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Yfcnjzofz ãktrnhjyyfz dthcbz geñkbretncz gj bplfybç: Jñobyf. 3-t bplfybt, ljgjkytyyjt. Hbuf: Eueyc, 1995

1-t bpl. _ ≤ɃÕ∆ òŒƒº’≥ ∆‹¿¬ÿ◊À’, ª∆ƒº, [1936] © Eueyc, 1991, c bpvtytybzvb © Eueyc, 1995, c bpvtytybzvb © Eueyc, 2001, c bpvtytybzvb Dct ghfdf cjøhfyzçncz. Kçñjt djcghjbpdtltybt ljgecrftncz njkmrj c gbcmvtyyjuj hfphtitybz bplfntkz.

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Genybr-lheu, gjqläv dvtcnt. Yjxm ñkbprf, pdthb rheujv, b jujym rjcnhf vjåtn gjneøyenm. Yj tckb vs cjukfcbvcz hfpltkbnm ljpjh yjxb, vs cjøhfybv cbks. Pfdnhf yfi genm ljkju b vs vjåtv bcnjvbnmcz. Gjqläv dvtcnt. E yfc ñeltn ghfplybr b hfljcnm. Cgjç ntñt gtcyç ndjtq vfnthb b åtys b ctcnhs. Ns åt crfåtim ghtlfybt jnwf j uthjt b gjldbut; ñeltn yfi genm jñobv. Yt yfcnegb yf crjhgbjyf b ghtleghtlb vtyz j tøblyt. Genybr-lheu, gjvyb, xnj vs ljkåys ghbqnb d jlyj ctktybt ujhyjt. Genybr, ñelm vyt lheujv.

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Hfcctbdftv cetdthbt, ytdtåtcndj b cnhfø. Reäv veåtcndj, djkç b pyfybt. Dczrjt cnhtvktybt r ghjcdtotybç ghbdtncndjdfyj. Rfålsq ghtlhfcceljr ytdtåtcndf jñkbxäy. Nhelzobqcz, ujhzn kb d ndjäv cjpyfybb jcyjds cjnhelybxtcndf b jñobys? Tckb ãnj gkfvz eåt ghjcdtnbkj vjpu ndjq, ecdjq ghbpyfrb Extybz Yfibø ujh. Nhelzobqcz, yt ecnfym gthtl ujkjdjkjvrjq ytrjnjhsø dshfåtybq. Rfålfz cnhjrf _ dscifz vthf ghjcnjns. Ghbdtn nhelzobvcz b bcrfntkzv!

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JÑOBYF 1. Ctvmz, hjl, cnhfyf, cjçp yfhjljd _ rfåljt jñütlbytybt cnhtvbncz r vbhe, r ekexitybç åbpyb. Rfåljt cjnhelybxtcndj b cjåbntkmcndj yeålftncz d cjdthitycndjdfybb. Ybrnj yt vjåtn gjrfpfnm ghtltkf ãdjkçwbb. Ntv cfvsv nheåtybr cnfyjdbncz ndjhwjv. Yt ñeltv geufnmcz pflfxb ndjhxtcndf. Yfqläv lkz yferb genb ytpfuhjvjåläyyst. Nfr vsckm j cjdthitycndjdfybb ñeltn pyfrjv hfljcnb. 2. Eysybt tcnm dhfu rfåljuj cjdthitycndjdfybz. Yt vjåtn ñsnm cnhjtybz d cjvytybb. Yt ñeltn bpextybz d cnhføt. Yfñkçltybt tcnm ifu r cghfdtlkbdjcnb. Cfvjcnm tcnm ghtlfntkmcndj cfvjjndthåtyyjcnb. Ñtp gjldbuf ytn genb. 3. Vjyfcnshb xfcnj yfpsdfkbcm jñobyfvb. Åbpym jñobyyfz eåt ñskf ghbpyfrjv cjnhelybxtcndf b dpfbvjedfåtybz. Nfr b rfålfz vfcnthcrfz eåt ñeltn pfxfnrjv jñobys, ult rfålsq ghbyjcbn cdjä evtymt. 5


Yeåyj lheåtkçñbt, xnjñs jnlfnm cdjä vfcnthcndj yf ltkj jñott. 4. Tlbytybt erfpfyj dj dctø dthjdfybzø rfr tlbycndtyysq jgkjn ghtecgtzybz. Vjåyj endthlbnm kexitt ljcnbåtybt, tckb tcnm edthtyyjcnm d tlbytybb cjnhelybrjd. Vjåyj gthtxbckbnm vyjåtcndj ghbvthjd, rjulf dthf d cjnhelybrjd gjvjufkf dscjrbv htitybzv. Gecnm kçlb jn jxfuf lj ghjcnhfycndtyysø ghtljghtltktybq gjvyzn j wtyyjcnb cjnhelybxtcndf. Pthyj nhelf cjøytn ñtp dkfub dpfbvyjcnb. Yt ñeltv ckbirjv jukzlsdfnmcz yfpfl. Vs _ cgtifobt cgenybrb _ ecnfytv, tckb ñeltv njkrfnm lheu lheuf. Jcjpyftv ghtrhfcyjt pyfxtybt, tckb vjåtv ghjbpytcnb dtkbrjt gjyznbt _ lheu. Jñobyf vjåtn cjcnjznm bp lheptq. 5. Genm åbpyb tcnm dpfbvyfz gjvjom. Exfcnybrb dtkbrjuj nhelf yt vjuen ñsnm xtkjdtrjytyfdbcnybrfvb. Lkbyyj nfrjt jghtltktybt j gjpjhyjq ytyfdbcnb. Vjåtn ñsnm, kçlb pfgjvyzn tuj, xnjñs ecnslbnmcz. 6. Nfråt yt pfñeltv, xnj gjpyfybt eghjoftncz zcysv cjpyfybtv. Yj yt enhfnbv Genb rhfnxfqituj. Wtyyj dhtvz! Vs yt vjåtv kbifnm rjuj-nj cdjtç

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ytgjdjhjnkbdjcnmç. Ktyjcnm b ytdtåtcndj cgzn d jlyjq rjksñtkb. 7. Pkjñf ljgecrftn b xeve, b ghjrfpe. Pkjñf ghtdhfoftn vbhysq jxfu d crjgbot pvtq. Cdjqcndf pkjñs yt ujlzncz lkz jñobys. Jñott ltkj tcnm Jñott Ñkfuj. 8. Cjnhelybxtcndj ljkåyj gjkfufnmcz yf rhtgrbq ecnfd. Nfrjt gjkjåtybt ghbexftn r gjhzlre, nj tcnm gjvjuftn djqnb d hbnv. Nfr lfåt d gjdctlytdyjq hfñjnt dshfåfçncz dtkbrbt pfrjys Dctktyyjq. Jcjñtyyj yeåyj c vfksø ktn ghbdsrfnm r gjcnjzyyjve nhele. Gecnm kexifz ãdjkçwbz gjcnhjbncz yf nhelt, rfr yf vtht wtyyjq. 9. B lheujt ytghtvtyyjt eckjdbt ljkåyj ñsnm dsgjkytyj. Nhel ljkåty ñsnm ljñhjdjkmysv. Cjnhelybxtcndj ljkåyj ñsnm ljñhjdjkmysv. Jñobyf ljkåyf ñsnm ljñhjdjkmyjq. Ybrfrjt yfcbkbt yt ljkåyj gjhfñjofnm nhel. Eckjdbt ljñhjdjkmyjuj cjukfcbz ljkåyj ktxm d jcyjdfybt ghtecgtzybz. Ybrnj yt vjåtn dyjcbnm hfpkjåtybt d ljv yjdsq. Nheåtybrb, cjpblfntkb, ndjhws egjljñkzçncz jhkfv, dscjrj gfhzobv. Njkmrj d ibhjrjv gjkänt cgflftn gskm b cjh nktybz.

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10. B djqlän d xbcnsq nhel dscjrjt rfxtcndj xthtp kçñbvjt vfcnthcndj. Endthlbncz dj dctq åbpyb rfxtcndj ghtrhfcyjt. Yt jcnfytncz ybxtuj dj nmvt. Ytdtåtcndtyyjcnm ñeltn ghtcnegktybtv gjpjhysv. Tckb nmvf pfhfpbntkmyf, nj b Cdtn ghbdktrfntkty. Nfr ñeltv endthålfnm kçñbvjt vfcnthcndj, rjnjhjt djpytcän dcç åbpym. Yferf, erfåb rfxtcndj kexitt. Yferf, ghbdktrb cbkmytqibt ãythubb. Pyfybt leøf gecnm cbztn yfl rfålsv hfñjxbv cnfyrjv. 11. Jrjkj gjyznbz nhelf yfrjgbkjcm vyjuj yfdtnjd. Toä ytlfdyj nhel ghtpbhfkcz b cxbnfkcz dhtlysv lkz pljhjdmz. Rfrjt jcrjhñktybt pfrkçxftncz d ghbpyfybb nhelf dhtlysv! Yt nhel dhtlty, yj ytdtåtcndtyyst eckjdbz nhelf. Njkmrj cjpyfntkmyjt cjnhelybxtcndj vjåtn jpljhjdbnm cdzotyysq nhel. Yt njkmrj rfxtcndj nhelf ljkåyj ñsnm dscjrj, yj ljkåyj jrhtgyenm jñjçlyjt åtkfybt cltkfnm eckjdbz hfñjns zcyj gjyznysvb. Ytkmpz ghjrkbyfnm nheljv, yeåyj jnkbxfnm kexituj hfñjnybrf. 12. Nfr yeåyj dgbnsdfnm edfåtybt r vfcnthcnde, xnjñs gjyznm tuj rfr dscitt jnkbxbt. Cnfhbyyst hfñjxbt jñobys-wtøb jcnfdbkb cdbltntkmcndf cdjtq 8


åbpytyyjcnb. Vjåyj dbltnm, rfr kçlb bpjohzkbcm d cjdthitycndjdfybb. Evtkb pfobofnm lheu lheuf b øhfybkb ljcnjbycndj cdjtq jñobys. Gjrf kçlb yt yfexfncz øhfybnm ljcnjbycndj cdjtuj cjnhelybrf, jyb yt gjqven cxfcnmz Jñotuj Ñkfuf. 13. Gjyznbt cghfdtlkbdjcnb jrfåtncz cnjzobv yf jcyjdt nhelf. Nfråt veåtcndj kturj djphfcnftn ghb rheujdjq gjhert. Bvtyyj, dct rfr jlby, yj rfålsq ghbytcän cdjb cgjcjñyjcnb. Yt cjnhäv, yj jntgkbv. 14. Xedcndj jncencndbz cgtwbfkmyjcnb Yfit xedcndj, bñj Vs åbdäv lkz dctuj rjvgktrcf åbpyb. Rfålsq cgtwbfkbcn, ghbñkbåfçobqcz r Yfv, ytvbyetvj nthztn jlyjwdtnyst jxrb. Gjnjve cnfhfqntcm, xnjñs eåt ntgthm cgtwbfkmyjcnm ñskf jlybv bp ñkçl dfitq nhfgtps. Rfr gnbws yfl ptvkäç, rfr gxäks yfl dctvb wdtnfvb, vs vjåtv dgbnsdfnm wtkmyjcnm vbhjplfybz. Ñtp cgtwbfkmyjcnb ktuxt ujnjdbnmcz r jxthtlyjq pflfxt ãdjkçwbb _ r cyjitybç c lfkmybvb vbhfvb b r ghtndjhtybç fcnhfkmyjuj vbhf, vbhf nävysø ptvysø gthtåbnrjd. Dvtotybt gjyznbz jñobys cjcnfdbn dhfnf r cktleçobv ljcnbåtybzv, b chjrb bø pfdbczn jn cfvbø kçltq. Gjnjve ghbybvftv dczrbt gjbcrb jñobys. 9


15. Bp ñeqyjq pfhjckb ñthecm cltkfnm hjoe, yj rfvtym, gjkbhjdfyysq eybåtyysvb kñfvb, yt hjlbn pthyf. 16. Chtlb vtøfybxtcrbø ljcnbåtybq cjdhtvtyyjq wbdbkbpfwbb jcjñjuj dybvfybz pfckeåbdfçn cgjcjñs gthtldbåtybz. Ãnj gjåbhfybt ghjcnhfycndf tcnm eåt ytrjnjhfz gjñtlf yfl cathfvb yflptvysvb. Rjytxyj, rheu ybprjq vfnthbfkmyjcnb gjuheåftn ãnb pfdjtdfybz d ghtltks ybprjq vfnthbb b ghbyjcbn ñjkmit dhtlf, ytåtkb gjkmps. Ukfdyfz jgfcyjcnm ãnjuj ecrjhtybz gthtldbåtybz pfrkçxftncz d gjdsityyjv joeotybb ñtpjndtncndtyyjcnb. Dsøjlz pf ghtltks jñsxyjuj, xtkjdtr cnfyjdbncz käurbv, yj gj uheñjcnb xedcnd nthztn cjpyfybt jndtncndtyyjcnb. Rnj vjåtn ktnfnm cj crjhjcnmç 400 vbkm d xfc bkb dpktnfnm dsit lheubø, ghbjñhtnftn gcbøjkjubç rekfxyjuj xtvgbjyf, b cjpyfybt leøjdyjq jndtncndtyyjcnb gjrblftn tuj. Jñkfujhjlbnm pfdjtdfybt vjåyj, kbibd dczrjq cgjhnbdyjcnb b yfghfdbd yf nhel. Vxbcm yf cgfctybt ytcxfcnysø, ktnb yf cjtlbytybt xtkjdtxtcndf! Njulf ãnb pfdjtdfybz djqlen d ãdjkçwbç, bñj kçlb ljkåys ddtcnb d jñbøjl cnhtvktybz yflptvyst, yt pfñsdfz jñ jndtncndtyyjcnb. Gjrf ãnb pfdjtdfybz jcnf10


çncz d cnflbb ehjlkbdsø wtynfdhjd. Rjulf kçlb gjqven, relf b pfxtv jyb ljkåys ktntnm, njulf vjåyj ñeltn eltcznthbnm ktnfçobt fggfhfns. Vjåyj gjlcrfpfnm vyjåtcndj gjktpysø jgsnjd d ckjzø ghjcnhfycndf. Fnjvbxtcrfz ãythubz, rjyltycfwbz ghfys, wdtnyst kexb d ghjcnhfycndt, ehjåfq d cdzpb c gjdnjhysvb dphsdfvb b vyjujt lheujt, ceåläyyjt xtkjdtxtcnde. 17. Vyjuj hfp cksifkb ds j cktljdfybb Yfibv erfpfybzv b vjukb eñtlbnmcz, xnj njxyjt bcgjkytybt erfpf ghfrnbxyj b gjktpyj. Ãnj gthdfz cnegtym. Gjckt ytä ljkåyj yfxfnmcz cfvjltqcndbt. Pyfz jcyjdfybt Yfituj Extybz, yflj jrfpfnmcz extybrfvb, ndjhzobvb d gjkyjq cjbpvthbvjcnb b ytghtkjåyjcnb. Rjulf Exbntkm crfåtn: ≤Ntgthm cfvb gjrfåbnt cktlcndbz Vjbø erfpjd≥, ãnj yt pyfxbn ljcnfnm dtnøbt jltåls, gthtccjhbnmcz, yflenmcz b eotvbnm lheu lheuf. Ãnj vjåyj jcnfdbnm gjujyobrfv vekjd. Dfv åt cktletn gjvybnm j Yfitq Jñobyt b gjlhfåfnm d cjukfcyjv nhelt. Rjulf ghblän dhtvz bpvtybnm rehc rjhfñkz, ghblän b erfp. Yj j pfgkfnrt yf gjljidt yt ålbnt erfpf. Byfxt crjhj yfxyäv gjplhfdkznm lheu lheuf c lyäv fyutkf. 11


Yflj yfdctulf ecdjbnm dfåyjcnm b ljcnjbycndj yfcnjzotq hfñjns b clfnm d fhøbd ltncrbt ghbdsxrb. Vjåyj, yt bpvtyzz ghbywbgfv, yfqnb cjnyb ljcnjqysø htitybq. Øjxe dbltnm dfc yf cktleçotq cnegtyb. 18. Ytrjnjhst vtxnfçn ghbgfcnm r yjufv Exbntktq, yj blnb c Ybvb yf ñjq yt lthpfçn. Yj ntgthm, bvtyyj, ñjq, b vjåtv pdfnm kbim yf ñjq. Gjkyst bpextybz bcnby ñkfuf, pf kbxyjç jndtncndtyyjcnmç, Vs endthålftv ñjq, yj pfrjyysq. 19. Ecdjqnt, rfr jcnfdfnmcz cdtåbvb dj dhtvz dctq Ñbnds. Njkmrj yfxbyftncz Cdtnkfz Ñbndf _ vbkkbjys d ytq, yt pyfz j rjytxyjv htpekmnfnt. Ds åt pyftnt, b ãnj pyfybt ljkåyj cltkfnm dfc velhsvb, ljkåyj dkjåbnm ljcnjqyjt htitybt. Leø dfi ljkåty jgthznmcz dj bvz Bcnbys. Rfr vjåyj gjlyznmcz gjldbujv ãdjkçwbb Vbhf! Kex Vjq ghjcbn, xnjñs tve yt vtifkb cdtnbnm. Dvtcnj rhskmtd gjldbuf kturj hfcnbnm xähyst hjuf _ rhskmz afkmibdjuj hfccelrf. E ybpibø leøjd xähyst ãvfyfwbb gjljñys hjufv. 20. Yflj cnhtvbnmcz r yfbñjktt fñcjkçnyjve. Yfbñjktt fñcjkçnyjt nzujntybt ñeltn r lfkmybv vbhfv. 12


Rhfcjnf ptvyfz nthztncz d cbzybb kextq yflpdäplysø. Yferf ptvyfz, c nheljv gjvyzofz dxthfiybq ltym b yt pyfçofz pfdnhf, ybxnjåyf d ntxtybb yfhjålfçobøcz cdtnbk. Rfr vjåyj ghbñkbpbnmcz r crfpfyyjve Fñcjkçne? Ntøybrjq ytkmpz, yferjq ptvyjq ytkmpz, bcreccndjv bpjñhfpbntkmysv ytkmpz. Vjåyj kbim hfcibhtybtv cjpyfybz, rjulf ptvyjt ceotcndj gjukjoftncz ãvfyfwbtq lfkmybø cath. Gjnjve ghbñkbpbdibtcz r Yfv bkb, dthytt, r uhfybwfv jhñbns Ptvkb nthzçn cgtwbfkmyjcnm. Kbim d cjpyfybb dctjñütvktvjcnb vjåyj ñktcr cdtnbk gthtytcnb. Yj xnjñ dvtcnbnm ãnj cdthrfybt, yflj djpåtxm cdjb dyenhtyybt juyb. Cnbøbz juyz _ yfbñjktt gjhfåfçofz, yfbñjktt nhfycwtyltynfkmyfz, b tckb øjnbnt rkfccbabwbhjdfnm Yfie Jñobye gj cnbøbzv, nj jnytcbnt r dtkbrjve Juyç, rjnjhsq dcä lfän, dcä jxboftn b ybxtuj yt nhtñetn. 21. Vs yt kçñbntkb vbhf ntktcysø gthtåbnrjd, yj tuj ytkmpz vbyjdfnm d leøjdyjv hfpdbnbb, rfr b dcä ceott. Vbh ntktcysø gthtåbnrjd cjlthåbn ytrjnjhst ãktvtyns, yeåyst lkz cyjitybz c vbhfvb. Yfghbvth, cgjcjñ gthtldbåtybz, vfkj djcghbybvf13


tvsq åbntkzvb Njyrjuj Vbhf. Bvtz djpvjåyjcnm cnhtvbnmcz ddthø, jyb pfyzns gjcnhjqrfvb nävysø ljvjd, gjlhfåfz ptvysv. Yj tckb ñs jyb toä ghb åbpyb hfcibhbkb cdjä cjpyfybt, nj vjukb ñs bpvthznm gjljk Vfnthb Vbhf. Vjuen ghjñelbnm kexibt djpvjåyjcnb nt, rnj vjuen joeofnm leøjdysv cjpyfybtv. Yj lkz cjøhfytybz cjpyfybz yeåyj ghb åbpyb joenbnm tuj. Njulf cjcnjzybt cjdhtvtyyjuj vbhf ntktcysø gthtåbnrjd gjxnb cjnhäncz. Yt ≤egjrjq c jnwfvb≥, yj ≤yfexb d ghjcnhfycndt Cdtnf≥. Dctv cjpyfybtv gjvybnt pflfxb ãdjkçwbb. Rjulf cnhtvktybt r cgjrjç bcxtpytn, njulf ghbñkbpzncz Dhfnf. 22. Vjåyj Yfc ljcnbxm kbim d cjukfcbb. Yfv yt yeåyj ñjujgjxbnfybz, yj bpdtcnyjt rfxtcndj leøf, nfr åt rfr kfvgf cjukfcjdfyyjuj yfghzåtybz. Vbufçofz kfvgf ytdsyjcbvf ghb lkbntkmysø pfyznbzø. Pfrjys dj dcäv jlbyfrjds, yj, gj pfrjye cghfdtlkbdjcnb, vbufçofz kfvgf dhtlbn ctñt. Vjue cjdtnjdfnm Vjbv kfvgfv yt vbufnm. Lbyfvjvfibyf jn rfxtcndf kfvg yt gjhnbncz, yj ytcjukfcjdfyyjcnm djkmn kfvg xfcnj rjyxftncz åfkjñysv _ lpbym! B jcyjdyjq vtnfkk ljkåty ñsnm gjcnfdkty pfyjdj. Pfrjys dj dcäv jlbyfrjds. 14


23. Ytn ñtpleiyjq cghfdtlkbdjcnb, yj kbim cbzçofz wtktcjjñhfpyjcnm. Bvtyyj, ghtrhfcyfz wtktcjjñhfpyjcnm yt nbhfycndjdfnm vjåtn, yj jnrhsdfnm ghtrhfcyst dhfnf. B pjd wtktcjjñhfpyjcnb yfgjkyztn gjñtlysv xedcndjv ghjcnhfycndj. Yt vfkst dtnøbt jcrjkrb, yj lhfujwtyyst xfcnb Rjcvjcf zdkzçn cjñjç cjñsnbz b ndjhtybz, gjyzdibt wtktcjjñhfpyjcnm. Yj kbim jcjpyfybt Rjcvbxtcrjq kbxyjcnb vjåtn jpfhbnm cnegtyb ãdjkçwbb. Byfxt d ptvyjv gjybvfybb ãdjkçwbz jcnfytncz kbim dsujlysv gjvtotybtv rfgbnfkf. Yj pyftnt eåt, xnj rfgbnfk, kbiäyysq wtktcjjñhfpyjcnb, kbim åähyjd yf itt. B rfr zdktybt pfhfps ghjbpdjlbn zpds leøjdyst b ntktcyst, nfr b gjzdktybt cevfcitcndbz rjhscnjkçñbz ghbyjcbn dhtl leøe b ntke. Yf ptvkt pfñjnbvcz b j ntkt, gjnjve yflj ghjybrfnm d ghjbcøjåltybt ñjktpytq. Dhfx vju ñs crfpfnm ñjkmyjve: ≤Ghbgfljr rjhscnjkçñbz e dfc≥, bkb ≤fytvbz cfvjvybntkmyjcnb≥, bkb ≤rfvyb ghtlfntkmcndf≥, bkb ≤rjkbrb rktdtns≥, bkb ≤xtcjnrf cgktnty≥, bkb ≤elfh ytyfdbcnb≥. Yf rkflñbofø nfr kçñbv gjvbyfnm ljcnjbycndf ktåfotuj; yt vtifkj ñs gjcnfdbnm bcnbyyeç ghbxbye ñjktpytq _ phtkbot cnfkj ñs gjexbntkmysv. 15


Lhepmz, gjdnjhzç _ lthåbnt vsckb xbcnsvb, ãnj kexifz ltpbyatrwbz b cfvjt pyfvtybnjt njybxtcrjt chtlcndj. 24. Xnj tcnm ghjhjxtcndj? Ghtlerfpfybt jghtltkäyyjuj cjxtnfybz xfcnbw vfnthbb. Gjnjve ghjhjxtcndf vjuen ñsnm dsgjkytys, yj b bcgjhxtys ytghbujlysv jnyjitybtv, cjdthityyj rfr ghb øbvbxtcrjq htfrwbb. Bvtyyj ãnj yt vjuen gjyznm kçlb, øjnz dvtcnbkb pyfxtybt ñfhjvtnhf. Vjåyj ghjhjxtcndf hfpltkbnm yf chjxyst b ñtcchjxyst. Rjulf vs bvttv ltkj cj chjxysv ghjhjxtcndjv, pyfxbn, yflj gjybvfnm dct eckjdbz vtålechjxyst. Ñjkmijq chjr cjcnjbn bp vfksø chjrjd; gjnjve ghfdbkmyj cjñkçcnb vfksq chjr. Yeåyj gjvybnm, xnj nävyst hfñjnfçn yfl vfksvb chjrfvb, gsnfzcm jckjåybnm ñjkmijq. 25. Vjuen kb ghjhjxtcndf jcnfnmcz ytdsgjkytyysvb? Rjytxyj, vjuen. E Yfc wtkjt øhfybkbot egeotyysø ghjhjxtcnd. Bcnbyyjt ghjhjxtcndj ghtlecvfnhbdftn kexieç rjvñbyfwbç djpvjåyjcntq, yj bø vjåyj egecnbnm. Ntvf jñ bcgjkytybb ghjhjxtcnd jxtym ukeñjrfz; d ytq cjtlbytys rjjgthfwbz b dscitt pyfybt leøf. 16


Ytvelhsq crfåtn: ≤Rfrfz reøyz!≥ Yj reøyz kturj jñhfoftncz d kfñjhfnjhbç. Ghjhjxtcndf bplfdyf blen bp Yfitq Jñobys rfr ñkfubt pyfrb xtkjdtxtcnde. Genb ghjhjxtcnd hfpyjjñhfpys: bkb dyeiftvst jnltkmysv kbwfv, bkb vfccjdst xedcndjdfybz, bkb vfyecrhbgns, bkb ytbpdtcnyj rtv jcnfdktyyst yflgbcb. Ghjhjxtcndf kexit dctuj jgjdtofçn xtkjdtxtcndj. Rjytxyj, cbvdjks xfcnj pfntvytys, yj dyenhtyybq cvsck cjplfän dbñhfwbç. Rjytxyj, bcgjkytybt ghjhjxtcndf nhtñetn yfcnjhjåtyyjcnb b ecnhtvktybz. 26. Tckb vfnthbz dcçle, nj lfåt cdtn jcnfdkztn cdjç ghjnjgkfpve. Yf dct cdtnjdst zdktybz ytkmpz cvjnhtnm rfr yf ckexfqyjcnb. Ytrjnjhst ukfpf ekfdkbdfçn ctnm cdtnf. Gj ñkfujhjlcnde ãythubb cdtnf dct ãnb jñhfpjdfybz jxtym rhfcbds. Lbccjyfyc pderf ujhfplj xfot. Ghjnjgkfpvf cdtnf yt tcnm xnj-nj jndktxäyyjt, tä jcflrb erhfifçn wfhcndj hfcnbntkmyjt. Hbnv djky b gtcrjd b rjhf gkfytns pyfxbntkmyj yjhvbheçncz epkfvb ctnb cdtnf. Exbnt kçñbnm jñhfpjdfybz cdtnf. Yt cnjkmrj jñhfps, pfgtxfnkäyyst yf øjkcnt, crjkmrj gjlcvjnhtyyst dbñhfwbb cdtnf bvtçn pyfxtybt. 17


Rfxtcndj dpukzlf cjdthityyj yt jwtytyj. Jyj gjljñyj kexe lkz ajnjuhfabxtcrjq abkmvs. Yflj dcgjvybnm, xnj leøjdysv dpukzljv vs ecnfyfdkbdftv jñkbr cnbøbqysø leøjd. Nfr åt njxyj abpbxtcrbq dpukzl pflthåbdftn d ghjcnhfycndt ctnm cdtnf. Pyfxtybt ãnjq rjjgthfwbb yeåyj pyfnm. Rfåljt ldbåtybt xtkjdtrf cdzpfyj c ceoyjcnmç cnbøbq. Toä erfåe, yfcrjkmrj dfåyf ñskf buhf gbafujhtqwtd ghb djcøjlt cjkywf. Cdtn lkz pderf zdkztncz kexibv jxbcnbntkmysv abkmnhjv. Njkmrj jlbxfybt xtkjdtxtcndf vjåtn pfgthtnm pder d gskm ntvyjns. 27. Xbcnfz vsckm, yfgbnfyyfz rhfcjnjç, erfpsdftn genm r bcnbyt. Extybt jnrfpf ghtlgjkfuftn cybcøjåltybt r ybpibv. Ghb hfcibhtyyjv cjpyfybb yt zdktybt pfvbhfybz, yj øjåltybt ñtp pfghtnjd. Erhfityyst åbpyb gjpdjkzçn cdjñjlyj, otlhj eøjlbnm, xnjñs ghbøjlbnm gjñtlbntkzvb. Yt vjåtn cveofnmcz bleobq cjpyfybtv rhfcjns. Njkmrj cveotybt vjåtn ghtuhflbnm genm. Ytdthyj crfpfnm: ≤Rhfcjnf cgfcän vbh≥, ghfdbkmytt crfpfnm _ cjpyfybt rhfcjns cgfcän vbh. Xthtp ghtgzncndbz ñtpjñhfpbz vjåyj blnb r vfzre rhfcjns, hfpñhfcsdfz ctvtyf ñtp xbckf. Rjulf vjåyj 18


ltkfnm cfl rhfcjns, njulf ytxtuj ñjznmcz. Ecnfkb ytn, rjulf cfl leøf gecnbn yjdsø ghbitkmwtd. 28. Zdktybt jvthndktybz Ptvkb ljikj lj rhfqytuj ghtltkf. Cxbnftv, yeåys rhfqybt vths, xnjñs leø cyjdf ghjcyekcz. Eksñrfvb yt ljcnbxm Extybz. Gjzdktybt gecnsym lfdyj jpyfvtyjdfkj yfxfkj lbrjcnb. Pyfrb ñskb lfys lfdyj, b lfyj ñskj dhtvz jlevfnmcz. Zdktybt Erfpjd ñskj, yj ybrnj yt ghbckeifkcz. 29. Extybt Yjdjuj Vbhf gjrhjtn dct yteljñcndf. Bcnbyyj, njkmrj obn Jñobys vjåtn jcvsckbnm ghtñsdfybt yf ptvkt. Rfr ytcksøfyyj rhfcbdj vsckbnm j rjjgthfwbb c lfkmybvb vbhfvb! Ãnf rjjgthfwbz, yfxfnfz cjpyfntkmyj, djdktxän d jhñbne cyjitybz yjdst vbhs. B ãnjn ytñtcysq rjjgthfnbd ñeltn hfcibhznm ñtcrjytxyj cdjb djpvjåyjcnb. Tckb dct djpvjåyjcnb jñeckjdktys jñobyjç, nj ghjzdktybt bø ghjbpjqlän xthtp rfyfk leøf. Crfpfyj, xnj pder ljqlän gthdsv. Gecnm ãnb ahfuvtyns ñelen helbvtynfhys, rfr gthdst pfpeñhbys ãjkbnf. Gecnm wtkst ujls ghjqlen lj gjyznbz ckjåyjuj cvsckf; yj ytjcgjhbvj, xnj ãnj pfdjtdfybt yfxyäncz yt d jñcthdfnjhbzø b yt d jgnbxtcrbø kfdrfø. Ckeø leøf 19


ghbytcän gthdst dtcnb _ yt lkz vfubcnthcrbø lbccthnfwbq, yj lkz åbpyb, rjnjhfz reän ãdjkçwbç. Extybt vjåtn crfpfnm xenrbv _ ghjñeålfzcm, gjvybnt j lfkmybø vbhfø; jnøjlz rj cye, gjvybnt j lfkmybø vbhfø. Ecksifd rfrbt-ybñelm jcrjkrb pderjd, yt jndthufqnt bø, bñj rfålsq jcrjkjr vjåtn edtkbxbdfnm djpvjåyjcnb xtkjdtxtcndf. Gjcntgtyyj vjuen ghjybryenm ytbpdtcnyst ckjdf; ãnjve yt yflj elbdkznmcz, gjvyz, xnj d chjr ghjxbø dhtväy nfr åt hfcibhzkjcm cjpyfybt. Ds gjybvftnt, xnj ñtp jñobys Ptvkz åbnm yt vjåtn. Ds gjybvftnt, xnj ñtp hfcibhtybz ytñtcysø gentq ceotcndjdfybt cnfyjdbncz ybxnjåysv. Yjdsq Vbh yeålftncz d yjdsø uhfybwfø. E boeobø ljkåyf ñsnm ljhjuf. Hfpdt jyf eprf gj dctve ytñjcrkjye? Cxfcnmt d njv, xnj bcrfntkb yt ljkåys ghbybrfnm eøjv r ptvkt, yj vjuen jñhfnbnm dpukzl yf leøjdyeç dscm. Kexe ktuxt bcrfnm gjlyznst ujkjds. B rfåljt ldbåtybt vbhf jñeckjdktyj jñobyjç. 30. Vjåyj gjplhfdbnm c hfcibhtybtv cjpyfybz. Ybrfrfz kfñjhfnjhbz yt vjåtn lfnm ãnjuj joeotybz ghjljkåtybz ñtpuhfybxysø djpvjåyjcntq. Vjåyj 20


kbim kbxyj, cjpyfntkmyj b cdjñjlyj dvtofnm bp ghjcnhfycndf ytghthsdyst cnegtyb. Extybt vjåtn jnrhsnm ldthm, yj djqnb vjåyj kbim cfvjve. Yt yfuhflf, yt cghfdtlkbdjcnm, yj pfrjy ytjcgjhbvjcnb ytcän djgkjoäyysq leø gj djcøjlzotq cgbhfkb, tckb jy jcjpyfk ytjñøjlbvjcnm ldbåtybz. Exbntkm ybxtv yt vjåtn gjldbyenm ãnj cjpyfybt, bñj rfåljt dyeitybt yfheifkj ñs kbxyjt ljcnbåtybt. Jlyj _ jndktxäyyj hfcceålfnm j lfkmybø vbhfø, lheujt _ jcjpyfnm ctñz exfcnybrjv bø. Njkmrj kbim njn, rnj yt pfrhsk ctñt genm r rhfcjnt, vjåtn gjyznm, rfr zdktybt lfkmybø vbhjd ñkbprj tve. Eøjv vjåyj ekjdbnm jnhsdrb Dtkbrjuj Lsøfybz, yj pyfybt leøf ghtljcnfdbn xtkjdtre vtcnj chtlb ñtpuhfybxyjcnb. Gjktpyj jñthyenmcz d lfkärbt ãgjøb, rjulf ghjcsgfkjcm ãnj cjpyfybt. Vs edblbv, xnj yt d lyb hfcwdtnf yferb, yj d lyb ghjdjpdtcnbz htkbubb ghjcsgfkjcm rjcvbxtcrjt cjpyfybt; bñj yt ubgjntps, yj kbim pyfybt leøf dtlän r pdäplysv genzv. Cjåfktç, yj ybrfrbt fcnhjyjvbxtcrbt dsxbcktybz yt gjldbyen vjvtyn cyjitybq, nfr åt rfr vehfdtq yt dscnhtkbn bp ubufyncrjq geirb. Bvtyyj wtyyj, xnj nfrjq gjldbu ljkåty ghjzdbnmcz chtlcndfvb leøf. Djn vs 21


ujdjhbv, rfr ñs vfnthbfkmyj, yj ñtp leøf ytkmpz ghbvtybnm ãne ãythubç. Bvtyyj leø lfän bpdtcnyjt rfxtcndj vfnthbb. Cjcnjzybt Ptvkb nhtñetn ytcksøfyyjuj dhfxf. Gkfytnf ñjkmyf, b tckb ñs yt elfkjcm gjldbyenm tä, nj kexit dhtvtyyj dsrkçxbnm tä bp wtgb _ vjåtn ñsnm rfr keyf. Hfccflybrb ybpibø ckjäd Njyrjuj Vbhf cnfkb jgfcyj ytcyjcys. Njåt ytkmpz pfñsnm, rfr xtkjdtxtcndj gjlgfkj gjl dkbzybt ybpibø ckjäd Njyrjuj Vbhf. Dctve gjvjåtn jñobyf, yj jñobyt gjvjåtn hfcibhtybt cjpyfybz. 31. Exbntkm wtybn åtkfybt jvsnm gskm c dtkbrbø Kbrjd. Exbntkm wtybn åtkfybt endthlbnm ghjcnjt dshfåtybt dtkbrbø ckjd. Exbntkm wtybn åtkfybt cjchtljnjxbnm vyjujckjdbt. Xnjñ dsltkbnm ceoyjcnm, yflj gjljqnb jn ytpsñktvjuj. Vjåyj pyfnm jlyj: yb jlby gfvznybr yt ljiäk ñtp bcrfktxtybz. Vjåyj, rfr bp ukbys, dslfdkbdfnm jnnbcrb jñobys hfpevyjuj cjnhelybxtcndf b cnhtvktybz pf ghtltks dblbvjuj. Extybt vjåyj dshfpbnm gjl ltdbpjv: ≤Gecnm ytcjukfcysq ljrfåtn ghjnbdyjt≥. Kexit vthbnm yfpfl, xtv pfcsgfnmcz ytcvsdftvjq gskmç. Bvtyyj, pyfybt herjdjlzotuj ghbywbgf jcdtnbn bcrfktxtyyst cbvdjks. 22


Ds pyftnt, rfr ujdjhzn j dfc ghb åbpyb, xnj åt ñeltn d dtrfø? Yj ghbywbg ytvbyetvj hfcnän, b njkxrb tuj yfhfcnfybq rjktñkçn ptvyeç ndthlm. Eitlibt yfhjls jcnfdkzkb gfnbye yf cdjñjlt leøf. Cghjcbnt: ≤Ult åt ghtcktletvst?≥ _ gj ãnbv pyfrfv blbnt. Edblbnt ghtcktletvsø gthdsø øhbcnbfy b ñellbcnjd, yj rjulf øhfvs jndhfnbkbcm jn Øhbcnf b Ñells, njulf ghtcktljdfybz ghtrhfnbkbcm. Erfåe Extybt lthåfnm ghjcnj; yt yflj ckjåysø dshfåtybq, bñj åbpym ghtrhfcyf d ghjcnjnt. Xfcnj ghbøjlbncz jrjgfnm hfcntybt, gjnjve gjdnjhtybz ytbpñtåys. 32. Dfåyf ãdjkçwbz yt xtkjdtxtcndf ptvyjuj, yj xtkjdtxtcndf Dctktyyjq. Tckb ñs ãnf ghjcnfz ajhvekf vjukf ñsnm dvtotyf kçlcrbvb cthlwfvb, dtcm cdjl pdäplysq cltkfkcz ñs jczpftvsv. Bcnbyyj, ceotcndfv lheubø vbhjd ktuxt ñskj ñs ghjñjlfnm leiyeç fnvjcathe Ptvkb, tckb ñs bv yfdcnhtxe ytckbcm ghbpsds ptvysø djgkjoäyysø. Ult åt ñkbåfqibt vbhs, relf vs vjukb ñs yfghfdkznm yfit cjpyfybt? _ Çgbnth b Dtythf. Dlevfqntcm d ckjdj xtkjdtr _ jyj jpyfxftn leø, bkb xtkj, ghjøjlzobq dtrfvb. Dcz cvtyf djgkjot23


ybq, dcz wtyyjcnm cjpyfybz dshfåtyf d jlyjv ckjdt. Vjåtnt kb yfpdfnm lheujq zpsr, ult åbntkm djgkjoäyysq yfpdfy nfr åt leøjdyj? Vfkj dshfåfçn lheubt zpsrb bltç ltqcndbz. Exbntkm vjåtn yfpdfnm cjnyb yfbvtyjdfybq, yj jyb ñelen bkb cfvjvybntkmys, bkb ytdshfpbntkmys. 33. R xtve ghbhjlt ghjnbdyst xeltcf? Djn xelj, rjulf vjåtim ctcnm yf rjyz b c zdktyysv vtxjv pfobofnm Jñobye Vbhf. Nfr åt ghjcnj yfxyäncz Yjdsq Vbh. Rfr phtkst gkjls cjñhfys ñelen afrns. Extybt vfuybnjd, rjytxyj, yt xelj, yj zdktybt pfrjyf ghbnzåtybz. Yt pfrhjqnt zdktybt leøf, b vtx gjckeåbn djcøjåltybç ãdjkçwbb. Vjue lfnm hfljcnm kbim njve, rnj ghbyzk jñobye yt d pfrkbyfybzø, yt d rehtybzø, yj d åbpyb lyz. Exbntkm vjåtn gjckfnm kex yf gjvjom, yj yt ñeltn chfåfnmcz, tckb vtx zdktyysq jñthyäncz ghjnbd lheptq jñobys, _ vtx cdthyäncz d ñbx vjkybb. 34. Rfr vjåyj ldbufnm cthlwfvb? Yt enthzd ghjcnjne. Elfxf blän yt pf vfubtq, yj pf ckjdjv åbpyb. Ehjr yfi vjåtv dsgjkybnm, cevtd gjljqnb r cfvjve ghjcnjve. Elevfç, rfr e nheåtybrjd lfnm cbzybt lfkmybø vbhjd. Rjulf cfvsq cjuñtyysq gjukzlbn d 24


ytñj, njulf vjåyj ålfnm hfleåyeç ktyne c lfkmybø vbhjd. 35. Gfhfwtkmc kçñbk ujdjhbnm: ≤•¬” º’œ¬”º º¿ º’÷”º≥. Gjckt ãnj pfvtxfntkmyjt bphtxtybt cnfkj ltdbpjv obnjd b uthñjd, gjnthzd dczrbq cvsck. Ghfdlf, gjyzd cvsck tuj, nhelyj ghbdzpfnm ctñz r jlyjq Ptvkt. Rfr gthtufh d nheñe, gjpyfdibq leø vxbncz d zdktyyjt ghjcnhfycndj. Rfrjq hfpvth bvtçn lkz ytuj ptvyst jltåls? Rfreç gjldbåyjcnm vjåtn jy ghjzdbnm gj ptvyjq gjdthøyjcnb? Rfrbvb vsckzvb vjåtn jy ltkbnmcz d ptvyjq catht? Cghjczn, gjxtve åt Vs nthztv cnjkmrj ãythubb yfl Ptvkäç? Yt hflb Ptvkb, yj lkz bcghfdktybz genb. Rjulf pkjevsiktyybr rjdthrftn htkmcs, xfcnj byåtyth gjkfuftn vyjuj dhtvtyb lkz bcghfdktybz. Tckb ñs Vs vjukb gthtdtcnb bvtçobø cjpyfybt Rjcvjcf c Ptvkb ytvtlktyyj, hfpdt vjåyj ñskj ñs pflthåfnm Yfit åtkfybt? Bnfr, Yfit cnhtvktybt _ ecrjhbnm ãnjn ghjwtcc. Xeç, vjåtn ñsnm crjhj rjcvbxtcrbt eckjdbz gjpdjkzn yfxfnm ãnb hfñjns gj cyjitybç c lfkmybvb vbhfvb. Ghb ãnjv dct cjjñhfåtybz j rhfcjnt, j cnhtvbntkmyjcnb cfvjgjcskrb yeåys. Ghfdlf, yfl nfr yfpsdftvjq rhfcjnjq 25


tcnm gjrhsdfçott gjyznbt _ ekexitybt Rjcvjcf. Kex hfleub vjåtn ghtdscbnm djjñhfåtybt. Cthtñhj hjålfçott _ yfxfkj hfleub. Hfleuf, dblbvfz d ptvysø eckjdbzø, yfgjvbyftn uhbvbhjdre dñkbpb. Vfkj rnj vjåtn ghtlxedcndjdfnm yflptvyeç hfleue. 36. Xeç, rfr yfckjtybt cjñsnbq ytcän djkys ecrjhtybz. Yf rjcvbxtcrjt cnhjtybt gjckeåfn ãnb djkys. Z gbie Vjb pfvtnrb djpvjåyjcntq b ghbøjåe r dsdjle, xnj dcä djpvjåyj ctqxfc. Htlrj rjulf dscifz dthf blän gj genb c dscibv ytdthbtv; rjulf øekf b ckfdjckjdbt vjuen ñsnm d jlyjv øjht; rjulf zhjcnm b nbibyf hjålfçn hfljcnm. Rjulf ytelfxf zdkztncz ghbpyfrjv elfxb, rjulf elfkäyyjcnm ckeåbn pyfrjv ñkbpjcnb, njulf gjnjrb ãvfyfwbq cdtnbk cjxtnfçncz c dyenhtyybvb juyzvb. Nfrjt dhtvz jpyfxftn wbrk yjdsq, b cfvf jñobyf, toä yt dvtoäyyfz, ckeåbn vjcnjv. Rjyxbv ienrjç. Vjåyj kb crfpfnm yf Çgbntht j ñbhåtdjq cgtrekzwbb bkb yf Dtytht j ljvfø nthgbvjcnb? Tcnm gjyznbz ghjcnj ytghbcnjqyst. Lfåt nheñjxbcn, blz d ujcnb, kbwj evjtn. Yteåtkb kçlb øeåt? Gjhf cjñbhfnmcz Ptvkt d yjdsq genm.

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37. Cgjcjñyjcnb lfkmytq gjcskrb dtcmvf htlrb. Rfr dctulf, yflj hfpkbxfnm rfxtcndj gjcktlcndbz. Ñsdfçn gjcskrb ñtcgjrjqyst, rfr veøb, _ jn ybø jnvføbdfçncz; ñsdfçn nzårbt, rfr rhsirf uhjñf, _ bv eåfcfçncz; ñsdfçn rfr cdbcn cnhtk _ ãnb djkyeçn ñtp gjybvfybz. Htlrj rjulf gjcskrb zcys; htlrj rjulf jyb dspsdfçn cjnhelybxtcndj cjjndtncndtyysø wtynhjd. Vjåyj xfcnbxyj jnytcnb ãnj pf cxän feh, yj ukfdyjt pyfxtybt d rfxtcndt gjcskrb. Ãnj rfxtcndj yfpsdftncz gjktpyjcnmç djkb, rjnjhfz zdkztn gjybvfybt rjkbxtcndf djkmn yfghzåtybz rjhhtcgjyltynf. Xnjñs ãktrnhbxtcrfz kfvgf dcgsøyekf, yeåyj cjjndtncndbt djkmn. Yt njkmrj cjlthåfybt gjcskrb, yj rfxtcndj dfåyj. Pyfybt leøf lfän gjcskrt gjktpyjcnm. Cktlcndbtv gjktpyjcnb gjcskrb ñeltn hfljcnm djcghbznbz, bñj dcä cjhfpvthyjt ñeltn hfljcnmç. 38. Zdktybt Extybz xbcnjuj yeåyj cjtlbybnm c ljdthbtv. Gjnjve yflj ñeltn hfpdbnm nfrjt ljdthbt, xnj cfvf jxtdblyjcnm yt ljkåyf rjktñfnm tuj. Kex Vjq vjåtn pyfnm, ult øelj. 39. Cjplfqnt fnvjcathe ujnjdyjcnb r ltqcndbç. Rjulf elfh geoty, vyjubt cnfhst pfckjyrb gflfçn 27


ytjåblfyyj. Vyjuj ñbnd gjpflb, toä ñjkmit dgthtlb. Rfålsq fnjv Rjcvjcf ñmäncz. Gjrjq cvthnb Yfv ytpyfrjv. 40. Yjdjt Extybt gjxbnftn Yjcbntktq ghtåybø Pfdtnjd, yj blän ñtp ñfufåf rjyxtyysø dhtväy. Byfxt rfhfdfy gjcjñbq ghbvtn ytgthtlfdftvst hfpvths. Cfvjt ghfrnbxyjt ñskj ñs eybxnjåbnm dct rjvvtynfhbb, cltkfyyst gjckt nhäø dtrjd jn eøjlf Exbntkz. Yflj rjulf-ybñelm gjxbcnbnm gjkrb. Jn ãnjq xbcnrb dshfcnen Jñkbrb Exbntktq Cdtnf. 41. Vs bpujybv dczrbq cnhfø. Vs gecnbv gj dtnhe dct hfpyjwdtnyst gthmz cnhføf. Cbybt gthmz pfcnsdituj eåfcf, ptkäyst gthmz bpvtyxbdjq lhjåb, åäknst gthmz nfqyjuj egjkpfybz, rhfcyst gthmz bccnegkäyyjuj cnerf, ñtkst gthmz evjkxfybz, xähyst rhskmz gfltybz d ñtplye. Yeåyj ndthlbnm j hfpyjjñhfpbb cnhføf, byfxt jcnfytncz ult-nj cthtymrjt gähsirj eujlkbdjuj ktgtnfybz bkb åt geibyrf njhjgkbdjq cetns, f pf ybvb njn åt bljk cnhføf. Rfåljt rhskj cnhføf ytcän dybp. Ñkfujckjdtyysq Ktd, ñtccnhfibtv jltnsq, pfgjdtlfk exbnm zdktybç veåtcndf.

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Gkjdws, tckb ds cltkftnt dcä dfv djpvjåyjt, relf vjåtn ytcnb dfc cfvfz ueñbntkmyfz djkyf? Jyf vjåtn kbim djpytcnb dfc. B ns, ctzntkm, rjulf hfplfim pähyf, ns ñeltim ålfnm ehjåfz. B ns, gfcneø, rjulf gthtxnäim jdtw cdjbø, ns pfntgkbim cdtn zdysq. 42. Rjcvjc cjpblftncz gekmcfwbtq, byfxt ujdjhz, dphsdfvb. Hbnv dphsdjd lfän cnhjqyjcnm ndjhtybç. Bvtyyj, pyfybt leøf gthtyjcbn ybnm Rjcvjcf d åbpym ghjzdktyyeç. Yflj vtxjv cdthrfçobv jnltkbnm cnegtym yfhjåltybz. Yflj cjpyfnm, rjulf elthåfnm wdtns cdtnf, byfxt jyb cyjdf hfpkfufçncz dj vuke cnbøbq. Cfljdybr pyftn, rjulf dhtvz cjñhfnm wdtns, bñj jy pfkjåbk ytdblbvst pähyf. Yt njn, rnj yf ñfpfht pähyf regbk; yt njn, rnj d ktyjcnb ghbrfpfk pähyf gjctznm, yj cfljdybr leøf, rnj d hfyyçç ytgjujle crhsk pähyf gjl dtctyytq ptvkäq. Lf, lf _ jy, cfljdybr leøf, ñeltn pyfnm dhtvz dcøjlf; jy jnkbxbn vjkjlst cntñkb jn cjhyjq nhfds, bñj jy cltkfk cfveç crhsneç hfñjne b tve ghbyflktåbn cfvsq kexibq wdtnjr. Bcnbyyj, dtkbrjt ltkj d vbyene exezyyeç ñktcyenm vtxjv, d chjr dphsdf here gjlyznm. 29


Bcnbyyj, djn jgznm cøjlzn cnheb Rjcvjcf yf ujnjdeç Ptvkç; djn gjxtve wtyyj pyfybt leøf. Ãnj ytñtcyfz hfleuf, jncdtxtyyfz d rfgkzø ptvyjq hjcs. Hfpdt yt ltkbn cdtn pyfybt leøf? õº÷¬”∆º ö◊æ∆¿º lkz lbrjuj leøf rehxfdsq øfjc, yj lkz pyfçotuj leøf ãnj fhaf cdtnf. Rfr xtrfyyst cnheys, cnhtvzncz djkys Cdtnjyjcyjq vfnthbb, b leø cjpblftn bp ybø nfqyjpdexyst cbvajybb. Vtåle vbhfvb, rfr ybnb, ghjnzyenf õº÷¬”∆º ö◊æ∆¿º. Njkmrj ytgjvthyfz lfkmyjcnm ckbdftn djkys ybntq d dbñhfwbç ytñtcyjq hfleub. Vjåyj yfxbyfnm cnhtvbnmcz r lfkmybv vbhfv, cktlez pf ybnmç Cdtnf, jcjpyfyyjç leøjv, _ ãnj jxtym yfexysq jgsn. Rfr crfpfyj _ vfkst ltqcndbz yeålfçncz d gjcjñbzø b d fggfhfnfø, yj ybxnj dytiytt yt yeåyj dtkbrjve ltqcndbç. 43. Xeç, Extybt vjåtn zdbnmcz nzåäksv vjkjnjv lkz hjñrbø. Toä ytlfdyj eåfc ghjybpfk ñs cthlwt ghb jlyjv ghjbpytctybb ≤jñobyf≥, yj ntgthm eåt ytcrjkmrj ghtuhfl ckjvktyj. Pf jnrfpjv jn dtnøjq cjñcndtyyjcnb cktletn toä jlyj nhelyjt bcgsnfybt xtkjdtxtcnde. Ecdfbdfz pyfxtybt leøf, jcjñtyyj nhelyj jnrfpfnmcz jn xeltc. Lfåt Fhøfns, bpñhfyyst Ñelljç, nhelyj hfccnfdfkbcm c ãnjq djpvjåyjcnmç. 30


Nhb Fhøfnf ytjncnegyj ghjcbkb Ñelle gjpdjkbnm bv bcgsnfnm xelj. Ñellf gjvtcnbk rfåljuj d nävyeç rjvyfne b pfgth bø. Gjckt ljkujuj dhtvtyb Ñkfujckjdtyysq dspdfk bø b cghjcbk j dbltyyjv bvb. Rfålsq hfccrfpfk hfpyst dbltybz. Yj Ñellf crfpfk: ≤Ntgthm ds ljkåys cjukfcbnmcz, xnj xeltcf yt gjktpys, bñj ukfdyjuj xelf ds yt joenbkb. Bñj ds vjukb joenbnm ñsnbt dyt phbvjcnb, b ãnj joeotybt vjukj yfghfdbnm dfc pf ghtltks ptvkb. Yj ds ghjljkåfkb cjpyfdfnm ctñz cblzobvb yf ptvkt, b vsckb dfib ghbnzubdfkb r ptvkt djkys cnbøbq. Yfñeøfybt cnbøbqysø jñkbrjd dspdfkj gjnhzctybz d hfpysø cnhfyfø. Ds hfpheibkb crfks b eybxnjåbkb ehfufyjv rjhfñkb. Djn ns dbltk rhfcyjuj pdthz c gkfvtyyjq rjhjyjq, yj jujym, bpdktxäyysq njñjç bp ñtplys, cgfkbk ljvf ñtppfobnysø _ blb b gjvjub! Ns dbltk zothf c kbrjv ltds, ns pfcnfdbk djkys cvsnm hsñfwrbt kjlrb _ cgtib gjvjxm! Djn ns dbltk jhkf ktnzotuj, b ehfufy cyäc ehjåfq nhelzobøcz _ blb b djpvtcnb! Ult åt gjkmpf dfif, Fhøfns? Cjdf d legkt gjktpytt ghjdtkf dhtvz. Bkb ds nhelbntcm d gjnt kbwf yf ptvkt, bkb d vbyene etlbytybz djpdsifqnt ctñz yfl ptvkäç. Yj ñtcgjktpyjt djpveotybt cnbøbq gecnm yt ñeltn pfyznbtv velhjuj≥. 31


Bcnbyyj, gthj, dsgfditt bp rhskf vfktymrjq gnbws, ghjbpdjlbn uhjv yf lfkmybø vbhfø. Dlsøfz djpleø, vs ghbjñoftvcz rj dctv vbhfv. Velhsq blän jn ptvkb rdthøe, bñj vbhs jnrhjçn lheu lheue velhjcnm cdjç. Ghbnxe ãne gjdnjhzqnt ntv, rnj ñeltn nhtñjdfnm xeltc. 44. Ceoyjcnm ecnhtvktybz r lfkmybv vbhfv pfrkçxftncz d ecdjtybb cjpyfybz yfitq åbpyb yf ybø. Djpvjåyjcnm åbpyb yf ybø zdkztncz lkz yfituj cjpyfybz rfr ñs rfyfkjv ghbñkbåtybz. Bvtyyj, ãnj cjpyfybt, rfr rfyfk, ljkåyj ñsnm ghjhsdftvj. Kçlb vjuen gkfdfnm, yj pyfxbntkmyfz xfcnm bp ybø yt gkfdftn. Nfrfz jxtdblyjcnm, rfr lfkmybt vbhs, cjdthityyj yt ghbdktrftn xtkjdtxtcndj. Gjhf ñhjcbnm ãnj pthyj d vjpu kçlcrjq. Nt åt cfvst ñtphjlyst b ytcxfcnyst vjuen kexit ghbyznm ãne vsckm. Eps ptvyst lkz ybø yt ghjxys. Øeåt dctuj ñkfujgjkexyst kçlb. Ljdjkmyj kturj vjuen djcghbyznm ãne vsckm cktgst, yj nhelytt dctuj rjcst, bñj kjåyjt crhtobdfybt njrjd dctulf ñeltn yfheifnm lfkmyjcnm ecnhtvktybz. Gjghjñeqnt geire yfhtpfnm hfpysvb cgbhfkzvb: htpekmnfn ñeltn gkjøjq. 32


Rjytxyj, crfpfyyjt jnyjcbncz lj bpdtcnyjq cntgtyb rjcjukfpbz, rjnjhjt pfnhfubdftn ythdyst wtynhs. 45. Erfåe, xnj dfåyj djdhtvz gjcskfnm ñkfubt cnhtks, gjxtve leø njulf xedcndetn jñktuxtybt. Ehsdrb xeåbø vscktq rfr cthsq hjq vznencz; gjcntgtyyj jyb pfuhfålfçn ghjcnhfycndj b zdkzçn pfhfåtybt djpleøf. Njulf cnhtkf leøf gjljñyf vjkybb. Jyf ljcnbuftn yt njkmrj kbwf yfpyfxtyyjuj, yj b jxboftn ghjcnhfycndj. Ãnj jxbotybt ghjcnhfycndf yt vtytt pyfxbntkmyj. Ñjktt xbcnfz cnhtkf, rfr ñjktt cbkmysq vfuybn, ghbdktrftn r ctñt cthst jcrjkrb b ytcän bø jñhfnyj. Nfrbv jñhfpjv, d gthdjbcnjxybr djpdhfofçncz cthst vsckb c bø nzujcnmç, yj ñtp dhtlf lkz lheubø. Ãnb cthst vsckb, rfr gthtufh, jctlfçn yf feht; b gjctzdibq åyän. Velhj gjcskfnm ckjdj ≤yt nhjym!≥. Bvtyyj, ãnf ajhvekf pfrkçxftn d ctñt yfbvtytt jñhfnysq elfh. Ãnj, bvtyyj, lhtdyzz pfuhflbntkmyfz ajhvekf. Ghfrnbxyj gjckfnm bkb ljñhsq ghbpsd, bkb juhflbntkmyeç ajhveke. Dczrfz pkjñyfz gjcskrf ytghfrnbxyf. Ghfdlf, vjåyj ljgecnbnm vtx djpveotybz leøf, yj kbim d htlrbø ckexfzø, bñj djpveotybt leøf bpyfibdftn jñjkjxre.

