THE PRIVATE/OBSESSION ISSUE

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caleb halstead by JOE LALLY LAURAN by MILOS MALI

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bsessive / Obsession

-Is being obsessed with something or someone really unhealthy? Or do we need our little obsessions to keep us stable and alive?

Obsessive: - A person who has obsessions

“Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few achieve it, those who do, will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, will never, never forget it..”

- An unwanted feeling or emotion - Compulsion, an irrational motive for performing trivial or repetitive actions, even against your will - An unhealthy and compulsive preoccupation with something or someone - The need or ability to be consumed by or control something or someone that you have desire for There’s so many questions to ask about obsessions: -Do certain age groups have certain stereotypical obsession?

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-Can we rub off our obsessions onto others and lose it ourselves ,because it feels like its been confiscated away from us?

-Are obsessions sometimes unhealthy, and do they blind us from the rest of the world?

I prevent myself from seeing the rest of the world, I cant help it. I want to be able to let go of it all, focus on the future. Drop the past, walk into the future. One day.

I’ m obsessed with worrying about time.

Where has it gone? Why cant I remember what I did in the last few hours? Where was I this time last year? When I was 10, what the hell happened then? Where the fuck is my past? Is it all just distant U_MAG

memories, that we end up just forgetting? I don’t enjoy it but I do it. I’m obsessed with living in the past and sometimes letting it spoil my future.

That way, if I live in the past, pictures on all four walls, and the last few years on paper, then I can never ever forget it.

Can we have obsessions that ARE enjoyable?

If so, what? Or is it a pessimistic person like myself, only be able to pick out the faults in obsessions, and knows that she will never be able to reach out to the up side of things?

Does being pessimistic just about ruin everything? Or do we just save ourselves from all the trouble because we are just telling ourselves what life is actually about, being realistic?

Isn’t it weird, every time were on a complete downer, our opinions and attitude towards everything changes dramatically? Or when one day you wake up, and decide that today, is going to be a good day, you’re going to make it what you wish to be. You strut your stuff, smile at the people, happy, happy.. happy. Isn’t it also weird how you always choose the wrong day to be optimistic?

All it is, as far as the eye can see, frowns, heads down, and dark, black clouds over everyone’s head. Talk about raining on your parade.

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moment, that I will clutch tight to my chest until I die?

ometimes I get obsessed about making things perfect, and trying to make people happy.

Perfect, perfect, perfect, because that’s how it should be.

Like in those films, and then after I go home and look back on those pictures on my camera and admire that day, But it never works out that way, but truthfully, if it happens in films, why cant it happen in real life?

We all crave some perfect moments, why cant we have them? Perfect hair, eyes, home, cars, family, friends, jobs, careers, a perfect LIFE! Does anyone care? Picture perfect moments and times to remember when you 70 years old in a rocking chair? Does anyone else, really try to aim to live life to the full like I do? Is life for me, really just the hunt for that PERFECT picture

ately I have a good out look on life. If I ever have an idea, and something deep inside tries pushing me to do it, but my head stops me and says ‘No!’.

Then I go to do it.

If the outcome is bad, its bad, we can always try our best to correct it. Its always going to be a risk playing these games.

And if the outcomes good?

Then your living your life. Doing what you what, when you want, that’s how it should be, also the best of all, you will never regret taking that risk. The feeling of regret is my worst feeling, because once it’s in the past, it’s gone, and then it’s a hard job correcting your mistakes after that. If it was meant to be corrected..

It’s sometimes really hard to let go of an obsession though. It’s not simple.

I have a unhealthy obsession, with being unhealthy? Is that a good enough obsession?

Though can it really be an obsession, because I don’t actually enjoy not being healthy, I just cant eat, but its something I cant help and it feels like its no where near under my control. Does that prove that obsession can also be very, very un enjoyable, and extremely dangerous for your health?

My best friend is a typical selfless person. Beautiful and charming. She’s kind of like me, but to the extreme. Trying everything in her power to make me happy. Dropping everything and changing 5

things, to put a smile on my face. Is she obsessed with making me happy, because she doesn’t like to see me sad? Because if someone you love is upset, it rubs off extremely easy. Is it when we love someone so much, we will drop everything and anything to see them smile?

