Expressions from My Cosmic Origin

Hayward Enterprises, Incorporated

Front Cover Artwork: First Steps into the Cosmos Back Cover Artwork: Moon Glow This Page: Butterflies Go Cosmic Copyright Š 2017 by Hayward Enterprises Inc. All rights to text and illustrations are reserved by Tracy Hayward.

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2700 Napa Valley Corporate Dr. Suite L Napa, California 94558 (707) 261-5100 ext. 121 Tracy@heicreativeconcepts.com www.surrendertoyoursenses.com Third Edition: November 2017 Graphic Design by Montia Garcia Editors Camille Hayward & Marissa Roche

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Life Lessons - 62

Preface - iv

Soul Awareness - 90

Heartfelt Love - 2

G.O.D. - 136

Wisdom - 20

Playful Whimsy - 160

Inner Angst & Battle - 40

Poetry & Proverb Index - 169

Being At Peace - 50

Art Appendix - 171 iii

A Path of a Buddhist

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This book is dedicated to His Holiness Buddha Maitreya & Mandarava Tara

www.buddhamaitreya.org www.shambhalahealingtools.com

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PREFACE I write this preface to Expressions from My Cosmic Origin from the front porch of my family’s cabin in June Lake, California. Located in the Eastern Sierras, it is a place that has not changed much in the past fifty years. Its rugged, natural beauty and frontier sites of the old west attract curious visitors from around the world. Beautiful aspens, abounding in full autumn color surround me. I come to this remote place often to practice being present in nature.

This morning I am alone, playing music of SĹ“ur Sourire, or The Singing Nun, on my thirty-five-yearold-year old Bang and Olufsen turntable. I enjoy listening to her sweet voice in harmony with her guitar celebrating God, allowing my soul to dance freely as in childhood. This book of art and poetry is a compilation of creative expressions made during the past two years when I found pockets of time to be

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Photos: Cabin view, June Lake, California

alone on my quest to recover my childlike sense of wonder and imagination.

Funny enough, I found time to retreat while trapped in a grizzly divorce with a corrupt judge (who was forced to recuse herself), outrageous collusion with opposing counsel, a forest of legal shenanigans, and a protracted legal battle that jeopardized my business, a specialty foods company I began 25 years ago out of the back of my parents’ home. Add to all that an attempted corporate siege and takeover of my business in 2013 and I had a perfect storm for forcing change. As painful deceit was revealed and I began to encounter criminal legal abuse as part of these unethical divorce proceedings, I had to work hard to become and return to being peaceful. My sanity and healing required I retreat regularly from the world to remain in balance in spite of my challenges.

Photos: Mono Lake and ghost town of Bodie nearby

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In January of 2013, a surprise IRS business audit taking four months, allowed me a health retreat to Grand Cayman Island. Surrounded by Caribbean blue-green waters, I allowed myself time to recover from the darkness that had crept into my marriage and from lingering ill health. There in quiet solitude, in different seaside villas I rented on the backside of the island, I discovered that the safer and more secure I began to feel, the more openly I began to express from a place inside myself I had not known in a very long time. By giving myself time to play, dance and be peaceful, I fell in love with myself again.

My poetry recounts my rediscovery of my inner light energy—a cosmic gift to all humans seeking to experience God’s wonder and wisdom. Peace, the greatest gift born from a spiritual awakening, has rekindled my sense of spontaneity and childlike nature, allowing me to come to terms with the loss of my friend and marriage partner. I now admit openly that I can behave like a modern day hermit, finding delight in being quiet and seeking time in God apart from an otherwise noisy and fractured world. By taking pen to paper in prose, poems, and proverbs, I have written love letters to my soul, which I now share with you.

Making the most of the time being to heal my physical and etheric body, I have been made as new through my art as therapy. When I began to paint in abstract, I let myself play in color, express my feelings, and respond to the viii

Photos: The Cayman Islands

harmonic sounds of music I played while painting. Letting go of many artists’ rules, I became tuned into my inner voice and senses. I have taught myself to look at each painting from many viewpoints, turning my board regularly to forge a fresh perspective. I do not know my subject in advance. Only when my canvas speaks to me, offering up self-understanding, is it finished. I paint with a variety of art mediums—pastels, watercolor, Sumi inks, and loose mineral pigments.

Personal as it has been profound, I have quietly been revitalized by the light of Christ that dwells inside of each of us. Through my practice of becoming still, I now understand the power of self-healing through a daily practice of meditation. Buddha Maitreya’s teachings, music, and healing tools have generated telepathic insights and wondrous cosmic light energy—gifts that have massaged my soul through my personal trial. I make time to play each day and I allow my imagination once again to soar. By taking stock of myself, reducing many of my life’s glamours and distractions, and slowing the pace of my daily routine to a sweeter rhythm where I can ‘feel’ my day, I have healed greatly to enjoy being more peaceful and present. I am managing the criminal legal abuse better and I hope to find a platform to expose the unethical and unlawful dealings in our current legal system.

Until then, I dare to dream of a more peaceful world where we humans may connect in love to live as One.

Photos: The Cayman Islands and Tracy at play

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Heart Strings tugged Makes space.

God dwells inside all space.

Does your love expand?

Dancing in the Flesh

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Heartfelt Love

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TANTRIC LOVE Tantric lovers are lazy.

They don't plan.

They run short on housekeeping, But run long on intuition.

Tantrics run their lights like crazy!

Eternal lovers of One, Moving always into the Light They hold God's energy within.

Our love is entwined with the universe.

From afar, we come To light the world In a canopy of cosmic intelligence.

Opposite Page: Cosmic Highway to Infinity

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Make Tantric Love

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ETERNALLY YOURS I am your eternal lover.

My love is yours, And yours, mine.

I give to you, my love, Tantric light-energy as my Expression of One love.

Forever and always.

Let our fusion Light the world And be our gift to all.

May all humanity come to Experience this ever Expanding brilliance as Cosmic lovers in One!

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YEARNING Sea foam drapes my legs As I walk the beach Flirting with the ocean's call.

You whisper to me, Lapping a light touch Across my skin.

Alive, Awakened within I am wet thinking of you.

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Tropical Eternity

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Ethereal Tickle

TICKLE ME Share yourself fully, my love, Whisper your sweetness in my ear.

Your words are like a feather, They tickle my soul.

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SOFT MYSTERY My softness opens to your touch.

I become a swirl of clouds, Whipped cream gone hot.

My body transforms in an instant.

Ethereal ribbons ripple in waves, I am washed in undulating sensations.

It starts in my brain Like a waft of sea air and smoke, The deeper I drift, your arousal lifts.

I relax, my muscles loosen Into a dream state of desire— A beckoning ache stings and prickles.

I desire you more now than ever.

Transfixed by body memory, Celebration of Life 3

My soft mystery awaits your call.

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PERSONAL AD I placed a personal want ad: Shambhala Warrior Seeks playmate for Both heaven and earth.

Seeker he must be, With talents and abilities Divinely inspired.

He must know how to Play, be intimate lovers andlaughcryandlovealloveragain.

Make true friends.

Be alone and also, be in One. In other words, be himself.

Only One answered.

I found new Love.

SPEAKING OF ESSENTIALS When I speak from my body, I speak not.

When I make love with my body I light up.

Who needs eyes when my Lover's light is seen by touch?