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46. Ybrjulf yt ujdjhbk Z j käurjcnb ghjdtltybz d åbpym yjdjuj cjpyfybz. Yt hfpheibntkb, yj pfgktcytdifz, eckjdyfz ljñhjltntkm _ dhfu. Hfpheibntkb pyfçn ytghjxyjcnm hfpheiftvjuj, b ghbywbg jnlfxb lkz ybø ktuxt. Yj hevzyfz ljñhjltntkm kçñbn ceyler cñthtåtybq b dctulf cnfytn rhfcyjhtxbdj pfobofnm tuj. Crfåen cdzotyyst ckjdf gbcfybq b yfqlen njyrbt ljrfpfntkmcndf, gjxtve jyb ujnjds jnlfnm, bvtyyj, yt ãnjve, yj lheujve, yt åbditve xtkjdtre. Eckjdyfz ljñhjltntkm zdkztn ghtdjcøjlyeç rjhscnm b kçñbn ghbdhfnm. B nfrbt hevzyst, ñkfujjñhfpyst exbntkz ljñhjltntkb, b kfcrjds, rfr vfckj; gjldbu, gjldbu xtkjdtxtcrbq ytpyfrjv exbntkzv ljñhjltntkb, b gsiyst jltåls bø yfrhføvfktys hfñcndjv! 47. D irjkfø ljkåyj ñsnm ghtgjlfdftvj edfåtybt r ghjbpyjcbvjve gjyznbç. Dtlm gjgeufb vjuen ñtccvscktyyj ecnhtvkznm d ghjcnhfycndj gjyznbz, xfcnj dtkbrjuj pyfxtybz. Yj kçlb ljkåys gjyznm, xnj rfåljt ckjdj rfr cnhtkf uhjvjyjcyfz, b ckjdj rfr gtlfkm vsckb. Enhfnf bcnbyysø pyfxtybq gjyznbq vyjuj cgjcjñcndjdfkf cjdhtvtyyjve jlbxfybç. Rfr gtcjr, csgkçn kçlb åtvxeu. Ghfdj, gjhf pfvtybnm vyjubt jghtltktybz. 34


48. Bvtyyj, ñtp cnhføf b gj djpvjåyjcnb cfvb. Ghfdbkmyj zdktybt kbxyjq jndtncndtyyjcnb. Yb xeltcf, yb wbnfns, yb vfybatcnfwbb, yj endthåltybt, crhtgkäyyjt kbxysv ghbvthjv. Lfåt jibñrf d lthpyjdtybb ktuxt bcghfdbvf, ytåtkb cjuñtyyjcnm ñjhvjnfybz. Lhfujwtyyj ltqcndbt, yt yeålfçottcz d fggfhfnfø b d gjvjoybrfø. Jnrhsdibq lhfujwtyyeç ajhveke yt vjåtn ghjrhbxfnm tä d jryj, bñj dhtl gjrhjtn cfveç kexieç gjkmpe. Bvtyyj, rfr cjcel pfrhsnsq, rfr ujhf ythfpuhfñktyyfz, rfr ker, cnhtkjç yfghzåäyysq, _ nfr cnjqnt! B xnj yfgbnjr cjcelf gkfvtyty, b xnj ujhf ytbcnjobvf, b xnj cnhtkf cvthntkmyf _ nfr ltqcndeqnt! Bñj rnj jcvtkbncz endthålfnm, xnj nhelyjcnm yt tcnm crjhtqitt ljcnbåtybt! Vjkjxyst htrb ghjrbcyen, b rbctkmyst ñthtuf lkz cbltybz yteljñys. Bnfr, d rjkmxeut kbxyjq jndtncndtyyjcnb ñeltv gjcgtifnm. Pfvtnmnt, elfxf ñskf kbim nfv, ult ñskj ghjzdktyj gjkyjt veåtcndj. Vtkrbt cjvytybz hjlzn hfñcreç ñjzpkbdjcnm. Bvtyyj, d lyb nzårjq ñjktpyb gkfytns yeåyj ghtbcgjkybnmcz veåtcndjv. Joegmç yt ghjqnb, yj vtx

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vjåtn hfcctxm dhtljyjcyst pfdtcs. Jxtym dfåysq vjvtyn, b yflj yfghzxm dcä veåtcndj. 49. Gecnm rnj-ybñelm jnlfcn ñjkmit, jy ñjkmit b gjkexbn. Yj pfñskb yfhjls, rfr jnlfnm; lfåt vfktqibq levftn, rfr gjkexbnm. Vtåle ntv gkfytnf ñjkmyf, b d ãnjq ñjktpyb njytn dcä. Rjve-nj øjxtncz bpñtåfnm gjcktlytq ñjhmñs gjchtlcndjv pfhfåtybz dctq gkfytns. Rnj-nj yflttncz egksnm yf jñkjvrfø, pfñsdfz, xnj jrtfy njåt eqlän. Kturj ghtlcnfdbnm, xnj gkfytnyjt ntkj vjåtn ñjktnm gjljñyj dczrjve lheujve jhufybpve, b leø gkfytns jndtxftn cjcnjzybç ntkf. Rfr yfpdfnm ñjktpym gkfytns? Kexit dctuj _ ujhzxrjq jnhfdktybz. Eleikbdst ufps, jn yfuhjvjåltybq ybpibø ckjäd Njyrjuj Vbhf, jnhtpfçn gkfytne jn vbhjd, vjueobø ytcnb gjvjom. Eltk Ptvkb vjåtn rjyxbnmcz ubufyncrbv dphsdjv, tckb njkmrj njkof pfdtcs yt ñeltn ghjñbnf. Xeljdboyjt ecrjhtybt pfcnfdkztn dct kbybb rjktñfnmcz. Vjåyj jåblfnm ñskj, xnj ecrjhtybt yeåyj lkz rfrjq-kbñj cnhfys, _ jyj yeåyj lkz gkfytns. 50. Dcä hfdyj, rfr djqlän Yjdsq Vbh _ d rfanfyt, d cçhnert bkb d heñføt. Tckb vs ecnfyjdbv rjcvbxyjcnm pyfxtybz jñobys, nj dct gjlhjñyjcnb 36


yt ñjktt gskbyrb gjl gjljidjq. Vjåyj ghjcnbnm kçñeç ytktgjcnm, tckb jyf yt ghjnbd Yjdjuj Vbhf. 51. Rjulf vyjuj hfp gjdnjhzç jlyj ckjdj _ ãnj pyfxbn yfgjkytybt ghjcnhfycndf. Ãnj enthzyysq hbnv, dshjlbdibqcz d ñjhvjnfybt. Ãnj, rfr ghbñjq djky, heibn crfks. Nfråt d itcndbb ljkåty ñsnm hbnv pderf. Hbnv pderf elthåbdftn njkge jn gecnjckjdbz. 52. Rfr vjåyj ghjybryenm d nfqybr leøf? Kbim ytjñsryjdtyysv. Ktutylf j cdznsø hfpñjqybrfø bvttn d jcyjdfybb leø, pfjcnhäyysq ytjñsxysv. Vtåle ntv vzurbq ñekjxybr htlrj gjkexftn rkçx r leøe, tckb njkmrj tåtlytdyfz buhf gkfvtyb yt lfcn tve cdtn cnbøbq. Ujlyeç nhfde yeåyj ñhfnm, yj vtcnj hjcnf tä yeåyj bcrfnm ñtp ghtleñtåltybz. 53. Gjzcyç, gjxtve yfpsdftv ≤fnfrf Geheib≥. Øjhjij, tckb ñs kçlb vjukb ecdjbnm njn åt ghbywbg jñotuj yfghzåtybz. Zdktybt jñotq jgfcyjcnb ljkåyj dspsdfnm nfrjt åt jñott yfghzåtybt. Gthdjt eckjdbt ecgtøf tcnm jcdjñjåltybt jn jñsxysø pfyznbq. Jñsxyst vjpujdst wtynhs ljkåys gjybryenm, xnjñ vjukf ghjzdbnmcz yjdfz rjvñbyfwbz ythdysø ntxtybq. Njn åt ghbywbg, xnj b d bpñtåf37


ybb ecnfkjcnb. B nfrjt yjdjt yfghzåtybt, tckb jyj kbityj kbxyjuj yfxfkf, yfpsdftncz fnfrjç Geheib. Xnjñs yfqnb cghznfyyeç gfkjxre, ljkåty bcrfnm boeobq, yj yt cghznfdibq. Ytlfhjv bylecs yfpsdfçn Dscitt Ceotcndj Buhjrjv. Bcnbyyj, Ptvkz cgfcftncz ptvysvb herfvb, b Cbks Ytñtcyst gjcskfçn kexieç vfyye; yj, yt cjñhfyyfz, jyf ghtdhfoftncz d hjce. Rfr åt yt hfljdfnmcz, rjulf yføjlzncz cjñbhfntkb; rjulf, vbyez yfcvtirb, ãnb bcrfntkb blen, gjvyz j Yfitv Obnt. Ybrjulf ytkmpz dspdfnm yfghzåtybt Geheib ñtp gjldbåyjcnb vsckb. Leø ljkåty cnhtvbnmcz gj jlyjve rfyfke, rfr zlhj gj dbyne cndjkf. Gjzdktybt ghbdøjlzobø jñcnjzntkmcnd yt ljkåyj gjhnbnm cgbhfkm dbynf. 54. Cdtnjneibntkb _ jcjñst ckeub nävysø cbk, rjnjhst pfybvfçncz neitybtv juytq d Njyrjv Vbht. Xtv cbkmytt yfnbcr nmvs, ntv cbkmytt bcnhtñkzçn jyb rfåleç cdtnkeç njxre. Vs yt pyftv ñjktt nävyjuj dhtvtyb d Njyrjv Vbht. Dct afkmibdst Jkbvgs gjnjyekb d cevthrfø. Yj ctqxfc yt dhtvz bvb pfybvfnmcz, ctqxfc yf jxthtlb ptvyjq gkfy. Gjkjåtybt vbhf rfr vjht d ñehç. 38


55. Ecnhtvktybt _ kflmz Fhøfnf. Ecnhtvktybt _ tlbyjhju zdktyysq. Ecnhtvktybt _ rkçx jn dctø gtoth. Ecnhtvktybt _ rhskj jhkf. Ecnhtvktybt _ kex cjkywf. Ecnhtvktybt _ rjkmxeuf cthlwf. Ecnhtvktybt _ wdtnjr kjnjcf. Ecnhtvktybt _ rybuf ñeleotuj. Ecnhtvktybt _ vbh zdktyysq. Ecnhtvktybt _ xbckj pdäpl. 56. Gjxtve yføjåltybt pyfrjd ñeleotuj gjljñyj nrfymç? D nrfwrjq hfñjnt jcyjdf _ jghtltkäyyjuj wdtnf, b uheggs ybntq hfcghtltktys gj rhfcrfv. Kturj jghtltkbnm jcyjde, kturj vjåyj yfqnb uhegge ybntq, yj hbceyjr ãnjq uheggs gjpdjkztn hfpkbxyst cjxtnfybz d pfdbcbvjcnb jn nsczxb ntreobø jñcnjzntkmcnd. Rjytxyj, dyenhtyytt jnyjitybt cfvjuj ceñütrnf ñeltn ukfdysv jñcnjzntkmcndjv. Yj tckb tuj fehf ñeltn ckbirjv rjktñfnmcz, nj ghjuyjp ñeltn jnyjcbntkmysv. Njulf ãnj ñeltn gjøjlbnm yf bpdtcnyeç buhe, ult gj ytcrjkmrbv hfpñhjcfyysv njxrfv yeåyj yfqnb jghtltkäyyeç abuehe. Ntgthm, ult åt kexibq athvtyn, crhtgkzçobq rjktñfybt fehs? Kexibq athvtyn tcnm ecnhtvktybt. Ntkj ecnhtvkäyyjt ytkmpz erjkjnm bkb hfpñbnm. Ecnhtvktybt d ldbåtybb ljcnbuftn pfrjyyjcnb, b, 39


cnfyjdzcm pfrjyjv, jyj ltkftncz ytjcnfyfdkbdftvsv, bñj døjlbn d hbnv Rjcvjcf. Nfr blbnt d vfkjv b dtkbrjv, b nrfym dfif ñeltn ytgjdnjhtyyjq, rhbcnfkmyj rjcvbxyjq, rjhjxt ujdjhz _ ghtrhfcyjq. Ybxnj lheujt, rhjvt ecnhtvktybz, yt lfän jljktybz cnbøbq, bñj jcyjdyjt rfxtcndj cnbøbq _ ecnhtvktybt. B d ãnjv cjcnjzybb ds rjjhlbybhetnt cnbøbb c dscibv ndjhxtcndjv leøf, bkb zdkztntcm lthåfntktv vjkybb. Ghblän xtkjdtr _ lthåfntkm vjkybb. Gjdthmnt, njkmrj ecnhtvktybtv gjñtlbnt. 57. Bvtyyj, yfñfn hfpdt yt cksity d rfåljv ldbåtybb gkfytns? Hfpdt yt hfplfäncz nhtdjuf d rfåljv ldbåtybb ceotuj? Hfpdt yt pdexbn djpveotybt d rfåljv ldbåtybb chfdytyysø c ptvkäç leøjd? Hfpdt ñskb kexibt dhtvtyf? Kexit, tckb yfhsd ghjhdäncz b vjåyj pfcsgfnm lshe. Yj uyjq yeåyj dspdfnm yfheåe; gjnjve Vs yt ghbybvftv gjkevth. Vs jåblftv ibhjrbø ltqcndbq, b dj dhtvz yfñfnf ytkmpz levfnm j recrt ghzåb. 58. Eåt pyftnt gjktpyjcnm ghtgzncndbq; eåt pyftnt gjktpyjcnm ytghbznyjcntq. Vjåtn ñsnm, lfåt gjktp40


yjcnm eåfcjd. Rjytxyj, lkz Yfc b lkz dfc ytn eåfcjd d jñsryjdtyyjv cvsckt. Yfjñjhjn, eåfc ñtp cnhføf jñhfoftncz d ltqcndj rjcvbxtcrjq rhfcjns. Vjåyj kb levfnm j rhfcjnt ñtp frrjhlf djcøbotybz? Ntgthm Vs rhbxbv, Vs gjcskftv pyfrb ñjz, yj gjdthø dctuj djcøbotybt gthtl dtkbrbvb htitybzvb. Veåtcndj jnrhsdftn dct ldthb. ≤Ytkmpz≥ _ vs ghjbpyjcbv cfvb, vtåle ntv dcä ceott rhbxbn _ ≤Vjåyj!≥ Rfålfz ãgjøf bvttn cdjä ckjdj. Ãnj ckjdj rfr rkçx r pfgjhfv. Lhtdybt Extybz gjcnjzyyj ujdjhbkb j vjueotcndtyyjv ckjdt, rjnjhjt pfrkçxftncz d njxyjq b rhfnrjq ajhvekt. Ytbpvtyyj, rfr rhbcnfkk bpdtcnyjuj cjcnfdf; ytkmpz gthtcnfdbnm ckjdf ãnbø ajhvek; ytkmpz elkbybnm bkb erjhjnbnm. Hexfntkmcndj Rjcvjcf d jnkbdrt ãnbø pyfrjd. Cfvf fñcjkçnyfz nmvf rjktñktncz gthtl rkbyrjv Vbhjdjuj Ghbrfpf, b kexfv b ufpfv ktuxt gjhfåfnm nmve nfv, ult elfhbk Vtx vbhf. Yt cjuñtyyj ghbybvftv ghbrfp Rjcvjcf, yj ñeqyj! Gjnjve yfcnfän dhtvz, rjulf Cdtn-cbkf cåbuftn nmve. Ytvbyetvj ghbikj dhtvz, b xfc yt vjåtn dthyenmcz jñhfnyj.

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Vjåyj ghjcktlbnm pf nfqysvb ckjdfvb dctø ãgjø, b vjåyj dbltnm cgbhfkm ghjñjlfçotuj cdtnf. Ktubjy xthdtq yt bpvtyztn jcnhbz cgbhfkb, b ghtuhfls kbim yfghzufçn kex cdtnf. Pfrjy jnhfåtybz cjplfän yjdst cbks. B ult ujdjhzobq ghjvjkxbn, nfv ytvjq crfåtn. 59. Zcysq, rhfnrbq ghbrfp nhelty, yj pfnj jy cbkmytt vfubxtcrjuj åtpkf. Endthåltybt ktuxt, yj ghbrfp _ rfr ytålfyysq cnjkñ gkfvtyb bp dekrfyf. Cjchtljnjxtyyjt xedcndj kbxyjq jndtncndtyyjcnb ktåbn d ghbrfpt. Erfpfybt ytbcxthgfyyjcnb cbks pdexbn d ghbrfpt. Ecnhtvkäyyjcnm Rjcvjcf zdktyf d zhjcnb ghbrfpf, rfr djkyf cjrheifçofz. Enhbnt ckäps ñkfujcnb, Yfv yeåys bcrhs djpveotybz leøf! Rfreç gkjnbye ltkfçn cjåfktybz, yj rhskmz hfcnen yf rjywt vtxf! Gtcrb vjuen eñbdfnm, yj lkz Yfc nexf gtcrf _ rjdäh-cfvjkän. 60. Vyjujt vjåyj ghjcnbnm ntv, rnj b dj nmvt cjøhfybk gjyznbt Exbntkz. Exbntkm gjlybvftn ljcnjbycndj leøf. E Yfc gjyznbt Exbntkz gjljñyj kfvgflt dj nmvt. Gjnjve Exbntkm vjåtn ñsnm yfpdfy vfzrjv jndtncndtyyjcnb. Eps Extybz gjljñys dthädrt cgfcf-

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ntkmyjq d ujhfø. Exbntkm zdkztncz c vjvtynf pfååtybz leøf. C ntø gjh Exbntkm ythfphsdty c extybrjv. Yt dblbv rjywf wtgb Exbntktq, b cjpyfybt, yfgjkytyyjt Exbntktv, djpdsiftn ljcnbåtybt extybrf, rfr lhfujwtyysq, dctghjybrfçobq fhjvfn. Cdzpm extybrf c Exbntktv jñhfpetn pdtyj pfobns cjtlbybntkmyjq wtgb. D ãnjq pfobnt ghjwdtnfçn gecnsyb. 61. Herf Vjz gjikän htitybt chtlb enäcjd vbhf. Cxbnfqnt ljofneç rhsie ndähåt åtktpf. Cxbnfqnt ehjxyeç vbyene lkbyytt xfcf. Genm elkbyäyysq rjhjxt ghzvjq ghjgfcnb. Cghócbnt: ≤Pfxtv pfuflrb, pfxtv ãpjnthbpv?≥ Rkeñjr cjñsnbq gjkjy hfpyjwdtnysvb ybnzvb. Rfålsq rjdi bp rjkjlwf byjuj wdtnf. Chtlb cjñsnbq vyjuj gjcgtifçobø; ãnb lfkärbt lhepmz, yt cdzpfyyst gj dytiyjcnb, yfgjkyzçn yfie rjhpbye, b rjytxysq cdtn njhåtcndetn. 62. Vjåyj hfljdfnmcz, rjulf vsckb dyeiftvst chfcnfçncz c vsiktybtv cjñcndtyysv; bñj ghb rjjgthfwbb ytn uhfybw hfpltktybz nhelf, yj bvtçncz kbim cktlcndbz. Ytdjpvjåyj hfcxktybnm aeyrwbb Rjcvjcf, rjulf ltqcndbz ntren rfr htrf. Rfrjt pyfxtybt bvttn gjcnhjtybt djky, ytceobø gjktpysq ghtlvtn, _ dfåyj, xnjñ ghtlvtn yt gjubñ! 43


63. Ukfdyjt ytgjybvfybt ñeltn d njv, xnj nhel tcnm jnlsø. Jnvtybnm ghbläncz vyjubt hfpdktxtybz. Ukfdyjt, yflj gjyznm, xnj ghjbpdtltybz yferb, bcreccndf tcnm jñhfpjdfybt, yj yt hfpdktxtybt. Hzl hfpdktxtybq ljkåty ñsnm eybxnjåty, rfr hfccflybr gjikjcnb. Ahjyn jñhfpjdfybz ljkåty jxbcnbnm ghbnjys lehfrjd, cblzobø pf rheårjq gbdf. Nfråt zdktybt heufntkmcndf ljkåyj yfqnb ñjktt cnhjujt yfrfpfybt. Nfråt zdktybt eprjuj cgtwbfkbpvf ljkåyj ñsnm gjhbwftvj. 64. Yeåyj crfpfnm j ytjñøjlbvjcnb cjbpvthbvjcnb. Cxbnfç yeåysv hfpkbxfnm dtob gjdnjhztvst jn dtotq ytgjdnjhztvsø. Vjåyj jnkjåbnm dtom jñbøjlf, yj pjds chjrjd yeåyj kjdbnm ñtpjnkfufntkmyj. Vjåyj endthålfnm, xnj vjvtyn rjcvbxtcrjq djpvjåyjcnb ytdjpvtoftv. Tcnm reifymz, rjnjhst vjåyj gthtdfhbnm kbim d bpdtcnyjv gjhzlrt. B kjdtw yt øjlbn yf jøjne jn ñtpltkmz, yj yføjlbn kexibq xfc, b ybxnj yt jcnfyjdbn kjdwf. Vjåyj yfqnb Vjq Rfvtym d gecnsyt, yj cyjdf Rfvtym yt edbltnm, tckb yt gjlyznm tuj ytvtlktyyj. Pyfçobt Vtyz gjybvfçn pyfxtybt ytvtlktyyjcnb, yj yjdst ljkåys pfgjvybnm ãnjn pfrjy, tckb øjnzn 44


ghbñkbpbnmcz. Bcnbyyj ujdjhç _ rjhjnrj dhtvz! Pfñjnkbdj ujdjhç _ yt egecnbnt xfcf, bñj ybnb rkeñrf hfpyjwdtnys. Yt d ghbznyjcnb jnlsøf, yj dj vhfrt ñehb gjktpty Vjq Ujkjc _ evtqnt cksifnm! Pyfç kçltq, rjnjhst egecnbkb pjd bp-pf gjøkäñrb. Yj Vjz cnhtkf ghjktnftn d xfc yeåls. Vjz Herf ujnjdf gjlyznm pfdtce cjpyfybz, gjnjve yeåyf cjbpvthbvjcnm vfkjuj b ñjkmijuj, gjdnjhztvjuj b ytgjdnjhztvjuj. Yfghzubntcm gjyznm, ult jyj ñjkmijt! Ujdjhç _ dhtvz rjhjnrj! 65. Eckjdbt Yfit lkz cjnhelybrjd _ gjkyjt åtkfybt ghbkjåbnm r åbpyb Yfib jcyjds, yt ntjhbz, yj ghfrnbrf. Exbntkm ytcän gkfvz yteufcbvjuj gjldbuf. Extybt yt ghthsdftncz yb ecnfkjcnmç, yb jujhxtybzvb. Cthlwt Exbntkz åbdän gjldbujv. E Ytuj ytn cnhføf, b ckjdf ñjçcm ytn d Tuj ckjdfht. 66. Ãdjkçwbz vbhf crkflsdftncz bp htdjkçwbq, bkb dphsdjd vfnthbb. Rfålfz ãdjkçwbz bvttn gjcnegfntkmyjt ldbåtybt ddthø. Rfålsq dphsd d rjycnherwbb cdjtq ltqcndetn cgbhfkmyj. Gjnjve rfålfz htdjkçwbz d cdjtq ghbhjlt gjldthåtyf pfrjyfv cgbhfkb.

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Ptvyjt cnhjtybt gjljñyj gbhfvblt. Ntgthm gjghjñeqnt bp rfåljq njxrb gjcnegfntkmyjq cgbhfkb jgecnbnm xtnsht uhfyb gbhfvbls. Gjkexbnt rfr ñs xtnsht zrjhz, jgeotyysø d ybpibt ckjb vfnthbb. Nfrjt cnhjbntkmcndj ñeltn ghbphfxysv, bñj ñeltn gjcnhjtyj yf ckjzø jnåbdibø. Ntgthm gjghjñetv bp rfåljq njxrb ddthø gjcnhjbnm hjvñ, b gjkexbv ntkj pfdjtdfybq dthøybø ckjäd, jgthtlbditt ldbåtybt cgbhfkb. Ãnj ñeltn ljcnjqyjt cnhjbntkmcndj! Rjytxyj, jyj ljkåyj yfxfnmcz d ytbpdtcnyjcnm, hfcibhzzcm yfhzle c hjcnjv cjpyfybz. Gjnjve cnhjbntkmcndj d htdjkçwbb zdkztncz cfvsv jgfcysv vjvtynjv. Vyjåtcndj ytcjdthityysø ãktvtynjd ñelen yfuytnfnm gjcnhjtybz dybp, d ckjb dtotcndf jnhfñjnfdituj b jnhfdktyyjuj. Njkmrj ñtpevcndj veåtcndf vjåtn jñhfnbnm gjcnhjtybt ddthø, d ckjb ytbcgsnfyyst b ghtrhfcyst cjlthåfybtv yjdsø ãktvtynjd. Gjnjve ujdjhç b ñele ujdjhbnm, xnjñ d gjcnhjtybb bpñtåfnm dtnøbø ajhv. Jgecrfybt d cnfhst dvtcnbkbof ytljgecnbvj. Yeåyj gjybvfybt Yjdjuj Vbhf dj dctq cehjdjcnb. 67. Xnj nhtñetncz d Yfitq Jñobyt? Ghtålt dctuj, cjbpvthbvjcnm b cghfdtlkbdjcnm. Rjytxyj, dnjhjt 46


dctwtkj dsntrftn bp gthdjuj. Rjytxyj, yeåyj pfñsnm j ljñhjnt, bñj ljñhjnf yt tcnm ñkfuj. Ljñhjnf tcnm cehhjufn cghfdtlkbdjcnb. Leøjdyfz åbpym cjbpvthztncz cjbpvthbvjcnmç. Xtkjdtr, yt jnkbxfçobq vfkjt jn ñjkmijuj, ybxnjåyjt jn dtkbrjuj, yt vjåtn ñsnm leøjdyj hfpdbnsv. Ujdjhzn j Yfitq ndähljcnb, yj jyf kbim cktlcndbt Yfvb hfpdbnjq cjbpvthbvjcnb. 68. Gjqvbnt, rfr yfpsdftncz csy cnhføf b cjvytybz, _ cjåfktybt tuj bvz. Bvtyyj, cjåfktybt j dcnegktybb yf Dtkbrjt Ckeåtybt chtpftn dct cktlcndbz ñsdibø nheljd. Cjvytdfçobqcz ghbdzpsdftn rfvtym r yjut. Ñjzobqcz cgbhftn lsøfybt. Yj gjåfktdibq j cdjtq hfñjnt yf Dtkbrjt Ckeåtybt rjyxftn djpvjåyjcnb ghbñkbåtybz. Rfr åt yt jnkbxbnm veåtcndj, rjnjhjt dtlän r ljcnbåtybç? Rfr åt yt pfgjvybnm here, pflthåfdieç rbyåfk dhfuf? Rfr åt yt jgjzcfnm cbke jnlfdieç yf hjcn vbhf? Gjqvbnt _ ñele ndthlbnm ñtp rjywf, gjrf vjcn hfleub yt djgkjnbn dct wdtnf. Rtlhs øhfyzn wtktñyeç cvjke, yj eksñfçncz, rjulf cjr xeltcysq blän yf cvfpre jñedb. Nfr ñeltv øhfybnm ukfdyst genb, ghbvtyzz gjlhjñyjcnb r gjktpyjcnb. 47


69. Hsr b pdthbysq dbpu yfgjkyzçn Ptvkç. Hsr pdthbysq pfvtybk gtcyç kçlcreç. Yj rfr ghtrhfcys juyb gjldbuf! 70. Herb Vjb yt pyfçn gjrjz. Ujkjdf Vjz gjllthåbdftn nzåtcnm ltk. Hfcceljr Vjq bpscrbdftn ndähljcnm htitybq. Vjom jgsnf hfpñbdftn xeåeç ytvjom. Yf ghtltkt eothñf yfgjkyzç djpvjåyjcnb yjdst. Yf xthnt jncnegktybz cnhjç ndthlsyb. Yf ukfpfø dhfuf hfpdtdfç pyfvz. Yfpsdfç ltym enjvktybz lyäv jnlsøf. Ljgecrfç zdktybt ytgjybvfybz rfr cjh yf gjhjut. Cjrhjdtyyjt vjue cjrhsnm d crkflrfø hfñjxtq jltåls. Xelj lkz Vtyz kbim cktl gjlrjds. Veåtcndj lkz Vtyz kbim ker d rjkxfyt. Htibvjcnm lkz Vtyz kbim øktñ jñtltyysq. 71. Ghtålt dctuj pfñelmnt dct yfhjlyjcnb b gjqvbnt, xnj cjpyfybt hfpdbdftncz cjdthitycndjdfybtv wtynhjd ytdblbvsø. Rnj-nj ålän Vtccbç lkz jlyjuj yfhjlf, _ ãnj ytdtåtcndtyyj, bñj ãdjkçwbz gkfytns bvttn kbim gkfytnfhysq hfpvth. Bvtyyj, zdktybt dctvbhyjcnb ljkåyj ñsnm ecdjtyj. Rhjdm tlbyf ntxän, b dytiybq vbh yt ñeltn ñjkmit hfpltkztv hfcfvb gthdbxys�� ajhvfwbq.

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72. Jñobyf_Cjnhelybxtcndj vjåtn ytcksøfyyj ecrjhbnm ãdjkçwbç gkfytns b lfnm yjdst djpvjåyjcnb cjjñotybz c cbkfvb vfnthbb. Yt yflj levfnm, xnj jñobyf b pfdjtdfybt vfnthbb yføjlzncz d hfpysø gkjcrjcnzø. Jlyj heckj, jlyj pyfvz _ Vfqnhtz, Vfnthm, Vfnthbz! Herf, ybnb hfpñbhfçofz, zdkztn genm r Yfitq Jñobyt. Rjytxyj, yt ñeltv ujdjhbnm j njxyjv dhtvtyb djpybryjdtybz Yfituj vtcnf. Rfnfrkbpvs ckjåbkb elfxyst eckjdbz, b ghb Yfibø pyfybzø vjåyj jøhfybnm Wtynh jn ytghjitysø ujcntq. Zdktybt zhrbø dhfujd gjpdjkbkj Yfv pfndjhbnm døjls toä gkjnytt b jñexbnm cjctltq øjhjitve vjkxfybç. Yfheibnm b ghtlfnm _ pyfxbn ñsnm eybxnjåtyysv. 73. Ceotcndj Yjdjuj Vbhf cjlthåbn gecnjne, rjnjhfz yfpsdftncz ≤eptk ytgjldbåyjcnb≥; nfv cjñbhfçncz jnkjåtybz zdktybq ytgjybvfybz pflfx ãdjkçwbb. Tckb vjpu rjcyäncz ãnbø gentq lj zdktybz ytgjybvfybz leøf, nj ljcneg Yfibø gjcskjr gjxnb nthztncz. Yteåtkb kçlb pfñelen ndjhxtcndj, yfghfdktyyjt yf erhfitybt åbpyb? 74. Yeåyj ghjcktlbnm ytjnkjåyjt. Yeåyj øhfybnm kbxysq ãynepbfpv. Yeåyj rfåljve blnb ytpfdb49


cbvj _ ytn kfljyb yf gktxt, ytn gthcnf yf ueñfø. Ujht pflthåfditve cnhfåe. Ujht yfcsgfditve hbc yf obn. Ujht yjczotve djle d iktvt. Cfvjt ujht _ cthjve cnhføe. Gjbcnbyt, ctnm vbhf pfrbyenf. Yt vjuen gjlyznm tä ñtp ekjdf. Gjbcnbyt, yt pfñeltncz yb vfkj-vfktqitt. Pfgkfxtyj pf pthyj. Yt ljgeotyj yfcbkbt. Gecnm rfålsq blän, yj åfktç ytljøjlzobø. Rfr nävty jñhfnysq genm! Rfr yt pyfç ujhituj, ytåtkb gthtcnegbnm genm cjctlybq. Crfåbnt rfåljve: ≤Blb cfv lj erfpf Exbntkz≥. Hfljdfnmcz yeåyj ibgtybç vjhz. Zdbnt gjybvfybt dtkbrjuj dhtvtyb. Xfie gjlsvbnt. Z pjde dfc. 75. Bcnbyyj, vjåyj ålfnm, rfr bcgjkyzncz dct ghjhjxtcndf. Yt dbåe, rjulf bpvtyzncz chjrb. Levfqnt yfl jñjkjxrjq cjñsnbq b gjybvfqnt, rfr yt dfåyf dytiyjcnm; njkmrj dyenhtyytt pyfxtybt jndtxftn. Gjctd gjrjktybq yfxbyftn djcøjlbnm; yfxbyftn gjlybvfnmcz pthyj. 76. Yeåyj pyfnm jlby ghbäv Ñbnds, yfpsdftvsq cdthåtybtv crfk. Rjulf Ñbndf ljcnbuftn bpdtcnyjuj yfghzåtybz, nj Djålm jnhsdftn xfcnb fehs b rblftn yf gjkxbof dhfujd. Rjytxyj, fehs djbyjd nfråt cbkmyj jnhsdfçncz, b gjnjve d ãnj dhtvz yt cbkmyf 50


pfobnyfz ctnm, yj pfnj dhfub gjhfåftvs jcjñtyyj cbkmyj. Nrfym fehs ååän cbkmytt vjkybb. Yfpsdftv ãnjn ghbäv uthjbxtcrbv. Yt yeåyj levfnm, xnj tltv d vzurjv gjtplt, _ bläv gj ljcrt yfl ghjgfcnmç. Rkjxmz fehs gjljñys ghjcnhtktyysv rhskmzv jhkf. Yeåyj gjvybnm, xnj bläv yf cntys ñtp ghbrhsnbz. Rfåljt hfpñbnjt cntrkj uhtvbn yt chfpe, yj rjulf ljcnbuytn ybpibø eotkbq, njulf jcrjkrb crhtåtoen. Jcnfkmyjt gjqvbnt cfvb. Cfvst ñjkmibt Cbks d Ñjç pf cgfctybt xtkjdtxtcndf. 77. Zdktybt yeåyj gjybvfnm rfr jxtdblyjt yt ukfpe, yj cjpyfybç. D ãnjv hfpybwf dfituj b Yfituj gjybvfybz. Ds yfpsdftnt afrnjv cktlcndbt tuj, yj Vs vjåtv jnkbxfnm bcnbyysq afrn, ytphbvsq dfv. Cktgjq celbn j vjkybb gj uhjve, yj phzxbq eåt uhjvf yt jgfcftncz. Nfr yeåyj exbnmcz jnkbxfnm bcnbyyst afrns jn bø cktlcndbq. Rjulf Vs ujdjhbv j ceåläyyjv cjñsnbb, Vs dblbv tuj bcnbyyjt yfxfkj; yj rnj ñeltn celbnm kbim gj dblbvsv cktlcndbzv, njn ñeltn pfgfplsdfnm d ceåltybb. Rjulf Vs ujdjhbv: ≤Blbnt ghjnbd jxtdblyjcnb≥, Vs øjnbv crfpfnm _ yt gjlgflfqnt bkkçpbb ghjitlibø cjñsnbq. Yflj xänrj jnkbxfnm 51


ghjikjt jn ñeleotuj. Bvtyyj, ãnbv ñtphfpkbxbtv cnhflftn xtkjdtxtcndj, dhfofzcm d bkkçpbzø cktlcndbq. Ndjhxtcrfz bcrhf pfrkçxtyf d zdktybb cjñsnbz, yj yt d cktlcndbb. Pfyznjt cktlcndbzvb, xtkjdtxtcndj gjljñyj cktgjve, joeofçotve kbim uhjv. Vjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm hfpybwe vtåle celzobvb gj cjñsnbzv b gj cktlcndbzv. Crfåbnt dfibv lhepmzv, xnjñ yfexbkbcm yfñkçlfnm ceott gj djpybryjdtybç cjñsnbq. Byfxt jcnfyencz xbnfntkzvb ufptns, cjcnfdktyyjq gkenjv. Yfghzufqnt cjpyfybt ekjdbnm djpybryjdtybt cjñsnbq, tckb øjnbnt ghbjñobnmcz r ãdjkçwbb vbhf. Vjåyj yfpdfnm ñtp xbckf ghbvths åfkrbø, ghtcnegysø b nhfubxtcrbø ytgjybvfybq, jn rjnjhsø cvtibdfkbcm chjrb. Leñ hfcnän bp åäkelz gjl ptvkäç, yj ukegtw pfvtxftn tuj, kbim rjulf cgjnryäncz j ytuj. Vyjuj cgjnsrfybq gznyfçn ptvyeç rjhe. Ljdjkmyj jibñjr b ytgjybvfybq d xfc vbhjdjuj yfghzåtybz! Yeåyj gjyznm, rfr ñthtåyj yflj hfcøjljdfnm ãythubç. Yflj gjyznm, rfr njkmrj yeåyst ldthb ghbdtlen d gjrjq Jñotuj Ñkfuf.

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78. D rfåljq rybut ljkåyf ñsnm ukfdf j hfplhfåtybb. Ytjñøjlbvj dsdtcnb ãnjuj pdthz bp ljve. Cehjdjcnm ghbdtncndeç, nfråt htibvjcnm. Erfpsdfç, rfr bpuyfnm yfcvtikbdst ienrb. Yeåyj gjvjxm rfåljve dsqnb bp pfnhelytybz. Yeåyj jcnfyjdbnm rfålsq hjcnjr gjikjcnb. Yeåyj lfnm rfåljve cdjä ckjdj crfpfnm b yfqnb nthgtybt. Gecneç vjkde jñhtpfnm b yfqnb ltcznm ckjd ghjnbd rfåljuj ckjdf, gjyjczotuj Exbntkz. Bvtyyj yt ghjvjkxfnm yf cnhtke ghjnbd Exbntkz. Vfnthm b Exbntkm _ ãnb jñf gjyznbz ljkåys ñsnm juhfåltys rfåljç rybujç. Cdtn dtkbxbz yt gjneibv. 79. Ghb rjcvbxtcrbø gjcnhjtybzø ckeåtybt jñzpsdftn bpvtybnm cjpyfybt. Jibñrb vjuen ñsnm. Cfvfz ñjkmifz jibñrf vjåtn ñsnm jghfdlfyf, tckb bcnjxybr tä xbcn; yj bpvthbnm ãne xbcnjne vjåyj kbim ghjcdtoäyysv cjpyfybtv. Hfljcnm Ckeåtybç vjåtn ghjzdbnmcz kbim ghb hfcibhtyyjv cjpyfybb. Yflj gjvybnm, xnj rfåljt nhäøktnbt ghtlcnfdkztn cnegtym cjpyfybz; nfr åt rfr rfåljt ctvbktnbt zdkztncz jñyjdktybtv wtynhjd. Ecgtqnt gjyznm, xnj chjrb cjpyfybz ytgjdnjhztvs b gjnjve yt ghjgecnbvs.

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Cghfdtlkbdj cghjcbnm xtkjdtrf, pflevfdituj dcnegbnm yf genm Dtkbrjuj Ckeåtybz, _ xtv levftn jy gjcnegbnmcz? Bkb jy yflttncz kbim gjkexbnm jceotcndktybt cdjbø cfvsø ckflrbø vtxnfybq? Bkb eljñyj tve pf rhegbwe dths ghbcdjbnm ptvyjt ñjufncndj b pfyznm ytcdjqcndtyyjt tuj cjpyfybç gjkjåtybt? Ytkmpz gthtxbckbnm cgjcjñs hfcibhtybz cjpyfybz, yj dj dcäv ktåbn cjpyfybt ghfdls b cfvjjndthåtyyjcnb. 80. Yflj gjybvfnm zcyjcnm vsiktybz b ghbkjåbnm tuj r ñeleotve _ nfr vjåyj bpñtåfnm ithifdjcnb jñhfpf ltqcndbq. Yeåyj blnb ytgjøjåt yf lheubø. Wtyyf rfålfz rhegbwf htibvjcnb. Øjxe yfgbnfnm dfc lthpyjdtybtv. Kexit gecnm cxbnfçn ytjñsxysvb, ytåtkb yfhzlbnmcz d veylbh gjikjcnb. Yeåyj xbnfnm Vjb Extybz. Yeåyj cnhtvbnmcz ghbkjåbnm bø r rfåljve ghjzdktybç åbpyb, yt gj ghfplybrfv njkmrj. Crfåbnt ctñt _ vjåyj kb ecnhtvkznmcz gj enhfv b gjgeufqybxfnm gj dtxthfv? 81. Velhj ghjdtcnb xthne vtåle ghjiksv b ñeleobv. Ytdjpvjåyj gthtxbckznm dcä cltkfyyjt _ ytcjbpvthbvj. Kexit crfpfnm: ≤Ltym dxthfiybq gjufc; yfexbvcz dcnhtnbnm pfhç yjdeç≥. Vs dct hfcnäv, 54


b ltkf yfib hfcibhzçncz c yfvb. Gjckt ldflwfnb ctvb ktn ybrnj yt çy; b vs vjåtv gjybvfnm gjldbu Ckeåtybz. Yt ujlyj rjgfnmcz d gskb dxthfiytuj lyz. Gjcnfyjdkztv jnysyt cnegtym yjdeç. Yfxyäv hfñjnfnm, jrheåbd ctñz nsczxmç ukfp. Ecdjbv xbcnjne vsckb b cjbpvthbvjcnm ltqcndbq. Nfr yfgjkybv lyb yfib; ghbdsrytv r gjldbåyjcnb b htibvjcnb. Nfråt yt pfñeltv, xnj ytn yf Ptvkt dsit lfyyjuj Gkfyf Jñotuj Ñkfuf. Zdbv gjybvfybt Extybq åbpyb. Rfr Vjbctq ghbyjcbk ljcnjbycndj xtkjdtxtcrjt, rfr Ñellf ecnhtvkzk r hfcibhtybç cjpyfybz, rfr Øhbcnjc exbk gjktpyjcnb jnlfxb, b rfr Yjdsq Vbh ecnhtvkäy r vbhfv lfkmybv! Gjlevfqnt, rfrbt cjgjcnfdktybz yfc jrheåfçn! Gjlevfqnt j rfvyt jcyjdfybz. Gjlevfqnt j lfyyjv genb. Gjlevfqnt, rfr uhfybws Rjcvjcf c dfvb cjghbrfcfçncz. Ghbgjvybnt ifub xeltcysø yfghzåtybq yt d rybut, yj d åbpyb. Gjlevfqnt, crjkmrj yt ñskj gjlyznj b yt dvtotyj, b dcänfrb vs cnjbv yf vtcnt. Gjnjve yt jnxfbdfqntcm jibñrfvb, yj djcøjlbnt Bthfhøbtq Extybz. 82. D ltym yfxfkf yjdjq cnegtyb crfåtv ñtp erjhbpys j dtkbrjv dhtvtyb, rjulf yfexftvcz jnhsdfnmcz jn Ptvkb b d ntkt eåt ghbjñofnmcz r vbhfv dscibv. 55


Ybrnj ybxtuj yt kbiäy _ ghblb, ghjnzyb here r nhfgtpt leøf. Endthlb leø jn vfnthbb b pfgjvyb, rfr nhtgtotn cthlwt gthtl cbzybtv ujh. Vjä Ckjdj endthlbnm dfc ljkåyj d rhfcjnt gjldbuf. Gthtl genäv jcnfdbv erfps ltqcndbq, cyjdf cjñthäv cjpyfybt gjdthø ndthlb. Ghtrhfcyj eåt bvtnm njyrjt ntkj, rjulf leø eåt yt cvenbncz gthtl gjkänfvb lfkmybvb. Gjnjve ñeltv hfljdfnmcz rfåljve ldbåtybç gj rjht Ptvkb _ d ybø rfr ñs ktnfnm exbvcz. Ktnfnm _ rfrjt ghtrhfcyjt ckjdj! D yäv eåt pflfnjr yfituj yfpyfxtybz. Rjulf nzårj, vsckbnt j gjkänfø; gecnm rfålsq vsckbn j rhskmzø. Ikç cvtksv dct njrb ghjcnhfycndf! 83. Bcnbyyj, yflj bvtnm ltcznjr gthtekrjd yf jlby gjåfh. Ecbktyyj ltqcndbt, rjulf pf ybv ltcznjr htitybq. Lkz ytjgsnysø yeåty gjåfh gjpflb, yj pdfyst vjuen bvtnm dct døjls jnrhsnsvb. Yeåyj evtnm gjybvfnm, rfr uyäncz rkbyjr dhfuf. Evtnm eksñfnmcz, rjulf rjycrbq njgjn dhfuf cksity. Evtnm gjyznm, rjulf cnhtkf ktnbn dsit ujkjds, xnjñ yt yfrkjybnmcz.

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84. Nhelyj dvtcnbnm ñjkmijt, yj toä nhelytt dvtcnbnm vfkjt ghb hfcibhtyyjv cjpyfybb. Nhelyj ghbkjåbnm vfkeç ltqcndbntkmyjcnm r jñüäve dtkbrjuj gjybvfybz. Rfr dkjåbnm dtkbrbq vtx d vfkst yjåys? Njkmrj bcgsnfyyjt cjpyfybt gjybvftn wtyyjcnm pthyf ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Wfhcndj yt d rjhjyfø b yt d njkgfø, yj d rjcvjcj-ghjcnhfycndtyyjcnb bltq. Nfr Extybz åbpyb ljgjkyzçn lheu lheuf, yt yeålfzcm d ghbdktxtybb vyjåtcnd. Crfpfk dfv, xnj lfv nhtnmç rybue, rjulf ñeltn ghbyznf jñobyf. Yj Yfv yt yeåys vyjåtcndf, yj kbim cjpyfybt ntø, rnj Yfv yeåty; gjnjve lfäv nhtnmç rybue. Gjnjve ndthlbv toä j afrnfø Bcnbys, b gjnjve Vs ghtlgjxbnftv yfgencndjdfnm yfhjåltybt b yt ghbybvftv yf Ctñz gjøjhjyysø ghjwtccbq. Jlybv yeåyj nheñbnm d eib Extybt, lheubv vjåyj kbim hfccnfdbnm dtøb, nhtnmbv kbim lfnm jlyjckjåyst yfvärb, tckb cjpyfybt bø vjåtn dvtcnbnm lfåt vfkjt. Rfr åt Extybt ghbdtncndetn ntø, rnj vjåtn dvtcnbnm rfåleç rhjøe, jwtybdfz vbhjdjt pyfxtybt rfåljq! Rfåljt hfcgfltybt ãjyjd gthtvtoftn wtkst vbhs, ntv cfvsv vsckb dfib ghbpsdfçncz r ñthtåkbdjcnb vsckzotq ãythubb. 57


85. Rfålsq jhufybpv ldbåtncz jcjñjq ãythubtq, yj yeåyj ecnfyjdbnm njxyjt yfghfdktybt jcyjdyjuj ecnhtvktybz. Jlyfåls extybrb cghjcbkb Ñkfujckjdtyyjuj: ≤Rfr gjyznm bcgjkytybt pfgjdtlb jnrfpf jn cjñcndtyyjcnb?≥ Jlby extybr gjrbyek dct dtob, yj Exbntkm ghjljkåfk eghtrfnm tuj d cjñcndtyyjcnb. Lheujq jcnfdfkcz d jrheåtybb dtotq, yj yt pfckeåbk eghärf. ≤Xedcndj cjñcndtyyjcnb bpvthztncz yt dtofvb, yj vsckzvb. Nfr jñobyf ljkåyf ñsnm ghbyznf cjpyfybtv. Vjåyj bvtnm dtob b yt ñsnm cjñcndtyybrjv. Exbntkm gjcskftn gjåtkfybt, xnjñ ãdjkçwbz yfhfcnfkf pfrjyyj. Exbntkm evttn hfpkbxbnm jcdjñjlbdibø cjpyfybt≥. Nfr crfpfk Ñkfujckjdtyysq b ghjcbk djjñot yt levfnm j cjñcndtyyjcnb, bñj jnhtxtybt tcnm jvsnbt vsckb. Bñj kbim gj jvsnsv rfyfkfv vjåtn ghjñbnmcz jcyjdyjt ecnhtvktybt. 86. Yfgjvyç crfpre, cksifyyeç Frñfhjv. Gjdtkbntkm cghjcbk velhtwf: ≤Rfr edbltnm uytplj bpvtys b jgkjn dthyjcnb?≥ Velhtw gjrfpfk yf njkge hfpjltnsø dcflybrjd b crfpfk: ≤Uytplj bpvtys≥. Gjckt erfpfk yf jlbyjrjuj genybrf b crfpfk: ≤Jgkjn 58


dthyjcnb, bñj jlbyjxtcnde ybxnj yt bpvtybn≥. B c njuj lyz gjdtkbntkm jrheåbkcz dthyjcnmç. Exbntkm ghbyzk dcç vthe dthyjcnb. Herf Vjz hert genybrf _ jujym dj nmvt. E Obnf Vjtuj nbibyf ujh. Pyfç, pyfç, rfr Vjtq jñobyt ntcyj. Ezdktybt jcyjd cnhjbntkmcndf ezdkztncz d nbibyt. Gjybvfybt vfnthbb vjåtn hfcnb kbim nfv, ult bpvtyf ytdjpvjåyf. 87. Rjulf ghtlcnfdbncz pfnhelytybt c yfcktlcndjv, vjåyj crfpfnm: vjåyj jcnfdbnm jñobyt gjåtkfybt, xnjñ gjkmpjdfybt bpdtcnysvb ghtlvtnfvb gthtlfyj ñskj bpdtcnyjve kbwe yf ghjñyjt nhäøktnbt. Nfr yfcktlcndj ñeltn ghtdhfotybtv d rjjgthfwbç ljcnjqysø. Vjåyj gjhexbnm jcjñsv dsñjhysv cktlbnm pf rfxtcndjv hfñjn. Gjktpyj eukeñkznm cjpyfybt j gjcnjzyyjq bcgsnetvjcnb, bñj yfhjl toä yt evttn hfñjnfnm ghb cjpyfybb bcgsnfybz. Vtåle ntv dcä dtotcndj vbhf dpfbvyj bcgsnsdftncz. Njkmrj yeåyj gjl bcgsnfybtv gjybvfnm ekexitybt. 88. Vs yfxbyftv dctulf d jxtym vfkjv yfxthnfybb. Ãnj jgsn jxtym vyjubø dtrjd b jcyjdyjq rjcvbxtcrbq ghbywbg. Pthyj ndähljt b ytltkbvjt lfcn 59


yfhfcnfybt ãktvtynjd. Yj lhjåfybt b ytxenrjcnm gjdnjhtybz lfän nevfyyjcnm. Xenrjcnm åbpytyyjuj ghbywbgf pfcnfdkztn ãrjyjvbnm ndählst pähyf. Nfr wtybn øbvbr ytltkbvst ntkf. Bcnbyyj, gjcnhjqrf ljkåyf ñsnm ytheibvf, rjulf jyf dspdfyf ytjñøjlbvjcnmç ãdjkçwbb. Yeåyj gjyznm hfpybwe ljgeotyyjuj b lfyyjuj ytjcgjhbvj. 89. E Yfitq Jñobys yt yeåys endthåltybz b rkznds. Ytghbndjhys nhfns nhelf b ytpfñsdftvs zdktybz ljkuf. Hfpdt djpvjåyj vyjujckjdbt nfv, ult ghbyzns åbpyb yf gjgtxtybt, _ nfv, ult xfc vjåtn zdbnmcz lkbyytqitq vthjq? Vjåyj kb ghtlfnm djpvjåyjcnb dhtvtyb, rjulf jnhbwfçncz leø b ldbåtybt? Yeåyj ghtjñjhjnm hjñjcnm b gjxeznm dbøhm cgbhfkb, b d cnthåyt dbøhz bvtnm veåtcndj cgjrjqcndbz. Cnjkmrj ujdjhbk j veåtcndt b ghjnbd cnhføf, bñj e Yfc kbim rjcvbxtcrbq yfexysq vtnjl! Ghb døjlt yflj lfnm ctñt jnxän, ult cnhfø b rhtgrj kb veåtcndj? Yt dbåe yb jlyjq gjlhjñyjcnb lbfktrnbrb bkb vtnjlbrb. Pyftv kbim cehjdst wdtns ytjñøjlbvjcnb. B yflj ljqnb lj Yfc d cjpyfybb ytghtkjåyjcnb.

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Cehjdjcnm yt tcnm ceøjcnm, b ytghtkjåyjcnm yt tcnm juhfybxtyyjcnm. Ghb dcäv nzujntybb ndthlb, gjxedcndetnt dbøhm ghjcnhfycndf b ghjnzytnt here r lfkmybv vbhfv. Ytkmpz yfdzpfnm joeotybt ezdktybz vbhjd; yj, bvtyyj, ãnbv cjpyfybtv ghbybvftv jndtncndtyysq nhel, eyjcbv ctñz d htfkmyst djpvjåyjcnb ãdjkçwbb. 90. Xnjñ gjyznm gjldbåyjcnm ltqcndbq, yeåyj pfvenbnm gjdthøyjcnm ñfcctqyf b yfñkçlfnm ytldbåyjcnm ybpibø ckjäd åblrjcnb. Yj nfr yeåyj bpñjhjplbnm gjdthøyjcnm, xnjñ njn åt hbnv ghjybr lj lyf ñtp ghtkjvktybz. Cbks jnhbwfntkmyst yt bvtçn ghjdjlf lj lyf, bñj lkz ãnjuj yeåyj hfpkjåbnm gthdbxyjt dtotcndj; nfrjq jgsn yt gjl cbke bv. Yjdjghbøjlzobt xfcnj cghfibdfçn: ult åt uhfybwf vtåle gjldbåysv ckjtv b ytjghjdthåbvsv jcyjdfybtv? Rjytxyj, yt vjåtn ñsnm uhfybws ecnfyjdktyyjq, yj pfrjy ghtkjvktybz ecnfyjdkty, b cnhtkf yt vjåtn ljktntnm ñtp ghtctxtybz gthdjyfpyfxtyyjq kbybb. Rfr åt ecnhfybnm gjhfåtybt ckjäd? Rjytxyj, yeåyj ddtcnb ndählst cnjkñs, lhjñzobt ntxtybt. Egjvbyfk j cnthåyt leøf gjchtlb cgbhfkb _ ãnj gjcnhjtybt 61


pfgjvybnt, bñj ytghtrkjyyjcnm, jrheåäyyfz wtynhjñtåysv ldbåtybtv, vjåtn ghjnbdjcnjznm dctv djkytybzv. Gjcnhjtybt Yfitq Jñobys yfgjvbyftn nfrbt åt cnthåyb, jrheåäyyst vjoysvb cgbhfkzvb. Kexitt gjcnhjtybt lkz ñjhmñs, rjytw rjnjhjq ghtlhtiäy. Nfr yeåyj gjyznm Yfib gjcnhjtybz vfnthbfkmyj. B pfxtv yeåyj ytgjyznyjt jndktxtybt, rjulf ghbywbg Rjcvjcf jlby? B cbcntvf yfhfcnfybz rhbcnfkkjd gjrfpsdftn, rfr vyjujjñhfpty vbh nzujntybz. Boeobt vjuen gjyznm, rfr yeåyj blnb vfnthbfkmyj d dscitv pyfybb. Rnj yt kçñbn xänrjcnb rhbcnfkkjd, njn yt ljqlän r Yfv. Xbcnfz ytgjdnjhztvjcnm ljdjlbn ajhve lj cjdthitycndf. Vjåyj gjrfpfnm rhbcnfkk htñäyre, b jy gjqvän pfdthitybt. Bvtyyj, cnhjtybt rhbcnfkkf jñobys lfcn cjdthitycndj ajhvs. 91. Gjxtve yeåyj ñsnm yterkçåbvb? Gjxtve yeåyj ghjbpdjlbnm dgtxfnktybt ytdtål? Gjxtve yfib ljkåys ñsnm ytñhtåysvb? Gjxtve, rjulf blän cgjh, yfib ljkåys ñsnm rhbrkbdsvb? Gjxtve yfib ljkåys ñjknfnm ñtp vths? Jñøjlbnt ytyeåyeç uhzpm. Dblbnt, rfr rfåleç gjlhjñyjcnm yflj gjlxthryenm, byfxt jñsxfq Yfitq Jñobys yt erhtgbncz d dfc. 62


Lbcwbgkbyf cdjñjls jnkbxftn Yfib jñobys. Yt njkmrj leø lbcwbgkbybhjdfy, yj b rfxtcndf dytiybø ltqcndbq. Ckbirjv gtxfkbnmcz yt Yfi jñsxfq. Ckbirjv gjhbwfnm yt Yfi jñsxfq. Ckbirjv ibhjrj cxbnfnm kçltq yt Yfi jñsxfq. Ckbirjv ålfnm yt Yfi jñsxfq. Yeåyj vjxm pfvtyznm ckjåysq gkfy ñjktt ghjcnsv, ybrjulf yfjñjhjn, bñj ghjnbdybrb yfib ltqcndeçn jn ghjcnjuj r ckjåyjve. Levfqnt erhtgbnm lheptq dfibø. Lthåbnt d åbkbofø dfibø xbcnsq djpleø, ecnhtvkzqnt r ghbøjlzobv kexibt gjåtkfybz b jxtym ålbnt Yfc. Gecnm rfålfz jñobyf ålän cdjtuj Exbntkz, bñj jñobyf b Exbntkm cjcnfdkzçn rjyws jlyjq rjkjyys. Lfåt d vtkjxfø lyz yeåyj gjvybnm jcyjdfybt ljvf. Jgznm ghbøjlbv r ytjñøjlbvjcnb bpvtybnm rfxtcndj cjpyfybz; njulf käujr gthtøjl. 92. Herb ecnhfifçobt yt ljcnbuyen dfc, rjulf blänt jñdbnst cgbhfkmç ghtlfyyjcnb. Tckb ñs ukfp d uheñjv phtybb vju edbltnm gfywbhm ghtlfyyjcnb! Yj njulf xtkjdtr eåt yt ñsk ñs d ybpitv cjpyfybb. Ehjrb ghtåybø åbpytq yt ljøjlzn lj pfrhsnsø ukfp. Bvtyyj, ñtp rhskmtd yfl ñtplyjq jcnfäncz rfålsq, ghbñkbåfçobqcz r Yfitq Jñobyt d dtnøjv cj63


pyfybb. Rfr dphsdjv jpjyf ñeltn gjhfåäy rfålsq, rnj d ujhljcnb gsnftncz ghjybryenm r Yfv. Rfr åt jñüzcybnm, xnj yt Vs, yj cfv ctñz ujhltw gjhfåftn? Nfr åt rfr ubñytn djitlibq d gjhjøjdeç vfcnthcreç yf vtnfkkbxtcrbø gjljidfø. Evtymt ghbvtybnm cnfkmyst udjplb yf gjljidfø lfän ytlehyjuj crjhjøjlf, yj rfålsq hfñjxbq yfexbn jltnm vzurbt neakb yf dphsdxfnjq gjdthøyjcnb. Nfr yeåty ñeath lkz yfcsotyyjq fnvjcaths. Erfåe yf Ñkfujckjdtyyjuj _ rjulf Jy iäk d ujhs, Jy njåt eltkzk dhtvz, xnjñ cvzuxbnm gthtøjl. Ãnbv ljcnbuftncz ãrjyjvbz ãythubb. Gjbcnbyt, ãnj tlbycndtyyfz ãrjyjvbz, ljgecnbvfz b jghfdlfyyfz; byfxt vtåle vbhfvb vjuen jñhfpjdfnmcz rfdthys, b rnj pyftn, rfrbv ufpjv jyb vjuen ñsnm pfgjkytys? Vjue cjdtnjdfnm cñthtufnm ãythubç, bñj rfålfz yfghfcyfz hfcnjxbntkmyjcnm, rfr gj cnheyt, yf lfkärjt hfccnjzybt gjhfåftn ghjcnhfycndj. Yeåyj d rfåljq ñskbyrt ñthtxm Rjcvjc, tckb vs ujnjds cnfnm dctktycrbvb uhfålfyfvb. 93. J rfxtcndt gentitcndbq. Ytjñøjlbvj ecdjbnm, rfr yeåyj gentitcndjdfnm! Yt njkmrj yflj jnjhdfnmcz jn ljvf, yj yflj ght64


jñjhjnm cfvj gjyznbt ljvf. Njxytt crfpfnm _ yeåyj hfcibhbnm ljv. Nfv, ult vs, _ nfv b ljv. Ãdjkçwbz cdthuftn zdktybt ljvf-nçhmvs. Ecgtø hfcrhtgjotybz cjpyfybz lfcn djpvjåyjcnm cnfnm gjldbåysv. B yt gjldbu, yt kbitybz, yt djpdtkbxtybt, yj rfxtcndj cjpyfybz jnhsdftn jn yfcbåtyyjuj vtcnf. D yfcbåtyyjv vtcnt cnjkmrj pfrjgxäyyjcnb, cnjkmrj rbckjns b gskb! Vs ghjnbd pfndjhybxtcndf, yj vfktymrbt ljvbrb, c ghjgktcytdtditq fnvjcathjq, øeåt gtoth. Pjdäv ntø, rnj vjåtn lfnm ghjcnjh vsckb. Øjxe dbltnm dfc bleobvb gj kbwe vbhf, rjulf jn vyjåtcndf uhfybw cnbhfçncz yfhjlyjcnb. Rfr vjåtv ktnfnm, rjulf ghbigbktys yf vfktymrbq udjplbr?! Elevfnm yflj, rfr xtkjdtxtcnde yeåys gentitcndbz! 94. Xfcnj ds ujdjhbnt j ytcjdthitycndt ceotcndeçobø rybu. Crfåe ñjkmit _ jibñrb d rybufø hfdys nzårjve ghtcnegktybç. Kjåm d rybufø ljkåyf ñsnm ghtcktletvf, rfr dbl nzårjq rktdtns. Kjåm jhfnjhf ghtcktletncz gj xbcke ckeifntktq. Kjåm gbcfntkz _ gj xbcke jngtxfnrjd rybub. Pfybvfnm kjåmç vtcnj yfhjlysø rybujøhfybkbo _ nzårjt ghtcnegktybt. Yeåyj gjxeznm bcnbyyjt yfvthtybt gbcfntkz, xnjñ jwtybnm rfxtcndj tuj jibñjr. Ytdtåtcndj ñeltn 65


øelibv jcyjdfybtv. Cnhfø b gjlkjcnm pfqven ñkbåfqitt vtcnj. Dct ãnb jcjñtyyjcnb ytgjpdjkbntkmys d jñobyt. Ecnhfytybt bø yeåyj jceotcndbnm d yjdjv cnhjbntkmcndt. Pfghtnbntkmyst vths, rfr dctulf, ytghbujlys; yj jnrhsnfz jibñrf ljkåyf ñsnm elfktyf bp rybub. Ytjñøjlbvjcnm bpüznbz b gthtgtxfnrf rybub jñhfpevzn gbcfntkz. Rfålsq uhfålfyby bvttn ghfdj ljrfpfnm jibñre. Rjytxyj, ytkmpz ghtgzncndjdfnm yjdsv dpukzlfv b gjcnhjtybzv; yj ytdthyst lfyyst yt ljkåys ddjlbnm d pfñkeåltybt, gjnjve xnj pyfybt tcnm gfywbhm jñobys, b pfobnf pyfybz kjåbncz yf dctø xktyjd. Yt gjpåt ujlf ljkåys ñsnm ghjdthtys rybub, byfxt xbckj åthnd ñeltn dtkbrj. Jcjñtyyj yflj ñthtxm rybue, rjulf ljcnjbycndj tä gjnhzctyj. Yf gjkrfø rybujøhfybkbo wtkst uyjqybrb kåb. Ñskj ñs ytljgecnbvj cjøhfyznm ãnbø gfhfpbnjd. Vjåyj ñs crfpfnm _ gthtcgbnt yf gkjøjq gjcntkb, yj ytdjpvjåyj ghtlkjåbnm ghjxtcnm kåbdeç rybue. Pfxtv jñhfofnm kexibq eujk jxfuf dj kåbdjuj ienf! Bvtyyj, rybub pfcjhzçn cjpyfybt ltntq. Lókåyj jnvtnbnm djghjc rybub! 95. Jlyfåls åtyobyf jcnfyjdbkfcm vtåle bpjñhfåtybzvb Ñkfujckjdtyyjuj Ñells b Vfqnhtb, yt pyfz, 66


rjve ghbytcnb gjxbnfybt. B bpjñhfåtybt Ñkfujckjdtyyjuj Ñells ghjbpytckj: ≤Gj pfdtne Vjtve, gjxbnfq ñeleott. Cnjz d pfobnt ghjikjuj, ecnhtvb dpukzl yf djcøjl≥. Gjvybnt, rfr Vs hfñjnftv lkz ñeleotuj, b dcä ceotcndj dfit ecnhtvbnt d ñeleott! Xeåljt cdtne Extybt ghbytcäv d kexfø pyfybz, bñj cdtn vbhf gjrhsn nmvjç. 96. Ecrjhtybt chjrjd ytjñøjlbvj, byfxt egkjnyztncz ytdtåtcndj. Yf ghtltkt Yjdjuj Vbhf cnjkgbkbcm dct zpds. Dbøhm yfväk rexb jnñhjcjd. Evtymt cvjnhtnm veåtcndtyyj d ukfpf vthpjcnb ytdtåtcndf crkflsdftn vths ytjñsxyst. Cktletn evtnm, yfrjytw, gjrfpfnm jnkbxbt kçltq ghbujlysø. Gjxtve kçlb vjueobt ljkåys gjubñfnm chtlb wtgtq ghtlhfccelrjd? Ltntq yflj cghjcbnm, vjuen kb jyb jnjqnb jn cnhføf ñsnm ytktgsvb d ukfpfø njkgs? Ujnjds kb gjcnegbnmcz kbxysv eljñcndjv hflb Yjdjuj Vbhf? Yflj cehjdj cghjcbnm, bñj zdktyyjt gkfvz yt ñjbncz dtnhf. Ghtlfyyjcnm gthtyjcbn xthtp ñtplye, yj nhtgtnfybt xenrjcnb ljkåyj jrhskznm ãne ghtlfyyjcnm.

