Notes from My Mobile Brain
Also by Humberto Gรณmez Sequeira-HuGรณS It Hurts to Feel Socialism of the XXI Century or the Anti-revolution (Spanish Edition) Nicaragua: The Dialogue Between the Doctrinaire Priests and the Trustees (Spanish Edition) In Transition Towards Poetry: Granada (Nicaragua), the Bourgeoisie, and the FSLN (Spanish Edition) Visions of a Somnambulist (Spanish Edition)
Notes from My Mobile Brain
Only the brain, stellar and terrible, knows how to guide me through the dreams and nightmares of my Homo Sapiens life.
Humberto Gรณmez Sequeira-HuGรณS
Notes from My Mobile Brain. Copyright © 2017 by Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS. All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book or portions thereof in any form whatsoever. First Edition ISBN-13: 978-1548860004 ISBN-10: 154886000X
Credits The Front Cover Image: A collage by Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS made with a copy of Photography Harris A Ewing—Saturday Evening Post, 24 May 1941, pages 18-19— a Public Domain Image Courtesy of Wikipedia. The Symbol on Page 15: An example of the Jiahu, China, symbols, a Public Domain Image Courtesy of Wikipedia. The Symbols In-between the Notes: Limestone tablet from Kish, Sumer, a Public Domain Image Courtesy of Wikipedia. This e-book was published in the United States in the Summer of the year of thinking without the impulse of the divine breath 2017.
Dedication I dedicate my work to the following persons: Ana María Sequeira Viuda de Gómez, my mother Roxanna Gómez-Ubau, my daughter María del Rosario Aguirre Durán, my life partner Jennifer Alejandra Molina Rodolfo Sotelo Jr. Daniel Humberto Marín Aguirre
Preface Notes from My Mobile Brain is a collection of thoughts that I wrote with the notes app on my cell phone in the Anno Sine Domini 2014. The notes are the results of the combination of the spontaneous chemical reactions arranged by my neurons, with me as their cognitive agent, and my deliberate sensorial interaction with the corporeous and incorporeous world. As a thinker, bred by the Church and the State, I wrote some of the notes to satisfy my evolutionary need to be free and critical of their ideas. God, the divine right of the ruling class, free enterprise, democracy, repentance, and the good war are some of the ideas that the parasitic caste of the clergymen and the statesmen use to enslave the minds of the tributaries that support them and the ruling class that they serve. The culture that the notes symbolize is the product of the revolutions that the human primates have made. Revolutions are the logical consequences of the ideological dissent with the status quo. Dissent is the condition for the evolution of our brain as the Central Processing Unit of our imagination. When we stop revolutionizing our awareness, as organisms whose survival depends on our ability to invent new ideas, we stop dissenting with the State’s and the Church’s dogmas, become conformed, and begin to decay. Writing the notes, I joined the evolutionary struggle of my human primate species to transform ourselves into the writers of our chemical experience in the universe. Through our journey, from symbolism to the alphabet, and from the periodic table to text messaging, we have been illuminated by the excitement of our stellar neurons, not by divine light. The Jiahu symbols, the writings of the Sumerians and the Olmecs; stenography, and the Morse code are the intellectual ascensions that our species reached, like the salmon, against all the odds.
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Impelled by curiosity and the desire for inventing our selves and writing our history, we have become the subject and the object of our experience without divine intervention. Before I started to use a smartphone, I wrote notes on the back of used envelopes as a way of recycling their use. When MarĂa del Rosario noticed the paper writing tablets I was using, she became inspired and began to give me gifts in the form of robust pens and notebooks decorated with majestic animals, such as cats and birds. I wrote the notes that compose this journal floating in the emptiness of the singular space-time that I inhabit, under the coordination of my neurons, in the expansion of the universe.
Humberto GĂłmez Sequeira-HuGĂłS Los Angeles, California, U.S. | July 24, 2017
Acknowledgments Ana María Sequeira Viuda de Gómez Thank you, mother, for having incubated the brain with which I wrote this book and fertilized the root of my Homo Sapiens life. Brain Thank you, brain (I know that you can read my thoughts) for having guided me, with the light of your electromagnetic language, through the dreams and nightmares of my Homo Sapiens life. María del Rosario Aguirre Durán Thank you, partner, for the life that you invest, with dedication and sacrifice, in alimenting the chemical reactions that sustain my life and the pleasure of our relationship. Armando A. Molina Thank you, Armando, for being the eloquent interlocutor who saves me from the peril of losing my thoughts in the void of a monolog. Rodolfo Sotelo Jr. Thank you, Rodolfo, for having associated with me and cheered my effort to write when I was caught in my turbulence of ignorance and desire. Then, I was a reflection in the ego’s vanity mirror searching for recognition, through self-pity and destruction, in the emptiness of me.
Contents Preface ........................................................................................... vii Introduction ................................................................................. 12
1 January .............................................................................. 13 2 February ............................................................................ 28 3 March ................................................................................ 31 4 April................................................................................... 35 5 May .................................................................................... 36 6 June.................................................................................... 37 7 July ..................................................................................... 43 8 August ............................................................................... 47 9 September ......................................................................... 53 10 October ............................................................................. 61 11 November......................................................................... 67 12 December ......................................................................... 90 The Ending Note......................................................................... 95
A Note to the Other Waiting in the Future............................. 96 Epilogue ........................................................................................ 97 Bibliography ................................................................................. 98 About the Author ...................................................................... 102
Introduction In the Anno Sine Domini 2014 My Life as a Vertebrate The life I have lived is not boastful or glamorous. Its magnitude is equal to the number of atoms that are necessary to create a dream. The only attribute it carries is the temporality of its ideological presence amongst the other creatures of nature. Life as a vertebrate enabled me to crawl up the logical path of the human existence and feel the luminous vibration of the universe on my umbilicus. —Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
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Wednesday, January 1 | 10:13 PM During your attempt to save a person from drowning, you must preserve your life. Therefore, you must not aspirate water into your lungs or let the other push you below the surface of the water. To achieve this position, you must always be aware of the need to keep a safe distance between you and the person that you are trying to help. Compassion must be practiced in this way to cultivate it as an instrument of mutual benefit.
Wednesday, January 1 | 10:15 PM He tells her: I give you the blue drops that fall from the morning clouds in your eyes. She tells him: listen to the little birds singing to excite the rain. He draws a smile in the air to animate her desire and tells her: see how happy we are?
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Thursday, January 2 | 10:29 PM Awake. Engage with the air of awareness that is passing through your pores. Find the axis of the light that shines within your waters and float above it. See the emptiness where forms arise like the ashes after the fire has consumed the object of desire. Stay awake. Contemplate the orbit that you make with your thought of your self.
Friday, January 3 | 10:03 AM When the chemical reactions that make up the world become extinguished, the intelligent human primates will lose their awareness of the form of the object of their thought in the darkness of emptiness.
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Friday, January 3 | 12:22 PM The life of the proletariat, under the yoke of capitalism and theism, depends on their willingness to adapt to the conditions of absolutism and slavery that the capitalist class and the clergy impose on them or break the conditions to emancipate themselves. Theirs is the key factor for the revolution or the decadence of society.
Friday, January 3 | 12:57 PM Life is not a reward or punishment dispensed by a divine power, but rather a chemical singularity.
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Friday, January 3 | 4:20 PM I am arguing with the devil on the cause of wealth and poverty. He is trying to persuade me that money is the effect of freedom. I launch my head towards the orbit of Justice to preserve my reason.
Friday, January 3 | 10:51 PM Thinking is not the product of the presence of the divine breath in the human primates’ neural network, but an effect of their confrontation with the world sustained by metabolism. Stimulated by their instinct to live, the human primates invented the tools with which they built the objects of their thoughts. Working, they developed the intellectual instrument for understanding the mechanics of the world, their position in it, and the revolution that they needed to make to transform it as the condition of their survival. Through investigation, discovery, thinking, building, and changing the human primates stimulated the evolution of their encephalon as the laboratory of their cognition.
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Sunday, January 5 | 8:41 AM What is freedom: living within or outside a jail? Can the human primates truly be free while they live to pay tribute to the State and the Church and die in conformity with their dogmas? If you believe that you are free, what are the conditions that enable you to act freely: the atom, metabolism, awareness, your will, the army, the Constitution, money, orgasm, God, superstition, or the death penalty? Fish can live only in water. Is this freedom?
Sunday, January 5 | 11:40 AM The human primates who do not execute their neural potential, transforming it into an instrument for revolutionizing their perception and advancing their evolution towards altruism, have lost their primal instinct. It was the dream that impelled them to learn how to navigate the Earth and ascend its highest mountains guided by their stellar neural network.
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Sunday, January 5 | 11:43 AM Concentrate on the movement of the things that you observe. Try to understand it with your head as if it was a satellite of the Earth. Your perception is part of the communicating vessels of the essence of one reality.
Tuesday, January 7 | 4:20 PM I, who am a creature of chemical chance and the evolution of logical probability, will disappear when the fire of awareness consumes the memory of me.