Opposite Page: Changing Perspectives

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SWEET SLUMBER I did not make love to you last night.

How could I have?

I don't know myself well enough, To make love to me, let alone you!

I am fascinated by the thought Of your touch. It moves my body.

Maybe next time, I will let you touch my mind.

While I think of you constantly, It is now late, My Sweet.

Slumber calls me to slip into my sheets And dream an etheric hologram of love.

Good night ...

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MELTING POINT I melt like hot chocolate ganache ‌ Who left the oven on?

Aching and wet I play with abandon in my own mess.

Celestial Portal

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ELECTRIC LOVE Tantric lovers are not stingy in love, Living each moment as Eternal lovers into realms beyond, Their touch is shared paradise forever.

These Lovers of Light live by sensing God, Catching telepathic waves of awareness From a mysterious source beyond.

Their self-understanding is spoken in dance.

While Tantric love is ancient as time is eternal, Few dare explore OM, this universe within.

Meditating upon one's inner rays of color, Tantrics share their love-light so all the world may see.

Opposite Page: Light Energy

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MY LOVE By no means do I need you.

My body does.

I don't call to you.

My body does.

By all means, Devour me, take what you want.

Your taking is my giving.

My taking still makes me shy.

I can't hear my body For the din in my head.

Devour me and take off my head.

Only then will I love you with abandon.

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Opposite Page: Inner Light Discovery

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What is Mountain?

Where is Fuji?

Who is God? Answer: All are three in One! Spirit Begets God

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Wisdom 20

MYSTERIOUS PATH To Know God is circular.

Just when you THINK, You will find you are lost again.

The pathway to Heaven Requires one to walk in Rounds of sensory intelligence.

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Empathic Highways

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SEEK AND YE SHALL FIND Seeker, you are such a solitary creature.

How do you know where you are going?

Is it hard to follow your own path?

Which way is it toward wisdom?

How can you leave your past behind?

Why meditate on your breath?

They call out to you, Wise One. Wait, don't go yet.

You journey on without answering my questions!

Wait!

Wait for me!!

I too want to find my soul.

Opposite Page: First Steps into the Cosmos

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Infinite Vistas

TWO BIRDS Forgiveness and redemption Are like two seagulls Riding the ether waves.

To be pardoned And acknowledged Makes Spirit take flight.

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COSMIC FLIGHT Like birds riding the ether waves, Our bodies want to take flight.

Respond with care, seeker.

Fly straight to the cosmic One.

A PEEK To glimpse at heaven, Space of hue Radiance and light, Is Love remembered.

Eternal Love

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COSMIC TRUTH Christ came with a simple message.

He spoke of Love—a cosmic Truth.

Many heard him, few truly understood.

Jesus spoke in parables, A poem in verse.

Truth is so precious Christ dared not be plainspoken.

Truth comes mostly in empathic whispers.

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Pools of Wisdom

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THEN GOD SPOKE

Live with Truth Not deceptions of your personality.

Your soul has yet to be touched By man or God.

Opposite Page: Beyond Delusions

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LIVE AS ONE Revelation and Truth are twins in Spirit.

One cannot exist without the other.

Truth cannot exist without Love.

Love and evil cannot coexist.

One Love is supreme.

This is the law of Love.

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Opposite Page: Love Entwined

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TRUTH BE TOLD A self—unknown, Blinded from Truth Is Satan's playground.

I pray to know myself.

I write madly as a careless poet.

I write as a mad woman, possessed!

I madly scribble to tell you my Truth— Ignorance is my enemy!

Truth is like a quiet water, gone deep.

Dare I let go of the known To find my truth within?

Truth be told, desire begets self-illumination.

Watery Castle

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REMEMBER WHAT? That which we cannot remember We are doomed to forget.

If you forget your life You are condemned to relive it.

That which we remember Becomes our consciousness.

If you want to Become Christ-like Remember Truth.

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A PEBBLE OFFERING Streaming consciousness flows Like electric waters Through our universe.

What state of mind is this— Where thoughts and images Collide in instantaneous understanding?

How does this cosmic mind of clear beauty Offer me waters of bliss to swim in?

Confused but captivated, I wade in from its shallow shore.

Refreshed by internal dancing lights I feel God's empathic pulsing glow.

It is here in this watery space I drink my Joy. My slow movements awaken my Soul.

I listen deeply.

How do I tell others that They too can know Ecstasy?

I know! I will give away pebbles From the shores of this Divine body of water To all seekers daring to swim in Cosmic streams of self-awakening.

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To all streaming OM.

Streaming Consciousness

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Eye of a Needle

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HUMBLED BREATH To become closer to God, I humble myself.

God's greatness takes Away my breath.

I breathe deep and slow.

Breathing One breath In unison, I transpire like vapor.

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Be not anxious for that Which you cannot see.

The invisible is your true home.

Cosmic Eggplant

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Inner Angst & Battle

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LUCIFER'S WARNING I am Lucifer, living in darkness.

I use loose words and wrong actions.

I hurt others, just as evil does.

I am an instrument of death!

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Climb from Darkness

Lost

CARELESS LIVERS BEWARE Living as dead is hard, But living in Hell on earth is harder.

Know Lucifer when he speaks.

He is your neighbor and your neighbor's friend.

He may even be you!

He comes in the night to steal your life.

He sends insidious soldiers to do his bidding.

You cannot be too careful, Most die from carelessness, not death.

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Inner Eruption

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MY BROTHER'S BARBER I tell you, Barber, you nicked me When trimming my beard.

I know it was an accident, But my cut hurts.

Barber! You cut my face.

I am bleeding, I am sure of it.

You almost nicked my artery.

Barber, make peace with me!

Barber! I demand an apology!

I did not deserve this cutting.

Suddenly, I saw my reflection in the barber's mirror.

I watched the barber bleed.

I retired to bed proud of my poem.

God was not.

In the night, God's voice awakened me.

"Do you not see yourself As both smug and blind?

You are both barber and A bleeding man!"

"You are one of the same, Regard not who bled or who cut.

Lies lived without redemption Leave humans walking as dead."

"While you may not have cut Your barber's throat, your fierce words Left him to bleed in spirit."

Unwittingly, I pierced my own soul.

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Inner Prison Door Opens

NO ROAD MAP Fewer words and more silence Are good exercises toward self-knowledge.

There are no books offering directions Or recipes to cook up enlightenment.

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HER OWN MONSTER MAKING How could she not have seen this before now?

Little fears in youth, Ignored for lack of self-curiosity and Left unchecked over the years, Grew up to become monster fears of her own making.

She became a monster keeper, corralling her fears Spawned since childhood, she fed them As nourishment to her soul.

Castigated to perfunctory socials and community service, Unending busyness and nervous anxiety, her Soul Revolted in debilitating body pain and ill health.

A slow death ensued; over the years she surrendered To a hardening of heart and unchallenged ignorance.

A stiffening of mind, body, and spirit Abducted her memory and inner peace.

Like watching a movie, she saw Herself shadow box in utter terror With her own dilutions.

Her work became both her cover And her refuge from her own psychosis.

Yet, between the cracks Of her own inner veneer, She would hear God's offer to connect, Coaxing her with visual emanations and Intuitive insight. Ultimately, God chiseled away at her persona— Her posing and posturing on and on.

Monster mindedness slowly gave way to peace.

And instead of caging her monsters within, God freed her of them, gnashing teeth, all!