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97. Yf genb yt jnlsøfq gjl uybksv lthtdjv. D åbpyb yt ghbrfcfqcz r kçlzv c gjneøibv cjpyfybtv. Ythfpdbnjcnm cjpyfybz yt nfr pfhfpbntkmyf, rfr cjpyfybz gjneøibt. Gjneøitt cjpyfybt zdkztncz yfcnjzobv dfvgbhjv. Ytkmpz yfgbnfnm bpdyt ghjgfcnm ytdtåtcndtyyjuj cjpyfybz. Bvtyyj, ãnb kçlb ñtcgjktpyj dsgbdfçn ãythubç. Gjckt ybø ytgjvthyf ecnfkjcnm. Rfr pkjdjybt, yeåyj vbyjdfnm bø, ghtuhfålfz akçbls hfpkjåtybz. Nhelyj hfpkbxbnm uhfybwe ythfpdbnjcnb b gjneøfybz. Yj jlyj rfxtcndj ñeltn ytcjvytyyj. Ythfpdbnjcnb ñeltn bkb vjåtn cjgencndjdfnm nhtgtnfybt ghtlfyyjcnb, yj gjneøibq rhfnth gjkjy pjks b cths. Extybt yt jnrfpsdftn nhfnbnm ãythubç yf ythfpdbnjcnm, yj tcnm cntgtym gjneøfybz, rjulf yt pfkbnm ñtplye yjdsv dtotcndjv. Njkmrj rfnfrkbpv c eåfcjv ytålfyyjcnb vjåtn hfcnjgbnm pfcnsdieç kfde. Gjvybnt j cjrhjdbot cjpyfybz. Nhtgtn dtotcndf Rjcvjcf zdkztn gekmcfwbç ghjñeålftvjuj cjpyfybz. Bvtyyj, hfleuf pyfybz ntxän bp nhtgtnf cjpyfybz. Dblbvfz htrf bp ytdblbvjuj bcnjrf. Dctvb jgsnfvb ghjikjuj b dctvb ljcnbåtybzvb ñeleotuj gjvybnt j cjpyfybb.

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98. D øjkjlt lfåt cjñfrf uhttn. Ytcksøfyyj vfkj kçltq; gjnjve lfåt eñjubø ytghbzntktq ytkmpz jnujyznm, tckb d ybø yt pfhjckf zxtqrf leøf. Øjntk ñs yfgjvybnm, rfr Ñkfujckjdtyysq zdkzk dybvfybt lfåt ytghbzntkzv. Ãnf rybuf xbnftncz d ghtlldthbb jñobys. Lókåyj ghtleghtlbnm døjlzotuj j dctø tuj ytljevtybzø. Rfåtncz xfcnj, xnj ghjnbdjhtxbz ythfphtibvs. Yj, genybr, ult åt ghjnbdjhtxbz, rjulf dblbv kbim bpjñbkbt gentdsø pyfrjd? Ñtplyf ghtuhfålftncz ujhjq, b ujhf juhfybxbdftncz vjhtv. Jñedm lkz ujh yt ujlyf lkz vjhz. Yj dtlm døjlzobv ghbøjlbncz vtyznm cdjä djjheåtybt tåtxfcyj. Yt njkmrj gjldbåyjcnm, yt njkmrj ñscnhjnf vsckb, yj yeåty yfdsr vtyznm jheåbt. Yt nfr kturj ghbdsryenm r cvtyt jheåbz. Gjlkt xedcndf cjñcndtyyjcnb cnjbn ghbdsxrf, b nhelyj pfvtybnm ghbcgjcjñktyyjcnm r ghtlvtnfv ghbcgjcjñkztvjcnmç cjpyfybz. Lkz gjdthøyjcnyjuj vsiktybz gjkexftncz gjxnb buhf ckjd, yj rfr ñs yeåyj ñskj gjybvfnm hfpybwe gjyznbq herjdjlbntkzv celtñ yfhjljd! Ytdjpvjåyj jnhfdktyyjve cjpyfybç hfpkbxbnm vjvtyn cdjñjls b cdzpfyyjcnb. Xtkjdtr, gjnthzdibqcz d ljuflrt, ult hfñcndj b ult cdjñjlf, yt vjåtn vsckbnm 69


jñ jñobyt. Xtkjdtr, gjlfdkzçobq cjpyfybt ñhfnf, yt vjåtn vsckbnm jñ jñobyt. Xtkjdtr, bpdhfofçobq Extybt, yt vjåtn vsckbnm jñ jñobyt. Jcyjdfybt jñobys _ d cdjñjlt vsiktybz b d edfåtybb Exbntkz. Ghbpyfnm Exbntkz _ pyfxbn cnfnm d hzl hfñjnfçobø yf gjåfht. Tckb rfålsq jn hjlybrf ecnhtvbncz r gjåfhe ñtp gjhzlrf, nj b hjlybr ñeltn pfnjgnfy ñtp gjkmps. Rfr ñs kexit gjyznm ñthtåkbdjcnm d cjpyfybb, ãnj juhflbn gjyznbt Exbntkz. Dtlm Exbntkm, dtlm pyfybt, dtlm ãdjkçwbz vbhf ñelen genzvb r lfkmybv vbhfv! J lfkmybø vbhfø jgbitv d rybut Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm. Pltcm åt pfgjvybv, xnj dhfnf Jñobys dtlen r lfkmybv vbhfv. 99. Gtxfnm _ cnhfå nfqys. Nfqyf ceotcndjdfkf dj dct dhtvtyf. Nfv, ult vfkjt pyfybt, nfv b nfqyf. Ecnhfifçot gjlevfnm, xnj bpdtcnyjt rfxtcndj cjpyfybz ybxtv yt jnkbxftncz jn ehjdyz rfvtyyjuj dtrf. Xeåjt vsiktybt, yt xtkjdtxtcrjt, yt øjxtn ldbyenmcz; bvtyyj yt øjxtn. Exbntkm vjåtn kbnm pyfybt, yj jyj ñjktt ckeåbn ghjcnhfycndtyyjve yfcsotybç; gjnjve exfobq yt 70


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ctñt yt gjdnjhznm chjrf _ rfr djkyf ghbybvftn rfvtym njkmrj jlby hfp. 100. Gjqvbnt Extybt; gjqvbnt _ ñtp Extybz yt ghjqnb. Yeåyj ãne ajhveke ndthlbnm, bñj d åbpyb vyjujt ltkftncz ñtp Extybz. Extybt ljkåyj jrhfibdfnm rfålsq gjcnegjr b rfåleç htxm. Jrhfcrf, rfr ghtrhfcyfz nrfym, erhfcbn cktlcndbt htxb. Gj cktlcndbzv yeåyj celbnm j rfxtcndt gjcskrb. Yeåyj ghbdsryenm, xnj cfvf gjcskrf vjåtn rfpfnmcz ytgjyznyjq, bñj njkmrj tä dyenhtyytt pyfxtybt bvttn obn. Ghbdsrfqnt drkflsdfnm pyfxtybt d rfåleç htxm, bpujyzz ytyeåysq ktgtn. Nhelyj jnrfpfnmcz jn xedcndf cjñcndtyyjcnb; nfråt nhelyj ghtjljktnm ktgtnfybt. 101. Evtqnt ghbyznm, rjulf dfc yfpjden vfnthbfkbcnfvb. D ltqcndbzø b d vsiktybb vs jnltkbnmcz jn vfnthbb yt vjåtv. Vs jñhfoftvcz r dscibv ckjzv bkb uheñtqibv dblfv njq åt vfnthbb. Vjåyj yfexyj gjrfpfnm ãnb dpfbvjjnyjitybz. Nfråt yfexyj vjåyj ljrfpfnm, rfr rfxtcndj yfituj vsiktybz ltqcndetn yf vfnthbç.

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Ãujbcnbxtcrjt vsiktybt ghbdktrftn ybpibt ckjb vfnthbb, bñj ãnjn jñhfp vsiktybz jñjcjñkztn jhufybpv _ rfr jlbyjrbq vfuybn yt vjåtn ghbnzyenm ñjktt cdjtuj yfghzåtybz. Byjt ltkj, rjulf vsiktybt ghjbpdjlbncz d vbhjdjv vfcinfñt: gjkexftncz rfr ñs uheggf vfuybnjd, b vjåtn gjkexbnmcz ljcneg r dscibv ckjzv. Kexit vjåyj yfñkçlfnm yf jlyjv xedcndbntkmyjv ghbñjht, abrcbheçotv rfxtcndj vsiktybz. Vjåyj dbltnm cgbhfkb, bleobt cdthøe bkb gjuheåäyyst d ntvyjdfnsq gfh, _ yfbñjktt yfukzlyjt jñextybt vfnthbfkmyjcnb vsiktybz ghb rfxtcndt dyenhtyytuj gjntywbfkf. Ãnb ghjcnst vfybatcnfwbb gjrfpsdfçn ldjqyjt pyfxtybt: gthdjt _ jyb jñkbxfçn ytdtål, rjnjhst ghtlcnfdkzçn ctñt vfnthbç rfr ytxnj bythnyjt b yt bvtçott ybxtuj jñotuj c yfxfkjv cjpyfybz; dnjhjt _ pyfxtybt bvtçn lkz boeobø, rjnjhst jnlflen ctñt jnxän d rfxtcndt vsiktybz. Gjexbntkmyj yfñkçlfnm, rfr vsckm pfhfåftn ghjcnhfycndj, _ gjkexftncz fyfkjubz c ghjwtccjv dscnhtkf. Gekz ktnbn lfktrj, yj lsv hfcghjcnhfyztncz d pfdbcbvjcnb jn fnvjcathysø eckjdbq. Gkjnyjcnm fnvjcaths pfcnfdkztn lsv yfljkuj ghjckfbdfnm enhtyyçç pfhç. Nfr ñthtubnt dfit vsiktybt. Njåt 73


yfexbntcm vsckbnm rhfcbdj b rhfnrj. Vyjubt yt dblzn hfpybws vtåle vsckmç lkz ltqcndbz bkb htaktrcjv vjpuf. Yeåyj evtnm ghtctrfnm htaktrnjhyst cgfpvs, rjnjhst dtlen r gjkecjpyfntkmyjcnb. Hfpdbnbt htaktrnjhyjq ltzntkmyjcnb gjøjåt yf jgmzytybt. Lj jñobys ljøjlzn d zcyjcnb vsiktybz. Zhreç, ytgthtlfdftveç jndtncndtyyjcnm ghbyjcbn zdktybt vsiktybz. Vs jxtym pfñjnbvcz, xnjñ cjpyfybt jndtncndtyyjcnb yt gjrblfkj dfc. 102. Jñhfpjdfybt yfhjlf yflj dtcnb c yfxfkmyjuj jñextybz ltntq c djpvjåyj hfyytuj djphfcnf. Xtv hfymit, ntv kexit. Gjdthmnt, gthtenjvktybt vjpuf ñsdftn njkmrj jn ytgjdjhjnkbdjcnb. Rfålfz vfnm, gjløjlz r rjksñtkb htñäyrf, crfåtn gthdeç ajhveke jñhfpjdfybz: ≤Ns dcä vjåtim≥. Yt yfljñys pfghtns; lfåt dhtlyjt yt pfghtofnm, yj kexit jndtcnb dybvfybt yf ñjktt gjktpyjt b ghbdktrfntkmyjt. Nj djcgbnfybt ñeltn kexibv, rjnjhjt cvjåtn djpdtkbxbnm ghbdktrfntkmyjcnm ñkfuf. Ghb ãnjv yt yflj rfktxbnm ghtrhfcyst Jñhfps, rfr ñs dj bvz ltncrjuj ythfpevtybz, _ yt eybåfqnt ltntq. Ndählj gjvybnt, xnj bcnbyyfz yferf dctulf ghbpsdyf, rhfnrf, njxyf b 74


ghtrhfcyf. Yeåyj, xnjñ d ctvmzø ñsk øjnz ñs pfxfnjr gjybvfybz jñhfpjdfybz. Gjckt ctvb ktn eåt vyjuj gjnthzyj. Jñsxyj gjckt nhäø ktn jhufybpv gjkjy djcghbznbq. Herf djlbntkz eåt ghb gthdjv ifut ljkåyf jñhfnbnm dybvfybt b erfpfnm yf lfkmybt vbhs. Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm ljkåty gjxeznm vjkjljq ukfp. Bvtyyj, ukfp ljkåty ghbdsryenm ljgecnbnm Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm. Njåt ytjñøjlbvj, xnjñs ckjdj dshfåfkj njxyeç vsckm. Bpujyztncz kjåm, uheñjcnm b yfcvtirf. Ghtlfntkmcndj lfåt d pfxfnrt ytljgecnbvj. Hfñjnf ≤rfr ñjkmibt≥ gjjohztncz. Njkmrj cjpyfybt lj nhäø ktn dvtcnbn kturj jñobye. Rfr jibñjxyj levfnm, xnj htñäyre yeåyj lfnm tuj dtob, bñj htñäyjr kturj gjqvän, rfr vjuen ñsnm dtob jñobvb. Cjpyfybt ≤dcä vjue≥ yt tcnm ødfcnjdcndj, yj kbim jcjpyfybt fggfhfnf. Cfvsq eñjubq vjåtn yfqnb ghjdjl r Ñtcghtltkmyjcnb, bñj rfålsq nhel d rfxtcndt cdjäv jnrhsdftn pfndjhs. 103. Irjks ljkåys ñsnm jgkjnjv gjpyfybz dj dctq gjkyjnt. Rfålfz irjkf, jn cfvjq yfxfkmyjq, ljkåyf ñsnm åbdsv pdtyjv chtlb dctø exbkbo lj cfvjuj dscituj. Gjpyfybt ljkåyj gjgjkyznmcz dcç 75


åbpym. Lókåyj jñexfnm ghbrkflyjve pyfybç, yt jnhsdfz jn yferb bcnjhbxtcrjq b abkjcjacrjq. Bcreccndj vsiktybz ljkåyj ñsnm hfpdbnj d rfåljv hfñjnybrt. Njkmrj njulf jy gjqvän hfljcnm cjdthitycndjdfybz b cevttn bcgjkmpjdfnm ljceu. 104. Rfålfz irjkf ljkåyf ñsnm bcnbyysv jñhfpjdfntkmysv jñütlbytybtv. Ghb irjkfø ljkåty ñsnm gjktpysq veptq, d rjnjhjv cfvb extybrb ljkåys ghbybvfnm exfcnbt. Ljkåty ñsnm rjjgthfnbd, b extybrb ljkåys jñexfnmcz b nfrjve cjnhelybxtcnde. Ljkåys ghjbcøjlbnm dczrbt ghjzdktybz bcreccndf. Ñtp gentq rhfcjns yt vjåtn ñsnm jñhfpjdfybz. 105. Extybt ñeltn cfvsv ghbznysv xfcjv, rjulf exbntkm jwtybn cgjcjñyjcnb exfobøcz. Njkmrj hfcgjpyfybt cgjcjñyjcntq gjpdjkbn cghfdtlkbdj jnyjcbnmcz r ñeleobv hfñjnybrfv. Xfcnj cfvb exfobtcz yt gjybvfçn cdjtuj yfpyfxtybz. Exbntkm, rfr lheu, yfgencndetn bø gj kexitve yfghfdktybç. Ybrfrjt yfcbkbt yt ghbvtybvj d irjkfø. Njkmrj eñtåltybt vjåtn ghbkbxtcndjdfnm gjpyfybç. Ñjkmit jgsnjd, ñjkmit ñtctl, cnjkmrj hfljcnb d ghbkjåtybb cdjbø cbk! Vfkst kçñzn hfñjne ≤ñjkmibø≥.

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106. Rjulf ctvmz yt evttn, nj gecnm irjkf yfexbn xbcnjnt dj dcäv ñsnt. Uhzpm yt jn ñtlyjcnb, yj jn ytdtåtcndf. Xbcnjnf d åbpyb tcnm ghtlldthbt xbcnjns cthlwf. Rnj åt yt øjxtn, xnjñs yfhjl ñsk xbcnsv? Yeåyj jñjheljdfnm irjks nfr, xnjñs jyb ñskb hfccflybrfvb erhfitybz åbpyb. Rfålsq ghtlvtn vjåtn ñsnm jñlevfy c kçñjdmç. Rfålfz dtom ljkåyf ñsnm cltkfyf cjexfcnybwtq cxfcnkbdjq åbpyb. Rjjgthfwbz gjvjåtn yfqnb ajhve lkz rfåljuj jñbøjlf. Ult jlyjve yt yfqnb htitybz, nfv gjvjåtn jñobyf. Yt rekfxyst ñjb, yj ndjhws ñelen ujhljcnmç cnhfys. 107. Irjkf ljkåyf yt njkmrj dvtofnm kçñjdm r rybut, yj ljkåyf yfexbnm xbnfnm, b gjcktlytt yt ktuxt gthdjuj. Yeåyj evtnm cjchtljnjxbnm vsckm, xnjñs dybryenm d rybue. Yt ukfp, yj vjpu b cthlwt xbnfçn. Rybuf yt pfybvftn gjxänyjuj vtcnf dj vyjubø ljvfø. Jñzpfyyjcnm jñobys _ endthlbnm rybue rfr lheuf ljvf. Rjjgthfnbd, ghtålt dctuj, bvttn rybåyeç gjkre, cjlthåfybt rjnjhjq jxtym jñibhyj. Ñeltn hfccrfpfyj j wtyyjcnzø hjlbys b cdzpb tä c vbhjv. Gjrfpfys ñelen uthjb, ndjhws b nheåtybrb; b gjyznbt xtcnb, b ljkuf, b jñzpfyyjcnb r cdjtve 77


ñkbåytve endthlbncz, nfr åt rfr b vbkjcthlbt. Vyjuj ghbvthjd, pjdeobø r gjpyfdfybç b jnrhsnbzv. 108. Irjkf yfexbn edfåfnm gjktpyst bpjñhtntybz, yj egfcän jn vfibyyjuj hfñcndf. Dczrjt hfñcndj ñeltn eybxnjåtyj, rfr ghbpyfr ntvyjns. Exbntkm ñeltn dtleobv yfcnfdybrjv-lheujv, xnjñs erfpfnm genm rhfnrbq b kexibq. Yt zdktybt yfcbkbz, yj eksñrf pjdf. Yj tckb d irjkfø åbpyb ghjcjxbkjcm ghtlfntkmcndj, nj cfvjt cehjdjt jceåltybt gjkjåbn rjytw nfrjve ñtpevbç. 109. Irjks gjqven, ult ktyjcnm, ult ytjñsxyjt cnhjtybt øfhfrnthf, ult ñtpevbt b ult ytjñøjlbvj gjybvfybt. 110. Chtlb extñysø ghtlvtnjd gecnm ñelen lfys jcyjds fcnhjyjvbb, yj gjcnfdbd tä rfr ghtlldthbt r lfkmybv vbhfv. Nfr irjks pfhjyzn gthdst vsckb j åbpyb d lfkmybø vbhfø. Ghjcnhfycndj jåbdän, fcnhjøbvbz b kexb yfgjkyzn ghtlcnfdktybt j dtkbxbb Dctktyyjq. Vjkjlst cthlwf gjxeçn ctñz yt vehfdmzvb yf ptvyjq rjht, yj yjcbntkzvb leøf b jndtncndtyysvb pf gkfytne. Jcnfyfdkbdftv dybvfybt yf irjkfø, bñj jn ybø endthlbncz cjnhelybxtcndj. Yt

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ñeltn cjpblfybz ñtp cjnhelybxtcndf. Yt ñeltn ghjxyjcnb ujcelfhcndf b cjçpf, rjulf ñeltn dkfcndjdfnm dtnøfz cfvjcnm. 111. Vyjuj ghtleghtålfk ghjnbd cfvjcnb. Ãnf vthndzofz ctcnhf ytdtåtcndf eñbdftn b ufcbn kexibt juyb. Yt cxbnfqnt yfgjvbyfybt j cfvjcnb ytevtcnysv ghb cjpblfybb rjjgthfnbdjd. Yfjñjhjn, rfålsq ecnfd ljkåty gbcfnmcz yt lkz ctñz, yj lkz lheubø. Chtlb hfpysø yfbvtyjdfybq ckjdj lheu ñeltn cfvsv cthltxysv. Bvtyyj, cthlwt yt ghbtvktn cfvjcnb. Cthlwt åbdän cfvjjndthåtybtv. Nfr rhtgrj cthlwt, rjulf jyj pfñjnbncz j ñeleotv, yt levfz j ctñt. 112. Cfvjt gjktpyjt _ evtnm cjxtnfnm ytåyjcnm kçñdb c cehjdjcnmç ljkuf. Yjdfz åbpym yt ecnhfibncz ghjnbdjgjkjåtybzvb. Jyf yt ñeltn yfcbkjdfnm jlybv zhvjv, yj lfcn ibhjne djcghbznbz. Yt gjljñftn kçlzv cbltnm d crdjhtxybrt. Gjhf pyfnm gkfytne b gjvjxm tq. Yt vjuen ecgjrjbnm dsxbcktybz, xthtp crjkmrj ktn gjneøytn cjkywt. Vyjåtcndj hfpysø eckjdbq vjuen jghjrbyenm dct bcxbcktybz. Ytkmpz pfñsnm b nj, xnj kçlb vjuen gthtuhspnm lheu lheuf. Nfrjt cjjñhfåtybt yt ljkåyj ñsnm pfñsnj ghb pkjñt, pfkbdfçotq Ptvkç. 79


113. Rjhscnjkçñbt tcnm uheñjt ytdtåtcndj. Njkmrj bcnbyyjt cjnhelybxtcndj vjåtn cgfcnb jn nfrjq pkjrfxtcndtyyjq rjhjcns. Rjhscnjkçñtw bvttn yf kbwt cdjäv gtxfnm. Jy yt ghbxfcnty cthlwe; xfif tuj ujhmrfz. B Njyrbq Vbh lkz rjhscnjkçñwf kbim bcnjxybr vextybq. 114. Kçlb bpexfçn åbpym gxäk, vehfdmäd, jñtpmzy, kçlb bpevkzçncz gthtkänysv gnbwfv, bø gjhzlre, bø cnhjqyjcnb, yj dcä åt yt ltkfçn cjjndtncndtyysø dsdjljd lkz ekexitybz åbpyb ptvyjq. Tcntcndtyyfz bcnjhbz ljkåyf ñsnm ghtgjlfyf d irjkfø rfr vjåyj gjkytt b edktrfntkmytt. Yeåyj yf ghbvthfø hfcnbntkmyjuj b åbdjnyjuj wfhcndf lfnm gjyznm, rfrbt cjrhjdbof pfkjåtys d xtkjdtrt. Tckb chfdybntkmyj ybpibt jhufybpvs xeçn jcyjds ñsnbz, nj ntv ñjktt xtkjdtr ljkåty ghbkjåbnm ecbkbz r ghtecgtzybç. Vyjuj wtyysø gjrfpfybq ghjzdktyj dcçle. C cfvsø gthdsø ehjrjd exfobtcz gecnm gjhfleçncz xeltcfvb åbpyb. Nfråt gecnm jyb gjqven, rfr jñhfofnmcz c gjkänfvb b zcyjcksifybtv. Nfr zcyjcksifybt ñeltn tcntcndtyysv eckjdbtv. Nfråt b Njyrbq Vbh ñeltn bpexftv yfhzle c njyrbvb ãythubzvb. Yt ñeltn ltktybz yf abpbxtcrjt b vtnfabpbxtcrjt, bñj dcä 80


ceotcndetn _ pyfxbn, dcä joenbvj b gjpyfdftvj. Yfrjytw cjrheifncz cetdthbz b ghtlhfccelrb. 115. Ybrnj yt lthpftn djccnfnm ghjnbd irjks, yj vfkj rnj levftn j tä ekexitybb. Irjkmyst ghjuhfvvs yt ghjcvfnhbdfçncz wtksvb ujlfvb; vtåle ntv jnrhsnbz cgtifn. Yjdst lfyyst ecnhtvkzçncz jnjdcçle: b djpleiyst caths, b ukeñbys jrtfyjd, b ujhyst cjrhjdbof hfccrfpsdfçn j ctñt xeltcyst cdtltybz. Yeåyj cgtibnm, byfxt hfcrjgrb bpvtyzn lfyyst eckjdyjq bcnjhbb. D yjdsø irjkfø yeåyj eñhfnm pfghtns, xnjñs dbltkb ltqcndbntkmyjcnm, rjnjhfz xeltcyf, tckb ghfdlbdj gjrfpfyf. Ibhjrj gjkt evcndtyysø cjcnzpfybq! 116. Eñthtubnt ltntq jn dctuj kjåyjuj; eñthtubnt jn lehyjq vepsrb; eñthtubnt jn crdthyjckjdbz; eñthtubnt jn kjåysø cjcnzpfybq; eñthtubnt jn endthåltybz cfvjcnb, ntv ñjktt xnj yeåyj ghbdbnm kçñjdm r ytghtcnfyyjve pyfybç. Vecreks yt ljkåys pfñbdfnm ev b cthlwt. Rfrjt cthlwt djpkçñbn rekfxyst elfhs? 117. Ytktgj levfnm, xnj gjn _ zdktybt njkmrj abpbxtcrjt. Ghb vsckbntkmyjq hfñjnt bcøjlbn jcjñfz ãvfyfwbz, wtyyfz lkz yfcsotybz ghjcnhfycndf. Tckb

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gjn ntkf vjåtn eljñhznm ptvkç, nj gjn leøf djccnfyfdkbdftn ghfye, øbvbxtcrb ghtndjhzzcm d kexfø Cjkywf. Nhel _ dtytw Cdtnf. Yflj, xnjñs exfobqcz irjks gjvybk pyfxtybt nhelf rfr afrnjhf vbhjplfybz. Gjcktlcndbtv nhelf ñeltn ndähljcnm cjpyfybz. Zhrj yflj gjlxthryenm hfñjxeç fnvjcathe. 118. Vjuen cghjcbnm: ≤Rfrbt ghbpyfrb exbntkz wtybnm?≥ Ds eåt pyftnt j rfxtcndt ltqcndbz b vjåtnt eåt ghbvtybnm yjdst gjløjls r ltqcndbç. Yflj ghtlgjxtcnm njuj exbntkz, rjnjhsq blän yjdsvb genzvb. Rfåljt ckjdj tuj, rfålsq gjcnegjr tuj ytcän yf ctñt gtxfnm ytpfñsdftvjq yjdbpys. Ãnj jnkbxbt cjplfän pjdeoeç vjom. Yt gjlhfåfntkm, yt njkrjdfntkm, yj vjoysq rfvtyobr yjdsø hel. Yeåyj ghbyznm pf jcyjdfybt pjd yjdbpys. Ñsdftn dhtvz, rjulf vjåyj blnb kbim dgthäl. Cjøhfybv pjd djkb d ñtut ytghtcnfyyjv b yfl ñtplyjq yt ghjvtlkbv. Yeåyj crfpfnm cnhjbntkzv åbpyb, xnjñs yfikb yjdst ckjdf, crjdfyyst yjdjç ytjñøjlbvjcnmç. Cjpyfybt yjdbpys rfåljuj xfcf lfcn bvgekmc. Erfåbnt lhepmzv, rfrjt cxfcnmt ñsnm dtxyj yjdsvb! B rfålsq ãktrnhjy Yjdjuj Vbhf lfcn yjdeç 82


vjom. Gjqvbnt vjom yjdjuj pjdf. Ds vjåtnt ghbvtybnm tä d åbpyb rfåljuj lyz. Ds ljcnfnjxyj pyftnt, xnj ujdjhç lkz ghbvtytybz. 119. Ghfdbkmyj levftnt, xnj ñtp ljcnbåtybq ntøybrb ytdjpvjåyf jñobyf. Rfålfz jñobyf yeålftncz d ntøybxtcrbø ghbcgjcjñktybzø, b Yfie Jñobye ytkmpz vsckbnm ñtp eghjotybz åbpyb. Yeåyf zdktyyfz djpvjåyjcnm ghbvtyznm ljcnbåtybz yferb, byfxt vs jñhfnbvcz d jñjçlyeç nzujcnm. Rfr htfkbcnsghfrnbrb, Vs vjåtv cvtkj endthålfnm ãnj. Vfkj njuj, Vs vjåtv yfcnjqxbdj erjhbnm dctø kjåyjhtfkbcnjd. Bø eybåtyyfz yferf b cktgjnf vtifçn bv d ljcnbåtybb njuj, r xtve jyb cnhtvzncz. Njxyj afhbctb lhtdyjcnb, jyb ghzxen cnhfø gthtl ljgeotybtv njuj, xnj lheubv eåt jxtdblyj. Yt kçñbv ytdtål, yt kçñbv nhecjd, gjgbhfçobø d eåfct djpvjåyjcnb ãdjkçwbb. Neibntkb juytq, cdtnjytyfdbcnybrb, yt dcä kb hfdyj, c rfrjq cnjhjys ds gjkpänt! Ds øjnbnt pfneibnm gkfvz pyfybz; yj ytdtåtcndtyyfz jñobyf _ ntvybwf, bñj jñobyf b ytdtåtcndj ytcjdvtcnbvs. Yeåyj pyfnm. Yt dthmnt, yj pyfqnt!

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120. Vs ujnjds gjllthåfnm rfåljuj bpjñhtnfntkz, bñj lfåt cfvsq vfksq bpjñhtnfntkm gsnftncz dytcnb ekexitybt d åbpym b pfñjnbncz zdbnm ñthtåkbdjcnm ãythubb. Exbntkm epyftn hexfntkmcndj b pfñjne j cjøhfytybb ãythubb. Ãnf egjhyfz ñthtåkbdjcnm gjpdjkztn ljdthznm extybre. Rjytxyj, ãnf ñthtåkbdjcnm lfktrf jn cregjcnb. Gjkrjdjltw, ñthtueobq jnñjhysø cjklfn, ltqcndetn cjpyfntkmyj. Rfålfz djpvjåyjcnm zdkztncz yfibv djbyjv, yj yeåyj gjybvfnm dtob jñütlbybntkmyj. Rfr yeåyj ñsnm jcvjnhbntkmysvb ghb bpjñhtntybzø, xnjñ yt kbibnm bø ghzvjq wtktcjjñhfpyjcnb! Gecnm cjpyfybt vbhjdjq ãdjkçwbb gjvjåtn dfv yfqnb ghbujlyst cnhtks. Eib dfib ljkåys cksifnm ifub ãdjkçwbb, b htibvjcnm yt ljkåyf jñvfyenmcz. Rfr øelf ythzikbdjcnm e bpjñhtnfntkz, rfr ueñbntkmyf ytjñlevfyyfz htfrwbz, rfr ytghjcnbntkmyf jibñrf ytdtåtcndf! Vs vjåtv wtybnm nhel bpjñhtnfntkz d vbhjdjv hfpvtht ghb jcjpyfybb yfghfdktybz vbhjdjq ãdjkçwbb. Nhelyj gjyznm ghbkjåbvjcnm pfrjyjd lbyfvbrb, gjrf yt ecdjbkb ecnjb vfnthbb.

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121. Yjdjt cjpyfybt, gjllthåfyyjt ntøybrjq, lfcn vjoyjt ecnhtvktybt r pyfybç. Bvtyyj, jñobyf ljkåyf ñsnm cfvsv xenrbv fggfhfnjv ãdjkçwbjyyjcnb. Bvtyyj, d cjpyfntkmyjq jñobyt ybrnj yt vjåtn endthålfnm j ckjåbditqcz vbhjbpextyyjcnb. Dczrfz negfz ghtuhflf jnvtnftncz jñjcnhäyyjq dbñhfwbtq rjkktrnbdf. Lfåt yfvär yf pfrjyxtyyjcnm ltkftn ytdjpvjåysv ghtñsdfybt d jñobyt. Rnj åt ghbvtn rktqvj negjcnb? Xthdm yt ñeltn juhfybxbdfnm cdjbø ghjøjljd vhfrf, _ ds åt, cvjnhzobt d Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm, ds yt vjåtnt xthdç egjljñbnmcz! Ytcjdthityyfz bpjñhtnfntkmyjcnm ytrjnjhsø bp dfc ekjdbkf ytdblbvst kexb b ytcksibvst hbnvs. Uheñsv djjñhfåtybtv, uheñsvb ghbñjhfvb dcä åt ñskb ekjdktys ytrjnjhst rjcvbxtcrbt njrb. Yj dtlm ukegtw gjqvän, xnj djjñhfåtybt vjåtn ñsnm enjyxtyj b ghbñjhs ekexitys. Bcøjlz bp cfvjekexiftvjcnb, ljqlänt lj Ñtcghtltkmyjcnb. Ñele ndthlbnm j djpvjåyjcnzø ekexitybz, gjrf cfvsq pfrjcytksq yt ecnslbncz cdjtq juhfybxtyyjcnb. Yt vjåtn ñsnm jñobyybr, juhfybxbdfçobq cdjä cjpyfybt, byfxt jy egjljñbncz åtycrjq yjut cnfhjuj Rbnfz. Njåt nmvf jñsxfz dspdfkf ãnj ñtpjñhfpbt. 85


Rfrjq jñobyybr vjåtn ghbrhsnmcz gktctymç cetdthbz? Dtlm ybrnj yt egjnhtñkztn eñjubq, gthdjñsnysq gfhjdjp; nfråt ybrnj yt vjåtn jcnfnmcz ghb vkfltyxtcrjv gjybvfybb htfkmyjcnb. Vkfltyxtcrbq vfnthbfkbpv zdbncz lehvfyjv lkz yfhjlf, yj ghjcdtoäyyjt pyfybt ñeltn ktcnybwtq gjñtls. Ñtp jnhbwfybq, ñtp cetdthbq, ñtp cnhføf gjqlänt r bcnbyyjq jñobyt. Ñtp xeltc yfqlänt zcyeç htfkmyjcnm b rbhrjç bcgsnfntkz ñeltnt dcrhsdfnm pfrhsnst ukeñbys. Gjkçñbnt ñtccnhfibt pyfybz. 122. Erfpfnm yflj j rfxtcndt nhtñetvjuj pyfybz. Pyfybt ljkåyj ñsnm ñtpeckjdyj. Rfålfz eckjdyfz, cdzpfyyfz yferf ghbxbyztn ytgjghfdbvsq dhtl. Cdjñjlyjt cjxtnfybt ãktvtynjd lfcn ytgjdnjhtyyst, yjdst ljcnbåtybz. Rnj vjåtn ghtlgbcfnm øbvbre gjkmpjdfnmcz kbim jlyjq uheggjq ãktvtynjd? Rnj vjåtn pfcnfdbnm bcnjhbrf b abkjcjaf yt rfcfnmcz bcnjhbxtcrbø afrnjd? Rnj vjåtn ghbrfpfnm øeljåybre egjnhtñkznm kbim jlye rhfcre? Pyfybç dcä jnrhsnj. Tlbycndtyysv ghtbveotcndjv d jñkfcnzø pyfybz ñeltn ñókmifz eñtlbntkmyjcnm b ghbdktrfntkmyjcnm. 86


Tckb øjnbnt edktxm dfibv pyfybtv, cltkfqnt tuj ghbdktrfntkmysv, yfcnjkmrj ghbdktrfntkmysv, xnjñ rybub dxthfiytuj lyz gjrfpfkbcm ceøbvb kbcnmzvb. Gjñtlf eñtlbntkmyjcnb bpñfdbn jn ytcyjcysø pfghtnjd. Ñjkmit dctuj pfñjnmntcm bpuyfnm bp åbpyb exfobøcz pfghtns. Jñobyybrfv ãnj jcjñtyyj kturj, bñj bø rybuf vjåtn ñsnm jcjñj dljøyjdtyyf b edktrfntkmyf. Rjytxyj, gbcfhcrjt bpkjåtybt jñobys ytdsyjcbvj. Eñjubq gtlfyn jnnjkryän rfåljuj, rnj yt dsyjcbn ñtplfhyjuj jnyjitybz r rhfcjnt. Jrjkj jñobys ljkåyf ñsnm dljøyjdtyyjcnm. R cdtne nzyencz hfcntybz, _ ãnjn pfrjy gthdbxyjuj cjpyfybz ytghtkjåty. Blbnt genäv ytghtkjåyjcnb b cnhjqnt åbpym! Ybxtuj ytn jndktxäyyjuj, b åbpym dgbnsdftn rfåleç vsckm. Gjnjve ñelmnt htfkbcnfvb bcnbyyjq htfkmyjcnb. 123. Rjkktrnbdbpv b lbfktrnbdbpv _ ldf gjcjñbz ghb vsiktybb j vfnthbfkbpvt. Ceotcndj vfnthbfkbpvf zdkztn jcjñeç gjldbåyjcnm, yt vbyez yb jlyjuj zdktybz åbpyb. Exbntkm zdkztn kbim dtøb yeåyst. Vjåyj hfpdbdfnm gjkjåtybz, vsckz crfpfyysvb genzvb. Yeåyj lj nfrjq cntgtyb jñjcyjdfnm 87


vfnthbfkbpv, xnjñ dct yfexyst ljcnbåtybz cjdhtvtyyjcnb vjukb djqnb rjycnhernbdyj d gjyznbt vfnthbfkbpvf jleøjndjhäyyjuj. Vs ujdjhbkb j njyrbø ntkfø, j vfuybnfø, j cdtxtybb fehs, jñ bpkextybb rfåljuj ghtlvtnf, j gthtvtotybb xedcndbntkmyjcnb, jñ bpvtytybb dtcjvjcnb, j ghjybryjdtybb jlyjuj ckjz vfnthbb xthtp lheujq, j gjcskrfø vsckb xthtp ghjcnhfycndj, j zdktybb wtvtynbhjdfybz ghjcnhfycndf, j xedcndt wtynhjd, j gjybvfybb ckjdf vfnthbz. Vyjuj ytdblbvjuj, joenbvjuj fggfhfnfvb, yeåyj dvtcnbnm ntv, rnj øjxtn ghbkjåbnm ntøybre d åbpym. Yeåyj pfvtybnm bltfkmyst ckçyb ndählsv hfpevjv. Vs _ Yjcbntkb Leøf, bvttv ghfdj nhtñjdfnm edfåtybz b gjpyfdfybz vfnthbb. Lhepmz, vfnthbz yt yfdjp, yj dtotcndj, cbzçott djpvjåyjcnzvb. Yeålf xtkjdtxtcndf _ jn ghtpbhfybz vfnthbb. Yfcnhjtys gsiyst cøjlñbof, yj yt djcgtns ubvys pyfybç. 124. Cghfibdfçn: rfr ghbcnegbnm r Extybç? Dtlm lkz ãnjuj yeåyj gththjlbnm cjpyfybt? Rjytxyj, cjpyfybt gththjålftncz gjckt Extybz. Lkz yfxfkf yflj jnrhsnm b jvsnm cjpyfybt. Jnrhsnbt cjpyfybz lt88


kftncz vjvtynfkmyj, jlyjç djktç. Åtkfqnt jnrhsnm cjpyfybt! 125. Vjb vjkjlst lhepmz, jgznm ds cjñhfkbcm dj bvz Extybz b jgznm e dfc gjkexbkcz dtxth c ujcnzvb. Vtåle ntv crfpfyj b gjdnjhtyj, xnjñ xfc ñtctls jñ Extybb ñsk kbiäy jñsdfntkmcrbø gthtceljd. Gecnm ãnjn xfc ñeltn htåt, yj rfxtcndj tuj ljkåyj ñsnm jøhfytyj. Ds ghbñkbåftntcm pfrjekrfvb, ds ghtdjpvjuftnt ecnfkjcnm nheljdjuj lyz, ds ytcänt xfcnbwe jñotuj ñkfuf; yj yfåbnst dtob pyfrjvjuj gjvtotybz hfpñbdfçn dfit ecnhtvktybt, b ytpfvtnyj ds cnfyjdbntcm gskmysvb åbkmwfvb. Vfkj njuj, rnj-nj bp dfc pfvtxftn ckexbdittcz b cnfyjdbncz ljñhjdjkmysv yflpbhfntktv b gjuheåftncz d vfkçctymrjt hfplhfåtybt. Nrfym ñtctls hfpjhdfyf, b yfxbyftncz ytljcnjqyjt injgfybt. Vs ghjcbv, øjnz ñs jlby xfc, ñsnm cjpyfntkmyj jndtncndtyysvb kçlmvb. Tckb dfv nhelty xfc d ytltkç, nj kexit cjqlbntcm xthtp xtnshyflwfnm lytq. Cevtqnt bcrkçxbnm yf ãnj dhtvz dct djkyeçobt, pdthbyst ghbdsxrb _ rehtybt, dbyj, tle, vtkrbt cgktnyb, jñjhjns vtkrbø ltk, jceåltybt b uytd. Cjqlzcm, gjcblbnt ytcrjkmrj vbyen d vjkxfybb. Tckb åt rnj bp dfc yt yfqlän cbks ghj89


cdtnbnm cjpyfybt, nj gecnm vjkxf dsqltn cyjdf yf øjkjl b nmve. Vs dhfub dczrjq yfcbkmcndtyyjq vfubb, yj tcntcndtyysq rjynhjkm cjpyfybz ljkåty cnfnm eckjdbtv htfkmysø gjcnhjtybq. Dtlm yf xfc vjåyj jnhtibnmcz jn kbxysø gjgsnjr. Tckb åt ãnj nhelyj, nj rfr åt vjåtnt levfnm jñ ecgtøt b hjcnt cjpyfybz? Djk pyftn ådfxre, yj lfkmit gbotdfhtybz yt hfcnän. Cltkfqnt ecbkbt lfnm ñtctlfv rhfcjne, ghjcnjne b xbcnjne. Cfvst ytjåblfyyst ghjñktvs pyfybz, cfvst lthpyjdtyyst jñhfps rhfcjns gecnm dsnjkryen dfc bp pfnøkjuj eujkrf. Gjqvbnt, øjxe dbltnm dfc, øjnz ñs dhtvtyyj, jcjñtyysvb b dvtcnbdibvb. Ãnb pähyf rjjgthfnbdyjuj vsiktybz lflen dfv yfcnjqxbdjcnm ljcnbåtybq. Yt njkmrj htibvjcnm, yj b yfcnjqxbdjcnm yeåyf. Gjqvbnt rjywtynhfwbç rfr jgsn cjpyfybz. Lfqnt dbltnm dfc bleobvb ecnhtvkäyyj b cjpyfntkmyj. Ujdjhç lkz ytvtlktyyjuj bcgjkytybz. 126. Xetnt kb bcnbyysq dhtl, ghbxbyztvsq jibñjxysvb gjcnegrfvb? Gj ãujbpve yt levftnt kb, xnj dhtl ghtålt dctuj rfcftncz dfc cfvbø? Yj d gkfyt ltqcndbq yt ds jlyb, yj rfålsq ifu dfi rfcftncz 90


b ntø jndtncndtyysø, rjnjhst cfvjjndthåtyyj blen. Vyjuj ytgjghfdbvjuj ghbxbytyj dj dhtvz kturjvscktyysø cjñhfybq. Extybt vyjuj hfp erfpsdfkj yf cdzpm rjkktrnbdf. Yeåyj ñthtxm ntø, rnj hbcreçn lkz ecrjhtybz cktlcndbq. Vscktyyj jñthtubntcm jn gfueñysø, htprj jvhfxäyysø yfcnhjtybq. B toä cghjie, yfexbkbcm kb ds xbnfnm rybub Extybz? Ytn kb åtkfybz ghbdzpfnm vsckm r jlyjve cnjkñe? Jxtym kçñbv rhfcbdst ghbnxb, yj pfñsdftv, xnj d rfåljq bp ybø pfkjåtyf wtyf åbpyb. Lkz dtxthybø cjñhfybq jxtym jcnhjevyj jnvtnbnm ytjñsxysq cjcnfd htxb bkb jxtym cnhfyyjt dshfåtybt. Yj gjlevfqnt, yt dbcbn kb yf rfåljq ñerdt ãnjuj dshfåtybz vyjåtcndj åbpytq? E rfåljuj ljkåyj dcgsøyenm cjpyfybt dfåyjcnb xfcf, d rjnjhsq jy ghbpdfy. Rjulf lfdyj ujdjhbk j kturjvsckbb, yeåyj ñskj chfpe ghbyznm d cjpyfybt cthmäpyjcnm vjvtynf b pfcnfdbnm ctñz dvtcnbnm xedcndj jndtncndtyyjcnb. Dyt ltk, dyt kbxysø b dyt uheggjdsø ghtecgtzybq yeåyj joenbnm ãdjkçwbç c tä jcjñtyyjcnzvb. Nfr xänrj vsckbnt. Cnfhfqntcm ekexibnm cjñhfybz. 127. Rjulf cfvsq ytpyfçobq b ytcjpyfntkmysq crfåtn jñ Extybb: rfåtncz, ãnj rfrjt-nj lheujt 91


jñobyyjt extybt, _ evtqnt cghfdtlkbdj jndtnbnm. Crfåbnt: rfålfz jñobyf, jcyjdfyyfz yf nhelt b pyfybb htfkmyjcnb, yt dhtlbn ltke ecjdthitycndjdfybz xtkjdtxtcndf. Ghb ldbåtybb Rjcvjcf ytkmpz ghtñsdfnm d rfåeotqcz ytldbåyjcnb _ bkb yfpfl, bkb dgthäl. Dct jcjpyfçobt jñobye ldbåencz dgthäl. B yt vjåtn ñsnm jñobys ghjnbdyjq lheu lheue; nfr åt rfr joeotybt ujkjlf yt vjåtn ñsnm ghjnbdjgjkjåyj dj dctø dblfø. Nfr ghjnbd jñobys ñeltn ujdjhbnm kbim njn, rnj yfxfk ldbufnmcz yfpfl, døjlz d cjcnfd rjcvbxtcrjuj cjhf. E toä ytjgsnysø jñobyybrjd ytvfkj gjljphbntkmyjcnb b xdfycndf, yj lkz Yfc jñobyf zdkztncz ckjåbdibvcz ltkjv åbpyb. B Vs vjåtv ujdjhbnm j ytq cj dctç zcyjcnmç ljkujuj jgsnf. Yfc yt pfgeuftn ybrfrfz ytljlevfyyfz ythfpñthbøf. B Vs dbltkb ljcnfnjxyj rjcvbxtcrjuj cjhf b ghbyflktåfnm r ytve yt cjñbhftvcz. Jñobye_cjlheåtcndj ñeltv pfobofnm cbkfvb pyfybz. 128. Xfcnj ds elbdkztntcm, xnj Exbntkm ghtlecvfnhbdftn cfvst vfkst gjlhjñyjcnb. Yj rnj dfv crfpfk, xnj ãnb gjlhjñyjcnb vfks? Xfcnj yjuf kjvftncz jn 92


cfvjuj ybxnjåyjuj rfvyz, b cntñtkm nhfds ddthuftn d ghjgfcnm. Lfåt d ñelybxyjq åbpyb ds ecnhfyztnt jgfcyjcnb jn ñkbprbø. Hfpdt d åbpyb Yfitq Jñobys yt edtkbxtyf jøhfyf åbpyb cjnhelybrjd? Ecnf Lheptq yt ghjvjkxfn, yj yflj yfexbnmcz, rfr cksifnm pjd ghtleghtåltybz. D vfksø zxtqrfø kturj ghbcgjcjñbnm dybvfybt, yj cjnhelybxtcndj xtkjdtxtcndf jñzpsdftn ghbexbnmcz r ytjåblfyysv ghjzdktybzv. Yt ghtedtkbxbdfç _ rfålfz vbyenf ytñkfujgjkexyf, yj b ghbdsryenm r ãnjve gjcnjzyyjve ytñkfujgjkexbç ytkmpz, byfxt gjnthztncz cnjhjåtdfz xenrjcnm. Bvtyyj, rfr jhäk yf dthibyt, yt gjnthzqnt pjhrjcnm. Pjhrjcnm hfcnän kbim jgfcyjcnzvb. Ghbdtn jgfcyjcnzv! 129. Jgfcfqntcm yfdzpsdfybz yt njkmrj d jnyjitybb xeåbø pfpsdfybq, yj xnjñ b cfvbv yt cltkfnmcz yfdzpxbdsvb. Ytdjpvjåyj bcxbckbnm dhtl yfdzpsdfybz, b ytkmpz ñtp ghtphtybz edbltnm, rfr yf ñfpfht ghjlfäncz Extybt c ecnegrjq. Evtqnt gjyznm, xnj cjpyfçott cdjä pyfxtybt Extybt yt ñeltn dscnfdkznm ctñz yf ñfpfht. Njkmrj bcrkçxbntkmyjt ytdtåtcndj 93


gjcktljdfntktq vjåtn gjcnfdbnm Extybt d gjpjhyjt gjkjåtybt kåb b ghtcvsrfybz. Vjåyj åfktnm ntø, rnj ytjcdtljvkäyyj ghbyzk ãne ñtcwtkmyeç hfñjne. Yj yt levfqnt, xnj, jcelbd xeåjt yfdzpsdfybt, kturj bpñtåfnm cdjtuj cjñcndtyyjuj. Njyrf xthnf vtåle endthåltybtv b yfdzpsdfybtv. Xfcnj kturj eybpbnm ctñz yt gj wtkb. Rfålfz rfgkz, vbvj egfdifz, jñhfoftncz d åuexeç rbckjne. Yfcbkmcndtyyjt yfñeøfybt lfän kbim djlzyre, b ds pyftnt, xnj ktxtybt tä ytdjpvjåyj. Gjnjve njkmrj rfxtcndj, yj yt rjkbxtcndj. Rfålsq gjcnexfdibqcz jndtxftn cfv, yj pfpdfyysq kzåtn åähyjdjv yf itç pdjyfhz. Gjnjve pdjybnt kbim djdhtvz _ nfr bpñtuytnt yfdzpsdfybz. 130. R rjve åt yflktåbn jnytcnbcm jcjñj cehjdj? Rjytxyj, r cfvjve ctñt. Rfr cktletn ytcnb Extybt? Yftlbyt. Rfr ghjqnb vtåle øfyåtcndjv b yfukjcnmç? Yt hzls cdbltntktq, yj kbim cfv celmz! Rfålsq xnbn cdjä ljcnjbycndj, nfråt rfålsq jwtybdftn åtvxeåbye cdjtuj cjpyfybz. Extybt åbpyb jwtybdftncz åtvxeåbyjq cjpyfybz. Vjåtv kb bpdthuyenm cjrhjdbot ceotcndjdfybz?! 94


Yeåyj evtnm ghtl cjñjç ytcnb Extybt rfr gjcktlybq jujym, rfr gjcktlyçç gboe, rfr gjcktlyçç dkfue. Zdbnm yeåyj kçñjdm b ñthtåkbdjcnm, rfr r gjcktlytq djpvjåyjcnb b djlt. Gjcnegfz yftlbyt, vjåtv gjrfpfnm vthe ghtlfyyjcnb. Yeåyj evtnm cjplfnm vbh kbxyjq jndtncndtyyjcnb pf cdjä cjpyfybt; njulf jceåltybt ghtdhfnbncz d ceåltybt ghfdls. 131. Rfxtcndj cjdtnf. Xfcnj cjdtns yt ljcnbufçn cdjtuj yfpyfxtybz, gjnjve xnj lfçncz lkz ctñz. Cjcnjzybt ñhfnf yt ghbybvftncz d cjjñhfåtybt, b cjdtnxbr gjlcnfdkztn ctñz yf vtcnj ghbitlituj. B cjxedcndbt, b åfkjcnm, b pfñjnf ntren j cfvjv ctñt. Dhtl nfrbø cjdtnjd zcty yt njkmrj gj ceotcnde ckexfz, yj b d jnyjitybb gjcnhflfdituj. D cjpyfybt tuj, rfr rkbymz, djypftncz xeåljt vsiktybt. Ãnb nhtobys nhelyj pfktxbvs, bñj nfrbt cjdtns ñsdfçn jxtym åbntqcrb ghbvtybvs, yj lkz dsgjkytybz nhtñeçn cjdthityyj lheujq fehs. Rjytxyj, ds eåt pfgjvybkb, xnj cjjnyjitybt feh r ghjcnhfycndtyyjve dtotcnde lfän rfxtcndj cktlcndbz. Bvtyyj, yt jñüäv, yj wdtn lfän jcjñsq gjløjl r ltqcndbç. Jñüäv fehs lfcn yfghzåtybt gjcnegre, 95


yj genm ñeltn gjlcrfpfy wdtnjv. Nfr ytdjpvjåyj gjlcnfdbnm d xeåleç uhegge wdtnjd jghtltkäyysq cgjcjñ ltqcndbz. Ckexfqyjt ghtljghtltktybt yfyjcbn cvtitybt kextq b gfhfkbpetn djkç. Ytvjom vyjubø hfñjnybrjd jñüzcyztncz cvtitybtv hfpyjhjlysø wdtnjdsø uhegg. Pltcm jxtym ghbujlbkcz ñs ghjcnjq abpbxtcrbq fggfhfn lkz jghtltktybz jcyjdysø bpkextybq. Gjlevfqnt, rfrjt jñktuxtybt nhelzobvcz b rfrjt eukeñktybt yfghzåäyyjcnb _ bcnbyyfz ãrjyjvbz! Rhjvt rjkbxtcndf ghjbpdjlbntkmyjcnb, yflj ghtlcnfdbnm, rfr cjjnyjitybt wdtnjd jnytcäncz r cfvjxedcndbç hfñjnybrjd. Vyjuj pkjñs b ytgjybvfybz bcxtpytn ñtp euhjp b pfghtnjd. Cnhjbntkb åbpyb! Yt pfñelmnt, rfr kturj ghjcnsv ntøybxtcrbv ghbñjhjv ljcnbxm eljñcndf nhelzobøcz. Yt nevfyyfz abkjcjabz, yt ljceåbt vtxnfybz, yj ytcrjkmrj abpbxtcrbø ghbñjhjd dytcen htfkmyeç gjvjom. Eåt d Fvthbrt, d Uthvfybb b d Fyukbb jghtltkzçn jcyjdyjt bpkextybt, _ lfåt ãnf uheñfz cntgtym bccktljdfybz gjvjåtn d gthdbxysø uheggbhjdrfø, f nfv, vjåtn ñsnm, gjljqlänt r vtnjlfv djcnjxysø kfñjhfnjhbq. Ghtålt dctuj, bpujybnt dczrjt ytdtåtcndj

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b ñtp yfgsotyyjcnb ghjcnj ñjkmit pyfqnt! Herjdjlcndj vfccfvb jñzpsdftn r hfcibhtybç cjpyfybz. Nfråt eukeñbnt rehc yfxfkmysø irjk. Ãnj Vjq cjdtn lkz ytvtlktyyjuj ghbvtytybz! 132. Yt pføktñybntcm vyjujckjdbtv. D vyjujckjdbb nthztncz ubñrjcnm b yføjlxbdjcnm. Vyjujckjdbt cjplfän yfhtpre dbynf, b ybxnj yjdjt yt vjåtn ghjqnb ãnbv åthkjv. Dct gekb jnkbdfçncz yf afñhbrt, yj afñhbxyjt bpltkbt yt lfän yjdjuj pyfvtyb. Jñobyf ñtp ubñrjcnb b yføjlxbdjcnb ghtdhfoftncz d jxtym crexyjt dhtvzghtghjdjåltybt. Rfr åt lkz rfåljuj yfqlänt jcjñeç gekç gj jlyjve dbyne? Djn ghbiäk htñäyjr, djn ltdeirf, djn djby, djn cnfhbr, _ ytkmpz lfnm dctv jlby cjdtn, byfxt hfpñtuencz dfib ujcnb. Rjytxyj, ds crfåtnt: ≤Vs jnkbxyj pyftv, rfr ltqcndjdfnm≥. Vyt åt ghbläncz jndtnbnm: ntv øeåt, tckb pyftnt b yt ltkftnt. Vyjuj veåtcndf yflj, xnjñs ljckeifnm dfib yfhtpyst htxb. Ytjñøjlbvj yfexbnmcz ujdjhbnm rjhjxt b cjlthåfntkmytt, byfxt jñobyf ñeltn jnvtytyf gj crert. Crerf _ jgfcysq pdthm! Yj ubñrjcnm b yføjlxbdjcnm jlyb cjøhfyzn cdtåtcnm lthtdf cdjñjls.

