EMAILS CON ACTIVISTAS DE SRA/MK
A continuación comparto emails pidiendo ayuda a diferentes activistas de abuso ritual/control mental y sus respuestas.
Sé que suplantaron la identidad de Ellen Lacter, Jean Riseman y Sandra Buck. Probablemente nunca recibieron mis emails pidiendo ayuda o si los recibieron tal vez me suplantaron en los emails siguientes.
En mi opinión, las activistas Jeannete Archer y Anneke Lukas son personas puestas por la secta. Al igual que el grupo de apoyo de Grassroots RA/MC Collective llamado Cupps of Hope. Asistí a este grupo de apoyo online que me recomendó la supuesta Jean Riseman. Asistí desde Octubre hasta principios de Enero. En diciembre incluso Jean Riseman participó en una sesión del grupo, posteriormente miré una foto suya en internet y no se parecían en nada.
Todavía no he explicado qué hice durante el viaje a Reino Unido; intentar buscar ayuda mientras escapaba de la secta. De hotel en hotel, de apartamento en apartamento.
Llamando a ONGs, el 100% de las cuales resultaron estar controladas por “ellos”. Y leyendo libros relacionados con SRA y MK. A pesar del miedo, el principio del viaje fue un momento de esperanza para las personalidades, que empezaron a salir. Dió la casualidad de que Rans Forum en Dundee (Escocia) hacía una reunión, luego me enteré de que nunca habían hecho una antes. Resultó ser todo un engaño para sacarme fuera del país, borrar pruebas mientras estaba fuera y chantajearme a la vuelta.
Conocí a la fundadora de Rans Forum Laurie Mathew, ella misma me comentó un poco extrañada que nunca habían hecho algo así, no fue idea suya. Meses después de la visita que hice en octubre descubriría que el personal que trabaja con ella , Daisy, Shaun y Keiran, la controla. Intenté avisarla, la esperé varios días en la puerta de la oficina pero me fue imposible.
También busqué a Valerie Sinason en Londres sin éxito.
Hablaré de todo esto en cuanto pueda. Mientras tanto publico emails intercambiados con estas personas.
Asunto: RE: HELP
De: <ellenlacter@earthlink.net>
Fecha: 06/10/2023, 17:59
Para: "'EVA CELA'" <evarcela@gmail.com>
Dear Eva,
I cannot provide emergency support to people. I cannot form an opinion about the abuse that people report to me when they contact me by email. That is impossible clinically and legally very dangerous for me.
Please read this to better-understand what I do and to understand what I can and cannot do for people who contact me: https://endritualabuse.org/contact/
Unfortunately, I do not have any names of knowledgeable therapists in Spain. There are probably people there who can help you. I simply do not know who they are.
Here is a survivor support group that may be of help to you: https:// ritualabuse.wordpress.com/tag/cupp-of-hope-ra-mc-survivor-group/ I do not know if the meeting time will be practical for you in your time zone.
I am so sorry I cannot do more to help you.
Warmly, EL
From: EVA CELA <evarcela@gmail.com>
Sent: Friday, October 6, 2023 2:58 AM
To: rains@rains-home.org.uk
Cc: ellenlacter@earthlink.net
Subject: HELP
Hello, my name is Eva Rodriguez Cela, I am from Spain and I am in danger.
I am m trying to call your hotline at survivorstrust but I am afraid it does not work when calling from Spain. Could you give me another telephone number where I could call for advice please? I am thinking about visiting to your country, because I did not �ind a speci�ic help for ritual abuse survivors in Spain or other country in Europe. From the moment they know that I am sending this email, I will not be safe.
My spanish ID is 36984446D
My mobile number is +34 616046302
My address is:
Carrer Bellesguard, 17
Edi�ici Tramuntana 2B
08394 Sant Vicenç de Montalt
Barcelona Province - Spain
Sorry for my bad english.
I would like to ask you for advice, what could I do in order to be safe?
I send you details about my story in case something happens to me.
I have almost full amnesia from my childhood. From 16 years old onwards always told my psychologists that I was afraid I was abused by my father, who died when I was 14 years old. And that I had a strong fobia of snails, and that I was pretty sure this fobia was related to the abuse. They never gave me credit or information about it.
In 2019 after some incidents with snails (now I know they were settled) I did around 5 sessions of EMDR that helped me for not being so activated with fear for exposure with snails. Two years later looking for answers I managed to make a video of a snail while feeling the fear. Afterwards looking the video I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, it was someone else in my head and my body that was having a complete opposite reaction, a sexual arousal. My psychologist attended me in private. But was from Hospital Clinic from Barcelona, where I attended a psychiatrist from her team. Hospital Clinic is between the �irst or second best public Hospital in Spain. They were studying me instead of giving me a proper diagnosis, they have been lying to me for years.