At last, my monsters of darkness have dissipated Into a sea of meditative tranquility within.

The Way Through Darkness

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A BATTLE WITH MYSELF God calls to me, Oh! Shambhala Warrior, Save your armament. Your battle is within.

You are your own enemy!

Sure enough, I catch a glimpse of my foe In the reflection of my own armored breast plate.

I am besieged in energetic combat for my soul.

Intellect and intuition set siege, one against the other In daily rounds, while dark forces play tricks on my sensibilities.

My truth is entwined in Satan's deceitful falsehoods.

Daily, I retreat to my meditative soul therapy To seek solace in God's light, an Aurora Borealis within.

Prepare me God for tomorrow-when the battle begins all over again.

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Lighted Pathway to the Cosmos

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Go Inside.

One is waiting For you there.

It is your Self.

Self-Reflection 49

Being At Peace 50

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Illusion

FIREFLY MAGIC Lively glow bugs dance each summer In Japanese gardens, transforming foliage Into sacred light. Gardeners love magic!

Firefly, I feel your light.

Pulsing energetic love when sunset colors fade.

Light up the world, little bug!

Summer's glow bugs shine hot From an eternal source beyond Hedge rows and crimson blooms.

Sultry nights find these fireflies Flirting with lovers exchanging kisses Under cypress trees. All glow tonight!

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Veils of Delusion Fall Away

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MORNING BLISS Today's dawn was like no other.

It glowed Love.

As Awe became Light, Another day was born.

God's light, Extraordinary!

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WAITING UPON THE INVISIBLE Awaiting in an invisible space, Between sacred self and OM, Rests an inner universe worthy of exploration.

In daily silence, I visit this sacred space to discover The wonder of bliss.

Inevitably, playful spontaneity Finds me soon afterwards!

Sacred Spaces

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FOUR SEASONS Pink cherry blossom petals flutter, Casting color, scent, and serenity for all.

God's gracious hand is never idle.

Summer's sand dunes staggered the beach After a vast ocean interrupted the day With a sudden storm, finally clearing.

Contemplate upon a turning leaf.

Go wild with a Japanese Maple's brilliance.

Get lost in God's autumnal handiwork.

Snow drifts sparkle in sunshine.

Transcendent Peace

Deep ski tracks lead toward forests beyond.

Where do you go for illumination?

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Spontaneous Combustion

PLAY AS IF IN HEAVEN In Heaven, our creations are expressions of Love.

Our Love is expressed through our playfulness.

In Heaven, Spirit dances in creative spontaneity.

I say, let's make Earth as it is in Heaven just so we Can play, dance for joy, and be spontaneous about it!

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ANSWER TO WORLD POLLUTION Self-importance in the world, When projected, pollutes God's eternal plan.

Want to stop world pollution?

Practice love of God toward everyone.

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UNIVERSAL HEALING OINTMENT Forgiveness is a sweet salve.

Apply liberally for healing within.

Spiritual doctors know the cure— OM's salve is an eternal balm To rejuvenate our soul.

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Out of Darkness

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Where are you going little bird?

Why do I ask questions you cannot answer?

When you answer your own questions, You will know God.

Newborn Serenity

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Life Lessons 62

Angel's Pathway

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SIMPLY SACRED I take a body Both human and soul filled.

When God calls, I light up.

When you call, I clean up the kitchen.

BE ACCOUNTABLE You want independence.

God wants accountability.

For the love of God, Account for your independence.

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NOT TO BE REDUNDANT To simplify your life, remove redundancy.

Yet, to explore one's essential self, Daily meditation is essential!

For it is in this redundant routine, Spontaneous experience becomes One's poetic expression.

Live each day as a poem in God's universe.

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Seashell Wisdom 1

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Flood of Truth

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TWISTED TRUTH I have seen a peak of Heaven's beauty.

I have experienced the darkness of Earth.

This earthly orb, cosmic in design, is veiled.

Lacking discernment, I swallowed Lucifer's lies whole!

I sat in a pew assuming Truth would be told.

I awoke to find it was twisted.

I had to leave God's house to learn How to be Christ-like.

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LOVE'S SOURCE Love is like a firefly— It could glow unceasingly, If only it possessed the energy!

If light is the nature of God, Love is her consciousness.

Plug into that energy, my friend.

Light up more than your hind side.

Learn to glow love unceasingly.

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New Hearts Unfolding 1

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Instant Rapture

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INTUIT TRUTH Truth grows on you As Jasmine, sweet.

In season, Truth intoxicates the senses.

Out of season, It lays dormant.

Hallelujah! It's spring!

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I HAVE A HUNCH Most people lack the ability to discern

Righteousness from wrong doing.

Always test your hunches.

Over time, hunches are forged As if by fire, into intuition.

Intuition forged by righteous behavior Casts lasting discernment.

Discernment is reserved for the wise.

Only the wise start by trusting a hunch.

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Rising Horizons 1

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Swirling Delusions

THE WORD SHOULD

Take out all words that Create a wall around you.

Top of the list, put the word should.

Next on the list, the word, again.

Nothing is ever the same twice!

Why do we try to make it so?

We try to make everything the same.

With our words We use words that diminish Our capacity, our fantasy, Our intimacy.

Our barriers to God Can be heard In our words.

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TEACHERS Clouds are teachers.

Seekers are their students.

Life's lessons pass as clouds above.

Extraordinary teachings await To those attuned to passing clouds.

Clouds determine the daily lesson.

Where do you place your gaze?

Your focus binds your heart.

Look up! Hear the clouds speak!

Regrettably, most want clear skies.

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Passing Wisdom

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TABLE MANNERS ASIDE If Truth were a dinner fork, Seekers would be called out for bad manners.

Obsessed with knowing God, Seekers care not how to hold a fork, 'Tines up or down' or placement on the table.

Seekers dine on a daily diet of discernment, Piercing the soul with morsels of Truth.

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Complete Surrender

SLEEPING IN GLITTER Seekers strive, while Most fall by the wayside, Distracted by the allure of life.

Sleepwalking through life's glitter Is a common problem.

Wake up, sleepwalker!

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Celebration of Life 2

HARD LESSON Today I saw myself as I am.

I told an insidious lie.

I did not keep my word.

Self-deception spawns my suffering.

Today's lesson came from my soul.

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GEIKO THEATRE Ancient glory remains possible for all to see Inside Geiko theatres, protected by decree.

On stage, painted beauty is still an art With actors bound by tradition since its start.

Daily performances play familiar music and story To tell tales in memorized movements of great glory.

Between forces of light and dark, actors fight For a lover's heart and a soul's lonely plight.

Traditional Japanese theatre resembles real life.

We all are actors, and seldom rest from strife.

We may wear an equivalent of kimonos fine But few shall embody true sacredness divine.

For only when we leave our own 'Geisha' stage Will eternal peace finally come of age.

One must vacate familiar speech and tradition For God's actions to spontaneously come to fruition!

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Opposite Page: Transformation

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Heaven's Portal Opens

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TODAY'S LESSON My life is now a lesson, Each day is my teacher.

Lessons well learned Bring me closer to God. I learn to humble myself When I have hurt someone.

I now see I am right, You are wrong!

Oh! I apologize.

Insights follow a humbled heart.

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GOD'S CLASSROOM You Will know What you need to know When you need to know it.

Let your lessons come to you.

