Heartbreak and Misunderstandings

The day of the Festa Dinner arrived and it was just another school day for me. I went to my Careers class and saw that it was live, but I didn’t watch it as I planned to watch it when I got home. I went to my math class and asked my teacher a question about our homework. When I got back to my desk and looked at my phone, I had a text from my mom:

What is happening? - Mom

Hmm wdym? - Me

BTS. Have you seen Twitter?? - Mom

I quickly hopped on Twitter to see the timeline in complete shreds. Everyone was talking about BTS on break. Hiatus, Hiatus, Hiatus. Usually the word wouldn’t scare me. They’d been on hiatuses before and it was fine. But this time, it was different. People were talking about it like it was an indefinite end. They were saying things like “we’ll be with you forever,” or “we’ll always wait for you.” Why did this feel like the end? My heart was pounding and I started to get choked up. The whole math class, I tried to hold back my tears, not wanting to cry in class like an idiot. I moved on with my day by completely avoiding BTS. I tried to avoid Twitter and anything that would possibly mention the whole situation. When upsetting things like this happen, I tend to just avoid everything I can. Like when Baekhyun enlisted, or when the MONSTA X concert was cancelled, I avoided both because I knew it would hurt too much to listen to them.

Much like the past instances, I couldn’t bring myself to listen to BTS. I knew it would hurt too much and I would end up crying in school. I was heartbroken–shattered. I had been looking forward to seeing them on tour again. But what would happen now? Was this really the end? Was it the beginning of the enlistment era? I couldn’t handle any of it. I got home and barely said a word. My parents already knew and only brought it up once each. They could tell I would completely disintegrate if I heard anything about it. As the day went on, I felt better and somewhat came to terms with the news. It’s okay, it’s just a hiatus, just a break. They’ll have solo albums and then They’ll be back. Right?

The next day however–was worse. I woke up feeling weird about the whole situation. I didn’t know what this next era would be like. I was excited but also worried. I tried to comfort myself by remembering that there are lots of K-Pop groups I love where the members have gone solo. After all, I got into EXO after hearing Baekhyun’s solo album. I felt somewhat better and continued about my day.

I went to have breakfast and the news was on. Suddenly, they started talking about the hiatus and how BTS is “breaking up.” They were talking about them with barely a shred of respect and I couldn’t handle it. I started crying right there. I had to go upstairs and suck in all my tears because I still had school. But, I picked myself up and went.

I felt better until my Careers teacher saw an article on the matter and asked me if I had seen that BTS is going on a break. I tried to explain that they were just going to work on solo things for a while before they returned as a group. He disagreed and didn’t believe me. I tried not to completely go off on him, which proved to be difficult. However, he just didn’t know BTS or the situation at hand. So, I ignored him and moved on. Besides, he was a really cool teacher and I wasn’t going to let this instance tarnish his ranking on my best teachers list.

Throughout the following weeks, I had a slew of people ask me if I heard that BTS was breaking up and I had to continuously explain that THEY WERE NOT. Sometimes, no matter how much I remind people that this is not the end of BTS, they still think they know better and shrug as if I’m wrong. The information from the Festa Dinner was spread in a way that caused so much misunderstanding. Once it made its way to news outlets, the locals were all in a panic and the whole story really wasn’t shared properly.

At the end of the day, the festa dinner is for ARMY and ARMY only. Locals can believe what they want.

After all the chaos, I am looking forward to the next chapter of BTS. Just because they aren’t promoting as a group right now, doesn’t mean we won’t see anything from them. It actually means quite the opposite as we’ll be getting seven times the content as each member starts doing their own thing. Chapter two will be overflowing with content. If anything, Yet to Come is a reminder that BTS will always be 7 and that the best is really yet to come! As Jungkook said, “this is not gonna be the last time, this will never be.”