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Fire Monologue
Fire monologue at the plot of the burnt-down Carbonic Acid Factory. Listening event and collective talk with PUBLIC RETREAT around the fire pit hosted by Platform Deep Dive. October 2024.
Fever, fury, fiery sensation. Devotion, desire, burnout, exhaustion, hatred.
I ignite the sparks of rebellion! I am revenge and horny lovers in the night!
I am your bright idea! Destruction and rebirth!
I am the light in the darkness, too!!!
If I want to seem lucid, I can’t keep walking around the boiling hot porridge.
I need to burn my darlings and focus on one thing at a time – like candlelight. Nothing’s that straight forward in the real world.
When I burn, I burn until whatever’s burning burns up, till I’m extinguished, exhausted.
I am actually quite simple. I am a utility, of service. The concrete process of combustion – put to use. Without over-explaining, I could let my work speak for itself – a generally collaborative practice, with main focuses on lighting, food prep, heating, industry and agriculture purposes, coziness, weaponry, war, fraud and whatnot.… With a career development following the differing needs of different times! With varying levels of success in balancing control and chaos –incidentally reshaping ways of living, entire cities and civilisations.
In some ways, I’m a neutral force, but what even is neutrality? Is that a goal in and of itself?
I can feel it, I’m burning faster than I replenish – Oh, I’m fried, alright!
I steam and singe and boil and scald and scorch and ravage and devour and devastate and disintegrate. All the while I cook and warm disinfect and re-fertilize. To be honest, I’m confused …and quite afraid. I am not in control of myself. Either I’m controlled, contained, by someone else, or I’m completely out of control.
I am everything at once. Not at all neutral, I might be the exact opposite. Simultaneously evil and caring life and death.
At least I’m not naïve! I’m aflame with emotions, set ablaze.