God lectures through our senses Making each day's experience Heaven's classroom, Forever a mystery, your teacher is everywhere!

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Lighted Whimsy

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One's self assertions Are pathways to nowhere.

Empathic highways lead to God. I say, let One lead the Way!

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Soul Awareness

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BEYOND GOLD Seeker! See the gilded Buddha towering Over traditions of thought and customs?

God's spirit beckons beyond applied gold leaf.

Seeker! Apply your truth daily— Test your beliefs and learned behavior.

God is not what you think.

Seeker! See your truth, behold new life.

Like a rose in bloom, nature unfurls eternal truth Without haste for those daring to look.

Seeker! Put your truth before God, So that your eyes may discern false gold And fallow thought. Let Earth's veil fall!

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God Beckons Beyond

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Here, but No Further, so Sayest the Angel

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SOUL TALK

I touched my soul within.

I felt my fear and recognized A shard of truth— I've been terrified, Left alone, searching.

I am searching for my soul And seeking my lost sense of wonder.

Somewhere, somehow I lost my childhood.

Plunged into my own darkness, I lost my child-like nature.

With each year's passing Little by little, I lost my inner voice.

Oh God, why hath thou forsaken me?

So slow was this process, This hardening of heart, I scarcely remember it happening.

Only now do I see my insanity, I've been really crazy, nuts!

Frightened of everything, Fear emanated as body pain.

Then an aura of light appeared, Flanked by White Magic Divine.

An eternal kiss across the cosmos came To resuscitate my faltering Spirit, Succor and soothe my silent soul.

Now freed, my soul's tender truth is Regenerating in waves of eternal kisses.

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I AM REVEALED Solitary by nature, Social by parental indoctrination, And ordinary in so many ways, I found my best friend and playmate, To be my soul within!

Intimate as she is beautiful, Divine in nature, my soul Is filled with light from One, A luminous source sparked by God, For all eternity in reflection.

I finally know who I am!

My childlike sweetness is my true nature.

My soul expresses spontaneously through telepathy.

In an instant I understand I am an eternal being of Light!

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Cycles of Time

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Rising Horizons 2

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CHILDHOOD MEMORY My childhood fascination in God Transcended my mother's love.

Happy to be put to bed, My eyes closed as quickly as Mother left my side.

My bedtime ritual was not a book.

By closing my eyes, I could open my mind.

There, suspended in space, dozens of little Multi-colored orbs soon became a panorama Of cosmic light, glistening as they floated overhead.

What a gift—this recollection of youth!

What grace to rediscover mental clarity!

I remember another childhood fascination ...

Swinging my arms overhead to produce Luminous ribbons of light, streaming in color.

What a gift—To be filled once again with Soul-awareness!

What an awesome feeling to recapture God's light-energy within!

Enthralled and enraptured, I dance with joy.

I have found a way to love myself anew And love others too. Mother, especially.

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GOD CALLS God has called me often.

Was I ever listening?

How could I hear beyond today’s Distractions, glitter and haste?

There, in this state of knowinglessness God came to me.

Gentle and brusque at once I was thrown off guard.

And such noise is made with Discord, war, and poverty!

Calamity of humanity Has kept me from hearing.

I heard the Voice within Slowly yet with force, In an instant I awoke!

Now I See. I Feel. I Hear. I Rejoice!

Life’s commitments, hollow Swallowed me whole.

I would seek beauty to Cover up my blindness.

Each day, I yearn to experience God— Her voice comes with harmonic resonance, Again and again. Call me, Bliss!

What ecstasy awaits!

Yet, hidden in my own darkness My inner ear remained attuned.

I could hear you, Voice, With intermittent reception.

Jumbled in jargon And bogged by speech, I found few words of Love Sufficient to soothe.

I was afraid of my own Truth.

I became what I feared, A life unknown.

A life dead in Spirit, I lived.

UNWRAPPED I asked to see my soul.

Little did I know My request to God Would be heard by My Soul within Who in turn, called to me.

Today I wrestled my own terror, Stared down silent fear

Wrapped in astounding cosmic light, Quite suddenly, I saw my own soul.

I cried, and cried, and cried.

In a tender moment, I came unwrapped.

Like a newborn, I feel again.

I weep for joy

Operating between my Voice

In the wonder of

Within and my self unknown.

My new nakedness.

Opposite Page: Eye of a Needle/Partial

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MEDITATE FOR SOUL'S SAKE I am sometimes asked, Why do you close your eyes to meditate?

To combat ignorance, I tell them.

I have to close my eyes in order to see my own Ignorance—life's extinguisher.

I say to you, Seekers of the Light, Let God splash sentient intelligence upon you.

Meditate with eyes closed for a sudden celestial Shower of energetic acuity, bathing mind, body, and soul.

Through quiet introspection and meditation Soul feeds from its sacred Source, Alleviating mental disorders chained by attachment.

I meditate to release my soul's suffering!

I meditate to arouse Soul and let her glisten.

I meditate upon the quieting cosmic forces to Subdue my personal terrors and refresh me.

I call to you, friend. Meditate in cosmic splendor.

Do it for your own soul's sake!

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Opposite Page: Seashell Wisdom 2

Spontaneous Light

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I AM AFRAID, NOT! I am no longer afraid in my own skin.

I act out spontaneously!

God's light reigns within As animated Love.

How many years have I wrested Control over my inner urges to be free?

My groomed self-control Has given way to a new soul therapy.

My expression is no longer mine alone.

Now fused with God's energy, I dance in tantric light Along the Way!

104

SOUL IMPORTANCE When did I become so self-important?

Why does my being feel so heavy?

Dare I look within to find my answers?

A long meditation brought instant revelation.

Ignorance was ripped away, Exposing my veiled existence.

My consciousness, pierced by Light, Stripped my cloak of self-righteousness.

At last, I could see myself as I am.

A voice deep within myself blurted out, "Clean your soul 'till your soul Light comes through."

Advice heeded, my burnished soul now shines without ego flare.

105

Soul Light

106

Seashell Wisdom 3

107

WHO AM I? I ask myself, who am I? I am.

I am a mystic of the ages.

I can see the face of God Everywhere, and in everything.

I see God in you.

I am a poet, too.

I catch a truth And write it down.

Granted I am careless at times, My divine nature is carefree.

I dance to God in verse.

I am God's lover.

I dance with joyous abandon.

I dance when One flirts with me.

I light up with pleasure.

I dance to exhaustion From making Love in OM.

108

TOURIST TRAP Umbrella toting tourists Jumbled and twirled en mass Toward the Great Buddha Temple Of The Todai-ji.

The air filled with casual curiosity And noisy chatter as iPhone screens Captured memories in rapid clicks (Or not). Please pause for a selfie!

Gone are the days when humility Was worn as a protective garment.

The day's misty weather quieted few seeking insight As a human tide pulled all toward this golden statue.

Step away from the crowd, my friend.

Embrace the silence of your own center.

Let your soul be examined to become Polished, regardless of the weather.

109

Clarity with Revelation

110

111

Buried Treasure Within 1

AWAKENED What Joy! What Awe! What God! Awakened soul, speak to me!

I remember you as a child, Dancing as lights within.

I return to you now Feeling strangely familiar.

Oh, darkness, be gone!

I have seen a Light-Divine.

Sacred space within, No longer hidden, I dance with delight.

My soul unveiled, I am my own gift.