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Thursday, January 9 | 7:56 AM Do women need to be equal to the patriarchal model of equality or do they need to affirm themselves as the object of their thought and representation of their equality? If they answer yes to the second question, then they need to revolutionize their awareness of themselves, repudiate the corrupted identity that the Church and the State impose on them, and overthrow the patriarchal model of equality whose base is their progressive destruction. Only thus will they be able to successfully fight for the recuperation of their selfhood as the source of their existence and condition of their equality in the deist, misogynist, capitalist, and belligerent patriarchy. The Church and the State are the constituents of the patriarchal model of equality. They are the result of the war that the patriarchs made against society to appropriate its means of production, masculinize its Government, and use it as the yoke with which they exploit women and keep them segregated. These are the reasons said institutions are not models of equality and do not fit the needs of women. The sons of the patriarchy are the negation of the equality of their mothers, sisters, female friends, and wives. They are equal to the economic, ideological, political, military, sexual, mythological, and anti-feminine model of equality, which the founding patriarchs imposed on society’s mind. The erection of man as the model of equality, effected by God’s creation, is the basis of the Church and the State. This myth continues to be the result of the war against women to Page 20
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suppress them as the creators and administrators of the world. The dehumanization, dispossession, enslavement, and killing of women is the method that the patriarchy uses to masculinize the world. The burning and lapidation of women by the sons of Jehovah and Allah evolved into the gender apartheid law that the Church and the State impose on women to subjugate them to the dictatorship of the Penis God. The Government that imposes on society’s mind the “all men are created equal” law is integrated by a misogynist caste of theologians, politicians, bankers, and generals that convert its brutality into the moral values of society. The patriarchy’s model of equality is not their declaration of self-evident truths, but the inequality that the Church and the State impose on women as the necessary sacrifice for the growth of the patriarchy’s power. Inequality is not the effect of God’s judgment of women. Rather, it is the precondition of the patriarchy’s existence. The truth about women is their maternal genetic inheritance. Their equality to their human selfhood and the transmission of their quality to the men that they create are elements of women’s truth. Women are the agency of their identity, reason, and capability. To sustain the myth of masculinity, men suppress their power and distort their purpose. Thus, women are the only ones who can demonstrate their function as the vanguards in the process of the evolution of humanity, and ability to save it from the patriarchy’s destruction. Humanity is in a mortal crisis because the patriarchy has become the dominant predator who is consuming its mothers, and its cradle, the Earth. Page 21
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The popes, the bankers, and the generals continue to push women into misery, and towards extinction. The masculinization, theocratisation, militarization and animalization of society are the consequences of the genocide of women. The gender “male,” celebrated by the Church and the State, is a badge of impunity for the rapists and killers of women. The legislation is the enactment of the divine superiority and right of men in the patriarchy. The Government does not represent women. It is a symbol of the killing of maternity as a policy for ensuring humanity’s wellbeing, rationality, peace, and progress towards altruism. The misogynist predators have turned the State into a weapon for the enforcement of the system of gender apartheid, where they are a privileged caste of matricides. The purpose of the patriarchy’s misogynist system is the forced suppression of women from participation in the administration, and the transformation of the world that they birthed. The patriarchy’s negation of this truth, with the argument of the divine creation of men, is simply a hallucinatory state that they try to rationalize making the Holy War against women.
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Friday, January 10 | 9:04 AM Searching for my true identity in democracy, I asked a banker who I was. He pulled out a calculator from his pocket and then asked me if I had a collateral. Searching for my true identity in court, I asked a judge who I was. He opened the book of judgments and then asked me: “of what crime have you been accused?� Searching for my true identity in the jungle, I asked a chimpanzee if he knew who I was. He held my hand, gazed at it for a moment, and then started jumping with joy.
Monday, January 13 | 2:03 PM The life I have lived is not boastful or glamorous. Its magnitude is equal to the number of atoms that are necessary to create a dream. The only attribute it carries is the temporality of its ideological presence amongst the other creatures of nature. Life as a vertebrate enabled me to crawl up the logical path of human existence and feel the luminous vibration of the universe on my umbilicus.
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Monday, January 13 | 10:27 PM The usurers make loans to client states and merchants of war. Their dark emissaries travel the world shopping for tax-free zones to create the conditions—exploitation, hunger, suffering, and war—for the emergence of the new slave markets. Together with their accomplices—the politicians, the generals, and the bishops—they keep the world divided with borders of hate and fire. The symbols of their sanguinary existence are money, a gun, a flag, and a crucifix.
Sunday, January 19 | 4:58 PM One sunny day, Earth will claim me, as a mother embraces her child before separating, and transform me into a fossil that the cognitive organisms of the future will use to demonstrate the existence of primitive life in the past. Then, I will be free from the dictatorship of the prophets of obscurantism, financial gain, slavery, hunger, war, sedation, and eternal life.
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Friday, January 24 | 2:58 PM The human primates are the objects of their reason, and reasoning is the stimulus of their cognitive evolution. These are the conditions that have engendered the revolutions that they have made to ascend to the plane of subjects of their history. But reason has been sequestered by the bankers, the generals, and the popes and converted into the power of the State and the Church.
Wednesday, January 29 | 7:39 AM "I believe in God" is a confession without sense in the world of the facts that are the objects of perception and the conditions of reason. The big bang and the evolution of the primate into self-awareness, capable of explaining the facts of the world and their relation to its existence, are the elements of reality. The elements act in observable, not mysterious ways designed by a God. Believing is a mental state conditioned by the existence of the object of belief and the believer’s ability to rationalize its function in the world. Believing that the Sun exists will be true until that star explodes and becomes the pollen that will fertilize the birth of new stars in the expanding universe. Page 25
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Meaning is intrinsic to the facts of nature that can be observed in their movement and interaction. The human primate is one of those facts. The believer does not establish the sense of the object of their belief, but the existence of the object and its function in the sensible world. The information that the use of the object generates reveals its presence to the user who thus can conceptualize it and explain it, logically. The predicate about the subject God, invented by the selfdesignated prophets, does not refer to a fact that is happening and, therefore, can be represented with a thought of its function and effect in the experience of the human primate in the intelligible world. “God is an all-perfect being, creator of heaven and Earth,” is a result of the hallucinatory state influenced by the obscurantist activity of the Church and the State in the realm of the believer’s mind. These institutions, whose function is to obscure the truth, are based on the ignorance that they converted into the faith to sanctify their domination. The world is an event made of other occurrences. What one can affirm about the world is what one can sense, or induce based on the remains of past phenomena. Thoughts can represent happenings that can be perceived while their movement lasts. I was walking on a sidewalk planted with palm trees on the street side. Suddenly, a gust of wind blew off a palm from one of the trees. It fell a breath away from my feet, enticing my amazement. Nature engaged me as the observer of its movement on my perception. These are the material circumstances of thinking. Page 26
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Everything is an event that emerges from the encounter of favorable conditions in a singular moment in the space-time expansion. After the expansion absorbs the moment, it becomes a part of the memory of the universe. This memory, which is carried by the genes across the chemical oceans of the world, is the matrix of the new singularities which determine the evolution of new life. The statement "I have not experienced the facts attributed to the word God as their cause" agrees with the logical constitution of the world and its manifestation in the sensible space.
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Thursday, January 30 | 8:30 AM The human primate who sees itself as a conscious organism of nature can understand that knowledge is useful only if it is applied to convert it into an instrument for the eradication of the ignorance and the fear which are the Church’s and the State’s weapons of domination.
Thursday, January 30 | 12:12 PM The plutocracy’s astronomers continue searching for life on Mars while their Government continues to destroy humanity and the Earth. If they find life on that planet, they will appropriate it, price it, and sell it until they exhaust it.
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Wednesday, February 5 | 2:13 PM I got high, like a bird on a wire, to become the noticeable object of my faithless desire.
Wednesday, February 5 | 6:35 PM The criticism of religion is the same as the criticism of the success of the trader who sells sunglasses to the human primates who lost their sense of sight after centuries of kneeling in the dark of a confessional, asking a wizard to forgive their sins. Through the making of the Holy War (Bellum Sacrum), to conquer the human primates’ brain, the merchants of religion have succeeded in creating an addiction to the myth of the original sin, and the fear of the word God. Millions of people live and die trapped in the anguish of guilt, repentance, and salvation. This alteration of the natural chemistry of their Page 29
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brains keeps them in a state of hallucination, disconnected from their real need to overthrow the merchants of religion, waiting for salvation day. Here lies the success of the traders who sell the lie of the value of suffering as the precondition of the eternal life to customers who refuse to confront the truth of their existence. We are an ephemeral chemical event in space-time conditioned by the universe’s motion. Religion is an insignificance that cannot separate us from our physical destiny.
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Tuesday, February 18 | 9:45 AM Some human primates live to establish and defend their ego as the critical component of their illusionary view of life. To them, it is a luxurious object that they can purchase and aggregate to their private property arsenal. They learn this senseless behavior from the other human primates who, at gunpoint, stole society’s resources and used them to create a warring State that taxes them for protecting their illusion from the fear of being kidnapped by the Wicked Witch of the East.
Monday, February 24 | 11:20 AM Deism and atheism are not natural components of the human primates’ awareness. It is a product of the chemical reactions arranged by the brain, according to the impressions generated by the senses when they interact with the sensible objects of space. The events that constitute the reality in which the human primates are the subjects—the economy, politics, and war— are not driven by belief or disbelief, but by the brain’s need for the energy produced by metabolism.
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Friday, March 14 | 10:45 PM The instinct of the human primates—to be free, curious, defiant, and inventive—was shaped by evolution. This force enabled them to erect and align their heads with the star that pollinates their lives. The chemistry of their constitution explains their capacity to be the objects of their thoughts without divine breath. The spirit of their genes cannot be altered, even by removing them from their natural element, caging them in churches, or treating them as wanted criminals by the Christian Sacred Inquisition for thousands of years. The Church, aided by the State, keeps trying to extirpate the chemical self from the human primates’ cognition and replace it with the idiotic idea it calls “the original sin.” The reason is that a parasitic caste, which does not work to produce social wealth nor pays taxes, controls the Church. They live off the tribute they extract from the human primates they convert into sinners, armed with the threat of “eternal damnation.” Furthermore, the self-designated men of God ignore the chemical truth of life, which is embedded in the vastly unknown regions of the universe and the encephalon.
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Monday, March 24 | 2:11 PM Men need women to stimulate the development of the characteristics contained in their X chromosome. The Statesmen, the Clergymen, and the Military men cannot do it. Without the warmth of the maternal embrace, boys grow under a shadow within which they have to struggle to discover their emotional sense and how to use it in the world of human interactions constructively. The Church and the State suppress the development of the maternal attributes in the boy and, with threat and punishment, replace them with the artificial emotions inspired by the images of supermen crucified, sanctified, and glorified as war heroes or Moguls of capitalism. The separation of the boy from his mother as his emotional root and social model is the reason why men commit the matricide that destroys their society. The uprooting of the boy’s female instinct and its replacement with the artificial male, misogynist psychology, which The Military uses to turn him into a robot killing machine, is the condition for the formation of the new generations of soldiers of the patriarchal army. And the continuation of the patriarchy’s dictatorship based on the circumcision and suppression of women. Transforming men into creatures that eat their mothers, the administrators of the patriarchal State and Church—Senators, Popes, and Generals—have abolished motherhood as society’s reason and Government. Thus, they have plunged humanity into obscurantism, war, ecological destruction, and decadence.