I started to lose con�idence in my psychologist, talked to friends, and to my layer about this incident but everybody seemed to be synchronized. They seamed to be protecting one each other, giving me the same advices, protecting Hospital Clinic, as if people I knew for totally separate places, started to be connected. I did not understand what was going on, �ist I thought, they teamed up because they want to help me. I guess it was a protective way of thinking, I could not understand or accept what was happening. With time I understood, hey teamed up, did a lot of harassment that I could not understand then, a lot of people where involved, I went to Hospital Clı́nic in search for answers, I was there for 14 days, they did a completely delusional Report about me. Why? To prevent me from sue them? No, worse in order to make me look more mad than I was. To discredit me. Why? Months later I knew that all my environment where sharing information from me and manipulating me, and also started to ask Hospital Clı́nic about a study in which I signed up voluntarily because they asked me to, and asking them to stop studying me. I started to whatsapp people I knew asking for help, everybody was part of the manipulation, people started to make a lot of noise near my window all night long in a small street where nothing happens never, during the day my neighbor ringing my bell all the time. Now I know sleep deprivation, I was so scared, everybody seemed to be part of an organization around me. Some people like my new psychologist and other people told me to go to Hospital Clı́nic, I just could not think anymore, I was exhausted almost did not sleep in two days y went to Hospital Clinic to talk to somebody about the study they were doing in which I was involved. No one could attend me that day at the Hospital, why did people convinced me to go to Hospital Clinic?, as I went to the parking next to the Clinic my car wasn’t there (I had a copy of the key car in the entrance of my home), it’s a parking I have used many times for years and I always park in the same row of no more that 10 cars. The car was not there and the vigilant was not in his post. A man approached me, I knew he was not the vigilant, he looked and talked like a psychologist, he offered me to go with me to search the car in the parking, I
told him no, he started telling me several times “you should call your family”, “you should call your family”. I could not believe what he was saying. It has been 2 years since I did not talk to my mother and brother. I felt a lot of anger to them, I usually loose my temper with them, now I now is a mental part with dissociated rage that my owners knew to trigger very well through my family. Now I know how they do it and thanks to the book The Body Keep The Score from Bessel van der Kolk I started to integrate this part with rage. Now she is less extreme because we are more connected. “You should call your family meant”: we will not give you the car until you reconnect with your family. This meant my family was also part of this system. After I called my family the man told me to go to the vigilant post and I could ask him all the questions that I wanted. Will I be able to have a partner? And he told me “No”, I started to cry helplessly (it was not me it was a mental part) After that I lost conscience (did he hypnotized me or activated an alter?) I lost conscience until my family arrived and my car appeared where I left it. My problems were getting bigger and scarier. The next day after we met at the parking my family without advising me called the ambulance that took me to the Psychiatric Unit. It was all planned and staged. This time they made me stay 19 days without my permission. Inside the unit they put me people in order to trigger me. For example people with handbags from my former boss company. They wanted me to know it was them. One person walked through the hall wearing a clutch bag on the head almost every day. I �ilmed that. They also put me a continuous beeping noise in the room, noises like that make me not feel well. I could disconnect the device with a spoon. They did not like it, the next night four men nurses they took me out of my room at 1a.m. and changed me to a different room just for one night. It was hard not being triggered but they did not totally succeed. I have never been in a psychiatric Unit before. Just these two times in 2022 when they decided to discredit me.
Now I know that a former boss of mine is doing a reality teamed up with a group of psychologists. This boss contacted me in 2006 and offered me to work in their handbag company, I did not know who they were, a couple from the Barcelona elite which has strong ties with politics and publicity. But sure they knew who I was, a slave of the system that is why they offered me a job. I now their primary goal with me was destroying me for years trying to enhance my dissociative part with rage, trying to trigger it in different situations. By the time on 2021 I discovered that my psychologist and her team have been lying me for years, they where already teamed up with my former bosses. They were doing some kind of underground reality of my life. My dissociated rage part crying to my mother was the star of the freak-show. Things I know they say of me is that I am a pervert narcissist. I do not have proof about the reality, I haven’t seen it, I only know it by deductions from my everyday life and talking to people. This is why is important for Hospital Clinic and my former bosses to discredit me, because they made me a local famous and now I could prove the psychologist team lied to me for years for using me for their own agenda. It is important for them that everybody sees me as an aggressive person, not as a victim. actually the fact of considering me a victim they depict it as part of my narcissism.
My bosses couple names are:
Montse Tarre Pujol
Mario Coll Martori
Francis Tarre Pujol
Some psycologysts implicated are:
Carla Torrent Font
Roser Batalla
Marc Valentı́ Ribas
After searching about experiments and mental control I heard about MKUltra and ritual abuse recently, I understood this situation could be even worse. And started to understand that I have been subjected to a lot of manipulation though all of my life, and also stayed in a small group of people that are part of
this system.
After making a torture assessment list, some fobias and a strange childhood trauma event aroused, it is not a new memory but it just took meaning. Could it be part of a ritual abuse?
This are my fobias:
DROWNING: I can recall an incident when I was 3 or 4 years old. I was subjected to a near drowning experience. I remember being inside a toilet and two much older girls where drowning me in the toilet while asking me again and again “WHAT IS YOUR NAME!” “WHAT IS YOUR NAME!” there was fear but also one anecdotic moment in which I answered at them with de�iance “MI NAME IS COPA” Copa means glass of wine. My mother explained me this happened at the exit of school and she did not �ind me. Finally she found me in the toilets with the other girls, my face was red. The next day there was a reunion in the school, my mother told me I had bruises all over but I looked like I was okay. They changed me to my brothers school.
I had this fear from child but never associated it to the traumatic experience; when someone did some drowning joke in de sea or in a pool I panicked.
DEMONS: I cannot recall an incident when I was ritualistically possessed, harassed or controlled by demonic spirits. But I have a fobia with all things related with the demon, possessions. Some inner part panics with this things and can be very triggered for a long time at nights. After reading that the programmers use occult symbols like pentagram or goats. A month ago I went to a mountain village. The next morning just in front of my car there was a car painted black with a painting of a demonic �igure in the front, I saw a wooden pentagram �igure hanging in a door. I have pictures of that. When I came back from hiking in front of my car there was a little �ield with goats, they attracted my attention because the horns were almost as big as the body of the goat. I did not know goats are a trigger. I think “my owners” kind of enjoy staging things like that.
SNAILS: I cannot recall being subjected against your will to having physical contact with snakes, spiders, rats or some other disgusting creature but I have fobia of snails. An it is directly related to the sexual abuse. I still have vivid memories of the day that the fobia started. I would like to share it other day. I have no time now.
NOISES: especially loud and repeated, I know they use them to trigger me and I think it makes quite a reaction on me that I do not fully understand. I usually wear earphones in the street just in case I need them in order to avoid hearing conversations or noises that could be triggering.
If something happens to me would you denounce this please? As “my owners” are doing some kind of underground reality in Barcelona and maybe also in Spain with me I’m a local famous. I attach a �ile that people from Barcelona will understand. Later on today I will send you de password for security reasons.
