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VOLUME THREE

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VOLUME THREE

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TEAM KELLY SEARLE EDITOR IN CHIEF PAUL SEARLE VIDEO AND EDITORIAL PRODUCER BRITTNEY NAJAR PHOTOGRAPHER KATY STEELE WRITER & MAKEUP ARTIST SARAH SVETLANA WRITER & MODEL KRISTINE CLAGHORN MODEL SARAH BUCKLEY ARTIST JESSLABELLE AVELAR MILLINER & MAKEUP ARTIST ALEXANDRIA BASSO MODEL SAMANTHA RAE SERGEANT MODEL CLEONE LINFORD WRITER AMANDA BJØRN PHOTOGRAPHER BECCA GRIFFIN PHOTOGRAPHER & STYLIST MAXIMOV DIMA PHOTOGRAPHER

CAITLIN BURT HAIRSTYLIST JACLYN TUCHMAN MODEL PYPER WYN DAVIES STYLIST & ACCESSORIES DESIGNER CAITLIN ACKERMAN MAKEUP ARTIST ELISE FLEMING MODEL KIANA REEVES MODEL J’AIME GIANOPOLOUS MODEL PIPPA SOWERS MODEL BARBARA BLACK MODEL LAUREN BARTH MODEL TAIANA GIEFER MODEL EDOUARD TUTTINI MODEL

WELCOME Welcome to the Adversity Issue...all about overcoming challenges and facing scary situations. This issue delves into the crazy and unpredictable journey of being a creative person and a human in general. You’ll find stories from artists, survivors, 22-year-olds to 91-year-olds, editorials and interviews from locations as diverse as Russia and Los Angeles. You’ll meet many true individuals.

To me, there’s a real connection between overcoming adversity and autumn. There’s something so elegiac about this time of year: the fresh starts, the smells, sounds, and wrapping yourself in bundles. And that name, fall. I love that our contributors discuss just that in this issue: falling down and figuring out how to move on and start anew. Adversity transforms people, changes us in ways we never thought possible. It’s

up to us whether that change is positive or negative. In a moment of crisis, you learn how strong you are, what you’re made of and who really is there to support you. And, you’re never the same. That’s kind of great. It’s all about fresh starts.

The editorials in this issue will not feature frivolous phony smiles, but strong women and men with a very independent, very commanding presence and perspective.

There’s a warrior-like quality to a lot of the editorials and a thread of strength and perseverance throughout the issue. We’ve broken up this volume into three parts to highlight themes from facets of both adversity and autumn: transformation, discovery and forging ahead. Enjoy!

Kelly Searle, Editor in Chief

VOLUME THREE Leaves crackling, fires roaring, backpacks bouncing, breath freezing. This is a time of change, transfiguration. The world transforming in the blink of a COLD SNAP. We forget ourselves, or remember. We begin again. Come on, let’s START ANEW.

let’s begin.

part one.

TRANSFORMATION

DARK ILLUSION PHOTOGRAPHY KELLY SEARLE MILLINERY, MAKEUP, HAIR & STYLING JESSLABELLE AVELAR MODELING ALEXANDRIA BASSO

HEADPIECE JESSLABELLE AVELAR TUNIC VINTAGE PANTS VINTAGE

HEADPIECE JESSLABELLE AVELAR DRESS VINTAGE

HEADPIECE & FACE/BODY CHAIN JESSLABELLE AVELAR DRESS VINTAGE

AUTUMN RUSH PHOTOGRAHY & STYLING BECCA GRIFFIN MODEL JACLYN TUCHMAN HAIR CAITLIN BURT MAKEUP KELLY SEARLE

IN TRANSIT PHOTOGRAPHY KELLY SEARLE MODELING & STYLING KRISTINE CLAGHORN

DRESS HOWL NECKLACE KATE MISS

JUMPSUIT NEED SUPPLY CO NECKLACE KATE MISS

TANK MADEWELL PANTS ANTHROPOLOGIE

SARAH BUCKLEY Always looking back, forward, and inward for inspiration, the artist and musician gives us a studio tour and tells us about her struggles and lessons learned along her journey.

INTERVIEW KELLY SEARLE

_______________ What do you do for a living?

I make large-scale drawings. It’s my full-time job, and I just come here every day at 9 or 10 and work into the night. Ever since I decided to go larger, it’s an interesting flow...there’s always something to do.

When did you start taking an interest in art?

