Outside In BAN Zine 2 – Journeys to Bethlem

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JourneysToBethlem Part2Zine

JourneystoBethlem byDeeVina/DeeLister

Part2 ofthethree-partseriesaboutDee’strauma-informed creativeresearch.

Copyright/permissions:

Thezineseriesandallimagesandwordsfeaturedare owned DeeVina /DeeLister©

Allworkrelatingtothecreativeresearch,includingthezines, weremadewiththepermissionandsupportofOutsideIn andthe BritishArtNetwork.

TheMuseumoftheMindkindlyprovidedaccessand permissionstouseBethlemHospital’sarchivedmaterials.

Acknowledgements:

Thankyoutoeveryonewhosupportedme.Specialthanksto SarahKetalaars,DavidLuck,KirkSummerwill,Naomiand Emma,Morag,Dolly,Teddy,andNorri,andmyOutsideIn mentorsJoDollandCharlotteGraham-Spouge.Finally thankyoutoyoureaderforbeinganaudienceformywork.

IntroductiontoPart2

JourneysToBethlem ispart2ofthethree-partzineseries thatI’vesharedartworksandotherwaysinwhichI’ve creativleyrespondedtomentalhealthart.

Foranyonewho’snotseenpart1(StayingOpen,Staying Safe),Idefinementalhealthart*asanyart(anyformor media)thattapsintothethemeofmentalhealth,orthat wascreatedinamentalhealthcaresetting,orbysomeone whohasexperiences/experiencedmentalhealthissues.

Allexceptbeinghospitalised,theabovecategoriesinclude me.Ilivewithcomplextraumaanddisability.

So,inthiszineI’llbeimplicitlysharingfromprocess,ina primarilyvisualway.Ihopetoofferanartfulstoried versionofmyexperiencesvisitingtheMuseumofthe Mind.(Yesreadersofpart1,thiswasnottheinitialplan!)

Thenamesofallnumberedartworksandsourcesof inspirationscanbefoundonthebackpages.Iwasaiming foramoreenjoyableviewing,anddefinitelyalsoamusing myself,bycreatingthecollagesofartandphotography shared.Ihopeyouenjoy.

*Iusetheterm mentalhealthart forpragmaticreasons butamawareit’sproblematicinassumingthementaland physicalrealmsofexperienceareseparated.They’renot.

SnailTrailsandQuickExits

Ineedtooffersomecontexthere,sinceinzine1itwas mentionedhowIonlyintendedtocreativelyrespondto mentalhealthartthatwasavailableonline.Thismetmy accessneedsasIcanbestself-regulateathome.

Idecidedotherwiseasthethoughtofvisitingtheartworks Iwaslookingatandbeinginspiredbywassuchathrilling idea.Iknewthescreenimagesandmyfolderofartworks I’dprintedcouldn’tdojusticetothemulti-sensory experienceofseeingthemfirst-hand.

TheMuseumoftheMindweregenerousandsupportive infacilitatingmyvisittothearchives.Ifeelprivilegedto havebeenthereandcansayDavidLuck,TrustArchivist, waswelcomecompanyduringthisintenseandrewarding experience.

Thefollowingsectionshowsacollectionofartcreated duringthetriptothearchivesinMay2024,whichIplayed createthecollagesshared.

IlaterreturnedinJulytoseetheMuseumoftheMind’s permanentgalleryaswell,whichwasnecessaryas takingcareofmyselfinvolvedcuttingtheMaytripshort.I feltunwellanditwasjusttoomuchinonego.

I’mwarmedbymycourage,still.SogladIhadfaithinmy resilience.Despitemountingfearsbeforehand,Iused

SnailTrailsandQuickExits(continued)

everyresourceIhadtogoonthese‘adventures’.Ichose toseeitthatwaysincetheBethlem(‘Bedlam’)Royalsite wheretheMuseum’slocatedisveryfarfromwhereIlive inNWEngland.

Oh,itwasn’teasy.Therewasamélangeofoscillating emotionsandoftenunpleasantbodilysensationslike nausea,pain,andfatigue.Butthiswasallexpected-it’s myeverydaylife,albeitwithmoreintensediscomfort.

IfoundthosequickexitswhenIneededthem.Isought nature,nestledunderakindlytreetorestmywearybody andescapethenoiseandchaosasmuchasIcould.

Ifeltlikethesnailglidingacrossthewetpathascity people,notunkindly,steppedoverme.Thistoowas expectedsinceIgoslowlyandoftenneedtopauseand checkinwithmyself.(Iwroteaboutthisinzine1too).

IgotlostinBromleyandhadseeminglyendlessbus journeys,thoughIlivedinLondonduringaverydifferent phaseofmylife.

Ievenconfrontedyouthsbehavinginanintimidatingway duringonebusjourneytotheMuseum.Iwasdetermined togetthereevenifIwasfeltunsettled,sickandtriggered. Doodling,asever,offeredrespiteinaquietcorners.

ArtworksandSourcesofInspiration

FrontCover‘BreakInGreenPark’

Backcover‘TunnelToAnotherBusStop’

1(p3)‘QuickExitsNecessary’

2(p4)‘AlwaysTimeForACupOfTeaAndADoodle’

3(p5)‘PhotographofMuseumoftheMindBuilding’

4(p6)‘SnailTrailsToandFromBethlem’

5(p7)InspiredbySueRMorgan

https://museumofthemind.org.uk/collections/gallery/artists/suer.-morgan

6(p7)InspiredbyMaureenScott

https://museumofthemind.org.uk/collections/gallery/artists/ maureen-scott

7(p8)InspiredbyMargaretO’Hole‘BotanicalAbstracts’ https://museumofthemind.org.uk/collections/gallery/artists/ margaret-o.-hole

8(p8)‘Caution,RestraintRoomAhead’

9(p8)‘BackToAnOldTunnel’

10(p8)‘FuzzyInElephant’

11(p8)‘RestingUnderATreeAtBethlem’

12(p9)‘Grounding=Nature’

ArtworksandSourcesofInspiration(continued)

13(p10)‘JulyVisitToBethlemSelf-Soothingp1’

14(p10)‘JulyVisitToBethlemDoodle’

15(p10)‘JulyVisitToBethlemSelf-Soothingp2’

16(p10)‘SickOfTravellingOrJustSickButGrateful’

17(p10)‘FindingMyRoots’

18(p10)‘It’sTakenALotToGetHere’.InspiredbyLynda Bamford’s‘PsychadelicWoman’.

https://museumofthemind.org.uk/collections/gallery/ artists/lynda-bamford

19(p10)‘MayVisitToBethlem,WordsDuringABreak’

JourneystoBethlem is parttwo ofthethree-part zineseriesaboutartistDeeVina’strauma-informed creativeresearch. Eachzineoffersmentalhealthart–artworkmade byDeewho’satraumasurvivorwholiveswith mentalhealthissues–withdetailsofhowandwhy Deeworked.

Continuingtheconversationaboutworkingina process-orientatedway,thiszinesharesa collectionofartinspiredbyDee’svisitstoseethe MuseumoftheMind.

Thereader’sinvitedonavisualjourneyalongside Deethroughthediversephotographiccollages madeusinganalogueanddigitalimagesand doodlescreatedduringthetrips.

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