Stumble into Ecstasy by Christy Speakman

Stumble Into Ecstasy

by Christy Speakman

Have you ever seen a bubble bounce?

As its slick iridescent layers shake

it is too fragile to last forever,

as soon as it hits the rough spot it breaks,

I used to live in a bubble with

fantasies and dreams of my own,

yes- once upon a time I lived a fairytale life

I never thought I would end up alone,

I was the princess and you were the prince,

we danced through each day

never letting our feet touch the ground

but searching the world for a better way,

the princess cried for her unhealed wounds

until she understood her fear

that she was so afraid of loving

the one she held so dear,

Sorry is just a word

even if you mean it as much as I do,

I'm not sure you even believed it

but I never meant to hurt you,

I never thought

I would be the very last to know

I would be the very last to finally let it show

when it rains I know God is crying

because the most beautiful thing

he ever created

is dying

I'm so unselfish in my suffering

but I still can't understand

why no one has time to cherish what God has given

everyone's forgotten how to take a stand,

did you know that

it's my heart

that pounds beneath my flesh,

its my mouth

that pushes out this breath,

I never thought I would be

the one to hold you down

though I've already fallen

and broken my crown

so please close those amber eyes

while I wipe away the tears

but don't deny your rages

don't ignore your fears,

I thought we could make it

but you wouldn't give up your search

you wander endlessly through the walls of confusion

trying everything for what it's worth

your looking for an answer

spelled out in big bright letters

but if you don't choose your path

you may end up stranded forever

but fate has led you to it

so keep on doing what you do

but don't forget I tried so hard in my own way

to love you

your so beautiful

but I won't deny you

the title you carry of torture

but you do what you have to do

My sweet surrender

will forever be

engraved in your heart

as long as I still hold the key,

you can try to forget

the sights, the smells, the sounds,

but the place that we started from

is a long way down

why did it take a princess

so long?

to figure out that we are born innocent

not strong

the way I see it,

there is no difference

whether you charge forward or stumble into ecstasy