LUCYâ€™S Spring 2 01 8
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jade weber cover girl
by edward aninaru
photographer EDWARD ANINARU @edward_aninaru mua CASEY GORE @caseygore_makeup @artistsatwilhelminaofficial hair LAUREN NICOLE MCKEEVER @lomckee @artistsatwilhelminaofficial model JADE WEBER @jade_weber_official styling DIANE @dforstyling bts SEAN MATSUYAMA @sefmats
TAL ABUDI p.4 / EDWARD ANINARU p.12 ANTONIO CORDERO p.22 / CARMEN ROSE p.30 MAJA JANKOWSKA p.38 / RON DADON p.40 CHRISTINA KAPL p.48 / JORGE DUVA p.60 NATASCHA LINDEMANN p.72 / CHRISTINE LUTZ p.78 EDWARD ANINARU p.88 / BILLIE CHIASSON p.94 LIANA CARBONE p.100 / MO ATKIN p.106 LING WANG p.108 / SARAH WINBORN p.114 CELIA SUÁREZ p.122
Editor in Chief & Publisher Graphic Designer +1 323-609-7090 BACK COVER CREDITS photographer CARMEN ROSE www.carmenrose.com.au @carmenrosephotographer models LOTTIE @lottieaaa www.viviensmodels.com.au @viviensmodelmgmt stylist MONIQUE LONGO @styleco__ make up MAE TAYLOR @ RELOAD AGENCY using MAC COSMETICS @maetaylor_makeupartist www.maetaylor.com hair BARNEY GLEESON for SALON BABY HAIR using LESS IS MORE @salonbabyhair www.salonbabyhair.com
* GAVIN ATKIN Editor Assistant * SUMMER LEE Writing
follow us on Instagram @LUCYSMAGAZINE www.LucysMagazine.com
I would like to thank Edward for shooting our cover model Jade! My dream came true :)
For this issue I focused on a cleaner design look and I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. 2018 is about making our voices heard and not being scared anymore to achieve all the things we dream about achieving.
note from the editor
Have courage, it is now your time to stand up for the things you love and believe in!
We are now accepting editorials for our May Fashion Print Issue. Please check our website for mood boards and guidelines:
inve o L photography TAL ABUDI @tal_abudi hair & makeup DAN MICHAEL @danmichaelmakeup model ELENA MATEI @ ELITE NYC @elena___matei @elitenyc
Glistening gold geometric shapes contrast with the softness of Elenaâ€™s feminine features. Her bushy brows and plump pout are inviting. Her blue eyes hold us in their stare. caption by SUMMER LEE @summerannelee
Friends photographer EDWARD ANINARU @edward_aninaru assistants MO SUMMERS @mosummersphoto & ZACK BLUM @zackblumphoto models JAYDEN @jaydenrobison; HAZEL @hazelcrew; KASIMIRA @kazaronie from NEXT LA @nextmodelsla / VAS @vasnova; GILES @gilesmcleod from LA MODELS @lamodels mua MELISSA MURPHY @hmubymelbe hair ESTHER @vtgesther styling DIANE @dforstyling showroom @redlightpr cool bus RAZVAN SABAU HAZEL is wearing a @champion t-shirt and @levis jeans KASIMIRA is wearing a denim @current_air shirt with a pair of @americaneagle denim shorts VAS is wearing a @zara denim jacket with a pair of @pepejeans GILES is wearing a @zara top with a pair of @pepejeans JAYDEN is wearing a @current_air denim playsuit a @zara belt and accessories all from @dogearedjewelry
JAYDEN is wearing an urban outfitters hat, a pink forever 21 crop top and a pair of washed blue bershka denim jeans VAS is wearing a @rockstardenimusa top; a pair of @pepejeans washed blue jeans assorted with a pair of @timberland boots opposite page KASIMIRA is wearing a @freepeople dress with a @topshop denim jacket and a pair of bladelli boots
KASIMIRA is wearing a @freepeople dress with a @topshop denim jacket and a pair of bladelli boots VAS is wearing a @rockstardenimusa top; a pair of @pepejeans washed blue jeans assorted with a pair of @timberland boots JAYDEN is wearing an urban outfitters hat, a pink forever 21 crop top and a pair of washed blue bershka denim jeans HAZEL is wearing a @current_air flannel shirt matched with a pair of ripped shorts from @americaneagle and @converse in black GILES is wearing a valor collective flannel shirt with a pair of @pepejeans denim and @converse in black
HAZEL is wearing a @current_air flannel shirt matched with a pair of ripped shorts from @americaneagle and @converse in black GILES is wearing a valor collective flannel shirt with a pair of @pepejeans denim and @converse in black
