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The Dreaming Short stories by
Francis Rosenfeld
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Table of Contents The Dreaming………................….........4 Improbable Story.....……..……………...5 The Candle......................……………....6 Becoming Marie Celeste......................10
The Dreaming Last night I dreamt of Australia again.
I was a young girl with dark eyes and sun kissed skin, barely out of my childhood, riding through the Outback, wild and free, with the wind in my hair, chasing fast-moving clouds and struggling to hold on to the mane on my temperamental brumby, trying to synchronize my heartbeats with the rhythm of its gallop, breathing as one, moving as one. The majestic mass of Uluru beckoned from the distance, glowing fiercely in the sunset in carnelian and pomegranate hues as if on fire, calling out to me ‘you are life, don’t you know that? You are life itself.’ ‘Yes, Mother,’ I answered it, ‘I am truly alive, just like you.’ The colt stirred the red dirt with impatient hooves and a deep night sky opened suddenly, like a giant umbrella covered in the intricate embroidery of the Sagittarius constellation. One after another, lights from before Earth’s beginning appeared, large and bright - the Southern Cross, the Jewel Box, Carina, Antares, the glowing ember heart of Scorpius. ‘Open your heart,’ they whispered, ‘to memories from another life, lived under stars you’ve never seen.’ And I smiled at the stars. I smiled, and I remembered. Photo by Merethe
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She thought she was home until the second moon appeared She thought she was home, because everything looked exactly as she remembered it: the path to the front door of her cottage, guarded by tall hollyhocks and delphiniums, the moss on the stone by the pond, the scent of the rain. For sure she thought she was home and she didn’t give the night a single thought until that second moon appeared. “Mom,” she ran all the way to her mother’s bedroom, screaming off the top of her lungs, “mom, mom, come quick! Mother!!” Her mother rushed to her aid and met her half way down the corridor, stumbling and filled with dread that something horrible might have happened to her child, and she got really upset when she learned it was
Improbable Story nothing but a disturbing display of foolishness. “Of course there are two moons, Cherie, go back to bed!” “But mom…” she insisted. “Enough! I should have listened to your uncle, you really like to stir up drama,” her mother mumbled from the corridor on her way back to her room. “What were you doing outside, anyway? It’s the middle of the night!” “But…” Cherie protested softly, mostly to herself now that her mother was already out of sight.
She went back outside to see the moons, and yes, there were still two.
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She watched them all night, in awe, until the sun peeked over the horizon and the blush of dawn caressed the familiar contours of the roof and cast a rosy glow on the tops of the sugar maples. “Get ready for school, Cherie, the bus will be here any minute. Did you eat your breakfast?” Cherie nodded, even though she hadn’t eaten a single bite. Who on earth could eat under such circumstances? She went to the kitchen to grab a banana for later and, by force of habit, slid her fingers over the markings on the door post, the ones her mother carved every few months, to track her growth. “Go, dear! You’re going to be late,” mom nudged her gently. “I think I can hear the bus, oh, no, never mind, that’s Harvey’s truck.”
“I swear the century will change before he gets rid of that rust bucket. How long has he had it, twenty, twenty five years?” “Mother,” Cherie started reluctantly, “you know how I asked you last night about the moons?” “Yes, what about them?” her mother asked, careful not to burn herself as she put the bread pudding in the oven. “What are they called?” “Castor and Pollux, of course! Cherie, what is this nonsense?” she asked annoyed. “But mom, how come I never knew Earth had two moons?” “Earth? What is that?” Photo by Andreas Wagner
The Candle She kept the candle lit, so luck would find her, that's what her grandmother had taught her since she was a little child.
"Light a candle," grandma said. "Light a candle, so your heart is also filled with light!" Wouldn't you know it, that candle brought her many things over the years, not just luck alone: hope through difficulty, comfort in sorrow, joy in celebration. It warmed her hands when she was cold and radiated halos around beauty, so she could see it with her heart.
