Issue 109

Available in Enfield for the first time! ‘Back to the future’ supplement inside

Contents & contributers P 1/Cover Photo-assistant

P 4-5 reviews

Monsur

Lucy

Raelinah

Sheniz

Hussain

Bower

Marriott

Mehmet

P 6-7 Crossed wires

P 8-9 Alone with everybody

Sthefany

Abdul

John

Luna

Aroun

Sirret

P 10-11 Sundead

P 12-13 Agony

P 14 Gallery

Natasha

Raelinah

Clarissa

Natasha

Huynh Hoa

Minto

Marriott

Mae Maga

Minto

Tran

P 15 What’s happening?

P 16-17 Time starts now

P 18-19 Slim hopes

P 22 Poem

Joe

Abiola

Jennifer

Raelinah

Phillips

Bello

Adetoro

Marriott

The Bigger Shoe Box, Muswell Hill Centre, Hillfield Park N10 3QJ Tel: 020 8883 0260 Fax: 020 8883 2906 Mob: 0771 5642918 Email: info@exposure.org.uk Website: www.exposure.org.uk Regrettably our office is inaccessible to wheelchair users but we will make every effort to include your contributions

Andreas Koumi: Manager Gary Flavell: Editor Luke Pantelidou: Designer Flo Codjoe: Development Officer Max Sycamore: Video Editor Enrico Tessarin: Video Manager

Disclaimer Exposure aims to give young people an independent voice which can contribute to the democratic process.

While Exposure has done its best to check material contained within this publication, we cannot accept responsibility for inaccurate information provided by outside organisations. Organisations mentioned are not necessarily connected with nor endorsed by Exposure.

Permission has been sought, wherever possible, for the use of copyright material. Where contact has not been possible we hope that, as a voluntary organisation helping to educate and inform young people, it is acceptable for Exposure to use such material for the benefit of young people.

Issue 109 November 2011 If you’re a teenager (up to 25 if you have special needs) looking to have fun and gain hands-on experience in the media, you could definitely do with Exposure. It’s free. Come and get involved.

Editorial Natasha

Youthful thinking Don’t forget to ‘Like’ ExposureOrg on Facebook and follow @ExposureOrg on twitter

Minto It’s astonishing how much volunteering helps to improve someone’s life. It can help you to find the right path and can totally transform the way you think about your career. But I got more from being actively involved with Exposure than just becoming more employable.

Before I knew about it I was emotionally unstable after being bullied at school.

I couldn’t even introduce myself to people I didn’t know. But Exposure’s therapeutic environment and friendly atmosphere helped me to overcome this fear. I was encouraged and guided to become more confident, and I am now in my second year at university studying for a degree in Magazine Publishing.

So I’m especially happy when I hear that funders choose to support Exposure, as it means other people outside of the

Hornsey Parochial

project can see what I see. And it means that other young people will benefit from volunteering the way I have.

The Mayor of London agrees. We recently received £10,000 from Boris’s fund, ‘Team London’, to develop ‘Teen London’, a comedy sketch show featuring and written by the capital’s young people. The project starts in November, if you want to get involved call Max on 020 8883 0260 Other news sees Exposure team up with Enfield Youth Service to deliver projects in their borough – the first time that has happened in our 15 year history! Check out page 13 for more information on that. And remember to join Exposure’s Facebook page to keep up to date with other goings on. I’m pretty sure there’s some BIG news coming…

reviews

View these and all our videos at youtube.com/exposureuk

WHY by Gabriel Calderwood Why, a documentary by Gabriel Calderwood, is based on asking different people the simple question, “Why do you get up in the morning?� It is such a simple question but extremely hard to answer. Gabriel Calderwood asks several people, all around the same age, who are doing similar things like going to college or having part time jobs.

But the appeal of the film is found in the way each person reacts to the question. Their answers make you question your own life and what you fill your day with. This video is really interesting and makes you contemplate and reflect on why answering this question is so difficult. Lucy Bower

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Lucy

Raelinah Sheniz

LONELINESS by Abdul Aroun Abdul narrates his own animation about dealing with loneliness. The film delves into his struggle with bullying throughout his school life.

He describes his fear of bullying, and how he began to wonder if there was something wrong with the way he was.