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As the working class women, the working class men are also the prey that the patriarchy needs to consume to sustain itself. The capitalist patriarchs exploit them until their exploitation ceases to turn a profit. After that, they dispossess the workers of their livelihood and push them in the hell of unemployment, drug addiction, domestic violence, homelessness, prostitution, and suicide. Not even serving as the cannon fodder in their wars can save the producers of the nation’s wealth, which the patriarchy steals, from the madness and the ruin caused by the Statesmen, the Clergymen, and the Military men who are the patriarchy’s Guardians, Judges, and Executioners. The sons of women need to embrace their mothers to prevent their extinction, and together make the revolution that is necessary to overthrow the patriarchy and reinstate the matriarchy as the cradle of civilization. Men need to revolutionize their minds to free themselves from the artificial, masculine feeling with which the patriarchy suppresses their femininity to convert them into the enemies of women. Women must denounce the patriarchy—the landlords, the clergy, the usurers, and the war merchants—as the corrupter and destroyer of their sons. Also, as part of their struggle to free themselves, they must take men by the hand and lead them in the rebellion against the patriarchy’s system of gender apartheid. In it, men are the slaves who enforce the unjust law of a misogynist God with obscurantism and prejudice. The law justifies the defamation, the intimidation, and the killing of women.
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Friday, March 28 | 9:27 AM I am an artificial man. I have a plastic tongue, and my heart is made of Styrofoam. TV writers arranged my sense of the world with episodes of shows about the value of life in the electro domestic world. The State produces my feelings with a vaccine made from cadaver plasma and other experimental chemicals. To be accepted as a human being, I narrate the recycled memories of the world of children who died, suddenly, in their sleep. I am an artificial man from the Atomic Age inspired by the engineers of the Great War. But I have one technical defect that turns me into the subject of dreams.
Sunday, March 30 | 6:32 AM "Nothing is impossible for God," reads the sign on the front wall of the building in which people gather to stimulate their nervous system. Kneeling, praying, screaming, crying, and jumping they enter the state of delirium that they call “the presence of the Holy Spirit.�
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Wednesday, April 23 | 2:46 PM Smells like democracy decomposing on the long avenues that the oil barons planted with gas stations decorated with flags to celebrate their victories in the pillage wars that the sons of the motherland made. The soldiers of the American-Indian Wars raped the daughters of the motherland to convert it into the cradle of the Manifest Destiny. Engendered with love for Old Glory and fear of the Ghost Dance, the American Indian killers inspired the soldiers of the Great War genocide. The barons stole the sons from their mothers to form the generations of Purple Heart Patriots. They now live in the catacombs of the Great Warrior State, identified with a sign that reads “homeless veteran.”
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Wednesday, May 7 |12:13 PM Talking from within the vibration of her vaginal musculature, she told me: this is how I want to die, while she irrigated my lips with the chemicals produced by her orgasmic delight.
Friday, May 16 | 2:49 AM In the jungle, the animals live according to their instinct. Their ability to integrate it into their element determines their capacity to fight against other animals and survive. Fighting to survive is the law that the plutocracy, the class of the fiercest predators, has imposed on the human society. They live on the consumption of people and the Earth as their prey, without divine intervention. Might is right, compete-or-die is their morality, and the reason of the State and the Church.
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Thursday, June 5 | 3:13 PM A man proclaimed that God told him that He had chosen him to be his messenger. Another man said he had heard the proclamation and believed it was the truth. Male sayings about God’s preference for them are the origin of the prophets and the belief in them as emissaries of the truth as spoken divine inspiration. But the fact is not divine or evil, but rather an event caused by the conjunction of the results of singular chemical reactions in the universe.
Friday, June 6 | 7:30 AM The Church has replaced reason with the illusion of faith as the medium through which the believers understand the world and accept it as the place where God exiled them to serve their sentence for having sinned. This involution of the human consciousness is a product of the obscurantism and the fear with which the Church treats their ignorance and fills it with the illusion of eternal salvation. Page 38
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Armed with the illusion of the only true faith in the only true God, the Church captures the believers’ minds, charges them tribute for protecting them from God's wrath, and hands them over to the capitalist class. They put the yoke on their necks, with the power of the State and their proclamation of trust in God, to exploit them, and steal the product of their exploitation. The believers have renounced their will to power, which is the umbilical cord that unites them to nature and its revolution, and surrendered the management of their destiny to the Church and the State. Their minds are controlled by the parasitic caste of the illusionists—priests, politicians, usurers, and generals—who keep them anchored in the hope for the future. Like faith, hope continues to be the counterrevolution that contains the development of the human primates as the stellar beings who were produced by the big bang. The God illusionists stimulate the faith hallucinations of the believers with the suggestions sin, eternal damnation, repentance, redemption, and eternal life. Under their influence, the human primates ceased to revolutionize their selfawareness and relationship with the Church, the State, and the capitalist class. Their acceptance of illusion as reality is the reason of their slavery, and decadence as a Femina-Homo Sapiens species.
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Friday, June 6 | 7:48 AM The poisonous secretion of my pores protects my hippocampus from the corrosion produced by the mixture of dogmas and emotions in the war-ridden world of the carnivore tribes.
Friday, June 6 | 7:48 AM Once, I was a red-headed creature who lived in a desert cave, submerged in states of intermittent hallucinations stimulated by the neutrinos rain and the ingestion of poisonous pollen.
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Friday, June 6 | 6:43 PM And the crowd roars each time the grand wizard of hallucinations manipulates the candied objects of their infantile desires in the hemispheres of their addictive programmable minds.
Monday, June 9 | 12:09 PM The hunger of the dispossessed is the painful fact that reveals that life is not an invulnerable divine possession, but the result of the capacity to struggle against the capitalist predators who control the food industry.
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Wednesday, June 11 | 9:39 AM The human primates who try to avoid their physical destiny by remaining static, while life passes through their pores, are not aware that they are holograms that light carries to populate the unknown spaces, impelled by the waves generated by the gravitational force.
Sunday, June 15 | 12:35 PM The human primates who are not aware of their transient nature live in the field of reality where the objects of their pleasure appear to be capturable. Their desire for permanence absorbs them into a state of manic preoccupation with the erection, the quantification, the comparison, and the maintenance of the market value of their self.
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Tuesday, June 17 | 5:03 PM If you think that you need inspiration to create the meaning of your life, look into the eyes of a dispossessed hungry person.
Sunday, June 22 | 4:22 PM Thinking of Akira Kurosawa’s Dreams I have two arteries, filled with warm and fertile blood, which I could open to paint the reason of the avenues that the Imperial State built to celebrate the Robber Barons’ victories in the oil wars. In those lonely spaces, inspired by military brutality, the soldiers march with a firm conviction to fight the wars that their predecessors did not end. Their command is the same as it ever was: defend the honor of the feudal lord and demonstrate courage in the carnage that is the ultimate sacrifice required by God and the State.
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Wednesday, July 2 | 10:56 AM The bourgeoisie’s and the clergy’s works, namely, obscurantism, hunger, and war are the constituents of the real world. Their purpose is to keep humanity divided into exploiter and exploited classes. In the burning world—which they celebrate with money, flags, and crucifixes—no belief is rational or useful if its agent does not convert it into an instrument for uprooting the cause of those works: class superiority based on ignorance, greed, and hatred from humanity’s conscience.
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energy without being consumed by it or burning the feelings of another. Thus, they must keep the water separated from the fire to prevent the mind from evaporating. Thinking above the surface of the skin and outside the vortex of desire, the human primates can build a shield of wisdom to protect each other from the toxic effects that the activity of the selfish neuron causes.
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Friday, July 25 | 2:20 PM The last time a woman tried to attract me to her orbit, with the waves that she was making with her smile, the trajectory of my head was intercepted by the sensual spectacle of a sudden rain.
Saturday, July 26 | 3:44 PM The usurers must be content with the prime interest rate; the timely payment of their debts; the progress of their pillage wars; the consumption of dogmas by the new generations; and the comportment of the masses locked in their factories, ghettos, markets, churches, and prisons. Their incessant accumulation of profits and fear of losing power is the condition for the State to dispense democracy or dictatorship to their slaves with the blessing of the Sacred Mother Church.
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Thursday, July 31 | 12:21 PM The human primates are born endowed by nature with the mathematical, artistic, and sensible properties of their brains. Therefore, freedom is the only condition for the fruition of their chemical qualities into the consciousness of equality. The Church and the State cannot be the fertilizers of freedom for they are the feudal lords’ watchtowers on the fields of slavery.
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Friday, August 1 | 7:01 PM “In God we trust. We believe that Israel has the right to defend itself from the victims of its State terrorism.” Declaration of the Government of the United States of Israel, formerly known as the Government of the United States of America.
Saturday, August 2 | 2:24 PM The fear of dying is generated by the neurons that have become dependent on the life of the body of desire.
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Wednesday, August 13 | 2:07 PM The back of her miniskirt bounced in the waves that her buttocks made, as she impelled her body with her muscular legs through the heat of the day, spectacularly.
Friday, August 15 | 3:59 PM The good of the past—the human innocence, the blueness of the sky, and the fertility of the Earth—has been consumed by the raging fire of the present that creates the ashes of the future.
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Friday, August 15 | 3:59 PM Like the footprints in the sand, which are erased by the water, the words on the tongue are absorbed by the emptiness of the memory.
Friday, August 15 | 3:59 PM She dances, euphorically, with her head above the sparks that she makes with the rhythm of her hips.
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Monday, August 18 | 3:31 PM The suspect appeared agitated and moving, making gestures that the officer, according to standard procedure, interpreted to be life-threatening. Therefore, the officer fired at the suspect, wounding him lethally.
Thursday, August 21 |3:51 PM She sits on the end of her spine, indifferent to the time that has bent the way in which she stares at the tree that sheds the leaves that the wind blows into her mind.
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Thursday, August 21 | 3:21 PM Freedom is the power to exist without the fatal condition of the body of the senses and the duality of desire.
Thursday, August 21 | 3:21 PM The radical remoteness of the consciousness of life, which is the expression of the universe, cannot be reached by the human primate whose perception is conditioned by metabolism.