photographer ANTONIO CORDERO @antoniocorderofotografo stylist TANIA FERNANDEZ @tania.fdz makeup and hair MOIFREIRE @moi_freire_ model CARMEN ALMANZA @mc.almanza AGENCY MADMODELS @madmodelsmgmt photography assistant TONISORVENT @tonisorvent designer LUCILLE @lucillecreations
child photographer CARMEN ROSE www.carmenrose.com.au @carmenrosephotographer models LOTTIE @lottieaaa www.viviensmodels.com.au @viviensmodelmgmt stylist MONIQUE LONGO @styleco__ make up MAE TAYLOR @ RELOAD AGENCY using MAC COSMETICS @maetaylor_makeupartist www.maetaylor.com hair BARNEY GLEESON for SALON BABY HAIR using LESS IS MORE @salonbabyhair www.salonbabyhair.com
dress ASILIO earrings IVY & CO. AUSTRALIA bracelets IVY & CO. AUSTRALIA opposite page top INTERVAL skirt INTERVAL earrings IVY & CO. AUSTRALIA
RAMONA: What does the GOLDEN CHILD is about? CARMEN: The name is taken from an old movie I watched growing up, The Golden Child (1986) with Eddie Murphy. The styles in the shoot are partly inspired by that 80s era and in the shoot we mix some of those styles with today’s fashion using unconventional elements to make the pieces a bit more editorial. RAMONA: How did you pick your model for this concept, were you looking for someone with a specific look? CARMEN: Yes! Lottie had everything we were looking for in a model and was a dream boat to work with; very professional, and made the shoot a smooth process. It always makes the shoot more enjoyable when the model is easy to work with. Lottie is beautiful person inside and out, and makes for a perfect model.3 RAMONA: Beautiful clothes and styling! Tell us about the process of picking out outfits and deciding what kind of makeup/hair to do. CARMEN: This shoot had a very organic process. As we shoot we decide what will work best for each look; some of the hair styles changed on the day to suit the clothing. For me, this is the best way to work as you really get the best out of what you are shooting, instead of making it what you want; it becomes something the team creates together.
middle image dress MOSSMAN earrings IVY & CO AUSTRALIA right image suit INTERVAL top LOVER earrings IVY & CO AUSTRALIA shoes JEFFERY CAMPBELL / AMO STORE
top interval pant INTERVAL earrings IVY & CO AUSTRALIA opposite page top AJE pants INTERVAL earrings IVY & CO AUSTRALIA
RAMONA: Do you retouch your own images? I love the clean look, can you share any tips? CARMEN: Yes, I do all my own retouching, its hard for me to think about someone else finishing off my own work. Time management is my big tip, make sure you give your self the time to really work on the style and feeling you are trying to achieve with each image. RAMONA: What makes a good model? CARMEN: Confidence, great models have confidence in the way they move & of course a great attitude always helps! RAMONA: Are you a full time photographer? CARMEN: Yes I am! I have been shooting for 13 years and I love every minute of it.
left image top INTERVAL skirt INTERVAL necklaces IVY & CO AUSTRALIA & RELIQUIA middle image dress AJE earrings IVY & CO AUSTRALIA right image suit INTERVAL top LOVER earrings IVY & CO AUSTRALIA
RAMONA: I love those golden leaves, did your team paint them? CARMEN: The idea popped into my head late one night, so I had a look on the web and initially I couldn’t find anything that matched with what I was thinking. One of the best parts of my job is getting to explore my ideas so I found the leaves and foliage from plants around our place and I spray painted them gold for a better finish. I spent about 20 mins looking at different golds until I made my mind up, lol. When we started shooting the first look we all couldn’t believe how well it worked, very happy with the end result! RAMONA: Anything else you want to share from the shoot that people would like to know? CARMEN: Half way through the shoot, the team and I lost our minds a little. After we watched a very silly cat video, we ended up laughing to the point of crying. Having a team that you can share a laugh with makes shooting so much fun, especially when you can get such beautiful work and have a great time shooting it as well.