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133. Jñobyf_cjlheåtcndj ghtålt dctuj cnfdbn eckjdbtv lkz dcnegktybz ldf cjpyfntkmysø htitybz: nhel ñtp uhfybw b ghbyznbt pflfx ñtp jnrfpf. Ecnhfybnm ckfñjdjkbt vjåyj ldeøcntgtyyjq jhufybpfwbtq. Rfr cktlcndbt nhelf ñtpuhfybxyjuj, vjåtn ñsnm hfcibhtybt cjpyfybz. Yj vyjubt ytlehyst kçlb yt vtxnfçn j cktlcndbb, pfgeufyyst ytghtcnfyysv nheljv b ytgjvthysvb pflfybzvb. Vtåle ntv jyb d jcyjdt djcghbyzkb bltç jñobys. Ñskj ñs gfueñyj drkçxbnm ãnbø toä ckfñsø kçltq d jñobye, yj xnjñs yt gjufcbnm bø, ytkmpz jndthuyenm. Lkz ãnjuj yeåyj bvtnm lheueç jhufybpfwbç _ lheptq jñobys. Nfv, yt gjrblfz jñsxyjuj erkflf åbpyb, ghbitlibt vjuen eukeñbnm jcjpyfybt jñobys. Nfrfz ldeøcntgtyyfz jhufybpfwbz gjpdjkztn cjøhfybnm ñjktt bcrhtyyjcnb d hfñjnt. Tckb åt ljgecnbnm ajhvfkmysq ghbäv d jñobye, nj ghbläncz gthbjlbxtcrb bcrkçxfnm ytujlysø. Byfxt ujdjhz, njulf jñobyf djjñot yt ñeltn ceotcndjdfnm. Ghjcnj ñeltn pfdtltybt gjl afkmibdjq dsdtcrjq, gthtl rjnjhsv cbytlhbjy afhbcttd ñsk ñs dscjrjyhfdcndtyysv exhtåltybtv. Lhepmz jñobys gjpdjkzçn bvtnm htpthdefh, yt ghtlfdfz jcyjd Extybz. Lhepmz jñobys yt crhsdfçn

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ckfñjcnb, b ãnj lfän djpvjåyjcnm ecgtiyj gjlrhtgkznm bø. Bvtyyj ujdjhz, lhepmz, bñj lkz Pfgflf ãnj yfbvtyjdfybt gjyznytt. Vtåle cjñjç Vs yfpsdftv bø extybrfvb bpdtcnyjq cntgtyb, yj Pfgfl gkjøj dvtoftn yfit gjyznbt extybxtcndf. Gjnjve jcnfytvcz ghb yfbvtyjdfybb ñjktt gjyznyjv. Ytktgj, xnjñ Pfgfl yt dvtcnbk Yfib ghjcnst gjkjåtybz, erhtgkäyyst ljkubv jgsnjv. Yfib Jñobys cnfhs! Jnxtuj kexibt kçlb gjyzkb jñobye b ybrfreç byeç ajhve yt ghtlkjåbkb? Gjckt jñobys _ r lfkmybv vbhfv! 134. Ghbyznbt gjhextybq Jñobys bvttn ytrjnjhst ghbpyfrb. Hfccvjnhbv bcrhtyyjcnm b åfktybt. Bcrhtyyjcnm tcnm yt xnj byjt, rfr rhfnxfqitt ljcnbåtybt. Yfghfcyj ctynbvtynfkmyst kçlb yfdmçxbdfçn yf bcrhtyyjcnm hjvfynbxtcrbt kjøvjnmz. Bcrhtyyjcnm tcnm gjyznbt htfkmyjt b ytgjñtlbvj jcnhjt. Yt lkz hfcgksdxfnjq ljñhjns vjåyj yf ghbvthfø gjrfpfnm, rfr bcrhtyyjcnm gjljñyf ghfdbkmyj yfghfdktyyjve elfhe rjgmz. Rfåljt cjvytybt eybxnjåbn vjom elfhf. Gjnjve lkz Yfc bcrhtyyjcnm tcnm rhfnxfqitt ljcnbåtybt. Lheujt ltkj åfktybt. Åfktybt tcnm keåf, ult crjkmpbn dthyfz yjuf. Åfktçobq jgecrftncz lj 99


ehjdyz åfkttvjuj. Cbkf åfktçotuj hfcndjhztncz d cevthrfø åfkttvjuj, _ cktlcndbt cfvjt gkfrcbdjt. Yt yeåyj cvtibdfnm åfktybt c cjcnhflfybtv. D cjcnhflfybb ybxnj yt hfcndjhztncz, yj yfhfcnfçn rhbcnfkks ltqcndbz. Cjcnhflfybt yt gkfxtn, yj gjvjuftn. Hfccvjnhbv jñdbytybt b zdktybt. Jñdbytybt ghfrnbxyj lkz jñdbyztvjuj. Jñdbytybt bkb pfckeåtyj _ b njulf xeåfz ajhvekbhjdrf gjexbntkmyf, bñj dctulf hfpybncz jn yfituj gjybvfybz, _ bkb jñdbytybt xfot yt pfckeåtyj _ b njulf vjåyj d cgjrjqcndbb yfñkçlfnm, rfr ghtkjvbkcz dfi gjcnegjr d pkjñt ytdtåtcndf. Zdktybt yeåyj gjyznm yt d cvsckt yfpjqkbdjcnb, yj d jnyjitybb rfxtcndf ñsnm ytdblbvsv. Vtxnf yfhjljd j ifgrt-ytdblbvrt vjåtn ghtndjhbnmcz d åbpyb ñtp djkitñcndf. Vjåyj jndktxm dybvfybt jn ctñz, yj ãnj ujhfplj nhelytt, ytåtkb ghbdktxm. Nfr yflj evtnm gjyznm bvgekmc yfñkçlfntktq. Ghb gjhextybzø dfåyj rfxtcndj ñsnm ytdblbvsv. Hfccvjnhbv jñotybt b ecnhtvktybt. Ghb jñotybb yeåyj cjøhfybnm yeåle r ctñt. Yt cghfibdfqnt cjdtnjd, yj lfqnt dscrfpfnm bø. Ghb ecnhtvktybb yt jñhfnbntcm d gjujyç, byfxt pf dfvb gjñtuen uekzrb b cnhfåf. 100


Nfr pyfqnt, rfrjdf gjrkfåf gjhextybq! J cnhføt b ghtlfntkmcndt ujdjhbk lfdyj. 135. Ybxnj yt pfrjyxtyj, ybxnj yt ytldbåbvj; gjnjve jnytcävcz cjpyfntkmyj r njve, xnj vjåyj ghtlecvjnhtnm. Rjulf Vyt elfäncz ghtlecvjnhtnm yeåyst ltqcndbz, yt cxbnfç ãnj pfrjyxtyysv. C jlyjq cnjhjys, ds b vyjåtcndj rfhvbxtcrbø jñcnjzntkmcnd vjuen yfheibnm ehjdtym ghtlecvjnhtyyjuj; c lheujq cnjhjys, Vs b yjdfz rfhvf vjåtv ekexibnm cjtlbytybt xfcntq. Bcnbyyj, rjulf vjåyj xnj-ybñelm eghjcnbnm b erhfcbnm, vs ljkåys ãnj cltkfnm. Cktgj ghbrhtgkznmcz r xtve-nj, ytcjvjve gjnjrjv, ñskj ñs gjøjåt yf rjhfñktrheitybt. Pyfxtybt gjnjrf yeåyj jcvsckbnm. Erfpfyyfz gjldbåyjcnm tcnm kbim ghbujnjdktybt r jcjpyfybç dtkbrjuj gjnjrf. Rfr yteñsdfçofz cgbhfkm, gbnftvfz cbkfvb vfnthbb, cnhtvbncz dtxysq gjnjr. Vsckm vjåtn ljujyznm cdtn, rjnjhsq vjåtn cktljdfnm pf gjnjrjv. Gjckt gjlhjñyjcntq jñbøjlf yeåyj jñhfofnmcz r zdktybzv dtkbrjuj Ldbåtybz. Yeåyj dpktnfnm b ntv jnjhdfnmcz jn Ptvkb. Ezdktybt dtkbrjuj gjnjrf ghbytcbnt r dfitve hfñjxtve cnfyre b jrhskbnt dfi 101


nhel. Rfr åt byfxt djkmänt cjdthityyeç ntøybre d dfib bpltkbz? Yfcsotyyjcnm nhtgtnf djpvjåyjcntq lfcn hbnv hfñjnt. Jn rfåljuj pthyf, cjpyfntkmyj ezdktyyjuj, gjlsvftncz cthtñhzyfz ybnm r lfkmybv vbhfv. Vsckm ghjybåtn ckjb fnvjcaths b cjnrän ghzåe. Rfr hfcnjkrjdfnm, xnj ñtp tlbytybz vbhjd åbpym yf ptvyjq rjht _ ytktgjcnm?! Cjpyfybt vfkjcnb b ytcjdthitycndf Ptvkb vjåtn gjvjxm nzujntybç r lfkmybv vbhfv. Yt pfñeltv, xnj vs _ vbrhjjhufybpvs, yfctkzçobt crkflrb gkfytns. Yflj yfexbnmcz vsckbnm. Ybrfrfz ktrwbz yt yfexbn vsckbnm. Rfxtcndj vsiktybz jñhfpetncz jlbyjxtcndjv dj dctq hfpevyjq ecnhtvkäyyjcnb. Bvtyyj, vsckm dsctrftn bcrhe åbpyb bp dtotcndf vfnthbb. 136. Pfvtxfkb kb ds, rfrfz hfpybwf vtåle ltqcndbtv gj dytiytve ghbrfpe b gjl jcjpyfybtv bvgekmcf? Vjue ghbrfpfnm ghbytcnb djls, b djlf ñeltn gjkextyf. Yj tckb djljxthgbq ghjybrytncz cjpyfybtv ytjñøjlbvjcnb, nj ñjkmit gjkjdbys ghtgzncndbq d genb ñelen ecnhfytys. Gjnjve bpñtuftv dytiybø ghbrfpjd, ghtlgjxbnftv yfdtltybt djkb, xnjñs cjpyfybt djcghbyzkj yeåyjcnm ltqcndbz. Gjvbvj jxtdblysø gjcktlcndbq nfråt dfåyf rfhvf, cjplfdftvfz dytiybv ghbrfpjv. 102


Jñhfnbnt dybvfybt, xnjñ erfps gjlujnjdkzkbcm pfhfytt b ntv vjukb døjlbnm d cjpyfybt bcgjkybntktq. Gjnjve ñtp cjnhelybxtcndf ghbrfp gjljñty gjkäne cnhtks ghjnbd dtnhf. Lfåt ytjåblfyyjcnm ghbrfpf ljkåyf ñsnm ghtldbltyf. Njulf ytjåblfyyjcnm ghtdhfnbncz d gthtåbneç yfghzåäyyjcnm. Evtqnt dspdfnm cjnhelybxtcndj yt njkmrj d gjcnegrfø, yj b d vsiktybb. Njkmrj njulf vjåyj jngecnbnm cjnhelybrf yf hfccnjzybt. Zdktybt gjhextybz jñzpsdftn r cfvjcnjzntkmysv ltqcndbzv. Gjnjr gjytcän ecnhtvbdibøcz. 137. Rjcvjujybxtcrfz byleccrfz crfprf cjjñoftn: ≤Åbkj eåfcyjt xeljdbot, gjåbhfditt kçltq. Jlyfåls xeljdbot ghtcktljdfkj yfvtxtyyeç åthnde. Xtkjdtr, cgfcfzcm, yshyek d jpthj. Xeljdbot ghsuyekj pf ybv. Bof cgfctybz, gkjdtw crfryek yf cgbye xeljdbof b rhtgrj cødfnbkcz pf njhxfobq uhtñtym. Xeljdbot yt vjukj jghjrbyenmcz yf cgbye, bñj ñhçøj tuj yt ñskj pfobotyj. Jyj ecnhtvbkjcm ñtitysv ñtujv, jåblfz, rjulf xtkjdtr bpyehbncz. Yj xtkjdtr levfk, xnj jy cdjbv jnxfzyysv gjkjåtybtv cgfcftn xtkjdtxtcndj, b d ãnjq vbhjdjq vtxnt cbks tuj yfghzukbcm ñtp ecnfkb. Xeljdbot vtåle ntv nfr ecrj103


hbkj ñtu, xnj bcrhs ktntkb juytyysv ødjcnjv. B d gkfvtyb xeljdbot cnfkj gjlsvfnmcz yfl ptvkäç. Vbhjdfz vsckm xtkjdtrf gjlyzkf lfåt dhfuf. Rjulf kçlb dblzn rjvtne, jyb ñkfujlfhzn jndfåyjuj, ecnhtvkäyyjuj dtxyj. Vsckb kçlcrbt vxfncz b lfçn yjdst cbks dcflybre xeljdbof. Ñtkst, åäknst, rhfcyst b xähyst kçlb ecnhtvkzçn vsckb r njve, rnj lfdyj cnfk juytyysv≥. Ecnhtvbnt ctñz yf herjdjlzoeç vsckm j gjvjob xtkjdtxtcnde. Levfqnt zcyj, xnj ds ltkftnt yt kbxyjt, yt uheggjdjt, yj fñcjkçnyj gjktpyjt ltkj. Ltkftvjt dfvb ñtp dhtvtyb, ñtp juhfybxtybz ghjcnhfycndf, zdkztncz nheljv yf cjtlbytybt vbhjd. Øhfybnt herjdjlzoeç juytyyeç vsckm. Ghb tåtlytdyjv herjdjlcndt vjåyj enthznm cjpyfybt herjdjlzotq vsckb. Ckfñst evs levfçn, xnj jyb jcnfçncz ñtp cdzpb c herjdjlbntktv, _ jñsxfb jñbøjlf ltkfçn bø jñsxysvb. Yj, bvtyyj, chtlb tåtlytdyjcnb vjåyj hfcnbnm gkfvtyyeç vsckm. Rfr vtnfkk reäncz jñsxysv vjkjnjv, b rfr pthyj, gjkyjt dtkbxbz ceñcnfywbb åbpyb, cjñbhftncz jñsxysv cthgjv, nfr chtlb jñsxysø ltk ecvjnhbnt ybnm dtkbxbz!

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138. J gjlyznbb dhfuf. Extybt Jñobys jxtym pfñjnkbdj bvttn d dble gjlyznbt dhfujd. Lkz ãnjuj yt cktletn jnzujofnm dhfuf ghzvsvb ghtlkjåtybzvb. Yj kbxyjt ecnhtvktybt r vbhjdsv pflfybzv vjåtn ljcnbxm nfrjuj yfghzåtybz, xnj, ytvbyetvj, dhfu jñhfnbncz r njve åt yfghfdktybç. Vs yt ljkåys pfñsdfnm, xnj dhfu njq cfvjq dhfåljq eåt cdzpfy c yfvb. D ãnjq cdzpb pfrkçxftncz ckfñjcnm dhfuf. Ytyfdblz yfc, dhfu yfxbyftn yfgjkyznm ceotcndj cdjä yfibv ghtlcnfdktybtv. Dhfu ghbrjdsdftn cjpyfybt r yfv b xfcnj rjyxftn ghjcnsv gjlhfåfntktv, d xäv, rjytxyj, ybrjulf yt cjpyftncz. Gjlhfåfnm dhfu ñeltn dj dytiybø ghbävfø, bvtyyj, njulf, rjulf ytyfdbcnm ljdtlän lj gjlhfåfybz, b njulf rjcvbxyjcnm pflfybz vjåtn b dyenhtyyj edktxm dhfuf. Rjulf pyftv, xnj dhfu ghbdzpfy r yfv, vs vjåtv cvjnhtnm yf ytuj rfr yf ythfpevyjuj ljvjxflwf. Nfr dybrybnt d ceoyjcnm dhfujd b yfqlbnt bv vtcnj. Jyb vjuen ghtrhfcyj ckeåbnm yjårfvb dfituj hfñjxtuj cnjkf. Bp eghzvcndf ytdtåtcndf jyb yfghzuen cbks, xnjñ cktlbnm pf dfvb. Yj dfv ytxtuj crhsdfnm, bñj ds hfñjnftnt lkz xtkjdtxtcndf. B dhfu ljkåty cnfnm gjlhfåfntktv bkb gjubñyenm. Ãnf ubñtkm, rjytxyj,

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ghjiksq b zcyj dshfåftn yfghfdktybt åtkfyyjt. Jy jwtybn ckexfb ñsdibt b ghtlecvjnhbn djpvjåyjcnb kexibt. Genybr, rfr ghtlcnfdkztim ctñt genm pf ghtltkfvb ptvyjq rjhs? Nfr vyjuj pfnhfxtyj cbk lkz jghtltktybz åbpyb pfghtltkmyjq! Kçlzv rfåtncz, xnj jyb chfpe ghjdfkbdfçncz d ñtcgjxdtyyjcnm. Jn ythfpdbnjq yfñkçlfntkmyjcnb ghjbcøjlbn ãnj vfkjleibt. Jgsnysq genybr, ns pyftim, xnj yf ptvkt dshfåtys pfxfnrb dctø djpvjåyjcntq. Ns pyftim ytcjdthitycndj ghjikjuj b ekjdbim ãvñhbjys ñeleobø cjxtnfybq. Ytcjdthitycndj ghjqltyyjuj genb yfgjvybn helbvtynfhyeç åbpym vbhjd vtymituj cjpyfybz. Ghjñktcrb htitybq d yjdsø cjxtnfybzø gjdktren ntñz, genybr, r genzv, ghtlyfxthnfyysv dj dctq htfkmyjq yflpdäplyjcnb. Ntñt yt yeåyj vbcnbxtcrbø pyfrjd, ns bläim dblbvsv genäv, b rfålfz nhfdbyrf ujnjdbn ntñt cgbcjr cbk ghbhjls. Ghbphfrb ntv, rnj cblbn pf gtxrjq. Ntñt åt djkys Cdtnjyjcyjq vfnthbb. Gtxfnm pfghtnf ntv, rnj cblbn d rehznybrt. Ntñt åt htfkmyst jñhfps kextq. Bv vfubxtcrbt xeltcf, ntñt åt ndjhxtcndj xbcnsø ckjäd vfnthbb.

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Genybr, hfl dcnhtnbnm ntñz; hfl dbltnm, rfr ndählj bläim! Genybr, ns pyftim, xnj botim; ntñt vjåyj gjvjxm! 141. Vs jljñhztv cjrhfotybt zpsrf. Åtkfntkmyj cjcnfdktybt yjdsø, jghtltkbntkmysø dshfåtybq. Nfrjq yjdsq zpsr dsdjlbn bp ytgjldbåyjcnb htxb. Ytxtuj gjrkjyznmcz evthibv ckjdfv. Ujhfplj hfljcnytt wtybnm, rfr cvsck pderjdjuj djpltqcndbz ghjybrftn b eñtålftn. Dct gjybvfçn, xnj eñtålfçn yt ckjdf, yj gjcskrf vjpujdjuj wtynhf. Ckflrjhtxbt vjåtn ljcnbxm wtkb dcktlcndbt faatrnf ckeifntkz. Crjhtt vjåyj gjñtlbnm vjkxfkbdsv åtcnjv, ytåtkb øjkjlyjq hbnjhbrjq. Rjulf ujdjhzn: ≤Ãnj zpsr vjtuj jnwf≥, cghjcbnt: ≤Wtks kb cnjgnfyyst cfgjub dfituj jnwf?≥ Rfålfz yferf yeålftncz d yjdsø ajhvekfø. Nfråt gthbjls åbpyb ytcen yjdst dshfåtybz. Rfåljve yjdjve dshfåtybç yeåyj hfljdfnmcz. Ytn øeåt jñüznbz nhegf! Ñtp njuj ds ghbdzpfys rj vyjåtcnde evthibø ghtlvtnjd. Dsyjc rfåljq vähndjq ñerds cjghjdjålftncz ghbxbnfybzvb, njxyj yt ceotcndetn juhjvyjuj pyfxtybz gjcnegfntkmysø ltk! Ytrjnjhst yfhjls ytuhfvjnys b gjrhsns djymç b vthprbvb 108


yfctrjvsvb. Rjnjhsq åt bp dtnøbø ghtlhfccelrjd jgkfrbdfnm? Dtcm ceyler yfctrjvsø yflj cåtxm! Yt ñeltn hfpheitybt, yj jñyjdktybt! Bobnt jñyjdktybt dj dctq åbpyb! 142. Ghfdbkmyj pfvtxtyj, xnj ltnb åbdjnysø ljkåys gjlktåfnm jøhfyt. Djghjc vfnthbycndf njn åt, xnj b e xtkjdtxtcndf. Rjulf åbdjnyst ñelen gjvbkjdfys, jyb ñelen gkfnbnm cdjq yfkju vjkjrjv, ithcnmç b nheljv. Djghjc åbdjnysø, åbdeobø jrjkj xtkjdtrf, jxtym dfåty. Vjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm, rfr bpvtybncz fnvjcathf, rjulf jrjkj åbkbof ñelen lhepmz. Cghjcbnt fhfñf j rjyt bkb ctdthzybyf jñ jktyt _ jyb crfåen yt j åbdjnysø, yj j ctvmt. Vjåyj jn åbdjnysø gthtqnb r hfcntybzv. Eåt pyftnt, xnj gjktpyj cgfnm yf rjhyzø rtlhf. Pyftnt, rfrbt cjñbhfntkb ãktrnhbxtcndf ødjqyst buks. Yt njkmrj hfcntybz ckeåfn wtktñyj cdjbv ãrcnhfrnjv, yj bø hfcnbntkmyfz ãvfyfwbz lfän cbkmyjt djpltqcndbt yf jrheåfçott. Vjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm, rfr vjåtn gjvjufnm xtkjdtre wdtnybr, cjpyfntkmyj cjcnfdktyysq. Ytktgs cvtifyyst wdtnybrb, dpfbvyj eybxnjåfçobt cdjä djpltqcndbt. Gjljñhfyyst bkb jlyjhjlyst vjuen jndtxfnm yeålfv yfituj jhufybpvf. 109


Yfcrjkmrj gjktpys cjcnfds gjktq, gjrhsnsø lbrbvb hfcntybzvb! Rjvñbyfwbb hfcntybq, cjctlcndeçobø d ghbhjlt, yeåyj bpexfnm, rfr bycnhevtyns jhrtcnhf. Ghfds exäyst, hfccvfnhbdfçobt hfcntybz rfr njyrj xedcndeçobt jhufybpvs. Cktleçobvb cnegtyzvb ñeltn bpextybt djpltqcndbz uhegg hfcntybq rfr lheu yf lheuf, nfr b yf xtkjdtrf. Xedcndbntkmyjcnm b djpltqcndbt hfcntybq yf jrheåfçott gjbcnbyt bpevbntkmys! Hfcntybz zdkzçncz rfr ñs cjtlbyäyysv dtotcndjv gkfytns, ltqcndez yf ctnm ytjoenbvsø dpfbvjltqcndbq. Rjytxyj, wtyyjcnm hfcntybq lfdyj ghtlecvjnhtyf, yj uheggjdjt dpfbvjltqcndbt yt bpextyj. Lj gjcktlytuj dhtvtyb yt gjybvfkb åbpytyyjcnm hfcnbntkmysø jhufybpvjd b ythfpevyj htpfkb gexrb hfpyjhjlysø hfcntybq, yt pfñjnzcm j cvsckt ltkftvjuj. Xtkjdtr c ñertnjv xfcnj gjljñty vkfltywe c juyäv. Bcnhtñbntkb hfcnbntkmyjcnb rjhs gkfytns gjljñys ujcelfhcndtyysv ghtcnegybrfv. Gjvybnt, Vs yt kçñbv chtpfyysø wdtnjd. 143. Vyjujt ds yfxbyftnt ltkfnm ghfdbkmyj. Ds jnvtyztnt herjgjåfnbt b ntv ghbpyfänt vjueotcndj ghbrjcyjdtybz. Ds jnvtyztnt herjgbcfybt b ntv ghbpyfänt yfckfbdfybt åbdjq ãythubb. Ds cjrhfoft110


nt zpsr b ntv ghbpyfänt yeåyjcnm rjcvbxtcrbø cñthtåtybq. Ds exhtålftnt jñotcndf dpfbvjgjvjob b ntv ghbpyfänt jñobye. Ds yfxbyftnt gthtjwtyre ghtøjlzobø wtyyjcntq b ntv ghbpyfänt ãdjkçwbç. Ds jnvtyztnt zdktybt yfcbkbz b ntv ghbpyfänt Exbntkz. Ds jnvtyztnt crdthyjckjdbt b ntv ghbpyfänt wtyyjcnm pderf. Ds jnvtyztnt nfytw gjikjcnb b ntv ghbpyfänt pyfxtybt hbnvf. Ds jnvtyztnt gkjøbt phtkbof b ntv ghbpyfänt dfåyjcnm wdtnf. Ds jnvtyztnt neytzlcndj b ntv ghbpyfänt vjom ãythubb. Ds jnvtyztnt jncnfkjcnm b ntv ghbpyfänt djkç. Tckb yt dctulf yfexyjt pyfxtybt dfibø ltqcndbq dfv zcyj, nj, zdkzz ytbpñtåyjcnm ãdjkçwbb, ds gjcnegftnt ghfdbkmyj. Dblbnt, crjkmrj e yfc cjukfcbq, _ njkmrj jcjñj negjq vjåtn levfnm j ghjnbdjhtxbb gentq. Rfr wdtns wtktñyst, gjlsvfçncz hjcnrb cjpyfybz yfhjljd! Heckj yfhjlyjuj cnhtvktybz ytcän xtkjdtxtcndj r yjdsv pyfybzv. Ãnj endthåltybt vjåtnt dshfåfnm gjãnbxtcrjq vtnfajhjq bkb ceøjq ajhvekjq, yj cvsck yfhjlyjuj gjnjrf jcnfytncz ytgjrjktñbvsv. Pføjxtn kb rnj blnb pfnhelyäyyj bkb gjqvän gjktpyjcnm cjnhelybxtcndf, yj yfghfdktybt ãdjkçwbb jcnfytncz ytbpvtyysv. 111


Ñeltn ghjwdtnfnm vbhjdjt jñyjdktybt, cjnhelybxtcndj, dpfbvjgjvjom, jñobyf. 144. Crfåtv b njve, rnj jgfcftncz dctø jñyjdktybq: ≤Hfpkjåtybt e ntñz≥. Ãnjn ghjwtcc yfxbyftncz ujhfplj hfymit, ytåtkb abpbxtcrbt ñjktpyb. Rfr vjåyj yfñkçlfnm yfxfkj yfvtxfçotujcz hfcgflf? Njkmrj d ytgjldbåyjcnb ljgeotybq. Rfr vjåyj ecnfyjdbnm, rjulf hfcgfl cnfyjdbncz jgfcysv lkz jñotcndtyyjcnb? Rjulf dzkjt cjpyfybt cxbnftn jñobye dhtlyjq xtgeøjq. Yeåyj ghjøjlbnm vbvj nfrbø åbdsø nhegjd. Byst yt dvtofçn jñobys, yj hfphzl yfgflfçobø djpveoäyyj ljkåty ñsnm bpuyfy bp jñotybz. Yeåyj gjyznm, xnj øjnz ñs vfktqitt ghbrjcyjdtybt r ãnbv jhufybpvfv dhtlyj. Pltcm yt vjåtn ñsnm djghjcf hjlcndf. Gjxntyyf cnfhjcnm ntkf ghb zcyjv cjpyfybb; bñj, d ceoyjcnb, njulf ybrfrjq cnfhjcnb ytn. Yj ghtåltdhtvtyyjt uybtybt jrheåftn ytcnthgbvsv pkjdjybtv. Rjulf Ñellf yfpsdfk xtkjdtrf _ pkjdjyysq, jy ghtålt dctuj bvtk d dble leøjdyjt cjpyfybt. Ãnjn ufyuhtyysq ghjwtcc ktxtybç yt gjllfäncz. D Yfibø gjcnhjtybzø bpñtufqnt pfnhjyenm nfrbø kçltq. Nhfnbnm yf ybø dhtvz hfdyj jnyznbç recrf jn åleotuj ujkjlyjuj. 112


Rfr ålen rfåljt ckjdj j Yjdjv Vbht! Ecnhtvktybt yjdsø cjpyfybq lfcn yjdst cjxtnfybz. Vs åläv ntø, rnj vjåtn yfpdfnm åtkfyysv yjdsq ltym. Lkz rjuj kexibq ghjiksq ltym øeåt rfåljuj yjdjuj. Jyb ghfds, bñj rfålsq yjdsq ltym jltn yjdjãdjkçwbjyyjq ghfyjq. Cnfyjdbncz yjdsv, afrnbxtcrb bpvtyäyysq hfcgfltybtv vbhjd, djpleø. Rfr yeåyj bpexfnm cjcnfd fnvjcaths cfvsvb xedcndbntkmysvb fggfhfnfvb! Cjcnfd djpleøf _ yeåyfz xfcnm ñbjkjubb. Lj cbø gjh vs uheñj ujdjhbkb j djpleøt, pfñsdfz tuj gcbøbxtcrjt djpltqcndbt. 145. J hfpdbnbb djpvjåyjcntq ltqcndbtv. Rjulf cjplfäncz jghtltkäyyjt ltqcndbt, jyj gjøjlbn yf ldbåtybt rjhfñkz. Gthtctrftvfz fnvjcathf gjcskftn ñhspub yfghzåäyyjq vfnthbb. Dct jyb yføjlzncz d vfuybnyjq catht ltqcndbz b dhtvtyyj gjlxbytys tve. Ckjb gthtctrftvjq fnvjcaths jxtym hfpyjjñhfpys; b gjktpyjcnm djpveoäyysø xfcnbw cjdthityyj ytjåblfyyf. Bcnbyyj, dkflttn ltqcndbtv njn, rnj vjåtn extcnm djpveoäyyst xfcnbws vfnthbb b, ghbpyfdfz, cåfnm bø lj tlbycndf. Lfdyj ujdjhbk dfv j cjchtljnjxtybb yf ltqcndbb. Bvtyyj, ytgjrjktñbvjt ecnhtvktybt ljkåyj ñsnm 113


d rfåljv ltqcndbb. B dcä åt ñeltn ytghfd, rnj ñeltn ghjcsgfnm bcrhs elfhf _ ãnb ñkfujlfnyst gjlhjñyjcnb. Øjpzby pyftn cxän pähyfv, b kjdtw yt egecnbn hsñe gjdthø ctnb. Juyb ytjåblfyyjcnb ghbyjczn cdtn genb. Pjdbnt bp ñtplys vfnthbb cdtnksø dtcnybrjd. Yeåyj jwtybnm, crjkmrj djpvjåyjcntq gjgflftn d djdktxäyyeç cgbhfkm. Ãnb ghbyflktåfobt djpvjåyjcnb egecnbnm ytghjcnbntkmyj. Yt ujdjhç, xnj yflj nzårj vexbnmcz yfl ghjcnhfycndjv ltqcndbz. Yeåyj pjhrj jødfnbnm rheu djpltqcndbz, b djpvjåyjcnb egflen rfr phtkst gkjls. Yeåyj bpexfnm rfxtcndj fnvjcaths. Yeåyj bpexfnm rfxtcndj ltqcndbz. Ltqcndbz vjuen cnfnm ñtccvscktyysvb, b fnvjcathf gthtgjkybncz djkyfvb hfpyjq lkbys. Nfr vjåyj juhflbnmcz jn ñtpevbz. 146. Gjtlbyrb ñtpevys. Ytn ckexftd, rjulf lhfrf vjåtn hfphtibnm cgjh. Xtv dsit ghtlvtn, ntv ytevtcnytt lhfrf. Vjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm ytjñøjlbvjcnm eybxnjåbnm dhfuf, yj nfrjt eybxnjåtybt yt tcnm cktlcndbt jcrjhñktybz. Ybxnj yt vjåtn jcrjhñbnm cjpyfntkmyjuj ñjhwf.

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147. Uthjtv yfpsdfçn xtkjdtrf, rjnjhsq ltqcndetn cfvjjndthåtyyj, yj ãnj jghtltktybt ytgjkyj. Uthjq njn, rnj ltqcndetn cfvjjndthåtyyj, yterkjyyj, cjpyfntkmyj b, ltqcndez dj bvz Jñotuj Ñkfuf, ntv ghbñkbåftn ntxtybt rjcvbxtcrjq ãdjkçwbb. Vjåyj dcnhtxfnm uthjtd d ntreotq åbpyb. Yt cktletn cxbnfnm ãnj gjyznbt ytghbkjåbvsv. Cnhfifcm ghjbpyjcbnm nfrjt gjyznbt, vs cfvb jnhtdftv genm d cnhfye ghfdls. Yeåyj gjpyfnm uthjqcndj d åbpyb; yeåyj ñtccnhfiyj ghbpyfnm yfkbxyjcnm dhfujd; yeåyj gjvybnm, xnj vtx tcnm åtpk uthjz. Evtymt jñhfnbnm vtx d åtpk ljkåyj yfqnb vtcnj chtlb nheljdjuj lyz. Rfr gjybryen dct vfubxtcrbt ajhveks gthtl ytelthåbvsv crfxrjv xthtp ñtplye r åbdjyjcyjve Cjkywe! Njkmrj gjpyfdibt htfkmyjcnm vjuen ujdjhbnm j Cjkywt ñtp gjdthøyjcnyjq cktpkbdjcnb. Øjnbv dbltnm dfc cnjqrj gjñtålfçobvb. Rfålfz gjñtlf exbn clthåfyyjcnb, yj ãnf clthåfyyjcnm nhtgtotn gjkänfvb. Yt ñjqntcm ñjkmibø jghtltktybq b, jnghfdkzzcm yf gjldbu, crfåbnt, xnjñ ghbujnjdbkb gboe yf pfdnhf. Bleobq yf gjldbu ljkåty blnb rfr yf rjkjrjk nhelf. Ecnhtvkäyyjve ljcnfnjxyf cfvfz njyrfz gjdthøyjcnm. Ecnhtvbntcm! 115


148. Nhegjd yt tlzn, yj eñbnsø åbdjnysø ghbyznj tcnm. Yflj cghjcbnm _ rfrfz hfpybwf, bñj eñbnjt åbdjnyjt hfpdt yt nheg? Vs cjdtnetv yt egjnhtñkznm vzcf bp ghjcnjq wtktcjjñhfpyjcnb. Rjytxyj, dczrbq gjybvftn, xnj egjnhtñkznm hfpkfufçobtcz rktnrb dhtlyj. Yj rjulf yfxbyftncz ãnj hfpkjåtybt? D vjvtyn ghtrhfotybz aeyrwbb åbpyb ntkj nthztn pfuhflbntkmyjt bpkextybt, b ytvtlktyyj hfpkjåtybt yfxbyftncz. Gjnjve åbntqcrfz velhjcnm j ytzltybb nhegjd kbwtvthyf. Gjnjve cjdtnetv gboe vexyeç, vjkjxyeç b hfcnbntkmyeç, ult vtymit hfpkjåtybz. Rjytxyj, ghjwtcc åbpyb hfcntybq gjøjlbn yf åbpym åbdjnysø, yj vjåyj dbltnm, xnj hfpkjåtybt hfcntybq yfxbyftncz vyjuj gjplytt. Kexit cdtåbt hfcntybz bkb ceityyst yf ñjkmijv åfhe. Øktñ kexit jghtcysq ñtp åbhjd. Ljcnfnjxyj åbhjdsø dtotcnd d rjhjdmtv b hfcnbntkmyjv vfckt. Dfit yfbvtyjdfybt dtutnfhbfycndj ytelfxyj; jyj gjlxährbdftn jnltktybt gj ghbywbge, yj yt gj ceotcnde. Gbof ljkåyf ñsnm d jñobyt hfcnbntkmyfz, bñj xktys jñobys ljkåys ghtcktljdfnm yfbñjkmieç wtktcjjñhfpyjcnm.

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D genb yt ñeltv hfpñjhxbds. Yt pfñeltv gjktpyjcnm cvjks dj dctø dblfø. Yf genb ñeltv gjvybnm, xnj tlf ldfåls d ltym ljcnfnjxyf. Ljkuj pf cnjkjv yt cblbv. 149. Lthåbnt cjjnyjitybt hfcibhtybz b pfrhtgktybz. Gjvybnt _ yt njkmrj crfxjr, yj b elthåfybt yjdjq gjxds. Vjåyj ghbdtcnb vyjuj ghbvthjd, rjulf hfcibhtybt yt lfkj djpvjåyjcntq. Hfcibhtybt, rjytxyj, gjybvftv d jnyjitybb cjpyfybz. Tckb gjñtlf cjpyfybz yt ñeltn pfrhtgktyf ntøybxtcrb, nj dvtcnj hjdyjuj cdtnf cjpyfybt yfgjkybncz jcnhsvb, ñjktpytyysvb bcrhfvb. Rfr b dj dctq åbpyb, yflj gjyznm vjvtyn cåbdfybz. Xtkjdtr, åbdeobq gjkyj, yfxbyftn pfvtxfnm rfr ñs gekmcfwbç cdjbø gthtåbdfybq. Ãnf gekmcfwbz blän gjvbvj rjkbxtcndf hfñjn b dytiybø bvgekmcjd. Ãne gekmcfwbç yflj dyenhtyyj ñthtxm, yt ghbgbcsdfnm tä gthtenjvktybç bkb ckexfqyjve faatrne. D ãnb vjvtyns cjpyfybt cåbdftncz c rfrbv-nj yjdsv ghbjñhtntybtv. Gj ytjgsnyjcnb xfcnj yfxbyfçn ñtcgjrjbnmcz j dhtvtyyjv vjkxfybb cjpyfybz, yj nfrjt pfrhtgktybt pfdjtdfybz dtlän r cktleçotve crfxre. Ghb nfrjv cåbdfybb cjpyfybz

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150. Ecrjhtybt dpfbvjgjybvfybz pfrkçxftncz yt d ghjbpyjcbvsø ckjdfø, yj d pfnhfubdfybb wtynhjd vjpuf. Ceotcndetn pfvtxfntkmysq jgsn, rjulf ujdjhzobq ecnfyfdkbdftn njr gjybvfybz b pfntv dytpfgyj vtyztn zpsr, dsñbhfz yfhtxbt, ytpyfrjvjt ckeifntkç, b atyjvty gjybvfybz ghjljkåftncz. Rjytxyj, ds pyftnt b joeofkb vjkxfkbdjt dyeitybt, rjulf vjkybtyjcyj cjjñoftncz ghjcnhfyyfz vsckm. Jyf bynthghtnbhetncz yf ñkbåfqitv lkz ckeifntkz yfhtxbb, yj bcøjlyjt yfhtxbt vjukj ñsnm cjdthityyj bysv. Jgsn gthtlfxb vsckb cnfyjdbncz jñsxysv, yj rfxtcndj gjcskrb b gjkextybz ytljcnfnjxyj bccktletncz. Vtytt dctuj yfñkçlftncz vjvtyn pfvsrfybz njrf gjybvfybz, gjckt rjnjhjuj ajhvfkmyst ckjdf cnfyjdzncz bpkbiybvb. Ghjxyjcnm ãnjuj njrf vtytt dctuj pfdbcbn jn yfghzåtybz vjpujdsø vsiw. Jn yfghzåtybz crjhtt vjuen kjgyenm cjcels, yj gjybvfybz yt ghjbpjqlän. Ds lfdyj pyftnt hfpkfufçobq pder, rjnjhsq ltqcndetn yt yfghzåtybtv, yj rfxtcndjv. Gjybvfybt gjljñyj ãnjve pdere. D lhtdyjcnb ujdjhbkb: ≤Jnrhjq dhfnf gjybvfybz, byfxt vjz vjkybz bcgtgtkbn ndjq

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pfndjh≥. Bvtyyj, vjkybz vsckb _ ãnj gthdjcjplfybt ceotuj _ ghjypftn dct pfndjhs. Yfcnegftn vjvtyn, rjulf ukfpf ckeifntkz ntvytçn, b gj abpbxtcrjve bpkextybç ghjñtuen bcrhs ytcdjqcndtyyjuj wdtnf, _ ãnjn wdtn ghbyflktåbn bpkextybç gjckfdituj. Rjytxyj, cdtn ecgtk ghjvxfnmcz ñscnhtt dctuj b faatrnbhjdfk cdtn cjpyfybz ckeifntkz. Pyfxbn, gjkt pfyznj b cgjcjñyj r lfkmytqitve djcghbznbç. Ghb jgsnfø gthtlfxb vscktq dfåyj jghjcbnm dcç jrheue, xnjñ yfoegfnm, rfr hfcghjcnhfybkfcm pfhfpf gjcskrb. Ghb ãnjv vjåyj ecnfyjdbnm cgbhfkmyjcnm ldbåtybz. Bp ãnjuj vjåyj gjyznm, xnj gjcskrb d ghjcnhfycndj yt ñelen bvtnm ecgtøf d cvsckt chjxyjq jghtltkäyyjcnb. Ghtlcnfdkzz htfkmyeç wtkm, vjåyj rhjvt ytä pfødfnbnm ñjkmijt ghjcnhfycndj d njxyjv yfghfdktybb. Rjyxbv eksñrjq. Yt ghtlcnfdkztnt kb ctñt uhjpe vscktq d ghjcnhfycndt? Jlby extybr cghjcbk: ≤Tckb vsckm dtcjvf, nj yt ljkåyj kb jn vscktq jnzujnbnmcz ghjcnhfycndj b ntv yfheibnm nzujntybt?≥ Rfr levftnt? 151. Toä jlby gjrfpfntkmysq jgsn. D nävyjt ghjcnhfyyjt gjvtotybt gjchtlbyt cnfyjdbncz xtkjdtr. 120


Jrjkj cnty ñtcievyj ldbufçncz ytcrjkmrj djghjifntktq b ytjåblfyyj pflfçn rhfnrbt djghjcs. Ghb ntvyjnt gjxnb ytdjpvjåyj jghtltkbnm njxyjt yfghfdktybt ujkjcf. Yj toä pfvtxfntkmyj: rjulf djghjc pflfäncz d ghjcnhfycndj, dyenhtyyj buyjhbhez cnjzotuj d cthtlbyt, njulf ujkjc xfcnj gjkexftncz bp ghjnbdjgjkjåyjuj yfghfdktybz. Nfrbv genäv vjåyj dbltnm, xnj yt dytiybq jhufy, yj dyenhtyyzz gjcskrf bvttn gthdjt pyfxtybt. Rjytxyj, bcrhf cdtnf gthdfz gjgflftn d wtkm. Evtymt dkfltnm njkgjç ktåbn yt d rhfcyjhtxbb, yj d gjybvfybb epkjd njkgs b d cdjtdhtvtyyjq gjcskrt nelf cdtnjyjcyjuj ujywf. Ytevtymt jñhfofnmcz d ghjcnhfycndj bkb abrcbhjdfybt jlyjuj ckeifntkz _ jlbyfrjdj dhtlyj. Nfråt Vs cjdtnetv gjkmpjdfnmcz ajyjuhfajv lkz yfexysø cdtltybq. Yj jåblfnm pfåbufntkmysø ãvjwbq xthtp vtøfybxtcreç gthtlfxe ytkmpz. Kbxyfz ãktrnhbabrfwbz njkgs ntv gjktpyf, xnj pfååäyyst epks cnfyjdzncz rfr ñs htpjyfnjhfvb b pfhfåfçn pyfxbntkmyeç gthbathbç djrheu ctñz. Rfr åt yfqnb yfbñjktt hfñjnjcgjcjñyst b pdexfobt epks njkgs? Yj vtåle ujdjhzobv b njkgjç ktnfçn

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vzxb cdtnf, b wtynhs ãythubq gskfçn xänrj, tckb jhfnjh yt ñjkney, yj djålm Jñotuj Ñkfuf. Gjghjñeqnt chfdybnm abpbxtcrbt bpkextybz ñjkneyf b djålz Jñotuj Ñkfuf. Rfr cdthrftn bpkextybt djålz, rfrbt ghzvst cnhtks ñhspåen bp jgktxbq, b rfrbt gehgehjdst djkys cnhtvzncz, b juhfålfz, b hjålfz yjdeç vjom! Yj bpkextybt ñjkneyf bpñjhjåltyj pbupfufvb, rjyws rjnjhsø jñhfotys dyenhm. Fggfhfn lkz cüävrb abpbxtcrbø bpkextybq crjhj ñelen lfhbnm ltnzv r ghfplybrfv, b evelhäyyst cnfhbrb jgznm ñelen ghtljcnthtufnm ltntq jn jgfcyjuj pfyznbz: ≤Vjåyj ghjåbnm b ñtp gjpyfybz cfvjuj ctñz!≥ 152. E Yfc jceåltyj dczrjt jgfplsdfybt. Jncencndbt jgfplsdfybz ljcnbuftncz ldevz dytiybvb jcjñtyyjcnzvb åbpyb: xänrjcnmç hfñjns b yfcnjhjåtyyjcnmç. Xänrjcnm hfñjns ljkåyf hfpdbnmcz e rfåljuj hfñjnybrf. Gjkyjvthysq, vuyjdtyysq gthtyjc dybvfybz gjpdjkztn rhbcnfkkbpjdfnm rfålsq vjvtyn hfñjns. Vjåyj ghb lbcwbgkbyt ljcnbxm zcyjuj hfcxktytybz rfåljq vsckb. Ghsårb geøksø pfqxbrjd ytghbujlys. 122


Jñjr c xänrjcnmç cnjbn dtxyjphzxfz yfcnjhjåtyyjcnm. Yt øjkjlysq cjdtn egfljxysø velhtwjd: ≤Ybxtve yt elbdkzqcz!≥, yj gkfvtyysq pjd: ≤Ñelm phzxbv!≥ Nfrfz yfghzåäyyjcnm yt tcnm yfnzyensq rfyfn, ujnjdsq kjgyenm, yj tcnm hfleuf ghtlecvjnhtybz. Yt yeåyj levfnm, xnj yfcnjhjåtyyjcnm vjåtn ltkfnm xtkjdtrf øjkjlysv b jnjhdfyysv. Djby yf ljpjht gjkjy cdtnjv djpvjåyjcntq. Ghfdlf, jy ybxtve yt elbdkztncz, bñj ghtldblbn hjåltybt yjdsø djpvjåyjcntq. Rjulf ds djcrkbwftnt: ≤Dctulf ujnjd!≥, ds rfr ñs cktletnt Yfitve ghbpsde. Njve, rnj dctulf ujnjd, vjåyj bcgsnfnm dcä ujhybkj yfghzåäyyjcnb. Lyäv b yjxmç Yfib cjnhelybrb ujnjds rj dctve cdthrfybç Rjcvjcf. B d ujnjdyjcnb lyäv ghjqlen jyb ytdblbvsvb, b yjxmç yfqlen cbzçobq genm. Ybxnj yt nhtdjåbn, rjulf ñeltnt gjcnjzyyj nhtdjåbvs. Yhfd bcrfntkz yt lfän jñvähpyenm rjhfñkç. E Yfc jceåltyj jgfplsdfybt. 153. Htibn rnj-nj: ≤Hfpdt nhelyf yfcnjhjåtyyjcnm, bkb cjbpvthbvjcnm, bkb gjldbåyjcnm, bkb ghtlfyyjcnm? Djn xedcndeç, vjue dvtcnbnm ãnb eckjdbz; yt 123


djpmvänt kb vtyz d lfkmybq genm, d Jñobye?≥ Yj hfpdt ãnjn cgtiysq genybr gjlevfk j ytghtvtyyjv eckjdbb crfpfyysø bv rfxtcnd? Pfñsnf gjcnjzyyjcnm. Vtkmrfçobt jujymrb njkmrj yf vbu dvtofçn dct rfxtcndf gkfvtyb, yj nmvf gjukjoftn bø nfr åt ñscnhj, rfr åfhjdyz cytåbyre. Ytkmpz ljdthznm vjvtyne dvtotybz; njkmrj gjcnjzyyjcnm, pfrfkäyyfz nheljv b ghtgzncndbzvb, lfän djpvjåyjcnm gjdthbnm wtyyjcnb dvtotybz. Bcnbyysq vepsrfyn yt levftn yfl rfålsv gfkmwtv, dspsdfçobv pder, _ njkmrj extybr cxbnftn ujlyst gfkmws. Bcnbyysq cjnhelybr yt levftn j yfvthtyyjv ghbvtytybb rfxtcnd nhelf. Vepsrf cath ckbdftncz c gtcytq ghtecgtzybz nhelf. Levfqnt, rfr gjcnjzyyjcnm gjljñyf ktcnybwt juytyyjq. 154. Htibn rnj-nj: ≤Ghjqle gj juytyyjq ktcnybwt≥. Blb, rfåljve genm jnrhsn. Yj gjvyb: d ckexft cnhføf, cnegtyb hfcgkfdkzçncz d åblrjt gkfvz. Relf gjqläim, yt dkfltz rfxtcndjv hfñjns? Rjulf Vs ujdjhbv: ≤Kexit cgfnm yf rtlhjdsø rjhyzø≥, nj gjcktljdfntkm vjåtn kturj bcgjkybnm cjdtn. Kturj cgfnm, lf toä gj cjdtne. Yj rjulf crfpfyj: ≤Ghbvb gjcnj124


zyysq ljpjh≥, njulf cnfyjdzncz ujhzxbvb cnegtyb. Jlyj yeåyj ndthlbnm: yt kturf ktcnybwf. Gkjø djålm, crhsdfçobq bcnbyyeç jgfcyjcnm. Ghtjljktnm tä vjåyj kbim gjkysv pyfybtv. Dbåe, blän lheujq ythfpevtw, _ ãnjn toä ytcjdthityytt. Jy gjhbwftn: ≤R xtve njhåtcndtyyjt dtofybt?≥ Crfåtv: ≤Njhåtcndtyyjcnm ghtleghtåltybz ghjgjhwbjyfkmyf eybpbntkmyjcnb gbcrf ndjtuj ghb jgfcyjcnb. Ldeyjubq, crjkmrj hfp ns nthzk kbwj cdjä ghb gthdjq nhelyjcnb! Vs dbltkb ntñz xthytt eukz, b jnhbwfybz ndjb yfgjkybkb ntñz pkjdjybtv. Gkjøj ntñt åbdäncz, cåäu ns cnegtyb b ghjcbim ns vbkjcnsyç e ñtplys≥. Yjdsq djghjifntkm: ≤Rfr ghbvbhbnm Extybt c yferjq?≥ Tckb yferf ghtgjlfän ljcnjdthyjt pyfybt, nj Extybt b tcnm yferf. Rfreç wtkm bvttn yferf, tckb jyf hfcgeøkf jn ghtlhfccelrjd? Njn, rjnjhsq nfr jñtcgjrjty njhåtcndtyyjcnmç endthåltybq, njn gjybvftn yfere rfr kjujdj vtofycndf. Njve, rnj vsckbn jñ jñobyt, njve ytn dhtlf jn gjkpeobø ufljd. Ujdjhç: pyfç dcç ckjåyjcnm gjcnhjtybz. Yt crhjç, rfr lfktrj yjcbnm rfvyb, rfr dtkbrj ñtpdjlbt. Bvtyyj ãnj cjpyfybt, bvtyyj ñtcxbcktyyjcnm pdäpl lfän endthåltybt cnegtytq juytyysø! 125


155. Gjcnhjtybt jñobys kçñbn yfghzåäyyjcnm. Vjåyj pfvtnbnm, rfr ghb hfpkbxysø dszdktybzø cgjcjñcndetn yfghzåäyyjcnm. Lfåt ghjcnfz yfghzåäyyjcnm ntkf ecbkbdftn ãktvtynfhyst zdktybz. Yt njkmrj jnzujotybt ythdysø wtynhjd, yj b vecrekmyst cjrhfotybz cjplfçn ãvfyfwbç xedcnd ecbktyyeç. Yt cbltybt d cgjrjqyjv eljñcndt, yj pfnäribt jn nhelf xktys lflen yfcsotybt ãythubb. Yj, rjytxyj, ntktcyjt njkmrj lkz cfvsø ãktvtynfhysø ghjzdktybq; ytjñøjlbvf yfghzåäyyjcnm wtynhjd vjpuf. Kexitq yfghzåäyyjcnmç ñeltn gjcnjzyyfz yfcnjhjåtyyjcnm. Ghbdtläv rfhnbye bp Yfitq Jñobys. Chtlcndf Yfib yfghzåtys lkz Jñotuj Ñkfuf. Rfålsq hfñjnftn d gjkyjq ujnjdyjcnb. Djn Yfit ñtcghjdjlyjt cjjñotybt ghbytckj chjxyeç yjdjcnm: yeåyj djpltqcndbt kbxyjt. Bpñhfyysq Cjdtn yfpyfxftn bcgjkybntkz. Byjulf bcgjkybntkm pyftn dcä ntxtybt gjhextybz, byjulf åt tve lfäncz njkmrj ghjvtåenjxyjt ltqcndbt. Xfcnj dhtvz ljcnfnjxyj kbim lkz dsñjhf yflktåfotuj gkfnmz, b xfcnj yfxfnfz rybuf blän d rybujøhfybkbot ytghjxbnfyyjq. Xfcnj lkbntkmyjcnm gjhextybz yt jghtltktyf. Xfcnj cktlcndbz gjhextybz yt dblys. Xnj åt pfcnfdkztn bpñhfyyjuj 126


hfljcnyj jnhsdfnmcz? Xnj gjvjuftn tve cgtibnm d cneåe gj ktlzysv uksñfv? Rfrjq ghbrfp vjåtn dspdfnm ecbktyysq nhel? Kbrjdfybt ujnjdyjcnb hfcnän bp ghbdsxyjq yfcnjhjåtyyjcnb. Rjulf cjdtneç hfpdbdfnm yfghzåäyyjcnm b yfcnjhjåtyyjcnm, yt lkz nzujcnb ujdjhç. Vjb cjdtns bvtçn d rjytxyjv cktlcndbb kbrjdfybt. Nt åt, rnj ecnhfifçncz yfghzåäyyjq hfñjnjç, nt ñjzncz ajhvs b pfrjyf ãythubb. Gecnm jyb ñtcajhvtyyj blen r hfpkfufçobvcz keyfv. Gecnm cdjbv hfpkjåtybtv ljgjkyzn nj, xnj gjlktåbn rjhtyyjq gththfñjnrt. Evtqnt ghtldbltnm kbrjdfybt! 156. Vjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm, xnj genm ytceobø gjhextybt ytcgjrjty. Levfçn, xnj itcndeçn rfrbt-nj vfub, xenm kb yt c ifgrjq-ytdblbvrjq. Yj herfvb b yjufvb xtkjdtxtcrbvb cnhjbncz Vbhjdfz Jñobyf _ d ãnjv ktåbn rhfcjnf gjcnhjtybz. Yj htlrj d ujhjlfø dcnhtxfçn hfleiyj gjckfywf Jñobys. Yf ytuj hsxbn cfvf ceoyjcnm ujhjlf. Bcnbyyj, cfvj ñsnbt Jñobys jnhbwftncz d ujhjlt. Cfvf fnvjcathf yt ljgecrftn gjrjz gjckfywf. Djn jy, jlbyjrbq, ghjiäk, ghjgksk, ghjktntk erfpfyyst ghjcnhfycndf, jy eåt cjjñoftn b gthtlfän. 127


Rnj åt ghbyzk tuj? Gthdjt _ ytljdthbt: ceotcndetn kb Jñobyf? Dnjhjt _ vjåtn kb ñsnm Jñobyf ltzntkmyjq b ghbybvfnm exfcnbt d lfkmybø ltkfø? Nhtnmt _ yt tcnm kb gjzdktybt gjckfywf b yeålf d tuj djpltqcndbb ghjcnj cjdgfltybt? Gjvyç, rfr jlby gjckfyysq, djpveoäyysq eñjåtcndjv gjcktlytuj cjjñhfåtybz, jndtnbk: ≤Ds, ujdjhzobq j cjdgfltybb, yt pfñsdfqnt, xnj ds cfvb tcnm cjdgfltybt xfcnbw vfnthbb. Yj tckb dfit cjdgfltybt ytelfxyj, nj pfrjy vfnthbb bvtk yf nj jcyjdfybt≥. Dghjxtv, rjulf ltkj ljøjlbn lj ltytåysø b ghtlvtnysø gthtlfx, njulf vsckb cjdgflfçn ñkfujghbznyj. Afrns b ghtleghtåltybz dsckeibdfçncz dybvfntkmyj. Dsåfnm gjktpyjt cdtltybt, øjnz ñs b jn Jñobys, åbntkm ujhjljd yt ghjxm. Nfr gjckfyysq, rhjvt ytcrjkmrbø cjnhelybrjd, dcnhtxftn rheujv åflyeç ñtplye. Lfq ltytu, lfq cjdtn yf pfdnhf, jndtlb dhfuf b cfv cubym gjcrjhtq b yt cveofq yfit gbotdfhtybt vsckzvb j vbhjdjv cjlheåtcndt. Rjytxyj, jcjpyfybt cjnhelybxtcndf_jñobys blän, yj vsiktybt jñsdfntkz eceueñbkjcm d rjcyjcnb. Pjdäv cjnhelybrjd, pyfçobø nhelyjcnb. Pjdäv ntø, rnj yt jñthyäncz yfpfl. Pjdäv ntø, rnj pyftn, xnj hfljcnm tcnm jcjñfz velhjcnm! 128


Vs vjåtv lfnm cdtltybz cfvst nhelyst, yj cjdtns Yfib dtlen r kbrjdfybç! 157. Rjulf Vs jnghfdkztv gjckfywf, Vs åtkftv tve elfxb ghb dcnhtxt c lhfrjyjv. Rjytxyj, ãnj yt ñtpjñblysq ødjcnfnsq, ljktlybrjdsq, yj cdbhtgsq xtkjdtxtcrbq ãujbpv, ljøjlzobq lj jgfcysø gfhjrcbpvjd, yfpsdftvsø eåfcjv bkb ñtitycndjv ãujbpvf. Ult åt uytplzncz ãnb lhfrjys? Endthålfçn, xnj pktqitt uytplj ñeltn d hjcrjiysø gfkfnfø, bkb pf ghbkfdrjv vtyzks, bkb d crkflt njhujdwf. Yj crjhtt yfqle ñtpdhtlyjuj vtyzke b xtcnyjuj njhujdwf, ytåtkb ghjñmç ñhjyç jnhbwfybz b ytljgeotybz. Jnhbwfntkm yt njkmrj ujnjd pfobofnm cdjä ytdtåtcndj, yj jy vtxnftn jrheåbnm dcä xtkjdtxtcndj cntyjç eåfcf. Ult åt gthdjghbxbyf ñtitycndf ãujbpvf? Xtkjdtr, ctçobq eåfc, cfv ñtpevyj ñjbncz. D jnhbwfntkt cblbn yt njkmrj ytdtåtcndj, yj b ybprbq cnhfø. Crfåbnt ltnzv, gj rfrjve ghbpyfre yføjlbnm uytplj ãujbpvf. Jyb ljkåys gjyznm, xnj ãujbcn ghtålt dctuj yt ljgecrftn, yj bcrfntkm Jñotuj Ñkfuf cnfdbn gthdjq pflfxtq dvtotybt djpvjåyjcntq.