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Saturday, August 30 | 8:32 AM Why do people radiate the stress that suppresses their rationality over another? Because the chemical force, mixed with ignorance, compels them to attract another to the web in which capitalism incubates its pressure. Attraction to pleasure and pain is the mechanism that the capitalist class uses to control the psyche of the wage slaves who are not aware that they are the effect of the class struggle. The wage slaves need to realize that the conditions of their existence—obscurantism, faith, patriotism, misogyny, selfishness, competition, consumption, pleasure, illness, suffering, psychosis, hate, and war—have been created by the ruling class to maintain its power over them. The enforcers of that power are the Church and the State.
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Wednesday, September 3 | 2:40 PM The ego is the mirror on which the human primates see the instrument that they have shaped with their sense of conformity to be able to relate to the unconformities of the world that seduce them, repudiate them, and consume them.
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The thinker is a solitary primate who erected himself from the world of the manic-depressive crowds that are excited by Gods, Bankers, Generals, and Clowns into recurrent convulsions of faith, patriotism, euphoria, and violence. The element where his thoughts grow is conditioned by the dichotomic tendencies of his species: conformity and dissent; independence and subordination; and immorality and honesty.
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Monday, September 8 | 10:19 AM “If you buy this water [said the woman on the gas station TV] ten cents will be donated to fight hunger.” And I thought to myself: how can hunger, which is caused by the Robber Barons’ appropriation of food, be combated with the revenues from the sale of stolen water?
Wednesday, September 17 | 3:17 PM Where do you come from? When you are sleeping your exhalation carries your awareness to a point in the universe without the frontiers—psychological, ideological, and military—that the Church and the State build around your mind as the parameters within which they allow you to manifest your self as an entity made of faith and nationality. Only the brain knows.
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Saturday, September 20 | 10:04 AM The objects of reality that stimulate my sensations have started to slip through the porous web of my memory, like the leaves that the tree releases to the wind when the seasons change. Consequently, my ability to function as the reactive awareness, which is the transformer of imagination into words, has begun to fall in the lethargy of atomic decay.
Saturday, September 20 | 12:40 PM The monkey remains an animal even after the human primate dresses it with silk for it is an entity whose nature cannot be altered. The attempt to change the impression that the monkey’s naked body causes in the eye of the observer is a reflection of the delusional way in which the urban human primate constructs its self. The word God remains a word even after the inventors of its connotation adorn it with divine properties to sell it in the faith market as the name of a real superior being who is the creator of the inferior human being. They disguise themselves as agents of the power that they associate with the word to create the impression, before the hopeful spectators, that they are not primates, but a privileged caste of prophets. The root of faith Page 57
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is a state of mind that the God illusionists generate through the manipulation of the human primates’ ignorance and fear. In Christianity, it is the sensation that the Church creates in the mind of its tributaries converting the image of a crucified stranger into their redeemer. God is a word that was imposed on the dictionary as a traumatic effect of the victory of the sacerdotal caste in the war that they made against the heretic society to subdue it and convert it into the consumer of a new talisman. Its definition is the existential condition that the victor imposed to the defeated to turn the word into a desirable object that inspires fear, spiritual value, and the payment of tribute. Like the word gold, the word God does not have a meaning or value. The madmen who proclaim to be the word’s agents attempt to paint it with a certain sense using gold to adorn their banality and build the objects that they use to create the impression of their divinely hollow power. The word monkey has a true meaning because its root is life, which is an event that continues to evolve from the chemistry of the Earth. God cannot serve as the sense of the animal that evolved into the conscious agent of the chemical reactions composed by its brain under the influence of nature.
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Monday, September 22 | 6:19 PM Appreciate the body of flammable skin that you inhabit, not for the pleasure it transmits to your mind, but for the effort that you must make to meet the conditions that keep it alive.
Wednesday, September 24 | 2:09 PM Time is an unknown subterranean creature that roams through Earth’s cavities and petrifies its magma. When a human primate dies, time penetrates the body’s arteries and turns the blood into ashes. Time flies ahead of space and stands still to let it expand.
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Wednesday, September 24 | 3:25 PM The perception of life that grows on the mind is like the fruit that grows on the tree. After it has ripened, the fruit falls on the Earth and starts to decay. Nobody can remain the same person in the continuum of the air that forms the memory, the dream, and the nightmare of life.
Wednesday, September 24 | 3:25 PM The human primate is the product of a chemical reaction that cannot remain in the same state for it happens in the spacetime current. It drags the images of the memory of the self until they start to dissipate and become the emptiness in which dreams appear.
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Wednesday, September 24 | 8:26 PM I love the addiction that turns my head up and down without prediction. I grew up with a feverish child who was addicted to the fear inspired by the thirsty anguish on the face of a crucified stranger. I live to get high, and I hope to feel the intense rush while I ride the wave of death in the vast sky.
Sunday, September 28 | 11:44 AM God is a word that the faith merchants sell in the market of obscurantism and fear as a sedative for the suffering that they create in the believers’ lives. Some human primates buy it as the main character of a magic show in which He is the master whose powers are written in a book that they call Holy. Before the merchants institutionalized God, by making wars of conquest and pillage, the human primates walked the Earth freely, led by their stellar brains, and sustained by the chemical purity of their instinct.
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Sunday, October 5 | 2:06 PM I live in a remote place of the mind, away from my feelings, to avoid hurting myself.
Wednesday, October 8 | 9:09 AM Life is the product of a cosmic circumstance. Knowing this fact and transforming it into science is the result of the intellectual activity of the human primates who responded to the instinct emitted by their neurological network. With daring curiosity, they erected, aligned their vision with the stars, and created the tools to navigate the path of evolution. These Femina-Homo Erectus were the vanguards of the spacewalkers. The human primates who did not respond to the stimulus of nature stayed in the umbra of their brains and invented the word God to explain their fear of transformation.
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Friday, October 10 | 1:34 PM My parents kept a supply of blessed palms in the closet for protection from the devil and God. When a storm whipped the Earth, they would tell me that the reason was God was angry at us. To protect the house and us from the lightning, they attached a blessed palm, shaped like a crucifix, on the inside of the door of the house, and another one, shaped like a halo, around our heads. In this superstitious way, they faced their fear of natural phenomena, which they did not understand scientifically, and transmitted it to me. The sorcerers of the Colonialist Catholic Church, who controlled my parents’ mind with obscurantism, converted said phenomena into a stimulus of fear to suggest that God and his wrath were real. They implanted this suggestion in the minds of the human primates as an additive to the electrochemistry that produces their behavior. Without this fear, which conditions their lives, the human primates would not behave as the subjects of the faith in a God who requires that they suffer to deserve his grace. Fear is the stimulus of belief in the unknown, whose frontier is the word God, imposed by the Church on the human primates’ mind.
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Friday, October 10 | 2:25 PM Thank God for my credit card! I love it because it gives me the advantage of using a modern weapon, equipped with a highsecurity microchip, to compete with the other consumers in the market where I am a good debtor of the usurers and the landlords.
Monday, October 20 | 1:35 PM The rock does not shed a tear even after the rain has touched it. The heart does not break even after human beings have pounded it with hate.
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Wednesday, October 22 | 9:09 PM Things I used to hold with avid comprehension, when the world was replete with desire, like clusters of adolescent neurons on fire, have begun to lose their passionate intention.
Friday, October 24 | 10:28 AM The self-designated men of God—popes, senators, usurers, and generals—have converted religion and its elements, that is, ignorance, guilt, and fear into the spirituality of free enterprise. “In God, We Trust” is the usurers’ justification for the criminal effects of capitalism: the enslavement of the proletariat, hunger, and war. Extracting the confession of guilt, with torture, for offending God and the ruling class that trusts Him, from the tributary slaves is how the Church and the State impose spirituality on their minds.
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Friday, October 24 | 3:25 PM I lose my civilized purpose, deliberately, amongst the objects of the senses in the consumer market, to test my ability to behave like a primate capable of reasoning.
Sunday, October 26 | 6:23 PM I experience pain as the effect of a martyr’s suppressed desire that leads me through the path where everything I see is like me: a door to emptiness.
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Thursday, October 30 | 10:49 AM May God grant me his power to eradicate the conditions— ignorance, selfishness, vaingloriousness, and hate—that stimulate the existence of the popes, landlords, usurers, war merchants, and drug lords. They are the predators who feed their opulent ego with the suffering of the homeless, prostitutes, drug addicts, and mentally ill persons who tell me God bless you as a value exchange for the alms I give them.
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Saturday, November 1 | 5:50 PM I die each time another dies, without having met, in the world that we inhabit.
Sunday, November 2 |7:27 AM When the nuclear clouds enshroud my head, and life appears opaque, I bleed a little and cry a lot to keep my perception clear and reality flowing.
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Tuesday, November 4 | 4:54 PM I lick her skin, fallen on the pyre, lit with the virulent tongue that the Holy Inquisitor used to incinerate her body, with devotion until her pores open and radiate the innocence of her desire.
Wednesday, November 5 |11:17 AM I cannot wait until God decides if I qualify for eternal salvation. I need to keep imagining the words that can infuse sense into the chemistry of my existence.
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Wednesday, November 5 | 10:50 PM Tomorrow started yesterday and now is passing through your porous mind, as you breathe the air that takes you to a point in the future without sensible dimensions.
Wednesday, November 5 | 10:51 PM The State and the Church own the patents of your nationality and spirituality, which are the psychological weapons with which the plutocracy maintains its power. Armed with obscurantism and intimidation, the Statesmen and the Clergymen mark your forehead with the seals of taxation— the flag, and the crucifix—and chain you to the plutocracy’s war chest for life.
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Wednesday, November 5 | 10:52 PM Life without pain would be an unpleasurable experience.
Wednesday, November 5 | 10:53 PM Life is made of a photographic skin exposed to the erosion caused by the winds that blow the leaves of its memories towards oblivion.
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Thursday, November 6 | 5:40 PM Every day, I make the honest effort to compensate the balance of the natural order for the defects in the mold of my domestication. I confine myself to a realm of perception where the desire to intimate with other human primates cannot contaminate the chemical purity of my thought.
Friday, November 7 | 10:35 PM Men invented honor as a property of their character. They infused it with the additives of faith and patriotism and convinced other men to make war to defend it. The illusions of masculinity and glory are the justifications that they use for killing or being killed without reason.
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Friday, November 7 | 10:38 PM I stimulate my neurons watching movies in which the actors excite themselves into crying to draw the watcher’s feelings, and thus complete the drama.
