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Like a Phoenix from the ashes, RED INK Magazine has risen. It is here to deliver incredi ble images and stories of your favorite artists, actors, singers, bands, events, models. design ers and lifestyle news from the Caribbean and beyond. RED INK Magazine will always rep resent the people and culture of the Caribbean and West Indies, but we will not hesitate to include interesting people and culture from the rest of the world.
RED INK Magazine will be one of the trend setter when it comes to delivering Caribbean entertainment and lifestyle news to the people. We will provide updates on concerts, events and music festivals. There will be introduc tions of new and upcoming artists from Reggae, Soca, Hip Hop, R&B and other genres. And let’s not forget interviews and bios of all of your favorite performers that you know, love and follow.
We hope you all love the new internet based format; the times have changed and so have we. You can now enjoy short video clips and links within the pages of our publication. Yet, know that even though the magazine is online, it is designed to be read like a traditional maga zine, turning pages and enjoying incredible, visually stunning spreads, and let’s not forget about our beautiful centerfold models that will grace the center spread of the magazine each month.
RED INK Magazine is here to stay and we aspire to be “THE” Caribbean Entertainment Magazine providing all of our readers with the stories and interviews they crave, the beautiful imagery they desire, and the design standard that we refuse to compromise.
~Michael
COOLIO
‘Gangsta’s Paradise’ rapper, died at age 59
Hip
Hop Superstar Coolio died of a heart attack at a friend’s house on Wednesday September 28th, 2002. Coolio was born Artis Leon Ivey Jr. on August 1st, 1963 in L.A. He is most widely known for his incredibly famous ear worm song that has been in staple in clubs, movies and TV shows for three decades. Of course I am referring to Gangsta’s Paradise one of the most famous hip-hop songs of all time. It was originally released in 1995 as the hit song on the soundtrack for the movie Dangerous Minds. And later as a single it reached double plat inum status and then reached even higher fame after it was remade and parodied by Weird Al Yankovic in 1996 with Amish Paradise. And then in more recent times the song has seen a resurgence in popularity as it became a one billion view song on youtube. This was truly a song that stood the test of time and is just as popular today as the day it was made almost 30 years ago. Coolio was more than just a one hit wonder though. He per formed on albums with some of the G.O.A.T.S including Busta Rhymes, LL Cool J, Method Man and The Notorious B.I.G. He got his start in the early 90’s with WC and the MAAD Circle where he was there song writer and lyricist that wrote songs related to racism, black history and resisting the man (feds). WC later formed the group Westside Connection with Ice Cube and Mac 10. Coolio himself went solo in 1994 with the single Fantastic Voyage. Two other hit earworms for the dance floors around the world were Too Hot and 1,2,3,4 (Sumpin’ New) which debuted on a Double Platinum LP along with Gangsta’s Paradise. Coolio also went on to create the theme song Aw, Here It Goes! For the popular Nickelodeon show Kenan and KEl.
In addition to his musical success, Coolio also appeared in sev eral TV shows and movies, and had a bit of a philanthropic side, He was a spokesperson for Environmental Justice and Climate Change where he travelled and spoke to youths in predominantly black colleges and universities to educate the minority population on the dangers of Climate change and global warming. He also was a spokesperson for the Asthma and Allergy Foundation of America because both himself and his children were asthma suf ferers. And something many people may have since forgotten as politics in America have gotten ever so crazy… In 2020 he was the Vice President Running mate alongside Porn Star Cherie Deville as she ran for the democratic nod for President of the United States. An interesting life indeed. Coolio, you will always be remembered by your fans and may you rest in peace forever in your very own Gangsta’s Paradise.