Thank you very much for your help,
Eva
Asunto: from ra-info and GrassRoots
De: Jean Riseman <risemanjean@gmail.com>
Fecha: 07/10/2023, 2:41
Para: evarcela@gmail.com, river <grassrootsramccollec�ve@gmail.com>
Hello Eva,
I am Jean, ra-info is my website, and I am one of the co-founders of GrassRoots. I am cc'ing Rivers, who will add you to our mailing list and also to a list of people in Europe who want to have a group that meets at a be�er �me for them.
There are a couple of groups that meet earlier - Cozy Corner and Open Studio, but they do not meet weekly.
You are welcome to all the groups we run - and they are all free.
I am very sorry that you were abused as a child and once again as an adult by the people that you turned to for help. I think is very brave of you to keep trying to understand and find the truth. You have what is called resilience - the ability to keep going even though people are trying to stop you from learning the truth and ge�ng be�er.
Thank you for sharing so much. I do not have the �me to answer you in detail, but I can tell you I think you are on the right path - and that you are not delusional.
Also, I do not think you have a borderline or narcissis�c personality disorder. These diagnoses, along with bipolar, are o�en given to people who are dissocia�ve. That is, people who have parts inside and who would fit into the diagnosis of DID - dissocia�ve iden�ty disorder.
I think it would change things for you to be able to talk to others who are dissocia�ve. It might be overwhelming at first, or it might be a relief to be with people like you, people who understand.
Here is informa�on about our groups. h�ps://grassroots-ra-mc-collec�ve.org/events-2/
If you have ques�ons, write joanies and wildhorse at please contact the facilitators at cuppso�ope@gmail.com.
By mid-November, I will be closing my account with sonic.net. They will not forward email. Star�ng now, please use this address instead: risemanjean@gmail.com. Thanks!
On 2023-10-06 14:40, rahome@ra-info.org wrote:
There has been a submission of the form Contact Us through your concrete5 website.
Name Eva
Email Address evarcela@gmail.com
Message
Hello Jane,
My name is Eva, I am 43 years old and I am from Spain. Dr. Ellen Lacter recommended me your website. She told me that Cupp of hope survivor support group may be of help to me. Could I join it please?
Sorry for my bad english. I send you details about my story.
I have almost full amnesia from my childhood. From 16 years old onwards always told my psychologists that I was afraid I was abused by my father, who died when I was 14 years old. And that I had a strong fobia of snails, and that I was pre�y sure this fobia was related to the abuse. They never gave me credit or informa�on about it.
In 2019 a�er some incidents with snails (now I know they were se�led) I did around 5 sessions of EMDR that helped me for not being so ac�vated with fear for exposure with snails. Two years later looking for answers I managed to make a video of a snail while feeling the fear. A�erwards looking the video I couldn't believe what I was hearing, it was someone else in my head and my body that was having a complete opposite reac�on, a sexual arousal. My psychologist a�ended me in private. But was from Hospital Clinic from Barcelona, where I a�ended a psychiatrist from her team. Hospital Clinic is between the first or second best public Hospital in Spain. They were studying me instead of giving me a proper diagnosis, they have been lying to me for years.
I started to lose confidence in my psychologist, talked to friends, and to my layer about this incident but everybody seemed to be synchronized. They seamed to be protec�ng one each other, giving me the same advices, protec�ng Hospital Clinic, as if people I knew for totally separate places, started to be connected. I did not understand what was going on, fist I thought, they teamed up because they want to help me. I guess it was a protec�ve way of thinking, I could not understand or accept what was happening. With �me I understood, hey teamed up, did a lot of harassment that I could not understand then, a lot of people where involved, I went to Hospital Clínic in search for answers, I was there for 14 days, they did a completely delusional Report about me. Why? To prevent me from sue them? No, worse in order to make me look more mad than I was. To discredit me. Why? Months later I knew that all my environment where sharing informa�on from me and manipula�ng me, and also started to ask Hospital Clínic about a study in which I signed up voluntarily because they asked me to, and asking them to stop studying me. I
started to whatsapp people I knew asking for help, everybody was part of the manipula�on, people started to make a lot of noise near my window all night long in a small street where nothing happens never, during the day my neighbor ringing my bell all the �me. Now I know sleep depriva�on, I was so scared, everybody seemed to be part of an organiza�on around me. Some people like my new psychologist and other people told me to go to Hospital Clínic, I just could not think anymore, I was exhausted almost did not sleep in two days y went to Hospital Clinic to talk to somebody about the study they were doing in which I was involved. No one could a�end me that day at the Hospital, why did people convinced me to go to Hospital Clinic?, as I went to the parking next to the Clinic my car wasn't there (I had a copy of the key car in the entrance of my home), it's a parking I have used many �mes for years and I always park in the same row of no more that 10 cars. The car was not there and the vigilant was not in his post. A man approached me, I knew he was not the vigilant, he looked and talked like a psychologist, he offered me to go with me to search the car in the parking, I told him no, he started telling me several �mes "you should call your family", "you should call your family". I could not believe what he was saying. It has been 2 years since I did not talk to my mother and brother. I felt a lot of anger to them, I usually loose my temper with them, now I now is a mental part with dissociated rage that my owners knew to trigger very well through my family. Now I know how they do it and thanks to the book The Body Keep The Score from Bessel van der Kolk I started to integrate this part with rage. Now she is less extreme because we are more connected. "You should call your family meant": we will not give you the car un�l you reconnect with your family. This meant my family was also part of this system. A�er I called my family the man told me to go to the vigilant post and I could ask him all the ques�ons that I wanted. Will I be able to have a partner? And he told me "No", I started to cry helplessly (it was not me it was a mental part) A�er that I lost conscience (did he hypno�zed me or ac�vated an alter?) I lost conscience un�l my family arrived and my car appeared where I le� it. My problems were ge�ng bigger and scarier. The next day a�er we met at the parking my family without advising me called the ambulance that took me to the Psychiatric Unit. It was all planned and staged. This �me they made me stay 19 days without my permission. Inside the unit they put me people in order to trigger me. For example people with handbags from my former boss company. They wanted me to know it was them. One person walked through the hall wearing a clutch bag on the head almost every day. I filmed that. They also put me a con�nuous beeping noise in the room, noises like that make me not feel well. I could disconnect the device with a spoon. They did not like it, the next night four men nurses they took me out of my room at 1a.m. and changed me to a different room just for one night. It was hard not being triggered but they did not totally succeed. I have never been in a psychiatric Unit before. Just these two �mes in 2022 when they decided to discredit me.
