Do I Even Matter?

Out of all areas in this plane of existence, the human mind is the most terrifying place. Even before the COVID-19 pandemic began, each person continued to wage war against their thoughts. While no one is immune to the prevailing condition, some individuals tend to dismiss and undervalue the difficulties of others. As a means to eradicate any stigma on mental health, the University of Science and Technology of the Philippines (USTP) made efforts to nurture the minds of its constituents. Although, a persistent question haunts students’ minds, “Did any of those efforts help me at all?”

As a demonstration of feats, certain University departments have implemented Teleconsultations (online consultation), webinar sessions, and training for students to become listening buddies. Following such events, there were still students who expressed their frustrations through online humor. The majority of these sentiments were concerned with experiencing mental breakdowns, as most of what the institution offered were only mental health webinars, conveniently mirroring online classes. Jokes and jest continue, but the feeling of isolation and disorientation remain for many.

Aside from the University’s initiatives, there were other attempts made by students. One example was the USTP Virtual Wellness Week 2021, which employed an interactive experience to promote holistic development and mental health awareness among Trailblazers. An additional initiative of psychological assistance was made by We CARE, a program designed for the USTP youth in the form of anonymous counseling and virtual safe spaces. While their approach of promoting mental stability was engaging and innovative, the question remains as feelings of comfort may only last a moment.

In a way, coping with life’s never-ending obstacles may be accomplished by taking a minute to oneself and appreciating the present. This involves being appreciative of the University’s and its students’ efforts, but most importantly, thanking yourself. “Life is a never-ending show. Except the minor detail that it ends.” says a recurring line in the Critics’ Choice Television Award-Winning show, Bojack Horseman. Whether any of these matters, when dust simply embraces us in the end, is up to you. However, just because your meaning is dependent on your subjective point of view, it doesn’t mean you have to waste it. Because, in a vast universe filled with infinite cosmos, our lives could only last for not more than a blink. Let alone that fact, you mean so much more than you think.

by Sofia Ann B. Sarino