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Grandma was right, the best way to see beauty is with one's heart. "What are you doing with that candle again? Have you finished your chores?" her father admonished her, just so he would have something to say, and he looked for errands to give her, because he didn't understand the purpose of the wick burning day in, day out, so wasteful, really! "Women," he mumbled to himself, "you can't look for sense where the good Lord didn't put any!" and went out on the porch, a bottle in one hand and a cigarette in the other. She kept the candle in the window, and waited for luck to come. On rainy days she lit the candle twice, just to be sure, even though luck has no trouble finding you when it rains, you don't have to worry about it, it will find you 'cause it's yours, that's what grandma said. "What do you do with luck when it finds you?" the younger sister said, her large eyes wide open to reflect the gentle glow like two little porcelain saucers painted
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with delphiniums and chicory. She was always there, the little one, to watch the candle being lit, never tiring of its soft glimmer or grandma's stories. When it rained the little sister stared for hours at the hazy halo that formed around the flame, and her heart was filled with wonder, because she could see air. "Nobody sees air, silly!" the older brother said, but then came closer to bear witness to the humid diffuse glow. "Do you think that's what luck is like? Like air? And that's why we can't see it?" the little sister asked. All three siblings gaped at the mystery of fire, trying to make out the elusive luck around it by looking at it through their eyelashes. "There is no such thing as luck!" the older
brother said, already wise. "There is no luck but the one you make! Silly people believe in luck!" he furrowed his brow. "I take it you haven't found yours yet!" grandma said, giggling softly under her breath, with the sweet voice of a lass. "She found hers, alright!" grandpa joined her in laughter. Old people could be so light hearted sometimes. The older brother wondered how they did that, life seemed hard enough already, he couldn't imagine! What does luck have to do with chopping wood and carrying water in a bucket? He glanced at grandma and grandpa, who where smiling at each other, acknowledging only they knew what, not weary of old age or young people's curiosity. The older brother started pondering whether maybe there was luck in that candle
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after all, and then, as if she had heard his thoughts, grandma turned towards him, suddenly. "Are you going to listen to me now, boy?" she looked him straight in the eye and made him lower his gaze. "What do you do with luck, grandma?" the little sister repeated her unanswered question. "First," grandma said, "you need to recognize it, otherwise it will shadow you for a lifetime and you'll never touch it. That's what the candle is for," grandma said, "to find your luck and make you see it with your heart. Once it comes, grab it with both hands, and hold on to it tight, 'cause it will try to run from you, like a young critter, but you keep holding on to it and you'll tame it, and after that it will sit in your lap, purring like a kitten," grandma said. That's why the girl kept the candle lit and waited for her luck to come. One shouldn't take luck lightly, she always thought. If luck ever found her, she knew what she wanted to do with it. She would always keep her blessings close to her heart, because luck follows good cheer like a little pup. This way she would always have it with her at every step, and weave it into love, the health of her family, the work of her hands, her children's fortune, their children's future, her home. It would keep her safe and grant her long life and teach her joy. "Why are you filling their heads with this nonsense!" mother said. “You want your luck to find you? Work your fingers to the bone!"
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mother said, turning around, her hands always full. "Idle," she scorned, "just like her father; all the good luck did him!" mother wiped her brow with the hem of her apron, dejected. "Are you going to start dinner or you're waiting for us all to serve you?" In the evening, peeling potatoes by candle light and dropping them one by one in the bowl in her lap, she waited faithfully for luck to come, and it did. Nobody noticed it at first, but she knew, she knew the second she laid eyes on it that it was luck itself, and it was hers, and it was never going to leave her, just like grandma said. Photo by Greg Racozy
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Becoming Marie Celeste Marie Celeste fumbled with the keys on the doorstep of the old house, trying to figure out which one would fit the antique keyhole and feeling kind of awkward as she handled the eerily large key ring like some sort of medieval housekeeper. The thing was ridiculously heavy, and it made Marie Celeste wonder what kind of person found it reasonable to carry around something of that heft all the time. She had trouble fitting it in her purse at home, so she had to throw it on the right seat of her car from which it stared at her, taking on a life of its own. Its presence made her physically uncomfortable, but in a gut level way that she couldn’t put into words. As surreal as her life had been in the past few years, Marie Celeste didn’t find this additional bit of weirdness jarring in the least, this unexpected inheritance from a great-aunt she never knew because her parents never talked about her, and she didn’t even
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care whether such a person really existed, or this was one more odd occurrence in the series of odd occurrences her life had become. Six years had passed since her “visit to the other side”, as she jokingly liked to call it, and even to this day, despite all of her pondering and rational analysis, she couldn’t figure out how she was still alive. The kiss of the great beyond, the experience of being no more, had left an indelible imprint on her psyche, a turning point whose life altering quality she could neither explain nor deny. She realized she’d been distracted, turned her attention back to the giant glob of metal in her hand, found the appropriate key and turned it in the lock. The rusty metal responded with an unbearable screeching sound. The air in the house was stale and damp, proof that nobody had been inside it for quite a while, but the dark furniture was spotless,
with no spec of dust on its polished surface. Marie Celeste shrugged, indifferent. Why should she care who and when cleaned this place, really? Why did she move to this city she had no ties to?