Now I know that a former boss of mine is doing a reality teamed up with a group of psychologists. This boss contacted me in 2006 and offered me to work in their handbag company, I did not know who they were, a couple from the Barcelona elite which has strong �es with poli�cs and publicity. But sure they knew who I was, a slave of the system that is why they offered me a job. I now their primary goal with me was destroying me for years trying to enhance my dissocia�ve part with rage, trying to trigger it in different situa�ons. By the �me on 2021 I discovered that my psychologist and her team have been
lying me for years, they where already teamed up with my former bosses. They were doing some kind of underground reality of my life. My dissociated rage part crying to my mother was the star of the freak-show. Things I know they say of me is that I am a pervert narcissist. I do not have proof about the reality, I haven't seen it, I only know it by deduc�ons from my everyday life and talking to people. This is why is important for Hospital Clinic and my former bosses to discredit me, because they made me a local famous and now I could prove the psychologist team lied to me for years for using me for their own agenda. It is important for them that everybody sees me as an aggressive person, not as a vic�m. actually the fact of considering me a vic�m they depict it as part of my narcissism.
A�er searching about experiments and mental control I heard about MKUltra and ritual abuse recently, I understood this situa�on could be even worse. And started to understand that I have been subjected to a lot of manipula�on though all of my life, and also stayed in a small group of people that are part of this system.
A�er making a torture assessment list, some fobias and a strange childhood trauma event aroused, it is not a new memory but it just took meaning. Could it be part of a ritual abuse?
This are my fobias:
DROWNING: I can recall an incident when I was 3 or 4 years old. I was subjected to a near drowning experience. I remember being inside a toilet and two much older girls where drowning me in the toilet while asking me again and again "WHAT IS YOUR NAME!" "WHAT IS YOUR NAME!" there was fear but also one anecdo�c moment in which I answered at them with defiance "MI NAME IS COPA" Copa means glass of wine. My mother explained me this happened at the exit of school and she did not find me. Finally she found me in the toilets with the other girls, my face was red. The next day there was a reunion in the school, my mother told me I had bruises all over but I looked like I was okay. They changed me to my brothers school.
I had this fear from child but never associated it to the trauma�c experience; when someone did some drowning joke in de sea or in a pool I panicked.
DEMONS: I cannot recall an incident when I was ritualis�cally possessed, harassed or controlled by demonic spirits. But I have a fobia with all things related with the demon, possessions. Some inner part panics with this things and can be very triggered for a long �me at nights. A�er reading that the programmers use occult symbols like pentagram or goats. A month ago I went to a mountain village. The next morning just in front of my car there was a car painted black with a pain�ng of a demonic figure in the front, I saw a wooden pentagram figure hanging in a door. I have pictures of that. When I came back from hiking in front of my car there was a li�le field with goats, they a�racted my a�en�on because the horns were almost as big as the body of the goat. I did not know goats are a trigger. I think "my owners" kind of enjoy staging things like that.
SNAILS: I cannot recall being subjected against your will to having physical contact with snakes, spiders, rats or some other disgus�ng creature but I have fobia of snails. An it is directly related to the sexual abuse. I s�ll have vivid memories of the day that the fobia started. I would like to share it other day. I have no �me now.
NOISES: especially loud and repeated, I know they use them to trigger me and I think it makes quite a reac�on on me that I do not fully understand. I usually wear earphones in the street just in case I need them in order to avoid hearing conversa�ons or noises that could be triggering.
Just a clarifica�on, I was never diagnosed with Narcissist personality disorder. First they told me I had Borderline personality disorder, now they say just Cluster B. But I know they say I am a pervert narcissist in this underground "reality show" they are making about me. I read 2 books from Marie France Irigoyen and I am pre�y sure there is a Narcissis�c mental part in me. But I really think they are manipula�ng me to depict me as an evil person that mistreats her mother and who is always looking for trouble. And this is not true, now I know they put me in situa�ons, they create conflict and in�midate me for example through the insurance company, situa�ons that I cannot escape. I also use to receive calls when it gets dark in the a�ernoon some�mes overtly in�mida�ng. They create conflict especially with my family, this is also why im afraid they forced me to meet again with them.
Thank you very much for your help.
Kind regards,
Eva
Asunto: Re: HELP
De: Sandra Buck <rains@rains-home.org.uk>
Fecha: 13/10/2023, 17:06
Para: EVA CELA <evarcela@gmail.com>
Dear Eva,
I do not work for The Survivors Trust. This is a link to it.
Our Team thesurvivorstrust.org
I am part of a voluntary organisa�on called RAINS, and this is mainly about support for therapists working with survivors who have been ritually abused. I am a�aching a document that explains this.
Wishing you all the best on this journey.
Sandra, for RAINS
On 8 Oct 2023, at 17:25, EVA CELA <evarcela@gmail.com> wrote:
Hello Sandra,
Thanks for your email. Excuse me, are you from the survivorstrust.org?
Sorry I forgot to tell you that I sent you a document without password so I did not send a follow up email.
I am trying to contact organisa�ons in the UK, maybe I could travel and stay in a hotel, meet in person, maybe stay there for some �me un�l I know what to do. I did not find any organisa�on about ritual abuse closer than the UK. I do not know what would be safer, travelling or staying at home. I am surrounded by this Network of people that controls me, for example all my neighbours and my family. And people from this network follow me, listen to my calls, when I order something online most of the �me the boxes arrive opened, the merchandise is there, they just control what is inside. Now they know that I know about ritual abuse so I believe it is ge�ng more dangerous. They might use an excuse to enter me in a Psychiatric Unit and people around me will back up this excuse. They did that 2 �mes in 2022 when I started to figure out things about what was going on.
Ellen put me in contact with Jean Riseman from Grass Roots in California and she put me in contact with groups.