I was more interested in poetry and writing growing up. Always interested in music. I always drew, but I never really thought anything of it until one point, I realized I was doing it a lot. It started in middle school, where instead of taking notes, I would try to write but the words would always turn into drawings.

Soon characters and a style started developing before me, and then in 2010 I went to Barcelona playing throughout Europe with my band at the time After Owl, recording an album. I met some people who ran a gallery, and they showed me how they were as people...they were everything they wanted to be. I thought I just wanted to be a songwriter, and then this happened, and I realized in a broader sense I’m just a creative person, an artist in general, and don’t need a label or limits. Once I wasn’t afraid to attach to the identity and word ‘artist’, that’s when I really started digging into drawing. I’m really attached to the hands, the face, the female figure. Lots of repetition.

Because I don’t do any planning or use any pencils, my thoughts as they come to me are inspiring my hand to move. When I sit down to draw, I don’t know what’s going to happen. It’s been interesting for commissions, because I have to tell them up front that I’m not an observational artist. Everything in my life that ever happens to me technically becomes an inspiration because it’s kind of whatever bubbles up to the surface in

the moment. My greatest inspiration is now, nowness.

If you had to name one or two turning points in your life, what would they be? Any obstacles that influenced the path of your life or art?

When I went to Barcelona, I kind of consider that my artistic awakening. As soon as I got home, I was just lit on fire. I was making constantly. I got a studio, I worked hard. I explored my drawing. I thought, if I go to art school, maybe I’ll be able to figure out what my style is and who I am. I applied to only one school.

It was in Barcelona, a really experimental school. I got accepted. I was on tour at the time, and on the first day of the tour, I got my acceptance email. I was determined that when I got back from that 6 week leg, I would find student aid somehow. And I got back, and I found out that because it was so experimental, it wasn’t accredited. I wasn’t going to be able to afford to go. The first thing I felt was, ‘Oh no, how am I going to be an artist if no one teaches me?’ And immediately after that I said to myself, well, I’m not going to stop.

It actually made me work a lot harder. I’m just so glad I didn’t go. I knew that it was going to have to come from within me. I took it as a sign that it wasn’t time for me to be interfered with artistically. Very immmediately, it excited me and I just went deeper into what I was doing.

Quitting a day job was a big moment of adversity for me. There just needed to be a break, I couldn’t balance it anymore. I woke up and felt like I needed to go 100% to my right brain. And I did. These giant babies were born. I spend all day, every day making. I love it.

part two.

DISCOVERY

POWERHOUSE

PHOTOS KELLY SEARLE WORDS, STYLING, & MODELING SARAH SVETLANA

“If fashion is the body, style is the soul.”

“My style has evolved with me throughout my whole life. How you wear it is much more important than what you wear.�

“Unfortunately, in reality, a first impression is really all you get. People will judge you by what you are wearing and if you don’t look confident, it’s hard to be taken seriously in life. That’s why I encourage you to find your own style. Think about who you are and what makes you happy. Don’t just follow trends.”

THESE STREETS

Photographer Brittney Najar hits the streets of Los Angeles, New York, and Vegas to give us a little slice of life.

I met these two on the bus. Damian was taking his younger brother to the beach for the day.

During the 40 minute bus ride his younger brother fell asleep grasping his box of Legos.

James. He’s been using the same register for the past 50+ years. He claims the new ones break down every two years.

Twins. Met york trip.

They saved to move to

these sisters during my last new They were originally from Florida. up a chunk of change and decided the big apple with their pup.

Jerimiah is his government name.

He was a chef in Italy. He cooked with Obama.Spirit Healer.

He was certain I was a vampire queen.

Jerimiah is his government name. He was a chef in Italy. Claims he cooked with Obama.

Spirit Healer.

He was certain I was a vampire queen.

ABOUT THE ARTIST Brittney Najar is 22. She grew up in the San Fernando Valley and now lives in Los Angeles.

Photographing and talking to strangers has reinforced her belief in not judging a book by its cover. Her favorite things, among others, are cheeseburgers, law & order marathons, and adventure.

FADING FLOWERS, FADING LIGHT PHOTOGRAPHY, HAIR, MAKEUP & STYLING KELLY SEARLE MODELING SAMANTHA RAE SERGEANT

CLEONE LINFORD

Turning 92 this September, the mom, grandmother and woman extroidinaire lets us have a glimpse into her world.