Why did her superstitious Irish mother name her after a famous ghost ship? Why did every single one of her many neighbors have a passion for classical music, and exercised that passion by turning up the volume until the music reached her through the walls? She had gotten most of her musical education that way, believe it or not, through this unusual teaching method she wasn’t sure whether she should be grateful for or complain about.
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The furniture came with the house, the Realtor assured her with a professional smile and an unsettling cheerfulness that seemed entirely out of place given the circumstances. It was so strange though, because the rooms showed no sign of human habitation, none of the useless knickknacks that make their way into one’s life and one doesn’t know what to do with, the odds and ends that lay about for no reason whatsoever. The Realtor must have already staged the home for sale, Marie Celeste thought, most of the stuff is probably in storage, and then she wondered where that storage was and realized she really didn’t care, all in the same thought process that left no trace on her brain in its passing. One large dark oak table with matching chairs, elaborately carved, one oldfashioned Normandy armoire, a large cheval mirror with a beveled crystal
surface, a gracefully curving sideboard with a marble top. A Louis XV chaise on thin legs that seemed to buckle under the weight if its silk upholstered pillows, a side table upon which sat a Turkish style light fixture, an old ornate kerosene lamp which had been adapted to accommodate a real lightbulb and wiring. Quality reproductions of classic impressionist paintings on the walls, but no photos, or any other items of personal significance that could have told Marie Celeste anything about the preferences and habits of her departed great-aunt. The whole house felt wrong somehow, too old, even for an unknown great-aunt allegedly advanced in her years, impersonal, like the decor of a movie set. She stopped in the middle of the squeaky floor not knowing what to do next, and gazed through the spotless windows out into the spotless garden, and thought to herself that if this
great-aunt of hers really existed she must have been the tidiest person ever born. A creaking pipe startled her out of her daydreaming and she proceeded up the stairs in the same somewhat absent state of mind that had defined her existence since the “event”. She didn’t want to call it what it was, despite the countless support group meetings and counseling sessions and friendly pep talks, because the term near death experience sounded so clinical, like a machine’s mechanical failure, what did those people know about life and death, anyway? They all seemed so keen to offer advice and guidance, which Marie Celeste bitterly cast into categories inside her mind sorting them into unwelcome, marginally useful and simply inept, because she couldn’t describe it to another person, that last-minute decision not to walk past the halfway point of the passageway that connects life to the other life,
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connects, not divides, and the absolute knowing that death doesn’t really exist. “Everything in her life had felt weird since she had returned to the land of the living, so to speak, and she was sure life didn’t really change at all from the way it was before, just decided to reveal its inherent strangeness to her freshly sharpened sight. ” Marie Celeste was nel mezzo del camin, that ineffable point in one’s life one can only recognize after one passed it, an experience not unlike her “visit” in fact, she thought amused, and it gave her no bitterness, nor
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did she feel the need to run a tally of her life, as one is tempted to do under these circumstances, for how do you draw the line under something without end? Her cell phone rang and startled her out of her existential musings, but she didn’t answer it, just took a mental picture of the four post bed, the bathroom with antique plumbing fixtures, and a couple of walls with built in shelves, filled with books from top to bottom. ‘Why am I really here?’ she wondered,
very unlikely. The phone rang again, with a ring tone she was sure she didn’t set up because it sounded too much like an alarm clock for her taste. She gazed at the screen, saw the call was made from an unknown number and let it go to voice mail. ‘What a beautiful place!’ She gasped at the sudden sight of the enormous attic with the open rafters going up twenty, twenty-five feet, and the bright and colorful light filtered through the stained glass of the dormer windows. ‘What a beautiful place’, she thought, and had a sudden and undeniable realization that she had in fact walked the passageway all the way to its end, and it had lead her here, to this odd house, too old for its age, this house she was certain had not been inhabited for close to a century and yet was maintained in pristine condition by means unknown. The light from the colored glass windows met the gem of the ring on her finger, bounced off its faceted surface and dispersed on the walls in a delicate and sophisticated circular pattern. She didn’t try to figure out the physics of the light’s reflection, she just spent some time admiring the beautiful kinetic art the sunlight had offered her as a gift. The phone rang again, irritatingly, and she
