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THERAPY ZINE: issue five, February 2020 Created/Edited/Curated & Cover Art by Frankie Francesco
CONTACT: Website: FrankieFrancescoArt.com Email: FrankieFrancescoArt@gmail.com Insta, Twitter & FB: @TherapyZine Youtube: Youtube.com/channel/UCx9C6rnPgKTXnfHpQVD9i2g Support Us: Patreon.com/TherapyZine & KickStarter Published by The Therapy Zine Group, Las Vegas, Nevada, United States Copyright 2019 Frankie Francesco/The Therapy Zine Group. All Rights Reserved to featured creators.
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CREATORS Frankie Francesco
Jaycie Weeks
Alby Vee
@formugs
@jayy_double_u
@albyvee
Savannah Francesco
Madison J Devine
Noodie
@savannah_smiles727
@madisonjdevine
@noodie_the_shinobi
Young Blood (RenholderRemix) - The Naked and Famous Solita - Kali Uchis I Wanna Be Your Lover - Prince Heaven’s Only Wishful - MorMor It’s You - Ali Gatie Petite fleur (French) - Jean-Marie Riachi California - VeraForLove Ayayai - Daniela Andrade Lullaby - NERO what are you so afraid of - XXXTENTACION Arms - The Paper Kites Light My Way - Audioslave How To Never Stop Being Sad - dandelion hands Louis Ortega
Ashe Cyrena
Solar
@a.c.esme
@pup_solar
Estephani Cortez
Bernadette Sanchez
Androjinni
@princesa_azteca0927
@peachxspit
@androjinni
Victoria Prevost
Marie Valencia
Tre Wilson
@4lluring3ngima
@mysticherbs
@t.storms.arts
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letter from editor I actually did not want to write this, I kept putting it in this box in my head. Only taking out the pieces I could handle. When I say I’m over it I mean it full heartedly. Just cause we are over something though, doesn’t mean it still doesn’t affect us. I hate to admit it, but as much as I fancy myself an alien, I’m actually only human. *gasps* What brought this about was a dream, in this dream I had a conversation with my person. THE person, the one I thought would be there my entire life. The conversation became somewhat of an outlet, something I continued even after I woke up. It allowed me to process certain things, and I was reminded of the anger I’ve felt since October. This gut-wrenching feeling that I just wanna hurt something, someone or myself? The latter one came as a shock, I haven’t confronted anything like that since my teens. I’ve become pretty good at managing my depression. During the past couple months when it resurfaced it came in a different form though. I didn’t know how to handle it, it wasn’t because I was numb or stuck this time. It’s cause I was forcing myself to become numb. Not allowing myself to feel this anger. Denying myself any kind of catharsis, it made me fall back into old habits. The only feelings I’d allow myself to indulge in being; self-pity and apathy. Sitting at bars putting cigarettes out on my hand. Watching the patrons embrace each other, I’d bang my head against the wood counter. Thinking to myself “All the work I’ve done is gone, all in one night.” Blaming myself for things that are out of my control, stuck in that loop of “It’s all my fault.” Not even hours later though I recognized why this was all happening. The reason for my pain. It made me realize ironically “I am strong enough to confront this anger.” So I decided to bring it out piece by piece, still unable to understand why. I’d put it back and this time I didn’t force it to stay away. I let it take me when it came, I allowed myself to feel. My loved ones seeing this as spiraling, (Understandably so) unable to realize I may be hurt but I am in control. This is a part of my healing, and I couldn’t allow them to make me feel bad about it. If I did I could lose track of who I was becoming. My experiences matter, my feelings matter, and I have to feel them fully. Without guilt (such an unnecessary emotion.) before I could let them go, I also have to treat them, or they won’t heal properly. Metaphorically and literally speaking. these cuts, bumps and burns I get along the way will scar one day. Becoming a constant reminder of how far I’ve come. A lesson, a story and an experience written on my body and soul. One that I’m damn proud to wear. I’ve found love within myself I still don’t fully know the person I’ll become, one thing I do know is I’ll love them unconditionally.
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Contents INTRO & CREATORS.... LETTER FROM EDITOR & TOC.... BERNADETTE SANCHEZ.... ASHE CYRENA.... MARIE VALENCIA.... JAYCIE WEEKS.... ALBY VEE.... LOUIS ORTEGA.... VICTORIA PREVOST.... ESTEPHANI CORTEZ.... NOODIE.... EVENTS.... PUZZLES.... MR.DESIRED STRESSOR.... TRE WILSON.... SOLAR.... FRANKIE FRANCESCO.... SAVANNAH FRANCESCO....
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WARNING: THIS ISSUE IS PRETTY HOT AND DEFINITELY NSFW 5
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Punch Me Till I Cum a playlist by Frankie Francesco
Faceshopping - SOPHIE Hearing Damage - The Gravedancer One Kiss - Dua Lipa, Calvin Harris Gravedigger (Swear Words Remix) - MXMS Troublemaker - Oblique Riot Rhythm - Sleigh Bells Bad Reputation - Joan Jett & The Blackhearts STAR - BROCKHAMPTON You Don’t Own Me - Lesley Gore Make Me Wanna Die - The Pretty Reckless Birthday Cake - Rihanna Bring the Weight Down - Fassine we fell in love in october - girl in red Corporeal - Broadcast What Lurks On Channel X? - Rob Zombie We Appreciate Power - Grimes (Feat. HANA) Do Me - Kim Petras
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We’d like to give a big thanks to the following people for giving their support. It means the world to us that you believe in Therapy Zine as much as we do:
Carlota Francesco Vannessa Lamorte Jaycie Weeks Valerie Pietrasz Stephanie Savannah Francesco Tyler Winsatt The Creative Fund by BackerKit Anyonka Virgon Shawn Hunt BODYWORK Amber Francesco UNLV Spectrum The Phoenix Bar & Lounge FLEX Cocktail Lounge Spunk Lube Meow Wolf National Suicide Prevention Hotline
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THERAPY issue five: In this issue we welcome some new creators and columns. We also show the behind the scenes of how Art Therapy Night, our first hosted event came to be. If you haven’t read Therapy before we are a queer zine. Created by Frankie Francesco bringing together passionate, timid, experienced, & amateur creators of various talents. A place of growth & self-expression, absolutely free of judgment. Join The Therapy Group where you’re not only welcome, but you are celebrated. Find your voice with us as we find ours, submissions are always welcome.
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