INTERVIEW KELLY SEARLE

_______________ Can you tell us a little about your teenage years?

My teenage years were great with lots and lots of friends. Friends seem like they were different than they are now. They were more like family, and truly dedicated and thoughtful of each other. Living in the country was different than in the city. Everyone in your age bracket was a friend. I was not outgoing, nor was I shy. Just one of the gang. I had a wonderful family, three sisters and two brothers, and a wonderful mom and dad. It was a great time to live, not so many things to worry about as there are today.

Have you made many mistakes in your life that lead to something better or unexpected?

Yes, I have made plenty of mistakes. But, I tried to learn from them and make better choices.

A lot of people are in search of their own philosophy on life. Do you have a philosophy on life or advice you would give from your experiences?

My philosophy in life is to be honest and appreciate what I have. Live a clean life, work hard, and save something for the future.

If you had to pick a few defining moments of your life so far, what would they be?

When I finished high school and moved with a friend to the city, it taught me responsibility, the value of money, and that I had to work hard for what I got. I also learned to balance and use a budget, how to appreciate good friends and relations who were so good to me. Other defin-

ing moments are trips I took with my sisters, where I got to enjoy and make a strong bond with them.

What is most important to you in life?

The most important thing in my life is my family.

What has surprised you about parenting? What has been your favorite decade so far?

The most surprising thing about parenting is that none of my children are alike. My growing up decade is by far the best.

What has it been like to see women progress and have more rights over time?

I’m partial to women and I’m glad that they are becoming more worldy, and are having equal status.

Any words of wisdom?

I’m a poor person to be dishing out wisdom. All I can say is live a clean, full life, be honest, and choose good friends. Love family, be brave. It’s a wild old world.

Cleone in the 1940’s.

part three.

FORGING

IN THIS SKIN PHOTOGRAPHY & STYLING MAXIMOV DIMA MODEL EDOUARD TUTTINI

THE C-WORD Makeup artist, wife, and friend Katy Steele shares her journey through her cancer diagnosis and chemo therapy with us. Honest and unvarnished, she shows her life on Instagram, helping people on a daily basis to feel less alone.

WORDS & PHOTOS KATY STEELE

_______________ “We’ve decided you’re just really toxic.”

How could I be toxic? I eat healthier than 90% of my friends, I exercise, I take my vitamins, I even juice! It didn’t take me much longer to go looking for a second opinion. There I learned that my C-reactive proteins were elevated, a marker for inflammation. So I tightened up my diet even more. This helped some, but slowly the symptoms were getting worse. My biggest symptom was terrible, near debilitating itchiness. My whole body was covered in little knicks from my finger nails. Every morning I woke up to find more blood on the sheets from me itching in my sleep. Benadryl didn’t help, switching detergents didn’t help, nothing helped. Next, my sleep went out the window. I started having night sweats and day sweats, and was only getting a few good hours of sleep a night. Soon I developed an eczema-like rash all over. I was starting to think I would never get better, never know what was wrong.

Let me sidestep and say that I have a really amazing husband. Seriously, there is no one I would have rather gone through any of this with. He has been there for me, carrying me through this, the whole time. With that being said, I still felt really alone in this stage. With no doctor being able to tell me what was wrong, and no one to really understand what my body

was feeling, I was left with a lot of self-doubt. I worried it was all in my head, and no one could convince me it wasn’t. I felt like a total hypochondriac with all these symptoms that didn’t add up to anything.

Finally, in the late months of 2013 (about a year and a half of being symptomatic at this point), I noticed some swollen lymph nodes in my underarms. I didn’t think much of them until they didn’t go away, and continued to grow in size. In February of this year I noticed another swollen lymph node in my collarbone. It wasn’t noticeable unless I moved my head in a certain way, but when I did it looked like I had a large gumball sitting in my clavicle.

Things started moving fairly quickly at that point. I had my biopsy surgery and scans and soon I had my results. Stage 2 Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. “Without treatment, patients usually have a lifespan of 10 months to a year.” I didn’t feel good, but I didn’t feel like I was dying. I didn’t feel surprised that it was cancer, but those words made me take the situation more seriously. On the one hand, I was so relieved that I wasn’t going crazy! I hadn’t been making up all these symptoms! On the other, I knew we had a rough road ahead of us.

Funny enough, there was a sort of sweetness during that beginning phase. My family and friends surrounded me with so much love and support; I couldn’t believe it. I was basking in the reality of finally knowing what was wrong, feeling so validated and encouraged. My poor parents (who had already been through my big brother having cancer - he is 5 years in remission, yay!) weren’t quite as elated. But they have been with me, literally, through this almost every day. Seriously, go hug your parents or parental figure because their love is unconditional in ways we forget until something like this happens.