Thank you very much for your helt, best regards
Eva
El dom, 8 oct 2023 a las 13:37, Sandra Buck (< rains@rains-home.org.uk>) escribió: Dear Eva,
I am just le�ng you know that I have received your email, and read it fully. I have not had the follow up email that you referred to when you said you wanted to send me a password. I am not wri�ng anymore at the moment. Ellen has much more experience than I have.
I hope you are s�ll keeping well. I can see from what you write that you are doing your best. RAINS does not have a website.
Wishing you well, Sandra, for RAINS
On 6 Oct 2023, at 10:57, EVA CELA < evarcela@gmail.com> wrote: Hello, my name is Eva Rodriguez Cela, I am from Spain and I am in danger.
I am m trying to call your hotline at survivorstrust but I am afraid it does not work when calling from Spain. Could you give me another telephone number where I could call for advice please? I am thinking about visi�ng to your country, because I
From
moment they
that I am sending this email, I will not be safe.
My spanish ID is 36984446D
My mobile number is +34 616046302
My address is: Carrer Bellesguard, 17
Edifici Tramuntana 2B 08394 Sant Vicenç de Montalt Barcelona Province - Spain
Sorry for my bad english.
I would like to ask you for advice, what could I do in order to be safe?
I send you details about my story in case something happens to me.
I have almost full amnesia from my childhood. From 16 years old onwards always told my psychologists that I was afraid I was abused by my father, who died when I was 14 years old. And that I had a strong fobia of snails, and that I was pre�y sure this fobia was related to the abuse. They never gave me credit or informa�on about it.
In 2019 a�er some incidents with snails (now I know they were se�led) I did around 5 sessions of EMDR that helped me for not being so ac�vated with fear for exposure with snails. Two years later looking for answers I managed to make a video of a snail while feeling the fear. A�erwards looking the video I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, it was someone else in my head and my body that was having a complete opposite reac�on, a sexual arousal. My psychologist a�ended me in private. But was from Hospital Clinic from Barcelona, where I a�ended a psychiatrist from her team. Hospital Clinic is between the first or second best public Hospital in Spain. They were studying me instead of giving me a proper diagnosis, they have been lying to me for years.
I started to lose confidence in my psychologist, talked to friends, and to my layer about this incident but everybody seemed to be synchronized. They seamed to be protec�ng one each other, giving me the same advices, protec�ng Hospital Clinic, as if people I knew for totally separate places, started to be connected. I did not understand what was going on, fist I thought, they teamed up because they want to help me. I guess it was a protec�ve way of thinking, I could not understand or accept what was happening. With �me I understood, hey teamed up, did a lot of harassment that I could not understand then, a lot of people where involved, I went to Hospital Clínic in search for answers, I was there for 14 days, they did a completely delusional Report about me. Why? To prevent me from sue them? No, worse in order to make me look more mad than I was. To discredit me. Why? Months later I knew that all my environment where sharing informa�on from me and manipula�ng me, and also started to ask Hospital Clínic about a study in which I signed up voluntarily because they asked me to, and asking them to stop studying me. I started to whatsapp people I knew asking for help, everybody was part of the manipula�on, people started to make a lot of noise near my window all night long in a small street where nothing happens never, during the day my neighbor ringing my bell all the �me. Now I know sleep depriva�on, I was so scared, everybody seemed to be part of an organiza�on around me. Some people like my new psychologist and other people told me to go to Hospital Clínic, I just could not think anymore, I was exhausted almost did not sleep in two days y went to Hospital Clinic to talk to somebody about the study they were doing in which I was involved. No one could a�end me that day at the Hospital, why did people convinced me to go to Hospital Clinic?, as I went to the parking next to the Clinic my car wasn’t there (I had a copy of the key car in the entrance of my home), it’s a parking I have used many �mes for years and I always park in the same row of no more that 10 cars. The car was not there and the vigilant was not in his post. A man approached me, I knew he was not the vigilant, he looked and talked like a psychologist, he offered me to go with me to search the car in the parking, I told him no, he started telling me several �mes “you should call your family”, “you should call your family”. I could not believe what he was saying. It has been 2 years since I did not talk to my mother and brother. I felt a lot of anger to them, I usually loose my temper with them, now I now is a mental part with dissociated rage that my owners knew to trigger very well through my family. Now I know how they do it and thanks to the book The Body Keep The Score from Bessel van der Kolk I started to integrate this part with rage. Now she is less extreme because we are more connected. “You should call your family meant”: we will not give you the car un�l you reconnect with your family. This meant my family was also part of this system. A�er I called my family the man told me to go to the vigilant post and I could ask him all the ques�ons that I wanted. Will I be able to have a partner? And he told me “No”, I started to cry helplessly (it was not me it was a mental part) A�er that I lost conscience (did he hypno�zed me or ac�vated an alter?) I lost conscience un�l my family arrived and my car appeared where I le� it. My problems were ge�ng bigger and scarier. The next day a�er we met at the parking my family without advising me called the ambulance that took me to the Psychiatric Unit. It was all planned and staged. This �me they made me stay 19 days without my permission. Inside the unit they put me people in order to trigger me. For example people with handbags from my former boss company. They wanted me to know it was them. One person walked through the hall wearing a clutch bag on the head almost every day. I filmed that. They also put me a con�nuous beeping noise in the room, noises like that make me not feel well. I could disconnect the device with a spoon. They did not like it, the next night four men nurses they took me out of my room at 1a.m. and changed me to a different room just for one night. It was hard not being triggered but they did not totally succeed. I have never been in a psychiatric Unit before. Just these two �mes in 2022 when they decided to discredit me.