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Yfitve gjckfywe cnjbn ghjbpytcnb kçñeç ãktvtynfhyeç bcnbye, xnjñs ñsnm pfgjljphtyysv d rfrbø-nj pfvsckfø Jñobys. Jy crfåtn: ≤Ãythubz b cdtn≥, _ rfpfkjcm ñs, cfvjt ghjcnjt gjyznbt, yj jñsdfntkm ujhjljd eåt xetn rfrjt-nj gjreitybt yf tuj ñkfujgjkexbt. Jñbnfntkm ujhjljd yfcnjkmrj ghbdsr cxbnfnm ctñz xtv-nj gkjnysv b nävysv, xnj yt ljgecrftn, rfr jy vju ñs jrfpfnmcz bcnjxybrjv abpbxtcrjuj cdtnf. Yj lfåt ltnb yt bpevkzçncz ãktrnhbxtcrjq bcrht, jn ybø bcøjlzotq. Ytjñøjlbvj ghjdthbnm ghjuhfvvs irjk b ecbkbnm kbybç ljcnjdthyjuj gjpyfybz. Cetdthbt pfujyztn kçltq d otkb eåfcf. Ytjñøjlbvj ãnj dsghzvktybt irjkmyjuj vsiktybz ghjdtcnb ytvtlktyyj, byfxt toä jlyj gjrjktybt ytljevjr ñeltn gjpjhbnm gkfytne. Yeåyj ecbkbnm tcntcndjpyfybt, gjyzd pyfxtybt ãnjuj ckjdf. Ñbjkjubz, fcnhjabpbrf, øbvbz ghbdktren dybvfybt cfvjuj hfyytuj ltncrjuj vjpuf. Lfqnt ltnzv djpvjåyjcnm vsckbnm! 158. Vfuytnbpv b ufpjjñhfpjdfybz _ jñf ãnbø lbyfvbxtcrbø afrnjhf cjdthityyj yt bpextys. Vfuytnbpv ghbdktrftn dybvfybt, rjulf rjym yt vjåtn jnjhdfnm gjlrjde jn gjxds. J ufpfø egjvbyfçn, rjulf 130


kçlb b åbdjnyst gflfçn vähndsvb. Njkmrj j nfrbø uheñtqibø ghjzdktybzø ujdjhzn, yj vfuytnbpv b ufps ceotcndeçn gj dctq gjdthøyjcnb gkfytns. Ytn ñtphfpkbxyjuj vtcnf, rfålfz vtcnyjcnm ytgjdnjhztvf gj cdjqcndfv ukeñjrj ghfrnbxtcrjuj pyfxtybz. Vjåyj bpevkznmcz yfbdyjcnb kçltq, jctlfçobø ñtp dczrjuj gjybvfybz ñkbåfqibø eckjdbq vtcnf. Vjåyj gjyznm, crjkmrj djpvjåyjcntq gjubñftn b crjkmrj jgfcyjcntq vjåtn ñsnm jndhfotyj. Ds cfvb ltkfkb bcgsnfybt c dtnrjq jhtiybrf b cfvb bpevkzkbcm, rfr ãnjn lhtdytqibq b ghbvbnbdytqibq fggfhfn yfghzufkcz, lhjåfk b ghbøjlbk d ldbåtybt, htfubhez yf gjlgjxdtyyst djls b vbythfks. Rjytxyj, ãnf jxtdblyfz htfrwbz ktåbn yt d jhtiybrt, yj d xtkjdtxtcrjv fggfhfnt. Rfr åt ltnfkmyj b ecthlyj ljkåyj ñsnm bpexftvj djpltqcndbt rfåljq vtcnyjcnb yf xtkjdtrf b yf wtkst kçlcrbt uheggs! Vyjubt vtcnyjcnb jrheåtys yfhjlyjq vjkdjq jñ jcjñtyyjcnzø øfhfrnthf bø jñbnfntktq: ult-nj kçlb cyfñåfçncz pjñfvb; ult-nj eybxnjåfçncz peñs; ult-nj ghjrfpf uytplbncz; ult-nj ctktpäyrf hfpheiftncz; ult-nj cthlwt hfcibhztncz; ult-nj øfhfrnth dzksq; ult-nj ñjlhjcnm b åbdjcnm. Vyjåtcndj ñhjcfçobøcz d ukfpf jnkbxbq. Vjåyj yfñkçlfnm, xnj ãnb 131


jcjñtyyjcnb pfvtxfçncz yt d hfcjdsø b rkbvfnbxtcrbø eckjdbzø. Cfvj cnhjtybt gjlyjåbz cjlthåbn ukfdyst ghbxbys hfpkbxbz kçlcrbø ghbjñhtntybq. Ibhjrjt gjkt lkz bpextybz, tckb ghbcnegbnm pjhrj b ñtp ghtlhfccelrjd. 159. Yt njkmrj kçlb yt jñhfofçn dybvfybz yf ãvfyfwbb ptvkb, jyb yt jnlfçn ctñt jnxänf d rfxtcndt egjnhtñkztvjq djls, øjnz b ghbdsrkb ktxbnmcz djlfvb. Lkz jøhfytybz kçlb ghblevfkb egjnhtñkznm rbgzxäyeç djle, pfñsdfz, xnj ytrjnjhst djlyst jhufybpvs åbnm d rbgzxäyjq djlt yt vjuen. Ghfdlf, vyjubt vbrhjñs gjubñfçn ghb rbgzxtybb, yj pfnj ghb jøkfåltybb bvtyyj rbgzxäyfz djlf ghbybvftn yfbñjkmitt rjkbxtcndj vähndsø xfcnbw fnvjcaths. Tckb øjnbnt gjybpbnm vjpujdeç djcghbbvxbdjcnm, gtqnt ljkuj cnjzdieç øjkjlyeç rbgzxäyeç djle, jyf cjjñoftn jhufybpve dzkeç pfnøkjcnm. Exbv egjnhtñkznm rbgzxäyeç djle kbim d cdtåtv, jxtym ujhzxtv cjcnjzybb. Vs gjkmpetvcz hjlybrfvb, ljgecrfz lkz jxbotybz rdfcws bkb gtvpe. Nea, rjnjhsq bvttncz jrjkj utqpthjd, nfråt gjktpty lkz jxbcnrb djls. Xbcnfz djlf yt njkmrj enjkztn åfåle, yj b jpjybhetn dcç fnvj132


cathe. Hfys ktxbv gjuheåtybtv d xbcneç djle. Cdtn b djlf Yfib ktrfhcndf. Ecbkbz Yfib yfghfdktys yf ghjcntqibt chtlcndf. Ghb jñhfpjdfybb yjdsø jñoby cktlbnt pf ghjcnjnjq dctø ghbävjd. Yeåyj yfxfnm c dbnbtdfnjq, gjlcktgjdfnjq htxb. Cdtlbnt htxbcnjuj genybrf yf ñthtu ujhyjuj hjlybrf _ gecnm ecnslbncz! Ysyt enhjv, ytpfvtybvj, ecnfkjcnm ghjuyfk pdjy hjlybrf. Ãnf ãvfyfwbz ãythubb hfdyf cbkmyjve djpltqcndbç ãktrnhbxtcndf. 160. Vs bpñtuftv dyeitybz, rhjvt ckexftd jndhfotybz ghzvjq jgfcyjcnb. Lheujq ckexfq, rjulf ds dblbnt ckjåbdittcz cjpyfybt, åleott bcrhe bpdyt; yj dczrjt yfcbkmcndtyyjt dnjhåtybt jceåltyj. Ãnjn ghbywbg ljkåty ñsnm d jñobyt endthåläy, jcjñtyyj pyfz ñtpuhfybxyjt djpltqcndbt djkb. Rjulf pyftnt, xnj yt njkmrj kçlb b åbdjnyst, yj lfåt ghtlvtns ldbufçncz djktç, njulf djktdfz djkyf ljkåyf ñsnm yfghfdktyf xänrj, jcvjnhbntkmyj. Ds pyftnt, xnj gthtldbåtybt ghtlvtnjd djktç yt ghtedtkbxtyj. Vfubb pltcm ytn, vfuybn crjhtt lfcn dfv ghfdbkmysq genm vsiktybz. Nfråt ñepbyyst abuehrb gjl ãktrnhbxtcndjv lflen yfukzlyjt chfdytybt. 133


Vs jcjñtyyj bpexftv djkç, rjnjhfz vjåtn ñsnm jcnhtt cnhtk. Ytkmpz pfobnbnmcz jn ãnbø cnhtk. Vjåyj ñs gjlcnfdbnm obn, tckb ñs pyfnm njxyjt yfghfdktybt cnhtk. Yj rnj åt vjåtn pyfnm ãnj yfghfdktybt?! 161. Yfñkçlfqnt gjrfpfybz ctqcvbxtcrbø rhbdsø. Jyb hfcgjkfufçncz yt gj ãrdfnjhe b yt gj vthblbfye, yj lfçn cdjç rhbdeç. Byjulf ecbktyyfz ltzntkmyjcnm gjnhzctybq b cldbujd cjdgflftn c yfghzåtybtv nfr yfpsdftvsø cjkytxysø gznty _ gjkexftncz yfghzåtybt cjkytxyjq cbcntvs. Yt yeåyj ñsnm ghjhjrjv, xnjñ gjyznm, xnj vjpujdfz ltzntkmyjcnm d ãnb chjrb ñeltn ghjntrfnm jcjñtyyj. Cjwbfkmyst cnhtvktybz nfråt bvtçn cdjç rhbdeç hfcghjcnhfytybz. Jcvjnhbntkmyj yeåyj yt ghthsdfnm ãnj cktljdfybt cjñsnbq. Nhtobys cldbujd jlbyfrjds rfr d gjxdt, nfr b d yfhjlysø cnhtvktybzø. Yjdsq vbh ljkåty zdbnm xenrjcnm kexituj ctqcvjuhfaf. Tckb rnj eckjåybn itcndbt yfhjljd, njn vjåtn gjkexbnm dtyjr ytdtåtcndf. Ytkmpz jghfdlsdfnmcz ytpyfybtv pfrjyjd, nfråt ytghbcnjqyj lkz djlbntkz gthtvtybnm yfghfdktybt yf jñhfnyjt. Ybrnj yt vjåtn herjdjlbnmcz kbxysv, yj, cjgjcnfdkzz wtyyjcnb Jñotuj Ñkfuf, vjåyj dsñhfnm genm crjhtqibq. 134


Yeåyj yt hfccsgfnm yb jlyjq djpvjåyjcnb. Rfåtncz, crfpfyf ghjcnfz, yfljtdifz bcnbyf, yj dtlm tä ybrnj yt ghbvtyztn, b gkfy ltqcndbq bpujnjdkztncz dj nmvt rjvyfns, f yt yf cnjhjåtdjq ñfiyt. Yflj yfñkçlfnm yt nfr, rfr øjxtncz, yj nfr, rfr tcnm d ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. 162. Rnj edthztn j cdjtq ghtlfyyjcnb htfkmyjve b ljcnjdthyjve, njn ljkåty jcjñtyyj ghbdtncndjdfnm hfcgjpyfdfybt ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Yt ghbndjhyjt pfbrfybt gthtl vtnjljv ghbpyfyyjuj fdnjhbntnf, yj ñjhtybt b ujhtybt bcrfybq ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Bvtyyj ytelthåyj, bvtyyj ytbpvtyyj d zhjcnb ecnhtvktybz, rjulf dscjrfz ujhf, rfr vfktymrbq øjkv, yt pfrhsdftn ghjcnhfycndf. Chtlb dpkänjd yfexftvcz dtkbrjve lfhe nthgtybz. Cbzçott, ndjhxtcrjt nthgtybt yt gjøjlbn yf venysq gkfo ytghjnbdktybz pke. Rfr ytelfxyst hsñfrb, cblzn cjuñtyyst ytghjnbdktyws. Bø cnfdrf yf lkbye ybnb ghzåb yt vjåtn jñeplfnm nfytw cnbøbq. Ndjhxtcrjt nthgtybt pyftn rkçxb Yjdjuj Vbhf; gjnjve nthgtybt ndjhbn vjom b c rfålsv xfcjv ltqcndbntkmyjcnb yfghzuftncz.

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Ytghjnbdktybt gjljñyj ljkuj jnrhsnjve akfrjye ñkfujdjybq, yj ndjhxtcrjt nthgtybt rfr cnfhjt dbyj pfndjhtyyjt. Cktlbnt pf yfghzåäyyjcnmç ndjhxtcndf d rfåljv cjwbfkmyjv gjcnhjtybb. Dthyj nj gjcnhjtybt, ult jrhskztncz hfpyjjñhfpyjt ndjhxtcndj. Tckb ndjhxtcnde nzujcnyj, ãnj dthysq pyfr jibñrb d gjcnhjtybb. Ãnbv jibñrfv yt lfdfqnt uytplbnmcz. Pjdbnt rfvtyobrjd, gthtrkflsdfqnt cntys, gjrf gtcym yt pfpdexbn cdjñjlyj. Cnfhfz ktutylf ujdjhbn: C lfkmytuj vbhf ghbiäk gjckfytw, xnjñs lfnm kçlzv hfdtycndj, ñhfncndj b hfljcnm. Kçlb lfdyj pfñskb gtcyb b jvthndbkbcm ytyfdbcnmç. Gjckfytw bpujyzk ntvyjne b ntcyjne, gjhfåfk pfhfpe b cnhjbk hfljcnysq nhel. Enbøkf ytyfdbcnm, b vtx gjckfywf jcnfkcz yf cntyt. Yj dct ñskb vjkxfkbds b yt evtkb pfgtnm. Njulf gjckfytw cjñhfk vfktymrbø ltntq b edäk bø d ktc b crfpfk: ≤Dfib wdtns, dfib hexmb, dfib lthtdmz. Ybrnj yt gjiäk pf yfvb. Z jnljøye, f ds yfgjkybntcm hfljcnmç≥. Nfr yfxfkbcm hjñrbt ghjuekrb gj ktce. Yfrjytw cfvsq vfktymrbq jcnfyjdbkcz yf gjkzyt b pfcvjnhtkcz yf kex cjkywf. Njulf åäknfz bdjkuf yfxfkf cdjq ghbpsd. Pf ytç 136


vfksi pfitgnfk b crjhj hfljcnyj pfpdtytk: ≤Yfit cjkywt!≥ Dthtybwtq dthyekbcm ltnb yf gjkzye, b pfpdexfk yjdsq ubvy Cdtne. Gjckfytw crfpfk: ≤Kçlb pfgtkb. Yfcnfk chjr!≥ 163. Ndjhxtcndj tcnm jcyjdf ãdjkçwbjyyjcnb. Xtv åt vjåyj erhtgbnm zdktybz ndjhxtcndf? Vjåyj kbim bcnjxybrjv ñjlhjcnb. Hfljcnm tcnm jcjñfz velhjcnm. Ñjlhjcnm _ jcjñfz ntøybrf. Eukeñktybt ñjlhjcnb ghjbcøjlbn jn cjpyfybz ndjhxtcndf ãktvtynjd. Rjytxyj, ndjhxtcrjt nthgtybt b ñjlhjcnm zdkzçncz ldevz rhskmzvb hfñjnybrf. Vs gkjøj gjybvftv ctynbvtynfkmyjt ckjdj dljøyjdtybt. Rjulf cjpyfybt hfñjnftn, njulf yt r xtve øjlbnm d ujcnb r dljøyjdtybç. Njxyj gjldfkmysq åbktw pf vbkjcnmç r ñkfujltntkç! Njulf jgznm yfxyäncz ltktybt yf ñelyb b ghfplybrb. Njulf vjåyj jgznm yfxfnm ghfplyjdfnm lyb hjåltybz. Yfif Jñobyf bvttn jlby ytcrjyxftvsq ghfplybr nhelf, ult ñjlhjcnm ckeåbn dbyjv hfljcnb. Ytkmpz entifnmcz dljøyjdtybtv. Vjåyj ecgtnm elthåfnm cjpyfybt yf cntgtyb ndjhxtcrjuj nthgtybz b gtnm gjljñyj gnbwfv, lkz rjnjhsø gtcym tcnm dshfåtybt ceotcndf, yj yflj bpujyznm geufk gtcyb, bñj 137


cntgtym gtcyb tcnm cntgtym rfxtcndf nhelf. Yeåyj ghjqnb ñjlhj, rfr lhtdytt chfdytybt _ kän cnhtks! Yt gjrfåtncz kb cnhfyysv, xnj nfr xfcnj ujdjhç j nthgtybb, j ghtgzncndbzø, j ñjlhjcnb, j ytcrjyxftvjcnb ñjhmñs? Bvtyyj, d hfpyjt dhtvz b c hfpysø cnjhjy reç ljcgtø ñtccnhfibz. Gjvybnt, ãnf pfrfkrf yt vjåtn ñsnm cjdthityf d jlyjxfcmt. D hfpysø ntvgthfnehfø pfrfkztncz vtx; lfåt Ñellf yt jnhbwfk, xnj d cfvsq cxfcnkbdsq xfc yflj gjvybnm j ytcxfcnmt, yt evtymifz hfljcnb. Yj pfrfkäyyfz hfljcnm yt pyftn geufk. Hfljcnm tcnm jcjñfz velhjcnm. 164. Dhfx ghtldblbn ntxtybt ñjktpyb, b ds ghbybvftnt ghtlkjåtyyst vths. Fcnhjyjv ghtldblbn cjkytxyjt pfnvtybt, b ds pfgfcftntcm ytjñøjlbvsv jcdtotybtv. Cjwbfkmysq gcbøjkju ghtldblbn ntxtybt cjñsnbq, njulf ds rhbxbnt: ≤Ghjhjr!≥ _ b d eåfct ghzxtntcm d cfvst nävyst eujkrb. Rjytxyj, ds ltkftnt ãnj ñelnj ñs lkz cjøhfytybz yfexysø vtnjljd, yj, d ceoyjcnb, kbwtvthbt b cnhfø vtifçn dfv gjhfpvsckbnm, ult ñjkmit yfcnjzotuj pyfybz _ d ñkbpjherjv kb ceåltybb dhfxf, gjkpfçotuj gj dytiybv gjrhjdfv, bkb d lfkmyjpjhrjq vtnrjcnb cjwbfkmyjuj ghjdblwf, d rjnjhjv cjxtnfkcz jgsn c 138


ytghtkjåyjcnmç. Dcgjvybnt dfibø cjwbfkmysø ghjhjrjd, rjnjhst yf cnjktnbz dgthäl yfvtxfkb cjñsnbz xtkjdtxtcndf. Ds yt yfpsdftnt bø vbcnbrfvb bkb øfyåfvb. Dvtcnt c Yfvb ds pjdänt bø lfkmyjpjhrbvb gcbøjkjufvb. Yf ãnjv jghtltktybb Vs c dfvb cjukfcbvcz b jcnfyjdbvcz. Rcnfnb, dcgjvybv, xnj jceåläyyjt ckjdj ghjhjr pyfxbn ≤ghtlhtrfçobq≥. Cjwbfkmyst ghjhjrb ghtlhtrfkb ntxtybt cjñsnbq, pyfxbn, ãnj gjyznbt yt vtytt htfkmyj, ytåtkb vtlbwbyf b fcnhjyjvbz. Vføfnvf jpyfxftn dtkbrfz leif, dvtcnbdifz zdktybz Yjdjuj Vbhf. Yj yt ñeltv yfpjqkbds, ãnf jcjñtyyjcnm d jñobyt jceåltyf. Cjukfcbt ljcnbuftncz yt njkxrfvb, yj iägjnjv yf xenrjt eøj. Zdbnt gjybvfybt, xnj tcnm xenrjt eøj, lkz rjnjhjuj Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm ghtdhfoftncz d ghtltk xtkjdtxtcrbø djpvjåyjcntq. Njn ghfd, rnj vjåtn gjrhsnm ceåltybz ghjnbdybrf gjkyjcnmç, yt rfcfzcm yfxfkf b rjywf tuj. Lkz ãnjuj yeåyj ñsnm, øjnz ñs d vfkjq vtht, ghtlhtrfçobv, dthytt _ htfkmyj-lfkmyjpjhrbv. 165. Ghb ecnhjqcndt jñoby yfñkçlfqnt, xnjñ gjl kbxbyjq bcgjkytybz pfdtnjd yt jñyfheåbkjcm cdjtrjhscnbz. Eybxnjåtybt ndjhxtcrbø pfdjtdfybq ckt139


letn pf nävysv cdjtrjhscnbtv. Crfåen: ãnjn xthdm ckbirjv cdjqcndtyty ytdtåtcnde xtkjdtxtcndf. Ntv ñjktt yeåyj pyfnm ghbxbye tuj pfhjåltybz. Cfvfz ceotcndtyyfz ghbxbyf ñeltn ghtbveotcndj. Yflj dctvb cbkfvb hfpheifnm ãnjn dhtlysq ghbphfr. Ecnhjqcndj jñobys ghtålt dctuj ghtlecvfnhbdftn hfdtycndj. Ljgecnbnt jibñre ghjnbd hfdtycndf, b ds chfpe yfnjkryäntcm yf ueñbntkmyjt ghtbveotcndj. Zdktybt ythfdtycndf cjplfän rfxtkb _ ñjkmibq gjlüäv jlyjuj cjplfän kbim ñjkmibq gjlüäv lheujuj. Tlbycndtyysq dsøjl bpñfdbnmcz jn hfcifnsdfybz cnjkñjd _ ãnj hfdtycndj. Yføjlzncz wbybrb, rjnjhst ujdjhzn: ≤Gecnm rfxfçncz, ntv ñjktt ãythubb d ghjcnhfycndt≥. Pfvtxfybt, yt kbiäyyjt cvsckf, yj, bvtyyj, jñott ltkj yfcnjkmrj yeålftncz d pfñjnkbdjcnb, xnj zdktybt bcnbyyjq ãrjyjvbb cbk ljkåyj ñsnm ljgeotyj. Cfvsq ãrjyjvysq ghbywbg _ hfdtycndj, jyj eybxnjåftn ghtbveotcndj b cdjtrjhscnbt. 166. Bcnbyysq åfh-wdtn _ yfcnjzott ñtcrjhscnbt, yj jyj ljkåyj ñsnm ghjzdktyj yt njkmrj gjcnegrfvb, yj, bvtyyj, d cjpyfybb. Gjcnegrb, rfr ñkeålfçobt ntyb, zdkzçncz ytnjxysv jnhfåtybtv, 140


b dbøhm lhjåfobø eckjdyjcntq crhflsdftn cvsck ltqcndbz. Vjåyj kb celbnm gjcnegjr ñtp ghbxbys b cktlcndbz? Njulf cgfcbntkm jrfåtncz jcrjhñbntktv b jnlfdibq gjrfåtncz cregwjv. Yj yt kturj ecnfyjdbnm cjpyfybt ñtcrjhscnbz _ ytvbyetvf bylbdblefkmyjcnm. B cjxtnfybt ñtcrjhscnbz vjåtn ghjbpjqnb kbim ghb zcyjv jcjpyfybb ñeleotuj. Ñtcrjhscnbt yt cnhjbncz yf jgsnt ghjikjuj; njkmrj htfkmyjt joeotybt ñeleotuj vjåtn ckjåbnm dyenhtyytt ceåltybt j uhfybwfø djpvjåyjuj. Rnj levftn d nbibyt yjxb: ≤Ghjikjt yfexbkj vtyz wtyyjcnb ñtcrjhscnbz≥, _ njn epybr. Yeåyj ghjgtnm ubvy ñtcrjhscnbç d kexfø cjkywf, rfr gnbwf tlbyjt cdjä dshfåtybt, pyfz ñeleobq ltym, rjulf ceåltyj yfxfkj gthtkänf. Gjyznbt gthtkänf bvttn pyfxtybt lkz jcjpyfybz ñtcrjhscnbz. Ñeleott vjåtnt gjyznm rfr jñjhjn jn yjxb rj lyç. Ghjcgzn cjyyst, yj Jñobyf ñjlhcndetn. Yfif Cnhfåf yt cxbnftn yb jlby ljpjh ybxnjåysv. 167. Xfcnj ñskj crfpfyj: jnlsø vjåtn ñsnm ljcnbuyen yt cyjv, yj gthtvtyjq nhelf. Rjytxyj, rnj-nj gthtcnfk cgfnm b gjkexbk gkjøbt cktlcndbz. Yeåyj ghtldfhbntkmyj yfexbnm ythdyst wtynhs hfñjnfnm 141


uheggfvb. Yeåyj hfcxktybnm wtynhjdeç hfñjne. Yeåyj evtnm cjtlbybnm cfvst ytjåblfyyst uheggs b pfntv ñscnhj cvtyznm bø rjvñbyfwbb. Nfr ekbxysq vepsrfyn, buhfz jlyjdhtvtyyj yf ytcrjkmrbø bycnhevtynfø, ghjltksdftn eåt jlyj bp gjktpysø eghfåytybq. Lbrnjdfybt jlyjdhtvtyyj ytcrjkmrbv gbcwfv gjktpyj. Cjtlbytybt xntybz b lbrnjdfybz gjktpyj. Ldbåtybt her d ghjnbdjgjkjåyjv yfghfdktybb gjktpyj. Jcnfyjdrf lsøfybz b vsiktybz gjktpyf. Vjåyj gthtxbckbnm vyjåtcndj eghfåytybq djkb, j rjnjhsø vjåyj crfpfnm: gxäks cjplfçn ektq nthgtybtv. 168. Jcnjhjåyj dshfåfqnt åtkfybz. Rfålsq pyftn vyjuj ghbnx b crfpjr, lfçobø jgbcfybt ehjlkbdsø gjcktlcndbq ytjcnjhjåysø åtkfybq. Gjvybnt, rfr hflåf åtkfk gjkexbnm ghtrhfcysq ldjhtw b gjkexbk tuj, yj, døjlz, gjlevfk j nbuht yfgflfçotv, b nbuh zdbkcz b hfcnthpfk tuj. D cbvdjkfø ghbnx vyjuj htfkmyjcnb. Tckb ñs kçlb jcjpyfkb vjom djkb, nj vyjubt zdktybz gjkexbkb ñs ghfrnbxtcrjt jñüzcytybt. Rjytxyj, yt yfcbkmcndtyyjt yfghzåtybt djkb, yj lbyfvbxyjcnm cjukfcjdfyyjcnb wtynhjd lfän ãaatrn bcgjkytybz. Nfr, xfcnj gjdnjhtyyjt åtkfybt, rfr pfnegktyysq rkbyjr, yt hfcctrftn ghjcnhfycndf. 142


Vtåle ntv pdjy ytålfyyjq cjukfcjdfyyjcnb gjhfåftn cfveç gkjnyeç gjdthøyjcnm. Hfccrfps j rjkleyfø, yfcskfçobø cvthnyst ñjktpyb, yt dsvsctk, yj njkmrj nen ytn ybrfrjuj rjkljdcndf, yj njkmrj eghfåytybt djkb. Cfvsq ckfñsq ubgyjnbpäh vjåtn pfcnfdbnm bcgsnfnm ãaatrn enjgktybz. Jy åt vjåtn ghbrfpfnm evthtnm d jghtltkäyysq chjr. Nfrbt ckexfb ecnfyjdktys. Ntgthm djjñhfpbnt djkç, djcgbnfyyeç d ñkfujghbznysø eckjdbzø, b ds kturj cjukfcbntcm, xnj ≤cvthnysq ukfp≥ Djcnjrf bvttn jcyjdfybt. Ytkmpz cjvytdfnmcz d vjueotcndt djkb, yj lheujt ltkj _ jghtltkbnm ãnj vjueotcndj d åbpyb. Rfr yfqnb b hfcgjpyfnm eckjdbz, rjulf åtkfybt djypftncz d ceotcndj, jgjpyfyyjt yfitq djktq? Yeåyj jcjñtyyj cktlbnm pf bcrhfvb yfituj cjpyfybz. Rjulf ntkj gjxnb ytphbvj, nj vjkybz vsckb, dcä-nfrb, cdthrftn, b yf jcnhbt ãnjq vjkybb åbpym b cvthnm. Bpdtcnty ghfdbntkm, rjnjhsq ujdjhbk ghtcnegybrfv: ≤Yt vjåtnt åbnm ñjktt lyz≥, b r yjxb bø yføjlbkb ñtplsøfyysvb. Jndtncndtyyjcnm nfrbø gjcskjr dtkbrf. B rfålsq xfc vs gjcskftv cnhtks gj dctv yfghfdktybzv. Ñelmnt jcnjhjåys d dshfåtybb åtkfybq. 143


169. Ghb ktxtybb ñjktpytq djktdsv ghbrfpjv, gjvybnt, xnj ytkmpz ecnhfyznm pfhfpyst ñjktpyb dyeitybtv. Jñsxyfz jibñrf d ytevtybb hfpkbxbnm rheu djpvjåyjuj djpltqcndbz. Vtåle ntv ktxtybt pfhfpysø ñjktpytq dyeitybtv vjåtn ghbytcnb ytgjghfdbvsq dhtl. Cjñfre, pfctdieç d djhjnfø, kexit yt nhjufnm; tckb yfxfnm tä øktcnfnm, zhjcnm tä eltcznthbncz. Nfr åt c vbrhjñfvb: bø vjåyj gjñjhjnm kexfvb bkb ghjnbdjltqcndbtv cbk jhufybpvf, yj ñbx djkb pfcnfdbn gjybryenm vyjubt wtynhs, b gjåfh gjukjnbn yjdst jñkfcnb. Kexb gjlctrfçn rjhyb pfhfps, yj djkz dtlän r yjdjq ltzntkmyjcnb. Rjytxyj, nhelyj jghtltkbnm ñjktpym d pfxfnrt; njkmrj bccktljdfybt dsltktybq b rfhnbyf bpkextybq lfcn jghtltktybt. Tckb dsltktybz vjuen byjulf ddtcnb d pfñkeåltybt jñ bcnbyyjq ghbxbyt, nj bthjukba bpkextybz gjrfåtn jcyjdfybt ñjktpyb. Rfålfz jcjñtyyjcnm ltzntkmyjcnb jhufybpvf lfän wdtn b pyfr yfxthnfybz. Vjåyj dtcnb yfñkçltybz ghb rfåljq ñjkmybwt. 170. Vs ujdjhbkb jñ eckjdbzø b jñ jnkbxbzø. Rjytxyj, zdbncz djghjc: xnj tcnm jñsxyjt b xnj ytjñsxyjt? D ghtlcnfdktybb Yfitv dcä jñsxyj. D 144


ghtlcnfdktybb vfkjcjpyfntkmyjuj xtkjdtrf vyjujt ytjñsxyj. Jñsxyjt b ytjñsxyjt ltkzncz kbim gj cntgtyb cjpyfybz. Dthytt crfpfnm _ dvtoäyyjt b ytdvtoäyyjt, epyfyyjt b ytepyfyyjt. E Yfc ytjñsryjdtyyjt gjybvftncz byfxt. Rfålsq nbg cjpyfybz bvttn jñsxyeç uheggbhjdre wtynhjd, dhjlt njuj rfr ds jghtltkztnt nbg vfntvfnbxtcrjuj bkb abkjcjacrjuj vsiktybz. Bp ãnbø rheujd cjpyfybz xfcnj dsltkztncz uheggf wtynhjd, bv yt ghbceofz. Ãnb dtndb cjpyfybz gjbcnbyt ytjñsryjdtyys; bvtyyj, jyb lfçn jñkflfntkç vyjuj djpvjåyjcntq, yj vfkj cxfcnmz ptvyjuj. B htlrj cfv jñkflfntkm vjåtn erfpfnm cbvgnjvs ãnbø dtndtq cjpyfybz. Ãnj ytjñsxyjt njytn d henbyt cjpyfybz. Lfåt jgsnysq gcbøjkju c nheljv yfqlän ãnb ytjåblfyyst wdtns. Tckb ñjktpyb xänrj jnhfåfçncz yf bpkextybb, nj ytjñsxyst dtndb cjpyfybz c nheljv ajhvekbheçncz. Rjytxyj, bpkextybz lfçn gjkysq jñkbr xtkjdtrf, yj dcä gcbøbxtcrb ytjcjpyfyyjt lfän lhjåfobt, nhelyj abrcbhetvst yfxthnfybz. Pltcm jñkfcnm ytjñsxyjuj lkz bpdtcnyjq uheggs cjpyfybz, b nfrbt wdtns yf rfvyzø jcjñtyyj wtyys. Dlevfqntcm d gcbøjp, dlevfqntcm d ghtcnegyjcnm, dlevfqntcm d ytehfdyjdtityyjcnm! 145


171. Rjve-nj gjrfåtncz, xnj vyjujt bp crfpfyyjuj jñotbpdtcnyj. Yeåyj endthlbnm hfpkbxyjuj gjhzlrf gjyznbz, njkmrj ãnbv genäv fccbvbkbhetncz cjpyfybt. Vjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm ldeø cjñtctlybrjd, ghbñkbpbntkmyj jlbyfrjdj hfpdbnsø b dcä åt yt gjybvfçobø lheu lheuf. Vjåtn ñsnm, d bø cjpyfybb ytljcnfän kbim ytcrjkmrj vfksø pdtymtd, yj ãnf vfkfz hfpybwf pfcnfdkztn byfxt dhfofnmcz peñxfnst rjkäcf vsiktybz, f d htpekmnfnt yfxbyfçn ldbufnmcz cjdctv hfpkbxyst hsxfub. Njkmrj gjkyfz ljujdjhäyyjcnm yt ddtlän ybrjuj d eothñ. Dtlm Vs yt jnrhjdtybz bphtrftv b yt ghjgjdtletv, Vs ghjcnj ljujdfhbdftvcz, xnjñ fccbvbkbhjdfnm cjpyfybt lkz cjdvtcnyjq hfñjns. Nfrbv jñhfpjv, d gjkt phtybz døjlzn hfpyst gjlhjñyjcnb, rjnjhst rtv-nj eåt ghjlevfys, yj lkz erhtgktybz wtgb ljkåys ñsnm endthåltys d cjcnjzybb yfcnjzotuj vjvtynf. Bvtyyj, yflj xbcnbnm wtgm vsiktybz. Yeåyj cjñhfnm dcç pfñjnkbdjcnm lkz ecgtøf cjnhelybxtcndf. Rjytxyj, d jñobyyjv cjpyfybb yt jñbåfçncz, yj ytcdjtdhtvtyysvb gjcnfyjdrfvb vsckb vjåyj gjlåtxm cjñtctlybrf, ghbxbybd dhtl ltke; gjnjve Vs cktlbv pf gjcktljdfntkmyjcnmç yfhfcnfybz cjpyfybz. Yt Yfit ltkj ghjcnj hfplenm hfpvths cjpyfybz. Njkmrj 146


jhufybxtcrjt hfpdbnbt b hfpyjjñhfpbt gjcnegktybq jñeckjdzn ltqcndbntkmysq jñüäv cjrhjdboybws. Ghtlcnfdmnt b gjvybnt Yfib ñtctls yf ñthtue hexmz. Yb jlye bp djky tuj ytkmpz gjdnjhbnm, yj ukfpe jyb dct rfåencz cøjåbvb. Cktlbnt pf cjpdexbtv cjnhelybxtcndf. 172. Cjvytdftncz rnj-nj, rfr ghbvbhbnm fccbvbkzwbç cjpyfybz c jñvtyjv vscktq, yfpsdftvsv cgjhjv? Yeåty kb cgjh? Yt ñeltn kb cgjh zdktybtv lbccbvbkzwbb? E Yfc cgjhf yt ceotcndetn, jy dshfåftncz d jñjçlyjv jñjufotybb cjpyfybq. Bvtyyj, ljkufz fccbvbkzwbz gjpdjkztn ghtndjhznm ghjnbdjhtxbz d jñjufotybt pfgfcf pyfybq. Ghjnbdjhtxbz jñsxyj kbim hfpkbxyst rfxtcndf jlyjuj b njuj åt zdktybz. Rjytxyj, rjulf ghjnbdjhtxbz bcntrfçn bp ytdtåtcndf, nj b cgjh jñhfoftncz d zve jnñhjcjd. Gecnm cjpyfybt jcdtnbn gjldfk vsiktybz, b cvtiyst cgjhs jñhfnzncz d hfcceåltybz gjkmps b hfljcnb. 173. Jnvtxftncz, xnj ytrjnjhst kçlb ytcen rfr ñs ecgtø pf cjñjç. Cetdthbt yfpsdftn bø cxfcnkbdxbrfvb. Yferf ghbgbcsdftn ecgtø ndähljcnb djkb. Vs åt ljñfdbv, xnj jñsxyj ãnb kçlb bvtçn fccbvbkb147


hjdfyyjt cjpyfybt. Jyb ltkfçncz ghtlcnfdbntkzvb rjkktrnbdf, djdktrfz d gjcktlcndbz cbke, yfghzåäyyeç vyjubvb cjexfcnybrfvb, rjnjhst d lfyysq vjvtyn byjulf lfåt yt gjljphtdfçn hfcøjlf ãythubb. Djdct yt nhtñetncz, xnjñ dtcm rjkktrnbd pyfk lheu lheuf. Xthtp epks gthtlfxb vuyjdtyyj gthtlfäncz djkyf ãythubb; gjnjve yfkbxyjcnm vtåleyfhjlyjuj rjkktrnbdf jxtym yeåyf lkz ltqcndbq. Gjnjve vtåleyfhjlyfz djkyf yeåyf, bñj hfpyjjñhfpbt lbyfvbrb lfcn ñjkmit yfghzåtybz. D Yfitq Jñobyt vjåyj dcnhtnbnm vyjubt yfhjlyjcnb b hfpyjjñhfpyst cgtwbfkmyjcnb; ãnj ghfrnbxyj lkz rjyltycfwbb djktdsø djky. Vjåyj cjøhfybnm dtcm gjntywbfk bylbdblefkmyjcnb b yfcnhjbnm cjpdexbt cjpyfybq. Vs ghjnbd bcrkçxbntkmyjq cgtwbfkbpfwbb; kexifz rjycnherwbz rjkktrnbdf bvttn ãnj eckjdbt d dble. Ds ytlfdyj ñtctljdfkb j pyfxtybb kextq d ñtcghjdjkjxyjq gthtlfxt. Bvtyyj, kexb cgjcjñcndeçn cjtlbytybç rjkktrnbdf yf lfkmybø hfccnjzybzø. Bvtyyj, nt kexb, rjnjhst nfr ytlfdyj jnhbwfkbcm, bvtyyj jyb nren yjdjt gjrhsdfkj gkfytnt. Kexb bvtçn nj ghtbveotcndj gthtl lheubvb djkyfvb, xnj jyb ktuxt ghjøjlzn, yt yfheifz nzujntybz fnvjcaths. Pder, 148


rjytxyj, hfytt ghbdkär dybvfybt xtkjdtxtcndf. Cdtn b wdtn htåt ghbdktrfkb bpextybt, yj nfr rfr pder tcnm kbim htfrwbz cdtnf, nj eukeñkäyyjt gjpyfybt jñhfnbncz r pyfxtybç cdtnf b r dscitq ãythubb _ vfnthbb Cdtnjyjcyjq. õº÷¬”∆º ö◊æ∆¿º ghbdktrfkf dct kexibt evs; tckb lfåt yt yføjlbkb cjpyfntkmyjuj ghbvtytybz tq, nj pyfxtybt tä cxbnfkb ytvbyetvsv ghb cktleçotq ãdjkçwbb. Kexb b cdtnjdst djkys ytcen htitybt yjdjq ãdjkçwbb. 174. Ãrcnthbjhbpfwbz xedcndbntkmyjcnb lfdyj pyfrjvf. Ljcnbufkfcm jyf vtøfybxtcrb bkb djktdsv ghbrfpjv b ckeåbkf cfvsv ndählsv gjdjljv lkz cjååtybz yf rjcnht. Lfåt b ntgthm cjdhtvtyyst byrdbpbnjhs yfltçncz yfqnb ødjcnbr xthyjrybåbz, pfujyzz cvtkjt bcrfybt d gjlgjkmt. Dtkbrbt evs pfñjnkbdj xezkb ljcnbåtybz pyfybz. Jñobyybr ljkåty ñsnm jnrhsn dctv yjdsv djpvjåyjcnzv. Tckb yfqlty ghbywbg zdktybz, nj hfpvths tuj pfdbczn jn ntøybrb. Nfr gthtytctybt xedcndbntkmyjcnb vjåtn ghbyznm cfvst hfpkbxyst hfpvths. Crfåtv, yf nfrjv-nj vtcnt ljkåyf jcyjdfnmcz yjdfz jñobyf. 149


Vtcnj bvttn dct yeåyst ghbpyfrb, yj jrheåfçobt eckjdbz dhtvtyyj vjuen cjcnfdbnm uhjpyeç jgfcyjcnm. Njulf ñthäv yjdjt vtcnj b gthtyjcbv yf ytuj djpvjåyjcnb gthdjuj. D cjpyfybb vs yt jnjhdfkbcm jn djpvjåyjcntq gthdjuj vtcnf, b vs gthtåbdftv ãaatrn gthdjuj htitybz, gjldjlz ecnjb ñeleotuj cnhjtybz. Ñeltn kb ytxnj yf gznbltcznjq gfhfkktkb bkb ldflwfnmç gfhfkktkzvb çåytt, yj ceotcndtyyj cjøhfybnm jpfhtybt cnhjbntkmcndf. Crfprf j ytdblbvjv ujhjlt cj pdjyjv yfgjvbyftn xtkjdtrf, rjnjhsq yt pfvtnbk dfåyjuj joeotybz, dcktlcndbt gthtyjcf xedcndbntkmyjcnb. Vjq ghbvth, vjåtn ñsnm, toä dfv yt zcty, yj ghbywbg gthtytctybz xedcndbntkmyjcnb vjåtn ñsnm edtkbxty lj wtksø yfhjlyjcntq. Vjåyj ãnbv ghbywbgjv bpñtåfnm vyjubø jgfcyjcntq. Tckb ljgecnbnm, xnj xtkjdtxtcrbq jhufybpv _ cfvjt vjoyjt gcbøbxtcrjt jhelbt, nj ytkmpz ghbgbcfnm ne åt vjom abpbxtcrjve fggfhfne. Abpbxtcrbq fggfhfn gjlckeåtñty njq dscitq ãythubb, rjnjheç yfpsdftv gcbøbxtcrjq rjycnherwbtq. Ãnf ãythubz vjåtn chfdybnmcz rfxtcndtyyj kbim cj cdtnjv.

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Vs njkmrj xnj ujdjhbkb j vjob kextq b j yjdjv bø ghbvtytybb; ytdjpvjåyj egecnbnm djpvjåyjcnb xtkjdtxtcrjuj jhufybpvf. Rfr bpexfnm lfkmybt vbhs, rjulf vs yt jñhfoftv dybvfybz yf yfib cjñcndtyyst aeyrwbb? C nheljv jnrhsdftnt kexb, yj bø djpltqcndbt yf vjpujdst b ghjxbt wtynhs hfpdt bpexftnt? 175. Ds pyftnt vyjubt jgsns xntybz vscktq. Hfccrfåbnt bø pfgflysv kçlzv, jyb yt bvtçn gjyznbz, yfcrjkmrj ãnj gcbøjkjubxtcrjt cdjqcndj ghbceot Djcnjre. Gj ytdtåtcnde yfpsdfçn lfåt cetdthbtv. Vtåle ntv, tckb vsckm zdkztncz jhufybxtcrbv cjplfybtv, nj jyf vjåtn ñsnm jñyfheåtyf. Lfåt crelyst abpbxtcrbt ghbñjhs vjuen ekfdkbdfnm yfghzåtybt vsckb. Lfåt nthvjvtnh b ãktrnhbxtcrbt ghbñjhs htfubheçn yf djpybryjdtybt vsckb. Vsckm lfåt bpvtyztn ntvgthfnehe ntkf. Yfcnjkmrj gcbøbxtcrbq fggfhfn ljvbybhetn yfl abpbxtcrbv; dthytt gcbøbxtcrbq fggfhfn yfpsdfnm xfcnmç abpbxtcrjuj. Ceotcndetn ghbñjh, pfgbcsdfçobq ntxtybt vscktq; nfråt jyj jnjñhfåftncz yf bpkextybb b chfdybntkmysv vtnjljv vjåtn ñsnm ltnfkbhjdfyj. Dghjxtv, ãnf cbcntvf vbkf pfgflyjve vsiktybç. 151


Vfkj gjgsnjr cdzpfnm vtøfybre c gcbøbrjq. Vtåle ntv ds pyftnt, rfr yfexyjt jnyjitybt r gcbøbrt jñktuxftn b ghtjñhfåftn dcä ceotcndjdfybt. Ujdjhbk, xnj jñobyf ytdjpvjåyf ñtp ntøybrb; d ãnj gjyznbt drkçxfkfcm ntøybrf abpbxtcrfz b gcbøbxtcrfz, byfxt jñobyybrb yfxyen gjøjlbnm yf pfdjlyst buheirb. Ndthåe jñhfnbnm ytjnkjåyjt dybvfybt yf djpvjåyjcnb gcbøbxtcrjuj fggfhfnf. 176. Gcbøjvtøfybrf ñeltn dthysv jghtltktybtv ghbkjåtybz gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. Vjåyj pfvtnbnm bynthtcyst jgsns ghb afñhbxyjv nhelt. Rfålsq jgsnysq hfñjnybr pyftn, xnj vfibys nhtñeçn jnlsøf. Nhelyj ñkbåt jghtltkbnm ãnj zdktybt, yj jyj pyfxbntkmyj pyfrjvj lfåt ntv, rnj yt bvttn gjyznbz j gcbøjvtøfybrt. Yfv ghbøjlbkjcm ltkfnm jgsns yf nrfwrbø afñhbrfø, ult bvtçncz cjnyb cnfyrjd b lj cjnyb ljdjkmyj jgsnysø hfñjnybrjd. Cnfyrb ghjcbkb jnlsøf dyt hfphtiftvjq ghjgjhwbb, dyt pfdbcbvjcnb jn jgsnyjcnb nrfxf. Gjldthufz nrfxtq gcbøbxtcrjve bcgsnfybç, vjåyj ñskj zcyj dbltnm, xnj d herfø, jñkflfdibø gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubtq, cnfyrb vtytt yeålfkbcm d jnlsøt; rfr ñs åbdjq njr cjjñofkcz cnfyre b elkbyzk 152


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ntv, ñsk xfc, rjulf jlby åtcn vju ñs cjøhfybnm dfv yeåyjt b ghjcbvjt. Exbnt rfåljuj htñäyrf gjybvfnm pyfxtybt chjrjd. Byfxt toä jlyj gjrjktybt vzurjntksø ñtcgjpdjyjxysø ñeltn gjåbhfnm lheu lheuf. D jñobyt njxyjcnm chjrjd ecnfyjdktyf rfr jcyjdf. 182. Ghfdbkmyj, ghfdbkmyj, ghfdbkmyj _ kçlb ljkåys ctkbnmcz yf bcgsnfyysø vtcnfø. Lfåt vtldtlm pfñjnkbdtt dsñbhftn ñthkjue. Rjytxyj, hfcntybz gjrfåen kexibt djpvjåyjcnb. Cvjnhbnt, ult rtlh b cjcyf, ult dthtcr b leñ, ult nhfds b wdtns zhrb. Yeåyf tcntcndtyyfz ãktrnhbabrfwbz vtcnf. Rhegyjbujkmxfnfz ødjz _ kexibq rjyltycfnjh ãktrnhbxtcndf. Dscjns, kbiäyyst hfcntybq, zdkzçn gjktpyeç ghfye gjckt 11 000 aenjd. 183. C xtv ñkbåt chfdybnm Yfie Jñobye _ c øjhjv gtcyjgtdwtd bkb c djtyysv cnfyjv? Crjhtt dnjhjt. Vjåyj ctñt ghtlcnfdbnm, rfr ljkåyf jndtxfnm jyf ghfdbkfv gjkrjdtltybz b gjkrjdjlbntkmcndf. Vjåyj kb epyfnm genb ghjldbåtybz Jñobys ñtp jnhfåtybz b yfcnegktybz? Vjåyj kb ñhfnm ghbcnegjv rhtgjcnm, cjlthåfybt rjnjhjq ytbpdtcnyj? Eckj-

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dbz pfobns b yfgfltybz ljkåys ñsnm dpdtitys. Yeåyj jgsnyjt pyfybt b pjhrjcnm ljpjhf. Yt ghfds nt, rnj cxbnfçn Jñobye vjkbndtyysv ljvjv. Yt ghfds, rnj yfpsdfçn Jñobye hfñjxtq vfcnthcrjq. Yt ghfds, rnj yføjlzn Jñobye bpscrfyyjq kfñjhfnjhbtq. Jñobyf _ cnjjrbq cnhfå. Jñobyf _ ehfufy dtcnybrf. Jñobyf _ pyfvz pfdjtdfntkz. D xfc, rjulf pyfvz cdähyenj, dhfu eåt gjlnfxbdftn jcyjdfybt ñfity. Ult åt dfif kfñjhfnjhbz? Ult dfif hfñjnf b nhel? Djbcnbye, jlby ghjgeotyysq ljpjh jnrhsdftn ltcznm dhfn. Njkmrj ytecsgyjcnm lfcn juhfle Jñobyt. Gjñtlf tcnm kbim jñzpfntkmcndj. Erhtgktybt cbk _ kbim zdktybt yjdjuj dbøhz. Cjpyfybt vjob tcnm kbim bcgsnfybt. Dspjd tcnm kbim vfkjlevbt. Rfr jrtfycrfz djkyf, yfcnegftn Jñobyf. Rfr uhjv ptvktnhzctybz, pdexbn Extybt ytghtkjåyjcnb. Lj djcøjlf Cjkywf bläv d ytecsgysq ljpjh. 184. Xfcnj cghfibdfçn jñobyybrb _ jnrelf ghbcnegs njcrb, byjulf bvb bcgsnsdftvst? Yeåyj pyfnm, xnj ñtp ãnbø cgfpv njcrb ytdjpvjåyj ghjldbåtybt. Gjckt gthtøjlf ghjgfcnb xedcndetnt jckfñktybt yjåysø vsiw. Ghb hfcibhtybb cjpyfybz 163


ghjøjlbnt vyjuj ytphbvsø ghjgfcntq. Ghb epkjdsø yfhfcnfybzø cjpyfybz gjkexftncz crfxjr, b gcbøbxtcrbt cgfpvs cjrhfofçn ythdyst wtynhs. Yt cktletn jgfcfnmcz ãnbø cgfpv, ytljkubq gjrjq dsghfdbn ãnb cjrhfotybz. Yfhfcnfybt cjpyfybz nhelytt ecktlbnm, ytåtkb hjcn djkjcf. Cjpyfybt pfdjädsdftn b bcrjhtyztn. Cjåbufybt cnfhsø vjcnjd yt lfän gjcnegfntkmyjq jnvtnrb, yj jyj lfän djpvjåyjcnm yfcnegktybz. Wtyyj yt njkmrj cnhtvbnmcz, yj b eybxnjåfnm cjh gjpflb. Ctqxfc dblbnt, rfr ñjkmibycndj vjukj ñs ldbyenmcz, yj bv åfkm dtrjdjuj cjhf. Jñf Vjbø pyfrf øhfybnt _ pyfr Ckeåtybz b pyfr Jñobys. Jlby rfr jnhsdfybt jn cnfhjuj, lheujq rfr ãdjkçwbç. Vjåyj yfqnb ecnhtvktybt, yt pfrhjqnt ldthm! Rjulf ckfuftnt rybub, yfñkçlbnt, xnjñ rfålfz vjukf ñsnm ghbyznf jnltkmyj. Nfråt d ltqcndbb, xnjñs rfålsq jnltkmyj vju ñs dshfpbnm dcç uhegge. 185. Nhelty djghjc, xnj cxbnfnm ghjzdktybtv ltkf. Vs pyftv, xnj ltkj d rfxtcndt, f yt d jñüävt b rjkbxtcndt. Yj yjdst kçlb xfcnj yt dblzn rfxtcndf, b ghbpyfr dytiytuj jñüävf lkz ybø pfckjyztn ceoyjcnm. Gj kturjvsckbç jyb pfyzns hfpledfybtv 164


vskmyjuj gepshz, b hfleue hfpkjåtybz ghbybvfçn pf cdtn jpfhäyyjcnb. Lfåt ljdjkmyj jgsnyst evs pfyzns vtøfybxtcrbv gjlcxänjv, dvtcnj cjgjcnfdktybz ceoyjcnb. Rfr crfpfnm bv, xnj njkmrj rfxtcndj jpfhbn b endthlbn bø! Hfpkbxfqnt dtkbrbt ltkf jn lkbyysø vthndtwjd. 186. Rfålfz jñobyf yeålftncz d jñjhjybntkmysø chtlcndfø. Vs yt yfcbkmcndtyyst pfdjtdfntkb, yj dcä åt bvttv exän dhfujd Yfibø b yt jñvfysdftvcz d bø vyjujxbcktyyjcnb. Kexb, ufps b djpleiysq ljpjh ñelen kexibvb dytiybvb chtlcndfvb, yj cfvjt ltqcndtyyjt ñeltn d ghjlernfø gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. Vs djdct yt yfvthtys ghtlcnfdbnm phtkbot ñtppfobnysø jdtxtr! Htfkmyjt pyfybt ujnjdj r jndtne! Yfv ytn ltkf pfgeubdfnm rjuj-ybñelm, yj Vs ljkåys ghtleghtlbnm: ≤Ñthtubcm, ytdtålf!≥ Ntgthm dhtvz itgyenm dctv jñütlbyäyysv jñobyjç: ñelmnt cjpyfntkmys d gcbøbxtcrbø ghbrfpfø dfibø. Tcnm b ñelen ckexfb, rjulf d gjkyjv cjpyfybb vjåtnt dpznm yf ctñz jndtncndtyyjcnm htibntkmyjuj ghbrfpf. Yj yfghzubnt njulf dcç pjhrjcnm, xnjñs xänrj jxthnbnm rheu wtkb dfitq. Cfvjt ñtpjñhfpyjt cktlcndbt ñeltn ghb ytnjxyj yfghfdktyyjv ghbrfpt. 165


