has been so incredible! There are many
In this moment, God reminded me so much of the
‘parent guilts’ that we will carry, as we are never
role that I was to play in His church, but at the same
going to be perfect, but the one thing we have
time confirmed my “sonship” in Him. Not by my
control over, is our hearts and time. Once we
ability and strength, but purely by His!
aligned our hearts and time towards our family, God’s peace began to be around more often than
So much so that in a very dark and difficult time of
before. Remember that children spell love like this…
my life, I wrote a song that says…
T I M E!
“I have come to realize, You’re the reason for my life You convince me time and time again - You love
There are so many stories that I could share of my
me. And when I fear the world around, You lift me
multi-genre musical, as we ended our season in
up and hold me tight. You convince me time and
Cape Town, with many highs and lows. God was not
time again - You love me”
finished with me yet; He had a trick up His sleeve which would lead me into the most extreme highs
There is always HOPE IN THE DARK! Jesus is right
and lows of my journey so far! Kind of like a movie
there with you, shining His light into your life!
set in the desert, just as you feel like you might die of the heat, a beautiful oasis appears to quench
Through our journey, we have learnt some important
your thirst and exhaustion! But that is our story for the
lessons and made some important adjustments.
next edition. (Paige says… Oooh mom, the second
Setting in place some values that have directed our
half of your story is the “spicy” part). So, join me
lives, Barrett and I have made some personal things
next time for the SPICY edition of … Hope In The
our biggest priorities …
1. O ur personal relationship with God (this is the best gift you can give to yourself).
In this moment, God reminded
me so much of the role that I
was to play in
His church, but at the same
time confirmed my “sonship”
in Him. Not by
my ability and strength, but
purely by His.!
“THE POOR AND NEEDY SEARCH FOR WATER, BUT THERE IS NONE; THEIR TONGUES ARE PARCHED WITH THIRST. BUT I THE LORD WILL ANSWER THEM; I, THE GOD OF ISRAEL, WILL NOT FORSAKE THEM. I WILL MAKE RIVERS FLOW ON BARREN HEIGHTS, AND SPRINGS WITHIN THE VALLEYS. I WILL TUR N THE DESERT INTO POOLS OF WATER, AND THE PARCHED GROUND INTO SPRINGS.” ISAIAH 41:17-18
FACE BY INGE BURGER
7 S T E P S F O R N AT U R A L G LO W Y M A K E U P A bronzy, glowy makeup look is perfect the festive
Step 4: My favorite step, bronzing up the face for
season. Whether you find yourself in the north or
that sunkissed look. Use a nice fluffy brush
south hemisphere this time of the year, a glowy
to apply bronzer to the cheeks, temples
look will fit a sunkissed summer or a snowy glittery
and blend into the hairline. I also use the
same bronzer with a smaller brush on my eyes as eyeshadow for a monotone look
Since recently becoming a mom I’m all about
and one less product to carry around.
easy looks using minimal products and using the same product for different things on the face.
Step 5: To take the glow even further add highlighter to the top of the cheek bone,
Step 1: Creating a dewy skin will be vital for a
the temples, under the eyebrows and
glowing bronze healthy look.Use you
even in the inner corner of the eyes
hands to apply a glow enhancing primer
above the lash line.
all over the face. Step 6: Apply mascara to the eyelashes. Step 2: To enhance this natural look even more apply a tinted sunscreen. Using a tinted
Step 7: Apply a tinted lipbalm to the lips for a
sunscreen gives you a more natural skin
beautiful lipstain. You can also dab some
like finish. You can use your hands or a
on the apples of the cheeks as blush.
damp beauty blender. Voila! This is a foolproof, easy and quick makeup Step 3: Use a concealer on blemishes for extra coverage as needed and to brighten under the eyes.
look that will make you feel put together and ready for any occasion. Enjoy
E D N A’ S RUSKS For us, Christmas is a super special time to gather friends
and family to celebrate Jesus, catch up on life and enjoy
BY EDNA ELS
time together! One of our Christmas ‘family traditions’ is baking the rusks consumed during early morning coffees on the patio. (Stoep)
Whether it’s a sunrise coffee with Jesus and your journal, or whether you’re entertaining a toddler that won’t go back to sleep, or picking up on a late-night conversation that got interrupted, coffee and homemade rusks (by Ouma Edsie-Betsie and the spoon-licking gang) is a non-negotiable part of the Christmas story! Here is my (not so secret) recipe that varies depending on the music, the mood and the level of chaos that ensues with too many little pairs of helping hands! INGREDIENTS: Wet
500 g Butter (Melt in microwave)
250 ml Wholewheat Flour
250 ml Oil
1 Kg Self Raising Flour
500 ml Brown Sugar
5-10 ml Salt
3 Large Eggs
250 ml of already crushed All-Bran Flakes
500 ml Buttermilk
125 ml of sunflower seeds
10 ml Vanilla Essence
125 ml of sesame seeds or mixed seeds
Add a hand-full of cranberries or nuts,
Preheat oven to 180 degrees.
Mix together we ingredients after butter has cooled down.
Mix the dry ingredients and add to the wet ingredients.
Grease oven tray/ use baking paper if preferred (spread till about 2cm in thickness).
Bake for approximately 45 minutes untill light brown.
Let cool completely, cut into thin slices, spread out on baking trays and let dry out completely overnight in the oven at 50 degrees.
Put into airtight containers and store near the coffee station or picnic basket! May you make great memories whatever you do!