He describes himself as feeling useless and unable to talk to people because of his lack of confidence. The tormenting at school forced him to stay within the comfort of his home. It got to a stage where his room was the only place he felt safe. Abdul is very open in his narration particularly in retelling tales of name-calling and of being singled out for being different. He also described at the end of the clip that he found something that he enjoys which helped to boost his confidence. Loneliness is a powerful film, and is brilliantly animated. It really tugs on the heart strings. Raelinah Marriott

STAND TALL by Ideal Stand Tall by north London rapper Ideal is an attempt to get an anti-violence message across to young people. This anti-knife crime video shows protest marches, and cuts in real life audio of speeches at a rally. It displays a prominent sign saying ‘Stand Tall’ throughout.

The talented young rapper clearly shows he wants peace on the streets and he will fight to get this. A part of the video shows someone shouting, “peace is your business, it is my business” which helps to make you feel that you can help to make a difference by standing tall against knife crime. Sheniz Mehmet

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Sthefany Luna - has feud things in common with her father I have always had a problem talking to my dad. I have always been scared of him. He was the stereotypical strict father who is loud, and wants everything done when he says. Nothing I did could ever be perfect in his eyes, there was always something wrong. His very presence made me feel uncomfortable, and I couldn’t be myself in front of him.

Just the thought of sharing a day with him stressed me out. Being with him for just a few minutes seemed like forever.

If the rest of the family had left the house I would spend time in my room or go out instead of being with him.

Sometimes I would think I was being cruel to him by leaving him on his own, but as soon as I started talking to him I couldn’t stand it.

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I rapidly got irritated and then furious.

We would start arguing. If my mum was there I knew I could count on her to calm him down if he was in the wrong. So I wasn’t so worried about it. Mum would do the hard work and things would be okay.

Panic! That was my first reaction when my mum told me she was leaving us and moving back home (we are originally from Ecuador). I was devastated. The idea of living alone with my dad... I didn’t know what to do. I was terrified.

I couldn’t even think about it. I wanted to move out, run away. My mum knew how I felt, but she made me promise that I wouldn’t leave him alone.

A month passed, and I regretted the promise I made to my mum. I argued with him every day, even though I was only with him a few hours at night.

Our rows weren’t about important issues or big problems. We could fight just because his coffee didn’t have the right

ossed

Sthefany

wires amount of sugar in it! Every day it was the same thing. I couldn’t do it any longer. I just wanted peace and to relax at home, to stay out of his way. But I couldn’t. His English is poor and he would need help

at the college.

I spoke to a counselor who gave me a different perspective of my situation. He talked about the lack of communication between us, but the conclusion I took

I know my dad loves me and cares about me, but from the session was that my father’s perwe just cannot connect with everything: phones, work, doctors, letters, anything... There wasn’t a way out!

Eventually I realised that I was stuck with him. We were stuck with each other.

I had to make the situation better. So instead of arguing about every little thing I just nodded, trying not to say anything.

It worked for a while. But it didn’t last.

When I was being quiet he wanted me to talk, if I was talking he wanted me to be quiet. So I thought carefully about the situation but there was nothing else I could think of to try so I asked for help

sonality and mine were too different.

I know my dad loves me and cares about me, but we just cannot connect, just like a lot of teenagers and their parents.

It hasn’t worked for me, but look for things that can connect you with your parent to help develop your relationship.

It might be a simple activity like cooking, or reading, any ordinary thing that gives you something to do together..

You have nothing to lose, maybe things won’t get better but they won’t get worse.

For advice on this or any other issue see the list of local services in the directory on p23

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Alone

Concept by John Sirret 8

Abdul

John

everybody with

Abdul Aroun battles loneliness Before walking into the classroom I felt fearful and nervous. I wanted to run back home. I knew I was going to face another day of hell. I knew people would be calling me names and taunting me, sniggering at how I spoke, mimicking my voice, making it sound ‘gay’, just as they had done before.

There were times when the namecalling turned into more serious verbal

them. I spent some days bunking off, running away from school. I would escape to the playing fields nearby and hide so the teachers wouldn’t find me.

When I left school at 16 I began to feel very lonely. I tried a number of college and training courses but couldn’t commit to anything. I was unable to cope with the work. All the bullying and bad experiences I’d been through meant I had very little confidence. I found it hard to talk to people. I built up a barrier. I felt useless. I was entering into depression.