Friday, November 7 | 10:39 PM I go crazy in my mind, from time to time, for the sake of reason. I withdraw from the line waiting for redemption and run, naked and screaming, through the alleys where the obscure creatures gather.
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Wednesday, November 12 | 6:48 AM The people voted, once again, for the candidate that best represented the plutocracy’s qualities—idiocy, parasitism, selfishness, deceptiveness, truculence, extravagance, vaingloriousness, and infertility—and the freedom of the magical Walt Disney World. The candidate was only a character of the spectacle in which the voter was the spectator directed by the candidate’s emoticons orchestrator.
Sunday, November 16 | 10:56 AM Pride is the emotion that captures the mind of some human primates during their contact with the elements of their illusionary world: class, country, God, and property. They use it as the face value of their lives and justification to make war to defend it.
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Sunday, November 16 | 3:07 PM If the life you are living is a series of interruptions, held together by the strands of your nervous system, the reason is that your perception disintegrates in the spaces between your thoughts, or you are living with your extrinsic mind attached to the movement of another who is not in your orbit.
Tuesday, November 18 | 11:26 AM When my perception becomes rarified, I go into the market to search for the object of thought that can make me feel solid again.
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Tuesday, November 18 | 11:30 AM The root of science is nature, an organism that evolves, continuously, impelled by the forces of the atom. Nature and its magnificent, fluid, and sensible presence is the powerful stimulant of the brain of science, not the divine breath. It is a hallucinatory state excited by the sellers of the word God, armed with the threat of eternal damnation. The scientists are primates that evolved from nature stimulating the growth of their brain through their sensorial interaction with their element. Their activity, investigation and discovery, produced the chemical conditions that enabled them to revolutionize their perception of themselves, the world, and the way they lived. The human primates erected, confronted nature, and engaged with it as the conscious observers of its movement and gatherers of the data with which they began to construct the laws that explain it.
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Thursday, November 20 | 3:24 PM Once upon a time, there was a man who lived with his left eye closed, intentionally. To carry out his existential tasks, he gathered the images of his sensorial world with his right eye. One evening, when he was gazing at the sky, a man who used his two eyes to form his perspective of the world saw him and asked him why he used only one eye to see. He answered, “I keep my left eye closed because I do not want what it might see to distort my view of my world.�
Friday, November 21 | 2:41 PM The erections, incited by the artful confabulations of the neurons, interrupt the sleep of the indifferent skin to revive me in the memory of the dreams and involuntary ejaculations of the pleasure of the pubescent innocence.
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Friday, November 21 | 4:17 PM Faith is the faithful’s pernicious attempt to shield themselves from the painful reality of being mortal.
Friday, November 21 | 9:15 PM My mission in this life is to learn the way of being of the animal who silently retires to its cave to die.
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Saturday, November 22 | 7:48 AM The wage slaves who vote in the election for President of the masters’ State renounce themselves as the agents of their claims and the revolution that they need to make to fulfill them. The masters control the election with their idea of free enterprise as the condition of democracy; their propaganda machine; the bribery of the candidates; and the support of their business agents in the Government. In the election process, the wage slaves are the objects of the illusions—faith, patriotism, democracy, and fear of the “foreign enemy”—with which the masters’ candidates guide them to vote against themselves. Their acceptance of said illusions in exchange for their real interests—freedom, equality, justice, peace, and prosperity—is the reason they entrust their claims to the masters’ business agents. In return for their trust, their class enemies use their votes as the weapons that the masters use to fight against them for the absolute control of the State. The emotional dependence on the State, as the protective Uncle Sam, has enabled the masters to fuse the wage slaves’ interests with capitalism, totalitarian democracy, and the for-profit wars. The submission to the masters’ rule is the condition of the existence of the voting system as a democratic spectacle in which the exploited and the exploiters participate as friendly compatriots with the same purpose, that is, the preservation of the masters’ system of slavery: capitalism and democracy. This abnormal relation, between predator and prey, is the result of the wage slaves’ historic defeat by the Masters’ forces in the class struggle. The State destroyed the wage slaves’ rebellious Page 79
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spirit by terrorizing them, eliminating their organizations, and declassing them. Without the power of their class consciousness, the State forced them to continue to be the masters’ prey in the economy and cannon fodder in their war fronts. Thus, the masters confirmed themselves as the conquering class with the right to own the country they stole and the wealth that they extract from the exploitation of the wage slaves. The wage slaves do not oppose their fusion with the masters who consume them and discard them. They support the masters’ political parties and labor unions that cultivate their bondage. In the political warfare for the power of the State, the exploited do not differentiate themselves from the exploiters with their political party, program, or anthem. Adversely, they participate in the election as patriots of the country that the masters pillage, and vote for the candidates who embody their corruption. The corruption of the wage slaves consciousness is the central reason the masters can maintain the illusions with which they dominate them. The masters’ propaganda machine tells them that they are not slaves, but free citizens with equal rights under the Constitution of the country that the masters founded as their fiefdom. Furthermore, the machine convinces them that they can have rights only in capitalism for it is the spirit of freedom of the American democracy. The illusionists who are the masters’ propaganda machine—politicians, generals, preachers, broadcasters, entertainers, teachers, and labor union bosses—cultivate the illusions with faith and patriotism. In the absence of the wage slaves resistance, the masters have been able to replace their dignity with their trinity of Page 80
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immorality, which is exploitation, profit, and war. The wage slaves do not see the masters as their enemies, that is, as the thieves who stole their means of survival, appropriate the product of their labor, and use the power of the State and the Church to keep them enslaved. They regard the masters as compatriots with whom they share the same homeland and existential purpose, equally. In reality, this is an illusion that obscures the masters’ nature as predators who live off the wage slaves’ energy. The reason of the wage slaves’ abnormal relation with the masters is, in part, their emotional attachment to the meaning that the masters infused on the noun America, the country they patented as their private property, as “the land of the free and the home of the brave.” Besides, the lack of ideological independence and political power in the struggle for survival produced the submission of the exploited to the exploiters’ democratic oppression system. These are the reasons the masters’ business agents can use the wage slaves’ votes as the weapons with which they executed a coup d’état. Consequently, they have replaced the principle of democracy—a Government of the people, by the people, and for the people—with the masters’ existential condition: “We are the State and its purpose.” Entrusting their life demands to the masters’ Democrat and Republican overseers, the wage slaves agree to the terms of their slavery system, Constitution, and Government. Under those terms, they must remain dispossessed throughout their generations; accept wages that are not equal to the value of their work; live in inequality, and die with their soul indebted to the company store.
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The wage slaves who participate in the election that the masters control contribute to the maintenance of the State as the masters’ scepter. Submitting to the restrictions—of life, liberty, and justice—that the State imposes on them, they defeat themselves as the subjects of the revolution that they need to make and continues to be the requirement for their emancipation. So too they negate that the masters are their enemies (not their kinfolk) whose only purpose is to exploit them to convert their energy into surplus value. Using the State, the Church, obscurantism, totalitarian democracy, and the state of siege as their weapons, the masters are exterminating the wage slaves as the class of the producers of the values—ideas, goods, services, art, and interaction—that society needs to sustain itself and progress. Without their emancipation as the result of a social revolution, society cannot extirpate the cause of its crisis: the masters’ control of the means of production, the State, and society’s vision of itself as a commodity and consumer of commodities. The masters are a gang of predators whose animal instinct restricts the use of their power to hunting to maintain it and expanding their hunting ground. They have divided humanity and the Earth according to their rapacious needs, using the State and the Church as their dividing weapons. Consequently, they do not have the social sensibility which is the capacity needed to build an egalitarian society. The vote under the masters’ dictatorship, whose official motto is “In God We Trust,” has not produced the advancement of society to altruism. This state of consciousness is the condition for society’s preservation through the achievement of freedom, equality, justice, well-being, and peace. Furthermore, the Page 82
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absence of a revolutionary class in society, acting as the altruistic model of living socially, explains the animalization of humanity under the dictatorship of ignorance, avarice, hate, and war that the masters, the politicians, the military, the intelligentsia, and the clergy preside.
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Saturday, November 22 | 8:29 AM Suicide is the human primate’s self-possessed decision to end the painful struggle to comply with the edict for the payment of the tribute to the privileged caste that administers the State and the Church. These institutions are the spearheads with which they defend the parasitic, opulent, sterile, and corrupt life of the ruling class whom they serve.
Saturday, November 22 | 10:31 AM Celebrities’ photos should be transparent so that their fans could see their gastrointestinal tract and appreciate the metabolic matter that sustains their charming smiles.
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Saturday, November 22 | 11:59 AM I am walking on concrete, following the light of my shadow, without a rational thought in my head. My scent attracts the eyes on the faces that have the look of hunger. The dimming light reveals the shine of the blood under my skin. What will keep me from being consumed by the bloodthirsty creatures, before I arrive at where am going?
Saturday, November 22 | 6:02 PM “It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas.” The plutocracy and its lackeys—politicians, generals, and popes—got fatter to spend another winter in their forbidden palaces protected by their Pretorian Guard from the lethal effects of the war that they make against the toiling tributary masses to keep them dispossessed, starving, divided, illusioned, and unable to rebel.
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Saturday, November 22 | 12:29 PM Implicit in the relationship of the human primates is their genealogical need of embracing one another to experience the feeling of the self.
Sunday, November 23 | 6:12 PM If you are an element in a relationship, you are an implicit interlocutor. Do you converse or just recite the monologs about the fanciful habits of your ego?
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Sunday, November 23 | 10:25 PM Do not expect to receive adulation in exchange for your selfelevation. Instead, be honest and work to earn merits of greater philosophical valuation.
Monday, November 24 | 6:38 AM The African American people of Ferguson, Missouri, have the human right to indict Darren Wilson. He was a public employee who used his job as a police officer and a publically owned gun to kill Michael Brown on August 9, 2014.
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Monday, November 24 | 8:25 AM I am where the elements of life and my self mix and become the mind in which I can travel, without a mortal heart, to the world in which I will not be an element of a chemical species.
Monday, November 24 | 1:54 PM Touch the hands, cold and rusty, fallen on the avenues of the public order that the patriarchs built with petroleum and the fossils of magnificent Native Americans and African slaves. They contain the augur of the present future of the virulent empire that they sustained.
