Ethan Thurston

I Don’t Want to Dream Anymore

Ethan Thurston

I dreamt we were together Holding you in my arms And being held in yours We whispered inside jokes And smiled so much I forgot my face hurt Looking into your eyes And seeing pure happiness

I woke up And remembered the truth I’m Alone And you don’t exist I tried to recall your face But I’m not sure you had one You didn’t need one You weren’t a person But an idea

Later I dreamt a different dream Digging through glass for something I could never find Looking at my damaged hands And picking out the shards from my fingers Enjoying the pain Because it can’t compare to what I felt When I lost you forever

I don’t know your name It’s been days And still, I miss you

I don’t think I’ll ever stop Tonight I’ll go to sleep And hope I don’t have to lose you again