It got to the point where I found it

It got to the point where I found it difficult to leave my house. I dreaded the way people would difficult to leave my house. I dreaded treat me. the way people would treat me. I feared abuse, insults and threats. Then it turned into physical bullying; people would sneak behind me and punch me in the back. The bruises always healed but the emotional scars lasted longer.

In PE, I wouldn’t bring my kit. It’s not that I couldn’t play football it’s just that I was self-conscious and scared of what the bullies would say if I made a mistake.

If someone picked a team, they would always pick me last. I ended up thinking there was something wrong with me.

There was always someone at school ready to make fun of me whatever I did. This was why I found it hard to express myself clearly. I tried to talk to the teachers about the bullying but they didn’t do much. The teacher would speak to the bullies but that never stopped

rejection. Staying at home became a comfort zone, albeit a lonely one. I became agoraphobic, afraid of going to unfamiliar places, or even just hanging out somewhere with other young people.

My mum was worried about me. She encouraged me to make friends, and once I was invited to a party and she encouraged me to go. But as soon as I got there I couldn’t cope and wanted to get out. I forced myself to stay but I sat down on the sofa and just stared at everyone, as I was too scared to speak.

I still struggle with loneliness, and I’m trying to overcome my fears by writing about them – Exposure has allowed me to express that. The process has helped me to become more open towards people.

For advice on this or any other issue see the list of local services in the directory on p23

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Natasha Minto gets melancholy over melanoma Why are so many young people exposing themselves to the very real risk of developing skin cancer just to get a tan?

According to Which? magazine 170,000 under-16s in the UK, some as young as 11, admit to using a sunbed at least once. And Cancer Research UK’s study shows more than 100 under 16s die every year from skin cancer as a result of the UV rays sunbeds expose them to.

Skin cancer is becoming more common in young people, and malignant melanoma – a rare and aggressive form of skin cancer – is frequently diagnosed in people who have used sunbeds. Cancer Research UK has found that the rates of

health and status.

And this feeds the idea that being pale isn’t attractive, especially among women: it seems many believe that tans look sexy.

And while people believe this there will always be those who ignore the risks.

Katie Price is an example of someone who maintains a ‘bronzed’ look, and admits to regularly using sunbeds. From a distance, many see her as a beautiful woman. But close up, the damage to her skin becomes apparent. Doctors, in a feature in Closer magazine last year, described how her face looks wrinkled in some places and frozen in others due to UV damage.

If you’re under 30, and regularly use sunbeds, you increase your risk of developing the cancer by 75% this cancer amongst 15 to 34-year-olds have tripled since the late 1970s.

According to the International Agency for Research on Cancer, if you’re under 30, and regularly use sunbeds, you increase your risk of developing the disease by 75%.

Yet young people seem to be in denial of the risk, as if they’re immune to ultra-violet (UV) rays, or perhaps they disregard any potential health problems because they’re so far in the future?

UV rays burn the skin and in turn cause premature ageing, meaning your skin becomes coarse, leathery and wrinkled at a much younger age. However, the damage may not show for fifteen years.

So when the tan fades, the damage remains.

Over a century ago, porcelain-white skin was all the rage for men and women, as it symbolised wealth and social status. By contrast, today possessing the ‘bronzed’ look is deemed fashionable and ‘beautiful’, giving the illusion of good 10

Price sparked outrage after publicly stating ‘we’ve all got to die of something’ after openly admitting that sunbeds are a part of her daily beauty regime. It’s celebrities like her, someone idolised by thousands of young females, who helps maintain the ignorance towards the dangers of sunbeds. And they are so accessible. Most high streets have tanning salons and sessions can be as cheap as £3, easily affordable for most young people.

The ironic thing is that physical beauty is superficial and changes or ‘gets worse’ as time passes. Prolonged use of sunbeds will see wrinkles and cracked skin show up at a younger age. And once you’re middle-aged, you’ll require further treatment, like botox, to look how you would do if you had never sat on a sunbed. Also eye damage and dry, blotchy skin are potential long-term consequences of extensive sunbed use.

So when time eventually catches up with you, the full effects of using sunbeds will show. It’s just not worth the risk,

For advice on this or any other issue see the list of local services in the directory on p23

Clarissa

Raelinah

Makeup by Clarissa Mae Maga & Raelinah Marriott

Natasha

especially when there are safer ways of acquiring a tan, including fake spray tans, which can be purchased cheaply on the high street.