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Monday, November 24 | 10:58 PM Since the human primate is born, the State and the Church appropriate its brain, lobotomize it, uniform it, and convert it into the greenhouse where they grow the germs of ignorance, selfishness, avarice, hate, and war.
Tuesday, November 25 | 8:10 AM The Robber Barons’ State imposes on the wage slaves the following conditions for living in the country that they stole: payment of the nationality and property tax, support for their wars of conquest, and belief in their God. The slaves’ fulfillment of these requirements determines the Barons’ power to exist in human society as the predatory ruling class.
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Tuesday, November 25 | 8:11 AM The truth about the nature of the ruling class and their relation with society is distorted by the operators of their propaganda machine, that is, politicians, chaplains, generals, intellectuals, journalists, teachers, labor union bosses, and political psychologists. The operators call the rulers entrepreneurs and their predatory activity free enterprise. The State imposes these lies on society’s mind with the morality of the Nuclear Bomb and the God whose blessings the Congress and the Joint Chiefs of Staff invoke before starting a war of conquest.
Sunday, November 30 | 1:14 PM I walk the avenues of the Great West, populated by gasoline stations and Automated Teller Machines, looking for the meaning of life. I come to a supermarket where I stand at the entrance smiling, without a preconceived intention, at the consumers who enter and exit, impelled by the primitive instinct generated by their metabolic needs.
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Monday, December 1 | 7:25 AM In the empire of the manifest destiny, demarcated by the bones of magnificent Native Americans and African slaves, it is easier to find the personification of hunger than the reason of free enterprise in the neighborhoods impoverished by the State armed with the war budget.
Monday, December 1 | 8:34 AM The question that continues to defy the human primates is: how can they retain the awareness of themselves and the world in which they practiced it through the process of the death of the brain?
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Sunday, December 7 | 11:00 AM To understand life and thus be able to live it freely, you only need to aspire the sky deeply, close your eyes softly, and submerge your head, silently, in the clarity that emerges from the emptiness that thoughts and things cannot fill.
Saturday, December 20 | 8:23 AM The comparison of one’s self with another may serve as the measure of ignorance or wisdom. The truth of mortality does not change when a person who is healthy compares themselves with another who is sick to decide whose life is more valuable. Life cannot be infused with the false sense of self-importance that comparison produces. One cannot be a mountain, an ocean, or a cloud. How, then, can one be greater than something or someone else?
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Saturday, December 20 | 8:23 AM The human primates are made of the same bacteria that formed itself in the boiling mud pits during the youth of Earth. The claim that they are beings who were created by a God is a revelation of the claimants’ ignorance, which they justify with their arrogance.
Sunday, December 21 | 2:35 PM The human primates are equal to the sum of the elements that constitute their potency. Therefore, they are the measure of their life and death. Once they have implanted this truth on their awareness, they will revolutionize the world that they form with their thoughts.
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Monday, December 22 | 10:03 AM After 2,014 years, since the Christian Church imposed the Anno Domini, the Church and the State have not eradicated hate from the mind of the society that they created with the Creed of the Resurrection and Free Enterprise as rational instruments of government and civilization. On the contrary, the parasitic caste, integrated by the men of God and the men of the State, that controls the life and death of society continue to incite the tax-paying slaves to make war against each other to cultivate their minds with brutality as a civilized desire. The Church’s and the State’s excitement of the holy and patriotic war is the condition for the maintenance of the environment that the plutocracy needs to exist as a predator of its species protected by official indulgences.
Sunday, December 28 | 9:58 AM The wind that carries the emotions sprung in the field of vibration of the objects of the mind and blew them, like clouds, until they dissipated in space.
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Notes from My Mobile Brain
Tuesday, December 30 | 8:12 AM Repulsion arises in the mind of the human primate after the chewing gum of pleasure dries out on their tongue, and they feel the need to expel it. Pleasure and repulsion, arisen from desire, are the parameters within which they live, like birds in cages, to protect themselves from their instinct to love freely.
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The Ending Note I was born from an unconscious explosion of desire. I will die when the conscious air consumes my fire.
A Note to the Other Waiting in the Future You, the one in the now, are caught in the agitation of the circumstances that you generate with your struggle to stay erected to contain the disintegration of the institutions of your pleasures. You are the other who is waiting in the future for the atomic remains of your reactions to your self-induced illusions of emotional permanence in the constant motion of space-time.
Epilogue I devoted the bloom of my affections to the cultivation of pure disdain for the value of living in conformity. Like a falcon, inflamed with intention, perched on a high electrical wire, I exposed the reason for my skepticism of the canons of the militarized order. In the court of the oracles that dictate the infallible sentences of liberty, I revealed the conspiracy of piety and power. And I danced for the revival of intellectuality, with the magic mushroom in my head, until the flower of my ideal began to dissipate within the light cycles of the infinite mind. —Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Bibliography Books by Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS In Transition Towards Poetry (Spanish Edition)
1978
What’s the Meaning of All This?
1988
I Was Caught in a Cloudy Turbulence
1989
First Amendment: Rejected Stories
1989
When I Was a Boy, I Had Wings
1990
Somnambulist (Spanish Edition)
1990
The Liberation of the Senses
1991
Quando Era Menino Tinha Asas Translation by Teresinka Pereira
1991
It Hurts to Feel (1st Edition: 1992)
2017
This Life Isn’t Mine
1994
Visions of a Somnambulist (Spanish Edition)
2011
In Transition Towards Poetry: Granada (Nicaragua), 2014 the Bourgeoisie, and the FSLN (Spanish Edition) Nicaragua: The Dialogue Between the Doctrinaire Priests and the Trustees (Spanish Edition)
2014
Socialism of the XXI Century or the Antirevolution (Spanish Edition)
2016
Notes from My Mobile Brain
2017
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Magazines That Have Published HuGóS’ Work Poema Censurado - Los Angeles, CA, U.S.
1977
La Prensa Literaria - Managua, Nicaragua
1977
Poema Convidado - Boulder, CO, U.S.
1978
Taller - León, Nicaragua
1978
Rojo y Negro - Los Angeles, CA, U.S.
1978
L.A. Weekly - Los Angeles, CA, U.S.
1987
Directory of International Writers and Artists Moorhead, MN, U.S.
1988
Mutated Viruses - Chicago, IL, U.S.
1988
Sacrifice the Common Sense - Los Angeles, CA, U.S.
1989
For Poets Only - Jackson Heights, NY, U.S.
1989
The Nocturnal Lyric - Pasadena, CA, U.S.
1989
Southern Rose Review - Ripley, MS, U.S.
1989
The Plowman - Ontario, Canada
1989
Worldwide Poets’ Circle / Poetry by the Seas Oceanside, CA, U.S.
1989
The Aldebaran - Bristol, RI, U.S.
1990
Gypsy - El Paso, TX, U.S.
1990
Poetalk - Berkeley, CA, U.S.
1990
Harvest 15 - Boulder, CO, U.S.
1991
Transição - Boulder, CO, U.S.
1991
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Ráfagas - Paris, France
1993
Estrella del Sur - Paterna, Valencia, España
1997
Lluvia de Vidrio - Azul, Buenos Aires, Argentina
1997
La Crónica de Jaén / Poesía Sin Fronteras - Jaén, Andalucía, España
1999
Free Venice Beachhead - Venice, CA, U.S.
2011
mundopoesía.com - U.S.
2012
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The Notes Recorder
About the Author 1. I Who I Am I am a Deoxyribonucleic acid (DNA) specimen who evolved on Earth from star dust and bacterium, approximately, 3 billion years ago. Life and the law of natural selection transformed my ancestors into Homo Erectus. Led by their curiosity about themselves and the universe, they created fire and the first tools of cognition. The intellect that they developed and transferred to my genes transformed me into a Homo Sapiens. When my curiosity is stimulated, I can ratiocinate, discern, and laugh, para-normally in the dark, like a child entrapped by his fascination with dementia.
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2. Birth My mother told me that she gave birth to me in the room where she lived with my older brother, Franklin Bartolomé Gómez Sequeira, in the Santa Lucía ghetto of the City of Granada, Nicaragua, Central America. Her neighbor gave her first aid until my maternal grandmother, Dolores (Mama Lola) Lacayo de Sequeira, arrived and helped her deliver me. At midday, I came out of her uterus yawning and hungry. My Mama Lola severed my umbilical cord and buried it in a hole in the Earth, without a marker, on March 12, 1949. After I had turned three years old, without having spoken any of the words of childhood, my mother told me that she started to fear that I, perhaps, was born mute. To solve her doubt, one day she put me to the test, to see how I would react. She did not give me the bottle of milk at the time on which I was accustomed to receiving it. “Then, you came to me, pulled my dress, and told me: ‘Mama, milk.’ And this is how I found out that you were normal.” “One day [mother continues telling me the story of my childhood] you drank from the tin where I kept the creolin because you were a glutton and, perhaps, you thought it was milk [creolin changes color, from blackish-brown to white, when it is mixed with water]. However, thanks to God, you did not die."