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RECLAIMING OUR STREETS written by MAJA JANKOWSKA @jankowska.photo
Walking to the bus stop at 10pm on a Saturday night. Earphones in, but music isn’t playing, just in case I won’t be able to hear someone creeping up behind me. Turning
my head every five minutes and speeding up as soon as
I sense a silhouette coming up behind, just in case. The constant fear continues as I arrive at the bus stop, exactly
two minutes before my bus is due. I don’t want to wait there
longer than necessary. It’s not lit very well and all the shops are already closed. I sit down and hold a phone in my hand, with my recent call page up so I can call someone quickly, just in case.
This is my journey to the bus stop, every weekend to work.
Exactly the same, it’s a routine I have developed to keep myself safe on the streets at night.
I thought this routine was perfect, but a man put it to test a
couple of weeks ago. It was my first day back at work after two months off due to ill mental health, so as an extra pick
me up I wore my “Bitches Unite” t-shirt. I was feeling extra powerful.
As I stood at the bus stop a man from across the street
started shouting at me. I thought he was harmless because he looked pretty drunk, so I just ignored it and pretended I couldn’t hear him, you know, my earphones trick!
“Don’t pretend you can’t hear me! I know you want some of that” I wish I hadn’t turned my head at that point. I still regret
it. There he was, with his trousers down, still shouting at me. Yes, it’s exactly what you’re thinking; the man across the street, previously deemed harmless was a flasher.
I was terrified and now sure of his intentions. I tried calling
my boyfriend a hundred times but the signal was terrible and I didn’t get through.
My routine was failing.
I started to panic, thinking of another plan of action. Should I
ick of to look me ery step run away like I had done the last time a man followed me, or look for a police officer as I had before – I’ve been followed around more than once. Or, it occurred to me, maybe I
should just ignore him and pretend I couldn’t see him. I’m used to ignoring men who shout at me but this was a little more scary than usual. I even considered shouting at the guy – I did that once before when a passing man spanked
my butt as he passed me with a group of friends. They found it very amusing that their friend had touched me – I didn’t.
In this whole situation I almost didn’t notice the bus arriving. Shaken up, I thanked the bus driver for arriving on time. He just looked at me funny, obviously he didn’t have a clue that
he had saved me from whatever this man was about to do next.
This is not an isolated event. This is happening now, to
women around the world. Going back from work, to work, from a party, shopping trip, late lecture. All the time. It’s not
the first and not the last time it’s going to happen to me, but we can unite and work against it together.
I continue to walk to the bus stop every weekend, following the same routine. I walk to a taxi rank five minutes away from work when I come home much later and spend £8 on a taxi
home to avoid potentially getting raped. I live in a constant fear of someone taking advantage of me just because I am female.
I am writing about it because I’m sick of having to look behind me with every step I take at night, I’m sick of being
casually, sexually assaulted in the streets. I am fed up of having to pay for taxis because it is not safe for me to walk
home from work. We need to unite against it and speak up! There is no place in the modern world for this oppression
and if we speak about it now, optimistically, maybe things will change and our daughters will be safe to walk the streets of our cities at night.
LUCY’S 40 makeup artist LILLY POLLAN @lillypollanmakeup stylist CASIE WENDEL @casiewndl models JULIANA NALU @naluando @ ELITE MODELS LA LILIAN UWANYUZE @lili_ann JORDYN FLYNN @thejordyjo @ DT MANAGEMENT photographer RON DADON @ronathann green coat KUT from THE KLOTH pink dress ELIZABETH K @glsapparel
WE’VE AWOKEN IN A LAND OF NOSTALGIC HAZE. VINTAGE FASHION IS MIXED WITH NEW, TO CREATE ENSEMBLES WITH A TIMELESS QUALITY. UPLIFTING COLORS MATCH THE BRIGHT FLOWERS, WHICH ARE IN FULL BLOOM.