112

SEEKER I have been a seeker Looking for God. With stubborn pride I set out alone upon my quest.

Not sure of much, Who or what, I went.

Off I went seeking God In houses, people, and places.

I even got lost along the way, Looking to relationships for God. Then one day, I found God inside.

Quietly waiting, my inner flame ignited.

Love cast an electromagnetic net Of brilliant light to bring me home.

No longer unknown, or lost, I experienced God. At last, I know Self-Love.

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A Pathway

114

DAILY MEDITATION I acknowledge myself, a light of Christ.

I trust you, universal Grand Architect.

I acknowledge you work in secret.

I trust your design is perfect.

I acknowledge my breath.

Today, I am at peace Breathing as One. OM.

Opposite Page: Light Beckons

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SUPPOSEDLY I don't know how I am Supposed to be When I get To where I am supposed to go.

People ask, well where are you going?

I say, I am going to where God is supposed to be.

Why? That's where I will be One—at last!

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Choices 1

118

TRANSFORMATION My psyche is a granite cliff, Jettisoning the bedrock of my mind.

At times I seem immovable.

Yet, with a stubborn desire I remain open to my intention To release self-ignorance.

Outside my body, unfeeling for years I was paralyzed by fears Seemingly lost forever in a Wasteland I called life.

I fought to morph bad habits An old way of resisting love.

Regardless of my soul detachment, "There is still time for self-reflection", So said my inner voice.

Falling like calving rock, my ego shed To allow peace within, aligning breath.

OM, I've discovered a radiant being, me.

Opposite Page: Drum Beat of OM

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UNDERSTANDING MY TRUTH Simple truth is neither simple Nor readily accessible; My truth has been buried, Deep within my soul, and Squandered on an unloving mate.

My truth has waited quietly, And sometimes not, For its own unveiling.

Patience has shown me I am worth true Love.

121

Unveiling One's Light

122

Beyond Jerusalem

123

MY SOUL'S SECRET My soul, like a newborn babe, Unable to survive without care, Lived as an orphan inside me, Detached from body and mind.

Wrapped under a blanket of fear, I vaguely recognized my true reflection, My playful child within.

Deadened from abuse, my soul became its own void.

Obscured by selfish crazy making, My sentient self was twisted, Bound and gagged, sequestered, and sentenced To a lifetime of self-induced insanity.

My self-love had been kidnapped By this world's darkness, Allowing energetic amnesia to Befall upon my soul's lightness of being.

Trapped by earth's elemental and psychic forces My soul laid in wait for recognition.

Then, in an instant, it happened!

Rapturous, transcendent awareness came.

In a sudden outburst of cosmic love Transforming my senses, I became as One, Joining mind-body-spirit.

My ego's clever bonds loosened, Allowing soul sweet cosmic relief.

New waves of Love now pulse vitality To awaken, my soul divine.

124

GRAND CAYMAN AWAKENING What sweet sunrise could lessen My longing to caress you once again?

A morning thundershower passes overhead.

Standing under these parting clouds I feel my own wetness.

What good is an umbrella?

There is no protection from my inner cloud burst.

This flimsy contraption covers not My own emotional downpour within.

I am held as a prisoner inside myself.

When will this inner ocean of doubt subside?

Living without you in awkward anticipation Offers an elusive reflection of our love.

I observe life's snorkelers, floating by offshore.

I close my eyes. I dive within for my own sunken soul.

How do I become peaceful in my own company?

There are few swim lessons for determined seekers like me Who plunge headlong into one's own deep pool.

I see myself, God, or both, so I think.

My eyes sting in the reflection of my own painful, watery illusion.

How had my life become doomed to be carried by currents Of common convention, thoughts, and patterns?

My soul has yearned for years for honest self-acknowledgement— I realize now that I nearly drowned in my own mad inner disconnectedness.

Yet this same "nervous breakdown" transformed my soul. I reconnected!

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I now see how I've lived in shadows of antiquated perceptions, Slow to detach from decades of pent up hubris.

Left alone in Grand Cayman to repair my emotional and etheric body, I timidly began to swim into my own murky consciousness.

I ventured carefully, treading ethereal waters into the universe.

My Voice came to me, challenging self-understanding.

Over and over and over and over and over again, She called.

Daily release came with surreal surrender, taking me further inside myself, While dissipating any hope of return to familiar psychic shores.

My past began to disappear like sea foam on sand.

Introspective discovery created sweet treasures of self-awareness.

Inner waters rocked my soul awake—eroding false attachments.

Tenderized by a new mind-body-spirit connection, I tingled inside, rejuvenating each day, as I grew stronger.

As my own darkness dissipated, my psyche calmed.

Today, I am learning to live as morning rainwater Clinging to the garden's fresh sea grass.

As I cleave to this new stillness within, Exquisite, soft splendor permeates my consciousness.

My meditations now generate an inner moon glow.

This newly burnished soul of mine now serves As my life vest on all adventures diving into OM. Discovery rare, I claim my soul and am comforted.

Today, my longing for your touch is quieted.

I turn over another lap to swim further and further within.

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Infinite Horizons 1

128

COSMIC LESSONS Flints of truth illuminate me.

Gathered from meditative spaces,

I magnify and enlarge my consciousness.

By stilling my mind into

And beyond the Earth plane,

Eternal understanding expands my soul.

As magnification unfolds truth,

An embodiment of Love revels

In energetic waves of light.

In our ever-expanding Universe.

I pull down the light to co-create

With God, making each day a cosmic lesson.

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God Calls 130

A SEEKER UNDERSTANDS Seekers understand There will always be work Along one's path.

One's life is as vital As one's own choices are robust.

Want to understand How best to wait on God? I say to you, friend, Seek Love's pulse And Live life robustly!

131

Opposite Page: Imprisoned Perspective

KNOW THYSELF Be what I may,

A prisoner no longer, I am my own Love.

She is me!

Moon Glow

133

COMING INTO MY LIGHT I am made from tantric light energy Drawn from God's eternal well.

Inside my light, I am never alone.

I surrender my self-knowing to a transcendent Intuitive, intelligence supreme, Omnipresent and ever loving.

I see who I am, a seeker of Light, Inspired by God's touch.

I blush in my own sacredness.

134

Language is a barrier to God. God-speak is silence Interrupted by instant illumination.

House of God Made Sacred

135

G.O.D. Goodness.

Order.

Divinity.

136

TRUE FRIENDSHIP All is unknown Until it is understood.

To understand yourself better Make God your constant companion.

137

New Hearts Unfolding 2

138

FLIRTATION WITH GOD I flirt with God in poems.

To describe God I write What I see, How I feel, What I taste, What I smell, What I touch, How I sense intuitively— While God emits empathic waves Of divine intelligence, Flashing instant Understanding, In perfect cosmic cadence For transcendent awareness.

I see God in nature's reflection.

She too is a real flirt!

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DANCING ETHER WAVES Ether waves descend from clouds As God's loving air generators.

These waves of eternal energy Make the very air we breathe.

Breathe in life eternal!

You don't believe this Truth?

Look up into the sky.

Find the birds circling beneath the clouds.

They ride the ether waves!

Seek the Truth and see even more.

Fresh Air

140

Chickens Awaken

INTIMATE CONFESSION God, I confess.

My intimacy with you

Is tenderly entangled Within— I feel staggeringly beautiful.

True feelings are a rare gift.