By Michael Devine uRamble
day vibe-centric music festival focused on good peo ple sharing great music and creating terrific times. The Ramble is held at Camp Ramblewood, which boasts more than 200 pristine acres of natural beauty locat ed in Harford County Maryland, a short drive out side of the town of Darlington, MD. At The Ramble, it’s all about creating com munity through shared experiences and a mutual love of live music in a gor geous outdoor setting. Come for the music, be part of the vibe, and find a new place to call home. The guys Behind it are Brick & J; A couple of music-loving mothers, who conceived this music fes tival to fill the air with music in the aftermath of the pandemic. These guys are doing it for the love. And don’t forget about Phil; long-time music industry vet eran and founder of Charm City Bluegrass. https://www.ramblefestival.com
Queen Elizabeth II
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Elizabeth II, died on September 8th, 2022. She died under the care of her Physician and with her family present. The loss is devastat ing not just to the royal family and Great Britain but to the World at large. Queen Elizabeth II, was the longest running female Monarch in World history and second only to King Louis XIV of France to being the longest ruling King or Queen who ever lived. She ruled for 70 years and was beloved by all those under her Realms many flags and to most of the people around the globe.
She was born Elizabeth Alexandra Mary Windsor, born to Prince Albert, Duke of York, later King George VI and Elizabeth, Duchess of York, later Queen Elizabeth the Queen Mother. This was all during the reign of her Grandfather, King George V. Soon after her Father King George VI took over the crown after the passing of her grandfather and abdi cation of the throne of her Uncle King Edward VIII, she was named heir to the throne. After her father’s untimely passing and while she was still at the young age of 25, Elizabeth became known as Queen Elizabeth II, Queen of the United Kingdom and all British Territories and Dependencies throughout the Realm. Her Realm included 32 independent countries. Among those coun tries were 15 that remained under the Realm of the crown up until present day. Including Canada, The United Kingdom, Australia, Jamaica, Antigua and Barbuda, The Bahamas, Belize, New Zealand, Grenada, Saint Kitts and Nevis, Papua New Guinea, Saint Lucia, Saint Vincent and the Grenadines, The Solomon Islands, and Tuvalu. She was Queen to all of them.
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It is incredible that so many nations swore allegiance to one ruler for over 70 years. Among the countries that declared inde pendence from the crown throughout the Queen’s long tenure, are Pakistan, Guyana, Trinidad and Tobago, Fiji, Barbados, South Africa, Uganda, Kenya, and several other African nations. In this modern day and age she was among the last rulers in the world to exhibit control over so many nations that were remnants of the Imperialist and Colonialist Eras of our world’s history. But let that serve as the primary testament to the love and respect that this magnificent woman garnered from the entire world. In this age of “freedom” and Self-identity, all of these nations chose to remain under her Majesty and her just rule and protection.
Throughout her Majesty’s long monarchy she was the most visi ble, travelled, and sociable British ruler. She met with 13 U.S. Presidents, 5 Popes, and she worked with 15 Prime Ministers in the United Kingdom and 179 Prime Ministers throughout the Realm of the Monarchy. She was also the first reigning monarch to visit Australia and New Zealand. And she later over the years made sure to tour the majority of the countries throughout the World, 116 countries in total. She also became the first British Ruler to visit a communist country when she visited Yugoslavia and later China on missions of Peace. There is a hardly a country in the world that hasn’t had some contact or influence from the Queen. As the government of The United Kingdom evolved into a parliamentary system with The Prime Minister and Parliament handling most international affairs, the Queen became mostly a symbolic Ruler, however it can never be denied that she was quite probably the most powerful woman who ever lived and she han dled that power with grace, dignity and fairness everlasting.
At an early age Elizabeth was given big responsibilities and han dled them diligently. At only 18 Parliament changed the law so she could act as one of five Counsellors of State in the event of her father's incapacity or absence abroad. And she executed this role many times including a visit to Italy in 1944, and later in 1951 when she toured Canada and visited with President Harry S. Truman on behalf of her father, The King. It was during a tour Australia, New Zealand and Kenya that her ailing father passed away and she was immediately declared Queen, while in a resi dence in Kenya. And even though she was married to Phillip Mountbatten, the Duke of Edinburgh, she chose to retain the king dom under the Family name of her ancestors, the Windsor’s and did not take her husband’s name to the crown.
In 1947 while only 21, then Princess Elizabeth, gave a radio speech to The United Kingdom and the world on her 21st birth day declaring the following pledge, "I declare before you all that my whole life, whether it be long or short, shall be devoted to your service and the service of our great imperial family to which we all belong." And for her entire life she maintained this promise of service and honor. Proving how devoted the
Continued...from page 10 Queen was to the belief in service, just two days before her death while in failing health, on September 6th, 2022 she appointed the new Prime Minister of The United Kingdom, Liz Truss, and the photo of that esteemed occasion is now the last known photo ever taken of the queen. Talk about dedication, most people in today’s millennial society refuse to go to work if they have a bad allergy day or a cold. Queen Elizabeth II was still handling matters of State impor tance up until her moment of passing. Truly extraor dinary.