I used to be the kind of person who used to love being alone. At the age of 13, I locked myself in my room. All day and all night. Now I think back to what I used to do, I can never remember because it was a hell of a lot of time to be spending all by yourself.

I had friends, but I chose not to be with them. I didn’t like having friends, going out and trying to have a good time wasn’t my thing. I much rather sit at home, writing, drawing, and organising.

Organising stuff in the very far away future, organising and then re organising my room and books, cd’s on my shelf, organizing piles or pictures and stories, organizing the things that never ever needed to be organised, Even at young ages we have obsessions, mine was staying inside and organizing. But everyone has obsessions, I have to put everything and nearly anything into category groups otherwise it doesn’t make sense to me, I used to always have to sing the same song before I went to sleep so I could have a bizarre and crazy dreams, I day dream far too much and sometimes I think it’s a bit un healthy because I always have this: 6

“So, what do you think of that?”

‘I’m scanning my brain trying to think of something I heard them say, then realising that I have nothing I just nod and say..’

“Its cool..”

“Oh, really? What the hell? Why do you say that?”

‘Shit, what do I say now. I just pretended I heard what they said and just replied.

Now I feel like a complete idiot but..’

‘Um, sorry what did you say?”

never going to happen again like that.

Days later, I will still be sad, I will over think into things and think about never being able to change your past. What I do on nights out, is that always the right thing? Is this going to effect my future?

Am I really going to regret every single bit of it when I’m older? Or, ‘Shit, why didn’t I do that last night?’ Which is worst of all.

Overall, I never spend an entire day at home because I’m scared something better is going on somewhere else, In fact I don’t like spending an entire day anywhere inside especially when the suns shining, because I want to use that time as much as I can, I like having a huge variety of friends because I never know when one of them will come in use, I take every opportunity I can because you only live once, I’m always alert with things around me in case I miss anything.

So, I guess we do need our little obsessions to keep us all sane and alive, because they are who we are, and without them, we are all the same.

‘Idiot! I’m not using that ever again!’

I’ m obsessed with being that person who sits around and sulks when she’s just gone out and had a great night, danced on those tables, and got laid, because its U_MAG

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Lonely Hearts grey skirt worn as a top, Ellery ripped stonewash jeans, Gucci beige snakeskin wedges, Maison Martin Margiela gold strap vest, stylists own

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Ellery gold sequin and silk top, Lover black tracksuit pants, Gucci black heels,

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Friedrich Gray black leather and jersey top with zip, C&M swimwear briefs, $ part of set; Gucci beige snakeskin wedges,

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Tina Kalivas embroidered tee

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Friedrich Gray black silk cami, ksubi beige lace jeans, Lonely Hearts black knee pads, Gucci black heels,

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Ellery gold vest, Superfine black shearling vest, ksubi black tassel back tee, Ellery black strapless "v" front top, Lonely Hearts black lace tights,

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Kirrily Johston archive fur jacket, Friedrich Gray black silk cami, Lonely Hearts black lace tights,

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Lover red jacket, Alice McCall black jeans,

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ksubi laser cut one piece

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Gucci black dress with gold eyelets, 41 ksubi black laser cut scarf,

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Hat by galaxy army + navt , T-shirt by american apparel U_MAG

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Hat by galaxy army + navt , T-shirt by AMERICAN APPAREL, Jeans by american apparel 44

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Hat by galaxy army + navt , Jeans by american apparel

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Hat by galaxy army + navt , Glasses by GALAXY ARMY + NAVT

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Overalls by galaxy army + navy Gogtags by galaxy army + navy

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Hat by urban outfitters Glasses by urban outfitters Headphones by urban outfitters T-shirt by urban outfitters Swimsuit by parke + ronen Jeans by american apparel

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T-shirt by american apparel Jeans by levis Swimsuit by parke + ronen

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Flask by galaxy army + navy Boxers by calvin klein Jeans by urban outfitters

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Hat by galaxy army + navt , Glasses by GALAXY ARMY + NAVT, PANTS by stylists own

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Khakis by Rhuel

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Shorts by american apparel

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Khakis by ruehl Shirt by marc by marc jacobs

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T-shirt by american apparel Underwear by american apparel U_MAG

