Temporary Love

Words by Tabo Bo

I said hi to you not knowing what my intention was Could you be the love of my life or just someone I fucked? Would you be someone I kick it with or someone I love? You see… love is a strong word that we tend to throw around. Love should be an eternal feeling and not just temporary fun.

So it’s clear to say I never did loved you.

Maybe in the moment I had butterflies, but in the nature of it, you were just to create-a-pillar. A pillar I could call whenever I felt down

A pillar I could hold on to until the next girl come around.

And so I apologize but in the midst of it I didn’t see anything wrong,

I was blinded by my intention and oblivious to your feelings. Not once did I thought I could spend the rest of my life with you, but so many times I ignored the signs that you were planning me in your future.

And so I apologize for being selfish. Selfish for putting my physical satisfaction over your emotional feelings

Selfish for letting you pay for the food, knowing you was hungry for love. Selfish…

And so I apologize for loving you temporarily, Apologize for filling your memories with deluded thoughts, Apologize for draining your beloved heart with an empty trust. Sorry…

In the end I hope I can earn not your love… but your forgiveness.

Looking back at it now, things were just moving so fast. We went from friends, to an innocent bond, to you hating my guts, but maybe, just maybe things could have turned out different if I…. if I was honest enough.