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3. Memories 3.1 A Wild Plant I grew up, accidentally, like a wild plant, in La Otra Banda, a reducción (reduction) that was built in Granada by the Spanish Empire and the Catholic Empire to intern the dispossessed survivors of their war of conquest and pillage against the indigenous nations. It was part of the remains of the encomienda and Indian reductions plan that the Spanish Empire’s soldiers, encomenderos (trustees of land and native slaves), and curas doctrineros (the catholic doctrinaire priests) executed in Nicaragua. The reduced natives, turned into proletarians, were the basis of the Xalteva Church: A source of forced faith, labor, and payment of tribute to a monarchy whose colonialist descendants still live off the wealth that they inherited from the genocide and the larceny that their ancestors committed against the indigenous and Afro-descendant nations. After my mother had impregnated me with her blood, the Church and the State marked me as their farm animal with the same iron of identification with which they had marked my parents and grandparents: proletarian. Thus, the bourgeoisie maintained its false sense of superior identity pure as the ruling class and its life superimposed on the life of the proletariat as its enemy. After centuries since the Spanish Empire and the Catholic Empire had led the colonial war, the power of the bourgeoisie and its confessor remained intact. The imposition of the catholic cross and the law of private property of the stolen land on the foreheads of the proletarians also was the Page 105
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condition of the Colonialist Catholic Church’s existence as the as the conqueror of the soul of the conquered. The purpose of the reduction was to serve as the physical, psychological, and cultural reducer of the natives’ life. The encomenderos and curas doctrineros demarcated their space with the whip, the crucifix, punishment, and fear. Thus they implanted in the reduced natives’ mind the illusion that God had created the rich and the poor. The curas doctrineros’ sermon exalted the natives’ dispossession as a condition that earned them the sympathy of God. The elements of the natives’ world that the catholic colonialists created were dispossession, obscurantism, illiteracy, superstition, alcoholism, violence, confession, punishment, and the fear of the God that the Spanish Army had imported to Nicaragua as a war weapon. The confession of faith in God and Somoza was the norm within which the curas doctrineros and the National Guardsmen had framed the lives of the natives who had been conquered to enlarge the power, the faith, and the coffers of Spain and the Vatican. The unequal struggle against the bourgeoisie and the clergy for the possession of the wealth that they produced was the reducer of the proletarians’ need to overthrow the reduction. Dispossession mixed with the superstition that they were born “poor” prevented their rising as the historical subjects of reality, that is, life as a natural, sensual, scientific, and political event. The surrendering of their will to God and the bourgeoisie’s curas doctrineros and encomenderos produced the state of conformity, precariousness, and political impotence in which they had lived for centuries. The relationship between the oppressors and the oppressed of Granada—under One God made in Rome and Page 106
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One Dictator made in the U.S.—that engendered me was the same during the colonial period. The conquerors instituted themselves as the reason and moral for the existence of the conquered that they consumed throughout their generations. My maternal grandparents also lived in La Otra Banda as the inheritors of the dehumanizing effects of the war of economic, mental and cultural dispossession, and enslavement that the Spanish Empire and the Catholic Empire unleashed against Nicaragua in 1522.
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3.2 The Pacific Railway of Nicaragua One of the memories of the life that I lived in Granada, Nicaragua, is the station of the Pacific Railway of Nicaragua. There, Montenegro, my coworker, and I boarded the train’s third-class carriage in the early morning, together with the peasants who, like us, were going to sell their products in the towns whose territories were crossed by the train tracks. For us, the kids who were studying at the Padre Misieri Elementary School—which was a neighbor of the train station—the train was like a giant horse with wheels that had evolved in the imagination of humanity. It stimulated our joy when we heard the sound of its whistle, and the roar of its engine announcing its return from Corinto. After the teacher dismissed the class, at four in the afternoon, we ran towards the train station, jumped into its cars, and joined it in its final trip to the warehouse located at the Lake Nicaragua pier. When the workers had finished unloading the goods that the train brought in its wagons and depositing them in the warehouse, the machinist operated the locomotive in reverse until we arrived at the turntable at the train station. There, we helped the driver push the locomotive’s head to turn it around for its journey back to the stations of the North on the next morning. The train arrived in Granada as a noble ambassador that crossed the Coalbrookdale Iron Bridge in England to bring the news of the fire of the industrial revolution that the proletariat had ignited in Europe. Its fiery and sonorous head came full of dreams, games, romances, and progress for the Page 108
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pillaged nation. It was a historical monument to the proletariat for its contribution to the development of the transportation of production and efficiency in the satisfaction of the needs of society. The progress of the nation—especially of the proletarian family who looked after the train—depended on the preservation and development of it as part of the culture of a nation that had been looted and kept in backwardness. The reactionary bourgeoisie—which was engendered by the Spanish Empire, the Catholic Empire, and the Yankee Empire—saw the train only as a commodity that did not produce surplus value. Although the workers had built it as a ship to travel to the future—with vision, determination, and steel—the train became a fragile object in the hands of Adolfo Díaz Recinos who was a trusted bandit of the White House and the Holy See. As a member of the Conservative Party, Díaz Recinos took the power of the State in 1911 with the backing of the Colonialist Catholic Church (CCC) and the U.S. Marine Corps, whose violent intrusion in the life of Nicaragua he requested. As the former secretary of the La Luz and Los Angeles Mining Company—owned by James Gilmore Fletcher and his brothers, G. Fred & D. Watson Fletcher, and Henry P. Fletcher—, Diaz Recinos helped the Yankee pirates steal the gold from the mines of the nation. His treacherous relationship with Nicaragua was the product of his lack of a sense of selfownership, independence, character, and political morality. Being a house servant of Yankee pirates was his source of selfrealization and pride. Unlike Augusto César Sandino, Díaz Recinos did not have the sense of dignity nor did he understand it as the Page 109
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principal value of the nation. Therefore, he handed control of the finances of the State and the train to the bandits Brown Brothers & Company and J. & W. Seligman & Company as security for loans to consolidate the State debt. Following his example, the Conservative, Liberal, and Sandinista politicians that have succeeded him in the Government have not rejected the collection of the odious debt as the exercise of a national liberation duty. On the contrary, they continue to indebt and sell the country as a profitable commodity. The Conservative Party undermined the future of the train as a social good and stimulus for the development of the nation, which was supported by the faithful work of the proletariat. The Yankee imperialist usurers infected the minds of their Nicaraguan encomenderos (their trusted bandits, vendepatrias or traitors, in the Government) with their modus operandi: bribery, fraud, lying, and aggressing. The usurers converted their Nicaraguan henchmen into the transmitters of the political corruption plague that continues to dominate the conduct of the bureaucracy that exploits the Catholic Bourgeois State. DĂaz Recinos created the political mannequin which continues to be the model of conduct that all his successors in the Government have followed. His creeping behavior, shamelessness, lying, stealing, self-indulgence, and social indifference became the characteristics of the new generations of catholic politicians. Like their Conservative founding father, they do not have character and are corruptible under the heat of the desire for power, fortune, and fame. The rulers who had the duty of preserving the train continued using it as a pawning object with a value relative to Page 110
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their meanness and political advantage. Therefore, they neglected, dismantled, and, finally, Violeta Barrios Torres de Chamorro—who was the President of Nicaragua in 1994— sold it as scrap metal. Doña Violeta also took the power of the State with the backing of the CCC and the Yankee Empire under the Presidency of George Herbert Walker Bush, a member of the Republican Party. Doña Violeta ended what Díaz Recinos started out with the same vendepatria (traitorous) mentality of sacrificing the heritage of the nation to keep fattening the Yankee imperialist usurers with the bloody payment of interest on the odious debt. The train was an instrument of work, life, joy, and poetic inspiration for the thousands of people who inhabited the towns it visited. The declaration of love for the train of Norma Ramos—an Agent at the Mateare Station—reveals the feeling that the proletariat had developed for it, and the true motherland consciousness. In interview with Canal 10 Nicaragua—for the Documentary the Train: On the Rails of Memory—on September 23, 2011, Ms. Ramos said: "It was like my husband, everything, everything to me." She cried the tears of the value of her relation with the train. However, the lackeys of the Yankee imperialist usurers, the bourgeoisie, and the Vatican who lived off the State’s usufruct eliminated it to comply with the conditions of the army of social extermination called International Monetary Fund (IMF) and World Bank (WB). The politicians that destroyed the value of the train for the life of the proletariat revealed the truth of their consciousness. To them, the national heritage is a merchandise subject to the law of supply and demand. Therefore, love for the motherland and loyalty to her are feelings that are not a condition for their existence. In Page 111
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economic reality, politicians are social parasites who live off the sale of the resources of the country they claim to represent. Love and loyalty are only objects of their demagogic speeches in their political campaigns, driven by their ambition, falsehood, and social indifference.
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3.3 The Catholic Somoza Dinasty I woke up to the cognitive life in a society whose citizens had adapted to the life of indifferent prisoners of the dictatorship of the Colonialist Catholic Church and Anastasio Somoza García, the so-called Tacho. He was another trusted villain of the Holy See and the White House whom they had designated as the overseer of their interest in Nicaragua. Tacho, who had appointed himself General—after failing as a businessman—was the boss of the bourgeois, catholic, proYankee imperialist, and terrorist Mafia that controlled the life of the nation, the exploitation of the proletariat, and the appropriation of the wealth that the working class produced. The features of that world—which had been shaped by the violence of the Spanish Empire, the Catholic Empire, and the Yankee Empire—were the social scourges that had formed on the open wounds of the consciousness of the survivors of the Indigenous Holocaust. To convert them into faithful tributary slaves, the empires’ armies dehumanized them, and attempted to extirpate their instinct for freedom, and independence. Illiteracy, unemployment, impoverishment, alcoholism, prostitution, diseases, social violence, and fear of God and Somoza’s National Guard—which was trained by the U.S. Marine Corps—were also the conditions of the time in which my parents were born: The occupation of Nicaragua by the Yankee Marines. The Catholic Somoza Dictatorship shaped the mind of my mother and father with the same mold that the encomenderos and curas doctrineros used to forge the dispossessed indigenous family model during the colonial period, which was based on Page 113
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the exploitation of children by their parents. The dictatorship maintained this kind of family—with obscurantism, faith, and alcohol—to keep the new generations of dispossessed slaves detained in the same social jail in which their parents were born. My parents did not liberate themselves from the prison of faith in God and the State because they did not build the necessary scientific and revolutionary awareness of themselves, the world, and their relationship with it. Their condition was not the effect of a genetic flaw in the evolution of their perception. Rather, it was the result of the occupation of their minds and their ancestors’ minds by their colonial oppressors, their religion, and their economy. To fulfill the political mission of their Colonialist Catholic Church, the curas doctrineros suppressed my progenitors’ instinct for freedom and marked their foreheads with the words “Confiteor” and “Creed” as the manifestation of the purpose of their lives. The confession of sin and the declaration of belief in God—the acts of fear that the Holy Inquisition induced in their victims—were the psychological instruments with which the doctrinaire priests reduced their thinking to the most minimal expression of obscurantism. My originators’ religious slavery was the result of the spiritual defeat of the native nations in the Spanish Empire’s and the Catholic Empire’s war to dehumanize, dispossess, and convert them into slaves of the Christian salvation tributary system. Granada accepted their condition as the exercise of their freedom of worship. The citizens did not see it as a crime of dehumanization because the Catholic Emotion Machine had replaced their sense of humanity with the image of a Page 114
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crucified stranger. Therefore, my parents became the thoughtless transmitters of the traumas that they absorbed from their relationship with their parents. The context in which the transmission happened was the same: A semi-feudal society controlled by sorcerers armed with crucifixes and illiterate soldiers armed with M1 Garands which the Yankee Empire had donated to the Catholic Somoza Dictatorship. The method that my progenitors used to relate with me—the imposition of Catholicism, forced labor, physical punishment, contempt, and domestic violence influenced by my father’s alcoholism—produced a relationship ruled by patriarchal power, intimidation, superstition, and emotional distance. The way they treated me was a reflection of the whip that the encomenderos and curas doctrineros used to reduce the indigenous and Afro-descendant nations. The proletarian family which was thus formed by the Catholic Somoza Dictatorship was the matrix that produced the slaves who supported the base of the pyramid on whose cusp the bourgeoisie, its dictator, and Bishop lived opulently.