bloom caption by SUMMER LEE @summerannelee
LUCYâ€™S 43 left image yellow ruffle top VINTAGE white ruffle top ALPHA OMEGA black overalls ALPHA OMEGA yellow dress ELIZABETH K @glsapparel choker necklaces THE2BANDITS middle image white ruffle top ALPHA OMEGA black overalls ALPHA OMEGA right image white ruffle top ALPHA OMEGA black overalls ALPHA OMEGA earrings URBAN OUTFITTERS turtleneck VINTAGE vest IIJIN
auburn ruffle top SHOP RESURRECTION brown dress VINTAGE earrings YUN YUN SUN
LUCY’S 47 left image (left-to-right) off the shoulder dress YORI COLLECTION white booties URBAN OUTFITTERS choker VINTAGE pink dress ELIZABETH K @glsapparel floral satin pink dress VINTAGE yellow scarf VINTAGE middle image eyes KAT VON D, MAC, URBAN DECAY eyeshadows face GRAPHTOBIAN HD foundation NARS liquid blush in “orgasm” lips MARC JACOBS nude
photography CHRISTINA KAPL @christina_kapl_photography styling TRANG CAO @ FAME AGENCY @trangcaostyling hair & makeup MELANIE FILBERT @ FAME AGENCY @melanie_sharmin model NADINE STOCKENHOFEN @ M4 MODELS @nadinestockenhofen sweater MARC O’POLO sunglasses ITALIA INDEPENDENT watch ICE WATCH
bra FALKE skirt ASILIO jacket DIADORA shoes LACOSTE socks KUNERT opposite page sweater RICH&ROYAL culotte ANONYME watch ICE WATCH
bra FALKE skirt ASILIO jacket DIADORA shoes LACOSTE socks KUNERT opposite page shirt LACOSTE pants STEFANEL cap &OTHER STORIES watch ICE WATCH
dress MARC O’POLO jacket KARL LAGERFELD socks ESPRIT sneakers LIU JO opposite page cap SOUTH BEACH sweater S.OLIVER
shirt STEFFEN SCHRAUT skirt STEFANEL shoes KARL LAGERFELD backpack LIU JO opposite page shirt LACOSTE pants 5PREVIEW
shirt LACOSTE pants STEFANEL cap &OTHER STORIES watch ICE WATCH opposite page blouse STEFFEN SCHRAUT skirt RICH&ROYAL belt MARC CAIN sneakers REEBOK
dress DIEGO DOMINGUEZ belt DIEGO DOMINGUEZ stocking HUE boots JEFFREY CAMPBELL googles ARENA rings BAR JEWELLERY opposite page dress JAMES113 stocking HUE boots JEFFREY CAMPBELL gloves BORSALINO rings BAR JEWELLERY
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photographer JORGE DUVA @jorgeduva model KIERSTEN DOLBEC @suddenlypuppies agency THE SYNDICAL @thesyndical stylist FRANCESCA LOPRESTI @francesca_lopresti_ makeup & hair MADELINE ROUGE @madelinerouge stylist assistant TUTI BRUZUAL @tutibruzual
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RAMONA: Tell us more about your photography style! NATASCHA: I am a young photographer from Berlin, Germany. I started shooting Editorial Photography about a year and a half ago. Photography is a great balance for me since I get to express my creativity. I love clean und natural as well as creative editorial make-up looks. That’s why my portfolio is a mix of creative beauty editorials and clean pictures. RAMONA: Where do you see yourself in 5 years? NATASCHA: My biggest goal in photography is getting published in VOGUE ... I hope that I can do it within the next 5 years.
RAMONA: What a fun and clean editorial! How did you get the idea for it and what inspired you? NATASCHA: It has always been my goal to get published in Lucy’s magazine and so I started to work on a submission. I looked at what your next theme is and I planned this concept with that theme in mind! RAMONA: The model is perfect for this idea, she has such a beautiful smile! How do you pick your models? NATASCHA: For my editorial shootings I only work with agency models. I discovered Nehle at Kea models and immediately knew that she fits perfectly into my shooting concept and that I would like to work with her. And...It was the right choice! She is naturally so beautiful and she’s also a very happy person so it was easy to make this shoot happen.
