Chapter 1: The Cradle of Hope
• Your childhood, values, dreams of motherhood.
• Meeting your partner; building a home ready for life.
Chapter 2: Double Miracles
• The shock/joy of twin pregnancies (x2).
• Chaos & beauty of a full house: sibling bonds, tiny triumphs.
Chapter 3: The Sound of Six Heartbeats
• Snapshots of each child’s emerging personality.
• Theme: The sacred ordinary of motherhood.
‘‘‘When Silence Entered the House’
by Nicole
Chapter 4: A Child’s Portrait
• How they lived (quirks, laughter, favorite memories).
• The day everything changed. You lost your God, your child, your voice, your choices.
Chapter 5: The Unthinkable Repeats
• Navigating subsequent losses. How grief changed shape.
• Society’s silence: “Why don’t people say their names?”
Chapter 6: Surviving the Children Who Survived
• Guilt, fear, & fierce protection of living kids.
• Parenting through grief:
“I’m broken, but I still made breakfast.”
How they lived (quirks, laughter, favorite memories)
Chapter 4
Society’s Silence
“Why don’t people Say Their Names?”
Parenting Through Grief
“I broke, but I still made Breakfast.”
Chapter 5 Chapter 6
The Unthinkable Repeats Surviving the Children Who Survived
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Chapter 7: What Kept Me Alive
• Concrete lifelines: Faith? A friend? Gardening? Anger?
• Key moment: “The first time I laughed without guilt.”
Chapter 8: The Empty Chair at the Table
• Holidays, birthdays, milestones – absence as presence.
• Rituals she created (e.g., lighting candles, letters to the sky).
Chapter 9: Grand mothering Through Broken Glass
• Holding newborns while carrying ghosts.
• “How my lost children made me a different kind of grandma.”
What kept me Alive (Faith, a Friend, Gardening, Anger?)
Chapter 7
First Time I Laughed Again
How My Lost Children Made me a different kind of Grandma
Chapter 8 Chapter 9
The Empty Chair at the Table Holding Newborns While Carrying Ghosts
by Nicole
Chapter 10: What I Wish They’d Told Me
• Myths about grief (“Time heals,” Stay strong”) vs. your truth.
• Letters to you younger self: “Dear Broken Me...”
Chapter 11: Life Goes On (But Never ‘Back’)
• Redefining joy: “It’s not a betrayal to feel sunlight again.”
• How your children’s legacies guide you forward
. Chapter 12: Your Grief, Your Way
• Direct advice: “Ignore timelines,” “Scream if you need to.”
• To helpers: “What to say/do (and what never to do).”
I WISHED THEY TOLD ME
“It’s not a betrayal to feel Sunlight Again”
by Nicole