Ñelen pfnhjyens gjgenyj cfvst ytålfyyst zdktybz, b rnj vjåtn rjynhjkbhjdfnm gjcktlcndbz ythfpevyjq cnhtks? Lfdyj crfpfk dhfue: ≤Ghbve d obn dct ndjb cnhtks, yj gjikç ntñt njkmrj jlye≥. D ãnbø ckjdfø dtcm Yfi cjdtn. Yeåyj rfåljve jñobyybre pyfnm ntøybre ñjz, yj ukfdyjt, yeåyj hfpkbxfnm kåtjñobyybrjd b bpujyznm bø lfktrj pf juhfle. Yb lkbyf ñjhjls, yb cxän wtgtq, yb edtxmz, yb edthtybz _ ybrfrbt ckexfqyst ghbpyfrb yt vjuen ñsnm cdbltntkmcndjv. Njkmrj gjkyjnf cjpyfybz, zcyfz d lytdyjv ñjlhcndjdfybb, bcrhtyyzz dj cyt, vjåtn endthlbnm jñkbr bcnbyyjuj åtkfybz. Xfcnj cjy bcrhtyytt ñjlhcndjdfybz. Rfålfz bcrhtyyjcnm bvttn ghfdj ñsnm djjheåäyyjq. B ghbrfp ytghtkjåyjcnb hjålftn b hfpbn. 187. Rfr vjåyj xedcndjdfnm ctñz yfbñjktt pfoboäyysv? Njkmrj ecnfyjdbd ñkbåfqieç cdzpm c Exbntktv. Njkmrj d ltqcndtyyjv cjnhelybxtcndt b d edfåtybb crhsnf kexifz djpvjåyjcnm ghjøjåltybz xthtp jgfcyst caths. Cdzpm c Exbntktv tcnm åbdfz ghjybryjdtyyjcnm d ñeleott. Tcnm ghtlrb ptvyst b ghtlrb rjcvbxtcrbt; byjulf ãnb gjyznbz cjdgflfçn, yj ghb ytcjdthityyjcnb jyb 166


xfot dctuj hfpütlbytys. Djn gjkexftncz wtgm ghtlrjd ptvysø b djn hfleuf ghtlrjd rjcvbxtcrbø. Yt nhelyj hfcgjpyfnm, rjnjhfz zdktyyjcnm ñeltn genäv ãdjkçwbb. Rjytxyj, rfålsq Exbntkm bvttn cdjtuj Herjdjlbntkz, b wtyyjcnm vsckb djpyjcbncz d lfkmybt vbhs. Gjxbnfybt Exbntkz b gjcnhjtybt ecnhtvktybz r lfkmybv vbhfv rfr hfleuf cjtlbytyf ceoyjcnmç cdtnf. Yfexbntcm gjyznm, rfr dscjrj gjyznbt Exbntkz. Ghjdtlbnt ãne xthne jn rhfz b lj rhfz, jn ghbøjlf b lj eøjlf. Pyfqnt, rfr zdktyj dfv Extybt Cdtnf, b gjvybnt cthtñhzyeç ybnm cdzpb. Cdzpm c Exbntktv kturf, rfr rhskj jhkf, b jhkbysq ukfp cvjnhbn dgthäl. Xnj åt vjåtnt ghtlgjxtcnm, tckb cjpyfybt dfit jnrhsnj? Cnhjtybt jñobys vjåtn gjvjxm cjñhfnm vsckb. Dtlm yt uhepjdst jcks, yj jhks ñskb erfpfys d chfdytybb. Herf Exbntkz pjdän r gjhjue jñobys. B c ujhs Yfv dblyj, relf ktnbn rjktcj ytjñøjlbvjcnb. 188. Åthndf ytcxfcnmz _ nfr yfpsdfkb dcnegbdituj d jñobye gj ñtpscøjlyjcnb. Gjnthgtd gjkyeç ytelfxe, xtkjdtr åthndjdfk ytcxfcnmt cdjä, b wtyf ytelfxb ñskf ytcxfcnyf. Yj, bvtyyj, ghbyäcibq yt167


cxfcnmt cxbnfk yfbñjkmibv drkflxbrjv ctñz: jy b gjåthndjdfk, jy b jnrfpfkcz, jy b ghtlgjxäk, jy åleobq b ghtlüzdkzçobq cxän. Vs ghtlgjxbnftv åthnde cxfcnmz. Rjve tcnm jn xtuj jnrfpfnmcz, njn vtytt ålän gkfns. Nfr cnhjqnt jñobye gj dtøfv gjåthndjdfybq. 189. Hsñfr hfljcnyj djpdhfoftncz c wtyysv ekjdjv. Xtkjdtxtcndj jñhfpjdfkjcm yt lkz ytcxfcnbq. Xtkjdtr _ njn åt hfljcnysq hsñfr c vyjujjñhfpysv ekjdjv. Rjytxyj, ekjd hfpkbxty, yj jlyf hfljcnm ytjnütvktvf _ hfljcnm vsckb j ñeleotv. Yb hsñs, yb gnbws, yb åbdjnyst yt pyfçn ñeleotuj. Yj xtkjdtr eåt pyftn ytvbyetvjcnm ñeleotuj. D ãnjv pjdt ghjcnhfycndf pfrkçxtyf juhjvyfz hfljcnm. Rnj ñjbncz ñeleotuj, njn toä yføjlbncz d åbdjnyjv cjcnjzybb, b vbhjdfz nhfgtpf toä yt lkz ytuj. Yfexbnmcz eukeñbnm b djpytcnb vsckm j ñeleotv _ pyfxbn pfyznm d yäv vtcnj, rjnjhjt ñeltn hfcnb dvtcnt c cjpyfybtv. Rnj yt ålän dytiytq gjvjob, njn pyftn wtyyjcnm cdjtuj vjkjnf. Rnj pyftn genm d ñeleott, njn vjåtn ñtp ñjzpyb ytcnb cdjq ekjd. Vtåle ntv xfcnm xtkjdtxtcndf yt dblbn lfåt ybnb d ñeleott. Cjhdfyyst b hfpvänfyyst, rfr jcty168


ybt kbcnmz, jyb gjlsvfçn gskm c xeåbø ñfpfhjd. Jñkfrj gskb pfrhjtn dhfnf jñobys, b cjhyjt vsiktybt jñhfnbncz d cjh. Rjulf ntvyj, rjulf uhjpyj, njulf lthåbnt cjpyfybt yf ñeleotv. E Yfc ñeleott pjdäncz rjdhjv gjkänf. Exbnt ltntq ktnfnm dscjrj. Vba j rjdxtut pfvtybnt djpleiysv rjhfñkäv. 190. Vjuen cghjcbnm: rfr jnkbxbnm yjdjdjitlituj? Rjytxyj, yt gj ckjdfv. Kexit ghbvbnt cnfhsq cgjcjñ Djcnjrf _ gj ukfpfv, gj gjøjlrt b gj ujkjce. Ukfpf ytgjlltkmys; gjøjlrf b ujkjc, rjytxyj, vjuen crhsnm bcnbye ghb jcjñjv evtybb, yj cjdjregyjcnm dctq nhbfls ghbpyfrjd ñtpjibñjxyf. Yteåtkb kçlb levfçn, xnj jyb vjuen crhsnm yfbdyj kjåm kbim yfuksvb ckjdfvb? Ckjdf yt cnjzn jlyjuj rbdrf ujkjds. Gjkän dslfän gjhjle gnbw. Øboybr bplfktrf zdkztn ctñz. Rkärjn jhkf yt gjljñty cjkjdmbyjq gtcyt. Xnj åt ltkfnm, tckb byst kçlb endthålfçn, xnj dct bylecs yf jlyj kbwj; xnj ytkmpz hfpkbxbnm rbnfqwtd, vjyujkjd b fhfñjd lheu jn lheuf! Vjåyj kb ãnbv kçlzv gjhexbnm hfpkbxbt gj ukfpfv b gj gjøjlrt? Lkz ybø dct kçlb øjlzn yf ldeø yjufø b dct ukfptçn. 169


Jncencndbt fyfkbpf vjåtn jcrjhñbnm cfvjuj nthgtkbdjuj herjdjlbntkz. Vyjubt lfåt yt vjuen ecnfyjdbnm hjl pfyznbq åbkmwf gj jcjñtyyjcnb tuj åbkbof. Cntgtym ytyfñkçlfntkmyjcnb gjhfåfçof. Kçlb yt vjuen pfvtnbnm ghtlvtnjd, euhjåfçobø bø ntvtyb. Yt vjuen gthtxbckbnm ltcznm jrheåfçobø ghtlvtnjd. Yt vjuen erfpfnm cfvsø ghjcnsø jñcnjzntkmcnd jñcnfyjdrb. Lkz ybø dcä ybxtuj, ybxnj b ybult. Ãnj eåt yt cntgtym ñtcgtxyjcnb, yj negjcnm ytdtåtcndf. Jñjqlbnt nfrbø ldeyjubø! Yeåyj hfpdbdfnm ltncreç yfñkçlfntkmyjcnm c gthdsø lytq. Dtlm cjpyfybt ltntq åbdän c gthdjuj xfcf, yj yt lkz ntø, lkz rjuj dct bylecs yf jlyj kbwj. Yfñkçlfntkmyjcnm bkb, dthytt, pjhrjcnm tcnm yfxfkj ≤jhkbyjuj ukfpf≥, j rjnjhjv ds eåt lfdyj pyftnt. Ecksifnm j pjhrjcnb lkz rjuj-nj eåt pyfxbn ghjphtnm, f ghjphtnm _ pyfxbn edbltnm genm vbhf r jñobyt. 191. Fyfkbp, lbfuyjp, rjynhjkm, rjjgthfwbz, ghjuyjp zdkzçncz bpkçñktyysvb ntvfvb Pfgflf. Vs nfråt ghjbpyjcbv ãnb nthvbys. Rfpfkjcm ñs, d xäv åt hfpybwf? Hfpybwf dtkbrf; lkz Pfgflf ãnb ntvs cjcnfdkzçn pfcnjkmyst ñtctls, d kexitv ckexft gjcnfyjdkt170


ybz, rjnjhst ybrtv yt cjñkçlfçncz. D Yfitq Jñobyt ãnb yfbvtyjdfybz yt ghjbpyjczncz, yj tåtxfcyj ghbvtyzçncz d åbpyb. Vjuen kb yfpdfyyst gjyznbz ghbvtyznmcz d åbpyb ujhjljd? Njkmrj xnj vs ujdjhbkb jñ jncencndbb yfñkçlfntkmyjcnb, ghb rjnjhjv lbfuyjp ytdjpvjåty. Vs ujdjhbkb jñ jncencndbb nthgtybz, _ pyfxbn, fyfkbp ytdjpvjåty. Jncencndbt veåtcndtyyjq ndähljcnb bcrkçxftn rjynhjkm. Kjåm b kbwtvthbt yt ljgecnzn rjjgthfwbç. Cnhfø pfntvybn dczrbq ghjuyjp. Jcnfytncz hfccnfdbnm cfvst lkbyyst cnjks b øjhjv gjdnjhznm gjkegjyznyst ckjdf. Yflj uybçobv ujhjlfv jcnfdbnm ãne ghbdbktubç jñtpmzycndf; rcnfnb ãnb ujhjåfyt cnfkb ghbdbdfnm ctñt jñtpmzymb åtktps. Bvtyyj, rfålsq gjkexftn gj ljcnjbycnde. Ybrnj yt crfpfk bv j ñjktt wtktcjjñhfpyjv cgjcjñt djccnfyjdktybz cbk, rjulf ñjkmyjuj gjvtofçn d lkbntkmyeç dfyye b gjldthufçn gthtvtyyjve njre b bpdtcnyjve cjcnfde vbythfkmyjq djls, cjghjdjålfz ktxtybt jghtltkäyysv dyeitybtv. Hfwbjyfkmyst cgjcjñs jñyfheåfncz, rjulf jñobyf ghbvtn cjpyfntkmysq øfhfrnth, b ybxnj jn jñtpmzy yt ñeltn pfbvcndjdfyj.

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Rjulf pyfvz jñobys hfpdthyäncz rfr jcjpyfybt ytjñøjlbvjcnb, njulf åbpym jrhskbncz d ltqcndbb rfåljuj lyz. Gjrf rnj-nj levftn, xnj jñobyf tcnm jgsn, lj ntø gjh jñobyf ñeltn yføjlbnmcz d ñfyrt fkøbvbrf. Njkmrj ndähljt jcjpyfybt bcnjhbxtcrjq ytjñøjlbvjcnb ddtlän jñobye d åbpym. Levfqnt, levfqnt cehjdj j ytghtkjåyjcnb jñobys. Bp cehjdjcnb _ kexifz hfljcnm. 192. Hfpdbnbt yfñkçlfntkmyjcnb gjpdjkbn jñhfnbnm dybvfybt yf jrheåfçobt eckjdbz. Tckb cntys dfitq rjvyfns gjrhsnm vsimzrjdsv dtotcndjv, bkb cthysvb ghtgfhfnfvb, bkb cvjkjç, bkb hnenmç, bkb vecrecjv, nj dczrbq gjqvän, xnj nfrbt gjrhsnbz gjdkbzçn yf cjcnjzybt jhufybpvf, _ ãnj uheñsq ghbvth. Yj ntgthm cghjcbnt dfibø ñbjøbvbrjd b ntøyjkjujd, rfr dkbztn vfnthbfk åbkbo yf abpbxtcreç b gcbøbxtcreç jcyjde? Rfrfz hfpybwf vtåle ljvjv bp rbhgbxf bkb bp ñfpfkmnf, bkb vtåle ljvjv bp uhfybnf bkb bp vhfvjhf, vtåle åtktpysv b lthtdzyysv, vtåle leñjdsv b cjcyjdsv? Rfrbv jhufybpvfv jndtxftn gjcntkm åtktpyfz b rfrbv _ lthtdzyyfz? Rjve yeåty ithcnzyjq rjdäh bkb lthtdzyysq gjk? Dj vyjubø eckjdbzø ntøyjkjubz ñeltn 172


ytcdtleof, rfr d gtothyst dhtvtyf. Vtåle ntv rnj yt cjukfcbncz c ntv, xnj lhtdtcbyf b vbythfks bvtçn dfåyjt ktxtñyjt pyfxtybt! Pyfxbn, ceotcndtyysq fyfkbp jcnfyjdbkcz pf jncencndbtv yfñkçlfntkmyjcnb. Gsnkbdjcnm gjikf gj hecke jñsxyjcnb, b lkz xhtpvthysø yfñkçlfntktq ult-nj eåt ujnjd rjcnäh. Gjdthmnt, leø byrdbpbwbb toä yt jxtym lfkär; hfpybwf d jltålfø b d cgjcjñfø bcrjhtytybz yjdsø bcrfybq. 193. Exbntkm Vbkfhtgf xfcnj ñtctljdfk c åbdjnysvb. Jrjkj tuj etlbytybz uytplbkbcm gxäks, cjpblfkb ujhjlf vehfdmb, pfktnfkb gjgeufb, b jñtpmzyf cflbkfcm gjljñyj exbntkç. Exbntkm crfpfk vehfdmzv: ≤Gføfhb b cjpblfntkb, ybrnj dfc yt pyftn, yj ds djpdjlbnt dscjrbt jñobys≥. Crfpfk gxäkfv: ≤Cjñbhftnt väl pyfybz b jñhfpjd kexibø, ybrnj yt ghthdän ckflrbq nhel dfi≥. Pfvtnbk gjgeufç: ≤Gj rhbre ndjtve dbåe, xnj cjñhfkcz ñsnm celmäq bkb ghjgjdtlybrjv≥. B gjuhjpbk htpdjq jñtpmzyt: ≤Ns hfpheibk vehfdmbyst cnhjtybz b gjøbnbk xeåjq väl. Vjåtn ñsnm, htibkcz cnfnm epehgfnjhjv?≥ Rnj åt, rfr yt epehgfnjhs, ghbcdfbdfçn xeåjq nhel b ckexfqyj gznjç cjrheifçn cnhjtybz? Vyjuj dtrjd ghjikj cj dhtväy exbntkz Vbkfhtgs, yj 173


epehgfnjhs gj-ghtåytve åbden gcbøjkjubtq jñtpmzy. D jcyjdfybb nfrjuj ghjpzñfybz ktåbn eåfcyfz ñtpjndtncndtyyjcnm. Xnj åt ktåbn d jcyjdfybb ñtpjndtncndtyyjcnb? Rjytxyj, nj åt cfvjt ytdtåtcndj b cnhfø ñeleotuj. Ybrfrjt yfrfpfybt, ybrfrjt juhfybxtybt yt bcghfdbn ytdtåtcndf. Ñjkmibt b vfkst epehgfnjhs, dfv yeåyj exbnmcz, xnjñ gjpyfnm wtktñyjcnm välf b vehfdmbyjuj gjnf. Rfåtncz, ãnf vsckm ljcnfnjxyj lhtdyzz, yj ytrjnjhst cecnfds xtkjdtxtcrjuj cjpyfybz nfr pfhåfdtkb, xnj ltcznrb dtrjd yt vjuen gjdthyenm bø. Pf ckflrbvb zcndfvb ñeltnt ujdjhbnm j ghjuyjpt, yj pdäpls pf jryjv vtymit ghbdktren dybvfybt, ytåtkb vjnskär e cdtxb. Heibnt ytujlyjt, ult ñs jyj yb erhsdfkjcm. Hfcrhsdfqnt ytdtåtcndj gjl kçñjq kbxbyjq. Vbh ltkbncz gj rfxtcnde cjpyfybz, b cntgtym ytdtåtcndf tcnm vthbkj. Rjytxyj, ds pyftnt, xnj ytdtåtcndj yt bpktxbdftncz gthtkbcnsdfybtv rybu, yj cbyntpjv dvtotybz. 194. Gjctofz dfib cnhfys, Z pfvtxfk, xnj nfv jxtym ñjzncz ckjdf rjynhjkm. Yj vtåle ntv, bvtyyj, e Yfc ãnj gjyznbt kturj dvtotyj. Herf, pyfçofz cdjä 174


ltkj, yt ñjbncz gjltkbnmcz cj cdjbv lheujv. Pyfxbn, yeåyf ljñhjåtkfntkmyjcnm b pyfybt, _ njulf vjåyj kturj levfnm, xnj gcbøjvtøfybrf vjåtn jceotcndbnm rjynhjkm kçñjuj nfqyjuj ltqcndbz. Eåt vjåyj dbltnm xthtp cntys, eåt vjåyj pfgtxfnktnm dct pderb b vsckb. Lkz nfqys yeåyf ytjñsxfqyfz veåtcndtyyjcnm cjpyfybz. Ljcnbxm tä ytdjpvjåyj ñtp lkbntkmyjq gjlujnjdrb. Ljcnbxm hfdyjdtcbz eckjdbq djpvjåyj kbim gjlyznbtv rfxtcndf hfñjns. Njulf rfålsq vjåtn ghbvtybnm cfvjrjynhjkm. Njulf rfålsq vjåtn cghjcbnm gjcnjhjyytuj rjynhjkähf: gjrfåb cfv, rfr kexit. Ljñhjdjkmysq rjynhjkäh ljkåty cfv evtnm hfñjnfnm cjdthityytt. Gjnjve e Yfc ecnfyjdktyj, xnj rfåljt pfvtxfybt ljkåyj ñsnm jcyjdfyj yf kexitv pyfybb. Ãnf jgsnyjcnm cjplfän eñtlbntkmyjcnm, rjnjhfz hfcghjcnhfyztncz lfktrj. Ds cfvb pyftnt, xnj pyfxfn gjhextybz. Ljcnjdthyjcnm lfän vjom, ljcnjdthyjcnm yt eñjbncz. Cktlez pf ljcnjdthyjcnmç, vjåyj ñsnm edthtyysv d cdjtdhtvtyyjcnb htitybz b d otlhjcnb cgjcjñjd. Gkjø djlbntkm, ghbvtybdibq gkfy kbim rj lyç bkb r yjxb. Yt vjåtnt blnb edthtyyj, levfz j creljcnb djålz. Hexfntkmcndj vjåtn ñsnm ghjdthtyj,

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bñj yt ñjbncz rjynhjkz Jñobyf. Yeåyjt htitybt ghbøjlbn yt gfltybtv dj vhfrt, yj d eksñrt jåblfybz, ytpfdbcbvj jn jñkbrf. D pyfybb rjytw cnhføf. 195. Pfgbibnt j gcbøbxtcrjq pfhfpt. Ntvf cnfhfz, yj lj cbø gjh yt ghbvtyäyyfz d åbpyb. Gj-ghtåytve kçlb lfåt xhtpvthyj ñjzncz pfhfps abpbxtcrjq, pfñsdfz ukfdysq rfyfk dctø pfhfp. Yteåtkb vjåyj eñbdfnm, ghjrkbyfnm, ytbcnjdcndjdfnm ñtp ghjcnhfycndtyysø yfckjtybq? Dcä jnkfuftncz zdyj b nzårj, cjplfdfz yfl vtcnjv cjñsnbz gtktye yfgjljñbt ueñbntkmysø ufpjd. Vjåyj kb jåblfnm, xnjñ zljdbnst bpkextybz pkjñyjq ãythubb hfcctbdfkbcm? Yfjñjhjn, jyb ñelen cueofnmcz b lfdbnm ghfye. Ybrjulf yt ctkbntcm yf rhjdfdsø vtcnfø. Yjdst ltkf ljkåys ñsnm yf yjdjv vtcnt. 196. Zdktybz ljkåys ñsnm ghbybvftvs d gjkyjq htfkmyjcnb. Lkz vfnthbfkbcnjd ãnj eckjdbt jcjñj jñzpfntkmyj. Yj, bvtyyj, vfnthbfkbcns ñjktt lheubø gjlrhfibdfçn hfpyjhjlyst zdktybz d cdjq wdtn, ntv cfvsv pfnhelyzz ãdjkçwbjyysq ghjwtcc. Vs, rfr jgsnyst Cnhjbntkb-htfkbcns, vjåtv dbltnm dhtl

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ytnthgbvjcnb, jcyjdfyyjq yf uheñtqitv ytpyfybb. Ult åt htfkmyjcnm, rjulf vsiktybt cntcytyj, dvtcnj nsczxb pyfrjd pyftn kbim gznm! Endthåltybt cnfyjdbncz bcrfåtybtv, tckb pfhfytt crjdfy cnthtjnbg eckjdyjcntq. Eksñrf pyfybz jghjrblsdftn ikçps yfvthtyysø pfuhfåltybq. Cnhjbntkm yt vjåtn afynfpbhjdfnm j gjxdt gjl plfybtv. Nfrjt gjkjåtybt ntv ñjktt ghtcnegyj, xnj vfnthbfkmyjt djpphtybt lfän cfvst ytjuhfybxtyyst, pfrjyyst djpvjåyjcnb. Atnbibpv gj ceotcnde cdjtve juhfybxty. Yj, bvtyyj, vfnthbz ezdkztn gjñtle ghb gjybvfybb cdjñjls. Htfkbcns ljkåys ñsnm cdjñjlysvb, byfxt cdtn htfkbpvf gjuhepbncz dj nmve atnbibpvf. Ghjphtybt ghbhjls leøf-vfnthbb, rfr cbzçobq dtytw xtkjdtxtcndf, cjplfän rfvtym åbpyb. Cgtibnt cñhjcbnm heøkzlm! 197. Cghjczn: ≤Rfr ds pfñjnbntcm jñ jcyjdfyysø jñobyfø?≥ Djpmväv cfveç vjkjleç. Xnj vjåyj crfpfnm r ujljdobyt? Ybrnj yt jncnegbk, yj jñobt gjcktlcndbz ckfñs. Rjjgthfwbz crfxrfvb vtiftn gjybvfnm cjbpvthbvjcnm. Gskbyrf pfybvftn dybvfybt ñjkmit crfks. Pfvtnyj vtcnybxtcndj, gjnjve kexit bpñbhfnm dhtvtyyjuj ghtlctlfntkz. Øeåt c ghbdkt177


xtybtv yjdsø. Yt yfqltys ckjdf jñ Extybb, b ytn pfobns jn gjyjitybz. Jnrhsdfnm vjåyj cnexfobv, yj vtx leøf ljkåty ñsnm dctulf pfjcnhäy. Åfkm egeotyysø cjnhelybrjd. Yeåyj dhfñjnfnmcz gkjnytt, byfxt ñeltnt jnlfkznm chjrb. Hfl ñs dspdfnm ñkbåt, lfqnt gjdjl. Herf Vjz c dfvb d rfåljv jndfåyjv ltqcndbb. 198. D ytlfdytv ghjikjv gj gkfye Vjtuj Lheuf Vs xfcnj gjctofkb pfgflyst ujhjlf. Ghb ãnjv, rjytxyj, ñskb dcnhtxb cj ckexfqysvb kbwfvb, rjnjhst j Yfc xnj-nj gjljphtdfkb. Cfvst yfcnjqxbdst pfghjcs jñhfofkbcm r Yfv _ j ghbävfø gcbøjvtøfybrb b nhtñjdfybz cfvsø njxysø ñbjøbvbxtcrbø ajhvek. B ghb ãnjv, c cfvjvybntkmyjcnmç Pfgflf, ãnb kçlb ybrjulf yt pfñjnbkbcm j cdjäv cjpyfybb b yt gsnfkbcm epyfnm, jñkflfçn kb jyb cjjndtncndeçobvb abpbxtcrbvb rfxtcndfvb? Uhecnyj gjybvfnm ãne yfpjqkbdjcnm ñtp rfrbø ñs nj yb ñskj jñotcndtyysø cnhtvktybq. Rfr gtothysq xtkjdtr c leñbyrjq njhjgbkcz jñjñhfnm wdtnyst hfreirb d cdjç ythfpltkmyeç cjñcndtyyjcnm, nfr b ãnb åbntkb rfvtyysø gfkfn gsnfkbcm ghbcdjbnm ctñt xeålst bv rfxtcndf. Gtothybr dcä-nfrb erhfifkcz hfreirfvb, yj cjdht178


vtyyst evybrb eybåfkb pyfybt d gjcktjñtltyyjv rtqat, _ ñskj phtkbot gjcnslyjuj kturjvsckbz. E Yfc gj gkfye Vjtuj Lheuf ñskj ljcnfnjxyj nthgtybz, xnjñ nhfnbnm dhtvz lfåt yf gthtgbcre. Yj ybrjuj ytkmpz ñskj ghbdktxm r cjpblfntkmyjq hfñjnt. Njn vtymit dctuj pfñjnbncz j cdjäv cjpyfybb, rnj vjåtn gjvtcnbnm tuj d vfktymrjv rjitkmrt c vtlysvb vjytnfvb. Vjåyj kb pfñsnm j cjcnjzybb cjpyfybz, rjulf ghbrfcftvcz r njyxfqitq ãythubb? Bvtyyj, Vs yt buyjhbhetv vtnjljd pfgflyjq yferb, yj gjkfuftv d jcyjde gcbøbxtcreç ãythubç. Ghblz r dsdjle, xnj gcbøbxtcrfz ãythubz hfdyj yeåyf rfr yfv, nfr b jgsnysv ghjwtccfv, Vs ghtålt dctuj pfñjnbvcz j cjplfybb ñkfujghbznysø eckjdbq lkz yfrjgktybz ãnjq ãythubb. Åtkfçobq gføfnm ljkåty bvtnm cdjq gkeu. Åtkfçobq ljcnbufnm ljkåty gjyznm cdjq ljcgtø. Kçlb Pfgflf pfckjybkb cjpyfybt cfvsvb nzårbvb vsckzvb, yj hfljcnm gjpyfybz cnfkf gjxnb ytghbkbxyjq. Hfljcnm gjpyfybz ljkåyf cnfnm ghtbveotcndjv Yjdjuj Vbhf. 199. Vjuen cghjcbnm: ≤Rfr åt d Dfitq Jñobyt jndtltyj ytvfkjt vtcnj cnfhbyysv gjcnhjqrfv b ryb179


ufv? Gjxtve ãnf cnfhbyf yt dkbztn yf ecnhtvkäyyjcnm d ñeleott?≥ Ldt ghbxbys: gthdfz _ ecnhtvkäyyjt cjpyfybt yt jukzlsdftncz; dnjhfz _ gjcnhjqrb cjplfdfkbcm b ghtlvtns cjñbhfkbcm njkmrj lkz ldbåtybz d ñeleott. Yfckjtybt ecnhtvktybz d ñeleott yfgjkyztn dcä ceotcndjdfybt Jñobys. Njytn d gjnjrt ecnhtvktybz dcä ghbnzåtybt ghtlvtnjd. Cnjkñs ñfpfkmnf yt dspsdfçn ghjiksø cjñsnbq, yj ghjxyjcnmç cdjtq gjlndthålfçn ghbujlyjcnm lkz ñeleotuj. Rybub yt eyjczn vsckm d ghjikjt, yj cdbltntkmcndeçn kbim jgsn lkz ñeleotuj. Gthtytctybt dctuj cjpyfybz d ñeleott vjåtn endthlbnm ceotcndjdfybt Jñobys. Yt ecnfye ndthlbnm, xnj jñobyf ljkåyf ñsnm ghbyznf cjpyfybtv. Ybrfrbt dytiybt gjrfpfybz Yfc yt eñtålfçn. Ytjñøjlbvj nfrjt rfxtcndj cjpyfybz, rjnjhjt dj cyt b yfzde crfåtn jlyj; bñj lheujt htitybt, lfåt d dblt ienrb, yt døjåt. Ñeleott xtkjdtxtcndf, ñeleott Rjcvjcf _ tcnm kb xnj-kbñj ñjktt cdzotyyjt?! Yj ãnf kbreçofz cdzotyyjcnm yt d pjkjxäyjq juhflt, yj d cnhtkt ecnhtvktybz, d jcnhbt hjvñf, rjnjhsq cldbyek pfrjyxtyyjcnm rdflhfnf d ñeleott. Chtlb fãhjkbnjd tcnm jlby vtnfkk vjhbq, jñkflfçobq cdjqcndjv rjyltycbhjdfnm ãktrnhbxtcreç ãyth180


ubç. Jñkflfybt ãnbv vtnfkkjv lfän djpvjåyjcnm gjkexfnm cbkmyst dcgsirb bcrh b lfåt gkfvz. Ãnj yfcsotyyjt gkfvz ljkåyj cdtnbnm d cjpyfybb, erhtgkzzcm b hfpujhfzcm. Gjregyst juyb bkkçvbyfwbq yt yeåys. Kexit vfkjxbcktyyjcnm, ytåtkb kjåm bvtytv ñeleotuj xtkjdtxtcndf. 200. Jñobyf_cjnhelybxtcndj tcnm tlbycndtyysq hfpevysq cgjcjñ xtkjdtxtcrjuj cjåbnbz. Jlbyjxtcndj tcnm hfphtitybt djghjcf åbpyb dyt jñobys. Dct ghjvtåenjxyst zdktybz _ hfpkbxyst cnegtyb rjvghjvbccf b jñhtxtys yf hfpkjåtybt. Ujdjhzn j yfcktlcndtyyjq ntjrhfnbxtcrjq dkfcnb _ cfvj gjcnhjtybt fñcehlyj. Ckjdj yfcktlcndtyyjcnm b Ntj ytcjdvtcnbvs. B rnj jghtltkbn cntgtym Ntj? Njkmrj cjpyfybt cjnhelybxtcndf_jñobys endthålftn ãdjkçwbç ñbjkjubxtcrjuj ghjwtccf. Åtkfçobq bcnbyyjq jñobyt gjcdznbnm ctñz ltqcndetn d cjukfcbb c jcyjdfvb Ñsnbz. Cjpyfntkmyfz jñobyf bcrkçxftn ldeø dhfujd jñotcndtyyjcnb, f bvtyyj ythfdtycndj b yfcktljdfybt. Dczrjt ythfdtycndj dtlän r nbhfybb. Yfcktljdfybt zdkztncz rjvghjvbccjv b dyjcbn uybtybt d jcyjds. 181


Yeåyf zcyjcnm gjcnhjtybz b ytkçñjdm r eckjdyjcnzv, b dthf d ltntq rfr cbvdjk ldbåtybz xtkjdtxtcndf. Njkmrj bp jñobys vs vjåtv vsckbnm j ñeleotv. Gthtytcäv cjpyfybt yf ekexitybt dctq åbpyb, b ñjhmñf pf ceotcndjdfybt cvtybncz pfdjtdfybtv djpvjåyjcntq. Nfr vsckbnt jñ jñobyt. Ekexifqnt cjpyfybt. 201. Lfåt dj dhtvz pyfxbntkmyj eukeñkäyyjuj cjpyfybz vjuen ñsnm nhelyst xfcs. Vjåtn rfpfnmcz, xnj cdzpm c Exbntktv yt ceotcndetn, xnj Exbntkm yt ceotcndetn. Yj pyfçobq crfåtn: ≤Vfqz, jncnegb! Pyfç vjç cdzpm c Exbntktv≥. Vjåtn rfpfnmcz vyjujt kbxysv gjvsckjv, yt døjlzobv d Extybt, _ pyfçobq crfåtn: ≤Vfqz, jncnegb! Pyfç jcyjds Extybz≥. Vjåtn rfpfnmcz, xnj, kbiäyysq dctø cjnhelybrjd, ljkåty notnyj gjlybvfnm nzujcnb, _ pyfçobq crfåtn: ≤Vfqz, jncnegb! Pyfç, rfr gj kbwe ptvkb hfcghjcnhfytys bcnbyyst cjnhelybrb!≥ Vfqz dctø dtrjd pyftn, rjulf ghbrjcyenmcz r vjpue. Bp ukeñby ghtåybø jgsnjd vfqz dspsdftn njyreç ghzåe rjktñfybq, b htfkmyjcnm gjrhjtn jxtdblyjcnmç, b pfvtnän zdktyyst ñjhjpls ljcnbåtybq. Vyj-

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ghtjñhfpjdfybtv jñoby. Ñhfn V. pfyzn bcnjhbxtcrbvb bccktljdfybzvb. Yfi cfgjåybr gbitn pfvtxfntkmyst abkjcjacrbt nhfrnfns. Htibntkmyj rfålsq yføjlbn hfñjne gj ctñt b gj åtkfybç vjåtn bpvtyznm tä. Nfrbv jñhfpjv, yeåyj åtkfybt hfñjns b hfcrhsnjt cjpyfybt, ghb rjnjhjv rfålsq nhel cnfyjdbncz edktrfntkmysv. Dtlm hfñjnf blän lkz ñeleotuj, b rfålsq ytcän kexibq rfvtym. B Vs ctqxfc d dble ujh ujdjhbv lkz ñeleotuj. B ds ãnb ckjdf gthtlflbnt åbntkzv ljkby, b jyb toä hfp dcgjvyzn j djpvjåyjcnb ceotcndjdfybz Jñobys. 203. Ds eåt cksifkb jn ljcnjdthysø gentitcndtyybrjd, rfr ghjdjlybrb jnrfpsdfçncz dtcnb d ytrjnjhsø yfghfdktybzø. Crjhtt jyb lflen eñbnm ctñz, ytåtkb gjdtlen dgthäl. Nfr b tcnm. Ghjdjlybrb gcbøjkjubhjdfys Yfvb. Yj tckb ytjcnjhjåysq genybr dcä-nfrb gjqlän dgthäl, gthtl ybv pfuhtvbn ujhysq jñdfk. Tckb genybr jcbkbn ãnj ghtgzncndbt, nj ljålm otñyz eytcän tuj, bñj ytåtkfyysq yt ljqlän. 204. Nfqyf tcnm ghbpyfr ytpyfybz. Byjulf Yfie Jñobye jñdbyzkb d pfndjhybxtcndt b d ytåtkfybb

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gjvjufnm kçlzv. Cfvb ds pyftnt b dbltkb Yfc d hfpysø vtcnfø b dbltkb Yfibø ltzntktq. Yfib dtotcndtyyst gjcskrb ñskb yt vfks. Ds pyftnt, xnj Yfib gbcmvf ljøjlzn ñscnhj b gjckfyws yt pfgfplsdfçn. Crfåbnt ãnj vjkjlsv lhepmzv. Tckb dtotcndtyyfz cdzpm vfkj pfvtnyf, nj yeåyj bcrfnm ghbxbye d ytcjukfcjdfyyjcnb cjpyfybz. Tckb Vs yt cgtibv c rfrbv-nj dscnegktybtv, pyfxbn, Vs yt øjnbv bcgjhnbnm ytxnj ghtåltdhtvtyyjcnmç. Ybrjulf yt hfcndjhbv elfhf chtlb ñtpdjkbz. Ybrjulf yt dkjåbv ckjdj, pyfxtybt rjnjhjuj ytgjyznyj. Dctulf djplthåbvcz jn ñtpevyjq nhfns ãythubb, bñj gj jgsne pyftv, rfr lhfujwtyyf cnhtkf ãythubb. Yt cjvytdfqntcm, xnj pf ghtltkfvb dtcjvjq vfnthbb vs gjuheåftvcz dj dpfbvjltqcndbz njyxfqibø ãythubq, b nhfnf rhegbws ãnbø lhfujwtyyjcntq ljkåyf ñsnm hfpevyf. Cnjktnbz Vs yfrjgkzkb Yfib rybujøhfybkbof; hfpevyj ñeltn jøhfybnm bø jn gjåfhf. Yf ytrjnjhsø cbvdjkfø dblys ldt cgbhfkb: yfcrjkmrj vjåyj gj jlyjq gjlyznmcz, yfcnjkmrj åt vjåyj cgecnbnmcz gj lheujq. Gecnm gjvyzn nt, rnj yt ghjxm bphtxm: ≤Vs eåt gjcnbukb≥. Rnj åt gjljphtdftn Yfie Jñobye d ñtpltqcndbb, nt ghjcnj ytcdtleob.

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205. Yfv yt yeåys ñkfujyfvthtyyst Ybrjlbvs, ghbøjlzobt yjxmç b vjkxfobt lyäv d cbytlhbjyt. Rfålsq ljkåty øhfybnm nfqye ljdthtyyeç, yj ljkåty bvtnm ckjdf j Yfc. Ckjdf ndählst, vjueobt jitkjvbnm ghjnbdybrf. Crfåbnt: ≤Kçñjgsnyj dbltnm ujdjhzotuj j njv, xtuj yt pyftn≥. Tckb ñelen ujdjhbnm ghjnbd rkfljd, crfåbnt: ≤Lfåt vjht gjkyj pfgtxfnfyysø ñenskjr≥. Ñelen ujdjhbnm ghjnbd Jñobys, crfåbnt: ≤Gjxbnfçobq Øhbcnf, Ñelle bkb Vjbctz yt lthpyän ujdjhbnm ghjnbd Jñobys Ñkfuf≥. Cfvjt øelitt _ crfpfnm kjåyjt jñdbytybt, bñj d yäv b kjåm, b rktdtnf, b ghtlfntkmcndj, b ytdtåtcndj. Crfåbnt: ≤Hfp Exbntkm ceotcndetn, gjxtve yt gjkmpjdfnmcz Tuj hfpevysvb cjdtnfvb? Cfvb yt gjkmpetntcm bvb, bñj yt pyftnt, rfr gjkexbnm bø. Njhjgbntcm epyfnm j Vføfnvfø yt d bcnjhbb, yj d åbpyb; gjrf åt jcnfdmnt ytdtåtcndj ghb ctñt≥. 206. Bvtyyj, ñjhmñf ghjnbd jxtdblyjcnb. Htfkmyjcnm _ yt jxtdblyjcnm. Jxtdblyjcnm gj dctv ghbpyfrfv yt jndtxftn ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Cnfhst extybz gjpbnbdbpvf pfvtyzkb ljcnjdthyjcnm jxtdblyjcnmç, _ jghfdlfybt bv jlyj: e ybø yt ñskj vbrhjcrjgjd b ntktcrjgjd, yb dybp, yb yfdthø. Yj gsnkbdsq ev 186


yt cxbnftncz c eckjdyjç jxtdblyjcnmç, tve yeåyf ltqcndbntkmyjcnm d jghfdt rjcvbxtcrbø pfrjyjd. Jy gjybvftn, xnj åtvxeu ytdblbv d ukeñbyt b xnj ckjb djpleøf vjuen crhsdfnm cnfb jhkjd. Ytlfdyj Vs ujdjhbkb j pfobnt ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Gjvybnt, xnj yt ñtpuhfvjnysq yfhjl ñeltn zhbnmcz ghjnbd ltqcndbntkmyjcnb, yj ãnb vfktymrbt uhfvjntb cdbhtgj ñelen jncnfbdfnm cdjç ñkbpjhereç jxtdblyjcnm. Jyb ñelen levfnm, xnj vbh, pfrkçxäyysq d bø rheujpjht, ltqcndbntkty, dcä åt jcnfkmyjt, bv ytdblbvjt, zdkztncz dhtlyjq dslevrjq. Xnj åt ktåbn d jcyjdt ãnjq ybotycrjq epjcnb? Nf åt cfvfz, dbl bpvtybdifz, cjñcndtyyjcnm. Ãnj vjq cdbyfhybr, b gjnjve dcä dyt tuj _ ytyeåyjt b dhtlyjt. Ãnj vjz jxtdblyjcnm, b gjnjve dyt tä ybxtuj yt ceotcndetn. Bpdtcnyfz ñfcyz j ckjyt b ctvb cktgsø ljcnfnjxyf jxtdblyjcnmç. Bvtyyj, rfr Vs ujdjhbv: Jñobyf ñjhtncz pf ltqcndbntkmyjcnm. Djn dfv toä jlby dbl cjçpybrjd _ nt, rnj cnhtvzncz r ghfdlt, lkz rjnjhsø jxtdblyjcnm yt xnj byjt, rfr ytxbcnjt cntrkj. Tckb øbvbxtcrfz b ñbjkjubxtcrfz jxtdblyjcnm ckjåyf, nj toä ckjåytt jxtdblyjcnm gkfyjd gjcnhjtybz åbpyb b ltqcndbq. Ñtp hfpdbnbz cjpyfybz vs ñeltv ghtñsdfnm d gj187


cnjzyyjv vbhfåt; rfr d rfnfktgcbb, vs pfcnsytv d crhçxtyyjv eåfct. Vfqz, jncnegb! Vs øjnbv b ñeltv pyfnm ltqcndbntkmyjcnm! 207. Yt gjjohzqnt rjcvjujybxtcrbø hfcceåltybq lj endthåltybz cjpyfybz. Cktlbnt pf wtktcjjñhfpyjcnmç ghtgjlfdfybz d irjkfø. Ecnfyjdbnt djpvjåyjcnm lkz ecgtdfçobø crjhtqituj ghjldbåtybz. Tckb htpdsq rjhfñkm ljkåty cgecrfnm gfhecf lkz hfdytybz cnhjz, nj yt ñeltn kb ãnj evthodktybtv djpvjåyjcntq? Pyftnt kb, rfr cjplfkfcm cnhjqyjcnm ecnhtvktybz rjhfñkz? B yt gjcnhjty kb jy lkz ghbyznbz yfbñjkmitq jgfcyjcnb? Rfr hfcøjljdfnm tuj lkz gthtdjprb vjhjåtysø jdjotq?! Dctulf cjøhfybnt djpvjåyjcnm jndtncndtyyjuj ghjldbåtybz. Gecnm c gthdjuj ujlf irjks vtlktyysq ifu yt ñeltn epfvb lkz ñscnhjøjlf. Gecnm exbntkm pjhrj hfcgjpyftn vjueobø ñscnhj blnb. Yt yflj ødfkbnm bø, yj cktletn hfcxbcnbnm bv genm. Cktletn cjplfnm ghjvtåenjxyst rehcs, gj ãnbv cnegtyzv ñscnhst vjuen dpñtufnm. Yt crhsdfqnt jn ybø nhelyjcntq. Lkz bpdtcnyjuj nbgf cjpyfybz rfåljt gjldbujgjljñyjt ldbåtybt tcnm eåt cdtn b hfljcnm. 188


Nfråt jn exbntkz pfdbcbn ñscnhj jghtltkbnm yfghfdktybt vsiktybz extybrf, bñj jibñjxyjt yfgencndbt tcnm nzårjt ghtcnegktybt, ãnbv vjåyj kbibnmcz kexibø hfñjnybrjd. Rfålfz ytgjldbåyfz ghjuhfvvf tcnm nheg, rjnjhsq ytdsyjcbv ghb cjkywt pyfybz. Rfr vjåyj crjhtt yflj eghjxbnm irjke, ghjdthbd cjpyfybt exbntkz. Cjplfqnt tve kexitt gjkjåtybt, xnjñ djpkjåbnm yf ytuj jndtncndtyyjcnm pf cjpyfybt jñobyysø hfñjnybrjd. Ytdjpvjåyj, xnjñs irjks ñeleotuj yfgjvbyfkb crjnyst ldjhs, ult rfktxbkbcm ytlfdybt gjrjktybz. Bpedthcndj b pfghtotybt cvtyzçncz djpvjåyjcnzvb. Lfqnt bpextybt htväctk, lfqnt cdjñjle dsñjhf b nhtñeqnt rfxtcndj nhelf. Lkz ãnjuj rfålsq exbntkm ljkåty gjybvfnm pyfxtybt rfxtcndf. 208. Ibhjrj vjåyj cjñbhfnm vjkjlsø cjnhelybrjd. Exbntkm øjntk ñs dbltnm yfghzåäyyjt bcrfybt, dvtcnj vfktymrbø gthtceljd. Yjxm ktåbn yfl ñjzobvbcz; zdysq eothñ bv vtytt pfvtnty, ytåtkb djkjc kbiybq yf ujkjdt cjctlf. Vjåyj kb levfnm jñ jñobyt, rjulf pfyzns cgktnyzvb? Yj nhelyjcnm evtymiftncz, rjulf pyftv, xnj hfnybrb rktdtns vjuen jcnfnmcz pf cntyfvb yjdsø ujhjljd. 189


Gecnm rktdtnybrb ghjcvjnhzn cgbcjr dctuj, bvb jrktdtnfyyjuj. Yt ñeltn kb ãnj cgbcjr xtkjdtxtcrbø ãdjkçwbjyysø yføjåltybq? Ybrfrfz rktdtnf yt gjdkbztn yf cktlcndbt ãdjkçwbb. Yj rktdtnf tcnm gjåbhfntkmybwf åbpytyyjuj njgkbdf b, c njxrb phtybz wtktcjjñhfpyjcnb, ljkåyf ñsnm eybxnjåtyf. Ytktgjt, ñhfyyjt ckjdj xfcnj yt cjghjdjålftncz xänrjç vsckmç, yj ghbhjlf rktdtns dsyjityf dj nmvt, b vsckm ytcän tä ytcksiyj, rfr gjkän abkbyf. Cghfibdftn rnj-nj: ≤Pfxtv nfr jñhfofnm dybvfybt yf rktdtne?≥ Cghfibdfçobq yt pyftn jñ ãrjyjvbb ãythubb. Yt yeåyj gtxfkbnmcz j cjhyjq ljhjut, yj ujht cjhbntkzv! 209. Eåt dbltkb, rfr ñskb pflfys Vyjç djghjcs dyjdm ghbitlitve. Gj jndtnfv vjåyj ñskj celbnm j rfxtcndfø ghbitkmwf. Rfåljve bp dfc ghbläncz exbnm ghbøjlzobø. Tckb jyb yfxyen djghjcjv, ds jndtxfqnt djghjcjv åt. Ds pyftnt, rfr rfxtcndj djghjcf lfän yfghfdktybt gjcktleçotve. Ytkmpz ljgecnbnm, xnjñs drhfkfcm ytnjxyjcnm d vsckb djghjcf. Xfcnj ãnf gthdfz hfcgksdxbdjcnm kjåbncz rfr vfckzyjt gznyj yf gjrhsdfkj b cnfyjdbncz ytbpukflbvsv. 190


Ghblän xfc, rjulf ds egjhyj ñeltnt yfcnfbdfnm yf djghjcfø cj cnjhjys cjñtctlybrf. Yj gthdsq djghjc ljkåty bcøjlbnm jn dfc. B hfymit dctuj cghjcbnt _ xnj ghbdktrkj r dfv cjñtctlybrf? B gjckt ghtlkjåbnt tve crfpfnm, rjulf jy d gthdsq hfp gjxedcndjdfk ytujlyjcnm cjdhtvtyyjq åbpyb; pfntv gecnm jy hfccrfåtn, rfr gthdjt gjyznbt Exbntkz djpybrkj d tuj cjpyfybb? Gecnm crfåtn, rfr jy gjybvftn gjldbu, b xedcndetn kb hfpkbxbt vtåle jxtdblyjcnmç b ltqcndbntkmyjcnmç, b vjåtn kb jcjpyfnm jñobye dyenhb cjpyfybz? Nfr yeåyj gjløjlbnm r pfhjckzv åtkfybq b vtxns. Yt ñjqntcm gjrfpfnmcz cehjdsvb, dtlm ujhfplj øeåt bpvznst, vzurbt gjleirb. Cehjdjcnm lfcn cdjb rjhyb, b tckb toä lfnm gjrfpfntkm yfghzåäyyjcnb, nj cjplfcncz zdktybt vjcnf. Ghbläncz bcrkçxbnm dct djghjcs j ñsditq ctvtqyjq åbpyb. Jlybv nfrbv djghjcjv vjåyj gjuhepbnm d jñsltyyjcnm, vtåle ntv rfr yflj dctvb vthfvb cjøhfybnm ytjñsxyjcnm htfkmyjcnb. Htfkmyjcnm d cdthrfybb vjkybb ujnjdbn genm. 210. Yt vjuen jñdbybnm Yfie Jñobye d cøjkfcnbrt. Crjhtt vjåtn ytjgsnysq jitkjvbnmcz yfghzåäyyjcnmç ntvgf b rfåeotqcz ytjåblfyyjcnmç. 191


Cfvf åbpym lfän gjdjhjnkbdjcnm Jñobyt. Hjålfçncz yjdst cjtlbytybz, nhtñeçobt ytvtlktyyjuj jnütplf bkb cgtiyjuj djpdhfotybz. D Yfibø cnfhsø gbcmvfø ds xbnfkb, rfr ñsk dthty Yfi ghjuyjp cjwbfkmysø cjñsnbq. Toä ctujlyz ds bvttnt gjlndthåltybz j cjcnjzybb cjpyfybz d vbht. Xenrjcnm Yfituj fggfhfnf gjpdjkztn xbnfnm djkys ytjcnjhjåysø vscktq vbhf. Cjdthityyj rfr bplfntkmcrfz rjvyfnf. Ytghfdbkmyj ghtlcnfdbnm, xnj Yfif Jñobyf cblbn gjl ntymç b ckfdjckjdbn ytdblbvjve Ndjhwe. Rfålfz rjycnherwbz ljkåyf ñsnm cjbpvthbvf c eckjdbzvb cnegtyb ãdjkçwbb. Vs cjpyfäv, rfrjq yfghzåäyysq hbnv nhtñetn cjdhtvtyyjcnm. Vjåtn ghbqnb r Yfv, rnj botn yfkfåtyyjcnm hfñjns. Vjåtn ghbqnb, tckb yfqlän ljhjue. 211. Ghbpyfntkmyjcnm tcnm jghfdf cghfdtlkbdjcnb. Jñobyf ljkåyf pyfnm ceoyjcnm ghbpyfntkmyjcnb. Rfåljt wtktcjjñhfpyjt ltqcndbt yt eybxnjåftncz, yj ytcän pf cjñjç ghbpyfntkmyjcnm. Ceoyjcnm ghbpyfntkmyjcnb ñeltn d ghbjñotybb r ntcytqitve cjpdexbç cjpyfybz.

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Endthåltybt cjnhelybxtcndf yt tcnm cktlcndbt ajhvfkmyjuj jghjcf. Njkmrj ltqcndbtv b htibvjcnmç vjåyj ghbñkbpbnmcz r cthlwe Jñobys. Exbnt yt egecrfnm djpvjåyjcntq. Tckb htibvjcnm b ltqcndbt dtlen r ghbpyfntkmyjcnb, nj ytjcvjnhbntkmyjcnm b egeotybt cjplfçn nhelyjbpukflbveç ghtuhfle. Cjnhelybr, gj ytgjldbåyjcnb egecnbdibq ltqcndbt, ghtljcnfdkztncz cfvjve ctñt. Ãnj yt tcnm dpscrfybt, yj ghfrnbxtcrbq cgjcjñ gjrfpfnm tve tuj ytcjcnjzntkmyjcnm. Rjytxyj, htlrj rnj ghbpyftn cdjç ytcjcnjzntkmyjcnm, b njulf ghtljcnfdkztncz vfktymrjt cfvjcnjzntkmyjt eghfåytybt; xnj-nj blän nhelyj, xnj-nj crhbgbn b yt jnrhsdftncz. Yt cktletn gjljphtdfnm vfubxtcrbt ghbävs; ghjcnj dhtvtyyj jnktntkj dybvfybt Jñobys, b øjlekb ytjgsnyjcnb rfxfçncz gj dtnhe. Dj dczrjv ckexft, djpltqcndbt rjkktrnbdf, rfrbv zdkztncz Jñobyf, ñeltn vjoysv, b ñtp ãnjuj chtljnjxbz nhelyj blnb ntv, rnj jlyfåls eåt bcgsnfk genb ñkfuf Jñobys. Cfvf ghbhjlf xtkjdtxtcndf ghbckeibdftncz r rfåljq dtcnb jñ Jñobyt. Gjgsnfçncz crfpfnm j ytdjpvjåyjcnb jñobys, yj ybrnj yt lthpyän endthålfnm j dhtlt tä. Vs pjdäv r fñcjkçnyjve, Vs ghtlkfuftv

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ltqcndbz ytjcgjhbvst, Vs øjnbv dbltnm djkç b cfvjcnjzntkmyjcnm. Ybxnj cjvybntkmyjt yt ljkåyj ghjybrfnm d cjpyfybt nhelzobøcz. E Yfc cjñhfys pyfxbntkmyst pyfybz, b Vs vjåtv bvb gjkmpjdfnmcz, bñj Vs bvb gjkmpetvcz yt lkz ctñz, yj lkz Bcnbys. B uheñjt ≤z≥ eåt cvtybkjcm ndjhzobv ≤vs≥. Exbnt gjyznm Jñobye rfr rbgzobq bcnjxybr djpvjåyjcntq! 212. Endthålfçobq Jñobye cgjcjñcndetn ecrjhtybç ãdjkçwbb gkfytns. Dczrjt jrfvtytybt b ytgjldbåyjcnm ñelen jpyfxfnm djpdhfotybt r gthdbxysv ajhvfv. Jñhfnbnt dybvfybt yf bcnjhbç ghjikjuj; ds edblbnt zcyst njkxrb ghtecgtzybq, ds yfukzlyj edblbnt, xnj ãnb njkxrb cjdgflfçn c ghjzdktybtv bltb jñobys_cjnhelybxtcndf. Hfpheifkbcm ltcgjnbb, ghjybrfkb ljcnbåtybz yferb, djpybrfkb yjdst cgjcjñs nhelf, cbzkb ñkfubt lthpyjdtybz, rjulf hfpdähnsdfkjcm pyfvz cjnhelybxtcndf. Tckb ñs xtkjdtxtcndj xfot vsckbkj j cjnhelybxtcndt, jyj lfdyj eåt dcnegbkj ñs d vbhjdjt gjybvfybt Jñotuj Ñkfuf. 194


213. Crfåbnt kbwtvthysv cjpthwfntkzv: tckb cjpthwfybt tcnm yfghzåtybt ãythubb b yfrjgktybt ghsårf, nj Ktd vju pfdtofnm nfrjt ltqcndbt. Yj tckb cjpthwfybt tcnm ktyjcnm b hfdyjleibt, nj ytdjpvjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm ãnj gjpjhyjt dhtvzghtghjdjåltybt rfr dtkbrbq pfdtn. Vyjuj yflj eñhfnm c genb. Yeåyj ghjdthbnm rfåljt erjhtybdittcz zdktybt. Vs ghbdsrkb ghbpyfdfnm ckexfqyst gyb pf gentdjlyst dtøb, yj, rfr ljcnjqyst xktys hfpevyjuj jñotcndf, dct jndtncndtyys pf rfålsq ytktgsq gthtåbnjr. Ytkmpz cxbnfnm ctñz åthndjq jñotcndtyyjuj ythfpevbz. Ytkmpz ecgjrjbnmcz yf vsckb, xnj ult-nj dbyjdfn. Kexit nhtpdj bcxbckbnm cdjb gjgecnbntkmcndf. Kexit ñtp rhbdjq eksñrb cjjñhfpbnm, xnj vjåyj bcghfdbnm jn ctujlyz, b ghjdthbnm rfxtcndj rfåljuj cdjtuj ltqcndbz. Ghbxäv cktletn yfxfnm ghjdthre c cfvjuj jñsltyyjuj. Yt ckbirjv kb ljkuj cgfk? Rfr ujdjhbk c jrheåfçobvb? Yt jnkjåbk kb cgtiyeç hfñjne? Yt crfpfk kb kjåyst chjrb? Yt pfñsk kb pfñjnkbdjcnm jñ Jñotv Ñkfut? Nfr gthtcghfibdfqnt ctñz ñtp kbwtvthbz.

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214. Ghjdthzz cdjb ltqcndbz, ktuxt pjhrj yfñkçlfnm gjcnegrb lheubø. Ds ljcnfnjxyj pyftnt, yfcrjkmrj Vs ghjnbd ghtlhfccelrjd b gthtåbnrjd. Bvtyyj d ãnjv cjpyfybb Vs ujdjhbv: jcnjhjåyj jnyjcbntcm r xeåbv jñsxfzv. Xfcnj d jcyjdt ktåfkj hfpdbnjt pyfybt; njulf, rfr htfkbcns, vs ljkåys cvsnm dct yfyjcs, yj kjvfnm pyfxtybt hfpevyjq jcyjds ñskj ñs ytjghfdlfyyj. Tckb pjlxbq dblbn ghjxyjcnm jcyjdfybz, jy gjkmpetncz bv lkz yjdjuj plfybz. Yeåyf vbhjdfz ãrjyjvbz chtlcnd. Hjcrjim hfpheitybz jnjikf yf cnhfybws bcnjhbb. Vbh yeålftncz yt d yjdsø ãktvtynfø, yj d yjdsø cjxtnfybzø. B genm yjdjuj pfdjtdfntkz jpfhäy yt pfhtdjv gjåfhjd, yj bcrhfvb dyjdm ghbdktxäyyjq ãythubb. Ythfpltkmyj cjtlbytys ghjdjlf djpvjåyjcntq. Dtkbrf jgfcyjcnm yfheibnm njr ãythubb. Ujdjhbkb jñ jcvjnhbntkmyjcnb yt njkmrj lkz cjøhfytybz ãrjyjvbb, yj b lkz bpñtåfybz jgfcyjcnb. Kturj gththtpfnm gjlptvysq ghjdjl b kbibnm dtcm ujhjl cdtnf. Vjåyj kturj hfpheibnm gjktpyeç jcyjde b yfljkuj dytcnb dhtlyjt cvzntybt. Gjnjve ødfkbv hfpevyeç htibvjcnm b cjåfkttv j hjcrjib eybxnjåtybz.

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215. Cjkytxysq kex bcceiftn b hfpheiftn, yj cdtn djccnfyjdkztn. Yeåyf yfcsotyyjcnm, yj yt htprbq elfh. Cjpblfntkzv yeåyj pyfnm, rfr yfcsofnm fnvjcathe. Hexfntkmcndj ecgtøf d yfcsotyyjcnb fnvjcaths, rjnjhfz djccnfyfdkbdftn dcä ceott. Nfr yflj cnhjbnm, xnjñs dcä ghjikjt cjdgfkj c ñeleobv. Hfpheiftncz dcä jibñjxyjt b ckexfqyjt, yj ybnm pyfybz yt ljkåyf ñsnm yfheityf. Yt ecnegrf ghjikjve, yj gjnjr dtxyjcnb. Tckb ñs kçlb yfexbkbcm joeofnm djkye cfynfys, jyb gjkexbkb ñs cjpyfybt Rjcvjcf. Rjulf genybr cnjbn yf dscjnt, hfpdt jy yt vjåtn gjxeznm, xnj tuj ntkj djpdsiftncz rfr cjtlbytybt gkfytn? Bvtyyj, yt jnjhdfyyjcnm jn Ptvkb, yj dvtotybt cjtlbyztvjcnb ltkftn xtkjdtrf ltzntktv. Xeåljt extybt yfcnfbdftn yf zdktybb gjlxbytybz, yj jñobyf yfcnjkmrj yfcsotyf djpvjåyjcnzvb, xnj tlbycndtyyjq Bthfhøbtq ñeltn cnegtym pyfybz. Ybrnj yt yfpyfxftn Bthfhøf, yj ckeifçobq b gjpyfçobq ghbpyfçn ntv ãne cnegtym. Exbntkm ñeltn tcntcndtyysv Djåläv. Exbntkm d Fpbb zdkztncz gjyznbtv pfrjyysv. Gj pfdtne Ñells rfålsq ñeleobq Exbntkm gjxbnftncz 197


jcjñtyyj. D ãnjv jnrhsnbb djpvjåyjcnb dtcm pfkju ñeleotuj. Yfcsotyyjcnm fnvjcaths gjlsvtn uhzleott htitybt vbhf. 216. Jcnthtufqntcm yt bvtçobø dhtvtyb. Kjåyfz pfyznjcnm ghtålt dctuj erfpsdftn yf ytevtymt gjkmpjdfnmcz cjrhjdbotv dhtvtyb b ghjcnhfycndf. Nfrbt kçlb vjuen bcgjkyznm kbim gthdbxyst ajhvs hfñjns. Ytdjpvjåyj bø ghbdktxm r cjpblfybç. Vs eåt ujdjhbkb j kåtwfø chjrjd, rhfleobø xeåjt dhtvz; ntgthm crfåtv j vtkjxysø ktynzzø b creljevfø, pfuhfålfçobø genm åbpyb. Jyb pfyzns, rfr cjcel, yfgjkytyysq gthwtv; e ybø dctulf ujhtxm jn hfñjns; jyb dfåys, rfr bylçrb, bñj gthtcxbnsdfçn rjkbxtcndj cvhflf rehtymz; jyb ghtljcnfdkzçn vtcnj hfñjns jlehvfybdfybç. Dslevfys cjnyb ghtlkjujd, pfgjkyzçobø otkb uybkjq hfñjns. Jyb yt yfqlen xfcf lkz cfvjuj ytjnkjåyjuj. D negjcnb cdjtq jyb ujnjds cnfnm lthprbvb b jnhbyenm lkz ybø cfvjt ceotcndtyyjt. Jyb ñtcgkjlys nfr åt, rfr b djhs xeåjuj dhtvtyb. Cktletn bcrkçxfnm bø bp yjdsø gjcnhjtybq. Lkz ybø vjåyj jcnfdbnm gthtyjcre rbhgbxtq.

