Back in the Saddle

Returning to riding after having a baby was a daunting task for me. I had been away from the saddle for almost two years, and my body had changed drastically during that time. My confidence in my ability was low, and I felt overwhelmed with emotions at the thought of getting back into the saddle. Was I going to have time to ride consistently, and would it cut into my family time with my husband and new daughter?

The primary emotion I felt before riding again was excitement mixed with anticipation. Although there were some fears associated with riding, there were also strong feelings of joy and enthusiasm at reconnecting with something which had brought me great joy before.

The secondary emotion I felt was fear. There were worries about climbing up on a horse again and being strong and agile enough to handle possible spooks, bucks, missteps, and common whoopsies that happen while riding. It had been so long since I’d last been on a horse, and I had this new internal characteristic in me since my daughter was born called “mom fear.”

“Mom fear” is a very real phenomenon for new mothers, especially when it comes to taking up activities that they enjoyed prior to becoming pregnant. This anxiety can be heightened with the introduction of a baby into the household, as caring for an infant means that there is less time and energy for other pursuits. Additionally, post-pregnancy changes in the body can make it difficult to take up activities which were previously easy or enjoyable. Not to mention, my new horse was right off the track and 17.2 hands.

Despite the fear, I was determined to get back in the saddle. I knew that with a little determination and how I scheduled my days, I could make time for it in my schedule. I set up regular times at the barn. With support and understanding from my husband and barn family, I slowly began building back up my confidence as a rider.

As I get further along, I have plans to take my new horse to schooling shows in the near future. I am excited, but I do have a bit of trepidation at the thought of going out in public with my big, green horse. I have been very conscientious with who I surround myself with as an adult amateur rider, and I am placing all my trust in my circle of barn people. They help hold me accountable with my goals and to take lessons and mount up regularly. I feel this time next year I will be back to my old self, which is a barn rat that can’t wait to jump in the saddle on the first, warm, spring day!

Lauren Pigford Abbott Publisher & Owner