Now I know that a former boss of mine is doing a reality teamed up with a group of psychologists. This boss contacted me in 2006 and offered me to work in their handbag company, I did not know who they were, a couple from the Barcelona elite which has strong �es with poli�cs and publicity. But sure they knew who I was, a slave of the system that is why they offered me a job. I now their primary goal with me was destroying me for years trying to enhance my dissocia�ve part with rage, trying to trigger it in different situa�ons. By the �me on 2021 I discovered that my psychologist and her team have been lying me for years, they where already teamed up with my former bosses. They were doing some kind of underground reality of my life. My dissociated rage part crying to my mother was the star of the freak-show. Things I know they say of me is that I am a pervert narcissist. I do not have proof about the reality, I haven’t seen it, I only know it by deduc�ons from my everyday life and talking to people. This is why is important for Hospital Clinic and my former bosses to discredit me, because they made me a local famous and now I could prove the psychologist team lied to me for years for using me for their own agenda. It is important for them that everybody sees me as an aggressive person, not as a vic�m. actually the fact of considering me a vic�m they depict it as part of my narcissism.
My bosses couple names are:
Montse Tarré Pujol
Mario Coll Martori
Francis Tarré Pujol
Some psycologysts implicated are:
Carla Torrent Font
Roser Batalla
Marc Valen� Ribas
A�er searching about experiments and mental control I heard about MKUltra and ritual abuse recently, I understood this situa�on could be even worse. And started to understand that I have been subjected to a lot of manipula�on though all of my life, and also stayed in a small group of people that are part of this system.
A�er making a torture assessment list, some fobias and a strange childhood trauma event aroused, it is not a new memory but it just took meaning. Could it be part of a ritual abuse?
This are my fobias:
DROWNING: I can recall an incident when I was 3 or 4 years old. I was subjected to a near drowning experience. I remember being inside a toilet and two much older girls where drowning me in the toilet while asking me again and again “WHAT IS YOUR NAME!” “WHAT IS YOUR NAME!” there was fear but also one anecdo�c moment in which I answered at them with defiance “MI NAME IS COPA” Copa means glass of wine. My mother explained me this happened at the exit of school and she did not find me. Finally she found me in the toilets with the other girls, my face was red. The next day there was a reunion in the school, my mother told me I had bruises all over but I looked like I was okay. They changed me to my brothers school.
I had this fear from child but never associated it to the trauma�c experience; when someone did some drowning joke in de sea or in a pool I panicked.
DEMONS: I cannot recall an incident when I was ritualis�cally possessed, harassed or controlled by demonic spirits. But I have a fobia with all things related with the demon, possessions. Some inner part panics with this things and can be very triggered for a long �me at nights. A�er reading that the programmers use occult symbols like pentagram or goats. A month ago I went to a mountain village. The next morning just in front of my car there was a car painted black with a pain�ng of a demonic figure in the front, I saw a wooden pentagram figure hanging in a door. I have pictures of that. When I came back from hiking in front of my car there was a li�le field with goats, they a�racted my a�en�on because the horns were almost as big as the body of the goat. I did not know goats are a trigger. I think “my owners” kind of enjoy staging things like that.
SNAILS: I cannot recall being subjected against your will to having physical contact with snakes, spiders, rats or some other disgus�ng creature but I have fobia of snails. An it is directly related to the sexual abuse. I s�ll have vivid memories of the day that the fobia started. I would like to share it other day. I have no �me now.
NOISES: especially loud and repeated, I know they use them to trigger me and I think it makes quite a reac�on on me that I do not fully understand. I usually wear earphones in the street just in case I need them in order to avoid hearing conversa�ons or noises that could be triggering.
If something happens to me would you denounce this please? As “my owners” are doing some kind of underground reality in Barcelona and maybe also in Spain with me I’m a local famous. I a�ach a file that people from Barcelona will understand. Later on today I will send you de password for security reasons.
Thank you very much for your help,
Eva <ESCRITO 3 EVA RODRIGUEZ.pdf>
Adjuntos:
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Asunto: Re: Missed Cozy Corner
De: CUPPS OF HOPE <cuppso�ope@gmail.com>
Fecha: 29/10/2023, 16:00
Para: EVA CELA <evarcela@gmail.com>
Hi Eva,
You con�nue to be so brave to fight for your freedom...You so deserve your freedom...Thank you for keeping us updated... Know we are here cheering you on... We hope to see you soon..Please rest and take good care of all of yous.....joanies and wildhorse
On Sun, Oct 29, 2023 at 6:58 AM EVA CELA < evarcela@gmail.com> wrote: Hi Joanies and Wildhorse,
I hope you are well. I arrived yesterday in Dundee, I am ok. Tomorrow I am mee�ng with rans.org.uk, I missed the plane on friday so finally I arrived on Saturday a�ernoon. unfortunately I missed Cozy Corner because I thought it was on Sunday and I was so �red when I arrived that I did not check the email. I just want you to know I am ok. See you on Monday.
Best Regards, Eva
Enviado desde mi iPhone
Asunto: Re: Form Submission - Contact Me Form - APPLICATION FOR SRA GROUP
De: Admin <Admin@annekelucas.com>
Fecha: 16/11/2023, 18:30
Para: evarcela@gmail.com
Hi Eva,
I just sent you a message on Wire. Once I hear back from you I'll add you to the group. Anneke
On Mon, Nov 6, 2023 at 6:56 AM Squarespace < form-submission@squarespace.info > wrote:
Sent via form submission from Anneke Lucas
Name: Eva Rodriguez
Email: evarcela@gmail.com
Subject: APPLICATION FOR SRA GROUP
Message: Hello, I would like to be part of your SRA group. I tried to contact you through Wire a couple of days ago. I am a woman of 43 years old from Spain. I is been a couple of months that I realised I am an SRA survivor, and that this is why there is a network in Spain that harass me and controls every aspect of my life. At the moment I am in Dundee Scotland for some days visi�ng rans.org.uk, escaping from harassment and looking for advice. I would like to be part of your SRA survivor group, for sharing experiences, understand a bit more what goes on inside me and outside. If you need more informa�on about my story please ask me anything you like. Thanks & Regards Eva
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De: EVA CELA <evarcela@gmail.com>
Fecha: 06/10/2023, 11:57
Para: rains@rains-home.org.uk
CC: ellenlacter@earthlink.net
Hello, my name is Eva Rodriguez Cela, I am from Spain and I am in danger.