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Vs pyftv vyjuj nhelzobøcz, rjnjhst yfqlen xfc lkz cfvjuj dfåyjuj; bv yt rfåtncz, xnj jyb pfyzns. Ytcregjq yf nhel _ otlhj gjkexbn. Ãnj rfxtcndj dvtotybz nhelf ytjñøjlbvj lkz hfcibhtybz cjpyfybz. Vjåyj kb xtv-kbñj pfvtybnm hfljcnm hjcnf cjpyfybz? D Yfibø byleccrbø gbcfybzø ds dcnhtxfkb dshfåtybt ≤buhf≥ d ghbvtytybb r rjcvbxtcrbv gjyznbzv. Buhf Dtkbrjq Vfnthb Vbhf, yt dblyf kb jyf ghjcdtnkäyyjve cjpyfybç? B lhfvf rhjdb yt pfvtybvf kb d cdtnt kextyjcyjq vfnthbb? Yj lkz cbzçotq buhs yeåyj bvtnm ujnjdsq xfc. 217. Tcnm ldf hjlf crtgcbcf: jlby _ ljñhjåtkfntkmysq, boeobq gjlndthåltybz; lheujq _ nheckbdsq cjñcndtyybr, bpñtufçobq yjdbpys. Zdktybt dnjhjuj ghbdsxyj d vfkjjñhfpjdfyysø rheufø. Ybrjulf yt yfxbyfqnt cgjhf c ãnbvb ckjzvb. Ghtlkjåbnt bv gjxbnfnm b gjgjkybnm jñhfpjdfybt. Gthdsq hjl crtgnbrjd ghtlcnfdkztn lkz Yfc zdktybt ghbznyjt, bp ybø gjkexfçncz gjktpyst cjnhelybrb. Rjytxyj, jñsxyj jyb ñjktt jñhfpjdfyys b bø ghtåybq jgsn ñjufxt. Pfntv jyb vjuen ktuxt cjgjcnfdbnm lfyyst hfpysø jñkfcntq pyfybz. Rjytxyj, jyb eåt 199


ujnjds r djcghbznbç jñobys, b chfdytybz ñelen lkz ybø kbim cyznbtv dhtvtyyjuj ñtkmvf. Rfr htfkbcns, Vs pyftv ltqcndbntkmyjcnm b hfletvcz, tckb rnj botn genäv ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Ãnf ltqcndbntkmyjcnm gjpdjkztn yt ghblfdfnm pyfxtybz ytdtåtcnde. Cytu, eytcäyysq dtctyybv cjkywtv, yt pfqvän dybvfybz, yj tckb jy cjplfcn ñjkjnj, vs hfcrbytv cnfy yf ñjktt dscjrjv vtcnt. 218. Bpdtcnyjt cjcnjzybt vfnthbb crkflsdftn xtkjdtxtcreç jcjñm, dspsdfz r åbpyb cjpyfntkmyeç bylbdblefkbpfwbç, _ c ãnjuj vjvtynf yfxbyftncz ñjhmñf ghjnbd jñobys. Rjulf d xtkjdtrt, rfr ujdjhzn, ghjñeålftncz pdthm, bvtyyj njulf bylbdblefkbpfwbz, ñtp gbnfybz cjpyfybz, jñhfoftncz d pkjcnysq ãujbpv. Njulf yfxbyftncz gjøjl ghjnbd ghjcdtotybz b cjnhelybxtcndf. Ãujbpv yt cnfyjdbncz ñkfujhjlysv jcjpyfybtv kbxyjcnb _ nfrjq ãujbpv djpdhfoftncz r pdthbyjve cjcnjzybç, enhfnbd uheggjdst wtyyjcnb åbdjnysø. Nfrjq xtkjdtr øeåt pdthz. Vjåyj kb cnhjbnm jñobye bp ãnbø pdthjgjljñysø, yt bvtçobø jñotuj zpsrf? Njulf cnhjbntkb ljkåys gthtcvjnhtnm jcyjds xtkjdtxtcrjq bylbdblefkmyjcnb.

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Dczrfz hfvrf, dczrfz ghjuhfvvyfz eckjdyjcnm ljkåys ñsnm ghjdthtys, yj ghjdthznm vjuen kbim kçlb veåtcndtyyst, eitlibt jn ep eckjdyjcntq. Nfr yeåyj øhfybnm gjldbu xtkjdtxtcrjq kbxyjcnb. Yfqlencz gjñjhjdibt pdthz, yj blbnt bcrfnm bø ñtp cnfhsø ajhvek. Tckb jñcnfyjdrf jñhfoftn dfc r dtnøjve vsiktybç, nj kexit cjåubnt ãne jñcnfyjdre, ytåtkb cltkfnmcz ckeufvb tä. Vs pyfkb nfrbø cnhjbntktq d cnfhsø rhtckfø. Vs dblfkb nfrbø ghjhjrjd c xtrjdsvb rybårfvb b uhjvrbø djåltq yf jñtlfø. Ybrfrbt cnfhst cntys, lfåt cdznbkbof ñfyrf, yt erhtgzn cjpyfybt jñobys. Tckb jñobyybr vtxnftn øjnz ñs dytiybvb ghbävfvb gjøjlbnm yf rfgbnfkbcnf, pyfxbn, uybks yjub tuj jñobys. Eybxnjåfqnt pdthz-xtkjdtrf. Ødjcnfnst kçlb b wtynfdhs yt døjlzn d ãdjkçwbç. Yeåyj ltzntkmyjt jcjpyfybt jñobys. 219. Dczrfz yfcbkmcndtyyjcnm jceåltyf. Yfcbkmcndtyyjt hfñcndj, yfcbkmcndtyysq ñhfr, yfcbkmcndtyysq nhel djpñeålfçn djpveotybt b jceåltybt. Yj bp dctø yfcbkbq cfvjt ghtcnegyjt b ehjlkbdjt phtkbot zdkztn yfcbkmcndtyyfz jñobyf. Rfåljt yfcbkbt 201


jñhtxtyj yf htfrwbç, f cfvjt øelitt yfcbkbt jñhtxtyj yf htfrwbç cfveç øelieç. Yj jñobyf vbhf ceåltyf _ pyfxbn, ãktvtyns, yt dvtcnbdibt gjyznbt jñobys, ljkåys ñsnm eñtåltys d tä ytghtkjåyjcnb. Yt ckjdfvb kb eñtålfnm? Yj yt ckjdf, yj kbim vsckm eñtålftn b gththjålftn cjpyfybt. Vsckm vjåtn ñsnm jñjcnhtyf kbim gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubtq. Hfpdbnbt ãnjq ãythubb lfcn dsøjl cjpblfntkzv jñobys. Tckb jyb cfvb eñtåltys d ytghtkjåyjcnb jñobys, ybrnj yt vjåtn pfghtnbnm bv gjckfnm vjoyeç vsckm lkz eñtåltybz ghjnbdybrjd. Kbim yeåyj gjyznm pyfxtybt gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb d yfcnegfçotq ãdjkçwbb b yfexyj bpexfnm tä ghjzdktybz. Ytpfxtv ghjñjdfnm tä yf phtkbofø d dblt ajrecjd. Cktletn cj dctq pfñjnkbdjcnmç b jndtncndtyyjcnmç ghbcnegbnm r jnrhsnbç cjrhjdbof xtkjdtxtcndf. Yt vyjuj dhtvtyb, xnjñ gjpfñjnbnmcz j ghtdhfotybb vyjubø ghjnbdybrjd d gjktpysø cjnhelybrjd. Rjytxyj, tckb ds gjljqlänt r ybv c ecnhfitybzvb, ãnj ñeltn uheñj b ytljcnjqyj bcnbyysø jñobyybrjd.

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Cdtnkfz, dctgjñtålfçofz vsckm ñeltn dgjkyt cjjndtncndjdfnm eckjdbzv uhzleotq Yjdjq Ãhs cjnhelybxtcndf. Levftnt, xnj crfpfyyjt enjgbz? Njulf ljqlbnt lj Yfc b eñtlbntcm, rfr ltqcndetn cjpyfntkmyfz vsckm xtkjdtxtcrfz! 220. Rjulf Vs ujdjhbv j rhfcjnt uhzleotq ãdjkçwbb, Yfc yfpsdfçn jgnbvbcnfvb-enjgbcnfvb. Rjulf Vs ujdjhbv jñ eåfcfø cjdhtvtyyjcnb, Yfc yfpsdfçn vtxnfntkzvb-gtccbvbcnfvb. Yj Vs yt vjåtv ñsnm yb jgnbvbcnfvb, yb gtccbvbcnfvb, Vs htfkbcnsltqcndbntkmybrb. Vjåtnt ghtlcnfdbnm, rfrjt rjkbxtcndj åtkfçobø cnhtvbncz d Yfie Jñobye. Crjkmrj cdbltntkmcnd, crjkmrj jljñhbntkmysø jñhfotybq, yj d jcyjde ceåltybq gjkfuftncz kbim ltqcndbntkmyjcnm. Nfr åt gjcnegfqnt ghb jcyjdfybb yjdsø jñoby. Cvjnhbnt, xnjñs hjlcndtyyst jnyjitybz yt bvtkb pyfxtybz. Cvjnhbnt, xnjñs nofntkmyj ghjdthzkfcm ghtåyzz lheåñf b dhfålf; xnjñs ybrfrbt cdbltntkmcndf yt bpjuyekb htitybz, _ kbxysq jghjc, kbxyjt bcgsnfybt, kbxyfz jndtncndtyyjcnm. Cjdtneç yfxfnm bcgsnfybt c ghtlkjåtybz jnljøyenm, yt hfñjnfnm. Rfålsq, 203


hfljcnyj ythfñjnfçobq, dfv yt cjnhelybr. Cghjcbnm vjåyj _ ghbpyfys kb pfckeub ghbitlituj ytñkfujlfhysv xtkjdtxtcndjv? Rfålsq åfkjñobr dfv yt cjnhelybr. Cghjcbnm vjåyj _ jndtncndtyty kb jy cfv pf ghjikjt bkb lheubt, øelst kçlb? Dfi cjnhelybr ghjikjt yt ñeltn djpkfufnm yf lheubø. Nfråt pfvtxfqnt, xnjñ, jcnfdktyysq jlby, jy yt gthtldbufk ghtlvtnjd. Xtkjdtr, ghjybryedibqcz dfåyjcnmç ghjbcøjlzotuj, yt yfheibn ytpyfrjvjuj tve zdktybz. Xtkjdtr, ytvyjuj pyfçobq ceoyjcnm dtotq, jnytcäncz ñthtåyj r dfitve gjhzlre. Jcjñtyyj pjhrj cvjnhbnt pf vjkxfkbdsvb. Vjåyj pyfnm, xnj d yfcnjzott dhtvz vyjubt ujnjds ghbyznm jñobye b vyjubt vjuen jñhfpjdfnm cdjç gcbøbxtcreç ãythubç. Evtqnt erfpfnm bv, xnjñs ghtålt dctuj evtkb jcjpyfnm ghbcencndbt ãnjq ãythubb. Vjåyj jñhfpjdfnm b ecbkbnm njkmrj jcjpyfyyjt. Yt ghfds åtkfçobt bcgsnsdfnm cdjç gcbøbxtcreç ãythubç, yt gjxezd ghbcencndbz tä. Ãnj yt ñeltn ltqcndbntkmyjcnmç. 221. Rjulf ujdjhbv jñ jñhfpjdfybb gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb d cjpyfntkmyjt jheåbt, vjuen cghjcbnm: c 204


xtuj yfxfnm? Yeåyj yfxfnm c jcjpyfybz ghbcencndbz tä. Lkz ãnjuj jcjpyfybz ytjñøjlbvj ljnhjyenmcz lj jlyjuj bp cfvsø jcyjdysø gjyznbq. Byjulf ãnj yfpsdfkb, ytelfxyj, dthjç, yj kexit yfpdfnm ljdthbtv. Dthf jndtxftn cfvjubgyjpe. Ljdthbt cjjndtncndetn cfvjfyfkbpe. Dthf ytjghtltkäyyf d ceotcndt. Ljdthbt gjlndthålftn ytghtkjåyjcnm. Bläv genäv ytghtkjåyjcnb. Ytn cetdthbz jcjpyfnm vjom xtkjdtxtcrjuj fggfhfnf. Ljcnfnjxyj pflevfnmcz yfl ghjwtccfvb vsiktybz bkb htaktrcf, bkb øjnz ñs gbotdfhtybz. Vjåyj kturj pfvtnbnm ghjzdktybt ythdysø wtynhjd, yj ytxnj jñütlbyztn bø ltzntkmyjcnm cjpyfntkmyj, yt døjlz d ghtltks hfpevf. Ãnjn jhufy yfpsdfkb leøjv, yj jghtltktybt ãnj jgznm hfcgksdxfnj, d yäv ytn ecnhtvktybz. Dtkbrbq Fev tcnm gcbøbxtcrfz ãythubz, gbnftvfz ghfyjç. Vjåyj hfccvfnhbdfnm tä rfr abpbxtcrbq jhufy, bñj jyf gjllfäncz bpvtytybzv. Joeotybt ãnjuj dctcdzpeçotuj jhufyf ljkåyj yfgjkybnm hfljcnmç rfåljuj jñobyybrf. Nfrfz rjjgthfwbz gjpdjkztn levfnm j vbhjdsø hfpvthfø. C ãnjuj jcjpyfybz yfxbyftncz joeotybt djpvjåyjcnb eghfdktybz gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubtq.

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Endthåltybt gjvjåtn pføjntnm ghbdtcnb d ltqcndbt yfqltyysq jhufy. Åtkfybt ghb cjpyfybb jndtncndtyyjcnb ghbdtlän r yføjåltybç Exbntkz. Dcä ltkj d rfxtcndt b hfcibhtybb cjpyfybz. Ujdjhbk _ ≤vjåyj≥, ybrjulf yt pfghtofk. Tckb ñeltnt bcrfnm ñkbåfqibq rjhhtkzn gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb, ãnj ñeltn ltqcndbt. 222. Kçlb lfåt ghb tlt pfgbyfçncz j ytghbdsxyeç gjcele. Ñskj ñs ytgjghfdbvjq jibñrjq gjckfnm vsckm, yt cxbnfzcm c rfxtcndjv ghbävybrf. Lfdyj ujdjhbkjcm j ytjñøjlbvjcnb gjyznyjuj zpsrf lkz rfåljuj ckeifntkz, yj d åbpyb ãnj ghbvtyztncz jxtym htlrj. Yeåyj, ghb eñtåltybb gjchtlcndjv ghbvtytybz gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb, egjnhtñkznm zpsr eñtålftvjuj. Vjukb yt hfp pfvtnbnm, rfr zpsr Exbntkz cjjndtncndjdfk dshfåtybzv extybrjd. Yf ãnjv ckfufkbcm ytktgst gjljphtybz j gjlltkrfø, bñj rjve-nj rfpfkjcm cnhfyysv, xnj øfhfrnthyst dshfåtybz extybrf gthtlfdfkbcm htxmç Exbntkz. Yj ybrnj yt gjlevfk, xnj nfrbv jñhfpjv jñktuxfkfcm ecdjztvjcnm. Yeåyj nfråt gjyznm, xnj ghb cjdvtcnyjq hfñjnt jñjñofçncz cgjcjñs dshfåtybq _ bthjukba gjybvfybz eukeñkztncz. 206


Yj ytpyfqrb ghjljkåfçn rktdtnfnm j gjlltkrt b yt øjnzn jñthyenmcz yf ctñz, ghbgjvybd hfpybwe cdjbø dshfåtybq c hfpysvb kçlmvb. Vs kbim hfcibhztv njn åt ghbywbg. Vs ghtlkfuftv ghbvtybnm zpsr ckeifntkz dj dctq tuj øfhfrnthyjcnb. Yfv ytn ltkf, d xäv Yfc ñeltn jñdbyznm jñsdfntkm, Yfv yeåyj ñkfujt cktlcndbt. Tckb lkz cgfctybz jn jgfcyjcnb ds ljkåys ghbvtybnm cfvjt cnhfyyjt dshfåtybt, yt gjvsckbnt åt ghjvtlkbnm! Ãnj eckjdbt ytjñøjlbvj ghb ecjdthitycndjdfybb gthtlfxb vsckb. Ghtålt dctuj ds ljkåys bcgsnfnm cdjç yføjlxbdjcnm b ghbvtyztvjcnm d cfvsø hfpkbxysø eckjdbzø. Käurjcnm ghbävjd vsiktybz cjplfcn rhskmz vsckb dfitq. Vjåyj yfxfnm c cfvjuj øfhfrnthyjuj dshfåtybz ckeifntkz. Ãnj ghbdsxyjt ckjdj kturj pfrhtgbncz d cjpyfybb, yj lkz ãnjuj yeåyj cjcnhflfntkmyj gjlvtnbnm dcä øfhfrnthyjt. Ghbläncz bvtnm nsczxe ukfp! 223. Vtnjls Pfgflf b Djcnjrf gj gthtlfxt vsckb hfpkbxfçncz. Lkz dyeitybz Pfgfl cnfhfkcz ghbvtybnm ytgjchtlcndtyyjt, fuhtccbdyjt djpltqcndbt: ljnhfubdfybt, abrcbhjdfybt dpukzljv, uhjvrjt ñjhvjnfybt ghbrfpf cdjtq ghbvbnbdyjcnmç yfgjvbyfçn 207


ybpibø rjkleyjd Çåyjq Bylbb. Ghb ãnjv nfrjq ghbrfp jnkbxftncz ytljkujdhtvtyyjcnmç b jñsxyj jødfnsdftn cjpyfybt kbim lkz jlyjuj jghtltkäyyjuj ltqcndbz. Djcnjr ghtålt dctuj botn dyenhtyybq rjynfrn c cjcnjzybtv cjpyfybz, xnj gjpdjkztn ndähåt, lkbntkmytt yfgjkybnm cjpyfybt. Pfgflybr cnfhftncz cdthkbnm dfc dpukzljv, yj djcnjxybr, gjcskfz vsckm, bvtyyj yt ñeltn cvjnhtnm yf dfc, bñj ghjwtcc dpukzlf gjybåfk ñs htprjcnm ghbrfpf. Rjytxyj, ukfpf gjcskfçotuj ñelen jnrhsns, b jy ñeltn ghtlcnfdkznm ctñt cdjtuj rjhhtcgjyltynf, b d vscktyyjv bpjñhfåtybb jy vjåtn gjkytt jødfnbnm ceoyjcnm tuj. Ybrfrjt yfghzåtybt yt ecbkbn ãaatrnf, yj kbim ytghtkjåyjcnm cjpyfybz b dthyjcnm njyf gcbøbxtcrjuj pderf. Crfkf hfcgflftncz jn ltnjyfwbb, yt cnjkmrj jn njkxrf. Cfvjt nhelyjt kturj ljcnbuftncz, tckb cjpyfybt ljcnfnjxyj b cgjrjqcndbt yt yfheityj. Ñtlf d njv, xnj kçlb cxbnfçn cgjrjqcndbt ñtpltqcndbtv. Ltqcndbt _ ãythubz _ cdtn! 224. Ndthlbkb: evtqnt yfqnb hfljcnm d dtxyjq hfñjnt b d dtxyjv ljpjht. Ds cksifkb vepsre b gtybt d Yfitq Jñobyt. Yeåyj hfccvfnhbdfnm bø rfr xfcnm 208


hfñjns. Jñsxyj kçlb ghb pderfø dgflfçn d gcbøbxtcrjt ñtpltqcndbt b lfåt yt vjuen hjålfnm jñhfpjd. Ãnj ghjbcøjlbn jn ghbdsxrb gjybvfnm jnlsø rfr jnegtybt. Vjåyj ghbdsryenm gjkmpjdfnmcz bcreccndjv rfr rjyltycfwbtq cbk. Yt njkmrj djpdsitybt ltzntkmyjcnb, yj b jñjcnhtybt cbk lfän ghjbpdtltybt rhfcjns. Yj ãnj gjkjåtybt yeåyj ghbyznm cjpyfntkmyj b yfexbnmcz gjkmpjdfnmcz ãvfyfwbzvb ndjhxtcndf. Vjåyj kb vsckbnm gjcnhjtybt jñobys ñtp rhbcnfkkjd pderf b wdtnf? Gjbcnbyt, ãnj ñeltn rhjnjdfz yjhf! Yjcbntkb pderf b wdtnf ljkåys ghbytcnb d jñobye cjcel ythfcgktcrfyysq. Pyfybt b ndjhxtcndj ñelen Fvhbnjq Jñobys. Ytdjpvjåyj ghtcsnbnmcz pyfybtv; ytbcxbckbvs gjlüävs ndjhxtcndf. D ãnjq ñtcrjytxyjcnb ktåbn cnbvek dtxyjq hfñjns. Hfñjnfçobq vjåtn yfcsofnmcz, b ljpjh lkz ytuj njkmrj hfljcnm cjpyfntkmyjuj ñjlhcndjdfybz. Ceotcndj yfit nhtgtotn d cgbhfkzø cdtnf, b cdtn pdexbn. Rjytxyj, ndjhxtcndj hfpkbnj d rfåljv nhelt, yj ytrjnjhst bcrhs dtkbrjuj Fevf yfghfdkzçn ntxtybt åbpyb. Nj zdktybt ndjhxtcndf jñhfpetn epks ãdjkçwbb, bv pfrhtgktyf ghzåf Vfnthb Vbhf, pfrhtgktyf d nhelt dtxyjuj ltqcndbz. 209


Yt yeåyj eksñfnmcz yf Yfi zpsr cbvdjkjd Djcnjrf. Rfålsq cbvdjk cjlthåbn ckjåyjt jgbcfybt cdjqcnd vfnthbb. Yt dblbv yeåls jnvtybnm rhfnrbq bthjukba, gjyznysq cjnyzv vbkkbjyjd kçltq; ntv ñjktt xnj ãnb rhfnrbt pyfrb rhfcbds. B ds, kçlb Pfgflf, bvttnt ghfdj bp lkbyyjuj ltkfnm kbim rhfcbdjt. Wdtn b pder ñelen Fvhbnjq Jñobys. Pyfybt zdbn dtxyjcnm hfñjns. Ltqcndbt jrheåftn dtkbrbq Fev. 225. Bpextybt gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb jñktuxftncz jlbyfrjdjcnmç jcyjdysø pfrjyjd. Rfr dytiytabpbxtcrbt, nfr b gcbøbxtcrbt eckjdbz gjldthåtys fyfkjubxyjve ghjwtcce jñhfpjdfybq b cktlcndbq. Djpmväv ghjcntqibq ghbvth: xtkjdtr blän gj dtnhe bkb gj ntxtybç b cñthtuftn vyjuj ãythubb. Rjulf xtkjdtr ghbjñoftncz ghfdbkmyjve ntxtybç ãdjkçwbb, jy xeltcyj kturj ghjøjlbn ghtgzncndbz. Ltkj kbim d njv, xnjñs plhfdj jghtltkbnm rjycnherwbç ãdjkçwbb. Blnb gj yfghfdktybç ãdjkçwbb djdct yt pyfxbn nfobnmcz d ødjcnt ñjkmibycndf. Dcz bcnjhbz xtkjdtxtcndf erfpsdftn, xnj euflsdfkj ãdjkçwbç vtym-

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ibycndj. B ãnb ytvyjubt jnrelf-nj xthgfkb cbks ghtjljktdfnm ghtgzncndbz. ≤Rjynfrn rjcvbxtcrjuj ghtjñhfpjdfybz c gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubtq hjålftn cjcnjzybt cxfcnkbdjuj gjnjrf≥ _ nfr ujdjhbk Ñellf. Jy erfpfk hfpkbxbt vtåle jxtdblyjcnmç b ltqcndbntkmyjcnmç. Tuj chfdytybt jxtdblyjcnb c vbhfåjv ujlbncz lkz kçñjq cjdhtvtyyjq ñtctls. Vjåyj kb hfcgjpyfdfnm ntxtybt bcnbyyjq ãdjkçwbb, tckb cktgfz jxtdblyjcnm pfckjyztn ltqcndbntkmyjcnm b ghtleñtåltybt zdkztncz ecnfyjdbdibvcz vytybtv? Rjulf kçlb jcjpyáçn vbhfå ghtleñtåltybz?! D rfåljv ghtleñtåltybb pfrkçxtyj pkjñyjt yfvthtybt xtkjdtxtcrjve ceotcnde. Ãnj yt vjhfkm, yj ghfrnbxtcrjt ghtleghtåltybt. Rfrjt ghtlcnfdktybt jñ jñobyt vjåtn ckjåbnmcz e ghtleñtåläyysø kçltq! Ytktgj ujdjhbnm c ybvb j cdjñjlyjv hfcibhtybb cjpyfybz: e ybø ytn gjyznbz cdjñjls, f ñtp cdjñjls yt yfqnb heckj cxfcnkbdjuj gjnjrf. Pflevfqntcm j pfrjyfø gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. 226. Rjulf xtkjdtr gjgflftn d ytcjdthityyeç jñobye, d eåfct jy ecnhtvkztncz d ghjnbdjgjkjåyjcnm, _ ãnj ytghfdbkmyj. Gjyzdibq ytcjdthitycndj ljkåty yfxfnm ñjktt cjdthityyjt. Gecnm hfcnen 211


yjdst jñobys, rfr d gecnsyt yjdst hjlybrb. Jrjkj rfåljuj hjlybrf pfptktyttn ytåyfz nhfdf, b cnheb hjlybrjd cjkmçncz gjnjv d jlyjv ntxtybb. Ytelfxf jlyjq jñobys ljkåyf ñsnm gjdjljv r yjdsv jñobyysv cnhjtybzv. Nfr vsckbnt j yjdsø djpvjåyjcnzø. Vs dtlm htfkbcns b vjåtv cdjñjlyj hfcgjhzåfnmcz ghjcnhfycndjv. Dtkbrbq Fev pjdän r ltqcndbç! Egjhyj vs pyftv j yfibø yjdsø vtcnfø, b lkz yfc ytn ljkujuj genb. Xthtp rjkmwf pvbz gjlybvftvcz yf ghjcnjh øjkvf, bñj vs cñthtukb pfgfc gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb b hfpjxfhjdfnm yfc ytkmpz. Pdfysq ujcnm yt jnjqlän, yfqlz jlye ldthm yf pfgjht, yj jñjqlän ljv b jcvjnhbn dct døjls. Evtqnt d ytcjdthitycndt yfqnb djpvjåyjcnb! 227. Evthitt cjpyfybt rfr itkeøf enhfxtyyjuj pthyf. Gjyznbt gjkyjq hfcndjhbvjcnb, byfxt cvthnb, ghbyflktåbn ghjlernfv gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. Vjåyj ghtlcnfdbnm fnhjabç cjpyfybz, rjnjhjt yt gbnftncz ecnhtvktybtv b ytekjdbvj hfpkfuftncz d gjnjrt njyxfqibø ãythubq, ytekjdbvj b ytdjpdhfnyj. Ujdjhzn j ytjñøjlbvjcnb gbnfybz evf rybufvb, _ ãnj ñeltn dytiybv ghjzdktybtv. Yj ñtp ecnhtvktybz 212


gbnfybt evf ñeltn ajhvfkmysv b ñtcgkjlysv. Ecnhtvktybt ljkåyj blnb bpyenhb ñtp dytiybø ghbxby. Ghtgzncndbz åbpyb yt vjuen dkbznm yf rfxtcndj ecnhtvktybz. Rjhtyyjq bvgekmc, dsdtlibq bp rktnrb vbythfkf xtkjdtxtcreç jcjñm, yt ljkåty pfvbhfnm, rjulf rfvtyyfz rktnrf dcnfkf yf øjlekb. Njulf b ljkåyj yfcnegbnm ghtcsotybt dctv ñsdibv b ytelthåbvjt ecnhtvktybt dgthäl. Enhfnbd ecnhtvktybt, xtkjdtr gthtcnfän yfpsdfnmcz cjpyfntkmysv ceotcndjv. Vjvtyns hfcgflf cjpyfybz øfhfrnthyj jnhfåfçncz yf abpbxtcrjv bpkextybb. Vjåyj dbltnm rfr ñs rkeñs cthjuj gfhf, cntkzobtcz dybp bp cjkytxyjuj cgktntybz; ãnj gjlndthålftn, xnj vs bvttv ltkj c ãythubtq, _ rhfnrj crfpfnm, dtkbrbq Fev jñhfnbkcz d gtgtk. Vs eåt d ltncndt dblbv, rfr ecnhtvktybt gtgtkbncz. Cfljdybr, gjljqlb b cybvb eksñrjq gskm c ktgtcnrf! Eksñrf rfr rhskj dtkbrjuj Fevf. Cfljdybr, ns bpñhfk pfñjne j wdtnfø. Wdtn pfhb pdtybn d hfljcnb pderf ghjcnhfycndf. Vjåyj levfnm j lfkmybø vbhfø. 228. Ghbikj dhtvz, rjulf rfåljve nhelzotvecz crfåtv: ≤Ns Yfi!≥ Rjulf gthtcvjnhbv genb b pyfrb, 213


yfxbyfz jn pdäplysø. Rjulf cjrhfnbv zpsrb b dshfåtybz vsiktybz. Rjulf gthtxnäv cnbø cnfhbys d gjcktlybq hfp. Ltkbkb åbpym gj gthbjlfv b gj cnbkzv, jnlfdfz lfym vthfv ytcjdthityysø lytq. Rnj gjltkbk cjpdtplbz? Rnj gjltkbk yfhtxbz? Rnj ghbgjvybk yfcktlbz dctø yfhjljd? Cnbkm jghtltkzk jcjñtyyjcnb dtrf. Dytiybt pfpeñhbys jhyfvtynf yjczn ghtlhfccelrb b eckjdyjcnb kåb. Gjhf ltkbnm yfcktlbz kbim gj gjntywbfke dyenhtyytve. Yeåyj pyfnm yfhfcnfybz åbpyb. Ajhvs uhjñjd yeåyj jcnfdbnm evthibv. Ghfdlf, yeåyj joeofnm ifub rekmnehs, yj yt pbupfub bpytåtyyjcnb. Vfkjleibt, pfrjdfyyjt d yterkçåbt kfns, yt dtkj r jñotxtkjdtxtcrjq hfljcnb, yj htnjhnf crhjvyjuj fkøbvbrf xfcnj cdtnbkfcm Jñobv Ñkfujv. Ñtp cetdthbz vs ljkåys ghjcvjnhtnm dtøb hjcnf xtkjdtxtcndf gjl pyfrjv jñobys. Ghjcvjnhtnm, rfr gjñtlf jñobys hjckf, pfåbufz juyb pyfybz b rhfcjns. Bcnbyyjt pyfybt b rhfcjnf pfrkçxfçn d ctñt kexieç jñobye. Jnñthäv dcä kexitt b endthlbv: gjpyfdibq kexitt cltkftncz jñobyybrjv. 229. Ndähljcnm, cgjrjqcndbt, yføjlxbdjcnm, ñscnhjnf _ nfr cghfibdfqnt rfåljuj, edthzçotuj d ght214


lfyyjcnb jñobyt. Yj vjåtn jrfpfnmcz cgjrjqcndbt dj dhtvz cyf, ndähljcnm d ñtpltqcndbb, yføjlxbdjcnm pf tljç b ñscnhjnf d gjkextybb ltytu. Bcgsnfybt gjcnjzyyj ghbvtyztncz d jñobyt. Cfvst yjdst ajhvs åbpyb yt bcrkçxfçn bcgsnfybz. Ds pyftnt, xnj Vs ghjnbd pfhfytt jñüzdktyysø irjkmysø bcgsnfybq. Nfråt Vs ghjnbd pfhfytt jgjdtoäyysø bcgsnfntkmysø gthbjljd. Ãnb gjdthøyjcnyst pyfybz b kbwtvthyst gjdtltybz yt ecrjhzçn, yj pfvtlkzçn hfpdbnbt. Yt ghbgjvyç, xnjñ jñhfpjdfkcz dslfçobqcz ltzntkm, gjlxbyzzcm ãnbv kbwtvthysv eckjdbzv. Yfxbyfqnt cnhjbnm jñobye rfr ljv pyfybz b rhfcjns. Ybrfrbø eckjdysø vthbk yt ñeltn d ãnjv ljvt. Dct ñelen cnhtvbnmcz pyfnm b dshfåfnm cdjä pyfybt. Njkmrj ytghtcnfyyjt epyfdfybt gjvjåtn, njkmrj yfcsotyysq nhel elthåbn jn jñjhfxbdfybz d nävysq eujk. Yj Vs åläv ecnhtvkäyysø gjrbyenm cnfheç åbpym. Ytn øeåt, ytåtkb ghbytcnb c cjñjq pfceityre. Ãnb pfceityrb jnybvfçn hfljcnm. Yjdjt cnhjtybt ljkåyj cnjznm elfkäyyj jn åbksø ljvjd, xnjñs aeyrwbb jñbøjlf yt rfcfkbcm plfybz, ult reäncz ñeleott xtkjdtxtcndf. Vs cjukfcys c ntv, xnj jñobyybrb yt ljhjåfn åbpymç, _ ãnbv jyb 215


gjlndthålfçn ytghthsdyjcnm ceotcndjdfybz. Yj rfxtcndj cjpyfybz ljkåyj ñsnm yfghzåäyyjq pfñjnjq jñobyybrjd. Ghbøjlbncz ndthlbnm j cjpyfybb, bñj kçlb yt ghbdsrkb joeofnm tuj. Ctynbvtynfkmyjcnm xfcnj ghbybvftncz pf cjcnhflfybt, uytd pf djpveotybt b cfvjjøhfytybt pf veåtcndj. Yeåyj gjyznm, rfr yfghzåäyyj yflj jxbofnm cdjb gjyznbz yt njkmrj d vsiktybb, yj d ltqcndbb. 230. Rfpfkjcm ñs, yfdctulf gjrjyxtyj c ldevz pfgflysvb bpvsiktybzvb _ vbcnbwbpvjv b vtnfabpbrjq. Kfñjhfnjhbz, chtlytjñjheljdfyyfz, ujdjhbn ljcnfnjxyj j cdjqcndfø tlbyjq vfnthbb. Yj rfr njkmrj kçlb dsøjlzn pf ghtltks jgsnf ghjikjuj lyz, jyb yfxbyfçn gjrhsdfnm cdjç ñtcgjvjoyjcnm ytjghtltkäyysvb, gskmysvb yfpdfybzvb. Jyb djccnfçn ghjnbd vtnfabpbrb b vbcnbwbpvf, ghbrhsdfz ãnbvb geufkfvb dct yfexyst djpvjåyjcnb uhzleotuj lyz. Vtnfabpbrf ghjikjuj lyz jñhfnbkfcm d yfexyeç bcnbye gjchtlcndtyyjuj uhfvjntz, f vbcnbwbpv jrfpfkcz bcnjhbxtcrbv afrnjv, b cntyrf uhjñf eñtlbkf ñjkmit cjpyfybq, cfvsø jñibhysø.

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Njulf Vs cghjcbv _ pfxtv åt crtgnbr-jñsdfntkm ytecnfyyj gktnän ktutyls b nrän vbas? Nsczxf ktn ljcnfnjxyf lkz gjkbhjdrb cfvjuj bpscrfyyjuj vbaf, b jñotcndtyysq ltzntkm djpyjcbncz yf ñevfåysq Jkbvg. B yjdjhjåläyyst crtgnbrb nzyen tuj pf rhfq øbnjyf, eujdfhbdfz cdjbø njdfhbotq gjcflbnm yjdsø ytñjåbntktq. Yjdsq gjhnyjq gthtrhjbn øbnjy, b vba hjålftncz. Ujdjhbv jñ ãnbø atybrcfø yt lkz eksñrb. Yeåyj, yfrjytw, ecdjbnm ezdktybt ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. F dczrfz ytdtåtcndtyyjcnm ljkåyf ñsnm htfkmyj jñyfheåtyf b elfktyf bp jñobys. Jñsdfntkmcrjt vbajndjhcndj yt ghbceot jñobyt. C Yfitq Jñobyjq vjuen blnb gjyzdibt htfkmyjcnm b bcnbyysq vfnthbfkbpv. Ytkmpz ctñt ghtlcnfdbnm vbcnbrf b vtnfabpbrf pf Yfitq juhfljq. Vtnfabpbr, gjkexbdibq elfh, rhbxbn: ≤Z gjhfåäy abpbxtcrb!≥ Vbcnbr ghjnbhftn ukfpf jn cbzybz åbpyb. Pfxtv ds åbdänt? Xnjñ gjpyfdfnm b cjdthitycndjdfnmcz. Ybxnj nevfyyjt yt eljdktndjhbn yfc. 231. Jxtdblyjcnm tcnm rehbyfz ltqcndbntkmyjcnm. Njkmrj yfghzåäyysv cjdthitycndjdfybtv vjåtnt ghbñkbpbnmcz r ltqcndbntkmyjcnb.

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Cjdthitycndjdfybt vjåtn gjrfpfnmcz rkthbrfkmysv gjyznbtv, yj Vs gjybvftv cjdthitycndjdfybt rfr ekexitybt htfkmyjuj fggfhfnf. Ekexitybt fggfhfnf dj dctq tuj gjkyjnt ljcnjqyj xtkjdtxtcndf. Ghb gjybvfybb abpbxtcrjuj fggfhfnf kçlb ljkåys cnhtvbnmcz r ekexityysv ajhvfv. 232. Ds pyftnt, xnj eckjdbz Yfitq Jñobys yt kturb, yj dsgjkytybt bø jñktuxftncz exfcnbtv dj dctø ghjxbø jñobyfø. Vyjubt cjwbfkmyst jhufybpvs yt jñhfofçn dybvfybz yf dyenhtyytt cjlthåfybt cdjbø exfcnybrjd. Ghjqlz Yfie lbcwbgkbye, yt vjåtnt ghbpyfnm jñobye nfv, ult cjøhfytys kbim ytrjnjhst dytiybt ghbpyfrb tä. Vs gjpdjkztv pfgbcfnm ytrjnjhst Yfib ñtctls yt lkz erjhf b ghjnbdjgjcnfdktybz, yj lkz cjpyfybz ntø, rnj rjulf-nj cksifk j Yfitq Jñobyt; rnj epyfk j ytcñsnjxyjq vtxnt, ghtndjhbditqcz d åbpym. D yjxyst xfcs rnj-nj ñjktk vsckmç b nen åt ghberhfifk ñskm. Yeåyj gthtlfnm bv Yfib ñtctls. Utjuhfa vjåtn ecgjrjbnmcz, Vs pfybvftv yf Ptvkt jghtltkäyyjt vtcnj. Rjycgbhfnjh vjåtn entibnmcz, Vs bvttv d hfpysø xfcnzø cdtnf ljcnfnjxyjt rjkbxtcndj cjnhelybrjd. Yteljdktndjhäyysq jñobyybr 218


vjåtn endthlbnmcz d cjpyfybb ghfrnbxtcrjuj ceotcndjdfybz Jñobys. Zdyst, vfnthbfkmyst xktys b cjnhelybrb Yfib dcnhtxtys dfvb d hfpysø cnhfyfø. Yfib ñtctls yt pfrkçxfçn d ctñt ybxtuj jndktxäyyjuj. Vs hfñjnftv d kbybb dtkbrjq ãdjkçwbb. Rfålsq ghbñkbåfçobqcz r Yfitq Jñobyt cnfyjdbncz ltqcndbntkmybrjv. Hfñjnfqnt lkz ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. 233. Vyjuj hfp vs ñtctljdfkb j hfcibhtybb cjpyfybz b jñ jdkfltybb vyjubvb gjktpysvb cdjqcndfvb. Rfr åt ghjbcøjlbn ãnj yfhfcnfybt? Tckb nhelyj ecvjnhtnm hjcn djkjcf, nj vyjuj nhelytt ekjdbnm hjcn cjpyfybz. Jibñjxyj levfnm, xnj vjåyj cktlbnm pf yfhfcnfybtv cjpyfybz. Dtlm cktlzobq fggfhfn ghtnthgtdftn nj åt yfghzåtybt. Dtlm tuj oegfkmwf boen dctulf dgthäl. Ytdjpvjåyj jnlfnm pfdjtdfybt, tckb lbyfvbrf ldbåtybz yt gfhfkbpjdfyf. Nfr vjåyj njkmrj yf htlrbø gthtgenmzø ljcvjnhtnm cdjä rjhtyyjt bpvtytybt _ ãnjn lfh ãdjkçwbb. Yt yeåyj egecrfnm lbyfvbre yf vexbntkmyeç cfvjghjdthre. Yf ltqcndbzø b yf cktlcndbzø gjpyfäncz ghfdbkmyjt yfghfdktybt. Gjnjve lfåt jibñjxyjt ltqcndbt Vs ghtlgjxbnftv ñtpltqcndbç. 219


234. Vbh hfcrjkjkcz yf ldt xfcnb. Pyfz ytcjdthitycndj gjkjdbys yjdsø zdktybq, ghtleuflsdfz øbnhjcnm ekjdjr cnfhjuj vbhf, Vs dctulf jcnfävcz d vbht ytcjdthityyjv b yjdjv. Dcä pyftv, dcä jwtybdftv. Ds bvttnt kbxyjt dkbzybt, r dfv ghblen c djghjcjv: ≤Rfr vsckbnm?≥ Crfåbnt rhfnrj: ≤C Yjdsv Vbhjv; dct juhfybxtyyst ceåltybz jnñhjcmnt≥. Gjlevfqnt, rfr vjåyj jnjqnb jn cnfhsø ghbdsxtr. Yfghzubntcm ghbyznm gjkyeç xfie. Yt ckjdf, yj yfgjkytybt ghjcnhfycndf njkrftn dfc d ytghtkjåyjv ghbrfpt. Eybxnjåtybt cnhføf gjvjåtn dfv d nhelysq xfc. Jcjñtyyj nhelyj ghtjljktnm cjpyfybt jlbyjxtcndf. D velhsø crfpfybzø xfcnj egjvbyftncz tlbyjkbxyfz ñbndf. Ñjtw _ jy åt hfpdtlxbr, jy åt cjdtnxbr, jy åt htibntkm, jy åt uthjq. Pfvtnmnt, ãnj ckjdj ñskj gjxnb bpuyfyj bp ckjdfhz cnfhjuj vbhf. Uthjq cnfyjdbncz ytghbtvktvsv d åbpyb vfktymrbø cthltw. Rfr xeåjq, vju jy cnslbnmcz chtlb ñkfujvthbz. Evtqnt ñsnm nfv, ult uthjb. Vbh ñeltn gjnhzcäy ltqcndbntkmyjcnmç uthjbpvf. Vjåyj ctujlyz ujdjhbnm dvtcnj vtøfybrb j uthjt. Gecnm ltnb yfpsdfçn ctñz uthjzvb b ghbvtyzçn r ctñt rfxtcndf pfvtxfntkmysø kçltq. Gecnm lflen bv rybub xänrjuj bpkjåtybz, ult ñtp ghbvbhbntkmysø 220


cvfpsdfybq ñeltn jxthxty jñkbr nhelf b djkb. Lfåt lkz vtlbwbycrbø wtktq ãnjn ñjlhsq pjd åbpyb ytpfvtybv. Yeåyj ñtp ghjvtlktybz lfnm nfrjq vfnthbfk. Lkz ãnjuj ñthtubnt ntø ytvyjubø, rjnjhst vjuen lfdfnm. Eybxnjåtybt bø yt vjåtn ñsnm jghfdlfyj. Rnj-nj crfåtn: ≤Jgznm ybxtuj yjdjuj≥, yj cfv lfåt yt pyftn, rfr ghjzdkznm erfpfyyeç ñthtåyjcnm. Yeåyj ghjzdktybt yføjlxbdjcnb yt njkmrj d cdjtq ifgrt, yj b d vjpue. Yjdsq vbh bvttn gjxbnftvsø Exbntktq b ñeltn bvtnm Bø, rfr vthe cjpyfybz. 235. Ghjbpytcäv ytcrjkmrj ltncrbø gjyznbq. Xnj tcnm yjdjuj? Ybxtuj. Yj tcnm kbim yjdjt jcjpyfybt zdktybq cdjqcnd vfnthbb lkz cjdhtvtyyjuj cjcnjzybz evf. Yeåyj gjyznm, xnj bcnbyyst endthåltybz yt d cfvjljdktçotv jnhsdfybb, yj d ltqcndbntkmyjq ghttvcndtyyjcnb. Njkmrj d ñtpñjzpytyyjv endthåltybb hzlf gjcktljdfntkmyjcnb vjåyj erhtgbnm zdktybt. Rfåtncz, ãnj ghjcntqitt cjjñhfåtybt ljcnegyj ltnzv, d yäv pfrkçxtyf vjom cjkblfhyjcnb. Yj jhufybpfwbjyyfz cjkblfhyjcnm toä yt jcjpyfyf. Xfcnj, r ytcjvytyyjve dhtle, gsnfçncz juhfybxbnm zdktybt. 221


Dczrjt hfplhjñktybt _ rfr njgjh gj åbdjve jhufybpve. Elthåbnt cjkblfhyjcnm, gjxnb pfñsneç yf Ptvkt. Kexit jibñbnmcz d hzle gjcktljdfntkmyjcnb, ytåtkb jnhsdfnm b lhjñbnm. 236. Vjuen cghjcbnm: ≤Rfr ñsnm c ghtlfntkzvb?≥ Kturj bpuyfnm kåtwjd b ktybdwtd, yj ghtlfntkmcndj ytkmpz yt ghtctxm. Vjåyj ghbdtcnb ckexfq, rjulf jlby Yfi cjnhelybr ljgecnbk ghtlfntkmcndj. Lthåfntkm ljpjhf crfpfk tve: ≤Celb ctñz cfv≥. Rfr ñs ybxtuj yt ghjbpjikj, ghtlfntkm ecvtøyekcz b ghjljkåfk åbnm. Yj xthtp ujl, kbiäyysq cyf, jy ålfk cvthnb, ñjzcm tä. Eåfc cvthnb tcnm cfvjt nzårjt cfvjcelbt. Eåfc cvthnb xeålftncz hjcnf b pfdbletn rfåljve gjcskfçotve ghbdtn cvtyt åbpyb. Ytjgbcetv eåfc cvthnb: yt cnhfø eñtufçobq, yj ktltyzobq cnjkñyzr. Vjåyj crfpfnm gjntywbfke ghtlfntkmcndf: ≤Eñthtubcm jn eåfcf cvthnb≥. Vs, rjytxyj, dblbv, rfr gjcnhjtybt jñobys cnbhftn fnhbñens cvthnb; rfr cfv ghjwtcc gthtøjlf cnfyjdbncz jñotcndtyyj ytpfvtnysv. Rfr hfpheifçncz rkflñbof b eybxnjåfçncz nçhmvs. Hfpdt nçhmvf 222


yt ñhfn rkflñbof? Nhel jnrhsdftn nçhmvs. Jujym jxboftn rkflñbof. Nhel b jujym _ ghbxbyf b cktlcndbt ãythubb. 237. Jnrfpsdfnmcz bkb ghbevyjåfnm? Rjytxyj, ghbevyjåfnm gjkyjrhjdyj b hfljcnyj, yj lkz Jñotuj Ñkfuf. Yj cfvsq vfktqibq yfvär yf ctrnfyncndj b kbwtvthyjt juhfybxtybt ñeltn ghjnbdjhtxbnm cjkytxyjq ãdjkçwbb jñobys. Cehjdfz hfljcnm bpñtuftn gjnävjr. Rhjns pfghtotybq b juhfybxtybq ybrjulf yt edblzn cjkywf. Vjåyj lj nfrjq cntgtyb fccbvbkbhjdfnm cjpyfybt c hfñcrjq eujlkbdjcnmç, xnj rfåljt yjdjt pyfybt ñeltn rfpfnmcz ghtcnegktybtv bkb ñtpevbtv. Hfpdt ltqcndbntkmyjcnm vjåtn gjnthgtnm ytdtåtcndtyyst juhfybxtybz? Vjåtv ujdjhbnm nfr, bñj Vs yt fyfhøbcns, yj jñobyybrb. Vyjuj hfp crfpfyj j lbcwbgkbyt djkb b j ghbrfpt cjpyfybz. Lfdyj ecnfyjdktyf ñjlhjcnm jndtncndtyyjcnb. Ntgthm vs ljkåys yfghfdbnm pjhrjcnm yf bcrjhtytybt epjcnb ctrnfyncndf b cetdthbz. Ctrnfyn vtxnftn pfñhfnm dkfcnm lkz gjlxbytybz dctuj cdjtve ytubñrjve cjpyfybç. Cetdth ñjkmit dctuj ñjbncz, rfr ñs ckexfqysv ldbåtybtv yt yfgjvybnm xeåjt 223


pyfvtybt, b jxtym vyjuj levftn j ctñt. Cetdthbt b ctrnfyncndj zdkzçncz ghbpyfrjv jxtym ybprjuj cjpyfybz, bñj gjntywbfk ndjhxtcndf ybxnjåty, rjve xeål ghbywbg dvtotybz. Ytjñøjlbvj dczxtcrb jñyfheåbdfnm cetdthbt b ctrnfyncndj. Yt cntcyzqntcm jcnfyfdkbdfnmcz yf ãnbø djghjcfø, ntv cfvsv ñeltnt eybxnjåfnm kjåm b cnhfø. Jñobyf tcnm dvtcnbkbot dctø djpvjåyjcntq b dctø yfrjgktybq. Rfålsq, evfkzçobq uhfybws b vjom jñobys, cnfyjdbncz ghtlfntktv. Jñobyf _ xfif cjkytxyjq hfljcnb! 238. Eujkmz gjlåjuf ytcencz, yfghzucz cnfhsq vbh. Rfr ecvjnhtnm bpdbds uhfybw? Jyb gththtpfçn cnhfys, ujhjlf, ljvf, ctvmb _ lfåt kçlb gththtpfys gjkjdbyxfnsv vsiktybtv. Cnjbn kb exbnsdfnm dct bpdbkbys cnfhjuj vbhf? D ktutylfø dtkbrfys gthtøjlbkb vjhz, jnhsdfz vjyjkbns crfk. Egjljñbvcz dtkbrfyfv b vjyjkbnfv vsiktybz. Hjñreç gjkjdbyxfnjcnm hfccttv, byfxt jyf pfdkflttn yfvb b ghtlfcn gjpjhyjq rfpyb xthtp gjñbnbt cxtnjdjlysvb rybufvb. Pyftv vjyjkbnyjt vsiktybt. Rjulf cbkmys gjlåjub, levfqnt vjyjkbnyj. 224


239. Ñsdftn, xnj cfvsq ytcjvytyysq gkfy vjåtn gjldthuyenmcz pfnhelytybzv. Cghjczn: ≤Rfr yfqnb htitybt ñtp xhtpvthyjq pfnhfns ãythubb?≥ Vjåtn ñsnm bpvtytybt gj ceotcnde gkfyf, bkb gj hfpvthfv, bkb gj vtcne. Bpvtybnm gkfy gj ceotcnde hfdyj ghtlfntkmcnde. Ehtpfybt gkfyf gj hfpvthfv gjljñyj ñkbpjherjcnb. Yfit htitybt ñeltn d gthtvtyt vtcnf nfr, xnjñs yjdst eckjdbz toä eukeñbkb jcyjdyjt pyfxtybt. Yt jljñhztv ghbywbg ≤ñbnmcz b gjubñyenm≥. Veåtcndtyytt ñeltn yt nthznm cbk b gjñtlbnm. Yj lkz ãnjuj yeåyj dcä gjybvfybt ghfdbkmyjcnb ecnhtvktybz, dcz ytgjrjktñbvjcnm yfghzåtybz. Kçñbv cnhtkmñe bp kerf. Yterkjyyjt yfghzåtybt ntnbds ghtlgjcskftn gjkän cnhtks. Ghjcnhfycndj gjän, b cgbhfkm, djdktxäyyfz d ltqcndbt, evyjåftn gjktpyjcnm xfcnbw vfnthbb. Ãnj yjdfz ñhjyz reäncz. Rfr cxfcnkbdj, tckb vjåyj yfqnb yjdjt vtcnj, eukeñkzçott gjntywbfk ghtlsleotuj. Yt juhfybxbdfqnt gkfyf jlybv htitybtv vtcnf _ dfåyf ceoyjcnm gkfyf. Crfåtv ntv, rnj rhfläncz b itgxtn yjxmç, yj evfkxbdftn lyäv. Crfåbnt bv j ckjdfø ljcnjqysø, byfxt b yjxmç gjnjyen dj nmvt. Ghtlkjåbnt bv ecgtnm d yjdjq åbpyb ñtp ghbrfpf cjpyfybz. Yjdfz åbpym toä gkjøj 225


jcnheufyf, ceoyjcnm ãdjkçwbb toä yt dshfåtyf. Yj rnj pyftn, relf blän, njn jñjqlän uhzpm genb. 240. Vjåyj kb eljdktndjhbnmcz åbpymç kbxyjuj jñjufotybz? Vjåyj kb ghbcdfbdfnm ctñt cdjñjlyeç gthdbxyeç vfnthbç, rjnjhfz yfcsoftn rfålsq ghtlvtn? Cevtqnt xeznm j ytjñøjlbvjcnb ghbcencndbz vfnthbb d rfåljv ghtlvtnt. Xfcnj cjukfifçncz ghbpyfnm vfnthbç d lfkärjv ãabht, yj ghbpyfnm vfnthbç d jñhfñjnfyysø jñbøjlysø ghtlvtnfø cxbnfçn ytktgsv. Vtåle ntv ghbpyfybt dscjrjq vfnthbb d rfåljv ghtlvtnt gjlybvftn ghtlcnfdktybt j dctø ltnfkzø åbpyb. Rjytxyj, ds dcçle yfqlänt cjvytybt. Rjytxyj, crfåen j vtnfabpbrt dfibø hfcceåltybq, bvtyyj rjulf ds ñeltnt rfcfnmcz yfexyj-abpbxtcrbø yfñkçltybq. Yt jñhfofqnt dybvfybz yf hfcceåltybz ytpyfçobø. Jlyj dfåyj _ cxbnfnm Vbhjdjt Cjnhelybxtcndj rfr ytjñøjlbvjcnm ãdjkçwbb. Ytpyfybt, eghzvcndj, gjlkjcnm yt vjuen ckeåbnm ghtgzncndbtv ecnfyjdktybç jñobys. Ytjñøjlbvj ghbpyfnm ytghtkjåyjcnm ãdjkçwbb cjnhelybxtcndf. Ytjñøjlbvj jñhfofnm rfålsq xfc åbpyb d yeåyjt gjcnegfntkmyjt ldbåtybt. Yteåtkb vjåyj åbnm rfr cktgst eåb? 226


Ds pyftnt, ult dfc ålen b rnj yflttncz gjkexbnm dfie dtcnm. Ãnj jrhskbn dfi cgtiysq jlbyjrbq genm. 241. Rjulf ghblänt _ ghbøjlbnt rfr yfdctulf. Rjulf eqlänt _ eøjlbnt rfr yfdctulf. Rjulf ghblänt, dkfltqnt dctv, bñj jn dctuj jnrfpfkbcm. Eøjlz, jcnfdkzqnt dcä, bñj dcä dvtcnbkb. Endthålfqnt jnrfp chtlb bveotcndf. Endthålfqnt jdkfltybt chtlb gecnsyb. Tckb dblbnt åfåle r dtofv, enjkbnt tä. Ckjdtcysq jnrfp gjljñty åtcne jñtpmzys. Cghjc¶nt cjñtctlybrf, rfr vsckbn jñ jñobyt? Endthålfqnt gjybvfybt bp tuj vsiktybz. Ckjdj cjlthåbn nsczxe vscktq. Ckbirjv uheñj ghbgbcfnm ckjde njxyeç dshfpbntkmyjcnm. Njkmrj cjgjcnfdktybt gjyznbq vjåtn jghtltkbnm rfxtcndj vsiktybz. Cghjc¶nt: ≤Xnj, bvtyyj, lkz dfc yfbñjktt ytghbtvktvj? Xtv ds yfbñjktt ghbdktxtys?≥ Yt hfp cghjc¶nt, byfxt cfvjt yeåyjt ñeltn pfñsnj. Kçlb yt ghbdsrkb xänrj jghtltkznm ytghbtvktvjt. Dtnøbq xtkjdtr yt cjukfcty, yj ñjbncz lfnm ctñt jnxän. Htñäyjr xtv-nj ghbdktxäy, yj yt pyftn, rfr gjlevfnm jñ jcyjdyjq ghbxbyt. Yjdsq dtr yeålftncz d jndtncndtyyjq xänrjcnb. Rfr ytjñøjlbvj pfcnfdbnm kçltq

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gjlevfnm j ghbxbyt ytghbtvktvjcnb! Ghjzdktybt ghbxby tcnm gjkjdbyf jdkfltybz. Dkfltç, gjnjve xnj jnrfpfkcz. 242. Ghbläncz dcnhtnbnmcz c kçlmvb, rjnjhst ñelen cvtznmcz ghb rfåljv ytgjyznyjv lkz ybø ckjdt. Bø djcghbybvfntkmysq fggfhfn gjrhsn vjpjkzvb ytdtåtcndf. Yfghbvth, tckb bv crfpfnm _ ≤Ifvñfkf≥, jyb ghbven ãnj htfkmyjt gjyznbt pf atnbi cetdthbz. Rfrbt ghbpyfrb dhtvtyb Ifvñfks? Dtr bcnbys b cjnhelybxtcndf. Ghjcktlbnt, rfr yf Djcnjrt ghjbpyjcbncz ckjdj Ifvñfkf. Gjgsnfqntcm øjnz ñs ytvyjuj ghjybryenm d bltjkjubç ãnjuj gjyznbz. Gsnfqntcm gjyznm hbnv gjcnhjtybz htxb j Ifvñfkt, b ds joenbnt dtkbreç htfkmyjcnm, rjnjhfz gjnhzcftn cnheys xtkjdtxtcndf. Gecnm hfpev gjvjåtn dpdtcbnm wtyyjcnb, yfrjgktyyst kexibvb ecnhtvktybzvb. D rybut Jñobyf yt vjåtn ñsnm egeotyj gjyznbt Ifvñfks. Lhepmz, gjqvbnt, rfrjt ntgthm yfghzåäyyjt b ghtrhfcyjt dhtvz! 243. Elfkzzcm jn Yfibø ujh, ytvbyetvj gjxedcndetnt njcre. Gcbøbxtcrjt jcyjdfybt ãnjuj joeotybz yt-

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bpñtåyj ecbkbdftncz ytdjpvjåyjcnmç hfccrfpfnm j ghjbcitlitv. Rhjvt bcrkçxbntkmysø erfpfyysø ckexftd, ybrnj, bp ñsdibø e Yfc, yt crfåtn. Cjdtneç njve, rnj øjxtn ljqnb lj Yfitq Jñobys, gjgjkytybt pyfybz. Gjckt jñotuj irjkmyjuj jñhfpjdfybz kçlb Pfgflf jñsxyj gjrblfçn pyfybt bkb dsnzubdfçn bp pyfybz njytymreç ybnm cgtwbfkmyjcnb, dvtcnj njuj xnjñs cjnrfnm wtkeç ctnm ekjdf. Rjulf Vs ujdjhbv: ≤Pyfqnt≥, Vs yfcnfbdftv yf vyjujcnjhjyytv jñjphtybb b ecdjtybb djpvjåyjcntq. Vtxnf cyjdf djqnb d ujhyeç ljkbye, ult vjåyj edtkbxbnm pyfybt, ñeltn gjcnjzyyj dtcnb r ljcnbåtybç. Egjvybnm yflj, xnjñs gjgjkytybt pyfybz ntrkj ñtcghthsdyj. Ukfdyjt, cjøhfybnt ecnhtvktybt, rjnjhjt ldbåtn dctvb cbcntvfvb gjpyfdfybz. Ecnhtvktybt _ rkçx r pfvre. 244. Xfcnj ujdjhbv dfv j yjdsø b j vjkjlsø. Yfdctulf ecnfyjdbv, xnj djphfcn yt gjybvftncz gjl ãnbvb ghtlcnfdktybzvb, _ yjdjcnm cjpyfybz b vjkjljcnm ecnhtvktybz. Yt bvttn pyfxtybz lkbyf ñjhjls; yt wtyyj endthåltybt vfkjktncndf. Gkfvz ecnhtvktybz yt pfdbcbn jn ntkf. Vfuybn gthdbxyjuj dtotcndf zdkztncz dyt jxthtlysø ghjzdktybq. 229


Rjytxyj, gjyznbt vfuybnf ghtdsiftn abpbxtcreç cathe. Ghbvtybnt vfuybn r jñkfcnb gcbøbxtcrjq, b ds gjkexbnt wtyytqitt yfñkçltybt. Fccjwbfwbz bltq bvttn ytrjnjhjt jcyjdfybt d vfuybnyjq djkyt. Tckb ghjcktlbnm ghjøjåltybt vfuybnysø djky, nj vjåyj ecnfyjdbnm ghjldbåtybt bltq d njv åt yfghfdktybb. Rfxtcndj bltq vjåtn ñsnm hfpkbxyj, yj ntøybrf bø hfcghjcnhfytybz ñeltn gjljñyf. Bpdtcnysq jgsn cdzpb vfuybnf c vsiktybtv lfän ljcnfnjxysq ghbvth dkbzybz abpbxtcrjq, ytphbvjq ãythubb yf gcbøbxtcrbq ghjwtcc. Rfxtcndf vfuybnjd hfpyjjñhfpys; vjåyj bø yfcnhfbdfnm gjljñyj bycnhevtynfv. Lkbyf vfuybnysø djky zdkztncz ytvsckbvjq. Djpltqcndbt yf kçltq yt gj djphfcne, yj gj gcbøbxtcrjq ecnhtvkäyyjcnb. Lkz lfkmybø bpkextybq vfuybnyst djkys gjckeåfn ytjñsxysv ghjdjlybrjv. Nfr vs yfxfkb c lfkmybø ujhbpjynjd b rjyxftv ãnjq åt lfkmytq pflfxtq xtkjdtxtcndf. Pfvtnmnt, cbcntvf bpkjåtybz pfrkçxftncz yt d jlyjjñhfpbb, yj d cgbhfkb hfpyjjñhfpysø gjkjåtybq jlyjuj ecnhtvktybz. Levfqnt j vfuybnysø djkyfø b j gcbøbxtcrjv ecnhtvktybb.