The Queen was not all Pomp and Circumstance however, she began a new to the crown tradition of “Royal Walkabouts” where she would meet ordinary members of the public, regular Joe’s, just to try and show that she cared for all of her subjects big and small. She also hosted three annual Garden Parties at Buckingham Palace welcoming thousands of people each summer inside the gates of the Palace to receive accolades for service to their community. And to take things a step further, she loved to show her fun side whenever the situation allowed. For example during
the opening celebration of the 2012 Olympics in London, she posed as herself in a James Bond mon tage alongside Daniel Craig and for that appearance she received an honorary BAFTA for her patronage of the film industry and was called "the most memorable Bond girl yet." And then just this year at her Platinum Jubilee Celebration celebrating the 70th anniversary of her ascension to the crown, she acted out a comedy sketch with the mischievous and love able children’s show character, Paddington Bear. She was truly the People’s Queen.
Queen Elizabeth II lived a long and endearing life full of grace, integrity and genuine affection for the Empire under her domain and for the people of the World. She was equally loved back, by the entire world. She will go down in history as one of the most influential people who ever lived and even that will be an understatement. It goes without saying that Elizabeth Alexandra Mary Windsor will be missed and remembered forever in the hearts and minds of almost everyone on Earth. Rest in Peace Your Majesty.
By Michael Devine uTHE 71st MISS USA® COMPETITION
To Air Live From Reno, Nevada on Oct 3, 2022 on A&E's FYI and HULU Live TV
TheMiss USA Organization®, under the leadership of Crystle Stewart, is proud to announce that the 71st MISS USA® will air live from Grand Sierra Resort and Casino in Resort in Reno, Nevada on October 3, 2022.
World-renowned entertainment host, producer, and actress, Zuri Hall, will host the MISS USA® competi tion. Hall's sideline hosts will be TV Hosts Julissa Bermudez and Micah Jesse.
Miss Teen USA will be streamed live on www.mis steenusa.com and hosted by Miss USA 2021, Elle Smith, and FYI's correspondent Christian Murphy; who will also be part of the Miss USA telecast.
The esteemed judging panel is Fashion Designer Aaron Potts, Tony-Award Winning Producer and owner of NitroC Group Ashlee Clarke, Founder of Dogpound Kirk Myers, Fashion Designer and Model Nicole WilliamsEnglish, Serial Entrepreneur and Sports Illustrated Social Media-at-Large Olivia Ponton, and International South Korean Table Tennis
Champion Player and model Soo Yeon Lee.
This year's performance will be by accomplished pianist, composer and producer Chloe Flower. Flower will be bringing her coined "Popsical" performance to the stage as she embodies Stewart's mission of "pageantry reimagined" and female empowerment. Crystle Stewart, former Miss USA 2008 and the FIRST African-American female President of the MISS USA® franchise, acquired the franchise in late 2020. Stewart's plan brings MISS USA® and MISS TEEN USA® to the forefront of pop culture.
"It is an honor to be the first African American female franchise owner of the highly recognized MISS USA® and MISS TEEN USA® brands. The new ownership is about Pageantry Reimagined, which redefines views of the pageant system. The Miss USA Organization® seeks to continually elevate the narrative of inclusivity and diversi ty of young females nationwide. To amplify the success of these new trailblazing influencers, the organization focus es on leveraging their platforms for social good while inspiring the need for strong female leadership.
My goal is to provide them with a unique experience that prepares them for success that translates beyond the pageant stage, so these young women can have the confidence to feel beautiful, powerful and know what they can attain is limit less," said Crystle Stewart, President of the Miss USA Organization®.