141

Pools of Wisdom 2

UNDERSTANDING GOD When I have wronged another, I have wronged God. When I deny wrongdoings, I have denied God. When I ignore my path, God waits.

142

LIVE ON GOD'S TIME When I choose to live on God's time, My senses transform into sentient intelligence.

When I feel hunger, I eat.

When I yearn for God, I feed my soul.

When I choose to live on God's time, I wind my eternal clock within.

Awakening my seven senses, I abide by the Lord of Time.

When I choose to live on God's time, I sleep soundly, sensing my own serenity.

When I sense not God's timing, I trust my alarm clock to sound my senses awake!

143

Higher Mind Opens to the Light

144

TEMPLE WITHIN From afar, Grand Temple, I gaze at you with awe.

Yet, as I draw near I cannot find you, God. My soul aches with a sense Of emptiness. Where are you?

Glittering gold leaf, the scent of incense, And colorful rituals resemble little to Your cosmic home residing within.

I walk slowly by 101 housed Bottisahvas, Standing as soldiers, stiff with a Zen-like meditative gaze.

These warriors of God know where God is.

"She left the building," they tell me telepathically, "For lack of dharma," they say.

"Tourist! We call out to you!

No photograph will capture what you seek.

Heaven's solace has its own path."

"To Seek God," they whisper, "Slow your pace, quiet your mind, close your eyes.

Go within—where others dare not go."

101 statues of yesteryear speak Truth.

"Seeker," they say, "surrender your soul in meditation.

Only then will you find true peace 145

Inside this edifice of antiquity."

Opposite Page: Inner Pilgrimage

146

Shimmering Intelligence

147

INSIDE OUT Piercing a veil in my conscious mind, God inverted my reality and suddenly My soul awoke from slumber deep.

How funny God is!

One moment I see Her as elusive, ephemeral, and impractical.

In the next moment, a mystery of life is revealed.

Everything is inside out!

Ignorance recedes with growing clarity as Darkness gives way to the Light.

The throne of God is not just in Heaven!

God's Truth is also within.

I see now I've been lost in my own charade, Living as a soul disconnected, Breathing but dead.

Today, finally, I understand.

I am inside out!

It makes no difference where I go, The reality I seek is God's illumination within.

To understand beyond Earth's plane, I must quiet my mind, close my eyes, and shimmer within.

God's intelligence glows from the inside out.

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GOD IS PATIENT I am that I am.

Chained by archaic reasoning and limited perspective, I wait.

Your temples, shrines, synagogues, churches, and mosques Ring hollow from hurried believers passing through while I wait.

Curious minds poke and probe religious dogma.

Each claim rights to one's own viewpoint while I wait.

War wages and sovereign boundaries move again.

International debtors create new monetary systems while I wait.

My universe communicates a language of its own Calling seekers of God through empathic whispers of Truth.

I wait for seekers.

For they will translate for others what lies beyond the cosmos.

I wait for seekers to unveil my Truth while I wait to be understood.

I wait for all mankind to understand I am that I am— I am patient Love as I wait.

149

Sudden Illumination

150

151

Realms of Consciousness

GET SOME SHUT-EYE Does God become a Tori gate painted vermilion?

Or a Shinto shrine lined with tatami mats?

Is God inside a statue of Buddha?

It is a question of mind and matter.

To see into God's sacred realm, shut your eyes.

An invisible union with the House of God awaits When Soul opens to empathic wonder.

Beyond famous places and sacred forms, Radiant intelligence broadcasts love energy For all awakening souls To make white magic with our Maker.

Hallelujah!

152

WAY OF GRACE One love is a state of grace, Where self and soul merge.

Non-existence is merging mind with universe.

This is the way of Grace.

Christ's light calls all humanity, 'Knocking upon our hearts' to open up to our universal home.

This is the way of Christ.

Love offerings merge the mind of Christ With our conscious heart To make space for universal co-creation.

This is the way of God.

153

A Cosmic World Awaits

154

New World Unfurls 155

COSMIC MOMENT Come meditate in One, Where there is no shame, No lies, no deception.

At the cosmic gateway, Seekers encounter revelations As swirling delusions dissipate.

I meditate inside OM To float in momentary bliss.

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COMING HOME Shambhala white My divine Light within What beauty this space— I'm home!

Shambhala white My divine Light within What peace this place— I've returned home!

Shambhala white My divine Light within What serenity in your face— I'm home for good!

Divine Light

157

Shambhala white My divine Light within Are you there?

I am here, She whispers.

I am here within.

GOD BREATH A life measured by one's breath Is a life worth measuring.

The breath, moving in and out, Fills the lungs and feeds the soul.

God breath is one's capacity To breathe as One, To awaken one's soul And one's eternal memory.

In each divine inhalation, In each exhalation of One, Stillness resonates harmony.

Breathe as One. Breathe in intuition, joy, and love, Breathe out suffering in darkness.

Let eternal Light within Exhale as One with God.

From Chaos to Calm

This blessed air, if taken in habit, Cultivates a sacred intimacy within, Allowing transcendent divinity To touch one's soul nature.

Without the breath of One, The Soul suffocates.

Eternal memory fades, And another life is lost to darkness.

Breathe!

158

Once in spring, bamboo planted In ancient times, became a forest sublime.

Forever more, towering joy sways.

Made as New Bamboo

159

Playful Whimsy 160

RECIPE FOR LIVING AS ONE Blend these ingredients together with Discernment: Acknowledgment of Goodness, Respect for Order, Awareness of one's Divinity within.

These are essential bonding agents for Cohabitation with God.

PASSWORDS Passwords do test my memory clear. > With a capitalized letter here, > Followed by a space bar there. > Retry Again, Computer says. All veneer! > > I hardly know my name, > Let alone my secret code. > My E's now written as 3's > Are done to keep a hacker snowed. > > The code length may vary too, > It is never quite the same. > I create my own frustration, then

HEAVENLY HOST

> Find someone else to blame.

In God's heavenly house,

> My password poem confuses too,

We eat on God's time,

> For it's a secret not to be

And dine divinely!

> It's a code of Love to you

>

> From me!

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MY VICE A Pen quenches my thirst.

Paper shelters my thoughts.

Poems feed fritters to my soul.

What's cooking tonight?

For the love of God Cascade of Understanding

Let's dine on heavenly fritters!

CONFIDENTIALLY SPEAKING I would love to see you In the flesh, God. May every word I speak In the flesh Be Love.

MYSTERIOUS SUBSTANCE God, you need a PR campaign for our Light within.

The problem is clear, folks are missing their lights!

I propose a press release be distributed at once!

HEED ONE'S SOUL

It's a hard sell merchandising the Invisible.

Warning—approach your sacredness with care.

Discovery of one's own brilliance within May bring on bouts of mental acuity.

162

I AM MY OWN POEM In God's cosmic playground

The Word floats in telepathic streams of light.

There is no need for prose, Poetry or rhyme.

Neither pen nor paper have use.

This poet will just have to become Her own poem!

Out of the Chasm

NO SENSE LIKE NONSENSE My child within learned To tell herself When to pee and poop, Eat and sleep.

Then I lost her.

I grew up.

And with this loss I lost my ability to Hear my body speak.

I retreated from my own Intimacy. Now, I Know myself only Inside my head.

Consequently, I speak nonsense.