RAMONA: Tell us three fun facts about this editorial: NATASCHA: 1. We still find glitter particles in the studio today! 2. The studio was about 15 square meters. We mastered hair, make-up, photo set and catering on this area. I’m proud of you girls! 3. It was the longest shooting day I’ve ever had. We produced 3 editorials on that day and worked a total of about 12 hours. The last picture was taken at 11:00 pm in the evening.
RAMONA: Do you have a favorite editorial that you created? NATASCHA: First, I have to say that I love all of my editorials. But an absolute favorite is the ‘‘Water’’ editorial with Nicola and Stella. We shot it with a small pool in the studio. It is one of my first photoshoots! It was a challenge to work with the water and the reflections, but that’s the magic of this editorial. I am very proud of the results and we were a great team.
caption by SUMMER LEE @summerannelee
the prom photo CHRISTINE LUTZ @christine_lutz_ styling ANNA VERLOREN VAN THEMAAT c/o ONE LEAGUE @annaverlorenvanthemaat make-up AENNIKIN @aennikin model LISA P c/o FANJAM @lza.phlndr body DEBORAH PEARSON skirt PASKAL dress HALLHUBER socks TREAD AND MILLER slides JEFFREY CAMPBELL black beaded earrings STELLA & DOT
THE COLORS ARE BRIGHTER HERE, JUST AS THE AIR IS WARMER. LISA SETS OUT FOR HER DAY WITH A PLAN TO FOLLOW THE WIND. SHE WONDERS WHERE IT WILL TAKE HER.
menade www.christine-lutz.com www.oneleague.co.za/talent/anna-verloren-van-themaat www.aennikin.de www.fanjam.co.za/fresh-faces-girls/1246759/lisa-p
LUCYâ€™S 80 dress H&M pineapple earrings ELSA OSTARIGHT opposite page jacket BOSMAN SPORTSWEAR shirts ASOS pants AMERICAN APPAREL slides TAMARIS cream beaded tassel earrings STELLA & DOT
LUCYâ€™S 82 dress H&M stockings H&M shoes DR MARTINS pineapple earrings ELSA OSTA
LUCYâ€™S 84 left image dress H&M belt bag VONZETTI socks THAT SHOE LADY shoes FREE 2 B U red beaded earrings STELLA & DOT right images jumpsuit ASOS parka ONLY slides THE FIX earrings LOVISA
knit CRIMPLENE shoes MANGO trousers stylists own shoes MANGO turquoise beaded earrings STELLA & DOT
Jade photographer EDWARD ANINARU @edward_aninaru mua CASEY GORE @caseygore_makeup @artistsatwilhelminaofficial hair LAUREN NICOLE MCKEEVER @lomckee @artistsatwilhelminaofficial model JADE WEBER @jade_weber_official styling DIANE @dforstyling bts SEAN MATSUYAMA @sefmats
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photographer BILLIE CHIASSON @billiechiasson www.billiechiassonphotography.com using LED GO from VISTEK @vistek h&m ANNA NENOIU @annanenoiu from P1M.CA @p1m_toronto using MAKEUP FOR EVER @MAKEUPFOREVERCA and ORIBE @oribe model ARDEN @arden_s @ ANITA NORRIS MODELS @anitanorrismodels
City make girls,it rain
The rain won’t stop these women from navigating the city, and having fun while at it. Strong, determined female portraits, the slick
shimmer of wet pavement and sequins reflecting inside taxi cabs ; this is the magic of a tribe of NY friends making their dreams come true.
This story was shot in February of this year, during NYFW, while I (Liana) was in town. I met the ladies on the team last year while enrolled in Mastered, an online global fashion accelerator program. United by our passion for visual storytelling with strong female narratives, this story strives to capture the spirit of kinship, style, determination and energy of companions on the journey to becoming together in the city that never sleeps. I feel compelled to tell the story of the women I have the privilege to dream and create with. The story is actually about us, dreaming, working hard and having fun while doing it. Jennifer (stylist), Ashley (MUA) and Li (hair) are all based in NY. We joked during the shoot that it won’t be too long until I take the leap and join them.. The models Liv, Jonelle and Astrid, all with Red Models NY, are true New Yorkers. They were troopers shooting on a fairly cold day with open toe shoes and skin exposed. There is an undeniable magnetic and amplifying energy to New York. To add to that, I like to shoot women from a lower angle so the perspective can reveal a sense of emergence and greatness. Astrid exits the taxi cab with a dramatic stand on the ledge, Jonelle crosses her arms while cars zoom on by and Liv stops traffic on the bold graphic crosswalk. Despite the rain, we had a great time working together however the happiest collaborator of the day had to be the taxi driver who got to pull his car over and run his meter while us girls danced and shot in and around his car. When you’re a city girl, you make it rain!