"We are honored to once again host the Miss USA and Miss Teen USA competition, and we look forward to watch ing the talented individual contestants chase their dreams and leverage their platforms to empower the next generation of young women,'' said Christopher Abraham, Senior Vice President of Marketing at Grand Sierra Resort and Casino (GSR). "During their time at GSR, the contestants will have the opportunity to experience the distinct culture of our city and showcase the Reno-Tahoe region to a national audience." The two-hour MISS USA® event will feature women repre senting all 50 states and the District of Columbia in multiple categories, including private interview, swimsuit, evening gown, and onstage question, ending with Kentucky's Elle Smith, who was the first biracial woman to represent and win her state, crowning her successor.
The 90-minute Miss Teen USA streamed event will feature teens representing all 50 states and District of Columbia in multiple categories, including private interview, fitness, evening gown, and onstage question, ending with Florida's Breanna Myles crowning her successor. u
RUSSEL PETERS
Canada’s Funny Man On Tour
Russell
Peters was recently named as one of Rolling Stone’s 50 Best Comics of All Time. He started doing stand-up at the age of nineteen at open mics in his native Toronto, and spent the next fifteen years honing his craft at clubs across Canada and the UK. In 2004, Peters gained critical and global recognition for his CTV “Comedy Now!” special and soon became the first comedian to sell-out Toronto’s Air Canada Centre in 2007. Peters went on to set attendance records at venues from Madison Square Garden to The Sydney Opera House to London’s O2 Arena – where he broke the UK attendance record for highest number of tickets sold for an individual comedy show.
His subsequent tours were captured in his successful specials broadcast on Showtime and Comedy Central: Outsourced in 2006; Red, White and Brown in 2008; and, The Green Card Tour in 2010. In 2013, Peters became the first comedian to create a Netflix Original Comedy Special. Peters’ most recent tour, The Deported World Tour was seen by over 400,000 fans in 40 cities across 20 countries and culminated in the stand-up special, Russell Peters Deported on Amazon Prime in January 2020.
Peters has been awarded Gemini, Peabody, Emmy and Canadian Screen Awards for his hosting, producing and acting talents. His last TV series, The Indian Detective set a Canadian viewership record for Bell Media /CTV in 2017 and was released globally on Netflix.
Peters just launched his own Podcast, ‘Culturally Cancelled with Russell Peters’ on iHeart Media / Cloud 10 and is currently developing a TV series based on his childhood in Canada in the 1980’s as well as executive producing the TV series “Late Bloomer” with YouTube sensation Jus Reign. Peters is also in the feature film, “Clifford The Big Red Dog” for Paramount Pictures (2021). Look out for his amazing comedy tour in your area. u
ASHUNTA SHERIFF
NewYork’s Fashion Week is a source of inspiration for fash ion lovers around the world, but ‘style’ encompasses much more than just the outfit. The covetable makeup looks served up at the Cesar Galindo, Toni Whitaker, and RAPHELITA by David Rolle Spring 2023 NYFW Spring Collections event demonstrated how bold, beautiful makeup can take fashion to the next level.
Ashunta Sheriff-Kendricks is an Emmy-nominated celebrity makeup artist with over 20 years in the beauty industry. Through her work on major Academy Award-winning motion pictures and through her work on the iconic character “Cookie” from the Fox hit TV show Empire, Ashunta has become the red carpet go-to artist for many of today’s A-listers in Hollywood.
Ashunta has touched some of the most well known faces in Hollywood (Taraji P. Henson, Alicia Keys, Zendaya, Rihanna… even Sean Combs, to name a few). This fashion week, she took her talents and new line of vegan beauty prod ucts to NYC, enhancing the runway looks for designers Cesar Galindo, Toni Whitaker and David Rolle. Ashunta created Ashunta Sheriff Beauty to bring easy-to-use, quality products to create flawless, stunning and radiant makeup looks for all skin tones.
Ashunta created Ashunta Sheriff Beauty to bring easy-to-use, quality products to create flawless, stunning and radiant makeup looks for all skin tones.
“We used our Ashunta Sheriff Beauty UV Vegan Liquid Liners and mascara to create sim ple yet bold liner and lash looks,” shared Ashunta. “This look is simple, fun, easy to cre ate and anyone can confidently wear this look. Replace that boring black and brown liner and step into the world of bold color.”