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3.4 Adolescence in a Catholic City In 1962, I was shaken by the explosion in my testicles of the testosterones which caused the spontaneous downpours of sperm that announced the start of the puberty of my life. I became an adolescent in a catholic City. The chemical upheaval in my body coincided with the Telstar 1 telecommunications revolution. My adolescence had sprung in a world undergoing the political convulsions caused by the inequality imposed by the Church and the State and the dispossessed people’s struggle for survival. At the White House, John F. Kennedy approved the use of the defoliant Agent Orange in the Yankee Plutocracy’s war against the Vietnamese people. Pope John XXIII excommunicated Fidel Alejandro Castro Ruz for supporting a “communist government.” And the Sandinista Front for National Liberation endeavored to become a revolutionary force capable of accelerating the speed of the wheel of the cart that carried the effects of Nicaragua’s rural life. Meanwhile, Granada lived as a blessed believer that communicated through the confessional and the Telegraph. The information generated by the life of the rest of humanity, inventions and revolutions, was censored by the Security Office. It was the main arm of the catholic, bourgeois, proYankee imperialist, and terrorist dictatorship led by Luis Anastasio Somoza Debayle, the so-called Luisito. He had become the de facto President of Nicaragua after his father, Anastasio Somoza García, the so-called Tacho, was executed by Rigoberto López Pérez. Rigoberto was a poet who assumed the nation’s duty bringing Tacho to justice for his crimes. Page 116
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The Telstar 1 transmissions did not touch the citizens’ foreheads because they lived like the characters in a series of religious scenes projected on the chimeric space of a stamp. Their behavior did not reveal they knew they were elements of a world that moved and changed. For centuries, the Colonialist Catholic Church (CCC) had conditioned their minds with the Ecclesiastical Calendar and the sound of the bell that called them to the temple to confess their sins, repent, receive penance, and pay the resurrection tithe. The curas doctrineros (the catholic doctrinaire priests) had transmitted the historical trauma caused by the Spanish Empire’s indigenous holocaust through the minds of the new generations of slaves of the Holy See as the unbroken link that had kept them in a state of religious alienation since 1524. After years of ink-on-paper independence from the Spanish Empire, the City had not created an autonomous life because it had surrendered itself—as a defeated and terrorized animal—to its soul hunters irremediably. The citizens of Granada lived as an organ attached to the parasitic body of the clergy through the umbilical cord of their concern with guilt for sin, penance, and redemption. Catholic indoctrination had turned them into objects of their mortification. Their acts of faith before a crucifix were modern forms of human sacrifice to appease the wrath of a God that they did not know but feared and wanted as their redeemer. That conflict kept them in a psychotic state—without signs of vigor or freedom—which was the link of their addiction to the objects of religion. The Colonialist Church had succeeded in replacing the citizens’ instinct, that is, the logical operation of their neurons with the dependence of their minds on the hallucinatory rites it conducted. Page 117
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The struggle of the City’s classes for survival did not stimulate their dissent with themselves as the objects of a backward mode of production stimulated with the incense of Catholicism. Bourgeois and proletarians lived in the illusion that they were children of the same Motherland and Holy Mother Church. The static force of religion neutralized the social transformation potential implicit in their class interest and their interaction through the system of production of the nation's wealth. The result of the illusion was a citizenry suspended in time, like a relic. In the social reality, the proletarians were the survivors of the Indigenous Holocaust that the encomenderos and curas doctrineros had dispossessed and forced into tributaryslavery. Unlike the bourgeois, the proletarians did not have a political party nor struggled against their class enemies armed with their class consciousness. The conquered and the conquerors participated in the Eucharist and had become the fearful objects of the Catholic Somoza Dictatorship. Praying “May God's will be done” and kneeling before a doctrinaire priest to accept the impression of an ash cross on their foreheads seemed to transfuse into their minds the sense of equality and peace between them. The Catholic Somoza Dictatorship’s holy men and guardsmen had paralyzed the citizens’ free, mundane, and revolutionary instinct with terror. The delusion of guilt for the “original sin” kept them praying “I confess to Almighty God” on their knees in a temple. Superstition had replaced their evolutionary, social need to confront themselves in the mirror of the real world that moved, constantly driven by hunger, the class struggle for survival, politics, and revolution. With Mass, Page 118
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political repression, and the murder of its political opponents, the dictatorship prevented the transformation of the majority of the citizens’ hunger into political consciousness and revolutionary wrath. Granada was not a City adequate to the revolution of adolescence nor the growth of revolutionary ideas. Historically, its purpose was to serve as the mansion and the garrison of the administrators of the colonial catholic power. The City was the supervisor of the exploitation of the native slaves, the pillage of Nicaragua, the collection of the tribute, and the repressor of the social overflow. The young, freethinkers, gay, poetic, and long-haired citizens were repressed by the soldiers of the colonial catholic morality as a danger to the power of the descendants of the thieves who stole the native nations’ land and the spirit of their freedom. The conservative ruling class confronted the youth’s impetus for freedom, sexuality, and creativity with the spectacle of the Passion and Independence Day to confuse their desire. The CCC had converted Granada into a Holy Week Relic that it sold to the resurrection tithe-payers to maintain the power of the Vatican Bank and the College of Cardinals’ opulent lifestyle.
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4. Education Diplomas Elementary School: Escuela Padre Misieri - Granada, Nicaragua High School: Colegio Salesiano San Juan Bosco - Granada, Nicaragua Industrial Clerk: Associated Colleges of California - Los Angeles, California, U.S. Professional Legal Assistant: American International Career College - San Diego, California, U.S.
Exams Passed Civil Service: City of Los Angeles Government - California, U.S. Notary Public: State of California Government - U.S. Translator (from Spanish to English): Los Angeles City College - Los Angeles, California, U.S.
Studies Jurisprudence: Universidad Centroamericana (UCA) Managua, Nicaragua English Language: Alemany Adult High School - San Francisco, California, U.S. Associate in Arts Degree: Los Angeles City College Graphic Design: Los Angeles Trade Technical College - Los Angeles, California, U.S. Page 120
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Scholarships High School: Colegio Salesiano San Juan Bosco Associate in Arts: Los Angeles City College
Prizes First Place: Catechism knowledge contest organized by the Colonialist Catholic Church of Granada, Nicaragua. Honor Roll: Colegio Salesiano San Juan Bosco Dean’s Honor List: Los Angeles City College Second Place: Speech contest organized by the English Department of the Los Angeles City College Student of the Month: American International Career College - San Diego, California, U.S.
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5. Literary Activity Prizes Excellence in Poetry Certificate awarded by Teresinka Pereira, director of the International Society of Poetry at the University of Colorado in Boulder, CO, U.S. First Place in Poetry awarded by Lillian Walsh, editor of For Poets Only, a poetry magazine published in Jackson Heights, New York, U.S.
Edited Books Venus Is Bleeding by Roxanna Gómez Sequeira Please Don’t Circumcise My Clitoris by Roxanna Gómez Sequeira Alice in Weirdland by Roxanna Gómez-Ubau My Home Cooking by Marie Marín El Salvador: The Betrayal of the Farabundo Martí National Liberation Front (FMLN) (Spanish Edition) by Armando A. Molina On the Edge of Silence: My Journey on the Boulder by Rodolfo Sotelo Jr.
Edited Magazines Censored Poem, Red and Black, Class Struggle, Sacrifice the Common Sense, Electronic Poetry, The Darwinian Primate, Politikos, and Chemical World.
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Contributions LA Weekly - Los Angeles, California, U.S. Free Venice Beachhead - Venice, California, U.S.
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6. Work Nicaragua In Granada, HuG贸S worked as a seller of flowers and popsicles, shoeshine boy, Lazarillo or a boy who guides a blind person, Algebra tutor, newspaper reporter (El Mundo or The World), radio announcer (Radio Sport and Radio Granada), and factory worker.
United States In San Francisco, California, HuG贸S worked as a dishwashing machine operator in the kitchen of the Fairmont San Francisco Hotel for a salary of $1.00 per hour of work. In Los Angeles, California, HuG贸S worked as a dishwashing machine operator, stock clerk, factory worker, retail clerk, Notary Public, translator, and Retirement Benefits Specialist.
Public Service In the City of Los Angeles Government, HuG贸S worked in the Retirement Department as a Benefits Specialist for 30 years. In that entity, he counseled the members and beneficiaries of the retirement plan on the provisions of the Administrative Code for benefits and how to request payment of them. Furthermore, he performed the functions of Legal Assistant, a specialist in the processing of Community Property Division Court Orders, instructor, writer of manuals, Notary Public, and translator from Spanish to English.
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Work Certificates Certificate of Excellent Public Service Awarded by the Los Angeles City Employees’ Retirement System. Certificate of Employee of the Quarter awarded by the Los Angeles City Employees’ Retirement System.
Work in Behalf of Undocumented Immigrant Workers In Los Angeles, HuGóS helped undocumented immigrant workers, in 1987, to understand the terms and conditions of the Immigration Control and Reform Act (IRCA) of 1986 of the Federal Government of the United States. Moreover, he assisted them with the acquisition and translation, from Spanish to English, of the documents required by the law so that they could request amnesty and an immigrant visa.
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The Colonialist Catholic Church Abused this Boy
Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS on the day that his parents delivered him to a doctrinaire priest of the Colonialist Catholic Church, for the administration of the First Communion poisonous vaccine, at the San José Chapel of the San Juan de Dios Hospital. Granada, Nicaragua. Circa 1956.