The First Goodbye of Love

Matthew White

The person I once was, no longer exists. How this had happened, well it’s kind of a mess. My heart was torn, yet my body moved on. She was my friend, a person

I knew, yet didn’t.

We rarely talk, we grew apart, Time moved forward, yet I stayed behind, Dreaming of a world where I couldn’t die.

Yet I saw a truth, deep in my heart, Telling me to push on.

So I did that, pushing forward till the end, To forget the feeling I felt back then. Yet part of me, well, it didn’t survive, My soul was broken; I wasn’t fully alive.

My mind was intact, yet I still didn’t try, To fight the feelings that were deep inside.

I felt so useless, like I’d been kicked out. Life seemed different, and I wondered why.

Why did this happen, is God even real, And why, oh why, did this happen to me?