Want to easily step up your style by integrat ing a pop of color into your look? Trying out a runway look has never been easier thanks to Ashunta’s UV Vegan Liquid Liners. Whether you want to elevate a simple eyeliner or create an elaborate graphic look, these vividly colored liners are all you need. The vegan formulation comes in six eye-catching pigments, are water proof and smudge-proof once set, and even glow in the dark!
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RED INK Magazine had the pleasure of asking Ashunta Shariff a few questions. This is what she told us.
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REDINK: Who or what influenced you to become a make-up artist and when did it all happen?
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AS: My mom is my greatest inspiration. From childhood I watched her prepping and getting ready when she would go on dates with my father or to work in the morning. Her regiment always included a lash, fashion fair red lipstick, Chanel No5 or Opium. She would add her fony pony put on her Harve Benard suit and snake skin heels skin always glistening cause she made sure use a mix of Vaseline with some shimmer gold crush eye shadow. She was a chemist, a product developer and consumer all at the same time. I loved watching her process and it would begin my love affair with makeup.
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REDINK: What's it like to do make-up for your celebrity clientele for the Red Carpet Look? Name some A-listers if you can.
AS: I’ve done makeup for major red carpet events for celebrities like Tesa Thompson, Yaya Dacosta, DaVine Joy Randolph, La La Anthony, Alicia Keys, Taraji P. Henson, Zendaya, Paula Abdul and many others. The process is fun usually full of laughter conversations and sometimes champagne.
REDINK: If you could choose someone you've never met before to do their make-up, who would it be and why?
AS: I know most people have makeup artist but if Oprah or Michelle Obama ever needed makeup it would be a dream come true.
REDINK: Tell us about your favorite products you like to use most.
AS: I use BROWzing brow gel daily. Brows are the key to framing the face and once I feather hair like strokes with my Damone Roberts Minx brow pencil then use BROWzing gel to create that wispy feath ered affect it instantly lifts my face
I also live in my Magnitieyes luxury lash sets in Day and Night and Drama Mags are my two faves! Lashes are an instant lift to your entire look and really just pull you together.
I love Charlotte Tillbury crystal lips elixir to keep my lips hydrated and silky smooth plus it has a nice shine when I just want a sheer gloss on. Danessa Myricks Lightworks palette is an amazing collection of Multichrome high shine water activated highlighters and shadows it’s epic and I use on eyes, cheek bones and even the body. The Lip Bar Bawse Lady is my favorite shade of matte lip creme red perfect for fall and winter and for sure holidays!
Good Girl Jane glow drops are perfect for adding with foundation and creating the most sexy radiant glow. Use a powder to blot t zone.
REDINK: Can you share with us some must-have, that we should all have in our makeup bags?
AS: Mario Beauty love his eye liners they are super pigmented and rich and are long wearing.
REDINK: Share with us about Ashunta Sheriff Beauty.
AS: Ashunta Sheriff Beauty was created for makeup lovers who want bold beautiful bright colors and pigmented multi use products that are vegan cruetly free and all about expressing your true self. There is only one you be one of a kind. From our neon collection to our new face collection dropping in 2023 we want you to express yourself!
REDINK: What can we expect next from you?
AS: We are launching some new Magnitieyes sets, face collection consisting of a fresh and amazing multi use foundation and concealer product and our holiday collection will be bold and pigmented all for holiday fun.
This concludes our interview with Ashunta Sheriff. Support this talanted & exceptional make-up artist. Check out her website. https://ashuntabeauty.com
West Coast Rapper Snoop Dogg has released a strawberry-infused GIN called INDOGGO
Calvin “Snoop Dogg” Broadus, simply put, is an icon and legend of Hip Hop. With a career spanning over 25 years, he has released hit after hit, and is an ever-constant presence in pop culture. Snoop has stayed extremely relevant and, now more than ever, has built a significant multi-cultural and cross-genera tional following.
In 1994 he wrote "Gin & Juice:” it was about good feelings and real experiences; it just naturally became a global anthem. Snoop has always wanted to create his own spirits brand, so it was only fitting that he cre ated the world’s best tasting gin. In his quest for flava, he remixed seven botanicals, and infused natural fruit flavors, thus creating his masterpiece.