Visit www.sunsmart.org.uk to know

more about the hazards of using sunbeds.

If you notice any abnormalities, such as ulcers forming around broken skin, or a sore that won’t heal, see your GP immediately.

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Gallery

Huynh Hoa

‘Inter extraction’ Digital illustration.

Photoshop

By Huynh Hoa Tran

Send your artwork to: Exposure, The Bigger Shoe Box, Muswell Hill Centre, Hillfield Park N10 3QJ or email: luke@exposure.org.uk.

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what’s

Joe

Words & photos by Joe Phillips

Exposure is moving into Enfield! After spending 15 years as a Haringey organisation, Exposure has signed a contract with Enfield Youth Service that will see us working on a youth regeneration project. We’ll help support young people that are not in education, employment and training. It also means that the magazine will be distributed directly to young people in Enfield for the first time. We should stress that Exposure will still be situated in Haringey and everything we currently offer to young people will continue as normal… even if Enfield Youth sSrvice see something in us that other youth services do not!

Exposure’s first order of business was filming a youth performing arts event called ‘The Regeneration Show’. It took place at the Millfield Theatre in Edmonton in late September. We went down with a video team who filmed the event, and we’re working with some of Enfield’s youngsters to edit the footage. We’re also filming another event at the end of the month in the borough, and we’re continuing to discuss with the Enfield Youth Service big wigs about how we can work together further in the future.

Watch this space.

An Enfield Council spokesperson said, “We’re keen to work with Exposure going forward and hope this is the start of a mutually beneficial relationship.”

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Written and Illustrated by Natasha Minto.

My girlfriend has just found out that she’s pregnant but is too scared to tell her parents. She’s 16 and isn’t sure if she wants to keep it. We’re feeling alone, scared and not sure what to do.

It is important that you try to get some support; think about telling your parents together. You should get some medical advice as soon as possible, the longer you wait the less options are available to you, see your GP or call Sexwise free on 0800 282 930 for confidential advice. Once you have the facts you could talk to a counsellor in an organisation such as Open Door to help you think through your choices together. It is good that you are talking to each other and whatever you decide your communication will continue to be important.

My friend has started hanging out with a group of people who are a bad influence on her. Since being with them, she’s begun drinking and taking drugs. I have tried persuading her to stop but she wont listen. I’m worried about her.

It’s painful to see someone you care about self-destruct. You’re left feeling powerless and even responsible for their wellbeing, which you are not. She’s fortunate to have a friend like you who is worried about her. All you can do is to continue to encourage her to think about what she’s doing to herself and why – perhaps she is using drink and drugs to get away from difficulties in her life. If you become really concerned about her safety you may need to speak to an adult. Organisations like Open Door or Insight Haringey are there for her when she’s ready to think about her situation or to help you manage your dilemma.

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Natasha

Open Door counselling service provides the answers to the problems featured in Agony.

Call them on 020 8348 5947, email enquiries@opendooronline.org or visit www.opendooronline.org

During a conversation, a friend openly admitted to attacking and mugging someone he didn’t know. He doesn’t appear to show any guilt and boasts about the kick he got out of doing it. I’m torn between my duty to my friend and the guilt of not saying anything to the police.

If someone has been attacked and hurt, you would need to report it to the police. If you can’t do that then tell a teacher or your parents. You could talk to your friend first and encourage them to report the crime themselves; they may be able to get some help with their behaviour.

This is also a time for you to think about your own values and beliefs, explore your own identity and the type of person you want to be, and the friends you want to be around.

You say you are torn so you are questioning your friendship and observing how different this friend’s beliefs are to yours. You can report a crime anonymously to Crimestoppers on 0800 555 111

Since discovering that I’m gay, my parents have been excluding me from family activities and avoid conversation. I hate myself, I wish I wasn’t like this, but I can’t help the way I feel.

In these times of same sex ‘marriage’, openly gay politicians and celebrities, it is easy to forget just how difficult ‘coming out’ can be. It can be shocking and deeply distressing to experience rejection by those we love. You, and your parents, are at the start of a difficult journey and one with which you will need support. The lesbian and gay switchboard is a good place to start www.llgs.org.uk.