ORIENTAL ORNAMENTATION Silken kimono

Stored for winter, folded fine Is faded beauty Lovely vibrant threads Lay cold on a darkened shelf Now lost to another time gone by.

This treasured costume Remembered as worn, Is next season's trend.

FAMILY REUNION I asked for forgiveness from my family today.

I ate crow feathers for breakfast.

My meal proved satisfying Even if my pride swallowed hard.

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FEW WORDS WORK BEST No words describe God accurately.

While a preacher will expound with detail, A poet will be more accurate.

Hallelujah, for blessed brevity.

Seeking Truth Beyond

PLAYTIME

The difference between being

POETIC MUSIC FOR GOD A poem is music for God.

A witty poem is a concerto to Her ears.

Goofy and playful is

While silence remains God's poetic lullaby,

The first is out of body

Most people live in disharmonious ballads.

The second is Divine.

Become your own heavenly musical instrument— Resonate OM with the universe.

WHEN IT IS ENOUGH When is enough enough?

When I can speak kindly enough To others and of myself, And to know when I have had

WHEN REASON IS TREASON Custom agents demand stamps—

Not minding their fluorescent lamps,

Enough of this or that,

Immigration officers demand specific reasons,

Enough will be enough.

Regardless of the political seasons.

Enough is enough when I can say "I am enough!"

Police take humans as a blessing Monitoring them no matter how their dressing.

Time granted me enough of itself For me to become my own best friend.

Now I delight in knowing I am enough.

164

Know Your Path

165

GET GOING For me to 'get' What you are up to, I need to 'get' What I am up to.

To fully understand you I need time.

To fully understand God I need to set my watch to the universe.

Cosmic time tells me what I need to 'get.'

Given time, the expanding cosmos may 'Get' both of us together, If only we get going!

166

NEW NEWS News is out!

There is a new way of understanding.

And there is a new language resonating In telepathic waves from the Universe!

Listen up! News says one day we may inherit the Earth.

Seekers, come forth!

Word has it there is room for all In cosmic reality.

News says the invisible becomes visible!

Event horizons are just beyond.

Electron microscopes magnify our world To allow us to see ourselves as One. And here is an inside news story!

While nature's ingenious devises work Round the clock, cosmic news streams into eternity.

My soul says to pay extra—go for the streaming news service!

167

Voice of God 168

P O E T R Y & P R O V E R B I N D E X - I N A L P H A B E T I C A L O R D E R

169

A Battle with Myself 47

God Is Patient 149

No Sense like Nonsense 163

A Pebble Offering 35

God's Classroom 87

Not to Be Redundant 65

A Peek 26

Grand Cayman Awakening 125, 126 Once in Spring 159

A Seeker Understands 131

Hard Lesson 82

One's Self Assertions 89

Answer to World Pollution 58

Heart Strings Tugged 1

Oriental Ornamentation 163

Awakened 112

Heavenly Host 161

Passwords 161

Be Accountable 64

Heed One's Soul 162

Personal Ad 11

Be Not Anxious 39

Her Monster Making 46

Play as in Heaven 57

Beyond Gold 91

Humbled Breath 38

Playtime 164

Careless Livers Beware 42

I Am Afraid Not! 104

Poetic Music for God 164

Childhood Memory 98

I Am My Own Poem 163

Recipe for Living as One 161

Coming Home 157

I Am Revealed 95

Remember What? 34

Coming into My Light 134

I Have a Hunch 73

Seek and Ye Shall Find 24

Confidentially Speaking 162

Inside Out 148

Seeker 113

Cosmic Flight 26

Intimate Confession 141

Simply Sacred 64

Cosmic Lessons 129

Intuit Truth 72

Sleeping in Glitter 81

Cosmic Moment 156

Know Thyself 132

Soft Mystery 10

Cosmic Truth 27

Language Is a Barrier 135

Soul Importance 105

Daily Meditation 116

Live as One 31

Soul Talk 94

Dancing Ether Waves 140

Live on God's Time 143

Speaking of Essentials 12

Electric Love 16

Love's Source 69

Supposedly 117

Eternally Yours 6

Lucifer's Warning 41

Sweet Slumber 13

Family Reunion 163

Meditate for Soul's Sake 101

Table Manners Aside 80

Few Words Work Best 164

Melting Point 14

Tantric Love 4

Firefly Magic 52

Morning Bliss 54

Teachers 77

Flirtation with God 139

My Brother's Barber 44

Temple Within 145

Four Seasons 56

My Love 17

The Word Should 76

Geiko Theatre 83

My Soul's Secret 124

Then God Spoke 30

Get Going 166

My Vice 162

Tickle Me 9

Get Some Shut-Eye 152

Mysterious Path 21

Today's Lesson 86

Go Inside 49

Mysterious Substance 162

Tourist Trap 109

God Breath 158

New News 167

Transformation 120

God Calls 99

No Road Map 45

True Friendship 137

Truth Be Told 33 Twisted Truth 68 Two Birds 25 Understanding God 142 Understanding My Truth 121 Universal Healing Ointment 59 Unwrapped 100 Waiting Upon the Invisible 55 Way of Grace 153 What is Mountain? 19 When it is Enough 164 When Reason is Treason 164 Where Are You Going 61 Who Am I? 108 Yearning 7

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ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER

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Title

Page Medium

A Cosmic World Awaits

154

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

A Path of a Buddhist

iv

Mixed Media

A Pathway

114

Original Watercolor with Sumi Ink

Angel's Pathway

63

Original Pastel

Beyond Delusions

29

Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments

Beyond Jerusalem

123

Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments and Sumi Ink

Buried Treasure Within 1

111

Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi Ink, and Mineral Pigments

Butterflies Go Cosmic

ii

Acrylic

Cascade of Understanding / Infinite Horizons 4

162

Original Pastel

Celebration of Life 1

58

Original Pastel

Dimensions

Location

Date

27"w x 19"h

Napa, California

January 2014

20"w x 16"h

Napa, California

April 2016

Photograph Only

Kyoto, Japan

May 2014

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

19"w x 25"h

Napa, California

December 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

July 2014

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

24"w x 12"h

Napa, California

April 2016

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

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ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER

173

Title

Page

Medium

Celebration of Life 2

82

Original Pastel

Celebration of Life 3

10

Original Pastel

Celestial Portal

14

Original Pastel

Changing Perspectives

11

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments

Chickens Awaken

141

Original Pastel

Choices 1

118

Original Pastel

Clarity with Revelation

110

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments

Climb from Darkness

41

Original Pastel

Complete Surrender

81

Original Pastel

Cosmic Eggplant

39

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Dimensions

Location

Date

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

17 ¾"w x 22"h

Napa, California

July 2013

35 ½"w x 30 ½"h

Napa, California

Autumn 2012

32 ½"w x 25 ½"h

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

22"w x 18"h

Napa, California

June 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

October 2012

27" w x 19"h

Napa, California

July 2014

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ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER

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Title

Page

Medium

Cosmic Highways to Infinity

3, 4

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Cycles of Time

96

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Dancing in The Flesh

1

Original Painting in Mixed Media

Divine Light

157

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Drum Beat of OM

119

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Empathic Highways

22

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Eternal Love / Celebration of Life 5