surprised that she had maintained the capacity to be amazed by the absurd events life threw at her. Who inherits a house out of the blue? Who stops half way between life and death and doesn’t know which way to go? Sometimes she felt she was still inside that passageway watching her self wade through the events of life, all of which seemed to have the spellbinding appeal of elevator music and the same repetitive nature. Who inherits a house out of the blue? The obsessive thought washed over her mind as she walked up the rickety stairs leading to the attic, no doubt a relic from the house’s more distant past. She wondered how old the house was, or whether she should worry about mice or rats, and then she remembered the spotless windows and the perfect garden and the total absence of dust on the furniture and realized that would be
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wondered what inconsiderate person needed her so badly right then, and then some muffled voices rose from downstairs and Marie Celeste was sure the Realtor had brought a potential buyer already and decided on the spot she would not sell, but the voices became strangely familiar and louder as they came up the stairs to find her. She felt a hand on her shoulder and the sound of the ringing phone grew in intensity. She jerked, annoyed, and instinctively slammed her hand on top of the alarm clock. The ringing stopped. “Maizie, get up, we’re going to be late! Did you forget about the Kellers’ wedding?” her husband threw an armful of shirts on the bed, trying to decide which one to wear. Maizie stood up in bed, fully awake and annoyed by the diminutive that had stuck with her from her childhood and always made her feel like she was supposed to go scurrying for cheese. ‘Why can’t people just call me Margaret?’ she thought. ‘How hard was it to call a person Margaret?’ She got up in a crabby mood, slowly adjusted to the nagging pain in her back and started walking towards the bathroom. “Which one?” her husband presented her with two shirt options. “The cream one, of course,” she mumbled, frowning. “Honey, are you ok?” her husband asked. “Did you have that dream again?” She nodded.
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“Are you sure you don’t want to talk to somebody about it?” he asked, genuinely concerned. If there was only one certainty in Maizie’s life, it was that she didn’t want to talk to somebody about it. “Did you pay the cable bill?” he asked, and continued without waiting for an answer, “where is my green tie?” “You are not going to wear the green tie at the Kellers’ wedding, are you?” Maizie went on the attack immediately. “Why not?” he asked innocently. Maizie didn’t answer, she just pulled another tie from the rack and handed it to him.“I’m not sure about this dress,” she objected, staring at herself critically in the mirror from the front and from the side. “We’re going to be late again, I don’t want to be late again! You look fine!” her husband protested.
“We’re going to sit in the back of the church anyway, given how late we already are, who cares! Nobody’s going to see you!” Maizie continued getting ready in front of the mirror, she combed her hair and put on earrings, and make-up, and perfume, and picked a scarf to match her outfit, and she couldn’t help the feeling that somewhere in the other life Marie Celeste was looking down on her from her attic, and she felt strangely comforted by the thought that when her time came, that was the place where she would go, and started thinking that she was going to have to decorate the quaint old house on the other side, because in all its charm it still looked a little sparse, all the while smiling at herself in the mirror, lost in thought. “Are you sure you’re ok, sweetheart? You worry me sometimes, you know. It was just a dream!”
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Her husband approached to figure out what was wrong with her, and he looked so distressed it made her heart sink. She worried that between being Marie Celeste up in the attic and the absolute joy of knowing that life has no end, she had been a little selfish, so she turned around and flashed him a brilliant smile.
“Of course I’m OK, dear! Why wouldn’t I be? Have you seen my purse? Now we’re really late!”
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About the Author Francis Rosenfeld has published twelve books : Terra Two, Generations, Letters to Lelia, The Plant - A Steampunk Story, Door Number Eight, Fair, A Year and A Day, Möbius' Code, Between Mirrors, The Blue Rose Manuscript, Don't Look Down and The Library. To learn more about her work, please visit Francis Rosenfeld’s Blog
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