Cancer has a way of trying to strip you of your identity. As soon as you get diagnosed people start treating you differently. It’s out of love and compassion, but sometimes it gets burdensome being treated so delicately. Sometimes your responses begin to feel like scripts. Sometimes, you just want to crawl in bed and only let people in who have seen you with no eyebrows. And that’s ok. I’ve learned to be gracious towards myself during this time. I’ve learned to accept not being able to do as much as I was used to.

I’ve decided that if my body needs a lot of sleep, then I will sleep…a lot!

And then there’s losing your hair. No matter how many people tell you it will grow back, it’s still really sad. I decided to take matters into my own hands and cut my brown, waist-long hair into a long bob before it started falling out. I loved it and it helped make the transition easier. But that first evening when I noticed it was coming out, that was really hard. I cried and cried as I shook my hair out on the bathroom floor.

Since my hair was getting thinner all the time I decided to have it bleached platinuim blonde to make it look thicker. It worked and was so much

fun. I would encourage anyone losing their hair to play around and experiment with the process.

It’s your one chance in life where you’re just going to end up bald anyways! I still have a a little bit of hair poking out of my beanie, but it’s not long for this world. It’s been nice for creating the illusion of having hair under my hat, but it’s getting a little thin for that even.

Cancer really does require you to fake it until you feel it. That’s definitely some of the advice I’d want to give anyone going through this. Sleep a lot, stay in your pajamas a lot, but as soon as you start feeling bored of it all, get up, paint your eyebrows on, use a little blush, use some concealer on your under eyes and apply a little lip gloss and you’re out the door feeling almost like a regular person.

Brows can be tricky to master, but I recommend going with Anastasia brow products (I especially like Dip Brow, as its waterproof and has great staying power). If you can go to an Anastasia brow bar they can teach you how to create a nice full brow out of just a little product. Someone from Instagram sent me several of Anastasia’s products to try, just as a random act of kindness! I don’t recommend giving your address out to strangers, but I also love gifts. You see the paradox I’m in.

I really don’t want this piece to be negative, but I also really wanted to write something that would make someone say, “Ok, so it’s normal that I feel this way?”

I mentioned earlier how lonely the road of sickness can be, even with the strongest support system. I hope this article makes even one person feel less alone and more validated. Even when fighting for your life, the world has a lot of beauty in it. Sometimes I think I see that beauty Follow Katy on Instagram @mrskatysteele more now.

Katy assessing a model’s skin type before a shoot.

Photo cred: Kelly Searle

YOU WERE WILD ONCE YOU WERE WILD ONCE, DON’T LET THEM TAME YOU PHOTOGRAPHY AMANDA BJORN STYLIST & ACCESSORY DESIGNER PYPER WYN VAVIS MAKEUP CAITLIN ACKERMAN MODELS ELISE FLEMING KIANA REEVES, J’AIME GIANOPOLOUS, BARBARA BLACK, LAUREN BARTH, TIANA GIEFER

A PLACE OF HER OWN PHOTOGRAPHY, HAIR, MAKEUP & STYLING KELLY SEARLE MODELING PIPPA SOWERS

CONTRIBUTORS Kelly Searle | Editor in Chief | kellysearle.com Paul Searle | Video and Editorial Producer | searlevideo.com Brittney Najar | Photographer | burnsaturdaze.com Katy Steele | Writer & Makeup Artist | KatyS.mua@gmail.com Sarah Svetlana | Model & Writer | gangsterkittyrebel.blogspot.com Kristine Claghorn | Model | claggie.com Sarah Buckley | Artist | buckleythelongversion.tumblr.com Jesslabelle Avelar | Milliner & Makeup Artist | thejesslabelle.com Alexandria Basso | Model | @AliMarie_B Samantha Rae Sergeant | Model | @SamSergeant Amanda Bjorn | Photographer | amandabjornphotography.com Becca Griffin | Photographer & Stylist | bexgriffin.com Maximov Dima | Photographer | maximovdima.tumblr.com Caitlin Burt | Hairstylist | caitlinburthair@gmail.com Jaclyn Tuchman | Model | @jaxtux (Instagram) Pyper Wyn Davies | Stylist & Accessories Designer | pypergraydesign.com Pippa Sowers | Model | eponaexchange.com

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