photo LIANA CARBONE @lianacarbonephoto stylist JENNIFER ROSADO @jennrosadostylist hair LI MURILLO @lilovesyou mua ASHLEY VICTORIA @iamashleyvictoria models ASTRID DURAN at RED MODELS NY @astridprz @red_models JONELLE ALERT at RED MODELS NY @jonellethealert @red_models LIV MIRAGLIA at RED MODELS NY @livmiraglia @red_models
left page top images ASTRID @astridprz @red_models top ALEXANDER WANG @alexanderwangny pants JACQUELINE THEN @jacquelinethenworld shoes ZARA @zara bottom image ASTRID @astridprz @red_models shoes ZARA @zara top VINTAGE skirt JACQUELINE THEN @jacquelinethenworld JONELLE @jonellethealert @red_models top stylist own @jennrosadostylist shorts SAKU @saku_newyork shoes ZARA @zara LIV @livmiraglia @red_models dress H&M @hm skirt BYRON LARS @byronlarsbm shoes ZARA @zara right page ASTRID @astridprz @red_models shoes ZARA @zara top VINTAGE skirt JACQUELINE THEN @jacquelinethenworld
left image ASTRID @astridprz @red_models shoes ZARA @zara top VINTAGE skirt JACQUELINE THEN @jacquelinethenworld black & white image JONELLE @jonellethealert @red_models jacket stylist own @jennrosadostylist pants ZARA @zara shoes ZARA black coat ALL SAINTS @allsaints pin CHANEL @chanelofficial LIV @livmiraglia @redmodels jacket stylist own bodysuit STELLA MCCARTNEY @stellamccartney skirt LIANA CAMBA @ liana_camba boots RIVER ISLAND @ riverisland bottom image ASTRID @astridprz @ red_models shoes ZARA @zara top VINTAGE skirt JACQUELINE THEN @jacquelinethenworld JONELLE top stylist own @ jennrosadostylist shorts SAKU @saku_ newyork shoes ZARA @zara
INTENSITY JUNKY Shooting Up in the Morning - 2/2/17 Hi, my name is Mo, and I am an intensity addict. It’s been thirty minutes since my last hit. Hello, Mo. I was born into an intensity cult, married a fellow cult member and we practiced intensity together for 36 years. I’m not sure if I’ve had more than a day or two of sobriety since my divorce was finalized six months ago. (Knowing nods from the others)
I say, “Sure,” and keep walking because I don’t want to talk to him, or more accurately, I don’t want to hear him repeat another one of his stories, about how he was given a couple of t-shirts once by the king of the world or something. Then I realize what I am holding is a pair of white lacy thong underwear, like I used to buy for my wife. I don’t know where they came from and now I’m feeling guilty for lying to my dad, and am wondering where I can stash the underwear. My dad says, “They look like very small t-shirts, there isn’t a lot of fabric there.” Gah! Anyway, I wake up feeling kind of exhausted. I’m determined to be sober today.
I drank a couple of glasses of wine last night, you know, to take the edge off, and, well, by the time it had worn off and I sent myself to bed I was really itching for some sort of intense connection.
I walk downstairs, feed the dog, start my coffee, walk the dog around the cabin, and come back into the kitchen, add cream to my coffee, and immediately open my iPad—telling myself I’m only checking for messages…
There was only the dog…,
(Uh oh, expressions and groans)
(Laughs, because they know how intense doing crazy shit can be)
Haha, I know, I know… And there are a couple of responses to messages, which is nice, but then I open the email from the Washington Post with the links to the day’s batch of opinion pieces about what a crazy human our president is. Well, I think he is crazy, so I click on the first link, and impatiently wait for the article to load. I read it and, yup, He’s definitely crazy, and I’m intensely outraged and scared. I don’t outwardly show these things, but I feel them, and the chemical rush of fear and anger…
So… I put the dog in his crate. (More laughs) I brushed my teeth, changed into my night clothes, and climbed under my heated blanket. It was soothing and comforting… on the outside. Inside I was aching. I focused on my breathing, you know, practicing my sobriety, and eventually fell into… an agitated, night of intense dreams! (More knowing laughs) At one point I was surrounded by all these women at some sort of convention who were in various stages of undress. Most were stunningly beautiful and painfully indifferent to me. It’s feeling like too much so I’m trying to leave and then there is my dad asking, “What are you carrying, a couple of t-shirts?” Cuz, that’s how he asks questions… always supplying the answer, as well.
