SELF LOVE IS THE BEST LOVE.

As a kid, I always felt ahead of my time; it was hard for me to fit in with people who were considered “normal.” Now, I’m just glad I never did. Growing up in Dallas, Texas, was fast-paced for me and my family. Born May 14th, 1992, my parents were constantly moving, young, financially unstable, and divorced when I was eighteen. I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness, which, as you can imagine, left little to no room to build healthy relationships around me and, most importantly, within myself.

Subsequently, I became attached to people who did not serve my highest good. I became lost in a world filled with depression, drugs, toxic relationships, and self-hatred. This forced me to look in the mirror. I asked myself, “Why is everything going wrong? Why do I keep getting into trouble? Why are my relationships not growing in a healthy way? Why does it feel like I’m meeting the same person in different bodies? Why am I so drained after being around certain individuals?”

All of these questions pointed to one thing. I realized that I was putting so much before myself and my highest good that I was self-sabotaging for people who wouldn’t even reciprocate the same energy or effort. I didn’t love myself. I guess you can say I loved everything outside of me to the point where I hated myself and started to resent those very things. I saw how much they were benefiting from me not being beneficial to myself. This was a vicious cycle I had to break. My last straw was the end of a seven-year relationship. At the age of twenty-eight, I lost all sense of self. The person I loved left when I thought I needed them the most. I was devastated, contemplating suicide and questioning my worth as a human being. I decided to isolate myself from everyone. I trusted no one, not even my parents.

Through this isolation, something happened that would change my life forever. Unexpectedly, the nights filled with tears and alcohol turned into singing and dancing around my apartment as if I were throwing a party with only me as an invited guest. I began to meditate and listen to my own breathing. I was making music again, and I started to cook myself beautiful meals. Shopping for ingredients became a ritual of love for my taste buds. I began to partake in intermediate fasting to show my body that same love. I fell in love with myself for the very first time in my life. I was healing. My life was a gift, no matter what I was going through. It was a gift I needed to honor. I started to see that I was the blessing I had been looking for, all I had to do was start appreciating my life. This filled me with so much joy on a daily basis. It was like getting a new best friend, but that friend is you. My vibration shifted dramatically, and I began to live in my authentic truth. This brought my inner child back to life. I remembered who I was before I didn’t appreciate myself or my life. I realized my mission and remembered my gifts.

Being someone who is very intuitive and sensitive has led me to become someone who is inclined to help others with my psychic gifts. As a teenager, I would joke with peers about being psychic in my music or even with the advice I’d give friends. The humor and excitement I found with this went hand in hand with my curiosity for metaphysics. This only grew deeper, as did my gifts. I can feel what others are experiencing in their life or what they may be suppressing. I received my first tarot reading at the end of that seven-year relationship, and it changed my life forever. I grew my own relationship with divination; I felt such a strong connection with my first deck. Tarot helped me heal and guide myself exactly where I am today. It is the exact reason why I choose to use my platform to help others do the same. Through love, that is, I truly have come to know that self-love is the best love. Once you extend yourself unconditional love, you can then do that for others . Healthy healing plays such a huge part in the love that I have for myself and others. My main goal on this planet is to share that with all I come into contact with. Regardless of any religious belief or background, I know we all deserve unconditional love. We live in a society where most people operate under limiting beliefs, which leads people to misjudge, hurt others, and self-sabotage often. I am here to inspire all and help awaken the collective consciousness to heal and love yourself with no harm to others. Whether that’s dancing, posting encouraging words, or even doing tarot readings, I will continue to grow and love myself so that I can be an example for those who are looking to change their lives and even the way they view themselves. Knowing I have the opportunity to influence people in a positive way is such a huge blessing and responsibility, but it is one I am honored to have. I hope one day my story can help someone out of a dark place, because that is where I once was.