Organisations like Pace and Open Door offer counselling to young people facing these issues and both have services for parents. You’re right – you cannot help the way you feel – but the most important thing is that you come to accept and hopefully enjoy who you are.

Everyone’s got problems see the Directory on page 23 for a list of support services.

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Abiola Bello examines exam pressure ‘You have to do well’, you tell yourself as you turn the first page of the exam paper.

Did I revise enough? What happens if I don’t pass? Would I be a failure? These questions drum through your head as you struggle with the first question.

Two weeks earlier your teachers were handing you masses of revision worksheets, encouraging you to keep working. It’s not like you’re a bad student, you listen well in lessons and

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you meet deadlines, however once exams start you panic.

There’s so much pressure placed on us, at such a young age, to get straight As. We’re made to feel that we’ll be letting teachers, parents and ourselves down if we don’t. If we fail we’ll never get to university, we’ll never get that job that we hope for.

A recent study by parentingteens.com showed that schoolwork caused ‘68% of all stress in teenagers across the UK’.

They also said that ‘only 17% asked for help and support’.

While young people are expected to cope with exam pressure, some are driven to depression and suicide. In March 2008 to April 2009 Childline received ‘many calls from 12 to 16 year olds’ who had mentioned suicidal thoughts when talking about exam stress. A Childline counselor stated in relation to exam stress, ‘It doesn’t matter where the feelings are coming from. The important thing is that they’re heard and taken seriously.

I feel that exam stress

For advice on this or any other issue see the list of local services in the directory on p23

Abiola

is caused by the high expectations from teachers and parents. These standards put unhelpful pressure on teenagers.

The Times newspaper reported that in the spring of this year Emily Weiss, a 14year-old girl from Mill Hill, north London hung herself due to her approaching exams. A friend of Emily’s said: ‘She had

become very depressed. It was coming up to exam time at school and I think it was all getting too much.’ This shows that the pressure needs to be reduced and the students taking the exams need to be able to speak to someone about any stress or anxiety they have.

An article on the BBC News website

Childline received ‘many calls from 12 to 16 year olds’ who had mentioned suicidal thoughts when talking shows that 72% of students in an average about exam stress

UK class hope to go to university.

Universities in 2011 require someone to be academic. Our most local university, Middlesex, expects you to have 6 A*-C grades at GSCE level that include Maths and English, and three A level or equivalent qualifications related to the course you want to do. Due to the demand for places the requirements to get into a decent university have been raised and GSCEs are becoming more important.

However some of the most successful and famous people in the world such as Mark Zuckerberg, creator of Facebook and Bill Gates, creator of Microsoft, did not go to university yet still made something of themselves.

How important is university anyway?

A journalist, Tim Ross who wrote for thisislondon.co.uk states ‘students were warned not to go to university in hope of a better-paid career’ and an article written

by Daniel Scocco on dailyblogtips.com, which was written by someone who owned their own business said ‘18 months ago I started working on the Internet with my own websites, I guess I have been using 5% of what I learned in the university, if that.’ Not going to university doesn’t mean you won’t get a job, so why have all this stress as a teenager. People can make a success of themselves without the stress of going to university, so why can’t you?

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Jennifer Adetoro slims down the facts on eating disorders It took Anna Wood a year for her eating disorder to kill her. It began when she joined her mum on a post-Christmas diet to shed a few pounds. But when her mother stopped dieting, Anna continued, and eventual anorexia took hold. The Daily Mail article said she was a ‘grade-A student, but developed an illness that she couldn’t control.’ When Anna passed away she weighed six and a half stone.

She died in hospital; her major organs failed her. She was 16.

Young women have an enormous amount of pressure to be perfect.

The media constantly toys with our minds, forcing ideas on how we should look, what we should wear and how thin we should be. Media influence is something that people are aware of, yet some teenagers don’t seem to realise the dangers, especially young women.

remove a bruise, or make lips fuller – all to make this fake ‘perfect’ image that girls want or are influenced by. A girl might try and gets this impossible body shape by starving herself, excessively exercising, calorie counting, throwing food up, and eventually become diagnosed with illnesses such as bulimia or anorexia.

It’s not just women; young men go through the same thing! They are pressured to have a muscular frame and influenced by adverts and commercials to be ‘well-built’. Website bulimia.com reported that around 10 15% of young men have eating disorders.