This juicy gin, with its laidback California style, is like no other gin in the world. It’s gluten free, low calorie with no sugar, and will leave you wanting more. Easy to mix, easy to drink, hard to forget. INDOGGO™ Gin is the ultimate remix of seven premium botanicals infused with all-natural ingredients including strawberry, no sugar with a slightly sweet and fruity finish. Bottle Size: 750ml
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Hello again RED INK foodies! In this issue we hope you enjoy our wonderful recipe selection for this month. We are always happy to share with our readers a fun recipe for you to try.
This recipe was first shared by Queen Elizabeth in a letter to President Dwight D. Eisenhower back in 1960. The original letter and recipe, which is available in the National Archives, reveals that the Queen served the pancakes (which are actually called "drop scones") to Eisenhower and his wife, Mamie, when they vis ited the queen at her castle in Balmoral.
Instructions:
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"Beat eggs, sugar, and about half the milk together, add flour, and mix well together, adding remainder of milk as required, also bicarbonate and cream of tartar, fold in the melted but ter."
The Queen's recipe ends there so in true royal fashion, there's a bit of secrecy when it comes to how long to cook them and what exactly is a teacup, anyway?
Here's what we suggest: 1 teacup = approximately 3/4 cup so you'll need 3 cups flour and 1 1/2 cups milk. Heat a griddle with some melted butter and drop the batter by the spoonful onto the griddle. Then, as is the case with pancakes, when bub bles start to form, flip to the other side and continue to cook until golden. The finished result will be pancakes fit for a queen! ��
Serve. Enjoy!
*Disclaimer: I am not a physician or medical professional. If you have any medical issues or concerns, please always consult your doctor before com mitting to a challenge. The challenges are intended for introducing small lifestyle changes in a fun and easy format
RECIPE:
Queen Elizabeth's Pancake Recipe
4 teacups flour
4 tablespoons caster sugar (or granulated sugar)
2 teacups milk
2 whole eggs
2 teaspoons bicarbonate soda (or baking soda)
3 teaspoons cream of tartar
2 tablespoons melted butter
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make big changes. Embark on a long-planned renovation or change
become creative not only in work but also in personal life. Take full advantage of this ability,
In October, Tauruses will finally be back on their feet. The influence of Venus in the Libras will give especially females a magical charm that will amaze both old friends and new acquaintances. And of course, you will enjoy this abundance of beauty properly.
October will focus on planning and important decisions. Gemini will be clear about their priorities, so it is the best time to set your goals and plan how to make them happen. Patience will become your strong point, thanks to which it will be a piece of cake for you to really pursue your goals.
In October, Cancer will get out of the bubble, and they will stand out among other people thanks to their unique jokes. You will have very prompt reactions and good arguments, which will dazzle not only your co-workers, but practically everyone will eat out of your hand.
October will be a month full of love and good relationships for Leo. You will be brimming with a good mood, laughter and great ideas. You will attract the attention of others thanks to your immediacy.
In October, Virgo will long for solitude and peace. This month, you will focus mainly on yourself. You have a lot of unresolved questions that need to be closed, and this period will be perfect for that. You will also be inclined to alternative directions, so do not be afraid to go in the opposite direction and visit a seminar, where you will learn new things.
Libras will find their inner balance. October will be an excellent month for self-realization, and the best thing to do is to make time for yourself and enjoy some alone time. You need to go through your thoughts, and for that, you need privacy.
In October, Scorpios will be full of empathy and will have amazing communication skills. Understanding your friends' problems will be your strength, so people around you will feel your support and will ask you for help if they need it.
In October, Sagittarians will feel a big need to create and upgrade their homes. The environment where you live and spend the most of your time will be very important to you this month. So whether you live alone or with your partner, you should please yourself and make your dreams happen in this area.
With October coming, Capricorns will start separating from the outside world. You will feel fulfilled when being outside in nature, preferably somewhere by the water where there is a lot of fresh air. You will sort out your thoughts, and you will seek inner peace and harmony.
In October, Aquarians should be careful at work because their boss might try to get you and prove that you do something wrong. So do not give him/her a chance and show him/her that even though you are taking everything with humour, you are still perfect at work.
In October, Pisces will take too much on their shoulders, and they will not be on top of it at all. At the same time, you will expect too much from yourself, which will make the whole sit uation worse, and you will start feeling despair.