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What hidden parts of ourselves arise in thenight? What is behind the veneer of our public, presentable daytime selves? Part photo series and part interview, this project aims to shine a mirror to the most secretive, vulnerable parts of ourselves that come to the surface in the night.

By Sarah Liu

I feel safer being vulnerable enough to be seen by myself and others at night because I know that there's this literal safety of not being fully visible.

Taking a second to relax even if I've gotten a lot done during the day feels like a pleasure I can't afford. But at night, I feel like I can lean into the nothingness a little more because all that's ahead of me is sleep.

It gives them space to breathe. They're not really being looked at; the distortion of perception feels like it goes down. It feels more naked and raw.

Sometimes the nighttime feels filled with a yearning.

In the day, I have expectations for myself and who I should be and what I should be doing. But at night time, I can just be free and loose: do whatever I want to do, be whoever I want to be.

I feel like there's such an expectation during the day that I put on myself to be productive and busy. What I do during the daytime is already mapped out for me. But at night, I feel like the only expectation is to have fun.

At night, I feel like whatever emotion I'm having is more dramatic.

When I'm busy throughout the day, that's when I'm working through my emotions and then night time is when I reflect on and document those emotions.

At night I can easily just allow myself to truly be bored and mess around, to just exist and not put any pressure on myself to be doing anything.

Because of what I do in school, nighttime is my time to lean into more of my creative side. Lately, something I've really been enjoying is just watching a show and making jewelry. I like thinking about and assembling my outfit for the next day.

The part of myself that is more neurotic and emotional is pretty loud all throughout the day, but I feel like the freedom I have at nighttime allows me to truly just get lost in a thought or in something that I'm grappling with.

At night, everyone's walking to places and going places with their friends. It's almost inviting: you can feel the campus kind of buzzing.

I feel more shy during the day. The sun's out, everything's exposed. At night is when I feel more confident; I want to go out and I feel more outgoing… I feel more me at night.

I feel like the realest version of myself is when I'm getting ready, that space between day time order and nighttime party. Because I'm with my friends, I'm getting excited but I'm not really crazy yet.

There's a certain uncertainty to the night time that isn't related to the daytime. Getting ready to go out, it’s like, I don't know what could happen… it could be a really good night, it could be an awful night. I could meet someone. We'll find out.