I am m trying to call your hotline at survivorstrust but I am afraid it does not work when calling from Spain. Could you give me another telephone number where I could call for advice please? I am thinking about visi�ng to your country, because I did not find a specific help for ritual abuse survivors in Spain or other country in Europe. From the moment they know that I am sending this email, I will not be safe.
My spanish ID is 36984446D
My mobile number is +34 616046302
My address is:
Carrer Bellesguard, 17 Edifici Tramuntana 2B 08394 Sant Vicenç de Montalt Barcelona Province - Spain
Sorry for my bad english.
I would like to ask you for advice, what could I do in order to be safe?
I send you details about my story in case something happens to me.
I have almost full amnesia from my childhood. From 16 years old onwards always told my psychologists that I was afraid I was abused by my father, who died when I was 14 years old. And that I had a strong fobia of snails, and that I was pre�y sure this fobia was related to the abuse. They never gave me credit or informa�on about it.
In 2019 a�er some incidents with snails (now I know they were se�led) I did around 5 sessions of EMDR that helped me for not being so ac�vated with fear for exposure with snails. Two years later looking for answers I managed to make a video of a snail while feeling the fear. A�erwards looking the video I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, it was someone else in my head and my body that was having a complete opposite reac�on, a sexual arousal. My psychologist a�ended me in private. But was from Hospital Clinic from Barcelona, where I a�ended a psychiatrist from her team. Hospital Clinic is between the first or second best public Hospital in Spain. They were studying me instead of giving me a proper diagnosis, they have been lying to me for years.
I started to lose confidence in my psychologist, talked to friends, and to my layer about this incident but everybody seemed to be synchronized. They seamed to be protec�ng one each other, giving me the same advices, protec�ng Hospital Clinic, as if people I knew for totally separate places, started to be connected. I did not understand what was going on, fist I thought, they teamed up because they want to help me. I guess it was a protec�ve way of thinking, I could not understand or accept what was happening. With �me I understood, hey teamed up, did a lot of harassment that I could not understand then, a lot of people where involved, I went to Hospital Clínic in search for answers, I was there for 14 days, they did a completely delusional Report about me. Why? To prevent me from sue them? No, worse in order to make me look more mad than I was. To discredit me. Why? Months later I knew that all my environment where sharing informa�on from me and manipula�ng me, and also started to ask Hospital Clínic about a study in which I signed up voluntarily because they asked me to, and asking them to stop studying me. I started to whatsapp people I knew asking for help, everybody was part of the manipula�on, people started to make a lot of noise near my window all night long in a small street where nothing happens never, during the day my neighbor ringing my bell all the �me. Now I know sleep depriva�on, I was so scared, everybody seemed to be part of an organiza�on around me. Some people like my new psychologist and other people told me to go to Hospital Clínic, I just could not think anymore, I was exhausted almost did not sleep in two days y went to Hospital Clinic to talk to somebody about the study they were doing in which I was involved. No one could a�end me that day at the Hospital, why did people convinced me to go to Hospital Clinic?, as I went to the parking next to the Clinic my car wasn’t there (I had a copy of the key car in the entrance of my home), it’s a parking I have used many �mes for years and I always park in the same row of no more that 10 cars. The car was not there and the vigilant was not in his post. A man approached me, I knew he was not the vigilant, he looked and talked like a psychologist, he offered me to go with me to search the car in the parking, I told him no, he started telling me several �mes “you should call your family”, “you should call your family”. I could not believe what he was saying. It has been 2 years since I did not talk to my mother and brother. I felt a lot of anger to them, I usually loose my temper with them, now I now is a mental part with dissociated rage that my owners knew to trigger very well through my family. Now I know how they do it and thanks to the book The Body Keep The Score from Bessel van der Kolk I started to integrate this part with rage. Now she is less extreme because we are more connected. “You should call your family meant”: we will not give you the car un�l you reconnect with your family. This meant my family was also part of this system. A�er I called my family the man told me to go to the vigilant post and I could ask him all the ques�ons that I wanted. Will I be able to have a partner? And he told me “No”, I started to cry helplessly (it was not
me it was a mental part) A�er that I lost conscience (did he hypno�zed me or ac�vated an alter?) I lost conscience un�l my family arrived and my car appeared where I le� it. My problems were ge�ng bigger and scarier. The next day a�er we met at the parking my family without advising me called the ambulance that took me to the Psychiatric Unit. It was all planned and staged. This �me they made me stay 19 days without my permission. Inside the unit they put me people in order to trigger me. For example people with handbags from my former boss company. They wanted me to know it was them. One person walked through the hall wearing a clutch bag on the head almost every day. I filmed that. They also put me a con�nuous beeping noise in the room, noises like that make me not feel well. I could disconnect the device with a spoon. They did not like it, the next night four men nurses they took me out of my room at 1a.m. and changed me to a different room just for one night. It was hard not being triggered but they did not totally succeed. I have never been in a psychiatric Unit before. Just these two �mes in 2022 when they decided to discredit me.
Now I know that a former boss of mine is doing a reality teamed up with a group of psychologists. This boss contacted me in 2006 and offered me to work in their handbag company, I did not know who they were, a couple from the Barcelona elite which has strong �es with poli�cs and publicity. But sure they knew who I was, a slave of the system that is why they offered me a job. I now their primary goal with me was destroying me for years trying to enhance my dissocia�ve part with rage, trying to trigger it in different situa�ons. By the �me on 2021 I discovered that my psychologist and her team have been lying me for years, they where already teamed up with my former bosses. They were doing some kind of underground reality of my life. My dissociated rage part crying to my mother was the star of the freak-show. Things I know they say of me is that I am a pervert narcissist. I do not have proof about the reality, I haven’t seen it, I only know it by deduc�ons from my everyday life and talking to people. This is why is important for Hospital Clinic and my former bosses to discredit me, because they made me a local famous and now I could prove the psychologist team lied to me for years for using me for their own agenda. It is important for them that everybody sees me as an aggressive person, not as a vic�m. actually the fact of considering me a vic�m they depict it as part of my narcissism.