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Glasses by Oliver peoples T-shirt vintage madonna concert t (stylist’s own) Underwear by jake

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Glasses by Oliver peoples T-shirt vintage madonna concert t (stylist’s own) Underwear by jake U_MAG

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Singlet by Asher levine

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Singlet by Asher levine

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All couture gowns by Bethany Halbreich All jewelry and millinery: vintage finds by stylist Shoes by Nina 74

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Photographer: You Bin Fashion Editor: Andre Austin Model: Zef @Basic Model Management 78

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Scarf: by General Idea

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Scarf/Pants by General Idea and boots by Harley Davidson

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Blazer/Shirt/Leggings by Saenai Collection and gloves by LaCrasia

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Gavin chain vest by Kimberly Ovitz and gloves by Diesel

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Coat by Carlos Campos

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Shirt by Raf by Raf Simons and suspenders by H&M

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Sweatshirt by General Idea

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Scarf/Pants by General Idea and boots by Harley Davidson

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Sequined dress by Ashish

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Ksenia (left) wears a Boob tube dress with horse print by Anna Unger and Dani (right) wears a silk top with horse print by Anna Unger

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Ksenia WEARS dress by Kenzo and boots by Manolo Blahnik

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Ksenia (left) wears a pale pink cape by Bora Aksu Sequined Briefs by Jasper Conran Shoes by Aminaka Wilmont

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Ksenia (left) wears a Transparent top by Nicole Fahri Leotard underneath by Capezio and Dani (right) wears a Black and grey checked sequined dresss by Ashish

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Ksenia (right) Black skirt and belt worn as bikini top by Jasper Conran Shoes by Nicole Fahri Dani: (left) Jacket with long sleeves by Jasper Conran Suspenders by Levante @mytights.com Shoes by Manolo Blahnik

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Ksenia (top) wears a black jumpsuit and bow around neck by Yves Saint Laurent Dani (bottom) wears a red coat by Alberta Ferrett i, black dress underneath by Vintage Heaven

__________________________ Photography Assistance: Nikki Mcclarron Styling Assistance: Louise Todd Make up Assistance:Yuri Okada Hair Assistance: Ryan Wilkins 102

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this charming girl

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Square shoulder Jacket by Allice Burrows Graphic cut out dress by H&M

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Square shoulder Jacket by Allice Burrows Graphic cut out dress by H&M

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Graphic print Jersey dress by H&M Wool wide shoulder jacket by Zara Mirrored Belt by Zara

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Leather Panel Jacket: Alice Burrows Lycra Swim suit: Chazal Geomet Belt: S.B.Creations

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Loop shoulder jacket by Alice Burrows Cut out bra by stylists own Geomet Headpiece by S.b.Creations

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Loop shoulder jacket by Alice Burrows Cut out bra by stylists own Geomet Headpiece by S.b.Creations

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Loop shoulder jacket by Alice Burrows Cut out bra by stylists own Geomet Headpiece by S.b.Creations

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creative direcor: Romeu Silveira text: Charmaine Selwood PHOTOGRAPHY: Joe Lally, Jamie Hooper, Dakila, Ian Markell, Milos Mali, Daniel Gil Rodrigo, Sohrab Vahdat, You Bin, Davide Sometti.

STYLISTS: Sarah Adiana-Butler, Fredo, Fernando Torres, Claudia Benkhe, Andre Austin, Surraya Starr,Marie Degrado, Kim Ellery.

BEAUTY: Sam Laschelle, Nickee David, Ken Nakano, Warren Holmes, Clare Thomson, Amy Weissnberg MODELS: Jazzi @ Premier Model, Sam James @ M&P Models (London), Ksenia @ Storm, Dani @ Profile, Zef @ Basic, Espirit @ Empire, Lauran Hannawalt @ Pricillas, Caleb Halstead @ Wilhelmina, Steffie @ Elite

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(...) but the earth live abideth forever... The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to the place where he arose... The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the noth; it whirleth about continually, and the wind, returneth again according to his circuits... All the rivers ruin into the sea; yet the sea is not full; unto the place from whence the rivers come, thither they return again� ECCLESIASTES

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caleb (wilhelmina) by joe lally

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