…wash away nuance and beauty. Ahh, the intensity, right? I don’t want to ramble on, you know how it is… Sometimes the need feels too big and I just want to belong, to hang out with my friends, shoot up together, just be normal… a normal American, you know? Anyway, Thanks for listening. (Deep breath) Now I’m… (checks watch) …30 seconds sober.
The American has no time to tie himself to anything, he grows accustomed only to change, and ends by regarding it as the natural state of man. He feels the need of it, more, he loves it; for the instability, instead of meaning disaster to him, seems to give birth only to miracles all about him. â€”Alexis de Tocqueville, 1831
image & writing by MO ATKIN @molivingtodo www.molivingtodo.com
pastel dreams photography LING WANG @lingwangphoto hair and makeup ANNA KALITA @kalitamakeup model GABRIELLA PAWELEK @gabriellapawelek retoucher LUCA SZALMAS @lucaszalmas
Gabriella dreams of beautiful flowers, each arrangement lovelier than the last. They adorn her platinum hair and angelic face. Wherever she goes, a garden follows. caption by SUMMER LEE @summerannelee
photographer SARAH WINBORN @ S MANAGEMENT www.sarahwinbornphotography.com @sarahwinbornphotography art direction FLEUR HARDING www.fleurharding.co.uk @fleur.art.director styling SOPHIE KENNINGHAM @ FRANKAGENCY.CO.UK @miss_sophiekstylist assistant KATE SINCLAIR hair & makeup CLAIRE PORTMAN using BOBBI BROWN and PAUL MITCHELL www.claireportman.com @claire_portmanmodel LILY TOMLINSON @ TESS MANAGEMENT www.tessmanagement.com/portfolio/talent/women/1283103/lily-tomlinson tiger sequin cami jumpsuit available to order from www.lesleydefreitas.com / earrings www.susancaplan.co.uk glasses LINDA FARRROW / fur www.zeynepkartal.co.uk
yellow long haired jacket KRASIMIRA STOYANEVA silk bra and pants ARAKS sunglasses LINDA FARROW earrings www.susancaplan.co.uk opposite page tulle embellished dress www.zeynepkartal.co.uk vintage GIVENCHY earrings www.susancaplan.co.uk ring PYRUS red silk bra and pants ARAKS
collaged sequin wide leg jumpsuit available to order from www.lesleydefreitas.com earrings www.susancaplan.co.uk velvet belt and bag TARA JARMON shoes CAMILLA ELPHICK opposite page white net pearl embellished and silver sequin dress ALISTAIR JAMES red suit jacket BROGGER vintage GIVENCHY earrings www.susancaplan.co.uk vintage gold necklace www.susancaplan.co.uk
gold silk brocade cocktail dress www.lesleydefreitas.com vintage gold necklace www.susancaplan.co.uk opposite page silver trench JULIA DAVIDIAN scarf RIXO earrings www.susancaplan.co.uk
Textures photographer CELIA SUÁREZ @celiasuarez www.celiasuarez.com stylist SYLVIA BONET @sylvia_bonet www.sylviabonet.gallery assistant stylist ALEXANDRA PIOTRASZEWSKI @conceptuale_alepibl makeup & hair CLAUDIA DE ANTA @claudia_de_anta models NATASHA @natashakurdiukova @ FRANCINA MODELS @francinamodels DASHA @daraganova @ TREND MODELS @trendmodelsmgmt bracelets GALERÍA LA BASÍLICA
earrings JULIETA ALVAREZ
shoulder pad YARA DÍAZ
earring ANGELA CIOBANU
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