My bosses couple names are:
Montse Tarré Pujol
Mario Coll Martori
Francis Tarré Pujol
Some psycologysts implicated are:
Carla Torrent Font
Roser Batalla
Marc Valen� Ribas
A�er searching about experiments and mental control I heard about MKUltra and ritual abuse recently, I understood this situa�on could be even worse. And started to understand that I have been subjected to a lot of manipula�on though all of my life, and also stayed in a small group of people that are part of this system.
A�er making a torture assessment list, some fobias and a strange childhood trauma event aroused, it is not a new memory but it just took meaning. Could it be part of a ritual abuse?
This are my fobias:
DROWNING: I can recall an incident when I was 3 or 4 years old. I was subjected to a near drowning experience. I remember being inside a toilet and two much older girls where drowning me in the toilet while asking me again and again “WHAT IS YOUR NAME!” “WHAT IS YOUR NAME!” there was fear but also one anecdo�c moment in which I answered at them with defiance “MI NAME IS COPA” Copa means glass of wine. My mother explained me this happened at the exit of school and she did not find me. Finally she found me in the toilets with the other girls, my face was red. The next day there was a reunion in the school, my mother told me I had bruises all over but I looked like I was okay. They changed me to my brothers school.
I had this fear from child but never associated it to the trauma�c experience; when someone did some drowning joke in de sea or in a pool I panicked.
DEMONS: I cannot recall an incident when I was ritualis�cally possessed, harassed or controlled by demonic spirits. But I have a fobia with all things related with the demon, possessions. Some inner part panics with this things and can be very triggered for a long �me at nights. A�er reading that the programmers use occult symbols like pentagram or goats. A month ago I went to a mountain village. The next morning just in front of my car there was a car painted black with a pain�ng of a demonic figure in the front, I saw a wooden pentagram figure hanging in a door. I have pictures of that. When I came back from hiking in front of my car there was a li�le field with goats, they a�racted my a�en�on because the horns were almost as big as the body of the goat. I did not know goats are a trigger. I think “my owners” kind of enjoy staging things like that.
SNAILS: I cannot recall being subjected against your will to having physical contact with snakes, spiders, rats or some other disgus�ng creature but I have fobia of snails. An it is directly related to the sexual abuse. I s�ll have vivid memories of the day that the fobia started. I would like to share it other day. I have no �me now.
NOISES: especially loud and repeated, I know they use them to trigger me and I think it makes quite a reac�on on me that I do not fully understand. I usually wear earphones in the street just in case I need them in order to avoid hearing conversa�ons or noises that could be triggering.
If something happens to me would you denounce this please? As “my owners” are doing some kind of underground reality in Barcelona and maybe also in Spain with me I’m a local famous. I a�ach a file that people from Barcelona will understand. Later on today I will send you de password for security reasons.
Thank you very much for your help,
Eva Adjuntos:
Asunto: more inform�ona for you Eva..
De: CUPPS OF HOPE <cuppso�ope@gmail.com>
Fecha: 24/10/2023, 16:45
Para: Eva Rodriguez Cela <evarcela@gmail.com>
I'm sorry Eva I did not include all I meant to for you... Jeanette is in the UK ..joanies
Jeanette - Jeanette.21@live.co.uk
Her facebook page also Supporting survivors of SRA.
There is a backup of this called Supporting SRA Survivors BACK UP (FB page)
Asunto: email of person Julia shared about last night
De: CUPPS OF HOPE <cuppso�ope@gmail.com>
Fecha: 24/10/2023, 16:38
Para: Eva Rodriguez Cela <evarcela@gmail.com>
Hi Eva,
Here is the address that Julia wanted you to have for Jeanette who is in the United Kingdom....j and wh
Jeanette.21@live.co.uk email
Asunto: Re: Did you receive my email?
De: jeane�e archer <jeane�e.21@live.co.uk>
Fecha: 31/10/2023, 12:37
Para: EVA RODRIGUEZ CELA <evarcela@gmail.com>
Hi
Yes I am ge�ng your emails. I’ve not managed to read the first one properly yet. I’m having to preserve all energy at the moment as I’m going through some really hard stuff. I will get back to asap
Jeane�e x
Sent from my iPhone
On 31 Oct 2023, at 09:00, EVA RODRIGUEZ CELA <evarcela@gmail.com> wrote:
Hello Jeanne�e,
Sorry to bother, I would just like to know if you received my email from october 24th.
I understand if you cannot give me assistance. But I would appreciate if you could let me know you received my email. Because there is people that control my emails, I am not sure if you received it or not.
At the moment I am in Dundee, I am in contact with rans.org.uk
Best Regards,
Eva
Asunto: Re: Did you receive my email?
De: Jeane�e Archer <jeane�e.21@live.co.uk>
Fecha: 21/08/2024, 10:08
Para: EVA RODRIGUEZ CELA <evarcela@gmail.com>
Dear Eva,
I am sorting through my emails and I have just found this. I am so truly sorry for not responding sooner. I do receive so many emails that sometimes a few get overlooked. I am wondering how you are?
I do offer one to one psychic readings and psychic healing therapy so, I can help you in this way if you wish.
I have also got a website now with trusted therapist and SRA info.
I will put the link here.
Home - Exposing Satanic Ritual Abuse
I have a Facebook and telegram group for SRA survivors too. Let me know if you would like the links for them also.
Again, I am truly sorry for not getting back to you sooner and I really hope thigs have improved for you
Much love
Re: Did you receive my email?
From: EVA RODRIGUEZ CELA <evarcela@gmail.com>
Sent: 31 October 2023 09:00
To: Jeane�e.21@live.co.uk <Jeane�e.21@live.co.uk>
Subject: Did you receive my email?
Hello Jeanne�e,
Sorry to bother, I would just like to know if you received my email from october 24th.
I understand if you cannot give me assistance. But I would appreciate if you could let me know you received my email. Because there is people that control my emails, I am not sure if you received it or not.
At the moment I am in Dundee, I am in contact with rans.org.uk
Best Regards,
Eva
No utilicen esta lista de páginas web como referencia para informarse sobre abuso ritual y contol mental, porque varias de estas webs son falsas, lo explicaré en otro momento