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ntkz. Kjåm b cnhfø gkjøbt cjdtnxbrb. Vjåyj ghbdtcnb vyjåtcndj cetdthbq, egjljñkzçobø dphjcksø ltnzv. Ghjcbv _ jcnfdmnt dct cetdthbz b pyfqnt dj dctq ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Åfkm crfxeobø yf jlyjq yjut. Ãnj phtkbot yfgjvbyftn crfpre, rjulf yzymrf, xnjñs htñäyjr yt eñtåfk, dyeibkf tve, xnj ghbpyfr dscjrjuj hjlf _ øjlbnm yf jlyjq yjut. 246. Ytcdjñjlysq, vsckzobq bp ctñz, ltqcndeçobq lkz ctñz xtkjdtr gjuheåftncz d jrtfy kåbdsø ntxtybq. Lfåt htxm, rfr ghjzdktybt dytiybø dshfåtybq, xtkjdtr gthtcnhfbdftn gj-cdjtve, ãujbcnbxtcrb. Jñhfnbnt dybvfybt, rfr gthtcnfdkzçn elfhtybz yf ckjdfø xeåbø yfhtxbq, djghtrb cvscke b abkjkjubb. Kçlb gthtrhfbdfçn xeåbt pderb gjl jñsxfq cdjtq cnhfys. Dtlm cfvjvybntkmyjcnm ytdtåtcndf b ghtytñhtåtybt r cjctle crfpsdfçncz d bcrfåtybb htxb. Ghjlevfnm b ghjybryenm d pyfxtybt xedcndf cjctlf ytdvtcnyj c uheñjcnmç vfktymrjuj cfvjvytybz. Xedcndj ñtpjndtncndtyyjcnb b ytbpåbnjq cjñcndtyyjcnb ndjhzn atjlfkjd cjdhtvtyyjcnb yfitq. Pfvtxfqnt: bcrfåfçobq cvsck htxb ñtccvscktyyjq gthtcnfyjdrjq elfhtybz _ ñeltn xtkjdtrjv, kbiäyysv cjpyfybz ãdjkçwbb. Xenrbq xtkjdtr ghtl232


gjxnän jñjqnbcm ghjcnsvb dshfåtybzvb, xnjñs yt hfpheibnm ytdtljvjuj tve cvsckf. Ybrnj yt vjåtn dsckeibdfnm dtcnybrf, bpdhfofçotuj cvsck gjhextybz. Jceålfçobq, jñhfnbcm yf ctñz! Ytghfdsq cjñcndtyybr, yt pfñelm, xnj xeåjt ghbcnhfcnbt r cjñcndtyyjcnb tcnm kbim ndjä jnhfåtybt! Pfñjnmcz, ghtålt dctuj, j dvtcnbvjcnb cdjtuj cjpyfybz. Tckb pdthm cjñcndtyyjcnb yt gjukjoäy yfdctulf cjpyfybtv ndjbv, ns jcnfytimcz ytcdjñjlysv, cjñkfpyztvsv vbhfåjv vfqb. Gjpyfdfz, vjåyj nhelyeç pflfxe cjñcndtyyjcnb htibnm d hfljcnb cdtnf. Gtrfhç hfphtiftncz cütcnm dct øktñf, yj jy ãnjuj yt ltkftn. Xtkjdtr, jcjpyfdibq ceoyjcnm dctø dtotq, yt yeålftncz d ybø. Cjpyfybt ljkåyj ñsnm ghtlvtnjv gthdjq pfñjns. Ñthbnt dcä htfkmyj d ghtltkfø dctq åbpyb. Ytcdjñjlysq, ltqcndeçobq lkz ctñz, gjuhepbncz d jrtfy kåbdsø ntxtybq. 247. Rjulf vjkybz jgfkbn rhskmz, rjulf uhjv gjnhtdjåbn ckeø, rjulf bcxtpyen zrjhz ñkfujgjkexbz, njulf gjcnexbncz Yfi dtcnybr. Eksñrf ljdjkmcndf yt jnrhjtn tve ldthb. Ñhtdyj cfvjvytybz pfrhjtn tve 233


døjls. Zdyjt dcnfytn gthtl ntv, rnj øjxtn ghbyznm ujcnz. Øjnz genm ãdjkçwbb ytbpvtyty, yj rfålsq hfcgjkfuftn cdjtdjkmyj. Reäncz rkbyjr, yj hfcnän ljdjkmcndj ikfrjd. Gjzdkzçncz ghbpyfrb gjneøfybz cdtnf. D ujhyt eåt pfrfkbkcz rkbyjr. Endthåltys zdktybz xeltcyjuj Yjdjuj Vbhf. Cjhe toä vyjuj, yj gtgtk ikfrjd tcnm rjksñtkm rkbyrf. Vjåyj pyfnm dct ytcjdthitycndf, yj øekf yf Vbh Yjdsq ñeltn rfvytv yf genb. Zoth ktåbn toä åbdjq. Rfålsq rkbyjr ljkåty gjlyznmcz bp gtgkf. Øhtñtn Zothf pfrhsk lfkmybt vbhs. Dhfu pfrhsk døjl d Vbh Cdtnf, yj pdäpls gjrfåencz xthtp hfcctkbys øhtñnf. Zvf jnñhjcjd yt elhexftn, yj pjkjnjq øhtñtn Zothf dscbncz rfr ghbvfyrf. Ghbvtv dct rkbyrb, yfghfdktyyst d cnjhjye Zothf, b gthtxnäv bø dybvfntkmyj. Gjhf pfujnjdkznm Pyfvz Vfqnhtb. Rnj crfpfk, xnj dhtvz Vfqnhtb ñtp vjkybb b ñtp dbøhz?! Ghtlgjxbnftv bcgsnsdfnm dfc d gjkänt. 248. Nhelyj heibncz ljvbr dtnøbø ghtlhfccelrjd. Ghtålt dctuj, pfgjvybv, xnj ytdjpvjåyj elthåfnm hjls cjphtdituj gkjlf. Jukzytvcz yf cnhfybws bcnjhbb: ghbikj dhtvz jcdjñjåltybz vsckb, b pfgs234


kfkb rjcnhs, yj vsckm gjntrkf. Ghbikj dhtvz yfhjljghfdcndf, b pfuhtvtkb hfccnhtks, yj djcghzkb yfhjls. Ghbikj dhtvz hfpdbnbz ntøybrb, eåfcyekbcm cnfhjlevs, yj ldbyekbcm vfibys, gekmcbhez c ntvgjv ãdjkçwbb. Ntgthm ghbikj dhtvz jcjpyfybz gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. Dct byrdbpbnjhs, htnhjuhfls, cnfhjlevs b ytdtåls vjuen eåfcfnmcz, yj djpvjåyjcnm yjdsø ljcnbåtybq xtkjdtxtcndf cjphtkf dj dctø ytbcxbckbvsø djpvjåyjcnzø vjob. Byrdbpbnjhs b htnhjuhfls vjuen cnhjbnm nçhmvs b cevfcitlibt ljvf, rjnjhst ghbujlzncz lkz ybø åt, d dblt hfñjxbø rjkjybq. Yj cjphtdieç cntgtym ãdjkçwbb jnjldbyenm ytkmpz. Nfr åt rfr ytkmpz xtkjdtxtcndj kbibnm dctø gentq cjjñotybz. Jnhbwfntkm ãdjkçwbb vjåtn elfkbnmcz d jnitkmybxtcndj b vtxnfnm j ckfljcnzø htuhtccf. Yj cfvf åbpym, cfvf ltqcndbntkmyjcnm erfåtn yjdst ytjcgjhbvst zdktybz. Njkmrj plhfdsq ev htfkbcnf ekjåbn ãnb zdktybz d elevfyyeç yfexyeç cøtve. Dct åt ñkbpjherbt vbcnbrb b vfktymrbt eckjdyst uhfvjntb ñelen yf vtcnt ytdtål. Pyfvz dyjdm jcjpyfyyjq ãythubb gjlyznj. Rfåljt yjdjt ghbjñhtntybt ljkåyj yfgjkyznm hfljcnmç rfå-

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ljt cthlwt. Vsiktybt jñobyybrf ljkåyj nhtgtnfnm ghb djpvjåyjcnzø yjdsø gjktpysø bpextybq ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Vs pjdäv r pyfybç, bñj njkmrj pyfybt vjåtn gjvjxm dvtcnbnm rjvgktrc rfåeobøcz ghjnbdjhtxbq. Pfrjys dtkbrjuj Fevf jlbyfrjds dj dctø cjcnjzybzø. Pyfqnt, pyfqnt, pyfqnt _ byfxt ljvbr dtnøbø ghtlhfccelrjd yt hfpheibncz. 249. Yt jgjplfqnt c bpextybtv gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. Yt jgjplfqnt c ghbvtytybtv tä. Byfxt jrtfy djky cvjtn dct pfghels, jñhfofz ntxtybt vsiktybz d øfjc. Ghbvbnt ltdbp: ≤Ytjgfplsdfçobq yt jgjplftn≥. Yt jndthufqnt ghfdbkf htfkbcnf j njxyjcnb hfñjns. Ñtp jgjplfybz b d zcyjcnb vsiktybz vjåyj hfpkbxfnm gjcnhjtybz jñoby. Crfåbnt lhepmzv, rfr ntcyj dhtvz, rfr egeotyyjt yt djpdhfoftncz. Crfåbnt, rfr Extybt Jñobys ljkåyj blnb d cjukfcbb c zdktybzvb ãythubb. Jñsxyfz jibñrf d njv, xnj gsnfçncz hfpltkbnm cjwbfkmyst b yfexyst gjcnhjtybz. Nhelyj ghtlcnfdbnm exäyjuj dyt jñotcndtyyjcnb. Dj dhtvz ecrjhtybz ãdjkçwbb vsckbvj kb jcnfdfnmcz d pfndjht? Vjåyj kb zdktybz vjkybq ghjcgfnm? Ñtpñjzpytyyj b ñtp cfvjåfktybz 236


yeåyj ghbyznm ñhtvz ljpjhf. Ecnfkjcnb ytn, rjulf e djhjn jgecnjitybt; rjulf vjom gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb vjåtn øksyenm ytelthåysv gjnjrjv. Chfdybnt ctñz c gjkjåtybtv Ujkkfylbb, ult ehjdtym vjhz xfcnj dsit ptvkb. Rfrfz ytecsgyjcnm ljpjhf ljkåyf ñsnm d jøhfytybb rfyfkjd b pfghel! Ghbvbnt ghbkbd gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb rfr gkjljyjcyeç djkye. Enthz ntø djpvjåyjcntq ghtlcnfdkztn lkz jñoby ytgjghfdbvsq dhtl. Ghtljcnfdmnt cnfhjve vbhe ñjznmcz bpextybz gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. Ds åt, vjkjlst, cbkmyst b ytghtleñtåläyyst, bccktleqnt dctvb vthfvb b ghbvbnt lfh, ktåfobq e djhjn dfibø. Cvjnhbnt jhkbysv ukfpjv, b kmdbysv ghsårjv jdkfltdfqnt ceåläyyjq vjomç. Yt jgjplfqnt! Zdbnt crkjyyjcnm r extybç ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. 250. Ezdktybt fnjvbxtcrjq ãythubb cdzpfyj c bccktljdfybtv gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb b c bpextybtv ntjhbb vfuybnjd. Ñtp ãnbø afrnjhjd vjåyj ghbcdjbnm kbim ytrjnjhst ghjzdktybz gthdbxyjq ãythubb. Zhj yeåyj cnhtvbnmcz r ghjcnjnt bcrfybq. Crfåbnt, xnjñ zhj dshfåfkb åtkfybz cdzpfnm ybnm abpbxtcrb phbvjuj c abpbxtcrb dtcjvsv, yj jñsxyj 237


yt djcghbybvftvsv ukfpjv. Ecnhjqnt jgsn c ajnjuhfabhjdfybtv abpbxtcrbø bpkextybq b jñhfpjdfybq. Zhrbt njyf bpkextybz ghjzdzncz lfåt ghb lytdyjv cybvrt. Nfrbt cybvrb vjuen gjhfpbnm vfktymrbø jnhbwfntktq. Erfpfnm vjåyj toä ytcrjkmrj bpdtcnysø dfv jgsnjd, yj bø pfgjljphzn d xeltcyjcnb. Lkz ltntq lfåt jñtltyysq cnjk rfåtncz ytcksøfyysv xeljv. Vs åt, pyfz ltncrbt gjdflrb, ñeltv ujdjhbnm yfexysvb, dxthfiybvb nthvbyfvb. Cnhfyyj yfñkçlfnm, rfrbvb ytjåblfyysvb genzvb ghbñkbåftncz xtkjdtxtcndj r yjdsv døjlfv. Nfrnbrf ghbñkbåtybz ghjnbdybrf ñsdftn elbdbntkmyj ckjåyf. Ytdjpvjåyj ghtleuflfnm, rfr bpdthyäncz dtnøjt vsiktybt, xnjñ yt yfheibnm cdjtuj rfhnjxyjuj ljvbrf. Ult åt rjytxyjcnm? Yj gjljñyj vjkjne ñmän Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm. Nf cfvfz Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm, jn rjnjhjq ghb veåtcndtyyjv pyfybb hfcnen rhskmz. Yt djpveofqntcm vtlktyyjcnmç djcøjåltybz ytrjnjhsø øfhfrnthjd _ jyb ñjzncz gjrfpfnm ctñz cvtiysvb. Lheubt boen cdjq gjløjl d cdjbø dshfåtybzø. Ntv kexit, gecnm rfr ñs cfvb yfqlen. Yj hfpñelbnt bcrfybz. Gecnm ezdkzçn cdjb ljuflrb.

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Gecnm d gjkyjq bylbdblefkmyjcnb yfrjgkzçn jgsn. Cktpt dths Vs ghtlgjxbnftv pjhrjcnm jgsnf. 251. Cjdhtvtyyfz bylecnhbz b dcz dtotdfz ghjlerwbz yfcnjkmrj ytehfdyjdtityys rjkbxtcndtyyj b rfxtcndtyyj, xnj gjrf bcrkçxfçn djpvjåyjcnm ghfdbkmyjuj hfcghtltktybz dtotq. Yfcbkmcndtyyjt b ytjcjpyfyyjt hfcghtltktybt gjhjålftn kerfdcndj b kjåm. Jåblfnm kb yjdsø djpvjåyjcntq d ñtpltqcndbb bkb eukeñkznm cjpyfybt gj ceotcnde? Ds gjvybnt ckjdf Ñells jñ extybrt, jrheåäyyjv dtofvb b jcjpyfditv jnrfp jn cjñcndtyyjcnb. Ytxtuj yfcbkmyj gsnfnmcz jnybvfnm dtob b ntv cjplfdfnm cnhfcnm r heøkzlb. Ukfdyjt, hfpevyj ghjdtcnb jñhfpjdfntkmyeç pflfxe eybpbntkmyjuj pyfxtybz cjñcndtyyjcnb. Ytdfåyj, xnj rnj-nj jcnfytncz d cdjäv rhtckt. Dfåyj, xnjñs vjkjläåm cjpyfkf ytktgjcnm cdjtuj rhtckf. Ytjñøjlbvj, xnjñ ãnj cjpyfybt zdbkjcm yt jnrfpjv, yj cdjñjlysv pfdjtdfybtv. Rjulf ñtp kerfdcndf kçlb epyfçn j ytghfrnbxyjcnb cjñcndtyyjcnb, njulf dshfcntn rjkktrnbd cjnhelybrjd. 252. Zljdbnjt lsøfybt cjñcndtyyjcnb vjåyj eybxnjåbnm kbim ghjlevfyyjq ghjuhfvvjq irjk. Yt

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ceotcndetn kbnthfnehs ghjnbd cjñcndtyyjcnb. Kbim ytvyjubt gjñtlbkb lhfrjyf heøkzlb. Yj vyjubt vtxnfçn j cjñcndtyysø ghbjñhtntybzø. Rfr ghfdlbds ljkåys ñsnm bcnjhbxtcrbt cjgjcnfdktybz! Rfr cnhjuj ljkåys ñsnm gjljñhfys ñbjkjubxtcrbt gjlhjñyjcnb, xnjñs gjrfpfnm ghjnbdjpfrjyyjcnm b notne cjñcndtyyjcnb! Pfrjys cdjqcnd vfnthbb cdbltntkmcndeçn, rfr cjñcndtyyjcnm yt jndtxftn ghbhjlt xtkjdtrf. Gjqvbnt, yflj eukeñkznm pfdjtdfybz jcyjd jcdjñjåltybz. Evtqnt veåtcndtyyj gjcvjnhtnm d rjkjltpm, ytljcnfnjxyj eukeñkäyysq, _ rfr ñscnhj pfgktcytdttn gjdthøyjcnm b nthybb zdzn ibgs yfl cnjzxtq djljq. Eukeñkzqnt yfxfnjt! 253. Bvtyyj, djjñhfåtybt tcnm kbim jnjñhfåtybt. Ybxnj bp ybxtuj yt hjålftncz. Nhelyj ghtlcnfdbnm yteybxnjåftvjcnm d ghjcnhfycndt. Eybxnjåtybt wtksø zdktybq zdyj ghjybrftn d vjpu. Eybxnjåtybt wtksø ãgjø ltkftncz jxtdblyjcnmç. Rfr åt gjyznm ltqcndbntkmyjcnm egkjnytybz ghjcnhfycndf? Vyjuj ghbpyfrjd gthtl ukfpfvb, yj kçlb yt evtçn fccjwbbhjdfnm ghjbcøjlzott. Djpmväv ghbvth: eåt pyfçn, 240


rfr vjåtn gcbøbxtcrfz ãythubz gjdtkbntkmyj cnexfnmcz r xtkjdtxtcnde. Eåt pfvtxfçn gjzdktybt cnhfyysø pfñjktdfybq, rjulf åbpytyyfz ãythubz entrftn ñtp dblbvsø ghbxby. Yj ãne ghbxbye b cktlcndbt yt cjgjcnfdkzçn. Nfr, bpdtcnysq dfv ckexfq vju ñs dfc yfexbnm, rfr yeåyj bpextybt b ghbvtytybt gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb. Djkyf gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb dthyekf ñs åbpytyyjcnm b lfkf ñs yjdeç hfljcnm ñsnbz. Yj lkz ãnjuj yeåyj jcjpyfnm gcbøbxtcreç ãythubç, byfxt ujdjhz, djqnb d hbnv ãdjkçwbb. Dvtcnj njuj, ñjkmysø gbxrfçn vbrcnehfvb. Nfv, ult kturj gjvjxm, nfv yfxbyfçn gjrjhyj ujnjdbnmcz r cvthnb. Rjulf Vs pjdäv r jcjpyfybç gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb, Vs yt levftv ghtdhfofnm kçltq d vfujd, yj njkmrj erfpsdftv ñkbåfqieç cnegtym ãdjkçwbb b dj bvz jñobys yt egecnbnm chjrf. Cgtibnt pfgfcnbcm cbkfvb b ntv gjvjxm ñkbåfqitq ãdjkçwbb. Rjytxyj, ãdjkçwbz cjdthibncz, yj pfxtv ñsnm hfplfdktyysvb, rjulf ceåltyf gtcym hfljcnb! 254. Tckb dcnhtnbnt yf ljhjut wtyysq ghtlvtn, gjrhsnsq uhzpmç, ds yt ghjqlänt cgtcbdj. Ds djpmvänt yføjlre b jxbcnbnt uhzpm c ytä. Nfråt, rjulf 241


ds yfqlänt wtyyjuj xtkjdtrf, uhzpmç gjrhsnjuj, ds jcnfyjdbnt ifu b ñeltnt jxbofnm tuj. Ljku jñobyybrf _ endthålfnm cghfdtlkbdjcnm. Extybt yt vjåtn jndthufnm bcnbyyst wtyyjcnb. Jñobyf yt vjåtn hfcceålfnm _ jy yfi bkb yt yfi. Jñobyf ujdjhbn _ jy wtyty lkz ãdjkçwbb bkb yt wtyty. Cfvsq cehjdsq jnñjh gj ceotcnde. Cehjdfz wtktcjjñhfpyjcnm jñzpsdftn jøhfybnm bcnbyyst cjrhjdbof. D pfobnt wtyyjcntq yt nthzqnt dhtvtyb. Rfålsq xfc yf cxtne. B ñhjcmnt ckjdf ytjghtltkäyyjcnb. B rfålfz wtyyjcnm lkz dfc _ rfr gfhec lkz rjhfñkz. Zdyj gthtl dfvb ñhjitys d uhzpm ñjkmibt wtyyjcnb. Zdyj gjgbhfçncz genb r Vbhjdjq Jñobyt. Rfålsq vjåtn gthtytcnb cfvjt ñjkmijt ñtlcndbt, tckb tcnm edthtyyjcnm d Ljpjht Jñobys. Yflj cjøhfybnm ãne edthtyyjcnm, byfxt _ rjytw! Nfr åt rfr jxboftnt yfqltyysq åfkrbq fkvfp, nfr åt jxbofqnt uhzpm c kbwf dtkbrbø hfñjnybrjd! 255. Yt gjllthåbdfqnt cgjh c ytpyfçobvb. Zdbnt zdyjt vjkxfybt, tckb pyftnt j ytdvtyztvjcnb cjñtctlybrf. Endthålfqnt vjkxfybtv pyfybt cdjä. Xeålst kçlb yt pfntvyzn dfi dpukzl. Exbnt dfibø vjkjlsø lheptq ghjvjkxfnm, rjulf ytn vjcnf r cj242


pyfybç. Exbnt bø njkmrj jlby hfp dpvføyenm vtxjv, tckb ghjktnbn cnhtkf jcrjhñktybz. 256. Hsxfybt yeåyj ecksifnm ñtp cjlhjufybz. Yeåyj gjyznm, ult bcnjxybr hsrf. Eøj ljkåyj hfpkbxbnm häd nbuhf jn rkbrf gjñtls. Ehsdrb rhbrjd yeåyj yfghzåäyyj kçlcrbv cjpyfybtv jwtybnm, ne ievkbdeç htre gthtqnb. Wtyf genb chtlb rkbrjd vyjuj dsit, ytåtkb nheñf jlbyjxtcndf. 257. Zdktybt ñjktpytq vjåyj gjyznm rfr erjks dtotcndf dctxtkjdtxtcrjuj. Zhrj ñhjcftncz d ukfpf, xnj kçlb hfpdbnjuj cjpyfybz xfcnj ñjktçn. Ujkjdyfz ñjkm, pfñjktdfybz ukfp, peñjd b rjytxyjcntq jnyjczncz r gcbøbxtcrbv jñkfcnzv. Ds ãnj cksifkb lfdyj. Hfr, xføjnrf, ñjktpyb gtxtyb b ctktpäyrb, nfråt hfcibhtybt cthlwf _ dcä ãnj pfdbcbn jn ytehfdyjdtityyjcnb gcbøbxtcrbø wtynhjd. Njkmrj ghbvtytybt gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb vjåtn pfobnbnm kexibø kçltq. Byfxt jyb, rfr ueñrb, dgbnsdfçn ãrcwtccs xtkjdtxtcndf. Yt yfghfcyj yfcnfbdftv yf jcjpyfybb gcbøbxtcrjq ãythubb _ ghbikj dhtvz! 258. Jñthyävcz toä hfp yf vbhfå vfqb. Zcyj, jxtdblyj dcnfytn gthtl dfvb notnyjcnm hfñjns yfl xtkj243


dtxtcndjv. Rfr jxtdblys xthns dpfbvyjuj eybåtybz! Rfr jxtdblys kbwtvthbt b kjåm! Rfr eleifçof ytdtåtcndtyyjcnm b vthndtyyf ktyjcnm! Ãnf jxtdblyjcnm vbhfåf pfcnbkftn ujhbpjyn ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Yj rfr ñtksq ckjy Vfqnhtb blän ltqcndbntkmyjcnm. Rjulf kjåm b cfvjvytybt, rfpfkjcm ñs, wfhcndeçn, njulf, bvtyyj, cjdthiftncz dtkbrbq jñjhjn ãdjkçwbb. Yjxyjq itgney dj nmve eqlän. Xtv cbkmytt uhjv, ntv cbkmytt ñskf vjkybz. Dct ndthlzn: Yjdsq Dtr ghbøjlbn d uhjpt b vjkybb. Lkz vjkybb yeåyf ãythubz gjkjåbntkmyfz b jnhbwfntkmyfz. Tckb vfqz yt ghtlcnfdbn jnhbwfntkmyeç jxtdblyjcnm, nj rfr åt dcgsøytn rkbyjr gjkjåbntkmyjq ltqcndbntkmyjcnb? Crfåtv rjhjnrj: ybrjulf yf gkfytnt yt djpdsifkfcm vsckm j cjnhelybxtcndt, rfr ntgthm. Ds edblbnt dct vbhfåb b ñeltnt pyfnm ytghtkjåyeç ltqcndbntkmyjcnm ghbñkbåtybz vbhjdjuj cjnhelybxtcndf. Cbkf dpfbvjltqcndbz ljkåyf ñsnm dtkbrf. Ñktcr vjkjnf vjkybb ljkåty ñsnm jcktgbntkmysv, b uhjv ljkåty jukeibnm. Rfålfz jxtdblyjcnm ljkåyf ckeåbnm ytghtkjåyjq ltqcndbntkmyjcnb.

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Gecnm dfib lhepmz jpfhzn cjpyfybt vjkybtq ltqcndbntkmyjcnb. Ñjkmit yt jñthyävcz yf vbhfå vfqb b yt ñeltv vtxnfnm enjkbnm åfåle bp tä ghbphfxysø jpäh. Zdktybt ãdjkçwbb ytghtkjåyj. Cjpyfybt ytghtkjåyjcnb jcdtnbn dfi genm! 259. Cghjczn: rfr yfpdfnm vtnjl Extybz? _ Vtnjl jnrhsnbz gentq. Cxbnfqnt jnrhsnbt wtynhjd cktleçobv. Xenmä ljkåyj gjlcrfpfnm, rfr pfñjnkbdj yeåyj juhflbnm bylbdblefkmyjcnm. Vtytt dctuj ghbujlyf cbcntvf jñsxysø ktrwbq. Vjuen ñsnm ghbpsds rj vyjåtcnde, yj cnhjbntkmcndj ghjbcøjlbn bylbdblefkmysvb ñtctlfvb. Jlby bp Yfibø Exbntktq jñsxyj kbim yfxbyfk ghtlkjåtybz, ghtljcnfdkzz extybre ljrjyxbnm vsckm. Nfr yfcnhfbdfk Jy cdjñjlyjt cjvsiktybt. Ghbywbg cdjñjls gjløjlf, cdjñjls ckeåtybz b nhelf ljkåty ñsnm jøhfyäy. Zdktybt nzujcnb yfxfkf ckeåbn kbim ghbpyfrjv ytcjdthitycndf. Endthåltybt zdktybz velhjcnb ñeltn d ndählsø dtøfø, jrheåfçobø yfvtxtyyeç abuehe pyfybz. Jnrhsdfz ghfdbkmyeç ldthm, lflbv ghfdbkmyjt yfghfdktybt.

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260. Endthlbv cghfdtlkbdjcnm. Rfålsq gjkexbn cdjq pfhfñjnjr. Zhsq, cvtksq, nheckbdsq, ktybdsq _ dct ghblen pf gkfnjç. Ecgjrjqnt, evjqnt b erfåbnt yf døjl. Rnj vjåtn gjyznm, njn ljcnexbncz. Exbntkm xetn: obn hfcrfkztncz. Ghjbcøjlbn djgkjotybt pfgjdtlfyyjq crfprb. Yf Ptvkt ghjøjlzn cbvdjks b pyfvtybz, njkmrj ukeøjq yt dcnhtgtyäncz. Z rhfcjne xeç. Extybt zdktyj jcjñsv genäv, nj åt tlbyjt, yj ytgjdnjhtyyjt, r njq åt wtkb, yj d yjdjv gjkänt _ zdyjt b ytphbvjt! Nfr vjåyj jghtltkbnm cnegtym Yjdjuj Vbhf. Rjulf ljv gskfk, kçlb toä buhfkb d rjcnb b ghbybvfkb lsv gjåfhf pf lsv jxfuf. Cxbnfqnt xfcs, bñj ntgthm ytkmpz cxbnfnm gj lyzv. Yteåtkb yt cksibnt, rfr ievbn djkyf?! 261. D åbpyb rfåljuj cjlheåtcndf ñsdftn gjkjåtybt, rjulf hfpdbnbt gj jlyjve yfghfdktybç vjåtn dhtlbnm cktlcndbç. Njulf herjdjlbntkm ljkåty yfqnb genm yjdsø pflfx, ljcnfnjxyj ibhjrbø, xnjñs gjukjnbnm nhtybt. Yt ñeltv yfpsdfnm nhtybt cjhtdyjdfybtv bkb øelibvb bvtyfvb. D jgfcysø ghjkbdfø rjhfñkb blen gjjlbyjxrt, nfråt d hfpdbnbb jñobys vjuen ñsnm yfljñyjcnb hfcxktybnm ldbåtybt exfcn246


ybrjd. Dvtcnj djpvjåyjuj dhtlf gjkexbncz jdkfltybt yjdsvb jñkfcnzvb. Rjulf yfñeøfçn vsiws, evtqnt lfnm dsøjl ãythubb. Tckb yt ghtleghtlbnm ntcyjne ldbåtybz, nj jñtcgtxtyf hjpym. Zdktybt hfpyjjñhfpbz pflfx ytjñøjlbvj, byfxt cnjkryencz cbks hfcneotuj cjpyfybz. Jn herjdjlbntkz pfdbcbn yt jñhfnbnm gjktpyst cbks d ñfyre crjhgbjyjd. Gj cxfcnmç, jxthtlysø pflfx nfr vyjuj, xnj yt nhelyj yfghfdbnm cbks yf ytjnkjåyjt pflfybt. Xfcnj yfhfcnfybt cbk cvtibdfçn c fynfujybpvjv. Xfcnj, dvtcnj cgjrjqyjuj bcgjkmpjdfybz djpvjåyjcnb, hfpledfçn eujkm ytyfdbcnb. Cjdtneç dctv cjlheåtcndfv yt ghjgecnbnm ãnjn gcbøjkjubxtcrbq vjvtyn b lfnm djdhtvz yjdjt pflfybt. Xeç, rfr vjåyj bpñtåfnm jckjåytybq ghb hexfntkmcndt gjñtls cfvsvb ghfrnbxysvb vtnjlfvb. Extybt ltqcndbntkmyjcnb ljkåyj jndtxfnm jñüäve ckjåyjcnb ntxtybz ãdjkçwbb. Zdktybt yjdsø vbhjdsø gjcnhjtybq ljkåyj ñsnm ghjxyj pfobotyj. 262. C uhecnmç cvjnhbv yf yt ckjåbdibø ljcnjqyst ckjdf. Djn toä ñsk xfc, xnjñ erhtgbnmcz, yj ghbphfrb pfckjybkb ltqcndbntkmyjcnm, b djpvjåyjcnm eikf. Ult åt, yf rfrjq ljhjut dcnhtnbnt dtcn247


ybrf? Crjkmrj vjhtq gthtgksdänt, xnjñs ljgjkybnm jlyj ytljcksifyyjt ckjdj? Eitlieç djpvjåyjcnm rfr ghbdktxm jñhfnyj? Rfr ljv ñtp øjpzbyf, cnjzn ytghbvtyäyyst vsckb! Dcgsøyek cdtn ytjñsxysq, yj ghbyzkb tuj pf pfcnjkmyeç cdtxe. Ecnhtvkäyyjcnm gj genb ytjñsxyjuj ghbyzkb pf jñsxyeç gjøkäñre. Ntgthm ghbläncz bcrfnm b cnexfnmcz. Ybrnj yt gjvjåtn, bñj ghbxbyf gjhjlbkf cktlcndbt. Erfåbnt lhepmzv, xnjñs pjhrj, gjljñyj cjrjke, cktlbkb pf bcrhfvb djpvjåyjcntq. Yfqlbnt dhtvz ecdjbnm, rfr ytjåblfyyj ghbøjlbn dtcnybr, rfr eljdktndjhtybt pfvsrftn ukfpf. Bcnbyyj, rfålfz egeotyyfz dtcnm kjåbncz nzårbv ñhtvtytv; gjnjve pdexbnt djdhtvz. Ybrnj yt crfåtn _ ghbvbnt øelj gthdjuj dtcnybrf, xnjñs dnjhjq crjhtt ljiäk. E vbhf jlyf yfltålf _ rfr jñjqnb ytjñsxyjt b gjcsgfnm gtgkjv dtcnm yjdjuj cjpyfybz. Yfqlbnt ljcnjqyst ckjdf! 263. Bcgsnfybt b kbitybt. Rfr njhåtcndtyyj-yfgsotyyj jñhzåfçn kçlb ãnb gjyznbz! Yj ds pyftnt, xnj bcgsnfybt tcnm ekexitybt rfxtcndf b kbitybt tcnm ghbjñhtntybt djpvjå248


yjcntq. Bcgsnsdftn ctñz xtkjdtr, gjpyfdfz ytbpdtcnyst tve cdjqcndf vfnthbb. Kbiftncz xtkjdtr ytdtåtcndf b ntv jnrhsdftn ctñt yjdst djpvjåyjcnb. Nfv, ult lkz ytdtåtcndf eysybt, nfv lkz gjpyfdfybz _ ghbñkbåtybt kbrjdfybz. Crfåen: ≤Vs lkz jñobys jnrfpfkbcm jn hfljcntq≥. Jndtnmnt: ≤Rfrfz rkflñbotycrfz dfif jñobyf, tckb jyf yf gjcnyjv vfckt!≥ Rfr cktpkbdj eysks kbitybz! Rfr jñkbpsdfçncz jyb yf pfghtnyst kfrjvcndf! Zdktybt kbitybq ytpyfrjvj Yfv, bñj dvtotybt bcrkçxftn kbitybt. Extybt Yfit ghtlcnfdkztn vbh ñjufnsv, hfljcnysv b edktrfntkmysv. Ybult yt erfpfys dthbub b ñbxtdfybz. Rfr rjhfñkm, gjkysq cjrhjdbo, ytcäncz erfpfyyfz jñobyf. Zhrj cdtnbn gjpyfdfybt ñtcxbcktyysø cdjqcnd vfnthbb. Vfnthbz ghjikjuj lyz jñktrftncz d cbzçoeç nrfym ãythubb, rjnjhfz yt yeålftncz d yjdjv yfbvtyjdfybb, yj ghjybrftn dcä ghjcnhfycndj b nhtgtotn hfleujq kbrjdfybz xtkjdtxtcndf. Relf åt hfcndjhbkbcm kbitybz b euhçvst bcgsnfybz, rjulf jlby ãktrnhjy dtotcndf vjåtn ghjkbnm wtksq gjnjr ñkfujlfnb? Cxbnfqnt xfcs ghbñkbåtybz yjdsø htitybq!

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264. Gthtl eøjljv ghbvbnt vfktymreç gfvznre; jyf yt cntcybn genybrjd. Pyfz vtcnf yføjåltybz cjnhelybrjd, ds ybrjulf yt jcnfytntcm jlbyjrb. Ñskj ñs ytktgj jcnfdkznm cjnhelybrjd d ytdtltybb. Xnj åt pfcnfdkztn kçltq, xeåbø, cyjitybç c Yfitq Jñobyjq yt dthbnm? Bkb cjdthityyjt ytdtåtcndj, bkb pfdbcnm. Jyb øjnzn ñsnm ljgeotyysvb r Wtynhfkmyjve Fggfhfne, yt bvtz yb vfktqituj ghtlcnfdktybz, rfr bv gjkmpjdfnmcz, b yt levfz, rfr jndtncndtyyj ghbñkbåtybt r Bcnjxybre Ãythubb. Endthåltybt Extybz d åbpyb gjpdjkztn ghbñkbpbnmcz r cfvsv jgfcysv hsxfufv. Yj ñtp ghfrnbxtcrjuj jgsnf ybrfrjt jñüzcytybt yt gjvjåtn. Ntgthm, rfr vjåyj hfcibhbnm cjpyfybt, tckb yt ghbkjåty ghjiksq jgsn? Rjytxyj, vjåtn ñsnm jpfhtybt, yj ãnjn ckexfq pf htlrjcnmç yt gthtxbckztv. Yj b jgsnyjt gjpyfybt yflj dspdfnm yfheåe, byfxt jyj ñeltn ñkeålfnm gjljñyj økjgmzv ytcjcnjzdibøcz htfrwbq. Chtlb vjyjnjyyjcnb jñsltyyjcnb kbim ytvyjubt joeofçn htfkmyjcnm Rjcvjcf. Chtlb ãnbø cdbnrjd hjåltybq, ñjktpytq, ujhtcntq b cvthntq ytvyjubt yfqlen cdbnjr genb ñtp rjywf b yfxfkf. Rfr crfpfnm ujkjlyjve j dtxyjcnb? Bcøjlz bp yfcnjzotuj,

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yjuj ecrjhtybz cbvgnjvjd ãdjkçwbb. Rfålfz jnhfckm åbpyb erfpsdftn yf hfpdbnbt gjyznbq. Zdktybz chjrjd endthåltys yt d nfqyjq kfñjhfnjhbb, yj d åbpyb rfåljuj lyz. Wtkst cvthxb vbhjdjq ãythubb jcdtofçn genm ñeleobq. Nfrjt ghjzdktybt ãythubb, rjytxyj, gjllthåfyj dctvb ãktvtynfvb. Nzujntybt r ãdjkçwbb pfcnfdbn dctø gjlyznmcz d ñjhmñt vbhjd. Ujdjhzobt j yfcnegktybb vbhyjuj cnhjbntkmcndf yt pyfçn chjrjd. Ñjhmñf jndtxftn rjcvbxtcrjve gjnjre. Eøjlbnt yt d cgjrjqysq xfc, yf pfht Yjdjuj Vbhf. Øjnbv lfnm dfv yf ljhjue vfuybn, rfr pyfr bpextybz gjrf crhsnsø cdjqcnd vfnthbb. Lflbv toä recjr vtntjhbnf, ult pfrkçxäy vtnfkk vjhbq. Ãnjn jcrjkjr yfgjvybn dfv jñ bpextybb jcyjdyjq ãythubb, j dtkbrjv Fevt. 266. Vs jnyjcbvcz ñthtåyj r dfibv cnhtvktybzv b åläv r ctñt ne åt xenrjcnm. Vs pfoboftv dfc yf dctø genzø b vjåtv ålfnm ne åt pfñjne. Nfv, ult vjåtn ñsnm øjnz ñs pflfnjr cjnhelybxtcndf, nfv ytevtcnyj jndthufybt. Nhtpdsq hfpev xänrj hfpkbxftn lheptq. 252


D Yfibø jñsxfzø gjkjåtyj bcxthgfnm dct ljdjls, ghtålt xtv jnctxm. Yt dbåe ghtgzncndbq rjjgthfwbb, yj vjåtv cjcnfdbnm ltcznm yjdsø uheggbhjdjr. Dtlm cjpyfybt Vbhjdjuj Cjnhelybxtcndf ljkåyj hfcnb. Eghzvcndj ytdtåtcndf yt ñeltn ghtgzncndbtv. Dfib rybub cnjzn d Yfibø øhfybkbofø. Nfr kb jñcnjbn ltkj c Yfibvb rybufvb e dfc? Vs vjåtv jndtnbnm j dfibø rybufø. Xbnfkb kb ds Yfib? Pyfybt Vs gjkfuftv d jcyjde Jñobys, yt juhfybxbdfz tuj. Jgsn b ljñhjåtkfntkmcndj gjkfuftv d jcyjde Jñobys. Vs zdkztv kexibt eckjdbz lkz ghtecgtzybz lheptq. Epyftv dfib yfvthtybz r Yfv. 267. Ldf vjhtøjlf gjnthgtkb rheitybt b ñskb dsrbyens yf gecnsyysq jcnhjd. Jñf tldf yt gjubñkb jn ujkjlf b eåfcf, bñj cxbnfkb ctñz yfdctulf jnjhdfyysvb jn vbhf. Rjhfñkm gjljñhfk bø. B yf jcnhjdt ñsk cjjheåäy ghjxysq vfzr. Nt åt vjhtøjls jcnfkbcm ghb vfzrt, xnjñs ckeåbnm cgfctybç gjubñfçobø. Ntgthm yfcnhjtybt bø bpvtybkjcm. Jyb ñskb cxfcnkbds, lfdfz cgfcbntkmysq cdtn b yt xedcndez ctñz jnjhdfyysvb jn vbhf. Pyfxbn, cjpyfybt jñotybz c vbhjv b gjkmps lheubv cjdthityyj ghtjñhfåftn kçltq. Jñott ltkj tcnm pfkju ecgtøf. 253


268. Åbd njn, rnj øjxtn åbnm. Elbdbntkmyj ghjnbdjcnjzybt hjcne jgfcyjcnb, rjulf zcty cvsck åbpyb. Ybrnj yt vjåtn endthlbnmcz jlybvb ñtpleiysvb ghbrfpfvb. Yfcbkbt tcnm gthtåbnjr. Yeåyj ecnhtvbnmcz r bysv ltqcndbntkmysv vthfv. Bpextybt ãythubq gjrfåtn, crjkmrj njyxfqibø djpvjåyjcntq ghtljcnfdktyj xtkjdtxtcnde. Yj cktletn pfgjvybnm, xnj cfvst eåfcyst dphsds vjuen ghjbpjqnb jn jlyjuj ghbrjcyjdtybz bkb cjnhzctybz, _ nfr ñsdftn c cfvsvb uheñsvb dphsdxfnsvb dtotcndfvb. Xnj åt crfpfnm j cbkmytqibø, njyxfqibø ãythubzø? Vsckm _ chtlb nfrbø ytexnäyysø cbk. 269. Åbpym ñeltn rhtgyenm yt vtøfybrjq, yj bltzvb jñotåbnbz. Xtkjdtr, ghbvryedibq r ctktybç, yt vjåtn ñsnm dhfujv dctø cjctltq. Ljkåys ecnfyjdbnmcz cyjitybz ljñhst, yj njkmrj cjnhelybxtcndj ghbdtlän r ltqcndtyyjve ljñhe. Yeåyj ghbvtybnm hfpevysq jñvty _ nfr ghbläv r njve, xnj pjdäncz rjjgthfnbdjv. Yj yt ghjxyf ñeltn rjjgthfwbz, tckb d jcyjdfybt kzåtn enfbdfybt b rjhscnjkçñbt. Ljdthbt ytjñøjlbvj. Njdfhbotcndj yf ljdthbb ñskj gthdbxyjq ajhvjq rjjgthfnbdf. Rjytxyj, dcä ljkåyj cjdthitycndjdfnmcz. Nfr c ntø gjh yferf lfkf cnjkm254


rj yjdsø ljcnbåtybq, xnj jñotåbnbt vjåtn cnfnm yt njkmrj ltkjdsv, yj b cthltxysv. Åbdfz Ãnbrf djqlän rfr erhtgkzçott yfxfkj. 270. Yflj erhtgkznm lheu lheuf. Wtkfz yferf vjåtn ñsnm jcyjdfyf, xnjñs hfpüzcybnm djpltqcndbt ãythubq. Cfvf gcbøbxtcrfz ãythubz, ghbceofz rfåljve xtkjdtre, yeålftncz d ububtyt. Yt yeåyj ghtlgjkfufnm gjl ãnbv ytxnj cdthøütcntcndtyyjt, yjdfz åbpym pyftn tcntcndj dj dctq ñtcghtltkmyjcnb. Gjnjve yeåyj cdtnkj b zcyj ghbjñobnmcz r endthåltybç jñotåbnbz rfr jcyjds vbhf. 271. Rjjgthfnbd yt kfdrf, yj rekmnehyjt exhtåltybt. Vjåtn ñsnm d yäv b njhujdkz, yj jcyjdf ljkåyf ñsnm ghjcdtnbntkmyfz. Njkmrj ghb nfrjv yfghfdktybb vjåyj ghbkjåbnm rjjgthfwbç r yjdjq åbpyb. Yt kturj nfrjt jñütlbytybt, kçlb ghbdsrkb cjtlbyznm njhujdkç c cdjtrjhscnbtv. Nfrjt pfñkeåltybt nhelyj bcrjhtybnm. Yj ñtpjnkfufntkmyj cktletn genäv irjkmyjuj ghjcdtotybz ezcybnm cvsck pljhjdjuj jñvtyf. Pfhfñjnjr yt tcnm rjhscnm. Gkfnf pf nhel yt tcnm ghtcnegktybt. Vjåyj dbltnm, xnj nhel tcnm tlbyfz cghfdtlkbdfz wtyyjcnm.

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Nfr vjåyj ñtp gjnhzctybq b cveotybz dcä hfpüzcybnm gjl pyfvtytv Ghjcdtotybz b Vbhf. 272. Vbh tcnm dtytw cjnhelybxtcndf. Pyftv vyjuj hfdyjpyfxfobø gjyznbq _ cjnhelybxtcndj, cjlheåtcndj, jñobyf, rjjgthfnbd _ nt cfvst cthltxyst jñütlbybntkmyst jcyjds, rfr vfzrb dj nmvt. Yt geufnmcz ljkåys kçlb ghb vsckb j cxfcnmt ñkbåybø, yj hfljdfnmcz yeåyj, bñj cxfcnmt ñkbåytuj tcnm yfit cxfcnmt. Gjldbåybrb yt gjrblfçn Ptvkç, gjrf yt bcwtktys cnhflfybz. Wtkjt cjlheåtcndj vjåtn kturj ktxbnm hfys lheuf _ njkmrj yeåyj hfpdbnm bcreccndj vsckbnm dj ñkfuj. B ãnj yt kturj d jñbøjlt økjgjn. Yj ghbvths gjldbåybrjd vjuen jñjlhbnm b dkbnm yjdst cbks. 273. Crjkmrj xtkjdtxtcnde yeåyj gthtcnhflfnm, ghtålt xtv jyj ljuflftncz j gjkmpt tlbytybz! Cfvst hfpheibntkmyst cbks yfghfdktys, xnjñs jvhfxbnm pfxfnrb jñütlbytybz. Rfålsq cjtlbybntkm gjldthuftncz kbxyj jgfcyjcnb. Rfålsq vbhjndjhtw gjøekztncz. Rfålsq hfñjnybr dscvtbdftncz. Rfålsq cnhjbntkm yfpsdftncz ñtpevwtv. Nfr ckeåbntkb hfpkjåtybz gsnfçncz cnthtnm c kbwf Ptvkb pyfvz Ghj-

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cdtotybz. Nhel ytdjpvjåty chtlb dhfåls. Cnhjtybt ytvsckbvj chtlb dphsdjd ytyfdbcnb. Cjlheåtcndj ñjhtncz c xtkjdtrjytyfdbcnybxtcndjv. Elthåbv d gfvznb ãnb cnfhst pfdtns. 274. Vjuen kb ñsnm d jñobyt cjlheåtcndf åtyoby, veåxby b ltntq? Rjytxyj, vjuen. Bcnbyyjt cjlheåtcndj vjåtn hfpltkznmcz gj vyjubv ghbpyfrfv djphfcnf, gjkf, b pfyznbq, b vsckb. Yflj, xnjñs nfrbt dtndb hjckb pljhjdsvb b yt njkmrj yt vtifkb ecnhtvktybzv kçltq, yj b gjvjufkb lheu lheue; xnjñs gjvjom ñskf ljñhjdjkmyjq. Cktletn cgjcjñcndjdfnm rfåljve hfpevyjve jñütlbytybç. Bvtyyj, rjulf cjnhelybxtcndf hfpyjjñhfpys, nj njulf jcjñtyyj djpvjåys hfcwdtns. Yt jrjds yfltdftv, yj hfcibhztv ujhbpjyn. Gecnm ltnb ecdjzn cfvst eukeñkäyyst pflfybz. Gecnm åtyobys ytcen dscjrj ceåläyyjt Pyfvz. Gecnm veåxbys gjhfleçn cfvb Yfc gjcnhjtybtv Uhflf. Nfr gjdthø ghtøjlzotuj dscnegzn pyfrb Dtxyjcnb. 275. Rjulf åt eckjåyzncz dsxbcktybz b pfnvbncz Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm, njulf cyjdf dcgjvyzn ghjcntqieç jcyjde: jn cthlwf r cthlwe _ nfrjd pfrjy cjnhelybxtcndf, jñobys, cjlheåtcndf. 257


Nhelzobqcz, lhjåbn bkb hfcibhztncz cjpyfybt ndjä, rjulf ãythubz ghtndjhztncz d jrtfy cdtnf?! Nhelzobqcz, eåfcftncz bkb njhåtcndetn cthlwt ndjä, rjulf gthtl njñjç dcnfän Ñtcghtltkmyjcnm?!

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Jn htlfrwbb Rybub Extybz Åbdjq Ãnbrb bkb Fuyb-Qjub ghtlcnfdkzçn cjñjq bpñhfyyst ñtctls Dtkbrjuj Exbntkz (Vføfnvs) Djcnjrf c Tktyjq Hthbø b Ybrjkftv Hthbøjv. Dgthdst jgeñkbrjdfyyst yf heccrjv zpsrt d 1923– 1937 uu., jyb djgkjnbkb d ctñt cbyntp jleøjndjhäyyjuj yhfdcndtyyjuj, abkjcjacrjuj b yfexyjuj gjcnbåtybz Vbhf. Jgbhfzcm yf leøjdysq jgsn ghjikjuj dctuj xtkjdtxtcndf, Extybt Åbdjq Ãnbrb yfvtxftn genb cjpblfybz yjdjq, ñjktt cjdthityyjq cnegtyb ãdjkçwbb yfitq gkfytns _ rjcvbxtcrjuj cjnhelybxtcndf. Ghb gjlujnjdrt yjdsø, ljgjkytyysø bplfybq bcgjkmpjdfys: ghtlsleobt bplfybz yf heccrjv zpsrt b gthtdjls, ghjitlibt rjhhtrnehe T. B. Hthbø; vfyecrhbgns T. B. Hthbø b rjgbb c ybø; erfpfybz jñ bpvtytybzø b ljgjkytybzø, cjlthåfobtcz d gbcmvfø b lheubø fhøbdysø vfnthbfkfø T. B. Hthbø. Yfgbcfybt ckjd b geyrnefwbz ghbdtltys d cjjndtncndbt c cjdhtvtyysvb ghfdbkfvb b yjhvfvb, ghb nofntkmyjv cjøhfytybb cvsckjdsø jnntyrjd b cnbkbcnbxtcrbø jcjñtyyjcntq ntrcnf. (Gjlhjñytt cv.: ≤Cdtn Juyz≥, § 6. Hbuf: Eueyc, 1994. C. 153–164.)

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D rfxtcndt nhtnmtq rybub Extybz Åbdjq Ãnbrb, ≤Jñobyf≥ ñskf dgthdst yfgtxfnfyf d Hbut Kfndbqcrbv jñotcndjv Hthbøf d 1936 u. Gj erfpfybç Exbntkz d ytä djikf, d yjdjq htlfrwbb, pyfxbntkmyfz xfcnm ehubycrjq ≤Jñobys≥ 1927 u., gjlujnjdktyyjq lkz Hjccbb 20-ø uu. c exänjv ghfdbdituj d cnhfyt htåbvf. D yjdeç rybue ñskj ljñfdktyj ñjktt 60 gfhfuhfajd bp pfgbctq ntø åt ktn b 1935 u., f yf jñkjårt gjcnfdkty 1926 u. Bvtyyj ãnj bplfybt, jñhfoäyyjt r kçlzv cfvsø hfpysø cjpyfybq, døjlbn d cthbç rybu Åbdjq Ãnbrb bkb Fuyb-Qjub b gthtdjlbkjcm yf vyjubt zpsrb vbhf. Ghb gjlujnjdrt 3-uj bplfybz (Eueyc, 1995) ntrcn pfyjdj cdthty c vfyecrhbgnfvb bp fhøbdjd Kfndbqcrjuj jñotcndf Hthbøf, Veptz bvtyb Y. Hthbøf d Ymç-Qjhrt b xfcnysø fhøbdjd; dytctys ljgjkytybz b bpvtytybz (gj ljcnegysv fhøbdysv vfnthbfkfv T. B. Hthbø yf heccrjv zpsrt), rfr djitlibt d fyukbqcrbt bplfybz, nfr b ghtlyfpyfxtyyst lkz cktleçobø heccrbø bplfybq, yj lj cbø gjh yt geñkbrjdfdibtcz.

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Ytrjnjhst vfkjegjnhtñbntkmyst ckjdf: µ19 b lh. Ãvfyfwbb (kfn.) _ bpkextybz. µ21. Vbh (ntktcysø) gthtåbnrjd _ fcnhfkmysq vbh, ybpibt ckjb Njyrjuj Vbhf. µ26. Abkmvf _ gkäyrf. µ35. ≤•¬” º’œ¬”º º¿ º’÷”º≥ (kfn.) _ ≤Xthtp nthybb r pdäplfv≥. µ42. Cjpyfnm _ egjnhtñkztncz d pyfxtybb jcjpyfnm. õº÷¬”∆º ö◊æ∆¿º (kfn.) _ Vfnthbz Kçwblf, ≤cdtnjyjcyfz vfnthbz≥. µ48 b lh. Vfybatcnfwbb _ ghjzdktybz. µ84. Ãjy (uhtx.) _ dtr, ãgjøf. µ95. Xeåljt cdtne _ pltcm d cvsckt cdtncrjve vbhe. µ133. Cbytlhbjy _ cjdtn cnfhtqiby d lhtdytq Beltt. µ147. Jnhtdftv (jnhedftv) _ jn jnhedfnm _ jnhbyenm, jndthufnm. µ174. Ãrcnthbjhbpfwbz _ gthtyjc, hfcghjcnhfytybt djdyt. µ199. Fãhjkbn _ vtntjhbn. µ215. Cfynfyf (cfycrh.) _ ≤gjnjr åbpyb≥. Vbajkjubxtcrbt, ñbñktqcrbt, bcnjhbxtcrbt bvtyf, gjyznbz djcnjxyjq abkjcjabb, yfexyst nthvbys, cnfhbyyst b htlrj egjnhtñkztvst dshfåtybz heccrjuj zpsrf yt nhtñjdfkb gjzcytybz lkz exfcnybrjd dscjrbø ñtctl. Vyjubt yfbvtyjdfybz gjlhjñytt hfcrhsdfçncz d ãnjq åt rybut, d lheubø rybufø Extybz Åbdjq Ãnbrb b d Gbcmvfø Vføfnv (≤Xfif Djcnjrf≥). 261


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