And 65% of young men who think they are overweight resort to unhealthy actions like smoking to help them slim down. Dr Harrison Pope, an expert in body image says, ‘Our society’s worship of muscularity may cause increasing numbers of men to develop pathological shame about their bodies.’ And, ‘Our observations have stimulated us to explore further links between cultural messages, body image disorders and use of steroids and other drugs.’

Four out of ten (girls) engage in unhealthy eating behaviours, such as anorexia or bulimia According to a survey conducted by Dove, ‘58% of girls describe themselves in negative terms, including words like ‘disgusting’ and ‘ugly’, when feeling badly about themselves’ and, ‘nearly four out of 10 engage in unhealthy eating behaviours, such as anorexia or bulimia.’

Jessica Weiner, global ambassador for the Dove Self-Esteem Fund said, ‘Girls today are exposed to more messages from Hollywood and the media than past generations which can impact their selfesteem.’ The media is one of the most powerful influences on young women.

We decide what we want to wear and form our image, by what celebrities look like.

Almost all of the images we see in glossy magazines are ‘photoshopped’. This means that they are edited to make the girls look as ‘beautiful’ as possible. They might skim off some fat on the hips, or

Celebrities are beginning to help raise awareness of this situation. Disney star Demi Lovato teamed up with Seventeen magazine to make a new movement called ‘Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect’, which aims to encourage young women to feel confident about their natrual looks.

I think that all girls know how it feels to be pressured to be this perfect ideal woman, no one is alone in that. But we need to focus our energy in learning how to feel confident and proud of the way we are. You are original and different, no one is ‘perfect’ and no one ever will be.

Don’t ever feel like you’re alone because girls are going through the same thing every day, and with the right mindset we can go through it together.

For advice on this or any other issue see the list of local services in the directory on p23

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By Sam Harison

MAKES YOU THINK ‘Mind Journeys’ is Exposure’s new exhibition that explores the issues of young people and mental health.

The work, which is on display at Bruce Castle Museum in Tottenham, is by young people who have been on their own ‘Mind Journey’. Their experiences with mental health problems helped influence the artistic styles on display, and there’s some amazing stuff.

Actor Derek Martin (most famous for playing ‘Charlie Slater’ in Eastenders) helped launch the exhibition.

“This exhibition is fantastic. The work is really impressive. We have to get rid of the stigma that people attach to mental illness. People must be made aware of this subject,” said Derek Martin.

Mind Journeys is running until 4th September 2011. You can visit daily between

1pm-5pm, and it’s completely free!

Call Bruce Castle Museum on 020 8808 8772 for more information.

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Sam

EASY MONEY! As a young person I often feel over looked by charities looking for money. It seems that if you’re under 18 donating cash is a difficult thing to do. Well JustTextGiving by Vodaphone has changed things up a bit.

JustTextGiving is a new scheme by Vodafone that allows anyone to donate to his or her favourite charity just by sending a text. There are no network charges for those making donations, so you don’t have to worry what percentage of your donation is reaching the charity.

From 25 May 2011, supporters of Exposure can make donations of up to £10, using this new scheme. To do this, just text EXPO01 and one of 1,2,3,4,5, or 10 to 70070.

Nearly everyone has a mobile phone these days, so it’s a brilliant way for charities like Exposure to raise money. It’s really fast, you can donate small amounts, it can be done on the spot, and there are no hidden charges.

THE RIGHT FIGHT! Muswell Hill Karate Academy has managed to raise £320 for the Japanese Red Cross responding to the recent earthquake and tsunami disaster in Japan. The Academy organised a special fundraising training event at the Muswell Hill Centre on 12 June, which was attended by over 50 people.

Children, as well as adults got a taste of martial arts self-defence. The instructors gave their time and expertise for free and all money raised went to straight to the Japanese Red Cross.

“As Karate originated from Japan we thought it was appropriate for us to help, and for young people to learn to be generous when a disaster of this magnitude occurs,” said Sensei Islam Berisha, Manager and Senior Instructor of the Academy.

Muswell Hill Karate Academy offers traditional Karate skills for children and adults.

For further information contact Sensei Islam Berisha on 020 8815 0117 or visit

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BROTHER Brother

Raelinah

by Raelinah Marriott

It’s funny how much you remember, Either the good or the bad, I remember blowing out the candles first, Oh, how that made you mad.