26

Original Pastel

Ethereal Tickle / Celebration of Life 4

9

Original Pastel

Eye of a Needle

37

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Eye of a Needle / Partial

99

Partial of Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Dimensions

Location

Date

27"w X 19"h

Napa, California

January 1, 2014

28"w x 22"h

Napa, California

July 2013

24"w x 18"h

Napa, California

August 2014

16"w x 12"h

Napa, California

July 2014

19"w x 27"h

Napa, California

April 2014

27"w x 19"h

Napa, California

October 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

27"w x 19"h

Napa, California

February 2014

Photograph Only

Napa, California

February 2014

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ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER

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Title

Page Medium

First Steps into the Cosmos

23

Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments

Flood of Truth

67

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks

Fresh Air

140

Watercolor, Pastel and Sumi Ink

From Chaos to Calm

158

Original Pastel

God Beckons Beyond

92

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

God Calls

130

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Heaven's Portal Opens

85

Original Pastel

Here but No Further, so Sayest the Angel

93

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink

Higher Mind Opens to the Light

144

Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments

House of God Made Sacred

135

Original Art in Mixed Media

Dimensions

Location

Date

Notes

19 ¾"w x 25 ½"h

Napa, California

December 2013

Photograph Only

Sea Cove, Grand Cayman Island

March 2013

10"w x 15"h

June Lake, California

July 2011

Painted with my friend Cheryl Hoeller

12"w x 9"h

We’ll Sea, Grand Cayman Island

April 2013

Original with Dale M. Whittaker

12"w x 9"h

Kyoto, Japan

May 2014

20"w x 25 ½"h

Napa, California

December 2013

16"w x 13"h

Napa, California

August 2013

22"w x 19"h

Napa, California

August 2013

20"w x 14"h

Napa, California

March 2014

18"w x 24"h

Napa, California

August 2014

178

ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER Title

Page

Medium

Illusion

51

Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Imprisoned Perspective

132

Original Watercolor with Pastel

nfinite Horizons 1

127, 128

Original Pastel

Infinite Vistas

25

Original Pastel

Inner Eruption

43

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Inner Light Discovery

18

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Inner Pilgrimage

146

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Inner Prison Door Opens

45

Original Pastel

Instant Rapture

71

Original Watercolor with Pastels and Mineral Pigments

Know Your Path

165

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Inks

I

179

Dimensions

Location

Date

19"w x 27"h

Napa, California

April 2014

16"w x 12"h (original)

Napa, California

January 2014

36 ½"w x 30"h

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2013

36"w x 28"h

Napa, California

August 2013

19"w x 27"h

Napa, California

April 2014

19"w x 27"h

Napa, California

April 2014

18"w x 22"h

Napa, California

July 2013

16"w x 12"h

Napa, California

November 2013

12"w x 9"h

Kyoto, Japan

May 2014

180

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A L P H A B E T I C A L

O R D E R

Title

Page

Medium

Light Beckons / Infinite Horizons 3

115

Original Pastel

Light Energy

15

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Lighted Pathway to the Cosmos

48

Original Pastel

Lighted Whimsy

88

Original Pastel

Lost / Buried Treasure Within 2

42

Original Pastel

Love Entwined / Choices 2

32

Original Pastel

Made as New Bamboo

159

Original Artwork in Mixed Media

Make Tantric Love

5

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Moon Glow

133

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Nature's Reflection

139

Watercolor, Pastel and Sumi Ink

Dimensions

Location

Date

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

19 ½"w x 25"h

Napa, California

November 2013

12"w x 9"h

We’ll Sea, Grand Cayman Island

April 2013

Photograph Only

We’ll Sea, Grand Cayman Island

April 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

18"w x 24"h

Napa, California

August 2014

27" w x 19"h

Napa, California

April 2014

30"w x 22"h

Napa, California

December 12, 2013

10"w x 15"h

June Lake, California

July 2011

Notes

Original with Dale M. Whittaker

Painted with my friend Cheryl Hoeller

182

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O R D E R

Title

Page Medium

New Hearts Unfolding 1

70

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink

New Hearts Unfolding 2

138

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink

New World Unfurls / Buried Treasure Within 3

155

Original Pastel

New World View

89

Original Artwork in Mixed Media

Newborn Serenity

61

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Ink

Out of Darkness

60

Original Pastel

Out of the Chasm

163

Original Pastel with Watercolor and Ink

Passing Wisdom / Infinite Horizons 2

78

Original Pastel

Pools of Wisdom 1

28

Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments

Pools of Wisdom 2

142

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink

Dimensions

Location

Date

30"w x 22"h

Napa, California

October 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

October 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

18"w x 24"h

Napa, California

August 2014

12"w X 9"h

Napa, California

March 2014

Photograph Only

Napa, California

April 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

June 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

May 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

May 2013

184

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185

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A L P H A B E T I C A L

O R D E R

Title

Page

Medium

Realms of Consciousness

151

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments

Revelation of Truth

79

Original Art with Mineral Pigments and Sumi Ink

Rising Horizons 1

74

Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi Ink, and Mineral Pigments

Rising Horizons 2

97

Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi Ink, and Mineral Pigments

Sacred Spaces

55

Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments

Seashell Wisdom 1

66

Original Pastel

Seashell Wisdom 2

102

Original Pastel

Seashell Wisdom 3

107

Original Pastel

Seeking Truth Beyond

164

Original Pastel with Watercolor and Ink

Self-Reflection

49

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Ink

Dimensions

Location

Date

12"w x 16"h

Napa, California

January 2014

27"w x 19"h (original)

Napa, California

April 2014

16"w x 12"h

Napa, California

November 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2013

16"w x 13"h

Napa, California

June 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island

February 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

June 2013

9"w x 6"h

Kyoto, Japan

May, 2014

186

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O R D E R

Title

Page Medium

Shimmering Intelligence

147

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Ink

Soul Light

106

Original Pastel

Spirit Begets God

19

Original Artwork in Mixed Media

Spontaneous Combustion / Celebration of Life 4

57

Original Pastel

Spontaneous Light

103

Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments

Streaming Consciousness

36

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Sudden Illumination

150

Original Pastel

Swirling Delusions

75

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

The Way Through Darkness

46

Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments

Transcendent Peace

56

Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments

Dimensions

Location

Date

12"w x 9"h

Napa, California

February 2014

Photograph Only

Sea Cove, Grand Cayman Island

March 2013

18"w x 24"h

Napa, California

August 2014

Photograph Only

Napa, California

November 2012

27"w x 19"h

Napa, California

July 2014

27"w x 19"h

Napa, California

October 2013

13"w x 16"h

Napa, California

August 2013

Photograph Only

Napa, California

December, 2013

19"w x 27"h

Napa, California

April 2014

Photograph Only

Napa, California

June 2013

188

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189

Title

Page

Medium

Transformation

84

Original Sumi Ink with Pastel and Mineral Pigments

Tropical Eternity

8

Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi ink, and Mineral Pigments

Unveiling One's Light

122

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments

Veils of Delusion Fall Away

53

Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments

Voice of God

168

Mineral Pigments, Pastel, and Sumi Ink

Watery Castle

33

Original Watercolor with Pastel

Dimensions

Location

Date

19"w x 27"h

Napa, California

April 2014

20"w x 14"h

Napa, California

February 2014

12"w x 9"h

Napa, California

June 2014

22"w x 17 ž"h

Napa, California

July 2013

19"w x 27"h

Napa, California

August 17, 2014

18"w x 12"h

Napa, California

May 2014

190