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WRK

I remember the days when in just one look, You’d know what was on my mind, You’d pull a face and make me laugh, Your efforts were extremely kind.

HER

I remember looking in the mirror, And seeing you in my eyes, I remember the day you fell, I remember seeing you cry.

MRHW DK

Even though you went in one direction, And I went in mine, You’ve supported me all the way, Whether it were the easy or the tough times.

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We’d sit together in silence for hours, Both enjoying the company of each other, I wouldn’t have to speak a word, For you would know everything, my brother.

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If you would like to see your poem published, please send it to editor@exposure.org.uk or post it to the address on page 2

www.shharingey.gov.uk Tel: 020 8442 6536 4YP Plus Contraception and Sexual Health Clinic Women Only Clinic - under 20s A confidential walk in service Thursdays 3:30pm-6:30pm Lordship Lane Primary Care Health Centre, 239 Lordship Lane, London N17 6AA 020 8365 5910 4YP Clinic St Ann’s Hospital St Ann’s Road, Tottenham N15 3TH (Walk in clinic) Tuesday 3:30pm-6:30pm 020 8442 6536 Teenage Pregnancy and Parenthood Team YPT Midwives Whittington Hospital 0778 532 6444/0778 533 5513 North Middlesex Hospital 020 8887 4055 For both hospitals: book early – it’s better for you and your baby Support for Teenage Mother/to be Family nurse partnership Tymouth Road Health Centre 24 Tynemouth N15 4Rh 020 8275 4035

Markfield Project Inclusive services for disabled and non-disabled young people Markfield Road, Tottenham 020 8800 4134

Hearthstone For people experiencing domestic violence 020 8888 5362 Victim Support Haringey Working for victims of crime 020 8888 9878 www.vslondon.org IAPT Help in overcoming anxiety and depression 1A Lansdowne Road Health Centre Lansdowne Road N17 0LL 020 8808 5833/ 0790 814 7656 Open Door counselling and psychotherapy for young people aged 12-25 12 Middle lane, N8 020 8348 5947 Shelterline Shelter’s free housing advice line 0808 800 4444

Insight For young people with drug or alcohol issues 020 8493 8525 Cosmic For the families of people with drug or alcohol issues 0800 38905257 www.haga. co.uk/children_and_family.htm

If your organisation would like to be included on this page please call 020 8883 0260

EMPLOYMENT & TRAINING VOLUNTEERING

DRUGS & ALCOHOL DISABILITIES

Young people’s sexual health services including dedicated clinic, drop-in sessions and the 4YP bus

020 7700 1323

CRIME/ABUSE

4YP Haringey

Teenage parents Drop in Triangle Children, young people comminity centre 91 – 93 St Ann’s Road N15 6NU Every Friday 1:00pm-4:00pm London Queer Youth Group 19 and under Tuesday 6pm to 8:30pm For people lesbian, gay, bixual, trans or think they might be.

MENTAL HEALTH

Muswell Hill Area Youth Project Muswell Hill Centre, Muswell Hill, N10 3QJ 020 8883 5855 Bruce Grove Area Youth Project 10 Bruce Grove, Tottenham 020 3224 1089 Wood Green Area Youth Project White Hart Lane Community Sports Centre 020 8489 8942 Broadwater Youth Club Structured sport-based programme Broadwater Community Centre, Tottenham 07870 15 7612

HOUSING

YOUTH CLUBS SEXUAL HEALTH &RELATIONSHIPS

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Directory Duke of Edinburgh’s Award Programme of personal development 020 8826 9393

KIS Training Helping young people into employment, education & enterprise 020 8275 4230 Harington Scheme Preparing young people with learning difficulties or disabilities for work 55a Cholmeley Park, Highgate www.harington.org.uk Connexions One-stop shop for young people 020 8881 7050 Drop-in centre: Wood Green Library, 2nd Floor High Road, London, N22 6XD 020 8489 5200 www.haringey.gov.uk/connexions First Rung Training, support and opportunities for young people 020 8803 4764 www.firstrung.org.uk Urban Futures Apprenticeships in Business Administration, Customer Services, and Retail 020 8352 5900 www.urbanfutures.org.uk /Apprenticeships

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